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For some reason, when the conversation took an<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">unexpected turn, I became touchy.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Then angry.
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Disproportionately, sloppily angry.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Meg said something I took the wrong way.
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It was partly a cultural<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">difference, partly a language barrier, but I was also just over-sensitive that<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">night.
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I thought: Why’s she having a go at me?<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I snapped at her, spoke to her harshly—cruelly.
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As the words left my<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">mouth, I could feel everything in the room come to a stop.
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The gravy<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">stopped bubbling, the molecules of air stopped orbiting.
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Even Nina<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">326<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">https://m.facebook.com/groups/182281287 1297698 https://t.
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:me/Afghansalarlibrary<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Simone seemed to pause.
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Meg walked out of the room, disappearing for a<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">full fifteen minutes.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I went and found her upstairs.
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She was sitting in the bedroom.
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She was<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">calm, but said in a quiet, level tone that she would never stand for being<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">spoken to like that.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I nodded.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">She wanted to know where it came from.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">18 316<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">19 318<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">20 320<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">21 323<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">22 324<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">23 326<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">24 307<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">25 329<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">26 330<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">27 332<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">28 334<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">29 336<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">30 338<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">31 340<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">32 340<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">33 341<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">34 346<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">35 347<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">36 349<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">37 350<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">38 351<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">39 352<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">40 353<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">41 354<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">42 356<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">43 357<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">44 359<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">45 360<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">46 362<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">47 363<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">449<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">https://m.facebook.com/groups/182281287 1297698 https://t.
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:me/Afghansalarlibrary<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">48 365<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">49 366<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">50 367<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">51 370<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">a2 371<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">53 a13<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">54 374<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">= 374<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">56 a15<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">mei 377<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">58 378<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">59 a9<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">60 381<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">61 382<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">62 384<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">63 387<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">64 388<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">65 390<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">66 393<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">67 395<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">68 97<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">69 397<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">70 399<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">71 401<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">de 402<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">73 405<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">74 407<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">75 410<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">76 414<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">77 416<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">78 417<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">79 418<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">80 419<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">81 420<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">450<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">https://m.facebook.com/groups/182281287 1297698 https://t.
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:me/Afghansalarlibrary<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">82 421<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">83 423<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">84 424<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">85 425<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">86 426<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">87 431<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Epilogue 433<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Dedication 439<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Acknowledgments 440<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">451<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span and flames.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Well done, Dave said.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">We swooped back to camp, critiqued the video.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Perfect kill.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">We played some more PlayStation.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Turned in early.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">olor<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">li CAN BE HARD TO BE precise with Hellfires.
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Apaches fly with such<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">tremendous speed that it’s hard to take steady aim.
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Hard for some<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">anyway.
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I developed pinpoint accuracy, as if I was throwing darts in a pub.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">My targets were moving fast too.
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The speediest motorbike I shot was<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">going about 50 k.p.h.
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The driver, a Taliban commander who'd been calling<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">in fire all day on our forces, was hunched over the handlebars, looking back<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">as we gave chase.
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He was purposely speeding between villages, using<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">civilians for cover.
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Old people, children, they were mere props to him.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Our windows of opportunity were those one-minute spans when he was<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">between villages.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I remember Dave calling out: You’ve got two hundred meters till it’s a no-<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">go.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Meaning, two hundred meters until this Taliban commander was hiding<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">behind another child.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I heard Dave again: You’ve got trees coming on the left, wall on the right.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Roger.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">229<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">https://m.facebook.com/groups/182281287 1297698 https://t.me/Afghansalarlibrary<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Dave moved us into the five o’clock position, dropped to six hundred<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">feet.
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Now—<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I took the shot.
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The Hellfire smacked the motorbike, sent it flying into a<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">small thatch of trees.
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Dave flew us over the trees, and through plumes of<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">smoke we saw a ball of fire.
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And the bike.
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But no body.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I was ready to follow up with the 30-mm, strafe the area, but I couldn’t<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">see anything to strafe.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">We circled and circled.
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I was getting nervous.
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Did he get away, mate?<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">There he is!<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Fifty feet to the right of the motorbike: body on the ground.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Confirmed.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I didn’t hug her.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I saw her into the Range Rover, then marched back to Pa and Willy.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">34.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">|v A RING from Meg’s jewelry box and gave it to a designer, so he’d<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">know her size.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Since he was also the keeper of Mummy’s bracelets, earrings and<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">necklaces, I asked him to harvest the diamonds from one particularly<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">beautiful bracelet of Mummy’s and use those to create a ring.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I’d cleared all this in advance with Willy.
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I’d asked my brother if I<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">could have the bracelet, and told him what it was for.
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I don’t recall him<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">hesitating, for one second, in giving it to me.
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He seemed to like Meg,<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">despite his oft-cited concerns.
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Kate seemed to like her too.
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We’d had them<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">over for dinner during one of Meg’s visits, and Meg cooked, and<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">346<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">https://m.facebook.com/groups/182281287 1297698 https://t.
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:me/Afghansalarlibrary<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">everything was good.
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Willy had a cold: he was sneezing and coughing, and<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Meg ran upstairs to get him some of her homeopathic cure-alls.
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Oregano<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">oil, turmeric.
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He seemed charmed, moved, though Kate announced to the<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">table that he’d never take such unconventional remedies.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">We talked about Wimbledon that night, and Suits, and Willy and Kate<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">weren’t brave enough to admit to being superfans.
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Which was sweet.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">The only possibly discordant note I could think of was the marked<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">difference in how the two women dressed, which both of them seemed to<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">notice.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Meg: ripped jeans, barefoot.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Kate: done up to the nines.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">No big deal, I thought.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Along with the diamonds from the bracelet I'd asked the designer to<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">add a third—a blood-free diamond from Botswana.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">He asked if there was a rush.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Well...now that you mention it...<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">30:<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">M°* PACKED uP her house, gave up her role in Suits.
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After seven<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">seasons.
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A difficult moment for her, and cheeks were already healing, the todger wasn’t.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">It was becoming more of an issue by the day.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I don’t know why I should’ve been reluctant to discuss my penis with Pa,<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">or all the gentlemen present.
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My penis was a matter of public record, and<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">indeed some public curiosity.
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The press had written about it extensively.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">There were countless stories in books, and papers (even The New York<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Times) about Willy and me not being circumcised.
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Mummy had forbidden it,<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">they all said, and while it’s absolutely true that the chance of getting penile<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">frostbite is much greater if you’re not circumcised, all the stories were false.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I was snipped as a baby.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">After dinner we moved to the TV room and watched the news.
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Reporters<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">were interviewing folks who’d camped just outside Clarence House, in<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">hopes of getting a front-row seat at the wedding.
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We went to the window<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">and looked at the thousands of them, in tents and bedrolls, up and down the<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Mall, which runs between Buckingham Palace and Trafalgar Square.
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Many<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">were drinking, singing.
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Some were cooking meals on portable stoves.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Others were wandering about, chanting, celebrating, as if they were getting<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">married in the morning.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">196<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">https://m.facebook.com/groups/182281287 1297698 https://t.
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me/Afghansalarlibrary<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Willy, rum-warmed, shouted: We should go and see them!<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">He texted his security team to say he wanted to do so.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">The security team answered: Strongly advise against.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">No, he shot back.
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/t’s the right thing to do.
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I want to go out there.
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I need<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">to see them!<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">He asked me to come.
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He begged.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I could see in his eyes that the rum was really hitting hard.
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He needed a<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">wingman.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Painfully familiar role for me.
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But all right.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">We went out, walked the edge of the crowd, shaking hands.
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People<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">wished Willy well, told him they loved him, loved Kate.
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They gave us both<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">the same teary smiles, the same looks of fondness and pity we’d seen that<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">day in August 1997.
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I couldn’t help but shake table.
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Meg’s idea.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Time passed.
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Hour melted into hour.
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Minimal dilation.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Meg was doing a lot of deep breathing for pain.
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Then the deep<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">breathing stopped working.
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She was in so much pain that she needed an<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">epidural.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">The anesthetist hurried in.
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Off went the music, on went the lights.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Whoa.
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Vibe change.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">He gave her an injection at the base of her spine.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Still the pain didn’t let up.
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The medicine apparently wasn’t getting<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">where it needed to go.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">291<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">https://m.facebook.com/groups/182281287 1297698 https://t.
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me/Afghansalarlibrary<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">He came back, did it again.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Now things both quietened and accelerated.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Her doctor came back two hours later, slipped both hands into a pair of<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">rubber gloves.
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This is it, everybody.
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I stationed myself at the head of the<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">bed, holding Meg’s hand, encouraging her.
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Push, my love.
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Breathe.
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The<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">doctor gave Meg a small hand mirror.
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I tried not to look, but I had to.
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I<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">glanced, saw a reflection of the baby’s head emerging.
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Stuck.
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Tangled.
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Oh,<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">no, please, no.
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The doctor looked up, her mouth set in a particular way.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Things were getting serious.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I said to Meg: My love, I need you to push.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I didn’t tell her why.
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I didn’t tell her about the cord, didn’t tell her about<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">the likelihood of an emergency C-section.
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I just said: Give me everything<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">you've got.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">And she did.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I saw the little face, the tiny neck and chest and arms, wriggling,<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">writhing.
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Life, life—amazing!
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I thought, Wow, it really all begins with a<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">struggle for freedom.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">A nurse swept the baby into a towel and placed him on Meg’s chest and<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">we both cried to see him, meet him.
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A healthy little boy, and he was here.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Our ayurvedic doctor had advised us that, in the first minute of life, a<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">baby absorbs everything said to them.
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So whisper to the baby, tell the baby<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">your wish for him, your love.
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phoned Willy.
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I couldn’t speak.
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He couldn’t either.
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He was sympathetic,<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">and more.
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(Raw deal, Harold.)
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At moments he was even angrier about the<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">whole thing than I was, because he was privy to more details about the spin<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">doctor and the backroom dealings that had led to this public sacrifice of the<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Spare.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">And yet, in the same breath, he assured me that there was nothing to be<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">done.
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This was Pa.
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This was Camilla.
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This was royal life.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">This was our life.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I phoned Marko.
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He too offered sympathy.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I asked him to remind me, What was this editor’s name?
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He said it, and I<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">committed it to memory, but in the years since then I’ve avoided speaking it,<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">and I don’t wish to repeat it here.
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Spare the reader, but also myself.
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Besides,<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">can it possibly be a coincidence that the name of the woman who pretended I<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">went to rehab is a perfect anagram for...Rehabber Kooks?
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Is the universe<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">not saying something there?<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Who am I not to listen?<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Over several weeks, newspapers continued to rehash the Rehabber Kooks<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">libels, along with various new and equally fabricated accounts of goings-on<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">in Club H. Our fairly innocent teenage clubhouse was made to sound like<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Caligula’s bedchamber.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">Around this time one of Pa’s dearest friends came to Highgrove.
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She was<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">with her husband.
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Pa asked me to give them a tour.
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I walked them around the<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">gardens, but they didn’t care about Pa’s lavender and honeysuckle.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">The woman asked eagerly: Where's Club H?<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">An avid reader of all the papers.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">79<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">https://m.facebook.com/groups/182281287 1297698 https://t.me/Afghansalarlibrary<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">I led her to the door, opened it.
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I pointed down the dark steps.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s1"></span><br></p> <p class="p2"><span class="s1">She breathed in deeply, smiled.