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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni wa really stupid and ordered nitrogen gas without thinking of a back story because i stupidly thought they wouldn t ask well i got a call an hour ago asking what it s for and i folded he could tell it wa bullshit and i sent an email asking to cancel the order and now i m scared i m going to get sectioned edit the cop actually did come around today because of this but i wasn t sectioned\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nis a twitter loner\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nshattered\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\noffice time\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni don t really have any actual friend but i also have no motivation to actually make any i just can t be bothered but in a way i m almost scared to feel better again it s like i enjoy feeling sorry for myself or something\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmsjodiodie it such a sad situation though in of u will be beaten in u every second amp killed a day it s sadly commonplace\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni feel completely exhausted my life isn t going anywhere and i ve got nobody to turn to\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nbuttload of homework\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\njamming postponed again boohoohoozx damn you flu bug\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhubby ha such a tight scedule for u during easter vaca that it stressing me out visit all over denmark in day\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni left my id at the location and now i can not go out to bar fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwaiting for kelly s call\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ntheekween depression anxiety trauma thelmasherbs\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nok i m sick and spent an hour sitting in the shower cause i wa too sick to stand and held back the puke like a champ bed now\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nonlinemigration me too although im still going hehe\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni don t mean just dating wise either i ve been rejected by my family friend and pretty much everyone else last month though i went out with a girl for v day and started dating her and very recently she said she wasn t interested in me anymore and today i found out she wa already dating another person this is the second time in a row i ve been cheated on and my suicidal thought are going crazy now i just need to type this out to calm myself down i hate this i just want someone to truly love me for once whether friend or family it feel like my whole existence wa just a mistake my life suck and i just want to die right now fuck\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ntw for self harm abuse and suicide for the past year i ve suffered with severe depression from family genetics and other issue a a young kid death wasn t really my first thought it just kind of started appearing after a bit when i wa in middle school my close friend sexually assaulted and abused me for a year and a half they also psychologically manipulated me and abused me in way that i m shocked they got away with i have made around failed suicide attempt in my life time only one ha been severe enough to end up in a hospital because i told people but realistically there s several more that i should have been taken to a hospital for a they probably fucked up some stuff internally i form really strong and probably toxic bond with people to the point where if i think i will be left i try so hard to keep them around that it can be overbearing i ve gone to therapy since i wa in elementary school and i ve done dbt and cbt intensively i have definitely gotten better but the fact that any time someone leaf me i feel so distraught that killing myself feel like the only option my partner and i broke up at the end of january and it ha more or le destroyed me i lost my virginity to them and the breakup came out of the blue they said we could start talking again when they felt like it so i have left them alone i wa being weird about saying hi so i tried to do that some more and i wa feeling better about moving on and staying friend in the future i really haven t been feeling better i still wanted to die but i wa managing it pretty well on monday at midnight they sent a text saying they wanted to give me closure and that they never actually wanted any sort of relationship after and oops sorry about the confusion i m not sure why they sent that we haven t spoken in almost month there ha been no communication and i only told two people how i wa secretly hoping thing could be patched up everyone else who asked i had just said hopefully we can remain friend in the future i know not everyone want to stay friend but they were the one who proposed it that sent me on a spiral i broke month of self harm ripped off my fingernail in stress and haven t eaten correctly since realistically if this is going to be my response to every breakup or conflict how can i keep living like this i don t want to end my own life since a th failed attempt would be embarrassing but i also don t want to be here anymore everyone tell me that in a few month i get to move to my dream town so it ll be fine but really i don t care about that i can t handle the pain now and knowing i ll have to have it possibly many more time is excruciating i feel like i could have been a success story but realistically if it s been so long and i ve only barely gotten better then what s the point i m trying my hardest to find reason to live right now but i don t have much to care about\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m ill i don t like that\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhttp twitpic com y lt i feel so bad for the band right now\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmusikpirat durch den h heren preis sinkt die nachfrage und durch den zoll kann sich die marge verringern aber das vor allem spekulanten damit reich und reicher werden und das strafz lle in der weimarer republik und den usa in die great depression gef hrt haben lassen wir au en vor\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni don t know if i could able to live another day or another year i hear everyday people judge who i talked to or what i m planning to do they hated my presence and how my thought is they hated my love of interest and my hobby because it s useless and not get you anywhere in life my mom constantly telling me i m not going anywhere in life because of the many failed attempt on planning to go to school or planning to get the job but no my self esteem and my joy for socializing people is ruined by my mom i m still in a constant unresolved trauma going on in on through my childhood where i get brutally beaten by people whose used to be kid and now grow up to be the same thing a me but selfishly beat me to the ground i couldn t able to save my dad through a stroke back in october 0 nobody understands me when i talked about my issue at home or my life they only thought i m a well rounded person who got lot of achievement and so called hope on me and now i m on my computer scrolling though which rope i could buy and how sturdy the fall is and use it before my birthday because nobody understands me\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nive been out of work for about a year and tomorrow i have my first hour shift i have to be on my foot for most of the day and am still in the process of learning what i need to do and the worst part is i will be there alone for the last hour of my shift im super anxious about this a i haven t worked an hour shift in a year or more and i wasn t super good at handling them back then either any tip for getting through longer shift with anxiety and fear of failing or getting in trouble somehow\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\none of my biggest fear is trying everything possible to turn my life around from grade to career career to myself then still come out being the same or still having the same hallow feeling i wan na take this next year to change my life around for the best i wan na look back and be happy with my life and what i ve accomplished i ve learned throughout the year that i really do want to be alive i just don t want to be me i wish i could change myself and who i am and where i came from but i can t so i would like to better myself do something to make myself proud i just don t want to waste even more time trying to fix myself then still be unhappy this fear probably came from my dad he s a ex heroin addict yet in his 0 he went from a crackhead to owning his own auto repair shop ha a beautiful yr old and amazing wife yet he still the most cold hearted asshole he still cant get more then a couple hr of sleep he s drunk every night he rarely speaks a word to me so from heroin addict to a shop owner yet still unhappy still suicidal still fighting after doing so fucking much is that really all there is to life constantly fighting to be happy without ever truly feeling it you may hide it or distract for awhile but it always come back and harder everytime till one day\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\noh just got all my macheist 0 apps sweet didn t get the espresso serial no though although they said they sent it oh well\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni d love to just to die i dont have friend or family member that care about me haha no one will be sad when im gone which is good honestly but like i mentioned the possibility of religion being real scare me and it the only reason thats stopping me from ending it one day i wont care and i ll do it but it not today sadly\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nchiefdelphi is down\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nrandomlynat jeez i wa just trying to help haha\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m sitting up unable to sleep\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nurgh my head hurt think i ve had about hour sleep but the cat wa miaowing no rest for the wicked\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni want to end it so badly now everything in my life is pain if it is not my own mind tearing me to piece it is how people treat me and people like me i can t take this life i have no real friend i am a stranger to my family i work so hard to eek out some sort of life but all i have is a dinky apartment that i don t leave very often because i can t afford to do anything i fucking hate my existence every day stupid shit happens that have greater consequence example i wa getting in bed and my knee bumped my nightstand which launched oz of water on my router and soaked the bottom of the computer i have thrown a lot of money and effort into i don t even know if it will turn on anything i put effort into always get destroyed everyone i love always leaf life is a pointless never ending nightmare tomb with only one way out i want the fuck out of this hell\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsuck when you know you haven t done anything wrong but it feel like you have\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve been on just about every ssri under the sun i ve been on hydroxyzine i m currently on 0mg of buspar x a day 0mg of seroquel and 0mg of remron it is not working for me i still can t leave my house i get anxious the second i step outside i get sick to my stomach dizzy light headed my toe and finger tingle and i feel like an elephant is sitting on my chest i go into tunnel vision and shut down i can t even escape my anxiety a i have very anxious dream i need the help of medication that will actually work i just want to feel human again\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nnew post http tinyurl com cexkqy\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso the next fall is deeper and harder to bear each time there s one little glimmer of hope i know that it s ephemeral and could be gone the next day but i can t stop myself from getting lost in it thinking maybe this time it could be real for a while and some time it doe lurking there for a while like just right then but when it s lost it s going down ten time worse than the last and the anxious and unbearable state i m in is urging me to destroy myself even more it s like being locked inside a transparent box full of insect and reptile crawling over me it s slowburn and icky and suffocating i just want to bite my tongue off quick to release myself from the situation but i m still scared of the monstrous pain that act would cause me and if i m not dead immediately it s grotesque i made a first post here a while ago just to let it out i don t think anyone would care but i got called a very nasty stupid word like i m always afraid would happen if i even complain in real life so i don t even want to talk about it right now i just can t take any more anxiety i don t even want to think about it and write them down anyway same shit all over again why don t i get used to it when it keep happening am i that weak it s like how dare you have depression and suicidal attempt if your life look like you re having a fucking blast believe me it s all a big facade i m putting up so i could delay the speed of this horrible decay inside me to feel a bit bearable to last one more day but nowadays i just stop giving a fuck and destroy everything in my life and lock myself inside my room i use humor and shit to cope so i think at least there s one good thing coming from this right now is that i couldn t eat a thing so i m getting thinner to bone and skin like i always wish and if i die right now i could look prettier than ever before i m glad you read until now and i do appreciate that it make me feel a bit bearable for now my anxiety level keep shooting through the roof i just try really really hard to not harm myself and fall to the pit again\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncurrently at work\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nperfectly ripe and fresh banana go in the bag arrive at office it look like it ha been hit by a freight train poor banana\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nthe only time i enjoy this life is when i m next to my laptop but i cant stare at it for ever i m always uncomfortable outside my room it s the only safe place i have been told to face reality many time before and when i do i always end up worrying others with my mental state so this time i think i ll face reality head first and i m sure some of them will be sad i know people care for me but i don t care about myself but i care them so by doing this im just helping them long term right im sorry for hurting confusing etc others i never meant to\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfor the most part my life is perfect in the grand scheme of thing i am probably in the of well off people on this planet globally speaking i have a home car no debt a family etc it is all there however i am so riddle with anxiety and depression that i feel i am just wasting my life away all i do is see red and fear the worst all day every day i just turned 0 in looking back i ve become very sad how ironic sigh realizing how i ve spent from the 0 to 0 being anxious and wasted away all this potential brain space i have no other way to describe it and a i look to the next 0 year ahead i fear i will do the same can you imagine laying on your death bed thinking i worried and anxiously walked through life i had all this pent up anxiety depression anger insert your ailment here and that is what defined my time here i could elaborate but almost every activity whether banal or extreme is met with a flood of negative thought worry emotion etc i sometimes feel like i am vibrating from so much anxiety it s fucking crushing every day is just a struggle to be normal\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nit s snowing again\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni am not sure if this is the right place for it but last friday one of my classmate told me jokingly to jump out of a window she ha been doing that joke for over a month i ve had it up to here so i said i d blow my head off on the weekend i tried to hurt myself and went to the emergency room on monday they prescribed me some lexapro and i went home relieved that i finally got some help half an hour after i returned home cop stormed my apartment saying they received a hint from the school that i wa gon na hurt myself and they searched my whole apartment for a gun which i don t have so they obv didn t find one and restrained me they then took me to the same hospital i wa at just half an hour ago and i spoke to the psychiatrist there again who told the police i am not a threat to myself or someone else so they let me go again during that they took my phone and it ran out of battery and i didn t have access to it for like hour or more during that time two of my classmate messaged me asking why i blocked them and they attacked me not knowing my phone ran out of battery and that s why i didn t answer they then blocked me and i explained to them on instagram what happened and they read it but didn t care apparently my classmate apparently told our headmaster they were worried and then he called the police i am getting the proper help from all of my teacher and my headmaster and i have an appointment with our school psychiatrist soon it s just that this whole police incident ha left me panicking and cry when i see a police officer car and everytime someone with heavy boot walk on my apartment floor i sit up thinking the police will come back again i also can t sleep properly and can t distract myself because i keep having horrible flashback of the scene when the police stormed in which leaf me breaking down it left me broken traumatized overwhelmed and desperate because i don t know what to do on top of that my classmate all blocked me are ignoring me and not even looking at me talking about being worried and not even one person asked me if i wa alright or how i wa doing i am considering going back to the emergency room and talking to the same psychiatrist from before but it s not really an emergency you know sorry if this text is long i am just overwhelmed and don t know what to do anymore all i know is i am traumatized a fuck and broken what should i do someone please assure me that everything is gon na be okay because at this point all my hope ha left me\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nv a b d y kh i gi ng m t qu\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nguy do any of you also wake up every morning from scary nightmare and feeling completely estranged when you open your eye like your surrounding feel so foreign eventho it s your own home your own room and it take some time for you to realize youre just fine do you wake up with fear every morning\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncherrytreerec oh man i can t see the vid it ot available in my country\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m think i m depressed and my anxiety is through the roof rn i m having a hard time focusing what should i do\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nblazing row with boy tantrum all round missed train and now standing on platform feeling guilty\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfor example this happened the other day while driving to class the week before first week of the course sometimes i wa pretty nervous agitated and generally anxious during the drive resulting in a weird feeling that i usually feel in this circumstance it s hard to put it to word like an uneasy rushy in real time sense of reality this time i didn t feel any of that i wa actually close to being symptomless the problem is that when i started noticing this too much my brain started to scan and check for that feeling that i described before even tho i didn t eventually feel it again it did ruin the moment and it impacted a bit on the symptom anyway so how can i just let go generally speaking\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\njust going to cry myself to sleep after watching marley and me\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni can t find the strength to do anything i m supposed to do like studying going to the gym or finding a job i have been losing interest in thing i used to like to the point i don t enjoy doing them and they are becoming difficult to do because they are supposed to make me happy and being happy requires a lot of energy i don t have by losing interest and thing i like i m running thin of thing that keep me motivated for living and hope for the future i have difficulty getting help because i don t think it is worth the effort for a hopeless person like me i don t even think i deserve that help considering the thing i hate about myself i don t even want to talk about this thing with other people that care for me because with my point of view of the world and future might grab them down to this dark and hopeless vision the only thing that keep me from km is that i know it would hurt people around me i really need something to look forward something that give me the motivation to keep going\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsomeone in romania didn t like mystic myre http www smartestgames com gotd php\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nill make fresh start i promise xtra sad puppy face\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m going to love this season of the hill i can tell spartan sucked goodnight\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nat mobilityvic org launch no grog nice video from pwc though\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nedbehrens thanks for all the good luck ala i wasn t good enough don t really want to explain but thanks for everything i lt you all\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\njust booted into window to upload something since internet is even worse under ubuntu\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmommy is school closed today\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwatchin i m not there and missing heath ledger\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhi hello idk why am i writing this i just need to vent out ok i can t type properly my eye are flooding with tear rn i m so fucked up right now idk what to do amp x 00b no one got my back for fuck sake this is so messed up i wan na kill myself so bad i feel like i ve done everything that i want if somehow i die my biggest regret would probably be disappointing my mom amp x 00b amp x 00b on a second thought i don t really wan na die i m just confused what is the life i wan na know my purpose being 9 year old and having nothing accomplished make me feel shit constantly lying about stuff making sin day after day am i born to sin amp x 00b amp x 00b i really felt lonely and thought that no one really cared about my existence i saw my friend enjoying and posting their happy moment i really felt cornered i spent another few day in my room then the other day i just went out for a walk amp x 00b i don t want this anymore my coping mechanism is smoke some cigarette i don t want to be addicted i m thinking about praying to god but i don t wan na pray for someone whom i don t believe to exist i m starting to think what if someone just made up god idk someone made up god for people who don t have someone to talk to\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfor context i m a yr old mom of two kid my daughter is and my son is month i have been struggling with all type of mental illness for a long a i can remember i wa raised by a narcissist alcoholic mom and a dad who wa barely there because he wa working to support u i have attempted to take my life more than time and have been hospitalized for my mental health and nothing seems to help i m in therapy and on med and i am just tired of fighting myself i just want it all to stop my husband is never really home do you work and i m all alone all the time with our kid the only reason i m still alive is because they need me not even because i want to be alive there is nothing enjoyable for me anymore every time i think about it i cry i cry for my kid who deserve a better mom and a better life i cry for my husband who doesn t understand what it s like to feel this way and think i should just be ok i cry because i want it all to end so badly and i can t even do that right i m not still here because i want to be and i feel so much guilt for that i just want to feel normal and sometimes it feel like dying is the only way to make it stop\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nguykawasaki that s so sad for the goat wa ah ah ah ah ah\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni wish i were playing reindeer game up at fowler\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nnot feeling so hot\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni miss the glass house but thankfully pretty much every moment of it ha been uploaded onto youtube\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nget to speak to my boyfriend til about so happy but then cant speak to him til may that may hurt a little\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfinger hurt can t sleep even after my vicoden amp alcohol combo\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nokay i am on the line of alcoholism and it s tickling my nerve a bunch knowing that i crave a drink and i feel the need to turn to alcohol to make myself seem whole here s my little run down im battling with depression a little suicidal anxiety and we a little lonely that s why im on reddit im sick of feeling like shit everyday all the insane irrational thought that go through my head once im on a certain bothering thought i get stuck on it for a while till i cave to drink so my idea to combat it is to start organizing my life more financially at home my priority my hobby all in all im aware that the whole you have to learn to love yourself theme is a big thing for people like me but at the moment i am just thinking of distracting myself with work school hobby people what if it s not enough my thought may start traveling again when i am doing those thing how do i combat those thought it s like i go in circle with question to an answer then question after answer it s mentally exhausting and it physically hurt at time i want to learn how to fight internal how doe one do that\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nlevenrambin take it easy and be good to you\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m pregnant with my four child third baby daddy he left me about two week ago after assuring me he would be there for me and this child regardless a he knew i didn t want to raise another child alone i can t go thru with a abortion my two other kid are about to be and year of age there are no day care place i would be able to take my baby after it s born i don t have a mother or any sister family to help i will literally have no choice but not to work and eventually evicted from the house i rent i have worked so hard to make a nice life for me and my two kid now after being kicked off my family s property i lived in for 9 year i am native american so it s trust land i wa always told i would be able to live on i have kept the house i rent now for year ab raised my two child i have now for their entire life myself i did everything i could to give them a better life then i ever had and tried to be a mom i never had and parent all around i never had i had a shit childhood like most of u do i wa a product of a sale my mother wa a whore and my donor wa a customer my two brother and i were never wanted or meant to be when my mom disappeared during a custody battle my grandmother made my dad take me in she wanted to take care of me because she thought it wa right my donor could care le rather i lived or died i wasn t wanted and he will tell you that his self my grandma passed away due to alzheimer s when i wa about so my donor had to play dad during this time he used me a his personal punching bag and he allowed my brother who had molested me since the age of four to do the same i ran away at the age of and made a series of bad decision everyone say i m so strong for what i have been thru and over come but i feel if i wasn t so weak and stupid i would not of even gone thru those thing i have been held down and raped by cousin a stranger at gun point the guy i ran away to at lied to abused to the point if i have hearing loss and loose front teeth due to the beating from men shot with a and hit twice by the bullet it s like i wasn t ever supposed to be and life kept trying to make up for it mistake by trying to unalive me multiple time but here the hell i am i love my kid so much and don t want to leave them however i will have no way to support them once this new baby come and i just don t know what to do the people i rent from say they will help me a much a they can but they are elderly and i don t know if they can do this for another year till my baby can go to day care i know i should of got birth control and i use to have it but my lupus make it so i get clot with most birth control and others are dangerous i know i should of used a condom but love is my drug and so i m stupid when it come to men i know this is all my fault and killing myself will leave my kid with a man who doesn t really love them like a father doe just like what happened to me i know this and it kill me but i just don t know what else to do any more i m such a fucking joke as failure and i didn t want my life to be like this i have just been trying to pick up the piece and make the best my while life now i m here and i don t know what to do but end my life i have worked most of my life since the age of so i know my kid father with get money from the state if i pas away so maybe they will help him be a better father and maybe his wife will feel sorry for them and love them too i am too coward to take a gun and do it myself because i m afraid i ll fuck it up i just want someone to do it for me or tell me how to commit suicide by cop or the least painful way to do this i have no one nothing no friend or family just mt kiddos the people i rent from and the day care lady i wa saving to buy a place with this last guy now i ll have to use that to pay for our life once the baby is here till it all run out then i ll have to sell thing till it s just here minimum so we can live in my truck my kid deserve better my son is such a sweet boy and my daughter is so strong and beautiful they deserve so much better then i ll be able to give them soon i use to pay k for birthday party now i ll be lucky to even get them a hostess cup cake when their birthday some around please don t tell me i have so much to live for i know my kid need me and i know this just passed the pain to them but i have no option i m week pregnant a of right now and i can t bare to have a abortion and yes i thought of adoption but everyone i looked up seems so fucking weird and too put together like they are severely epstein people please just tell me how to make this all stop that s all i ask\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nokay i m sorry that wa mean i m not nice\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nkalau mau ikut logik sndri susah ba tu mau kontrol postpartum punya emosi tp syukur c husband sangat mbantu dalam mengubati amp melayan sy kalau dia kasi biar sy sndri tu konfom sy tewas suda sama postpartum emotion depression\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngoing to sleep now johnny just died on the oc\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndaniela 9 hahaa i just realized quot impune quot definitely isnt the word i wanted dang i m so unclever\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\namanorris wow that last tweet made me seem like a giant sexist sorry about that\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nnhlanhla lux will mislead you if you have stress and depression of unemployment\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nno o gprs anyone else with issue\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni feel like i have had this crap since i wa young and depending on whether or not i can convince myself everything will be okay is where my anxiety level are i am constantly plagued by my own thought about dying and more specifically what happens after and the wonderful memory throughout my life that will just be gone i love life so strongly the sunrise and sunset the connection with family friend my husband potentially future child that i ve been holding off on until i can come to some sort of conclusion with this anxiety and the companionship of animal sometimes i spiral into panic over it and just don t know how i m going to keep doing this for the rest of my life the anxiety is so bad that i would say at this point i have depression that i ve never felt wa a label that ha matched me in the past doe anyone have any kind word or advice or anything ha anyone had success with finding their way out of this anxiety i m not religious but i am spiritual and look at life very factually and scientifically this is just one thing that i don t have very good answer to or hope about\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfed bokkie too many birthday treat sicko\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nseamonkey i am on a healthy eating kick i could only have shetland pony\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni know i m just a burden to everyone around me i hate myself people have told me i m mean after i m really fucking trying to be a good person every partner i ve had i ve hurt at least once the worst part is that i am not doing this consciously i m just naturally an asshole i thought i needed therapy i have it i thought i needed a new job i have it maybe pill done then i wa convinced it wa smoking too much weed so i ve quit for a month now started exercising eating better i have my own house and cat and literally nothing help it only make it worse because i have le and le of an excuse to be a burden to those around me if i kill myself i can leave everyone all my possession and spare them the pain and burden i d cause them in the future i have a plan so no one will have to see my body but the cop and literally everyone would be better off why the fuck should i not do it\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmy gf had a tough period when she wa a teenager family loss and doctor put her on abilify to treat her today after year she is thinking about stopping it she really want to but every doctor she see are really not helping her in the right direction two of them told her to reduce slightly to avoid eye side effect but no more otherwise she feel ok she even stopped for almost a month whitout seeing any difference what s your experience about this thanks for help\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni feel so much worse after talking to a counseller i swear this time i might actually do it\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m on this team project and the project manager is super toxic i constantly feel like i am a burden and that i have to pretend to be working every morning there is stand up and i have a mental breakdown because i haven t done anything i have started seeing my therapist again but i just don t know what to do about this i honestly feel like i have to quit my job but i don t have another job i am totally screwed with no way out\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nconsidering new business name which mean new logo and website finding it very difficult to pick a name though been week fail\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni keep having anxiety in the shower sometimes i can manage through but i had to shave and take a little extra time my usual anxious thought about a million way to die i swear i could have written the script to the movie and why i m terrified of the unkniwn waved over me and i pushed through the shower a fast a i could got out and instantly took a full pill of my clonazepam mg now i m sitting here about minute later still half anxious struggling to even right this a my brain is going into shut down mode i still have to make dinner but my husband may be tasked with it tonight which i know he won t complain or think anything of it but it make me feel like a bad wife i went almost month with little to no anxiety until about week ago and now i feel like i m right back to where i wa it s been two year and i m so ungodly tired of this i m tired of being good for a couple year then being thrown back into anxiety panic attack i m tired of deciding that not feeling at all is better than participating in living c\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmaybe i should have been locked away for the rest of my life like every other unprofitable unproductive worthless retard my only quality is that i m worthless enough to inspire the real regular normal people because if some low iq idiot like me can do something so can a normal person the only thing that held me back were the fear of failing and living even more disabled and some stupid video game i could have done without\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\noh and my agent had me booked out the wrong day x 000000\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni want to be back in la\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni am going to be 0 in a month ugh\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhi i wa wondering if anyone ha small kid with anxiety i have a seven year old that ha been coming to me the past couple day saying he feel like he can t breath and sometimes is on the verge of hyperventilation he is a very emotional child and always ha been looking back he may have always had anxiety but it s turning to physical symptom while this is happening i validate what he is feeling remind him i m there for him and we do boxed breathing his lung are clear oxygen level normal no wheezing no pain when experiencing this i have struggled with anxiety and feeling of shortness of breath too i wa wondering if anyone ha gone through this with their child and what are some resource i m calling the doctor tomorrow for an appointment a most of you know living with uncontrolled anxiety can truly feel like a nightmare and is the last thing i want for any of my child any advice would help thanks\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngoing to walk my dog and shower before bed sad the yankee lost the first game monday too boooo\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncontent by eugene cacao graphic by kath limfueco source holland k 0 september how to fight depression 0 thing to try healthline http t co o udqteja what is depression n d american psychiatric association http t co quoyn0j b\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nthinking of pay day another week to go lol\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nplease help me i don t want to kill myself but the world ha nothing to offer me nothing that s making me want to keep going i m terrified of death but i don t know if that s reason enough to keep going if i m going to die anyway maybe i should speed up the process already save the world the trouble because the world clearly doesn t want me i m not even a real girl i m ugly and i m not good enough at anything everybody else is so much better than me people would rather be with each other instead of me i m so forgettable but i don t want to be death is permanent isolation permanent darkness permanent loneliness and that s not what i want but i don t think me being alive is what the world want i feel like i m always the last person anybody would ever want to see at any given moment i don t want it to be that way but everybody else doe i ve tried so hard to find reason to keep going they never work they never last people leave me behind everything stop being fun people stop playing with me i m excluded from everything i m not good enough to make it in this world everything about me is wrong nothing i do is good enough i want to keep going but i have no reason to do so nobody is waiting for me nobody is coming to rescue me i have nothing why should i keep going if i m going to die anyways i m begging you for an answer because i have none\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve been experiencing huge bout of just feeling unmotivated not useful i ve been randomly just tearing up but it never last long i don t feel like i have a reason to cry but i do and i don t know what to do there s other stuff but i don t want to drag on too long i also just miss how thing were i ve woken up like this for the past week and it s persisted throughout the day\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmaybe not just empty but part of me is absolutely devastated and the other part of me is aware that it s for the best and the rest of me is split between hate and love my emotion are so disconnected like mismatched puzzle piece nothing feel right not just because i m seeing a puzzle but because some piece are from another making it impossible to solve internally i want to go back and be babied by him and feel helpless in a good way but ha that ever happened no it wa an illusion he doesn t actually love me he never did all that talk of soulmates and staying into the end i don t know if i should even believed it or not i haven t believed in soulmates for year and this might be another reason why all because he said i love you wa i even loved\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsorry if this is the wrong place but i couldnt think where else to ask lol this is a uk based question i got prescribed med during a phone appointment the other day when they said they would send the prescription in the post i thought they might mean the medication itself and wa kind of surprised but now i think they just meant i d get sent the prescription form in an envelope bc that s what s arrived but they didn t say anything about what to do with it or where to take it i ve only ever been handed a prescription in person with instruction of which pharmacy to collect from and am kind of clueless right now ha anybody had this happen or know what to do can i just take it to any pharmacy\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni did bad on an important test i thought i would do well in i thought wa my best subject i thought i studied well there s more important test on those subject soon if i think i m doing badly on those subject already then the test probably will go worse i feel bad for disappointing everyone i feel bad that i m complaining so much but i want to die so bad it doesn t feel like there s anything else for me if i do bad in school a family friend is doing an art related course they seem to be having fun i like doing art but i m nowhere a good a her or good enough to do a similar course a school friend is doing well in school we share many of the same subject we share the same high expectation but i can t reach them she complains about mark way higher than mine i m resentful but really i m just envious i don t even know what i want to do in the future why should i put in effort for a life i don t want do i want it i think i want it i don t think i have any actual appreciation for the academia just that i want to fulfill the thing i ve always been told to it s dumb and i should just accept my actual ability it s all my fault in the end that i should ve done this or that but i don t want to try anymore i m so tired of trying and failing and then giving up and then doing it all again for whatever reason the enjoyable moment in life don t feel worth it at all or maybe i m just too stuck up to appreciate them enough either way i want to give up i m sorry i m so childish so self centred i m sorry i m wasting everyone s time and money and effort i wonder how much longer i will continue to do so i m sorry that my problem aren t really big enough to be upset over it all feel too pointless\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni am a work martyr give me chocolate coffee and sympathy and now my cat s decided she s dying\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhungry dreaming of yumyums\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmiss kabalin hate me\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve been distracting myself with hobby and uni but at the end of the day i always get reminded that none of it matter they re only there to stop my train of thought from entering my mind they re just bring a split second of feeling recently picked up smoking again and it s the only thing that can temporarily bring some emotion back there s nothing worth living for why am i still alive i just don t know how to feel anymore i just want to wither away and be forgotten to close my eye every night hoping to not open them again\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]