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21,June,2004
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*AXN CHANNEL VOICE-OVER* 'Welcome and infiltrate the world of high-stakes bingo...' Good idea kaya yon for a new reality show? Last Sunday, dad and I decided to do some father-daughter bonding... so for our quality time, we went to go to this benefit BINGO event in World Trade Center in Roxas (UP Med was the beneficiary). Last week, dad saw this poster in Manila Doctor's hospital advertising the bingo thingie... Aba, Php100,000 at LEAST ang prize per game? Very interesting. Dad wanted to see how the bingo thing was done, so he could get ideas for a fund raiser. The poster read: P2 MILLION MUST GO! Aba, nagtataka kami. Dad was channeling his inner MBA at nagcocompute na siya sa brain niya, where did the P2-M come from? How many P1,000 tickets should be sold para bumawi and to cover the prizes, and still get enough profit. Nagulat ako when we walked towards WTC (at kagad may isang scalper na lumapit para magbenta ng ticket less P50 pesos). The parking lot was more than full and a lot of people were outside. We bought a ticket... which includes: - 8 sheets/pages (1 sheet one game) of bingo cards. With one page=one game. And the sheet was divided into 4 separate bingo cards. -A stub for a sandwich and a can of soda (serious bingo players need all the sustenance they can get). -A stub for free entrance to Casino Filipino -Free dauber(?). I'm not sure of the spelling. But in bingo parlance, it's the pen-thingie which does the colored dotting thing on the bingo cards. Di na pala uso yung nagpapatong ng butong-pakwan sa mga numbers. The bingo pala was being held by PAGCOR, kaya naman pala kaya nila mag-mount ng bingo of this size! So dad and I entered tapos WHOOOOOOOOOOSH! Parang blast of dizzy. Nothing in my life had prepared me for this moment. The whole WTC exhibit hall was full of people. Hundreds of tables... Amidst the tables were high chairs like they use to referee tennis matches, with somebody assigned to spot the people shouting Bingo! A stage in the middle with a large screen and a big streamer saying 'IT'S YOUR RESPONSIBILITY TO SHOUT BINGO'... and Pepe Pimentel. (But of course, who else). Dad left me by myself for awhile as I inserted my self into this group of friendly-looking people. Mukhang family sila. The dad was on my left and the mom on my right. Tinuruan nila ako kasi di ko maintindihan yung mga patterns for each game. Crazy T, 4-Leaf Clover, 2 Floating Stamps, 3- Layer Cake. Aba, may mga tawag talaga dun sa mga patterns.Ang tagal tagal ko nang hindi naglalaro ng bingo. I bet standard na 'to sa mga mall bingos! Whenever someone would shout BINGO, the tennis-referee-like guys would blow their whistles and a fire-alarm bell would ring. Collective groaning all around, and guffaws shempre pag false alarm pala yon, bwahahahahah! Printed on the bingo card sheets pala are numbers. So the referee-guys would just relay the numbers to the stage guys, and lalabas yung game card sa screen. Verified kagad if nabuo talaga yung pattern or not. Sobrang hi-tech na pala ang bingo ngayon. Later on dumating si Benj to help me hehehe. Benj it turns out, is a Bingo Virgin. He has a vague idea of how a game works, and has never ever played it before. I let him do the dotting-thingie on one game para ma-'empower' siya. Hehehe. His interesting questions: 1)Bakit hindi naka-arrange in increasing numbers, for example, all the letters under B in a card?-->Nasagot din naman ni Benj kagad to by himself. 2)Kung nasa database naman yung itsura ng winning card, why don't they just announce na may nanalo na? -->Answers: a)May mga absent-minded na hindi nila alam na bingo na sila, so more chances of winning! b)If they did that,eh di parang raffle na yun. Mas may thrill sumigaw ng bingo! c)Mas may laugh trip pag may mga false alarm. Speaking of false alarms, may isang nag bad bingo, and then you could see on the screen na hindi talaga mukhang arrow pattern yung nasa bingo card niya. I heard someone exclaim 'Ang layo naman non!' The prize for the last game was P1-million pesos. Nung innanounce na ni Pepe that it was the last chance to win P1-M, the WTC crowd erupted in a roar of table-thumping. Ang galeng! Parang partly yung dinner scene ng mga orphans sa 'Oliver!', and partly an amalgamation of all those battle movies na kailangan ng war cry. Exciting! (Natatawa lang ata si Benj) In the end, we didn't win anything, hehehe. Pero it was a unique experience nonetheless. :)
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17,June,2004
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Had lunch today with Bokyang, Dennis, Steph and Sara at Bento Box in Makati. We walked Sara home to her condo. When we left the condo... aba! There was a discarded condom on the ground sa street! Ngee! It was beige and I thought at first baka great big pile(?) of snot yun! Hindi pala! I didn't dare take a look if it was used or not. We had theories about the thing... maybe it was flung off from one of the many condo(m) units in Salcedo, in a fit of passion. And the guy was probably the old-fashioned type, kasi daw beige yun and had no design. Oh well. *cringe* Later, we tried to go to San Juan because we were supposed to take a look at this space in Wilson street, to be turned into a possible dental clinic. Grabe yung traffic sa EDSA. The traffic was slow enough we were able to take a picture of this wonderful piece graffiti: Bawal omehe deto rules!!!
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16,June,2004
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Hmm...or my face even! The proof is in the pudding! See where her right hand goes and what her left one is signalling. If that's not a thumbs-down. I don't know what that is. These bangs take getting used to. It's hard to style. Some say I look younger with it (eh?). The real hard thing though, is waking up in the morning with a mullet 'do, parang redneck na trucker...kulang na lang magpapa-gas. Mwehehe. Oh well, it'll grow out! Dinner at La Copa Last Sunday we had a Father's Day dinner at this resto near the old Manila Domestic Airport. Now I don't know kung nagdinner kami that night kasi nagkamali yung kuya ko at akala niya Father's Day yung Sunday na yun...or it's because that was the date when everyone was free. Anyhoo, dinner was with my sister-in-law's (Michelle) family. La Copa is like a cheaper version of Casa Armas..with steak. The Caesar (Ceasar? Cezar Asar?) salad was yummy, and in wooden bowls the way the salad should be. The calories went straight to my thighs nanaman. I got the pepper steak, which came in a substantial size for Php225. Other steaks were similarly prized at Php200-300. Other dishes we ordered were paella valenciana and baked white oysters. I think I'd recommend the place, if you're looking for a relatively cheaper date place and willing to go as far. As ambiance goes... the place is dark and candlelit. If your contact lenses ever get dislodged from your eyes, then it's bye-bye. Maxine is 6 months old na! If I were a harpist...
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12,June,2004
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I had a haircut. As in impromptu haircut. Unpre-meditated. No appointment. I decided this morning to have a haircut and in 30 minutes I was off to Makati. Sabi ni Elsa the hairstylist: 'Anong gagawin natin sa buhok mo? (while lifting my limp locks) Ang kapal, ang straight pa.' 'Ahh... ikaw na bahala... basta may personality. Parang si Meg Ryan.' (I didn't have my AM coffee yet, I didn't know what I was saying) Thirty minutes later, I don't look like Meg Ryan. The cut is okay... but I now have 16-year-old-person bangs!!! (with the body of a pear-shaped 26-year old). I don't know if that's a good thing or bad thing :P
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09,June,2004
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Ok, kelangan ko na mag-aral seriously pretty soon. Ngee. I'm getting a bit of the heebeejeebies thinking about my board exams in December! Just this morning, I saw this tiny 2 inch X 1 ad in the paper advertising this memory enhancement class. So may picture ng babae, a doctor, tapos may short testimonial which went something like 'I passed the medical boards on the 3rd try! Thanks to Power Memory!!!' On the 3rd try???? OMG. Wag naman po sana!!! Incidentally, I once called up Power Memory to inquire about their program. The method sounded pretty hokey. A method I tried before and I knew na hindi hiyang sa akin, so I told them, no thank you. From then on, once every two months, tumatawag pa din yung guy nila, asking if interested ako. Eh sabi ko na nga dati hindi eh!! Di ba nila maalala??? 6 Months and 10 days -What's that?: Estimated life span of--J. Lo and Marc Anthony's Wedding (Alma and Rudy must be so proud! *KABLAG!!!* Barbie vs Da Bratz Looks like Mattel has been way upstaged by the company the makes the Bratz line of dolls. I think I'm getting old. I can't relate to the Bratz dolls. I look at them in the toy store and I see Christina Aguillera, yung medyo mukhang big-eyed 'ho', with the skimpy outfits and all. According to the business paper, Mattel plans to create more Barbie versions for their Worlds of Barbie scheme, so they're gonna introduce stuff like Barbie 'Prince and the Pauper' and other themes. I have to admit, the Bratz are more edgier, which is more ehem, happening, with the kids today. But no one, but Barbie can be a pilot, stewardess, president, Cleopatra, ballerina, rock star, etc. I used to think Barbie was politically incorrect (with the blond hair and 17 or so-inch-equivalent waistline)... but I'm waxing nostalgic, so I forgive her. Still my favorite words of the moment Sprikitik Heebeejeebies Nekkid
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04,June,2004
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Pictures from yesterday :) My photographer Jen And I, her muse. Hehehe. Intellectual discussion Swimming in salad
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03,June,2004
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Got this from yesterday's Philippine Daily Inquirer. In a nutshell, the story is about a 12-foot snake found slithering on a tree branch in San Fro Del Monte, QC, terrifying villagers! (naks, I added the last one, for drama). I quote: 'Snake handler Policarpio Nadado of the Protected Areas and Wildlife Bureau responded to the call for help, and grappled with the python for at least an hour with a pair of thongs .' Now that's kinky! You're a tiger baby, yeah! Spent the better part of yesterday morning being Jenova's subject for her photography assignment. She said she needs me to win a contest in the portrait category. Hmmm. I think I have only one good side, and that is, like a one degree point in a 180 degree range. Now Jen...has NO BAD SIDES. I think if she wanted to win, she can train her cam on her then shoot! Anyhoo, we spent the session traipsing (naks, how does one actually traipse?) around Intramuros and the Orchidarium. She took my picture while I was holding up a piece of styrofoam board below my face to reflect the light (and reflect eyebags?). Pag naging sikat na (butt)model na ako, may assistant na gagawa niyan for me! Harry Potpot The latest Harry movie should be retitled 'Hermione Granger and the Prisoner of Azkaban'. Okay, so Harry has his 'Expecto...Patronuuuummmmuhhhhhhhh!!!!' (with matching post-pubescent voice delivery), I'll give him that, but it's Hermione who figures everything out! Not to mention, she's the better wizard in terms of casting spells. Only in the Philippines More on watching movies. Movie watching in the Philippines is a totally unique experience. Buti na lang it's relatively cheap to watch a movie here. Pinoy audiences are not the silent type. If they feel that Tobey Macguire needs help, well, 'Ilag Peter!!! Andyan na ang kalaban!!!' Okay, the last one was a generalizing statement, but I just wanted to share a moment while watching Harry III at SM Manila with Bentot. At one scene where Hermione, frightened from the hippogriff named Buckbeak, grabs Ron's hand, most of the audience collectively went 'Uyyyyyyyyy!!!!' Kulang na lang duktungan ng 'May gusto!!!!' Bwahahaha. Let's Culture-fy ourselves! Benj and I will watch Ninna's ballet recital in CCP tonight. It'll be my first time to watch ballet, siguro si Benj din. Sana di kami antukin! Jejejeje! (My laugh, Spanish version).
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01,June,2004
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I just remembered something about a scene I saw last week while going home from PCA when I took my nephews swimming. I passed by my old school...St Peter the Apostle, and through the gates I saw large machines, like a bulldozer and the one with the large panghakot. But what I didn't see was the old chapel. It was demolished na, because of the newly-constructed other church in the same compound. That was the chapel where I was baptized, where my aunt got married, where I sang in a choir innumerable times, where I celebrated many Christmas masses. I had my sixth grade graduation practice there, but never got to attend the actual event because I got chicken pox. This was where I felt sadness during a funeral mass for my choir teacher and dear friend, and where I felt really really happy during masses attended with friends. I will always remember the tile on the floor with those retro asterisks. The way the sun would pass through the stained glass windows and color everybody a greenish-yellow hue. The way the air felt because it had no air-conditioning. The art deco-ish altar. The 'I am the way, the Truth and the Life' in front, with the unaligned 'I'. My church was stark and simple, as life was then.
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01,June,2004
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Since Saturday night (mind you, that was 3 nights ago), I have been so aliw with my right arm. Why this love affair with my arm? Well you see, that night was the despedida party for my dear friend Ninna. We were supposed to play Cranium or Taboo after dessert, but Anami whipped out the tools of her successful sideline, the GLITTER TATTOO, and the board games were completely ignored. Anami wanted to teach me to do the tattoos, just in case she needed some artists for an event she would be doing. Here's the one she made on my arm: . Very Lisa Frank, eh? From there, all glitter broke loose as some of us tried our hand at doing tattoos. Pretty soon, everyone had a glittery image on his/her shoulder or ankle. My butterfly and I will be companions for 8-10 days. She won't wash off in the shower and will go only after the 8-10 day lifespan or if I snuff her life out with baby oil. Glitter Tattoos are a hit at children's parties and other events...more affordable than hiring a face painter! If you wanna, then email moi ! LINKING is not a walk in the PARK Okay, that was a lame subheading. Bwahahaha. I've tried reading through Arlene's htmlgoodies.com referral.... Sounds greek! The sites are kind of funny in the sense that the authors make it sound that it's actually very very easy and why can't you people just get it? hehehe. But I do have to thank Arls, because the tutorial there is probably easier than the other ones I've tried to read!
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31,July,2004
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30,July,2004
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30,July,2004
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Typing this using one hand... left hand holds aloft a stick of buko ice drop. Had anxiety attack #2 again. Agonizing whether to enroll in a certain review center for the theoretical part of the exam. Why do I want to enroll considering I have almost all the needed review materials? Security blanket? Para may structure yung pag-aaral ko? On the other hand, if I enroll there, it will take up my weekends, so everyday ako pagod. Then pag October na, magiging daily na yung sched ng review center. Baka nakakaharass din. I already enrolled for the practicals part of the board exams. Monday to Friday, the whole day, for one month mid-August to mid-September. After that it's 3 months or less to go and study till the boards. 3 months. Panicky. Panicky. I need a warm blankie.
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29,July,2004
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Is it just me? Or mukha ngang mataray si Julie??? Pag may nadadaanan ako na ibang branch, minsan ang sungit talaga ng eyebrows niya.
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27,July,2004
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*cough* *cough* Woke up with a scratchy throat and runny nose, on top of my bodyache from yesterday. The flesh is weak! Pop-up of the day: Those annoying pop-up ads can also be a source of minor entertainment... One of our carriers - urlLink Pet Pocket is a hands-free, convenient way to transport your cat to the vet's office. Just as in Nature, where some critters carry their babies in a pouch, the Pet Pocket carries your cat snug against your chest. Any anxiety the cat feels, is calmed quickly, soothed away by your beating heart and the fact that you are so near to your pet. This picture shows the Sandstone Classic. Oh please. Hand me a tissue. Faye's 26th Last Friday my good friend Faye celebrated her birthday. Dennis and I surprised her with a mocha roll in UPCD for an impromptu party. Al, Earl, Faye and Lyn with the mocha roll!
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21,July,2004
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'That bad crab, only you tried to take it. Everybody else want best quality. You, you're thinking different. Waverly took best quality crab, you took worst, because you have best quality heart. You have style no one can teach. Must be born this way.' -- Suyuan, The Joy Luck Club
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16,July,2004
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yahooooooo! No more cavities! Yesterday was my last appointment with Doc Bok... just in time, because before I drove over to her house, I was walking down the street to get the car when I realized my mouth felt a little bit more spacious. Kinakapa ko yung tooth ko with my tongue when I realized that I must've swallowed my temporary filling. Pag higop (?) ko ng hangin...Wahhhh! Nangingilo na! I must've have flicked the tempo away when I was flossing. Anyhow, that afternoon, my inlay was cemented in. As opposed to a regular filling done in the clinic, an inlay has to be fabricated in a dental lab. Medyo masakit sa bulsa, since I have no income at the present. Buti na lang merong dentist's discount, sigh. After the appointment, Bok and I went to Cafe Cio for cheap coffee. I am always on the lookout for cheaper alternatives to Starbuko and I highly recommend this place... for now. Cafe Cio is located on Jupiter street near the entrance to Bel Air 2, malapit sa Aristocrat. For now, they have this promo wherein every food item you purchase comes with a free cafe Americano. For an additional Php 20, you can upgrade your Americano to a latte, flat white, Vienna or cappu. Not a bad deal. Cafe Cio is a Dencio's company, and their food menu only has Pinoy merienda food like ensaymada, bibingka, sansrival, chicken empanada, and suman sa latik. Thus, you can get a big ensaymada with a short cafe mocha for just Php 50. The cafe mocha's pretty tasty...very frothy on top. Good thing 'cause I don't like the whipped cream version much, like in Starbucks. The place is frequented by a mix of some students (Mapua Makati?) and businessmen in the afternoons. At night, well, hindi ko alam. :) The place looks pretty nice, you walk up through a kind-of-driveway into a garden, and there is also an air-conditioned area with couches, etc where the drinks are ordered. Gotta hit the books! Then off to SM later to pick up my repaired, 6 month old Nokia in Semicon.
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11,July,2004
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It's Benj's birthday today...loolalalooo! I thought I'd surprise him with spaghetti bolognese! Aba, marvelous feat yata yon! To the uninformed friend reading this...it shall now be known that I am not the best cook in the world. I do not even come close to being an average cook! Thus, with the help of 3 friends, I attempted once more to try to force something down my man's stomach. Oops, I meant, to try and get to my man's heart through his stomach. Accomplices: 1)Doc Bokyang: Area of expertise: baking and Italian food. She is Bokyang of the pasta aligue. Before Benj, it was Bok who made me fat with choco chip cookies. 2)Dennis: Specialty: Adobo and leche flan. Has a bit higher cholesterol count. 3)Doc Steph: Dennis' girlfriend. Can outcook and outbake both Dennis and Bok. After 4 or 5 cellphone calls all in all, I finally jot down the ingredients and directions for some kind of bolognese with a smidgen of pesto. I didn't even know that the two could be combined. I tried to prepare some of the other stuff last night so I could cook them faster come Sunday. I had this fantasy in my head that I could cook like they do on TV, but it was PRE-CABLE TV, with David Benoit or other light jazz playing the background, and all the ingredients were in these little individual containers...and chef moi introducing the ingredients while tilting the containers to the camera... *Fantasy bubble popping* So I chopped the garlic, sliced the tomatoes, ground the peppercorn... and made meatballs. Bok said I could pre-cook the meatballs, so I tried just that...'tried' being the operative word. Disastro! Sayang lang yung pag-roll ko ng uniform meat ball shapes, because the periphery of the meatball meat just stuck to the pan. Some of the meat'balls' crumbled into their original ground meat state. And the oil spattering! The reason why I don't like frying anything is the possible spattering. I have this phobia wherein a single tiny spatter of oil could land on my cornea. Wahhhhh! At the end of the pre-cooking session, I had a small amount of un-respectable looking meat'balls'. From the original half-kilo of ground beef, I think 1/8th of that just gotstuck to the pan. My legs were aching afterward and I wanted to lay in bed. Sunday morning...I felt this not-so-good feeling I needed a back-up plan. Pasta and pesto...from a jar. Cheater!!! I added more garlic, some pine nuts, and some blanched almond slices, para more texture and a bit of ehem, flair. After cooking, I went to our hardware store and did my usual Sunday help-out. Thank God for the back up plan because Benj came by earlier, then I had to go and supervise the electrician fixing our cable TV and it was already past noon. I thought, if I were going to defrost my meat'balls' and do the whole bolognese shebang...anong oras na yon??? So in the end, Benj ended up eating pesto. Then he tells me after that it was okay naman, but he likes tomato-based sauce more than white sauce or olive-oil based sauce. And he doesn't like almonds pala. Aysus!!! *slaps forehead* Happy birthday hunny!! Mwahahah! :)
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10,July,2004
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...and that is a third molar. I had my one and only third molar extracted last Wednesday. It wasn't painful, getting it done. It's the 'after' that hurts. When the anesthesia has worn off and there is nothing to numb myself from the painful emptiness... of an empty socket. Naks. Waxing poetic over a tooth. I've been having a lot of dental work done these past few days. All those pesky cavities that need to be filled, or old fillings that need to be replaced. Hayyy. Sigh...3 days after the extraction. Wahhh.... masakit pa rin! Funny...I've forgotten what it felt like to have a bad tooth taken out... the feeling of numbness. How the chin feels so thick and padded, like being Jay Leno! I was kidding Doc Bok to hit me on the chin. Parang fight club. Kasi tutal, manhid naman eh. It was hard to eat lunch while the anes hadn't yet worn off. It felt like I was going to choke on the otherwise tasty pasta aligue. Hello, Mensa? Benj sent me a link to this online IQ test. It was amusing because it was the same test given to him when he applied for a job. Apparently, even some companies filch exams off the net hehehe. I tried to answer the exam in 5 minutes, guessing all the math parts: Your IQ score is 120 Your Intellectual Type is Word Warrior. This means you have exceptional verbal skills. You can easily make sense of complex issues and take an unusually creative approach to solving problems. Your strengths also make you a visionary. Even without trying you're able to come up with lots of new and creative ideas. When I came home this afternoon from taking my nephew swimming, I tried to take the test again, really trying to analyze the math stuff: Your IQ score is 131 This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Insightful Linguist. This means you are highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. Those skills contribute to your creative and expressive mind. *Strokes chin* Benj got a 136 on his test, math genius that he is. Anyhow, the last time I got my IQ tested was in high school. If I remember it correctly, a legit IQ test takes into account the person's age as well. Parang ang taas ata ng 131 for me, considering that I know my previous score to be along the 110s. Too good to be true 'tong online test!
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01,July,2004
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YAHOOOOOO! Hay salamat! I heard the good news na wala ngang biochem sa boards. Just basic stuff. No more engot counting of how much ATPs liberated in one Kreb's cycle. No more Greek! Am currently reading microbio. I kinda like it. Heehee. *blush* Germ freak kasi ako. Not germ freak as in i-like-germs. But germ freak as in...freaky germs!!! I always use my pinky (and only if I have to) to open public restroom doors, and medyo na-a-anxious ako kasi mauubos na yung Bath and Body Works grape antibacterial foam ko. Anyhoo, I hope to finish up this microbio quick, para move on na ako to the next subject. Ummm...sarap! After borrowing a book from Dennis, we had lunch. Since Dennis was making leche flan yesterday, I told him to bring me one 'llanera' (the oval metal thingie) today. Sarap!!! The best talaga flan ni Dennis! Medyo may coffee-ish taste yung syrup, and it's creamier in texture rather than jello-ish. Incidentally, Dennis also makes yummy adobo and saging na saba! We had a hilarious time laughing about our nilagang-baboy adventures. I told him about my aversion to nilagang baboy, ever since that incident in the St. Peter cafeteria. The not-so mystery meat of the day was sinigang na nilagang baboy. When I used my spoon to cut through the meat-taba part, may (STOP READING IF YOU LIKE SINIGANG BABOY) (AS IN NOW!!!) (HOPE YOU HAD DINNER NA!) parang pus na lumabas!!! Ewww...aggghhhhh! Naaalala ko may buhok pa yon. However, in true 'Wala ka sa lolo ko!!!' fashion, Dennis just had to top my story. One time, he was eating nilagang baboy din, when he came upon a rather chewy square piece of the meat. He fished out the piece with a fork...gulat siya kasi may baboy nipple on the center of the meat square. Bwahahaha! 'My water bag broke!' Classic movie line! Anyhoo, nakalimutan ko i-kwento... earlier this week, a woman gave birth in the driveway of our old College of Dent building. It started when my prof Doc Danny saw this woman clutching her belly in pain across Faura near the Supreme Court. The woman told him she was due in July pa. He then pointed her to the direction of PGH tapos sinamahan na rin niya patawid. Now, to get to PGH from the Supreme Court, there's a short cut where you go through the Dent driveway. When they got there, medyo whooosh! Milky and clear fluid plus blood hit the ground. Reminds of that scene in Sex and The City where Miranda broke her bag, spilling fluid on Carrie's Christian Louboutins. Nataranta si Doc Danny so he left the woman by the guard house to call for help. Maya-maya, yung vendor sa labas nagpahiram ng monoblock chair. Patients in the Dent lobby, a lot without teeth, became instant midwives. She gave birth right then and there. Somebody lent a surprisingly clean towel. Med students arrived. While they were waiting for the stretcher, somebody cut the cord with a Swiss knife some-kind-of-sterilized with a lighter. It's a boy!
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10,August,2004
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I went to QC today, ALONE. To and fro! Got back in ONE PIECE! Today was study group day at Kathy S.'s house in Bagong Pag-Asa, QC, near Project 6 and SM North EDSA. Though the route would be shorter if I took an FX, I figured the LRT-MRT route was more formulaic and would burn off more calories(due to climbing up and going down train stations). To duplicate my feat: Take LRT from Quirino up to the MRT connection in EDSA. Take the MRT and get off at the North EDSA station. Wait for a jeep that says PAG-ASA. Wait a long time. Ask other jeepney drivers (with the SM- Project 6 route) or MMDA personnel if the PAG-ASA jeep still exists/passes by North Ave. Wait some more. Finally wave down the only Pag-Asa jeep to arrive in 20 minutes and ride it into the sunset, este, subdivision. Whoopee! Do the study-group thingie. Time to go home! Walk a block till you get to the street with passing FX jeeps. Ride the FX that says MRT/SM. Tour the SM complex for a while in the comfort of the FX. Get off at the MRT station. Do the MRT-LRT thing again. Walk home!
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06,August,2004
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Somebody got referred to my site in this manner: Referring URL: http://search.aol.com/aolcom/search?query=otso otso ringtone I have foiled your attempts from plaguing Manila, or the Philippines, and/or the world with annoying ringtones such as this. And the world is a safer, less jologs place! *bow*
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06,August,2004
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Hmm... mag 1-1week na rin since my last entry..hayyy ang daming nangyari! Train sounds Last Sunday, naging Godfather part II si Benj.. he became a ninong, so sumama ako sa reception after the baptism ceremony... di ako binigyan ng loot bag! Oh well. Later that day, we went to Powerplant, where we had free 3rd row seats to watch Nyoy Volantes and the Mannos (Manos?) . Actually, pumasok lang kami sa record store tapos it turned out na may promo gig sila doon. Ang galing!!!!! *bow* talaga. Nyoy (naks, close), sings really well and he plays guitar really amazingly. Very fancy fingerwork. The mano-mannos we're great also. They played 'Ticket to Ride'... with the music segueing into a great imitation of a locomotive train, complete with the choo-choo sounds, courtesy of the violin. Sayang I didn't have a camera... talagang I have to admit that those camera phones really have an advantage at times like these. Funny lang cause the other fans... tatayo sila sa harap ni Nyoy and hold the cellphone up, like 2-3 feet away from his face and click away... Carriedo station Tuesday... nag commute kami ni Kathy B. via Sta. Cruz jeep papuntang Quiapo near Raon. Kathy B. is one of my 'boards-mates' this December..., and we needed to buy lots of stuff for our practicals part of the exam. Si Kathy, sanay 'mag-cab'. Take note, not 'Mag-taxi', but mag-'cab'. hehehe (Hi Kathy!). Medyo panic siya when she learned na kaming 2 girls pupunta, because originally, si Dennis ang magsasama sa amin papunta doon. Medyo nag-whine si Kathy konti, niloloko ko nga na whiner siya eh, pero I guess ok na siya nung nakarating na kami doon. We got off from the jeep when we saw Sta. Cruz church, tapos we walked under the LRT till I saw Paterno street. Rizal avenue looks so different now! Paved na with stone tile-things... yung LRT doon, cute. Tiled yung poste ng LRT, tapos yung other parts, painted pink, cream and blue (you'll see it when you look up). Some of the stores were having renovations done. Sana hindi na maging dingy yung Rizal avenue, para safer na puntahan. We walked to Paterno...tapos nagpalit na ulit yung anyo ng pagilid into the old Quiapo, complete with pregnant homeless women fighting with each other. Oh well. Anyway, we went to this big two-storey store na kilalang-kilala for dental supplies. Secret na lang yung pangalan. We had a very disturbing experience there, Kathy and I. Yung inassign sa amin na saleslady, si Lani... aba. Mahabang kwento... naloko talaga kami. But in a nutshell, ang nangyari was this. Binigyan kami ni Lani ng discount for a few of the items... (shempre natuwa kami). Pero yun pala, those items that she discounted, she didn't write them down in the official receipt. Well, we paid for everything (receipt-ed and non-receipt-ed items), pero yun pala yung cashier/owner, hindi alam na may kasama na wala sa resibo, isusukli niya based on what's written on the receipt diba. Ang ginawa ni Lani, kinuha niya yung pera na pinambayad namin for the 'discounted' items! So naging ganito: Ang discount ko, P20. Ang discount ni Kathy B, P10. Ang nakuha ni Lani? P450. Sa dami ng binili namin, nilito niya kami. Kaya pala sabi niya sa amin 'Uy quiet lang kayo ha!' Pag labas namin ni Kathy sa tindahan, nagme-mental tally ni kami. Sabi ni Kathy, 'Teka, Mali yon ah!!!'. We didn't know what to do. Gusto namin isumbong. That would get her fired! Tapos may anak pa yon. Shempre naguguilty kami ni Kathy para sa may-ari. Yung nakaka-inis pa, feel na feel ni Lani na magkaconchaba kaming 3. Sabi ko kay Kath, next time wag na tayo magpapa-assist kay Lani. Pero naiisip ko pa rin na gusto ko pa rin siya isumbong. Haynaku. Afterwards... sumakay na lang kami ng LRT sa Carriedo station, sa WOMEN ONLY section shempre. Medyo funny, may mamang nagline-jump, ang kapal ng mukha, pumasok sa women's area na sobrang pa-simple. I saw a librarian-type-looking woman tell him off (kulang na lang pukpukin ng payong. heehee). Nung una he tried to look as if he didn't care, pero I guess he got too many angry stares kaya bumaba na siya sa next station. Joy ride Wednesday morning, nagpasama ako kay Dennis to go to the Mendiola area naman, near UE and CEU, to buy more dental stuff. Kathy B. and MJ were supposed to join, pero K had cramps, tapos si MJ medyo tinamad ata :). So Dennis and I stood on the corner of Pedro Gil and Taft, debating on which jeep/bus to take, when we saw some lower classmen of UPCD, sina EJ, Chia, Abbie and Michelle. Nagyaya sila mag Jollibee, so since hindi pa nagbreakfast si Dennis, we joined them muna. When we asked them kung pano pumunta doon sa dental supply na yon... Chia offered the services of her driver, kasi wala naman daw gagawin. Serendipitous! Galing ni God.. kasi tamang-tama, nung sasakay na kami, bumuhos yung malakas na ulan. Nakarating kami ni Dennis sa Reddy's, yung suki namin... or teka, kami ang suki sa Reddy's? (Interchangeable ba ang 'suki'?). Anyhow, favorite namin yung tindera na si Ate Jac...malakas talaga magdiscount yon (yung honest kind of discount). Nakachismis pa namin si Ate Jac and yung kapatid ng may-ari (na medyo magulo kausapin, siguro may hearing disorder?). Afterwards, after buying other stuff near CEU, nakita namin ni Dennis yung railway ng LRT2. Out of curiosity, we wanted to see what the station looked like. Medyo nagsisisi kami nung una in our minds, kasi nawala pa kami around San Sebastian trying to find where the station was. In a 3-Kings-Looking-for-the-Star-of-Bethlehem kind of way, we walked along Legarda following the station line. Hi tech na ngayon ang mga gumagawa ng fake diplomas and thesis-while you wait. At the corner of one busyintersection, may nakita kami na mga nagraracket na may nakaplug-in na computer and printer (Word for Windows pa ang gamit)...in daylight ha, walang stalls or anything, as in sa isang kanto kung saan may mga nagaantay tumawid. Finally, after walking some more, we saw the Legarda station of the LRT-2. Golly gulaman! (as my boards-mate Jen R. would say). Ang gandahhhh (tulo-laway). Yes, there is hope for the Philippines, well, at least where commuters are concerned. The station looked like the stations one might see in HK or Singapore. Upon close inspection of some posted plaques, we found out that the station was partly funded by the Japanese government. Designed in silver and purple (thus, called, 'Purple Line'), the station looks not unlike NAIA-2, full of matte-silver frames and glass. And elevators. There are clean, working elevators for the disabled. There are no shortage of working upway escalators too. And get this. Automated, ticket vending machines... with SHORT LINES. In the Philippines. There were machines for bills and coins which could accept bills for up to P50, and other machines just for coins. You press a button choosing your destination, insert the money, and out pops the card and your change. Also, there are system maps to show you where the line goes in easy to understand detail. Di kami nakatiis, gusto naming mag joy ride! Funny lang, kasi Dennis apparently used a P50 bill for his one ticket (ticket prices are similar to LRT and MRT). Para siyang nanalo ng slot machines with the change coming out all in one-peso coins, complete with the taktaktak-chink-chink-chink sounds. We each had a ticket to go to the farthest end of the line... in Marikina. The line goes mainly above Aurora avenue, and you can reach SM Centerpoint, New Manila, Katipunan, Araneta Center in Cubao, Katipunan... The train itself is another gush-worthy matter. It is 50% wider than the LRT or MRT, and it's not divided into coaches. Thus, if trip mo lang, you could cartwheel from one end to another. We noticed two security guards walking along the train. The ride felt so much safer talaga. We reached Marikina in more or less, 20 minutes. The train's starting point was still Legarda, since hindi pa connected yung line to the LRT in Recto (target date: December 2004). We decide to take a train back to Araneta and have lunch there. Dennis and I both agreed that this new LRT certainly opened up more possibilities for getting around Metro Manila. A few months ago we would never have thought of eating lunch in Araneta Center! After eating, we walked to the MRT because Dennis needed to go to Ayala. I decided to go home via MRT up to Taft, then LRT up to Quirino. Pag-akyat namin sa MRT station...kablag! Our hopes for the Philippines suffered a setback. The station was PACKED with people lining up outside just 3 windows. The station was so dark pa. Oh well. While lining up, we ran into Shawie, our classmate Bernard's friend. We bought Shawie her ticket and we three rode together. 'Ikiskis ba!?!' Shempre, kwentuhan with Shawie. Kinuwento niya about her past experience last week inside the MRT train. It was packed that time and there was a man half-beside/half-behind her. really close. After a while, as Shawie said, ' Napansin kong medyo nabuhay si manoy .' Indignant, she whipped around to face the guy and said loudly, 'Ikiskis ba!?!'.(natawa kami ni Dennis sa hirit ni Shawie) . Anyhoo, Shawie told him off (loudly for the rest of the passengers to hear) before she got off the train. Namula daw yung mama. Apparently, the guy was going to get off at a farther stop, so she hoped that the guy would suffer from embarassment na lang for the rest of his ride. Ayun, Shawie and Dennis got off at Ayala while I continued my commute home.
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The sky becomes an arena and the stars fill the stands as the giant settles in the west, casting its delicate orange glow across the horizon. The eternal enemy appears in the eastern sky, the silvery harbinger of the black future, a menacing crescent cutting through the dark blue abyss. Uttering a silent roar, the bringer of day and life unleashes a brilliant display of pinks, purples, oranges and reds. Fading. A golden ray kisses the earth, as if to say goodbye. A crimson tear explodes, searing the clouds as it falls behind the earth, turning them into firey embers of the heavens. A last glorious flicker, a mighty farewell. Gone. Shadows slowly sweep across the land, minions of the victorious, the ruler of the night. Warmth fades. The symphony of twilight emerges. Crickets, owls, all laughing at the firey demise. The glow in the west will fade, the aftermath of an epic duel, replaced by silky moonlight. thanks for watching
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17,August,2004
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Eyes. The glimpse into your soul, yet at the same time, the welcomed intruder. They express emotion so beautifully- fear, anger, sadness, passion, happiness, angst. They cannot lie. I'll never forget that moment we locked eyes, you, suddenly shying away. And then you looked back. All of those emotions, suddenly melting into pure bliss as I stared into those piercing eyes, seemingly carved from stunning blue perfection. Never look away. Sweet dreams.
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09,August,2004
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I had an old friend who I will never forget. I can't. If I did, I would break a promise. We met about eight years ago in winter. We knew everything about each other. For four years I had the best friend I've ever known. And then something happened. We drifted away from each other. Slowly at first, and then before I knew it, she was gone. I hate how time and emotion blur the past, especially the moments you wish you could keep forever. If only back then I realized how lucky I was to have her as a friend. I'm sorry. I still hope that one day we will talk again, like we use to. Its 11:11 - make a wish.
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08,August,2004
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Just saw lost in translation with Bill Murray and Scarlett Johansson. I didn't think I'd like it, but it ended up being really good. It made me want to go to Japan just to see some of the places they show in the movie, although meeting someone like Johansson would be a definite plus as well :X. Bill Murray was hilarious as usual, and Johansson was pretty good too. The whole movie has a dreamlike atmosphere that is just amazing. It just goes to show how two confused people, stuck in a strange place, can form a bond that transcends barriers that most people seem boxed in by. They seemed so comfortable in each others' company. Then again, if I was sharing a bed with someone as beautiful as Scarlett Johansson I would be pretty comfortable too. The ending is really good and kept the film from being predictable. Go see it.
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07,August,2004
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People say to live in the past is a bad thing. You get stuck up in a moment and can't move on. Why? What if that moment was so amazing, so incredible, that living in it forever wouldn't exactly be bad. Our past makes us who we are, so why not embrace it. The future only brings an end, and gives way to the past eventually. What are we without our memories? I often catch myself thinking of one great memory, and wishing that I could go back and relive it. But I can't. Its gone. Locked away in time, forever. Time sucks.
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31,May,2004
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Today is the biggest day for me! We would be doing MT 'O' levels today! I woke up early and did some last minute study before going to school. I met Yazid and we went to school together. At school, we went to check our index numbers ans seating plan. I must admit that the paper was quite hard. After finishing all the papers, we went to L.J.S to have our lunch. We then went to Northpoint and walked around. Amirul, Yazid and Fauzi then stalked girls at Popular. After that we went home feeling tired and I posted this P.O.S... B.T.W..... HAPPY B'DAE SALIZzZ!!!
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29,May,2004
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Yesterday was a very tiring day for the student leaders who went to Yishun Choral Fest. When Yazid and I reached school, we met Farhan and settled our logistic stuff. We got scolded by TicoLee for making him wait a long time to get the walkie-talkies. After that, we got 'bugged' by 2 Sec One students who were Mr Sim's personal helpers. After settling all of that, we set off to Victoria Concert Hall. The security there was tight as there was an opening of Singapore Arts Festival. Farhan , me and another S.E.O set up everything upon reaching. We had a big problem as we did not know where to hang the blazers. Alas, the problem was solved and we settled everything by 5pm. About 45 minutes before the event started, we wore our Blazers and issued out the walkie-talkies. Everything went well until choir members from Northland Primary School(my primary school) started to wreck havoc during their break. Mr Shaiful then got pissed off and asked us to qiueten them down. The situation got worse when Mao Shen came. It became more noiser until the school teacher came and scolded them. We then got compliments from people when the show ended. We cleared up and returned to school. On the way, Mr Shaiful kept asking questions like 'Anyone brought food with you?' and 'Anybody got some snacks like chocolates?'. Wow, what a hungry monster! We kept everything by the NCC closets and went home. I reached home at about 11.35pm, feeling very tired. I took a bath and slept... Today, I knew I had nothing to talk about,so I recalled yesterday's event... That's all!
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26,May,2004
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Today....is another boring day. Hmm, we have our MT 'O'level briefing and that makes me feel very nervous about this coming Monday. After that, during Math lesson, Mrs Goh let us study our MT instead of Maths. Yah, this exam is coming and I haven't studied anything! Anyway, before school ended, Mr HairyEars went into the class, scolding us for vandalising the tables. He demanded us to clean the tables by hook or by crook. We tried to borrow Thinner from DT room but to no avail. Instead, we moved the terribly vandalised tables with some at the Tamil Room! Woah, so daring! We moved the tables right under Mr YoonusFatball's nose! After that, Farhan and I, Sai Kang Warriors, the looked for items that is to be used for this upcoming Choral Fest. We went home, changed and went to Mac'd at Northpoint to meet Mr Sim to discuss about this upcoming event. We went to some florist to buy some Cosage for the VIPs. After going back home, I posted this crap......
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22,May,2004
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Today, I feel sooo sleepy! I woke up at about 5.30am to iron my uniform and went to the Interchange to meet the other NCC guys. We are supposed to go to NCC HQ And there we will take a bus to go to Mandai Hill Camp. All this fuss for the NDP mass display performance. There, we learnt Wushu from the intructors. I really don't want to go to this thing, really.... Anyway, it was fun doing the cool moves. Imangine myself wearing baggy pants doing wushu on National Day... I'll be a laughing stock! After that, Syarif, Farhan, Khairul and I went to eat at Northpoint. Yazid didn't follow us as he needed to change and go to tuition. There, we saw Mandy, Jun Hao and Uncle Michael walking around. Today, I posted this crap a little bit earlier as I am learning a few new songs on my guitar and after that, visit my gramps. By the way, thank you SalizZz for your concern about my hair..... :)
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21,May,2004
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Today, everything was so boring... One whole day looking at mdm Tai! Woah, can die of humiliation! After school, Mr Brian, Lydia, Mao Shen, Yazid, Farhan and I went to have a look at Victoria Concert Hall for the Choral Fest 2004. We looked around to make preparations for this coming Friday. Farhan and I were assigned as Sai Kang Warriors(shit work). Nah, I don't mind as we were logistics for GEMS CAmp and SEC 1 Camp. After looking around, I found out that I missed my favourite cartoon, ZOIDS! For the sake of these pathetic looking guys, I stayed behind... After looking around for some time, we went home. Yazid and I then went to Mac'ds. I found out that we can pay using our ez-link cards. Man, I am sooooo slow! We went home and I posted this crap to pass the time....
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20,May,2004
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Woah, today is very boring! As we are going to sit for our Mother Tongue 'O'level papers on 31 May, we have intensive MT lessons. FIVE periods of boring MT lessons! Then, looking at the teacher makes me want to sleep. We are participating in NDP mass display performance for the NCC, but I want to back out as....... we are doing wushu! My gosh, of all things, why wushu? Yazid, Syarif, Khairul, Farhan and I don't want to go to this crap! Man, it's a pity, we cannot back out! Doing this will make me lose face siaz..... To make matters worse, the training starts this SATURDAY! What am I going to do? I'm in a state of dilemma! AARGH......
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19,May,2004
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Today was soooo boring! No studies, no nothing whatsoever.... That morning became more dull when it was Mother Tongue. Seeing the teacher talk and talk makes me feel like sleeping. After recess, as we had nothing to do, Syarif suggested that we play ?Ali Pomp? The game is like hide and seek but more funny.... We played until the end of the day. After that we went home. At home, there was nothing do, so I posted this crap. This is the end, I wanna sleep!
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17,May,2004
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Today is the last day of examinations, yahooo!!! After the paper, SSEOs were supposed to have an important meeting but I went home instead to sleep. After that I followed Yazid and his band of merry band go jamming. That day was unlucky as I forgot the lyrics, Yazid's giutar was having some problems and Khairul sang badly. After that, we went to eat at the coffeeshop near the jamming studio. The food there was nice, I love it! I feel so tired now, so I am ending this!
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17,May,2004
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Hmm....today went well as normal. Today's CME paper was full of nonsense... marriage, morals, blah blah blah...Mrs Vannan gave out the POA paper a Miss Siva came late. She stood beside me and.....pheeyew! She stinks!!!! After doing our last paper for the day... Raj and Co. built a masterpiece made up of chairs. It was so hilarious! People from the next class then took pictures of it and looking at it with amazement. Back home, my mum didn't scold me instead she allowed me to play the laptop. Happily, I played and posted this crap. So, that's it! I wanna sleep! PS: Khairul, I will return the CD in a few weeks time...
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14,May,2004
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Yahoo,the major papers of my examinations are all over!!!! Before posting this, my internet cocked up, I feel so fished-up! It all went to normal after calling Singnet Technical Support. To the operator who served me today, I thank you very very much! Without you, I'll be so frustrated...Thanzzo! Back to this, today went as per normal. Nothing cool except when Mr Doraemon said that we should sing very loudly during the national anthem. Then, we did our NE quiz. It was soooooo boring! Answer a few questions and build buildings...duh so sucky! Anyway, we gat a certificate and the played hide & seek with my friends. It was sooo funny! Syarif, Amin, Zaman and I ran away from Amirul and hid outside the library. All of us hid by the cabinets and I was so stupid by hiding where that moron can see me.. At last, Amirul found us and we went home laughing..... Eventhough we are Sec 4s, we are sooo childish! That's all for today! I want to sleep! By the way.....THANK YOU MISS OPERATOR LADY!!!!!!!!!!!!
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29,June,2004
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FIRST DATE By: Blink 182 --------------------------------- In the car I just can’t wait, To pick you up on our very first date Is it cool if I hold your hand? Is it wrong if I think it’s lame to dance? Do you like my stupid hair? Would you guess that I didn’t know what to wear? I’m too scared of what you think You make me nervous so I really can’t eat Let’s go, don’t wait, this night’s almost over Honest, let’s make this night last forever Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever When you smile, I melt inside I’m not worthy for a minute of your time I really wish it was only me and you I’m jealous of everybody in the room Please don’t look at me with those eyes Please don’t hint that you’re capable of lies I dread the thought of our very first kiss A target that I’m probably gonna miss Let’s go,don’t wait, this night’s almost over Honest, let’s make this night last forever Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever Let’s go, don’t wait, this night’s almost over Honest, let’s make, this night last forever Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever
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23,June,2004
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Goodbye and So Long By: Blink 182 ------------------------------------------- I think of a while ago We might have had it all But I was so stupid then You needed time to grow But now just as things change As well my feelings do In time things rearrange I am so sick of chasing you But what do I get ’cause I just seem to lose You make me regret those times I spent with you And playing those games as I wait for your call And now I give up, so goodbye and so long It’s not a change of pace This time I’ll get it right It’s not a change of taste I was the one there last night You have your other friends They were there when you cried Didn’t mean to hurt you then Best friends just won’t leave your side But what do I get ’cause I just seem to lose You make me regret those times I spent with you And playing those games as I wait for your call And now I give up, so goodbye and so long It’s not a change of pace This time I’ll get it right It’s not a change of taste I was the one there last night When I needed you most When I needed a friend You let me down now Like I let you down then So sorry, it’s over Umm....why am I always posting songs? I have nothing to say......
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20,June,2004
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Going Away To College -------------------------- Please take me by the hand It's so cold out tonight I'll put blankets on the bed I won't turn out the light Just don't forget to Think about me And I won't forget you 'I'll write you once a week', she said Why does it feel the same To fall in love or break it off And if young love is just a game Then I must have missed the kick off Don't depend on me To ever follow through on Anything, but I'd go through Hell for you and I haven't been this scared in a long time And I'm so unprepared, so here's your valentine Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me I'll think about the times She kissed me after class and She put up with my friends I acted like an ass I'd ditch my lecture To watch the girls play soccer Is my picture Still hanging in her locker? I haven't been this scared in a long time And I'm so unprepared, so here's your valentine Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful..... I have nothing to say....cos, I'm hating it......
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14,June,2004
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Hmm....its been a long since I updated this blog...Anyway, today was very fun for me because of the Motivational Talk by Adam Khoo Learning Tech. Group. It was fun eventhough it took about 10 hours...Then when I went home, my mum told me that Mdm Tai called and told her that I skipped the workshop. WAH LAU! SHE JUST SPAT IT OUT WITHOUT INVESTIGATING! I feel really fished up! Then, I had no mood to talk to them and just sat in my room chatting...Please, Merah...who are you to barge in here? If you want to barge in like that, tell me your true identity first! I don't like people who barge in and bug me... This 2 weeks will be hectic for me.... 14 June- Workshop until 6pm 15 June- Workshop until 6pm 16 June- Specialist Course Phase 2 17 June- Specialist Course Phase 2 18 June- Specialist Course Phase 2 19 June- Specialist Course Phase 2 20 June- Prepare For Leadership Camp 21 June- Leadership Camp 22 June- Leadership Camp 23 June- Leadership Camp Until school re-opens- Do homework *WAH.....CAN DIE SIAZ!
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05,June,2004
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Hmm...it's been a long time since I updated this...Woah, today is so tiring for us! Today, Yazid and Syarif didn't attent NDP training. Yazid went to Malaysia and Syarif kinda backed off... So, it's left with us; Farhan, Khairul and me. The training today was really tiring. We needed to repeat the routine again and again until the instructors were satisfied. Anyway, I made friends with other school and that makes me feel satisfied. We were damn disappointed as there was no bayonet fighting... Nah, who cares! I don't feel like performing on the actual day. Aiyoh, somemore we got training every Saturday. I am sooo sick of this!
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Sheesh....okok...I'm going to stop posting for a while now....got prep exams next week....I'M GONNA STUDY!!!!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!!I'M GONNA STUDY!!! last minute.....heheh....
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Yesterday was the best days I ever had...yayaya, it's Speech Day and we were the Guard Of Honour for this year...and this is the last the Part Ds(that's the sec 4s)...Woke up early in the morning, had breakfast and got my uniform ready...then played with my laptop before I met Yazid....Yazid looked funny cos he ran out of gel..haha...Got in the school and there were about 15 CLTs waiting for us...we went to HQ NCC and drew the M-16 rifles...after reaching school, we did our rehearsal for a while and had the lunch...one last rehearal and the actual thing had begun...sheesh...I was in the first row and my arms hurt a lot after marching for some time with the rifle...everything ended happily....and we returned our rifles and hung out at the school...ate and took pictures with my frens...hehe...Jalan Pendidikan was officially opened and we hung out in the leaders room..haha....COOL! Then, the CLTs wanted the Guard Of Honour to take some pics before we go...for the Part Ds, we stepped down that night...man, I feel so sad...leaving sooooo soon...I'm gonna miss my juniors, the Part A and Cs....now...the PArt C's are taking over the unit....good luck to them....Aww, I wonder who will take over my post...I really love my post...haiz...gonna leave school, miss all my new found friends in all levels... Okie...now I'll concentrate on my studies....do well in the 'O'Levels an leave school with a happy face....haiz... I'm off now....
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20,July,2004
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Sheesh, I simply hate tomorrow...need to wear traditional costume..wah....then after that, we got Speech Day rehearsal....aiyoyo...I dun mind....today went out well except during Mdm Tai's lesson...humiliating and harassing time for us...but luckilly there's a performance today, so her class was distrupted...hehe....serves her right...I LOVE ARTS WEEK!!!! THE LESSON DISTRUPTOR!!! BTW, I can't wait to got to NSSSB's Forte 3? Think so.....got to go now....bubbye....hehe....
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18,July,2004
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Yesterday was sooo tiring...woke up early in the morning, went to school, caught in the rain along the way....just for Speech Day rehearsal...Sheesh, during the first-half of the rehearsal, our marching in sucks...and after being scolded by the CLTs we managed to march in....perfectly?....we got 1 last rehearsal before the actual day...wow, ths is making me nervous... Anyway, on the actual day, we're going to get real rifles....woohoo! After that, went to my Granma's with my family....after that went home, feeling damn tired...and today, there's nothing to talk about 'cos its Sunday....but today is different, our cadets are going SAFTI to watch the NCC Day Parade...we got a Gold Unit for the school and MrNg is going to get the plaque today...and the best thing is that Syarif is one of the Flag-Bearers who's going to march with the school flag..Sadly, I think MR Ng is going to leave school and a teacher called Mr Toh is going to to replace him as the Commanding Officer for the school....life is going to be different after Mr Ng is gone.....haiz... This is also the final year for me in this school...I'm going to miss all my friends, teachers and the school itself....I won't forget all the things I did at school....getting in trouble, doing mischevious things...I got about 4 more months until the day comes....eventhough, its a long time to go....I still feel very scared about this....study, study, study.......so, I'm going off now... BTW: Hey! Can you girls not fight over here about this tag-board? I really hate it! Being jealous for nothing is not going to do any good...
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16,July,2004
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Sheesh, today is sooo friggin boring...no nagging or scolding from any teachers...except during recess..Mr Brian sang one song which I havenever heard before and some performance by the students..haha...that Sebastian guy maybe fat but he dance like a pro...haha! Luckilly there is no fight today...yesterday was a war to me...some guys jeered at Amirul and Ermi during their song yesterday...then 1 guy confronted them and everything went hectic at level 2...a lot of people were fighting and Mr Hamzah was like...'STOP!!! I SAID STOP!!!'...instead, he was punched by some guy...haha...so much for being a hero...then at level 4, these Klutz confronted Amin, Shahrizal, Amirul and Syarif...they pushed each other and shouted crap...as they were doing that, Khairul and I, was like trapped in the middle....wah...anyway, everything ended after the Klutz told us Amin and Co. to meet them after school.....but it never happened....yayayaya, after that nothing happened...finished classes, attended NCC.....went home feeling tired...somemore, there's full dressed tomorrow...oh man...another day lost....sheesh...I really hate doing these things....so....I'm off now...wanna iron my uniform and do something with my boots..... In case you don't know what this is...this is a Predator....my favourite uh.....hunter? But I know, it's a character in a computer game...it looks sooo cool.....to me.....with green blood oozing from its wounds......uh....but it's not shown in the picture....ok....I'm am off!
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14,July,2004
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Sheesh, feel sooo uneasy after having a haicut and going to school with this short hair..But, today was all right to me..no nagging or scolding from any teachers..hehe..but because of that stupid Amirul, Syarif and I needed to change places during MT class..and during assembly, there's a stupid group of people who claims that they can some crap about maths..After that, got EL remedials and supervised learning.. Went home feeling tired but got a lot of homework...I hate school! Then, at night, I found out that got NCC training tomorrow...wah piang! GIMME A BREAK!!!I WANNA RELAX!!!Yeah..I wanna say that the judges from Northland Idol...SUX BIG TIME!!! ESPECIALLY THAT ONE GUY WHO SAID THE CONTESTANTS VOICES SUX..a wannabe Simon Cowell...AAH, GET A LIFE!!!I'm off now!
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13,July,2004
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Sheesh...I am soo sad today...In the morning, got caught personally by Mr HairyEars for having long hair...after that nothing bad happened...but this freakin school is SUCKING my money! Buy books,pay class funds and all that crap...I feel soo lazy updating my blog...Then I think I did sumthin on my template.....Aiyoh,dunno what I've done...this is freakin boring! So, this is today's story...I better be off studying...exams are coming... BTW, who's MaZ? who's MaZ? who's MaZ? I dunno you...
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09,July,2004
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What the heck is happening now? Problems seem to crop up everytime I go to school...this is going to drive me nuts! I dunno how to solve all these problem, but I'm lucky to have friends who are willing to listen to me...I really haven't been this stressed out until now..I need to stay back after school everyday, then at home also need to study..got some friends who are traitors, lame-o's and wanker shit...I know two guys whom I frigginly hate..one likes to crack lame jokes and the other sings like a toad & a trendy wanker...but both of them have the same qualities; they are big fat flirts and arrogant bastardz... Anyway, Speech Day is round the corner and we still haven't rehearsed until now...but I'm sure there is one tomorrow...but one thing that really made me damn f@rked-out is that I got 3 lines for my testimonial while one zombie; Victor, got about 5 lines! After all I have did and this is what I get? That zombie slept through the whole Annual Camp, does nothing and skipped training got more than me! Stupid bastard! Ah, studies is more important than testimonials...what good will I get if I got a 6 sentenced testimonial while my studies suck? This is today's story and I am going off now.... BTW: I'm very sorry to.....someone down here..
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Hmm...today was supposedly to be fine until we found out that we needed to stay back to study until 4.30...WTF?!? Haiz, what to do...a few more months of torture and we're free...let's hope that my 'O'Level results are damn satisfying to me....Haiz, watched Spiderman 2 yesterday and forgot to pay Hazlin for buying the tickets...Hehe..the movie was all right for me and worth the money...After watching the movie, we went to the Esplanade and went up to the roof and hung out there, taking pictures...going there with someone special would be a nice place to relax...Aah, drop the subject! Anyway, Y@tie, dun be sad anymore...I know you're damn angry with that old hag but you still got 2 more years, looking at her stupid face...so CHEER UP! Btw, you want to tell me sumthing SalizZz? Hehe..you 'lil girl'.....tell me when I'm online.....I'm gonna study till 12 now....so, today's story is over.... :D
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04,July,2004
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Well, everyone keeps telling me to update my blog rite? So, here it is! Everyone knows that my class is the worst in the level. No matter what the teacher does, we won't give a damn...I doubt that we will change...Haiz, the 'O'Levels are coming and we are still fooling around...I want to study but I can't..I dunno why but I can't study at home or at school...At school, I will always be daydreaming or looking at her...At home, I will always go online, watch TV or stone around... Even if I study, it will only be a few minutes...I wanna change but I can't... Teachers nag and scold, but it seems ineffective to me and my frens...when I am given homework, I will do some of it and leave the others blank...and I totally give up at POA...no matter how hard the teacher teaches, it will always be a waste of time as not many of us pay attention to her.. My parents always says that I am smart but lazy, but I am really being plain lazy...Even after i falied in my tests or exams, they will still be by my side encouranging me to do better. My mum asked me recently if I wanted to go to tuition but I didn't want to go for it...I really regret it... Now, after school, my class needs to stay back until 4.30 to study, study and study... I know the teachers care for us, but this is going overboard....10 hours of study! and at home more studies! So, this song lyric goes out for my loved ones, my frens and everyone who knows me.... Return To Self-Loathing By: Mest ----------------------------------- Sick of the way I am feeling. Waking up watching myself slipping. Should i just take out my eyes? No longer want them for this life. Acting strong only on the outside. Hiding shame and pain on the inside. I've tried to block my mind of this and pretend is doesn't exist. Loosing my mind once again. Stranding my thoughts (no matter what I said). Sleepless nights staring at the ceiling. Sanity running on empty. Try to block my mind of this and pretend it doesn't exist. Loosing my mind once again. Stranding my thoughts (no matter what I said). Taken for granted again. Stranding my thoughts no matter what I said. Loosing my mind again. Stranded my thoughts no matter what I said. Loosing my mind once again. Stranding my thoughts no matter what I said. Please......I'm not pathetic or just acting cute....
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01,July,2004
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07,August,2004
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k taufix i can post a blog using my comp... so yarh taufix it really works...and im changing ur stting so that all ur entries from the first one appear here...
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18,July,2004
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hey i just got back from the movies. I saw 'I, Robot'. it was pretty good. but it had one awsum part when will smith was talking to this dude and he said something and then will smith sneezed. and when he sneezed he said ' im sry im allergic to bullshit'. lol that is THE greastest quote ever! I love that quote!! if u had read one of my other posts i put that in there, but i didnt know they had that line in the movie. thats weird that i said that and they had it in the movie too. ne ways...... im goin to my dads house on wednesday then goin to plano 4 a week. i so excited about goin 2 plano....i wish i could go more than a week but at least i get to go b cuz that would suck if i didnt. im bored as usual so i will type alot of random things. oh yea the ESPYS r tonight i gotta watch that(the ESPYS are awards for people who play sports and stuff). Jamie Foxx is the host and hes always funny. i got nothing else to type. im gunna go do wut ever the hell i do. im out. -TsuMlaKeRs88-
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17,July,2004
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man im so fuckin bored.. theres nuthin to do here in austin...i wanna get the hell outta here...well im goin 2 plano on the 23rd which is good...jrs new house is gunna be awsum..i wish he had a pool..but oh well im getting a pair of 2k4 basketball shoes...there so awsum... i have to order them so they should be in any day now. i got the red white and blue ones..they really comfortable 2 my dad called today and said he wanted to get me sum 2k4's.. but i already have sum...thats kewl ill just get another pair. i customized my own pair online it looks pretty good. its the color of the mcneil mavericks, my school. man i dont want school to start.... i like goin to bed at 3 and wakin up at 12-1. at least im not a freshman ne more. hopefully ill do better in school this year. im bored so im typing random things. im gunna go play PS2 or sumthin. im out -TsuMlaKeRs88-
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14,July,2004
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again, i didnt do much today. i went and played bball at the YMCA this evening and played a couple of pickup games. i did pretty well while playin w/some guys 2wice my size :) i love 2 play basketball. i think this is wut i was suppose 2 do wuz to play ball. idk.... my damn iPod wont play the songs i transfered from my bro's iPod(we both got iPods for his birthday:)) but ill fix it b4 i go to plano. now im gunna post lyrics to songs b cuz i want 2. well im goin 2 do wut ever the hell it is i do. im out 'How Come' [Eminem:] So I changed huh? You got a phone, pick it up, call me [Chorus: Eminem] How come we dont even talk no more And you dont even call no more We dont barely keep in touch at all And I dont even feel the same love when we hug no more And I heard it through the grape vine we even beefin now After all the years we been down Aint no way no how, this bullshit can be true We family and aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you [Verse 1: Eminem] So young, so full of life in vibrant side by side wherever you weres ridin i went So close, almost on some bonnie and clyde shit When ronnie died you weres right by my side with a sholder to cry on Tissue to wipe my eyes, and a bucket to catch every tear i cried inside it You even had the same type of childhood i did Sometimes i just want to know why is it that you surcame to yours And mine i survived it, you ran the streets, i 9 to 5'd it We grew up, grew apart, as time went by us, then i blew up To both yours and mine surprises Now i feel the vibe i just cant describe it As much as your pride tries to hide it Your cold, you touch its like ice In your eyes is the look of resenment I can sense it, and i dont like it [Chorus] [Verse 2: Kon Artis] It was my dream at first to be on spittin a verse On my own album with a deal but shit got burst So i came out i woulda killed a nigga first Before i let him disrespect me and check me over some worste Some bitch that i wasnt with i would hit her then quit But you would pull a talk with her and tell her she was the shit I told you dont get involved in it, you was smokin the chron with her Comin out of the bar with her stumblin half drunk Like yall was husband and wife or somethin But me catchin you fuckin other niggers musta hurt you pride or somethin Cuz you wont fuck at the mouth with people like you wanted with me When all i tried to do was show your bitch was shifty And ever since the fans and all the shit that i produced You actin like i aint you man and lyin like she can't be loose But i am really you friend, i'm jus trying to tell you the truth But dont hate the game or the player Cuz the one that is changing is you [Chorus] [Verse 3: Proof] You're only at the top cuz my homie had to stop Now we actin like i gotta live only for the block Homies in the hood only she be on the tube Only gossip on the porch get to speakin on who Fools i used to rap with all expect magic Like my finger get to snappin and *poof* it jus happen But PROOF is jus actin out the party was stoned Shady made it so my babys aint starvin at home See the devil in you grin since the ghetto we been friends Whenever real intelligence thats forever till the end I be the hatred in your eyes and the satan in your lives And wastin my times with these snakes in disguise (how come) when you talk its with bitter is fight And (how come) it's my fault for what you did with your life And everytime i go to hear you and play you look away We barely embrace, you can't even look me in my face. [Chorus] -TsuMlaKeRs88-
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13,July,2004
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jr is my brother from another mother. he is THE greasest friend a white boy could have. He is right about women, especially the beautiful ones. that ocean out there is fuckin huge thats filled with millions of fish. jr is my dawg and hes got my bak ...and he knos i got his, no matter what it is. its gunna be awsum at ur new house this summer. we have so many memories goin back to kindergarten. and theres more memories yet to come. i cant wait until the road trip and college, bro, its gunna be awsum. Well if no one knos i am a HUGE laker fan. jr knos. well there trading shaq to miami. WTF?!?!?! this sux ass. well now kobe will have his own team, and we will see if he can do wut jordan did...win w/ out the big fella. but jrs house is gunna be awsum i cant wait to go. jenny said she still likes me...*sneezes*...sry about that...i guess im allergic to bullshit. i lover and all..but idk....its just really confusing....i cant stop thinking about her....im just really confused right now. hopefully goin to plano will let me clear my mind a little. idk... well im goin 2 go do wut ever the hell i do...ill prolly post l8r.. im out! -TsuMlaKeRs88-
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12,July,2004
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yesterday i went to schlitterbahn. it was pretty fun. for u people who dont know what schlitterbahn, its a waterpark in new braunfels, tx. well my dad and stepmom picked us up and we pciked up sum friends as well. well we had fun and i dont want to post alot about it. im out. -TsuMlaKeRs88-
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12,July,2004
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my life just wet from heaven to hell. I met Jenny at a x-mas party this last christmas, but i was to shy to talk to her at the time. i also realized l8r she had a bf. my brother happened to get her sn, so we kept in contact over the second semester of school. we finally got back together in june. the first day i say her again i was so nervous i didnt kno wut to say. but eventually i got over it. 2 days l8r i went to her house. that was the best day ever. we made out on her front porch for like 10 min. i will always remember that day. i saw her again 2 days l8r, and we had to go to this kart ranch b cuz i dont have a car and i was at my aunts house w/my 2 little cousins. Then i saw her for one more time on saturday and we had a pretty good time.i didnt see for a while because we had to go bak home, then go bak to lafayette so we could go to florida for a week. that was pretty fun to make it short. we then went bak to lafayette and stayed there a few days( jenny lives in new iberia which is about 30 minutes away from lafayette, and this is in louisiana for u people who dont kno where these towns r located) I saw her the day after we got bak and we kised some more, but as usual it is hard to do ne thing b cuz u dont kno when my aunt or little cousins will barge in. but we still had fun. then i was suppose to see her on saturday, 7/3/04, but her mom called 30 minutes after she had just said she could go. i was really mad b cuz i wanted to see her one more time b4 i had to go bak 2 austin. well this is where it becomes hell... one week l8r, after coming bak fromt he movie 'White Chicks', which by the way was a funny movie, go see if it if u havent, i saw that jenny's sn was on. well i started talking to her, but it was her friend laura. she was tlking about this guy she liked, then she said there was this othre guy with her and jenny was there 2. and just guess what happened? they started making out. i was so fuckin pissed. we acualy never went out officially, but we made out 4 times, and i check her info on her sn, and she this guy was a great kisser, but she never put that i was a great kisser in her info, and 2 days ago, she asked me if she was a good kisser, and she also said that i was a great kisser. i dont get it. i felt like a one night stand in a way. like i was there just for a certain time. i felt betrayed in a way as well. i kno we live far away and all, but she didnt have to do that. u dont want to even kno the things i called her when i found out about that. i still havent tlked to her yet, her friend told me about it. i love her, but idk wuts going to happen, well, ill post l8r, im out -TsuMlAkerS88-
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See? urlLink Even Republicans don’t trust these things , despite Republican Governor Bush’s reassurances that the machines are hunky dory. So, again I ask: what possible good can it serve to prohibit these machines’ having a paper audit trail? To what end is this prohibition? Think about it. Hard. Don’t trust them. Your ancestors died to give you the right to vote. Follow the Florida GOP’s sage advice and urlLink get an absentee ballot – lest Snohomish County become the next Broward County.
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Here in lovely Snohomish County, we use touchscreen electronic voting machines. Well, by golly, guess what! urlLink CNN reports that a “computer crash” obliterated votes recorded using these touchscreen machines in Florida (where else). Apparently this poofing-away of votes into the ether took place in May and November of 2003, wiping out records from the September 2002 gubernatorial primaries and other elections. Interestingly, the malfunction was never disclosed to the public until the Miami-Dade Election Reform Coalition, a citizen's group, requested all data from the 2002 gubernatorial primary between Democratic candidates Janet Reno and Bill McBride. Imagine that. More interestingly, officials had not backed up this data. Hello, my ninety-five year old aunt, who collects family genealogical information on her ancient Tandy computer, knows to back up her data lest it be irretrievably lost. urlLink Who on earth is running the show in Florida? Why would they not have plans in place to have this data backed up? More interestingly yet, they have a rule in place in Florida which prevents counties from conducting manual recounts of electronically gathered votes. What, pray tell, is up with that? What possible end could that serve? Lida Rodriguez-Taseff, a lawyer for the citizens’ coalition that uncovered this fiasco, sums it up best in the urlLink NY Times : “Florida is headed toward being the next Florida.” Unless Snohomish County turns out to be the next Florida, that is. There are two things you need to do if you don’t want your ballot to be an exercise in futility: First and foremost, get on the list to receive a urlLink perpetual absentee voter form from the Snohomish County Auditor. This is the only way you have, as a resident of Snohomish County, to ensure that a physical record exists of your vote. Get it in the mail, fill it out at home, and drop it off personally at your local polling station the day of the election. Next, contact urlLink Snohomish County Auditor Bob Terwilliger and let him know you have extreme reservations regarding these contraptions, in general, and in particular their baffling and inexplicable lack of a physical audit trail. Bob is a very nice gentleman who does a fantastic job for us, but he needs to know what you think about these machines, which appear more and more to be simple Election Theft Devices. I never thought I’d see the day when we in the United States would need oversight of our election processes by an observer body, but apparently that’s where we’re at. Don’t tolerate it.
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What the hell is going on in Marysville? For a sleepy little burg it's sure got some high whackiness going on. Apparently three shotgun-toting ruffians knocked on some guy's door at midnight, knocked him out with a rock when he answered the door, tied him up, ransacked the joint, then tossed him in the back of their van, stole his own van, and finally got pulled over by one of Marysville's finest--thanks entirely to a busted headlight. They promptly ran off into the woods and have yet to be located. Meanwhile, the local newspaper's headline, even all these many hours later? ' urlLink Judge Faces a Fight for Job .' Oy.
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26,July,2004
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Make sure to check out the urlLink Kerry-Edwards Party Locator to pinpoint an acceptance speech party near you! These will take place the day after tomorrow. I just typed in my own area code and couldn't believe how many events there will be to celebrate John Kerry's acceptance as Democratic Nominee for POTUS. Click the link, sign up, and consider it your first step to restoring sanity to this country be restoring a sane man to the Oval Office.
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26,July,2004
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urlLink The Herald reports that Everett City Council has decided to guarantee a $5.7 million loan to help the Everett Housing Authority raise money for the purchase of the Asarco smelter site, and related costs. In other words, the city fathers are forking out $5.7 million dollars worth of taxpaying Everettoids’ money to buy a toxic dump. This amount of money is precisely $2.28 million in excess of the purchase price of this fantabulous gem of a property (this must comprise the “related costs”) so... note to developers and contractors of every imaginable variety: “Ding-ding-ding! Come ‘n get it!” Here’s my Top Ten List of proposed names for new Apartment Homes development that will no doubt be erected on this noxious neighborhood. Feel free to add your own! Arsenic Acres Baneful Brooke Skull Creek Estates Pestilential Pointe Contaminant Condominiums Lethal Landing Viperous Valley Baneful Bay Fatal Forest Manor Miasmatic Meadows
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25,July,2004
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What gives with the way trees are managed in Snohomish County? If you own a property in a residential neighborhood (here in urlLink Lynnwood , anyway) then good luck cutting down one of your trees, regardless that it’s your personal property. One would imagine the impetus behind this kind of local government intrusiveness is a well intentioned but big-brotherly attempt to ensure that trees aren’t removed willy-nilly, thereby preserving the suburban woodland texture and ambiance of our corner of Washington. Leaving aside the competing effect that our numerous shoddy strip malls and trashy trailer parks already have on our pristine wonderland, the best possible argument to remove this restriction is the simple fact that Lynnwoodians at large are hardly itchin’ to break out the chainsaws en masse. If a private citizen wants to remove his privately owned tree, he’s got a good and valid private reason and that should be plenty good enough for the city fathers. By and large, the average homeowner appreciates the beneficial effects that trees have on his property and would only remove one if need be. Besides, one would imagine that the city fathers would target the prime offenders rather than John Q. Public. Have they never observed the way these pre-fab, cheap-‘n-tawdry housing developments are slapped together? They usually go up in the immediate vicinity of longstanding residential neighborhoods populated by owners who are limited with what they may do with their privately owned trees. Typically, construction on the housing development begins with clear cutting every last evergreen from the area to be developed. Talk about coddling megabuck developers and holding them to a different standard than Joe Sixpack. When at last the Barbie Playhouse look-alike apartment homes are landscaped, the flora consists of a few juniper shrubs and, of all things, cheap deciduous trees that don’t even belong here (and which, to boot, provide all the more breeding ground for the infernal gypsy moth). Trees in these developments should be replaced with the evergreens that were cleared out to make way for them. This is, after all, the urlLink Evergreen State . Meanwhile, strike the law that prohibits free use of private property.
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25,July,2004
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urlLink Congressman Jay Inslee's campaign for reelection to Washington's 1st Congressional District seat got off to a rollicking start yesterday at Edmonds Woodway High School in Edmonds. Ambassador Joe Wilson was the featured speaker, and yours truly had the pleasure of shaking the man's hand. Although his wife Valerie Plame wasn't in attendance, her uncle, a newly former Republican from Portland, was. Apparently the gentleman was a Republican active in his party for years, but when he had the audacity to voice a measure of displeasure about his neice's cover as a CIA agent being blown by the Bush administration, his contemporaries drummed him out of the party despite years of loyal service. It's not as if anybody requires further proof at this stage, but for the record that does tell one all one needs to know about the depths to which the once great Republican party has fallen. Imagine, deliberately blowing the cover of an American agent, endangering her life. Imagine, defending that kind of treason. I don't know about you, but that doesn't sound like anything any of the Republicans I know would ever do. Then again, they're not running the party these days. It's against the unsavory, dangerous minority who are running the Republican show that our man Jay stands firm on our behalf in the other Washington. Visit his campaign website and donate some money and, just as importantly, a few hours of your time to his campaign.
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03,August,2004
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Ah... Baseball, Mom and Apple Pie! Or is that “Ballfields, Carlots and Antenna Farms?” Appearance versus reality. We all come to grips with the difference between the two sooner or later, but the kids of Snohomish County are getting a first-hand lesson earlier than they should have to, along with a primer in sleaze politics, by virtue of their being used as hostages by two of the factions fighting in the desperate, grabassdick fight for cheap land here in Snohomish County. Basically, it appears that both the North- and South-Snohomish Little League organizations built ballfields on farmland in direct violation of the law. The Seattle Times reported that after a neighbor complained about the traffic and lack of permits, Code Enforcement issued a stop-work order since the fields were plainly illegal--and the very next day, County Councilman Jeff Sax’s office sent an email to the planning department, copying fellow Councilman Koster’s office, requesting that the stop-work order be lifted so they could get on with the project—this despite the fact that the project was, as mentioned, in direct violation of the law. You have to ask yourself a couple questions. First, what kind of person commits hundreds of thousands of dollars of his Little League organization’s money to building ballfields that are in flagrant violation of the law? My answer is, “a dumb ass.” Secondly, what kind of councilman actually encourages the illegal construction of ballfields in flagrant violation of the law? My answer is, “a crooked politician with an ulterior motive.” Bottom line, it appears that Councilman Sax, untroubled by the prospect of using children as pawns and holding them hostage to achieve his political aims, encouraged the Little League organizations to proceed with the illegal construction of the ballfields, allegedly allaying their concerns with promises that the law prohibiting their construction would be changed in Olympia—and the trusting and well-intentioned (albeit myopic and self-centered) Little League organizations willingly listened to these sweet nothings and went merrily ahead with the construction. Predictably, the law was, in fact, not changed in Olympia—the proposed change having been defeated as it had been defeated every other year since it was first introduced. At the end of the day, the Little League organizations either outright failed to perform due diligence or their counsel was breathtakingly incompetent, as the construction was clearly illegal from the get-go. And despite this, they willfully chose to go ahead with it anyway, risking their own kids’ baseball seasons on a brazen gamble that forgiveness would be forthcoming where permission was not—especially if they appealed strongly enough to maudlin emotion to justify their lawbreaking. I don’t know about you, but if I decided to break the law, I highly doubt that “I did it for the kids!” would be considered a valid excuse. It’s Responsibility Time, folks. STRIKE ONE! – Against the reckless, and may I say shockingly self-centered Little League organizations. Then there’s Councilman Sax, who appears to have given an absolutely virtuoso performance in playing the Little Leagues like a bunch of moronic suckers by luring them into building their ballfields illegally. The image of hundreds of teary-eyed children being denied the right to play baseball would make one hell of a propaganda tool to garner the average voter’s pity—thereby doing much to contribute to a public willingness to change state law for a county problem which he, to all appearances, incubated. STRIKE TWO! – Against Sax. Politics is dirty, this we all know—but politicians, at least, are adults and know what they’re getting into. To gamble with children’s life experiences like this, well… that’s about as low as it gets, even for a career politician like Sax. There really are no words for this level of contemptibility. Finally, there’s Councilman Koster, who’s come out trying to assign the blame for this whole pathetic fiasco to “1000 Friends of Washington,” of all organizations. 1000 Friends, being an environmental group, exists to protect the environment against the depredations of developers and their bought-and-paid-for politicians, like Koster and Sax. Koster’s blame-spreading is actually side-splittingly hilarious in light of the fact that 1000 Friends has, incredibly, voiced a willingness to overlook the illegal land-grab and work to change the law at the county level to grandfather in the ballfields. Their position is a case study in practical compromise, and makes sense since it’s a county problem that the County Council helped create. It’s also mighty generous considering that the purpose of 1000 Friends is to guard against precisely this kind of raping and pillaging of our natural resources. Believe it or not, Koster will have none of it. So: STRIKE THREE – Against Koster, for demonstrating to us his idea of personal responsibility: “blame environmentalists.” The fact that Sax and Koster are digging in their heels and refusing to work pragmatically to change the law at the county level tells you everything you need to know about their objectives. It seems pretty obvious that they set out to get the children into an extreme situation tailor made to solicit your sense of pity and urgency, use this deliberately nurtured county problem as a wedge to force a change in a state law they’re trying to kill off on behalf of their masters, and scapegoat an environmental group in the process. Their unwillingness to solve this at the county level is particularly illuminating considering that they had no problem fixing similar problems at the county level—when it was a carlot and an antenna farm needing their ministrations and intervention, instead of a bunch of unwealthy, bothersome Little Leaguers. Nice guys, wouldn’t you say? You have work to do come election time, Snohomish County. Give Aaron Reardon a County Council that will do things for the right reason and put a human face on county politics.
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24,June,2004
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The other night at Lake Norman was amazing. You asked me later if I liked it, and I think I mumbled some noncommittal 'Yeah, it was good'. As is your custom you pressed further, inquiring as to what, exactly, I liked best. What I meant to say, somewhere between me looking away and shuffling my feet awkwardly, is that those few hours were the precise definition of an extended perfect moment. What I couldn't tell you was that your face, bathed in the light of the setting sun, was so beautiful that I had to close my eyes and bite my lip to keep from crying. It was like the sun broke free of the clouds in that one spot, to set just for us, to confirm for me that I've finally landed in the right place. So to answer your question, what I liked best was you. The incredible sex and the M&M cookie that followed weren't too bad, either.
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20,June,2004
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So dad and I headed out to Lake Weiss at 4am to try out the new reel I bought him for father's day. Apart from waking up at 3:30, I was pretty crunk about the entire experience. I got to drive the boat, we caught a few good sized bass, and we watched the sun make its ascent over the mountains on what ultimately became a beautiful morning in Alabama. I found that talking openly with my dad is much easier on a boat in the dark. As always, he gave me a few tips on how to deal with women. I took notes, too, because the guy was a pimp before he and mom got married. I observed the change in our dynamic when the sun came up with an almost bemused detachment. We've been partners in crime, allies wading into battle with my formidable mother. We give each other those side arm half hugs if physical interaction is absolutely required, but the ferocity of the love between us is undeniable. I feel more peaceful right now than I have in a while. It's good to be home.
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18,June,2004
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So I took a look at my pee, metaphorically of course, as Kenshata suggested. I need to drink more water. Purify things a bit.
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17,June,2004
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Last night I saw the movie Saved. If you can overlook the fact that Mandy Moore and Macaulay Culkin are in it, you'll laugh your happy ass off for an hour and a half. I made the mistake of drinking a lot of water beforehand, which resulted in a near miss piss myself sort of debacle. And hey, the shit is frighteningly relevant with the Bush administration attempting to turn Christian doctrine into public policy and all. Kenshata and Anne, you'd both be all about it.
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13,June,2004
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I'm back in the ATH after a week long hiatus. Normally that would be a good thing, but Stacey just left and I'm inordinately sad about it. :( I wouldn't mind a nice 'Awww' or a pat on the head right about now, but that's entirely up to you. At any rate, it was a good weekend. I took Stacey on her first trip to the wonder that is Alabama. We saw a few notable mullets and got a lot of funny looks while we were in Walmart, but that was mostly because I insisted on touching her breasts in public. We also spent about 6 hours on James' couch watching Newlyweds reruns. That is where the seeds of my current ambition were firmly planted: I will have Nick Lachey's hair. I worked it out so it looked pretty fly this morning, but it kind of started to wilt like bad lettuce. What I need is more hold. I have like 10 various gels and waxes lined up on the counter in my bathroom. I will not rest until I have achieved his unbelievable separation and matte finish. The experiment is fixin to commence, y'all. Stay tuned.
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10,June,2004
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I just got a hair cut. It's all sorts of blond and spiky. If I had a digital camera I would take a picture so you guys could see. Actually, I wouldn't. I'd be too busy taking sex pictures. But that's neither here nor there. I need a digital camera.
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10,June,2004
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I'm really feelin the new Indigo Girls CD, hence the quote. They finally quit with the experimental bullshit and went back to what they do best. I saw them in Birmingham in April, just them and two guitars. I was blown away. I've seen them probably close to 20 times but that was by far the most impressive. Due to the wealth of time on my hands of late I've been doing a lot of reading. There's this guy, Augusten Burroughs, and he's lived the craziest life ever. Crazy enough to write two books about, and he's only like mid-twenties. The first one, Running With Scissors, is freakin' amazing. I read it in a day. The 2nd is called Dry and I'm working on it right now. I think I like it so much because he writes like I would if I weren't constantly avoiding that whole 'honest look at yourself' thing.
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13,July,2004
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They're having this show on tonight called Venom ER. It's about people getting their dumb asses bitten by snakes and having to go to the hospital. I'm unduly excited, forgive me my enthusiasm.
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10,January,2004
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AN INTRODUCTION TO THIS BLOG Google is an amazing search engine...why? BEcause I found few of my lost poems and articles that I had written over the Net. There is this one article that I had written for Zatang.com which really defines bizarre and that is where it was put in the site anyways. Ok I shall keep posting my inklings as I find them. for now: GET BORED WITH THESE Have Lost - Deepa Rajan Have lost my heart has anyone seen it... Have lost my soul has anyone seen it... My heart is an innocent being, It knows not of this heartless world. My soul is the gullible one, It gets charmed by poison smiles and beguile emotions. The heart is a brave fool, It ventures Unarmed, into the deep unknown. Foolhardy soul of mine, Thinks every other soul as a friend so selfless and kind. Both my heart and soul are unsafe bets I know, Without them life would have a smooth flow. But they are the only possessions, I can call my own. Where art thou oh heart and soul of mine Return to me and my own. A Tale of a broken heart... - Deepa Rajan Once upon a time there was a heart full of mirth... It dreamt of soulful music and ethereal ways... It sang songs of hope and peace... It fell in love and hoped like an optimist Little did it know that hope is always short lived... It knew not of the cruel tyranny of fate. Oblivious it floated in the clouds of love Only to be rained out into the cold... There it lay in mud and mire, With a wistful look Broken into a thousand pieces. Still waiting to be picked up, All it had was a bag full of delusive hope. Clenching the bag it bled.... Not a single soul to its help... Bled to its dirgeless death. An Ode To The Child in Me - Deepa Rajan An ode to the child in me... An ode to the child in me.... I am a grown up now... But the memories of childhood still linger on. The sugarcoated candies still cause a tingle in the tongue... The swings in the park yet create a flutter in the otherwise rational heart, Carillons of the ice-cream carts bring the wry silenced soul to yodel a merry song, The child in me still eggs me to give credence to the Cinderella dream... She succors me bridge the chasm between the relentless world of rat races and the simple road to humanity... As much I would like to be her all my life, I know it's not possible anymore So here my child is an ode to u... For giving me the verve to dream once in a while. I might forget of your existence in the coming days..but You shall always hold that very cherished place in the corner of my oh so grown-up heart!!! Pensiveness Of An Enslaved Soul - Deepa Rajan I am feeling like a charlatan today, a convict who has gone unpunished. Funny how I see myself, conning people whom come into my life. I don't seem ever to feel anything I say I am feeling, its as if a pseudo personality is functioning parallel to my own .Its as if this parallel person is the one running my life. She is regulating my feelings as if it were her life... It's as if I am supposed to feel what she feels, behave as she behaves, Why do I feel so inept beyond any powers to win over my soul? Am I going to be a prisoner to this pseudo all my life??... Whatever I am writing now is in one of those exiguous moments where she is probably taking a nap... unaware that I am gossiping about her with my self, am complaining about her, am making futile plans yet again to overthrow her and become the master of my own soul.... She is basically a nice person I know but something in her is wild untamed irresponsible. Which stops her from submitting to the social obligations a human animal has to go through, to become a socially accepted being. She rebels at every occasion. She questions my every move and changes the course of my actions. She has become what people prefer to call an Individual. She refuses to accept that an individual has to accept society to be treated ad one of its members... She fights with every last breath in her soul, she accumulates all her energies into making me what I am not, I am scared that this individual that I have learnt to love and hate at same time has become me or I am beginning to mold myself into what she is and am losing my self. One instant she is making me a vagrant, and then in a jiffy she pushes me towards stability. She has this uncanny knack of disillusioning me to believe in a world, in which her flights of fancy, which shall be otherwise considered, unwanted creepers in the real world, shall be the very Garden of Eden. This garden of thoughts seems green all right but somewhere it spells doom for my existence in the real world... I am sure one day there shall appear a serpent, which shall unshackle me into the realms of harsh reality. To Adam and eve the serpent might have been a temptation to me he is my savior. The messiah whom I shall owe my life, my liberty to. I am fervently awaiting the serpent of responsibility to enter into my life to realize me from my precarious self... He has to be my dream man for now for he shall lead me to the light of perfection and rid me of the vices of woolgathering and dallying my life away. Yes I wait for him as Benhur's mother waited to get a glimpse of Christ. Hope it is not a long wait... The pseudo person has woken up, I better desist my thoughts......... How do I know she has woken up? ... Well I have started hoping have I not? For don't we all know things don't come to those who wait, and are we not aware of the truth that God helps those who help themselves. Marriage: the union of the mindless! Deepa Rajan The process of life in itself is a series of vicious whirlpools that suck in almost every form of energy, which we humans have been gifted with. One such whirlpool is the process called 'marriage'. Wonder why marriage is called the sacred union… the way the before-effects and aftermath ruin a perfectly sane and normal human it should be called the 'union of the Scared and Puzzled'. Let us begin from the very beginning…. boy and girl meet, boy an girl fall in love or think they fall in love. Of course needless to say what follows is the usual episode of the Escapades of romantic fools. The long drives the phone calls hour after hour not to mention the mindless spending on cards and gifts for each other. The boy proposes, the girl accepts, now it is time for parents to dispose the parents have to be told, after all they are the ones who have to spend their life saved earnings to join their kids in 'hollow matrimony'. Once the parents get fleeced to part with their hard-earned money for a once in a lifetime marriage, the wedding cards are printed, the shopping done with such zest that could cause the worker ant to blush red in his tiny cheeks, the groom rides into the sunset or should I say onset of darkness to the tune of wedding marches. The bride decks herself in all the finery there is, to the utmost queasiness of a person being strangled. The union takes place in wee hours of the time zone amidst sleepy people and even drowsier and whining kids. The stage is now set for another debacle. The newly married couple sit on an elevated podium only to stand every minute to thank the people who dared to attend the wonderful ceremony (to be read as ceremony full of wonders!) Now you know how the peon feels every time he has to get to salute every person no matter what his worth. The peon endures it for the sake of money, but please do explain to me why do the two people who commit t an error have spend a whole lot of money telling the whole world too. The first act of this play called marriage ends here. The second act is a separate story. The first two or three years of married life are filled with mixed emotions of joy, fear and expectations. The joy of discovering each other exploring each other is what a new marriage is all about. He brings her flowers, she cooks him his favorite food. He surprises her with candle lite dinners, she leaves love notes in his pocket. The lovebirds are in a dream nest of their own. The couple soon becomes a trio, the joy of bringing a life to this world is a miracle at first. The hospital bills paid, and how can one forget to celebrate ones second mistake of life, parties given to the rest of the nearby world for the pains the couple took. The realization dawns, such miracles cost a lot. The craving to have more than simple delights of love and togetherness gives rise to the run for money and the third act begins here. Honeymoons become bitter gourd moons love notes and cards are replaced by the every piling stock of bills. The wife is no longer concerned with his favorite food. The husband looks at flowers as nothing more than an additional expense. the time they used to spend on complementing each other is now spend on calculating the budget an accusing each other of spending more and caring less. Life become an expense list, all the hoopla created to begin married life drowns itself in the sounds of the baby crying an the couple quarreling. In the end living the once helplessly in love couple to question the validity of the decision of marriage. What began as a willful union now becomes as adjustment. there remains only a single question is this a 'marriage of the minds' or a 'mindless marriage'. I can't help falling in love Deepa Rajan 'Wise men sing …….. only fools rush in…. I cant help falling in love with you……….' UB40 definitely knew what they were singing about…oh yeah romantic fools like me sure do rush in. Love is probably the only sole emotion that actually can single handedly topple kingdoms, and makes absolute fools out of sanest of men, or else how can someone explain the sleepless nights, the constant wool gathering and the mindless smiles that a person giving to oneself every time he or she thinks about the love of his/her life. Look at me for instance I am one of those people who strongly believes in the : 'love that is logical survives.' yet all I seem to be doing for the past few days is float in a sky of my own… I am being anything but logical…logic right now hardly manages to penetrate the outer ring of my brains an behaving like a zombie… with a pasted wishy washy smile on my face. All of a sudden the birds seem to be so romantic (actually its raining cats and dogs and the roads are al muddy and yucky!). But I don't have to walk on the roads, I simply am flying high, right above the 'oh so fluffy clouds'. Is this what love is all about or is this some king of psychological game that fate plays with us poor human souls. Does every single soul feel this way? I have lost touch with the real world, since I am busy planning interiors of the castle I am building in air. In fact I am so lost in my world that I hear music all the time and even the shrill cry of my mother seems so melodious to me (I have never ever seen eye to eye with my mother and like all other daughters rebel with every ounce of energy in me). Then there is this constant ringing of bells in my mind as if Christmas were being celebrated . Every time the phone rings, I run to pick it up thinking it must be him, it has to be him. Every time I log on to the messenger I anticipate him to be online and if he is not I leave nonsensical messages for him. I am sure that I am on the verge of losing even the little bit of rationality I thought I possessed. This feeling (god knows what it is) has taken my life over and has made a complete bum ort of the otherwise sober me. There is this air of wishful thinking surrounding me. How I wish Barbara Cartland and the likes of a her could have written instruction manuals for 'how to behave when you are in love'. I am absolutely clueless as to why I am behaving the way I am behaving, the strangest part of this whole story is that I know what I should not be doing and I still seem to be doing it. I guess ' I cant help falling in love…' The sound of silence Deepa Rajan If one were to look deep into the meaning of silence, all one would find would be stillness. That would be because one equates silence with stillness or noiselessness. Silence means that absence of sound and that is all there is to it. But for a person like me, who has been a talkative person all her life, silence meant boredom. It meant cessation of active life. Communication is one of the worldly vices that I thrive on. But like all myopia-stricken eyes in this world I have restrained myself to the traditional methods of communication. No doubt, the mouthpiece we have to talk in probably one of the most amazing gifts we as humans could ever be blessed with. And I am sure most of us are spend thrifts when it comes to this gift. The technicalities of speech, the minding of our Ps and Qs and the regular social faux pas we make while speaking, all seem irrelevant inanities, when all we want to do is to talk and to connect with people. I have always been a staunch devotee of communication; in fact the only reason I probably put up with the gadget called telephone is because it makes communication easier. The reason I could gloat about being communicative was because I lived under the misconception that I possess a vocal chord and that somehow makes me communication savvy. I am a working girl and I often do not return home early. That day was probably one of those rare days when I found time to relax and put my feet up, and I returned home early intending to do exactly that, somehow things turned our quite differently. Being the itinerant soul that I am, I simply could not allow myself to stay home and relax, so I decided to go for a walk. There was no specific place to go to , so I let my feet pave their ways, and they led me to a super market nearby. After spending my time in there, doing a little bit of rack shopping I walked out of the place. The popcorn machine caught my fancy and that I decided would be my next stop. As I was standing by the machine, waiting to have my fill of popcorn, I noticed few hands waving in the air. A group of girls was standing next to me and I could see then talking about something and the excitement sparkled in their eyes, as they communicated with each other through the hand gestures. There had been a function that day in the nearby auditorium, the annual day function of a deaf and dumb school and these girls were from the school. The first thought that rushed through my mind was ii wish I knew what they were talking about. The sparkle in their eyes was so contagious that it made me want to be a part of that conversation but my disability stopped me. I do not know sigh language and it never occurred to e that I should learn it as naturally as I wanted to learn other languages. The distance between this store and the main road can be covered in a mere two seconds, but that day it took me forever, I was more kids standing outside on the road and as I walked past them I could feel them talk, the moment of their hands made conversation like a musician makes music or a baker bakes a cake. That is when I heard it, the sound of silence and believe me folks that sound is heavily. Being able to talk nineteen to dozen without uttering even a single work. It made me remorseful for not having been able to understand or talk and revel in their joy with them. The sound of silence I heard that day taught me a lot. It taught me the worth of silence. It make me understand that there is a higher plane in communication, the very plane, that forms the part of being its antonym: Silence! It takes a woman…. Deepa Rajan The great epic Mahabharata would have never been quite the same without Draupadi and we all know it! Had it not been for her haughty and stubborn demeanor we would have lost on one of the world's greatest war sagas. Hats off to Draupadi for so innocently manipulating a bunch of men into waging the biggest war in the history of mythological fables. The very first politician was born that day…and she was a woman. Where antiquity gave us Jhansi Ki Rani, Chand Bibi and Jodha Bai, it paved way for Sarojini Naidu, Kasturbha Gandhi and the great likes of them who gave the word freedom a whole new meaning by walking and fighting shoulder to shoulder with men. Independence was won; we were a free nation. Nehru became the first Prime Minister of free India. And unknown to fate itself, his daughter Indira was waiting in the wings to someday take over his reins. The first woman Prime Minister. The first women in power who actually made full use of it! Unlike her father's straight nature politics, Indira somehow managed to be quite a politician and left a legacy for he son, Rajiv who never quite could squeeze his feet in those shoes! Enter Sonia, known only as Rajiv's widow. Today she has come quite a long way from being 'The Gandhi bahu' to 'Sonia Gandhi: the very influential Congress leader.' Her critics refuse to see that she brought up two kids like any other woman, was a dutiful wife like any other wife. Shi too as it turned out had politics in her blood… which book says women cannot be shrewd or play politics, probably the same which says women are the root cause of all evil. Take Jayalalitha for example, covered in deep-rooted grim of politics from head to toe. That did not stop her from collecting n number of saris and chappals, did it? No justification can be offered for her being so unscrupulous but at the same time one can't help but admire the guts of the woman to stand her guns and Champaign for the elections despite the Election Commission order that she cannot contest. She wages the war of politics as well as she used to deliver dialogues in her movies. While in the south, men are still losing their sleep over this woman in the east it's Mamta Banerjee who has given the Railways a whole new track to ride on. She might have been pushed off that track but that has in no way stopped her from fighting for her piece of political kingdom in the Centre. And whoever said that behind every successful man is a woman was so politically correct. After all isn't Laloo who has probably scammed enough fodder to last seven generations of his cattle and himself, basking in his wife's chief ministership glory. Now that is some woman one great husband and 11 children later, she still has the nerve to run a state like Bihar, so what if the husband provides some political tips once in a while. All said and done, while the woman in television is turning the Hindustani nari leaf with the advert of Tulsi and Priya, the Nari of Bharatiya Rajniti is taking the proverbial bull by the horn and creating a dais for a lot of Priyanka Gandhis. So even if the historians claim that Cleopatra was an ugly fat woman, they cannot change history and the fact that the woman had 10,000 men fall to her charms and the greatest for them all Caesar lost lot more than his heart to this woman! Astrological blues Deepa Rajan 'Apka Rahu satve ghar mein. Shani aathve ghar mein hai, isliye aap beghar hain,' this is what the Sadhu baba told Mr. Sampat. Mr Sampat has been a poor troubled man for the past few months. His landlord is hell bent on evicting him and like all middle class men, Mr Sampat has made no arrangements for a secure future, not that he did not want to, but the electricity bill, the Vegetable prices and the school fees of his five children (who by the way happen to be products of the family astrologer's prophecy that Mr Sampat was destined to have a boy!) simply occupied his wallet priorities. Mr Sampat represents millions of those peoples who eke out a middle class living, are God-fearing not to say superstitious. So it was obvious, when the next door neighbor came rattling about a Sahdu baba having magical powers (if reports were to be believed he would definitely win the Noble Prize for clairvoyance par excellence), Mrs. Sampat immediately broke her piggy bank, almost broken her poor husband's already bent bones and dragged him to the Sadhu baba. There had been many before this Sadhu baba other that the regular family astrologer cum pundit. Each had a planet-housing scheme to offer which of course involved giving up anything ranging from one half of your monthly earnings to your whole life. Astrology is one of the biggest pastimes available to mankind, for a cost of course, nothing is free in this world. But one has to marvel at the way this astrology has embedded itself in the human soul. Take Mr Popatlal for example, he happened to have the unlucky/lucky opportunity of having his fortune told by a roadside astrologer with a parrot for a sooth sayer. Mr Popatlal was asked to avoid the color blue as one would avoid the plague. So the went about eliminating anything an everything blue, he refused to buy his wife blue saris and did not let his daughter marry the man of her choice because he happened to be working in a blue 'neel' ke factory, needless to say his wife left him, the daughter ran away leaving Mr Popatlal to deal with those lonely blues. I guess the astrologer was right after all! What kind of mental mechanism makes us so scared of the unknown, and why this curiosity to known and why this curiosity to know the future and then worry over its uncertain existence? Marriages seem to have borne the most of the astrology brunt. Love marriages might be made in heaven, but here on earth 'horoscopes' make marriages I would not even want to go into details of what goes into making the perfect match, because for me it would be a personal nightmare. Since I am of marriageable age, naturally my mother is worried. So as soon as some 'horoscope' lands itself on my mother's lap, off she goes to the astrologer wanting to see if I get a perfect ten. Not to mention that just by chance if the 'horoscope' matches and God forbid, nothing works out, you can always blame poor god or fate. God must forever standing between the devil and the deep blue sea. Good things happen, bad things happen blame God or his deputy Fate. Oh! I almost forgot gemology, one of the major sister concerns of astrology and one of my very dear friends happens to be a strong believer in gems. He has all his ten fingers full of rings and is still lamenting about life being unfair! Too much of the gem effect one must say! After all too many positives can always make up a negative, can't they? All said and done 'astrology' has firmly attached itself to the human psyche and now also the UGC syllabus. So when Mr Sampat's back finally breaks feeding his five bhagwan ki den children he can safely blame it on God, and his children can take over the astrological torch of living life according to the planets way.
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05,June,2004
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Hello. I'm so glad you've come. Would you like a cup of tea? I like mine with two heaped spoons of sugar and full-cream milk. But you can have yours any way you like. I'm not going to stop you. Well, I might as well introduce myself, since you've made it this far. And you look like you're comfortable so I've got nothing to lose. My name is Mrs Walker and I am 26 years old. I live in a pink square house on Harlem Avenue, in a working class neighborhood ten miles west of the Chicago loop. My husband, Mr. Walker, and I, bought the house in April and we moved in on May 1. Our house is different from other houses. From Harlem Avenue, our house looks just like a pink square lego brick that's come alive and has grown eyes and a mouth. In front of the house is a strawberry field and there are five fruit trees on our double lot. We have grape vines growing over the deck and peonies, roses and other exotic looking flowers exploding all over our Chicago plot. On the other half of the lot (it's a double) are neat blocks of soil divided by wooden walkways. We have planted corn, brocolli, carrots, beans, tomatoes, peppers and herbs here. Every day my husband and I look on in astonishment as the plants rise up out of the ground in their mission to feed us. When we first looked at the house in March this year, we had no idea what was already in the ground. The stawberry plants, berries and grapevines have all burst forth since we moved in. In the last two weeks we have picked perhaps half a dozen pounds of strawberries. We've given away baskets to friends and I took a couple quarts into the office one day. We've made strawberry jam and I tried strawberry fudge but I didn't wait for the mixture to get hot enough and it didn't set. I threw the whole pan of fudge out and only had to feel guilty about the dollar or so that I spent on the can of evaporated milk, and the three cups of sugar. Well, that is not exactly true. I was sorely devastated by my failed fudge attempt and I bought new ingredients at the grocery store today. In fact I'm going to attempt a new batch again right now. If it turns out alright this time, I'll share the recipe with you. So please come back to visit. Next time I may even have a chocolate biscuit for you to eat with your tea.
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31,July,2004
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Uhm, whoa , I just read mi first post, I cannot believe thats what i have been feeling in the past, i know i was severeli suffering from depression a while back, I had to take pills, although, I dont even know who knew that... Well, Paul being on the fucking list dint help, I am just so glad I dont feel like that anymore... I am over pretti much everything that is on mi ' list ' is gone... I have realized that ever since I did get with Jeffie, things have been a lot better. But i dont want to reli on him. I dont trust guys for fuck... Like honestli, there is nothing like the pain of a broken heart, and i dont want to feel that pain again, If you know what i mean. Guys can kiss mi ass, when i think about it, why do i waste mi time on the opposite sex? What is the point on having a bf at this very point and time in mi life, is it helping me out any? Uhm, Well I like having bf's its nice to have someone you care for, but there is so much trust involved, i know that i have not been the most trustworthy person in the whole entire world, and i think that jeffie is trustworthy, i am just a jealous person, and that is mi nature although, it is a bad trait, i shall one dai get over it.. Even though i am saiing all these negative things about having a bf, i still love having jeff as mine, he makes me feel so good about miself, and he treats me so well... He is (as i have said before) like the sweetest guy i have ever met. But i think that i have realized, that he and i are a lot alike, i dont know if he notices, and i highli doubt that he does... But i am going to pai closer attention to that... I wonder what is going to happen when paul gets back? I am so going to cope just fine, I just dont know how awkward it is going to be, like if we are even going to be friends, honestli, i realli did love paul. i dont know how i did so fast, and i dont get attached to mi bf's (and the thing is that he wasnt even mi bf) i wonder if one dai jeff will be able to love me, or is that too much to be asking for. Love is such a serious word and at times it can be intimidating, but if used in the right situation, then it can be the most precious caring thing that anyone has ever been told. One dai i hope for someone to love me, and to care about me, and alwais be there for me. Even though i have jeff, i dont know what he is thinking, and i dont realli talk to him about that stuff, i mean we have been like going out for like 2 weeks, i know, i am not expecting anything of the sort from him, that would scare him awai, and to be honest, i think that it would be wierd, i just hope that one dai we can be something, something that is so special beyond belief... Right now we just started going out, of course it is going to be awesome at the beginning thats how it all the time, and then when you get into the relationship, you start bitching at one another, and then blah blah blah... haha naw thats not for me, i am going to do everthing to tri and make it so that doesnt happen... haha i am not the kind of gf that likes bitching and complaining, i like triing to make things worse, as far as i am concerned, i like being the wai i am as a gf, i am alwais triing to make whoever i am with feel special about themselves, and i love giving rather than recieving, i love to see jeff smile, it makes me happi... everything about him makes me happi, but when he laughs or smiles at me, everything goes wonderful for that one second, and then its over, and i cannot relive the situation onli because it is something you have to see, and be there for. i know that i am such a loser, what can i sai, thats me... But even sexualli, i like giving rather than recieving, personalli, i dont know why, i mean i dont mind either wais :P, but as i said, i love making the other person feel good, even if it is in a sexual wai, its all good... haha i dont know, im such a loser, i just hope jeff likes me as much as i like him, cause the experience with paul made me veri cautious, i am not sure about what anyone says anymore, it all could be one big lie. but naw i highli doubt it... I dont want to leave tomorrow, i am going to miss jeffie so much, i know i sound pathetic (again) but it is true, I hope that he misses me a lot too, i know that it is onli going to be one week, and when i come back it is going to be 3 weeks that i have been going out with jeff, haha it is getting longer by the dai, i want him to be mi longest relationship. that would be wicked, i know that his was 3 months with that christa chic, or however you spell her name. He went to go visit her, and then he thought that i would be jealous for it... well of course i was kind like... 'uhhmmm...' like you know, okai, thats kinda wierd, but then i mean he is aloud to have friends that are gurls, even the ones that broke his heart when they went out with him... But aw well there is nothing to do with me there, so i am not going to worri... I dont think that i am aloud to worri, i see a lot of guys, and that is being equalli, you know... the same kinda, although i dont realli go out and visit mi ex bf's... but its all good, whatever cooks your banick... (thats so paul right now) Speaking of the devil, Jeffie just signed in, I tried talking to him earlier, and i think that his msn was fucked, i dont know, and as he would sai, i dont fuckin care... haha anyway, i am now talkin to him, haha about the fucking song that i love so FUCKING MUCH! Haha gotta love TEN SPEED HERO , i love them soo much man... haha i dont know, i am such a fucking loser, i could sai it forever... haha oh well... I think that i will be going and i will blog later... i dont know if i will in the next passing week, since i will be gone, but i will recap, when i get back, it is going to be sooooo long, :) CIAO FOR NOW PURPLE COWZ! Peace out...
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Sagittarius
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30,July,2004
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OOOhhhh... NNNooo The dumbass passed summer school, that so means that everione HAS TO... I'm so proud man, I got a 65% and eh, that aint that bad.. :P haha aw well, i am just glad, thought i would make it known that i am the smartest individual EVER! Mwahahahaha *evil smile* Y'all wanna piece of me bitches... haha im just so tempting, and soo sexXxie... haha aaww yea, put that in your pipe and smoke it... haha im just plaiing around, you would have to be mental, to want to get with me, and that means that jeffie is the most mentallest out there... :P haha oh well i am going now, and i dedicated my favouritest SONG IN THE ENTIRE WORLD to Jeffie! Uhm, it's: The No Seatbelt Song-Brand New Out of all the songs in the universe, thats mi fave one ever! So Jeffie, feel special :P CIAOZ!
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29,July,2004
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Sniff sniff, this song actualli makes me cry , its so sad... I hate it, how sad it is rather... Stupid Early November, oh well its just a song right, or perhaps its screaming something to me, in its rather soft voice, and beautiful lyrics. Man, so have to stop listening to that song... Well anyway, here are the lyrics so you can know why i cryed :P... Sunday Drive-The Early November Lyrics... And we wait above a road. We're turning to go home. And the silence from the side of the car tells me everything and how we are. 'Cause there's no more trying to make this so right, There's no more trying tonight. And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone. And I wonder if I'm alone in your head. I know something is wrong, I just dont know what to do. You say it's only me and that I'm so perfect for you. I don't want to try no more, I dont want to make this right. I just want you to be true to me, one time. And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone. And I wonder if I'm alone in your head. Twelve weeks gone by since I have saw you last. I'll give this one more try, I'll give it all my best.And I'll ask 'What could you be doing that is so much fun without me by your side, without me by your side?' And I'll take a step back, and I'll let you ahead. And I will take a step away and see if you come back. Because there's no more trying to make this so right, there's no more trying, there's no more trying tonight. We will never be the same. We will never be the same until you're done. Speaking of songs, I found another song, that reminds me of mi jeffie, its: Broken Spokes, Bloody Knees-(OF COURSE) Ten Speed Hero Just because he alwais listens to them in the car, and i am absoluteli in love with them... ALSO... PLEASE LET ME PASS SUMMER SCHOOL!!!!!! good luck to me... Mwahahaha, i will so pass that mutha fuckin course... I am listening to ten speed hero now, and it is so making me think of Jeff, everything reminds me of him -_- i wonder if thats a bad thing? Haha aw well... I am going to go out for pizza soon, and have a couple smokes, nothing gets better than that shit man, eating pizza on a patio thing on church and main, smoking, and enjoiing the summer while its lasting, makes me feel like having an orgasm right now... haha... in like 10 mins man... so excited... I miss you jeffie, *smiles* man, i shall shut up now, i am such a loser... I DONT WANT TO LEAVE FOR A WEEK *sniff sniff* Aw well, what are you going to do? Uhmm... Ye thats all i have to sai, I like this blog thing man, i can put wicked songs that i like on here, actualli i think i will add more... (I listen to these all the time) Uhm, Piano-Glassjaw She Took The Wrong Way Out-WOTB Torrid Love Affair-Boys Night Out Three Simple Words-Finch A Decade Under The Influence-TBS Set Phasers To Stun-TBS THE NO SEATBELT SONG-BRAND NEW Mix Tape-Brand New Get Up You Son Of A Bitch, Cause Mickey Loves Ya-The Bled We Go To Eleven-A Static Lullaby A Song For A Broken Heart-A Static Lullaby For You-HIM Title And Registration-Death Cab For Cutie Kittie-Suck Tonic-If You Could Only See November-Silverstein Sidewalk When She Walks-Alexisonfire Narnain Analog-The Beautiful Mistake EVERYTHING BY THURSDAY, Especially Paris In Flames, and The Dream... I'll I think of more later, but I have some pussi music in there man Love all y'all lots, Comment if you wanna
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28,July,2004
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This is mi poem, I love this poem, perhaps the most realistic I have ever written... Abandoned Pressured by the indistinctive ideas put upon me Conquered by the words you speak Take advantage of my frailty Your recognition and dexterity I do not seek For you driven me to these extremes To not live in fidelity when forsaken You cannot wake up it is not a dream For whom the blame be taken The fraud of myself was to be believed The fake outset to what people saw It was quite easy to keep them deceived I kept them from seeing every single flaw They did not see it, behind all their will Shouldn’t have been judgmental, and do not relent And as I swallowed the very last pill My love will always be unsent Abandoned by this non-existent realm The pain I never could have deemed To discount the bliss is seldom To reality it should have seemed The darkness of the night The loudness of the softest song The dimness of the light The remnants of this throe so long This pitiful state of which we call sane The last resort to escape the truth that be All my beliefs have been slain With the exact same sword that had killed me My blood has dripped through these sheets And stained my skin and stopped my breath I am left here where jealousy and agony meets I may be straggled if any harder you do press A recognizable face yet to be looked upon You’re so pretty yet you are evil in every way Your blue eyes black hair and skin so fawn You killed me ever so slowly in the harshest kind of way You have left me lifeless and yet so pale My heart still beats but the rest of me dead Left hidden still cannot see me in this veil My blood is still blue, killed to fast to turn to red The angel from my dreams, thought I would be saved The thought of the evil, and would be soon through Took into a small dark room, and all the walls caved To you my heart and soul were true, but it didn’t matter you killed me too I had died for a second when I saw what you did As I am lying down denying what I had seen 1000 hearts for you would not be my last bid Have you ever regretted the past, to see what you could have been? Standing still yet still moving Its only because you are the breath of me If I am not good enough what is the point of proving To the only door that has never been opened I hand you the key Are you sure you want to step into my world and see? If you open this door, you will never want to leave Can you feel the desire and the strength of me? Too many people cannot get out; through out the crowd you must weave You require a death of a sin to be accepted Be evil and you will impress us To kill and to die is how we are to be percepted Soon the pain turns to pleasure and the pleasure turns to lust... NEVER TAKE TOO MUCH ADVIL , Tyler :P I love the unknown...
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Sagittarius
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27,July,2004
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For some strange reason, this song sooo reminds me of jeffie... So I'm dedicating it to him, and I'll but the lyrics too... I am such a loser man... The song is... A Decade Under The Influence- (Obviousli) Taking Back Sunday.... Lyrics are... (Why am i such a loser) :P Well, that's more sweet, so delicate It used to be this dying breed Well I've got a bad feeling about this I've got a bad feeling about this I kept still until the long drive home You slept safe and close to the window... Well, I've got a bad feeling about this I've got a bad feeling about... You used to say you'll have to go (I could go all night) Well say you'll have to go (I could go all...) To hell with you and all your friends To hell with you and all your friends, it's on Well thats more sure than porcelain You're skin and bones, I'm a nervous wreck Well I've got a bad feeling about this (because of this) I've got a bad feeling about this... Anyone will do tonight Anyone will do tonight Close your eyes, just settle, settle Close your eyes, just settle, settle And so on and so on and on and on and on... Now that I am talking about songs that remind me of Jeffie, I think this song does... Paris In Flames-Thursday... haha, man i need a life, i wont even put those lyrics up... But aw well, This post was for jeffie, I'll make more later... If i feel like it...
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Sagittarius
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27,July,2004
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I just felt like saying, I love you... I dont know who I love , I feel loneli and neglected... So I am offering jobs, if you love Please love me... As I sit by myself, I've come from so, so far away. In such little time, I have gave, My soul, my mind, I've tried so hard to find. Is this what I must do, to get by? And I ask myself why? Why don't you run, why don't you call me, I'll wait here. I'll find my way, or will you help me out this year? Does she understand me? Listen to what I say. Turning her back, on my dreams. Watching, waiting. You turn your back. I'll find my way home, You turn your back. Turn your back on my dream, So strong, so weak, we're stronger still. Is this what I must do? You are calm and reposed. Let your beauty unfold. Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones. Spring keeps you ever close. You are second hand smoke. You are so fragile and thin. Standing trial for your sins. Holding onto yourself the best you can. You are the smell before rain. You are the blood in my veins. Fuck ...
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Sagittarius
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26,July,2004
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From her astonishing face, to her bright brown eyes.. her wonderful shaped body, and beautiful brown hair... everything about her is nearli perfect, no ones perfect, but i would have to say she is the closest that i have ever met. Her personality glows like a flickering candle in the wind, when no ones knows their wai, they alwais know where to find it... because she is alwais there... Her smile is stunning, all eyes capture her splendor, as if to sai, such beauti has never lived... Nothing has possessed her to be anything but wonderful to people that she meets. And as for me, I must be the luckiest out of them all, for me to have such an astonishing friend, for me to have such a smart, breath takingly beautiful friend, for me to have anything of the sorts, I must have lucked out because she is the best thing i could have ever asked for. If i asked for more, I would have to reach for a star as bright and as beautiful as her, perhaps, this is seemingly impossible, and i congratulate anyone who succeeds for she is beyond belief, for she is shocking, and if anyone was to doubt, to hell with them, because the true meaning of best friend is the best 5 letter word ever invented, ever named, ever born. And she is more than the world could ask for, more than it could dream, because having something this close to perfect must be a fluke... But its not, it all comes with the true talents, that she has earned... All of her is the most amazing thing ever built, or perhaps known to man... All i know is that she is real, as real as can be, and no one can be better, even if they tried their hardest... I love you megan, with all mi heart, I hope you love me too... Because you mean so much, and if i lost you, i would be lost forever without your smile... (haha i am so cheesy, I hope you like it, I almost ran out of adjectives)... *mwahs* *let me rest in pieces*
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15,July,2004
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Perhaps maybei, just maybei things are actualli going mi wai, well the wai that is the best for me...? whoa, thats so strange, but aw well... I am going out with Jeffie now, and I so couldnt be happier man, honestli, he means so much to me, and i hope that i never lose him anytime in the near future, he is such a sweetie, i could go on about him all dai, he is just like... super wicked, he is the best I could ask for, If i was to ask for ani better than that would be perfect, and as far as I know, no one is perfect, but he is pretti damn close, i just have a terrible habit, or maybei even just bad luck about mi bf's totalli not digging me anymore... like they just get... tired??? perhaps, but although i have the worst cheating past in the world, he dont have to worri about that because there is no one that i would even cheat on him with, and i dont want to cheat on him because right now he is like the best thing in mi life, and i dont want to lose that... i would never even dream about cheating on him... and plus, he is how i totalli got over paul, i dont even think of him anymore... thank god... like i cannot believe how long it took me to get over him, it was kind of insane, but no that it is over and done with, i dont have to think about it anymore, haha i so regret writing that last post, seeing as i made a complete idiot of miself and i know that if paul ever did sai that he changed his mind ( which he wouldnt) i dont even think i would consider it, right now i am with jeffie, and that is how it is going to be forever, haha well forever as long as i can make it... i just hope that he feels the same wai, thats all i could ask for... tonight i was ay his hockey game, it wasnt too bad, i like seeing him, i could devote all the time in the world for him, and thats the most meaningfulest thing that i could give him, just cause i love being in his company so much, and that everytime i see him smile, it makes me happi too, i dont like to see him unhappi AT ALL! Haha it so sux when he is sad, but i usualli try and cheer him up, although i dont know how much mi gai corny jokes help... but aw well, i just like everything about him, EVERYTHING straight from his eyes to his beautiful face, to his suprisingly nice looking feet :P and everyone knows how much i hate feet :) but i dont care, everything about jeff makes me happy, everything, i cant help but say it, i could repeat miself 1000 times, and it would still mean something, he is so wicked, the best bf i could ever ask for, and at first i had doubts, i realli did, honestli, i just thought of him, as the kewl friend that paul had, and nothing more, but who knew that we would end up so tight, and plus he makes me horny, A LOT! :P haha and thats not a bad thing.... ummm, megan said that when paul gets back everything is going to be fucked, actualli to be honest, i thought so too, i thought that it was going to be like, omg paul is back, i want him to want me so badli, but its not like that!!! all i want is jeffie, i would so choose him over paul in 2 secs, haha, aw well, i am just glad that everything is so working out man... and especially to mi advantage... :) thats a first... Lets see, well something that is not realli going mi wai, is that stupid summer school, i am soo close to failing, and i have a realli close chance of failing, and i have the test tomorrow, which i am prolli gonna fail too, i cannot believe how hard it is man.. aw well, we will see what happens... i dont realli wanna think about school... Haha, me and megz are getting along so well man, and she got her hair done, it looks fantastic, how it graces her amazingli gorgeous face, i must give it to her, she is one beautiful gurl... i couldnt also ask for a better best friend, she is such a sweetie, she is so nice, and i dont thnk she deserves me, with the wai i am, i am such a bitch, but i dont know, i am just glad that she is alwais there for me, and i hope that i am alwais there for her, but no one beats the stupendous megan, just because she is mi baybei, and no one will take her from me... shes all mine *evil face* haha naw im plaiing, im not that obsessive... i love her so much, and i am not going to lie, she is mi life, along side food, sleep, umm getting miself off, and i guess that jeffie can be apart of that list as well... Lets see, man Chris Rogers is an awesome person too, i have to sai that he is mi best guy friend, i can talk to him about anything, and its awesome about how understanding, hes an awesome person, and a good friend, i have not known him for that long, but i mean, still he is wicked kewl... Wow this is realli realli long, haha sorri to anybody who reads this i kinda feel bad, this is like wasting your life awai... :) Lets see, as for prayers go, PLEASE LET ME PASS SUMMER SCHOOL... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, and also another prayer is, me and jeffie will be together for a looooong time, and have lots o' fun if you know what i mean ;) haha so jeffie, if you read this (which you wont) you better get in mi pants soon baybei, before you make me, make you:P haha aw well, have a good nice sleeeeeepp America... Uh, i mean Canada... bye bye bye, N'sync styles bayyyybeiiii... :) Shhh... im tired, and i miss you jeffie, and i love you megan!!! I miss you babe, and i miss your scent, i would do anything to be right next to you, to hold your hand, to feel your presence, to see your alwais beautiful face, and have you hold me in your arms, and call me yours for alwais and forever...
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15,July,2004
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*Sighs* Once again, someone broke mi hearat, and guess who it happens to be...? Of course it's fucking Paul, I just fucking found out that he has a gf in that gai camp thingy that he is at, isn't that wonderful? That's so whi he told me that we can onli be friends, well fuck him, after he tells me that he ids going to love me, and care for me, and even after we did the shit that we did, and feels that it is nothing...? Or something, right now all I can think about is, how bad i feel, how rejected, how awful... He totalli broke mi heart like it was a game, and now I have no wai to mend it, brcause I have tried everything.. I have tried telling miself that it is just another stupid crush, another stupid high-school thing, and you know what? That alwais works, but nope not this time... I'm so fucked, I don't know what I am going to do anymore... Everyone is telling me that I should just forget about him, and that he WILL NOT like me anymore after the summertime... well isnt this great, what I yearned for, what I desired is now so fucking far awai... On the otherhand, everyone is telling me that I should get with Jeffie, I don't think that it would be right seeing as we are just super chill friends, and I don't know if I can picture miself completeli happi with Jeffie, although he has to be the wickest person that I have ever met, well one of em anyway... I just don't know, there is too much pressure, and I have been smoking like a fucking fiend, and now i have to go to stupid summer school, and i sooo dont want to go because it is going to be the equivelency of fucking hell, and i am not looking forward to having that on mi plate... I have so much to worri about, like smoking, guys, school, everything, everything, everything wont fucking leave me alone, i kind of feel closterphobic in mi own damn thoughts, i dont even know if that is legal in all of Canada, haha, well yea, I just am so confused right now i wish that i wasnt alive so i did not have to deal with all the goddamn bullshit, not to mention everyone fucking dying on me... hey that kind of reminds me of what paul said to me one time.. he said that mi beauty is like the very last sunset, a dying man is ever going to see.. it sounded better the wai that he said it though... :P I think that i have wasted so much time thinking about Paul, when i could have been thinking about something so much more better with mi thoughts instead of it. Aw well, i think that it would be so much kewler to have something that i had to look forward to, but there is nothing going on in mi life right now, that is sooo much to be looking forward to, everithing just seems like it is going downhill from here, and it is realli realli starting to get depressed... There is nothing that i can sai is going mi wai... so there is nothing good as far as i know, unless someone makes mi dai, except i saw that Anchorman movie, and i thought that is was so funni man, i loved it A LOT, and plus i got to see it with Jeffie right beside me so i had a lotta fun, and i laughed a lot which was good, haha i alwais can go to funni movies to cheer me up, i am just that kind of corny person... haha i laughed at like every funni part, and i have such an annoiing laugh too... haha it is kinda funni, but aw well, what are ya gonna do right? Right now, for god, if i was to make a prayer i dont think that i would pray for anything legit, seeing as i got a lot of good advice to a lot of shit that was fucking me up, but i think that i would realli want Paul to want me back, i realli wish that he would, but then again, by the end of the summer, and he wants me back then , he can fuck himself , cause there is no wai that someone that treated me that bad will have the ability to get me back, although there is a part of me that thinks that i would want to take him back, which makes me sound realli pathetic, but thats jst me, i am pathetic. But then again... well nevermind then again, because i know mi prayer would never ever come true, thats just the wai it is with me, nothing ever works mi wai, but i guess thats all i got for complaining i could have a lot worse to sai, but im not gonna sai ani of it, because all i do is complain, and i am sure that a lot of people are kinda prolli getting sick and tired of me... but what are you gonna do? Haha, so that is the end of this very long blog, so i will blog later, and i doubt anyone will be reading this, but hey... I LOVE YA ANYWAYZ! [{.X.x*Would you find it in your heart, to let this go awai? wont you let me rest in pieces...?*
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Sagittarius
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01,July,2004
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I know that i have a terrible habit of doing so, but i always feel as if i am so depressed, as if everything isnt going mi way... i think that I am selfish, and that I think too much of myself... This is just mi intro of my Blogging... Just to see the immature acts that I seem to always get myself caught in... We'll see if i can keep up with this whole thing. Seeing as I am realli not that dedicated of a person... fuck this shit... That's my quote... It's what I live by, but we will see if that changes... Right now... I think mi moods are; -Jealousy -Anxious -Unhappy AArrgghhhh... I just don't know what to do anymore... I think of giving up a lot... But I think i have too much of a good life to give up so early, althgouh a lot of depressing thoughts wander through mi mind as if it is the eternal walkway to hell... I feel so Fucked... There is too fucking much going on right now... And mi letter to God is obviously not being recieved seeing as, no one is doing anything about mi problems... I guess no one realli cares... but then again... it is always up to me about mi choices... I think I am going to go and watch the Czech game! I hope we win...! =]
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Sagittarius
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13,August,2004
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Please Don't Keep Me Pure, and Oh So Innocent... *licks lips* So pure like the blood from your veins you taste so good and it would be so right Sweep me into your imaginitive mind do anything that you want control me, please me, whatever you feel I want to be abused Pale skin dark hair you are mi sin amazed by your beauti, and darkness within Chain me whip me have I been bad? show me the punishment, that I've never had Lick me touch me take it all in in this game, I'm sure that you'll win Undress me embrace me press your bodi against mine put yourself inside me, then youll be fine Worship me crave me I feel you so well I wouldn't trade this moment, for a position in hell Fuck me Endure me Just bring me there Admire the fact that I will alwais care... If you can't tell I'm kinda horni :P haha oh well... thats mi poem, i had a lot of fun writing it... I so have to stop writing in this thing, I am realli starting to justifi the fact that i have no life what so fuckin ever! haha aw well I am off now, cause I realli can't think of anything else to sai... And all these sexual talkingness has kinda made me excited, hey, who said getting yourself off twice in 5 hours is a bad thing. If guys can do it, so can i bitches... haha and I will have lots of fun doing it... Hmm, what should I think about? Aw well, I'll think of something... Mi sexi Jennifer, that I love so very very much... Too bad no one knows her, perhaps I will introduce her one dai... To all mi friends, she means a lot to me... she's all too much... Love ya, Jenn... Xoxo... Naw i think I'll think about mi Jeffie, that alwais works *winks* anywai, I'll shut-up now.. cause i am makin mi-self sound like a fuckin dumbass... Xoxo.. Love y'all ...If you my nigga you my nigga till the end... ...Fuck a bill, fuck a bitch, fuck a benz ... ...Roll up the weed and blow the smoke in the sky...
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12,August,2004
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I found it, YES! I found it... who is the Mo' Fuckin greatest? Well there was another song that reminded me of Jeffie, and I couldn't quite get it, or find it... But yesterdai, I was just like... *doo doo doo**lalala* listening to From Autumn To Ashes... And all of a sudden, I heard it! I heard the *Wooo* part in the song, that Jeffie alwais sings, and it alwais makes me smile, so I sooo have to put this in mi blog!!!! The song is: *Finalli* Take Her To The Music Store-From Autumn To Ashes Lyrics... Emotionless grey skies bleed somber dreams of sorrow
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Sagittarius
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12,August,2004
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Fuck it Her makeup looked old and worn hair all messy, knotty and tangled something was different with the look in her eye the look of guilt and untrustworthy deceit I took one glance at her she lied about where she was lipstick smeared blood rushed to her brain straddling him, i knew it her red nailpolish matched her spontanity her insanity hopeing she was totalli sober she licked her lips as if to sai 'I'm readi again' She's a slut, she's a whore... a stripper on the floor lying on mi bed with that mysterious look to her eye the blue was so bright the blonde was so radiant underneath her mask there was a good gurl never been touched she was smoothly chaved her white see-through thong she made me want her but so did many others she was so perfect so pure smoke on her breath her breasts glowed under her powder pink tank top her black pants so tight, and tempting white lacy bra she played me, she was out her skin so fawn her mellow attitude her illusion, and beauti her tan was so dark her cheeks were so flushed though her heart as hard as stone 'this is my appartment' i thought she opened her legs and pointed to me to come here ill resist temptation i noticed everything wrong about this situation i want to throw up her gold anklet graced her beautiful legs her black stilettos in mi front hall she didn't change the one i love or thought i loved the gold and diamond necklace i bought for her on out 8 month anniversary was quite visable around her neck physically, i loved her emotionally i felt led on she fucked 'him' with that necklace on it was so fucking blunt and now so dull she left for 2 months with any guy she wanted I'll say goodbye with on elast unmeaningful kiss I don't mean anything to her she's so low walked out-on I fucking don't know anymore... -Around the World -Funky Town -Fuckin Dear in Headlights -The fireworks glowed -So loneli inside -2000 times in a square -The yellow hat -Text messaging -Cheerio -Have fun -Blockbuster-baybee -The Excorcist -Algonquin Trail -Number 7 -Far Cry -The Bathtub -Hugo Boss -World Industries -Hommie -Bacardi I miss it more than anyone could imagine... {[(... I know these people can can hear mi heart and passion flowing out and over these clear glass windows... WATCH OUT... It was the fear of miself that made me odd ...)]}
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Sagittarius
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11,August,2004
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The blood pours from mi wounds... Mi fuckin broken heart lays on the floor... Refusing to pick it up... You walked awai in disgust... Oh, how I wish I could die... I will still Alwais love you... Don't forget it... It hurts * Takes out gun* Blow me awai Bay-bee Write your name on my chest in kerosene. Spark a match andyou will never be cold again. This is really only all we have. I have a large collection of thunder that I stole from your windowsill. You had the best damn Sunday dress at the end of the world. The wall of flames that consumed you and everything that was good, 'not with a band but a whimper.' What would you do? arms spread welcoming the impending nothing. Fuck it, no one cared anyway...
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Sagittarius
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11,August,2004
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One again, mi luck is working to mi advantage... First off, I have strep throat... *rrr* i am so mad about that man, it is like killing like a fuckin bitch, i hate it, and i just got mi braces tightened as well, so thats even worse, EVEN worse is that i can't see mi jeffie for at least 2 dais, and thats hard, dont ask me why, i am a loser i know... but hey, i will live hopefulli, i dont want to die while i have strep throat... i doubt that i will, uhmmm... lets see, what is going on these dais, well on fridai the 13th... YES! i am supposed to go to the movies with chris and see alien vs. predator, i am so fuckin excited to see that man, honestli, i have been waiting forever to see it... i alreadi saw the first 4, like... 32545342591347534 times anyway... haha, so i finalli get to see a sequel, and the predator movies are fuckin amazing as well... but on that date is me and jeffie's month, i cannot believe that we have been going out for a month, for some strange reason it feels as if it could have been at least like half a year, i think it is because we were good friends before, and now that we are involved, NOW, it feels much longer... but thats not a bad thing... I have been talking to megan a lot about loving, and how i am scared, because being committed is such a wierd thing to be doing at such a young age, and plus, i never thought that i would be finding love at this time anyhow, but jeff told me that he is falling in love with me, and that made me feel good inside, it felt like a re-assurance... you know... And i was glad to know that someone could actualli be into me like that, you know? And i was triing to convonce miself that i wasnt falling in love with him miself... and everytime i would tri to convince miself, i couldnt... I could onli think positive thoughts, like there was absoluteli no reason for me to not love him, like in mi msn name, and all the times that i tell him... i cannot wait til i know it is actual love, and i can be like... I love you.. and actualli mean it... there must not be a better feeling in the world, then having someone to love, and them loving you back... i am a bit scared, although jeffie is completeli trustworthy, i just account for paul, and i think about how devoted i was to him, knowing he wasnt going to be here for 2 months, but i honestli fell in love with him immediateli. i have never felt that kind of passion over one person before, and i wanted to tell him, but he also has commitment problems... its okai though, he is mi past, but i think that there will be some wierdness between us... in the longrun we may be able to keep it as friends, but there will alwais be that little spark between him and i... no matter what, and if i could make it go awai, i would... but i dont think it ever will, i so remember every sweet thing paul used to sai to me, and how he would wait for me as well, we had so mani conversations about it, and he promised... he fuckin told me, we would be together, and then all of a sudden he changed his mind, that guy brought me the most sorrow in the world... he told me, when i 'cheated' on him that time, that he wanted there to be an amazing gurl waiting there for him... and i would have been, i realli would have been... i wanted him, more than anything, mi desire was so strong, everything about him was so amazing, his smile, his attitude, the wai he kissed me, the wai he apologized, how he was alwais triing to talk to me, writing emails, and letters in school, i will never forget the moldi sandwich, i just sometimes wish that he would change his mind, but there would be absoluteli no reason what soever, for him to do that, i guess all i can do now is wish the best for him and his gf... thats it, i cant remember what he used to be like... Paul used to be amazingli genuine, and very truthful... i had a lot of fun with him, and we alwais had something to laugh about, i will never forget the time that he was drunk, and he was saiing all that amazing stuff about me, even though he was drunk, he still said it when he was sober... i dont know if i love jeff as much as i loved paul, but soon enough i think... i realli do... but paul, if you ever read this, you would know how i felt, and you knew it too... You know how dedicated to you i would have been, i dont think it matters anymore, but its okai... i was reading all the old emails that he sent me, i remember all the things he said to me... it reminded me of who he realli was... it made me realize... thats who he realli was, he was such a sweetheart, but now all i picture him is, a jackass, i remember all the text messages... i lived for those... and his notes, and how i would see him at mi locker EVERYTIME before class... aw man, those were good times, well now all i have to do is look at the future, and thats jeff, and i am so amazingli glad it is... i could NOT ask for any better, if there was, well i have alreadi established that, well, maybei he would be perfect... no one is perfect though... he is so damn close that it scares me... i just like the wai jeffie treats me, he treats me so well, he deserves so much better than me, and he refuses to realize that its true, but he realli could... one dai perhaps he will find a love better than me, but... well, i know that no highschool relationships last forever, and i have come to realize that, it will end, and i have to cherish it while i have it, it mai last a looong time, but i doubt much longer than 2 years, omg... imagine that, i would be 16 and he would be like 18, thats pretti insane... :P if so, our realtionship must be close to perfect... i couldnt imagine fighting with him though... what would i fight with him about?? i cant think of anything... haha i mean everything he does... i dont mind, and i guess i have a high tolerance for his handball, because he is so cute when he plais, and i love it when he gets all sweaty and stuff, i think that it is super adorable. the best thing with me and jeff, is that i know that jeffie used to be all sad, because he was loneli, and now that he has me he is happier, and i am not triing to be modest about it or anything its just that it is a fact... but i take jeff for who he is... i love everything about him, everything, everything!!! haha its just i dint know that i could find someone so perfect in every single wai, i never knew that such luck would hit such a terrible person, like me. its just i mean, i deserve so much less, someone who would push me around, you know? instead i got an amazing, funni, wonderful, guy, whom, could not get much better... wow, i so could go on about him all dai... but i will force miself to stop as of now, i am prolli gonna start getting repetitive... but we shall see. i hope everything is the same when school starts... so yah, (thats so paul) or so sue me... haha he used to sai that all the time... whoa, i think that i shoudl make a list of everything that reminds me of paul, and jeffie, i alreadi have done one of those for paul... oh yes, i must put another song on here that reminds me of jeffie, haha i think that me and pauls song was that funki town one, that one sooo reminds me of him, its insane... i remember that dai *sighs* so long ago... Well this is the song that reminds me of Jeffie, he alreadi knows that i am going to put this one on here, because i told him that i was going to yesterdai. so i guess that he knows... haha but i dont know how much he reads this thing, so i dont know what he thinks about me, i wonder if he trusts me, i realli super, hope he does... War all the time-Thursday I cant listen to anything by thursday and not think of jeff... Lyrics... Standing on the edge of the palisades cliffs
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Sagittarius
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10,August,2004
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Some people just dont know...
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09,August,2004
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As I took the last drag of mi cigarette the sun that illuminated the smoke instead of killing me saving me from mi hope but the re-assurance helped it kind of reminded me of the glass house no connection so lost she is so beautiful Her fair skin eyes closed Awakened by a sin I admire her every movement everything that she does everything about her is so gorgeous makes me thing that such beauty wasnt possible the blonde streaks perhaps a bag of chips falling from her lap But mi love will never fall i have fallen for her I love her still awakened, excited its ten after nine, as she said ill alwais love her even though her feet are on fire ... and eyes... Well, i have been back for a much long time, well onli like 3 dais... but hey, at least i am not gone, i was in the middle of writing 2 other blogs but someone fucked up mi comp and i lost em, which kinda pissed me right the fuck off, but i will start off on a clean slate... So i got home a while back, actualli it was like 2 or 3 dais ago... i was so insaneli happi man, i had missed brampton so much, and all the people that we chill with... i was just glad that i could see mi jeffie again, i missed him a lot... but then i got to see him, we had lots o' fun, i just love being with him, it could never get old... uhm yesterdai was his hockey game, but i dint go, and i felt realli bad for it, seeing as it was his last one, and i told him that i was going to go for sure too... so that i kind of felt a bit guilti for, but he said it was okai... Because the last dai and night i was camping with ma baybee, mi love... and we had a lot of fun, it was super duper actualli, we went cliff jumping and shit, swimming, tanning, smoking :P haha megan, the trees, they are moving, THE NEED FOR SPEED TUNNEL MAN... 'Are you guys almost finished smoking that dude?' 'no... Seriousli' oh man i could have died!!!... 'you have a cat... sorta... *slams door* that was too funni, and out friend jay... 'you saw me in mi bikini?'-'yea'-'Did you like it...?'-'Oh, fuck yea, man, yea' hahahaha man, and the water, and the disappearing bridge, and your FUCKING SHOELACE, man that was so fuckin trippi... haha hot boxing the tent man, that was soo fun, i will never forget it, megan and mine's first time smoking together, it was krazie... urlLink [email protected] ... im such a wierdo... anyhow... that was a grande time, and then we all drank some smirnoffs, and went to bed, and mi ass got realli wet and shit... haha stupid shit on the side, i slept with a jacket man... i hate that mattress thingy... but all in all i had a gooooood time... So now i am back, and i am realli tired, and i am hungri, and i need a smoke, but somehow i lost mi pack somewhere unknown... :S ill find it one dai, im praying i dint wash it in the laundri... seeing as i am doing mi gai laundry right now... i love doing mi laundri, what am i talking about... OMG! i have a mosquito bite on mi head, if that mutha fuckin thing had west nile, and mi fuckin brain inflates, so help me fuckin god man, someone will die.. haha before i die of course... well megan and i share a brain so she is going to be dead too... uh, oh yes. the poem at the top its pretti much about her... :) she was sleeping in the van, and i looked over at her, and she was so cute, i thought it would be cute to write a poem about her, even though a lot of them are about her anyway... (i keep on writing anyhow?) anywho... (geez im a loser) And also i was writing about in the van when i was smoking, there was like this tiny strand of sun coming through the window, and when i was smoking mi cigarette it was all kewl and shit, i liked it... it was kinda trippi, but nothing beats those lights man... megan is going to be the onli one who understands this whole blog thing man, aw well, i get it too, so thats all that matters... oh YEA! 'how can you not like mi buns??' hahaha or... 'When i was sleeping that thing was in mi ear' i love that guy man, hes the kewlest... Ethan you are a piece of fuckin work right there duude... im listening to thursdai, and it makes me think of jeffie, i dont know why, oh yea i alreadi established that paris in flames reminds me of him, also boys night out does too... i dont know why... wait this song realli reminds me of him, so i am going to put the lyrics and shit... Hold On Tightly, Let's Go Lightly-Boys Night Out Lyrics... When you're left with only a bullet
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Gemini
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10,June,2004
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I JUST GOT MY PERMIT!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I's be happpy
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Gemini
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10,June,2004
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I haven't much to say...... still haven't done teh hair thing.. I'm working on it tho, really........ uuuuuummmmmmmm I have to ref today, that's not cool, because I don't want to and i'm tired....oh well, I get money for it and I got $100 for good grades, and $60 for helping my dad with satelite instalations.......... I have money now
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3,601,014 |
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indUnk
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Gemini
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10,June,2004
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Yeah, I haven't been posting for a while.... not that anyone cares.... neway, i just got back from making money... uuuuuuummmmmmmm......... Oh!!hehe it was cool, earlier today I saw Kenna, or more, she saw me, and I glimpsed her. She were on the bus, and I were at DQW wit andre. Yeah... I have nothing else going on..... 4 more days of driver's ed!
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Gemini
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10,June,2004
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rar I have something like 13 worksheets to do for drivers ed.... and I haven't started any of them yet.
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