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It's usually just a few minutes, maybe five at most 10 almost or something, you know, major going on in my program.	0id
When when in the course of like with this meeting occurring? When do you start to feel nervous?	4crq
Oh, the day before?	6cd
The day before? Yeah. Yeah. So the day before the meeting, you start to have similar symptoms, different symptoms. What do you feel	4crq
Yeah, I start to I start to feel nervous. Usually the day before is when I'm pulling together in my notes, I make like a look a few bullet points on stuff that I want to present that I think as relevant and so the day before, when I'm preparing that I start to feel nervous. And then usually last through the rest of the day into the evening, I usually don't sleep well. That night and then by the time I get into work, I'm, you know, that's usually when I'm, you know, feeling you know, really nervous by by the time I get into the meeting, I'm pretty much panicking.	6cd
panicking as the meeting starting,	5yq
yeah.	7ack
So, at the meeting, everybody takes a turn, and does this brief presentation. And tell me what's happening as with your, your feelings as they're moving around. It's like if you sit at a table or Yes, as they're moving around the table and then coming closer to you.	11orq
I I'm just becoming more and more terrified. My like, I just I feel like I'm being just drenched in sweat. I'm, I'm breathing faster I and I feel like everybody notices. I feel like everybody can hear me breathe. I feel like everybody can hear my heart beating, that it's just so loud that it's like, any minute everybody's gonna look at me and say what is wrong with you?	10od
They're gonna notice you.	4crq
Yeah. And and there have been times, especially recently really, you know, it's, like I said, I mean, this has been going on for at least six months, but especially recently I feel like I've had to, like run out of the room. I couldn't tell you. Yes, I have. I've ran out and couldn't. I couldn't go back in. I tried and my my hand hit the doorknob to go back in the room and I walked up. Good. No,	6cd
there's too much anxiety.	4crq
Yeah, I felt okay. You know, in the hallway and then when I tried to go back in the room, it's Everything justright back up again.	6cd
Yeah. So, so you would push that door open, they would all be looking at you. They would wonder why you left.	11orq
Yeah.	10od
So you just wrote out the meeting somewhere else. And did anybody notice after?	11orq
You know, after a few weeks in a row of running out, yeah. You know, my boss was like, I realize you didn't make your presentation and, you know, I just I made up an excuse, like, I got a phone call or I didn't feel good or, you know, I stumbled through some excuse, but I feel bad because I mean, this is my job. And I want to do my job. And I mean, how I've lived with this, I feel like forever, you know, because I, I had a terrible time making presentations in high school. I had a terrible time making presentations in college. And here we are again, and I try to be a professional and have a career and make a life. I can't, because I can't perform my job. I want to do my job. I like my job.	10od
This is this is frustrating for you.	4crq
Yeah.	6cd
Have there been times where you've fled the room? And then since then you haven't.	1irq
There was one time, actually the very first time I ran out. And I didn't go back and nobody noticed. And then the second time, that following week, I started to feel that way again. And then two of my co workers to the other managers actually started to get into a fight. One of them wanted more money for their program for something or other and the controller was like, No, we have no money you can't have it's a nonprofit, so there's no money. And it was it was like getting really intense. And I don't know what it was. I just, I was fine.	0id
Something about that intense interaction changed how you're feeling distracted you something like that.	4crq
Yeah, I guess it just, I don't know. It just didn't I, I felt I felt fine. I felt normal.	6cd
So from from that meeting on like till now, have you been able to stay in for eight other meetings? No. She had to leave because of the intensity of the symptoms.	11orq
Yeah, I've there been a couple times where actually I've	10od
I've I've purposely gone in late hours that I've had car trouble and a habit and I've just gone in late or I've actually just called in sick for the day. There was twice I sent somebody else in my place, saying that, you know, when I was sick, but I mean, it gets noticed.	3gc
Yeah, and you're having you're experiencing symptoms. When you go Avoid that interaction the room to right because you don't feel good about letting them down or	4crq
no, no, I want to do my job. I really like my job. I really do. And I like where I work. And I like the people. But the thought of making these presentations every week just terrifies me.	6cd
And I don't want my boss to regret putting me in this	6cd
position. I don't want to disappoint him. I mean, I know he took a big chance, you know, putting me in this position. You know, I don't have a lot of experience doing this. And there were, you know, potentially there could have been other people that were better qualified, but you know, he chose me. I don't want to let him down. And I feel like I am every week with this meeting.	6cd
So it's this meeting, really, you're in your situation where if you go and attend the meeting, you're going to end up leaving it because of the anxiety. If you don't attend it, Have these concerns about the performance in your shops? You're kind of stuck. You're kind of stuck, right? Yeah. Any other symptoms that you think may or may not be related to this intense anxiety?	4crq
Um, I guess I mean, I'm not sleeping the night before the meetings.	6cd
I, I have started to drink a little bit to try and take the edge off. A friend of mine has said before that it's something that she's done to, to help when she's nervous. And so I've, I've tried a shot or two before going into my meeting and	3gc
have any effect on	3gc
I'm probably not a good effect. I mean, I was I was able to sit through the meeting, but everybody kept asking if I was okay. So I got up on the	3gc
Yeah, I really feel like they weren't. And of course, I was very I didn't want anybody to get close to me because I think it's going. Yeah. I just, I was too scared to do that, again.	3gc
Any sadness or anything like that?	4crq
I'm miserable.	6cd
Every time I think about, you know how much I must be disappointing my boss. I just I feel so I just feel terrible.	6cd
Throw it down.	4crq
Yeah.	6cd
Sasha, I know it's been tough going through all this and the symptoms have been tough for you. We'll get you scheduled in here to get treated a couple days. We'll get you in a couple days. And you can start working with a counselor to address these symptoms. I appreciate you spending this time with me it was helpful to get a better understanding of what you're going through.	3gc
Thanks.	2gt
hi you how to do it today.	2gt
Great. How are you?	2gt
I mean, I don't know why because I mean it's been awesome for like a week I've been getting so much done. You know at work, I finished both reports that I've been working on. And even at home, like I've had tons of time to clean my house and get caught up on actually making my house what I want it to be and just Working on in general and it's clean. And I mean, I haven't had any issues.	0id
Right. So you're feeling pretty good. And you have been for about a week? Yeah. Have you? Do you feel like your sleep habits have changed?	1irq
I mean, they have. I haven't been sleeping as much. I haven't needed it really. I only need a few hours, it seems like but it's been fine because I haven't been tired. I haven't been, you know, irritable or anything during the day and at night, I get a few artists late, but the rest of the time I'm like, you know, either working on work or my house or whatever. So I mean, I've slept like in less but it's not an issue.	0id
No, it's you're sleeping less but you don't feel tired at all.	3gc
Okay, yeah.	7ack
Do you Find yourself more easily distracted by anything. things around you.	5yq
No Not really like that.	9on
if you're accomplishing you're accomplishing a lot. Know, when your brother can brush in, he'd mentioned some shopping and that's one of the things he was certain about.	3gc
You remember how much you spent	1irq
I don't know exactly, because there's lots of different stores. But, you know, I have a couple different credit cards. So one credit card I used was declined by the end. So it was probably, you know, I didn't need to get the dining room set. I could have used a different credit card, but obviously it's been enough.	0id
Dude, I feel like you spent more than you usually would spend a trip to the mall.	4crq
I never really go on shopping sprees. And I really treat myself like that. So I mean, yes. But I again like I haven't, you know, I needed all those things that I got from my apartment.	6cd
So have you ever had a time in the past when you felt this way where you felt really good?	1irq
Life's fall into place. So you're feeling pretty good. You feel like things are On your way	3gc
I do	7ack
you get a lot accomplished.	3gc
Any sadness or anything like that?	5yq
No, no.	9on
A change in appetite.	5yq
You seem to have a good amount of energy. Any feelings of worthlessness?	5yq
No	9on
Any thoughts of death or dying?	5yq
NO	9on
drug and alcohol use?	5yq
No	9on
no medical conditions.	5yq
No.	9on
Have you ever had time in the past when you felt depressed?	5yq
No, no.	9on
Just no treatment?	4crq
But you believe you were depressed?	11orq
Now we're back then. Did you see or hear things that other people couldn't see or hear?	5yq
No,	9on
not now. We're back then.	5yq
NO	9on
Okay.	7ack
All right, Sherry. answering these questions has been helpful to me. I appreciate it. I'm going to get you over to see a counselor. Just a few moments.	2gt
Okay. All right.	2gt
I know that you're feeling pretty good, but I'd like them to talk to you for just a bit.	2gt
Okay.	2gt
Okay, thanks for	2gt
corleto how you doing today?	2gt
good.	2gt
I do well, thanks for asking. How'd you do this week?	2gt
Better?	2gt
Well, last time we talked about that	4crq
postponed gratification. Yeah,	6cd
that um, and I think you wanted 10 minutes for me to put it off 10 minutes. Yeah. So	1irq
I did better.	0id
I think I ended up only doing like join a half instead of two I was able to put offered, I think, the 10 minutes a couple times. And then there were there was, I think one or two days where I went out for a walk because I was Tired of staring at the clock waiting for the 10 minutes to pass. So I got up, went for a walk. And then I passed one of my friends. So I ended up walking with her. And I actually didn't get back to my house for like an hour. So I kind of put it off for like an hour because then I came home and took a couple hits on	0id
so it sounds like you were able to maintain waiting 10 minutes to smoke marijuana. At least in most cases. It was rough.	4crq
So it was it was difficult for you, but most cases, you're able to pull off the 10 minutes. Mm hmm. That sounds like there's a few instances where you're able to hold it off longer because something else kind of Yeah, came up.	4crq
Yeah, I found I actually talked to a couple people on the phone before I knew it like half hour to come by.	6cd
so another activity presented itself and You've forgotten with marijuana.	1irq
So have your feelings about marijuana change since we last talked?	5yq

It's usually just a few minutes, maybe five at most 10 almost or something, you know, major going on in my program.

0id

When when in the course of like with this meeting occurring? When do you start to feel nervous?

4crq

Oh, the day before?

6cd

The day before? Yeah. Yeah. So the day before the meeting, you start to have similar symptoms, different symptoms. What do you feel

4crq

Yeah, I start to I start to feel nervous. Usually the day before is when I'm pulling together in my notes, I make like a look a few bullet points on stuff that I want to present that I think as relevant and so the day before, when I'm preparing that I start to feel nervous. And then usually last through the rest of the day into the evening, I usually don't sleep well. That night and then by the time I get into work, I'm, you know, that's usually when I'm, you know, feeling you know, really nervous by by the time I get into the meeting, I'm pretty much panicking.

6cd

panicking as the meeting starting,

5yq

yeah.

7ack

So, at the meeting, everybody takes a turn, and does this brief presentation. And tell me what's happening as with your, your feelings as they're moving around. It's like if you sit at a table or Yes, as they're moving around the table and then coming closer to you.

11orq

I I'm just becoming more and more terrified. My like, I just I feel like I'm being just drenched in sweat. I'm, I'm breathing faster I and I feel like everybody notices. I feel like everybody can hear me breathe. I feel like everybody can hear my heart beating, that it's just so loud that it's like, any minute everybody's gonna look at me and say what is wrong with you?

10od

They're gonna notice you.

4crq

Yeah. And and there have been times, especially recently really, you know, it's, like I said, I mean, this has been going on for at least six months, but especially recently I feel like I've had to, like run out of the room. I couldn't tell you. Yes, I have. I've ran out and couldn't. I couldn't go back in. I tried and my my hand hit the doorknob to go back in the room and I walked up. Good. No,

6cd

there's too much anxiety.

4crq

Yeah, I felt okay. You know, in the hallway and then when I tried to go back in the room, it's Everything justright back up again.

6cd

Yeah. So, so you would push that door open, they would all be looking at you. They would wonder why you left.

11orq

Yeah.

10od

So you just wrote out the meeting somewhere else. And did anybody notice after?

11orq

You know, after a few weeks in a row of running out, yeah. You know, my boss was like, I realize you didn't make your presentation and, you know, I just I made up an excuse, like, I got a phone call or I didn't feel good or, you know, I stumbled through some excuse, but I feel bad because I mean, this is my job. And I want to do my job. And I mean, how I've lived with this, I feel like forever, you know, because I, I had a terrible time making presentations in high school. I had a terrible time making presentations in college. And here we are again, and I try to be a professional and have a career and make a life. I can't, because I can't perform my job. I want to do my job. I like my job.

10od

This is this is frustrating for you.

4crq

Yeah.

6cd

Have there been times where you've fled the room? And then since then you haven't.

1irq

There was one time, actually the very first time I ran out. And I didn't go back and nobody noticed. And then the second time, that following week, I started to feel that way again. And then two of my co workers to the other managers actually started to get into a fight. One of them wanted more money for their program for something or other and the controller was like, No, we have no money you can't have it's a nonprofit, so there's no money. And it was it was like getting really intense. And I don't know what it was. I just, I was fine.

0id

Something about that intense interaction changed how you're feeling distracted you something like that.

4crq

Yeah, I guess it just, I don't know. It just didn't I, I felt I felt fine. I felt normal.

6cd

So from from that meeting on like till now, have you been able to stay in for eight other meetings? No. She had to leave because of the intensity of the symptoms.

11orq

Yeah, I've there been a couple times where actually I've

10od

I've I've purposely gone in late hours that I've had car trouble and a habit and I've just gone in late or I've actually just called in sick for the day. There was twice I sent somebody else in my place, saying that, you know, when I was sick, but I mean, it gets noticed.

3gc

Yeah, and you're having you're experiencing symptoms. When you go Avoid that interaction the room to right because you don't feel good about letting them down or

4crq

no, no, I want to do my job. I really like my job. I really do. And I like where I work. And I like the people. But the thought of making these presentations every week just terrifies me.

6cd

And I don't want my boss to regret putting me in this

6cd

position. I don't want to disappoint him. I mean, I know he took a big chance, you know, putting me in this position. You know, I don't have a lot of experience doing this. And there were, you know, potentially there could have been other people that were better qualified, but you know, he chose me. I don't want to let him down. And I feel like I am every week with this meeting.

6cd

So it's this meeting, really, you're in your situation where if you go and attend the meeting, you're going to end up leaving it because of the anxiety. If you don't attend it, Have these concerns about the performance in your shops? You're kind of stuck. You're kind of stuck, right? Yeah. Any other symptoms that you think may or may not be related to this intense anxiety?

4crq

Um, I guess I mean, I'm not sleeping the night before the meetings.

6cd

I, I have started to drink a little bit to try and take the edge off. A friend of mine has said before that it's something that she's done to, to help when she's nervous. And so I've, I've tried a shot or two before going into my meeting and

3gc

have any effect on

3gc

I'm probably not a good effect. I mean, I was I was able to sit through the meeting, but everybody kept asking if I was okay. So I got up on the

3gc

Yeah, I really feel like they weren't. And of course, I was very I didn't want anybody to get close to me because I think it's going. Yeah. I just, I was too scared to do that, again.

3gc

Any sadness or anything like that?

4crq

I'm miserable.

6cd

Every time I think about, you know how much I must be disappointing my boss. I just I feel so I just feel terrible.

6cd

Throw it down.

4crq

Yeah.

6cd

Sasha, I know it's been tough going through all this and the symptoms have been tough for you. We'll get you scheduled in here to get treated a couple days. We'll get you in a couple days. And you can start working with a counselor to address these symptoms. I appreciate you spending this time with me it was helpful to get a better understanding of what you're going through.

3gc

Thanks.

2gt

hi you how to do it today.

2gt

Great. How are you?

2gt

I mean, I don't know why because I mean it's been awesome for like a week I've been getting so much done. You know at work, I finished both reports that I've been working on. And even at home, like I've had tons of time to clean my house and get caught up on actually making my house what I want it to be and just Working on in general and it's clean. And I mean, I haven't had any issues.

0id

Right. So you're feeling pretty good. And you have been for about a week? Yeah. Have you? Do you feel like your sleep habits have changed?

1irq

I mean, they have. I haven't been sleeping as much. I haven't needed it really. I only need a few hours, it seems like but it's been fine because I haven't been tired. I haven't been, you know, irritable or anything during the day and at night, I get a few artists late, but the rest of the time I'm like, you know, either working on work or my house or whatever. So I mean, I've slept like in less but it's not an issue.

0id

No, it's you're sleeping less but you don't feel tired at all.

3gc

Okay, yeah.

7ack

Do you Find yourself more easily distracted by anything. things around you.

5yq

No Not really like that.

9on

if you're accomplishing you're accomplishing a lot. Know, when your brother can brush in, he'd mentioned some shopping and that's one of the things he was certain about.

3gc

You remember how much you spent

1irq

I don't know exactly, because there's lots of different stores. But, you know, I have a couple different credit cards. So one credit card I used was declined by the end. So it was probably, you know, I didn't need to get the dining room set. I could have used a different credit card, but obviously it's been enough.

0id

Dude, I feel like you spent more than you usually would spend a trip to the mall.

4crq

I never really go on shopping sprees. And I really treat myself like that. So I mean, yes. But I again like I haven't, you know, I needed all those things that I got from my apartment.

6cd

So have you ever had a time in the past when you felt this way where you felt really good?

1irq

Life's fall into place. So you're feeling pretty good. You feel like things are On your way

3gc

I do

7ack

you get a lot accomplished.

3gc

Any sadness or anything like that?

5yq

No, no.

9on

A change in appetite.

5yq

You seem to have a good amount of energy. Any feelings of worthlessness?

5yq

No

9on

Any thoughts of death or dying?

5yq

NO

9on

drug and alcohol use?

5yq

No

9on

no medical conditions.

5yq

No.

9on

Have you ever had time in the past when you felt depressed?

5yq

No, no.

9on

Just no treatment?

4crq

But you believe you were depressed?

11orq

Now we're back then. Did you see or hear things that other people couldn't see or hear?

5yq

No,

9on

not now. We're back then.

5yq

NO

9on

Okay.

7ack

All right, Sherry. answering these questions has been helpful to me. I appreciate it. I'm going to get you over to see a counselor. Just a few moments.

2gt

Okay. All right.

2gt

I know that you're feeling pretty good, but I'd like them to talk to you for just a bit.

2gt

Okay.

2gt

Okay, thanks for

2gt

corleto how you doing today?

2gt

good.

2gt

I do well, thanks for asking. How'd you do this week?

2gt

Better?

2gt

Well, last time we talked about that

4crq

postponed gratification. Yeah,

6cd

that um, and I think you wanted 10 minutes for me to put it off 10 minutes. Yeah. So

1irq

I did better.

0id

I think I ended up only doing like join a half instead of two I was able to put offered, I think, the 10 minutes a couple times. And then there were there was, I think one or two days where I went out for a walk because I was Tired of staring at the clock waiting for the 10 minutes to pass. So I got up, went for a walk. And then I passed one of my friends. So I ended up walking with her. And I actually didn't get back to my house for like an hour. So I kind of put it off for like an hour because then I came home and took a couple hits on

0id

so it sounds like you were able to maintain waiting 10 minutes to smoke marijuana. At least in most cases. It was rough.

4crq

So it was it was difficult for you, but most cases, you're able to pull off the 10 minutes. Mm hmm. That sounds like there's a few instances where you're able to hold it off longer because something else kind of Yeah, came up.

4crq

Yeah, I found I actually talked to a couple people on the phone before I knew it like half hour to come by.

6cd

so another activity presented itself and You've forgotten with marijuana.

1irq

So have your feelings about marijuana change since we last talked?

5yq