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I don't know. Actually. I mean, I don't know. I've got you know, I've got a lot going on. Right. Yeah. So my, my sister is in Boston, she's got cancer and I know like I should be calling her and I can't do that. My mom is really sick and she's horrible, and I'm the only one that Who can go see her? And I go see my mother and she just yells and screams at me and she's got this email and it's just
0id
so for all of those things, the alcohol helps.
5yq
Yeah, yeah.
7ack
Yeah. And does it ever happen sort of by the end of the day, that you have trouble the next day remembering what happened?
1irq
I guess. I mean, I, you know, my days don't differ that much. But I, you know, I'll fall asleep in front of television and then I'm not seeing lots of people so I you know, there's not big events in my life that I would be remembering. I just, you know, especially now that I'm feeling so not well, that I
0id
yeah, there's not much that I would have to remember
0id
having that. Have you tried it all to cut down on your drinking?
5yq
I did. I did.
7ack
You know, I had a boyfriend who
6cd
you know, was Sort of casual coming over and, and he, he basically said he couldn't be with me anymore because I drink too much. And so I tried. I tried. I was like, Well, yeah, and then he left. So who cares, right? I mean, right?
0id
You find yourself feeling feeling guilty about the alcohol.
5yq
I feel guilty about my sister, right? I feel guilty that I can't like I just can't. I can't even call her like I can't.
0id
Right. So
0id
if I, if I could pull it together than I could,
0id
because what I understand from what you're telling me is that the drinking helps meet a certain need for you, in terms of trying to hold things together with all this stuff going on, and meets a need in terms of trying to keep you calmer. But at the same time, it's getting you into trouble. It's getting into trouble in terms of relationships, but it's also the most likely act explanation for why you've been throwing up blood isn't why the lab results that I've got are consistent with an amount of alcohol that's too much for your body to handle. Really, really, and that means, ideally, that we're going to work together to find a way to do something about it.
3gc
Jasmine how you doing today?
2gt
Okay,
2gt
okay. What's been going on?
1irq
I just been dealing with so much anger that I'm having difficulty controlling in my everyday life a
0id
lot of anger. Yeah. Can you give me some examples?
1irq
Like for instance,
0id
I go to the dry cleaner, the pickup my fiance's uniforms, and the lady had them like ball bag together and I mean, I could have easily just asked her because she separate them. But I begin to yell caused a big commotion because I was so frustrated and angry. She actually was about to call the police escort me out. And I don't think I'm even allowed to go back to the driveway anymore.
0id
So quite a bit of anger.
4crq
Right. So from your perspective, it doesn't seem to make sense why he got so angry.
1irq
No, I just it's been going on for some time. Now. I just get little things just I just explode.
0id
So i don't know why
0id
did anything change around the time that I started?
5yq
Alright, so you're getting upset you have some anger
4crq
any other time that you're feeling angry
1irq
when I go to the go workout at the kickboxing class I'm like the go all out like I use that as like a release. I'm punching the bags of shame before I actually had hurt my wrist last week. I just go all out in there and my trainer kind of notices like are you okay? And I'm like it's just relief kind of gained all the anger I had been out so.
0id
Alright, so that experience for you. You feel like you're releasing more energy than maybe the other people in the game can wait
3gc
You are way more I'm like loud, I'm sweating bullets. I'm just going all out like extremely angry.
3gc
in recent memory, your anger has increased, but it's still not really clear what's going on. that's causing the anger.
4crq
Not really I just feel like frustrated does have so much going on at the moment. So it's kind of like just feel overwhelmed, I guess not take it out.
6cd
You feel busy, like in your daily life, like a lot of responsibilities?
5yq
Yes, a whole lot
7ack
and what kind of things you're doing.
1irq
Mainly, mainly take care of home does not mean I don't I don't work or anything. So I kind of just take care of home and, you know, with the kids and everything, it's just a lot. So
0id
see a lot of responsibilities in the home.
4crq
Guess all of the responsibilities all
6cd
It feels like all of them? Yeah.
4crq
What type things are you doing?
1irq
I'm cooking, I'm cleaning.
0id
Now I have to earn all of my husband's uniforms and get everything ready for him. I had to make sure I cook breakfast I had to make sure I pick lunch. I had to make sure I have dinner ready income I had to help the kids with their homework. I just have so much going on like it's constant, catering, catering, catering, cater and it feels like I just really don't get a break or any other help is just made every day.
0id
You're doing everything and has always been this way.
4crq
Not always but it seems it's been like this for some time.
6cd
Okay. Where you're really just doing everything in the home.
1irq
Everything.
0id
I want to ask you
1irq
Can I ask you or mention a few words? Right? I would like you to, if you're okay with this exercise, tell me the first thing that comes to mind like and you can buy say a word, you can offer several responses. But try not to invest a lot of thought into the response more just what occurs to you. Oh, but does that make sense?
1irq
Yeah.
7ack
All right. So the first word is
1irq
structure, responsibility.
0id
repetition,
0id
repetition.
4crq
All right. Let me give you another word, relationship.
1irq
conflict, power struggle.
0id
disagreements.
0id
Let me offer you another word
1irq
work.
1irq
Independence,
0id
freedom
0id
able to express creativity.
0id
Good, alright. How about another word here? Power
1irq
of constant struggle
0id
extremely controlling.
0id
So do you see any
1irq
themes and in the words that you provided back
1irq
Seems like everything is like really controlled and
0id
structured,
0id
controlled and structured?
1irq
What's the source of that controlling structure? Is there a source of it?
1irq
A lot of it may come from my fiance. Now that I'm thinking about it.
0id
Somebody told me you're thinking,
3gc
because I feel that he doesn't give me the freedom or the ability to do a lot of the things that I would like to do like work, and I think he should help more with the kids around the house and do things and I shouldn't have to do everything. And I feel like that's probably why I'm so frustrated because I felt that I don't have any help. It's like I'm single, and I'm doing everything on my own. So this project where the bulk of my frustration is coming from
0id
So as you're telling me this and you're explaining kind of that relationship with your fiance What are you feeling?
1irq
I'm feeling angry and disappointed. Like I don't really know if I want to further anything because well it'd be like this forever just like angry, frustrated
0id
is a similar to the anger that you've been experiencing recently. Like at the dry cleaner places.
3gc
It's far worse than it but it's like I think that's where why I'm always so upset and angry.
3gc
Serious thinking that maybe that relationship or something part of that relationship is what's really causing the anger.
3gc
Yeah, cuz I feel alone at the same time completely. Like I'm not in a fair relationship is like I'm in control and I don't have freedom to do anything. I don't have help and it's just it's laying a lot of stress on me.
3gc
So is this is your talk about this do you feel like this is new information you're kind of realizing something that you didn't realize before
4crq
it because honestly, I kind of I never really focused on that aspect of it. I kind of just thought that's the way it should go. And I just thought I was angry because I just hate bad deeds. I've never really looked deep into it because I try so hard to make everything in my family, right. So I kind of really don't pay attention, I kind of ignore it. But now that I'm thinking and pointing out different things, than into how I really feel.
6cd
So you feel this, this kind of big moment in terms of awareness.
4crq
Definitely because I don't think I would have like I said, I think I'm kind of try to hide it and really don't focus much on it because I want things to be perfect. So they got a kind of ignore it.
6cd
Okay, so maybe through this session, you develop more insight about what's contributing to the anger.
11orq
But But this source of anchor, this relationship, you recognize this is maybe more causal or more contributing? Yeah. Where's the other objects of your ad? If you weren't really sure,
1irq
I wasn't sure at all. Why. But with that, I definitely could see the reasons why.
0id
All right, chess move. I feel like we've made some progress here. And I'd like you to between now and next session, if you're comfortable with it, kind of reflect on what themes have maybe come to the surface, what informations may have been revealed to you a little bit. And we can pick up there and explore this further with the anger issue. So that's like a good plan.
3gc
Well, I appreciate you coming in today, and I'll see you in week. Okay. Thank you.
2gt
Are you doing today?
2gt
Alright, thanks. How are you?
2gt
Yeah.
0id
Can you tell me about those?
1irq
Yeah. Um, for about the last six months or so, I have have this position at work where I have to make a weekly presentation to other managers about 10 people. And I, every time I have to do this, I lose it.
0id
You lose it every time you have to make a presentation. Yeah. Tell me what would involve losing it.
4crq
Um, I, you know, I'm usually one of the last people to go and you know, as just keeps going more and more and more and more nervous. You know, it's it starts where I feel, I feel like butterflies in my stomach. And that just becomes more intense. I start to just sweat all over. I feel if my face is turning red, my palms get really, really sweaty and you know, constantly wiping them on my on my pants, and my heart. It just feels like it's going to just beat right out of my chest. And then I just I can't, I can't
6cd
very it's very distressing. So So tell me about the nature of this meeting that's leading to this. This anxiety. So you said it was a you had to make a presentation about the structure of it.
4crq
So there's, there's about 1010 people, the the executive director and then the the man have different programs and and we all have to do just kind of like a weekly update report. So none of it's very detailed, you know, just a maybe a few minutes each person to go around and just update everybody else on what's going on. And all the different programs. We all take turns
6cd
or how long do you have to speak?
1irq