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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwhy do both of my best friend have to be shitty simultaneously can u at least take turn hurting my feeling jerk going sleep\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nim now and my entire fucking life people have laughed at me every day i get told negative thing about my body and personality every fucking day a while back i reached out to my friend about self harm all they did wa joke around and tell me to cut myself deeper now i told them about suicide and they did exactly the same they even gave me method on how to do it i just wan na die i wan na stop existing and then everything will be over why is it so hard for them to understand this is serious i don t get it\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso i live here in orlando fl and we have the world s tallest chair swing ride so imagine the swing that you would go on at a carnival but 0 ft high and going at up to 0 mph i wa so nervous but i decided i wasn t gon na let my anxiety ruin it so i went it and lo and behold it not only wa really fun but actually surprisingly relaxing and beautiful\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngreyhoundgal omg front page i d be so excited congratulation sorry about torres hurting his paw tho is that your dog\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve been eating the same food every meal for month now bc everything else make me want to throw up and cry this is pretty normal for me so i never thought to bring it up with my psychiatrist and recently i ve been able to eat other food a well but when i sat at the table this morning i found everything repulsive even my go to food this usually only happens when my anxiety is really bad but i feel pretty ok rn so i don t know why i can t eat is this common with anxiety disorder\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni think i am having a nervous breakdown i need help i have too much going on i cant even get into detail i had a panic attack and i kept hitting myself in the face it 0am right now i dont want to say whats going on particularly but i have absolutely nobody there for me or anybody willing to help i had a panic attack about minute ago it am a im writing this right now i got up from my bed and walked into the bathroom and i got into the bathtub and sat down and stared at the wall for minute i dont know where my head is ive been sitting here for 0 minute now i really need help right now ive never posted anything like this to a subreddit or any other website so this is almost a last resort for me\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngerrycoe hi gerry i m in dublin most of the time college\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni wa on 0 mg of hydroxyzine and i felt like it just wasn t doing anything so my doctor switched me today\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni know my problem arent a bad and probably much le important and im probably dramatic for feeling this way but please\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmy memory s fading i m losing weight i don t sleep sex feel hollow i have no motivation to do anything and i frequently think about death i ve been seeing these symptom in myself on and off again for the past few year but never really put them together until now i attributed the weight loss to a study i read stating that just thinking about working out can have benefit despite not actually working out i never really thought of it a a symptom i just saw it a a positive slightly inexplicable development in my life i think i read that i have passive intrusive thought or something like that essentially i think about what it would be like if i wa dead but not about how i would want to die or anything like that the reason for it wa always lost on me i just learned to live with it my sleep issue motivation issue and lack of sexual pleasure have always been present so i never really thought twice about them i thought the memory loss wa due to my rare and infrequent use of recreational psychedelics when i connected all of these together i spent about 0 minute just trying to remember what i had for dinner last night which i found fairly upsetting a up until my teenage year i had an immaculate memory i d still consider myself happy at least to the extent that i ve always known but the symptom are there nevertheless and i m just finding the whole thing quite strange\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nahhh my webcam is messed up and won t turn on\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nthisisguan\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni get really bad anxiety when i cant my breathing i feel like my breathing will sound eratic and too loud people around me have to have to have one headphone to the side so i hear it or i get severe anxiety i also feel this way when i write or type a even though i can hear myself im not focusing on it and it think oh no i sounded weird didnt i in regard to my breathing i feel like im making people scared of me with how scary i probablly am acting from their pov i want to stop this a it give me severe anxiety around people\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni have 0 success in life even duo i wa given every opportunity to grow myself i strugglecwith my mental health for about year now i m at the moment every year i hope thing will change for good but every time i feel immense disappointment i can t find any reason to continue living with every breath of air i feel like poison fill my lung most of my day i stare blankly at a random space imaging my death i crave to die life consists of little to no joy why is suicide considered a cowardly act i believe the opposite is true a the one who kill himself chooses to die in his own circumstance imagine how much power it take to jump off a building or cut one own vein vertically i recently cutted my wrist horizentaly just a little bit i wanted to see blood to feel pain i felt so connected with reality what an amazing experience pain is my only way to remember i m alive physical pain also help me forget of my failure of who i m an empty shell who keep existing a zombie who just want to be buried again if god exists we are all his slave\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nover year my ex husband waited to find out if this wa going to court in the process he lost his business his taxi licence and his home he began suffering from severe anxiety and depression and needed medication to help him get from one day to the next\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nprincessbuddha im having the same problem i never drive anymore\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nawww ellie sound so sick poor thing\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni am finally checking myself into the hospital for suicidal ideation i don t think they will be able to help me but at least i will be safe and not a risk to anyone else i am pretty scared it will be the end of my marriage maybe of my job i put this off for a long time but i am not safe i wish so badly i had never been born\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni passed the part where the withdrawal made me feel crap i m slowly becoming the person i wa before med but i really didn t miss it my insecurity is the highest it s ever been in year i ve been ignoring school i ve gained weight there is always this sound in my head saying no one actually want me my usual cheerful self feel forced now it s weird how the feeling i had for year can feel so foreign i don t know a long a my family doesn t know about it it s okay i guess\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nim going bed nowww surprising not rly i have school morow thats right my spring break day r over\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni dont remember the first year of my life due to my father and his friend molesting me till mum finally managed to get away from him my earliest memory is drowning at the age of and having no one to care about me afterwards i wa just sent on my way at 0 i wa accused of beating my little brother when nobody wa looking mum refused to believe me even when he finally said it wa a kid at school that wa the first time i nearly killed myself life ha not gotten better my sister married another abuser my step dad lost the house and car and my mum is a neurotic mess who couldn t give a shit about me besides a her emergency atm i dont see why i should bother with life when this is all i have known it literally never get better i finally know how i will do it i have given myself week to see if i still want to do it and nothing ha changed my family probably wont know for a while nor care so this may be my only chance to say good bye life is just shit for some people i lost before i got a chance to start and i am fine with that now i suppose\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ntried to install a twitter application on my phone didn t work though boo\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsimon felice is no longer playing with the felice brother i m not sure how i feel about that\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngetting changed in the hope that that mean we can go to the store now poor cat is out of food oops\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nborning thats me with a cold virus all bunged up and eye all squinty bah\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nim boring i really dont understand how to use this\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmy friend ha suffered with depression for what seems most of their life and recently it s become apparent that it s become worse due to them distancing themselves being more irritable and stressed and even mentioning suicide they have also withdrawn from doing thing with me a much when we used to do thing very often i try to support them already of course but since i don t necessarily deal with severe depression like them i struggle to know how to handle thing sometimes what are some tip on how i can be there for them and support them many thanks if anyone answer a i really want to support my friend\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nstustone your show is whack way worse than whack it s wiggety whack\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nlast day at home today catching the train at 0am tomorrow ha been a nice break but now i need some breakfast a shower and a shave\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso bored still no internet at home\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwhoisariston no problem tongue in cheek remark lot of acronym but no nz\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni don t know what happening i really don t know i don t even know if this is the right group to be typing this to but if anyone can help please do i m your everyday 9yr old who is currently in university growing up i d say i wa a very extroverted and out going person but after covid and moving to a whole new area for uni not knowing anyone my whole personality changed or at least the true me came out which is being introverted and shy and not liking to go outside and everything i do go outside when there s a lot of people in campus s or i meet new people or the teacher asks me anything in front of everybody i overheat and get very itchy and i mean very itchy it s feel like i m getting pinched all over my body and it happens all the time when i m around people i ve never had this issue before and i don t know what it is it first came around last summer so i said to myself maybe it s just the heat and i m also an athlete so i just blamed it on that and now that winter came around the exact same thing happens then maybe i though it s me and i m dirty so i start having shower a day and that did nothing i really don t know what to do if anyone know what this is or why it s happening please tell me it s really effecting me to the point i don t want to leave my house\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nin bed finally long day tomorrow\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwhen all i did wa be there for her i drove fucking mile when her anxiety wa about to make her pas out when her parent wouldn t understand even when she left and there were pregnancy scare and thought of him leaving and now the whole town know me a a fucking rapist and stalker even though we only kissed once i know this is going to sound fucked up even worse but i genuinely can t take the lie no one should get away with doing that to someone else and i really don t think im going to let her i really really really really don t want to but it s all i can think about god help me\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni cant sleep missing the person i love most for the past yr of my life if only\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\njamsandwich i wa sniffling for the first time this year at am today crappy isn t it\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m done i m tired of fighting i want to rest now\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nback from the casino a big fat loser\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m sitting on my bed alone in my dark room smoking weed looking at the night sky and old photo listening to music i wa listening year ago and thinking about those time when everything wa fine and i knew le than i know right know it hurt so much physically and mentally\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\noff to work ahhhh such is life for the poor amp unknown wa thinking earlier how much loot that miley cyrus ha at age\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m wa waiting in the clinic waiting for my turn then a young woman who seemed happy came in and sat next to me a couple of minute later we started talking it wa le than a month since my first visit i thought that after a month or two i will be the same person a i wa before some event that i don t want to mention here mainly because it s unrelated to my main question in this post but a couple of minute later that thought seemed to be a wish because the mentioned lady said she had been visited by countless doctor and it is year that she is suffering from depression i wa frightened and wondering if someday i realize year have passed and i m also still trying to recover my mental health since that day i have seen some people out there who are under treatment for year or are treatment resistant are they special patient or it is true about everyone how do i know if i ll ever be cured and if so how long doe it take it scare me if i have to live with it for the rest of my life hence i m asking if any hope is there\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmy interwebs is so fraked up that i can google map something on my iphone bar gprs no g faster than my 0mbps cable connection\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncodaqueen oh wait he doe have in oakland on the th can t understand why he only ha amp in oakland\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nnew podcast alert surrey scorcher guard caylin raftopoulos join the mvp cast to reveal his retirement plan and how he dealt with depression by learning to speak up http t co fn qbl r z\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m terrible at articulating my thought so apology in advance let me just say up front that no plan ha been made and despite thinking about it so much i don t think i could go through with it this is just a vent piece i guess i feel like such a burden all the time i genuinely only have one real friend left and feel like my roommate co worker hate me i m anti social and awkward i don t make eye contact and i don t talk at all ever i take way too long to text back if i did km i honestly don t think anyone would know until a body wa found or over a month had passed i m just so sick of feeling like an obstacle all the time like i m always in the way or always wrong to think feel a certain way but all of this seems pretty normal i realise it s not a healthy mindset but literally everyone on earth ha trauma everyone ha their own shit they re going through and not only doe it seem like they re handling it a lot better than me but they have real problem i have friend who lost their job over the pandemic i have friend going through break ups grief or whatever and they still manage to practice their hobby and interact with their fellow man but then there s me doing literally fucking nothing all day every day after work and having the ball to feel like shit over it a if it s out of my control i feel weak willed lazy and most of all i feel like the world s biggist egomaniac for writing so much about myself a if it needed to be said thank you for reading my aimless rambling the thought were very intrusive tonight so i just needed to self depricate i guess good night everyone\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nexcuse the blasphemy but no i dont need god to tell me anything before i choose to do whats right no my lack of religion isnt what gave me anxiety and depression it your abusive parenting style on the first half of my life dont blame my belief pls\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nis upset that he can t update his facebook by texting it and might cry a a result school today also blah\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ntoday sucked i m gon na die without chris and callum wahhh\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nnobody will let me make one giant cookie\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwhy do i feel like i m being punished for having depression\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nkariajay all this time you didn t notice i wa gone just needed db is it\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso a a kid i moved around a lot because my dad wa in the military but since my teen i ve lived in the same state and it been a near decade i m depressed and i want to travel and move to other place this isn t isolated i also have dysthymia social anxiety disorder and aspergers i m just wondering cause it s hard to find others who relate to this\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m gon na get up late tomorrow and it s am here i gon na get tipsy by my lonesome that s that s just sad\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nvacation make me feel sick\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m so tired of living every day i wake up and resent that i m still alive wasting oxygen i m in pain every day i want it all to stop i wish my mum had an abortion when she wa pregnant with me i hate myself\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\none triop down one to go\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nnothing wa sick all day it sucked im just up late cant sleep\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncoffee time wish i had whiskey like cameronreilly\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhi everyone so i went to go see the batman at the movie today with my parent and i know this is probably really common but i feel so overstimulated at the movie thing are too loud and the room get too dark i can t see anything and it freak me out i get sensory issue when this happens man i wanted to see the batman really bad and it upset me because i can t enjoy it a much tried to do deep breathing muscle relaxation the sensory overload is just too much this happens for stuff outside of the movie just thing that are too loud too bright too dark anyone know how to get past this\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso i went to the hospital yesterday after having an anxiety attack and i still do have anxiety a i m typing this i wa just wondering if the level rise in the blood during stress my wbc count wa at 0 and my neutrophil count wa at 9 i wa just wondering if anxiety and stress brings them up i also deal with costochondritis so you can see why i have anxiety because my chest is always tight\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfenrirclemo unfortunately that ain t how anxiety work though just telling people just do it is kinda like telling people with depression just be happy it take alot of work and i m proud of how far he s come even with his stream he far more himself than he used to be\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndamm back to school tomorrow\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m not a big fan of sharing overly personal stuff online so i ll just say that i ll have to take a moderately long plane ride soon a couple week from now i think and every day i have at least one mini panic attack worrying about it there are some minor complication that could happen to me on the flight but nothing particularly harmful or super bad in any sense i m mostly concerned about anxiety claustrophobia and the side effect of that while on the flight this is stressful and feel pointless a i know from past experience i never know how i ll feel until i m there or in this case in the anxiety inducing situation any advice\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsurely is this is the first time i have tried to do this\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nit s so exhausting waking up every morning instantly with a wave of sadness and discontent then the whole day is filled with me trying to keep my mind off of my own thought and trying to chase little happiness i m tired of this why can t i just wake up happy and in a good mood like everyone else i m so exhausted and tired of living like this nothing help and nothing sustains it i try to workout but that doesn t help i m at a loss of thing to do about it this isn t how i want to live life and it s exhausting and more of a burden\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncan t sleep again\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni wasn t in a relationship but there wa this girl who i wa heavily attracted to for whatever reason nothing worked out well i ve tried throwing the kitchen sink at it for quite some time now but i ll never get any closure because she s hardly active on any social medium after much deliberation i actually realized that i still do have the same feeling for her now a i did back then but i can t do shit about it i ve started to accept that my pain probably won t ever go away unless my life doe and i ve been having an intention to act on that\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nlot of depressed people out here just barely holding on to what little they have if anything life is tough another day\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nformer ohio st football player harry miller medically retires from football due to mentalhealth concern delivers powerful message to anyone struggling with depression http t co lkynhiiifj mentalhealthawareness mentalhealthmatters endthestigma health wellness\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncan t stop thinking i m dying of something anything all the time petrified a usual but i m also too scared to go to the doctor and the whole shebang anyway so here i am stewing in my own juice of despair agonising over all the what ifs while doing absolutely nothing about it don t you just love it ironically i feel like even if i did manage to get myself to talk to a doctor get an mri and blood work and all that dramatic stuff i still wouldn t believe them i feel so trapped\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\njust finished watching the new hero episode god i can t wait for next week episode hero ftw\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhey reddit family ive had seperate case of severe panic disorder for about year on and off i used to take lexapro on the smallest dose mg and then mg and it really helped me overcome my disorder completely the first time end of 0 9 into 0 0 but when i got panic disorder a second time end of 0 0 from smoking weed how i got panic first time i noticed not much of an impact on the same dose mg but i wa told multiple time to up my dose for it and i wa too scared to so i quit the medication cold turkey and got insane migraine headache thinking someting in my head wa gon na pop it wa so bad a a withdrawal i think and for the past year i ve been medicine free but i still get panic attack everyday heart race everyday nonstop evil bad thought and i m ready to get back on something my doc prescribed me celexa but i m very unsure about trying it bc i ve been so used to take lexapro and i ve been reading watching other ppl s experience on celexa and the side effect and they seem a little more extreme but i m just wondering what ur opinion would be thank u so much for the help god bless\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\njust finished cooking spag bol from scratch in other word been cooking for the past hour i m not hungry anymore\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni quit my job recently and need to get a new one because i m running out of saving i live in a foreign country so there aren t many option i ve been to some interview but i ended up not taking the job because i wa too anxious i looked for part time work but almost all of the job were shady in some way like not deducting tax etc and although most people don t care about it im too scared to break any rule so i couldn t take the easy part time job i m so tired of my anxiety stopping me from working\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nha a bit of a scratchy throat i hope it go away before thursday and my weekend of fun\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nha a poorly cat at home i want to be their to hold her fur back and pas her tissue\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmy therapist and psychiatrist say they can t fire me if i follow the protocol and that the program will help me work while doing iop the iop program would only be hour a day on day a week so i could still work part of the time could my job fire me for doing iop worst case scenario i would be able to bounce back but it would be difficult\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nit s all hug and kiss till you wear sneaker and cause depression a you are buying sneaker for your kid pls buy your own too good morning\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\namp x 00b so i m in my thirty i m about to finish my phd in one of the world s best university and this morning i felt fine i usually revert to writing in here a a way of emptying my soul and feeling better usually it work and it ha taken me from the deepest pit of my depression to a milder state of mind not to a happy place mind you but to a lower scale bout of depression i come from a rocky couple of year i have discovered that my old supervisor had tricked an exam against me to have me fail and kicked out of the uni check my older post for this story also involving the examiner the full professor who deemed me too ugly fat and stupid for a phd full quote i have found support in the wider academic world with a world renown name offering me a job first and then agreeing to supervise me if i had not taken it i have sued the university kind of it wa a process internal to the university but i had to hire a lawyer i have won a crushing win against the faculty i have never seen a similar humiliation for a faculty and an examiner said a friend and former judge i have repeated the exam i have passed the exam i am now a month from submission my new supervisor and my friend unofficial supervisor have just promoted my dissertation with flying color so i basically need to write a conclusion of a couple of page cross the t dot the is and hand in what ha been long year of my life should have been but these shenanigan robbed me of full year of my life i am however today back in the pit of the grad school depression a i am not sure it is finished remember the humiliated full professor above when i passed the exam one of the examiner wa a friend of his who basically did everything in his power to fail me i passed because the other examiner took my side in the shouting match it wa ugly a fuck and basically told me that the humiliation of me winning in court could not pas without further action now i even though my dissertation is unassailable i do not trust the university and i am fully expecting a final hack job at the thesis defence and against that i am powerless\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nplaying killzone the demo\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni feel so trapped been through a divorce that s completely breaking me financially i have no friend and i work too much to make them i wa dating a lady fell hard for her and i can t move past her or get over her since we work directly with each other my job is a fairly uncommon one so i don t have much opportunity for another one that s pay a well i m completely stuck and i just want to be done with all of life s bullshit that s all i ever get handed is bullshit\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nit seems that twitter lost some update yesterday again twitter fail\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nschofe that sound like a great show shame i m at work\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nthis post is regarding my father who relentlessly forced his own will upon me and made me choose my career and life choice based on that a a result it ha brought catastrophic consequence for me i wa an above average student at school but used to be excellent in creative pursuit like theatre writing story and poem english literature filmmaking etc but my father wa totally against all that he made me choose what subject i needed to take for my good future and it wa always what he think wa best that zi needed to do there wa actually no way i could protest because it would have led to physical violence so to cut the story short i graduated from school in the year 0 then because my father forced me to enroll in a wierd course i lost two more year until i couldn t and then in 0 i had to drop out because i wa failing in every exam it wa in those several month that i endured the worst mental agony of my life it wa a lot of mental burden placed upon me my father called me a failure and what not and compared me with a number of successful kid in the neighborhood and to the kid of his friend who were in good university and doing very well in 0 i cracked one of the toughest exam but unfortunately my rank wa not good and most of it wa due to the rampant corruption and lack of transparency and accountability in the examination conducting board what i mean to say is that i could have scored better if the result were not questionable in nature a court case went but nothing happened finally i take admission in one of the worst place i could imagine to spend another year of my life doing something i absolutely loathed again because of the pressure from my father then in 0 0 i finally graduated but then the covid pandemic broke out every one wa working from home and the nature of my degree wa such that for newbie like me working from home wa not possible and in hand office experience wa required so i went unemployed for a year also in my final year i contracted a terrible life long disease due to the mental stress i wa in and the crappy food that i had to eat the mess in the hostel where i lived for year wa horrendous to say the least now it is 0 and i am still unemployed my father somehow blame me entirely for this and never once accepted his mistake in life now not only him but i too view myself a a failure and have lost faith in myself the confidence that i once had the energy of youth that wa brimming to overflow when i graduated from school in thr summer of 0 is all exhausted and gone i could have done something really good with my life in the creative field that s what i think i have a knack for it i have a good power of imagination and an intuitive mind but now i feel it wa all a waste and all ha been for nothing i have wasted more than 0 year of my life in my higher study and doing something i not only loathe but detest in the highest possible way it would not be wrong to say that my father is responsible for screwing my life over but that s what i think am i making an excuse what do you think\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsuicidal all weekend watched the infamous funky town gore video i m usually ok with gore and death but that wa horrific made me think could that be me in hell for eternity i mean if human could do something that drawn out and horrific there s no telling what would be in store down there and all because i couldn t handle the cruelty of human nature\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsherrigarrity sorry i missed responding yesterday rochester is in mn so we are not to far from each other dark chocolate rock\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nnot having clothes is sending me into a state of depression that ion like\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m very glad britney isn t crazy anymore that wa one hell of a show now i m sad that it s over next up ap at cook county\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nchoclatdrop 0 he s not paying me any attn\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso i made a similar post in confession but i guess it belongs here maybe maybe not i don t think anyone really care anyway well when i wa m i ve been tortured by two girl aged around they d wait up for me after school take me to a secluded area and sodomize me when they were finished they would repeatedly kick my private part and punch my stomach when i would cry they said they would not stop until i stopped my cry since then i ve never cried anymore in my life and i wish i could my feeling have faded away and i thought that wa part of becoming an adult i would lay for hour in pain and then come home telling my parent i wa at a friend s this ha been going on for about a year no matter if i took a different route home or tried to run they would do this almost daily i wouldn t tell my parent because they were threatening to kill my dog and family if i did my parent started to distrust me and thought i wa doing bad thing after school since i wouldn t share my friend s name after this i mainly focused on school and avoided most people i ve built up major trust issue and only had a few bad relationship where my trust issue would always ruin thing and while i hate to admit it i hate most woman or my inability to deal with them i had to man up since in my thought this wouldn t happen to a man by some girl my way of being a manly man wa to be strong and not have emotion i have thought a lot about this part of my childhood and always blamed myself for not thinking recently i feel hate towards the person that did this to me one of them died because of drug overdose which to this day make me smile i have made a plan for an accident to happen to this person i have planned out all the detail for this to happen and i wholeheartedly believe she deserves to die right now i am year of age recently been diagnosed with bipolar syndrome and some other anti social disorder i have been depressed for the most part of my life and instead of taking someone s life i ll just end my own thanks for letting me share this i have been embarrassed about it all my life and i ve never felt either manly or adult i could never bring myself to tell anyone\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nis sad that the march break is over\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nlove to get drunk just not by himself\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve been very close yet i ve been postponing for a while on and off to cut thing short i believe i may end up leaving sometime next week there are a few reason why otherwise if i don t i am saving up for my mom to buy me a new ar it ll take about month to get sufficient fund but i am solely using it on myself i already have access to a firearm but i am choosing not to do it now unless i have to because the caliber might not be sufficient enough but yeah no one see the warning sign i may have potential but i can t live up to it i ll always fail i know many people that read this will skip over or not even care i am just putting my thought somewhere no one will probably read it oh well all i know is that i have tried my best my circumstance are holding me hostage from flourishing in this world i am only here to fulfill the need of specific people i am not loved i mean this with everything i m basically here surviving alone trying to keep myself sane under the condition i m under my own interest are impossible to achieve i am a batshit crazy piece of shit disguised a a well mannered average looking tall slim smart person according to them but yeah this is something i have extreme feeling for i truly believe i may end up going through with these plan sometime next week or sometime soon id love to talk to someone about this i ve tried to reach out to friend before about how i ve been feeling and everyone talk to me one time and never check on me again honestly im ready to fuckin get this shit overwith no one give me a fuckin chance literally i m getting fucking exhausted i m tired of this planet i just wish i could feel different at least i m tired help me\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni have a friend in another country who ha no one to turn to and is battling anorexia otherwise alone for the past month she s in a bad and worsening physical and mental state low key suicidal but ha the option of a stay in a treatment clinic however she s scared and ha all these reservation about going it s in a different city a train ride away for one thing she s an adult and there s no one who is able to arrange it for her i can t do it or i would family being no help no friend around her either this is new territory for me i m learning a much a i can about this illness but i don t know how to proceed here i want to urge her to make the phonecall all the time but i don t want her to feel pressured and shut down i m scared to even ask her if she s done it yet she talk about feeling worthless and undeserving of treament she question whether she s even that thin she is along with a bunch of other symptom she s a textbook case and she talk like she s ready to give up even though help is within reach what do i do\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m fucking and why the fuck do i still feel this shit fuck fuck fuxk fuxk fuck fuck this i hate this\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m 0 and i m alone and it s tough to pretend i m a whole person amp x 00b i haven t made a friend since high school i m starting to befriend someone at work but it s giving me a lot of anxiety because when am i going to say the thing that make her hate me it feel like i have to do everything right to be social or maybe i m missing something that everyone else ha or maybe i m just not cut out to be social but to have friend you have to answer them when they fucking text regardless of what s going on in my life and i just don t have the energy to keep up with that i recently had someone tell me i wa probably not doing well on bumble bff because i m a slow responder sometimes i don t know what to say sometimes word aren t happening in my brain sometimes i m just too tired maybe missing out on social thing for all of my 0 s is something i m never going to be able to recover from amp x 00b i ve been in a lot of workplace where i wa the loser i had no friend i d catch people saying mean thing about me they all get together with each other and i m not invited i ve been in multiple situation where group of people don t like me and do shitty passive aggressive thing to me every chance they get i don t know what i do wrong i try to just be a genuine kind person i get feedback that i m nice i know i m not perfect but at least i ve had some feedback that i m not totally delusional to think i m a nice person but there have also been a few time where i know what i said there have been a few time when i can pinpoint the off comment that make someone turn on me and it must be more than one off comment because it s always easy for that person to get a group to turn on me it s terrifying to feel like at any moment i can slip up and someone will just decide i m not worth their time amp x 00b and i never feel like i say the right thing some of my coworker s response are lackluster think lol and i just wonder if she even want to talk to me making friend give me the same anxiety that trying to date someone give me that s kind of fucked up i should probably not care so much whether or not someone decides they want to be my friend but also it affect me i feel like i m not worthy of friendship because so many people have decided i m not worth their time and honestly this is a big moment for me because this is the moment i realize i ve internalized all that rejection and got to where i don t feel good enough for friendship why would someone pick me when i m a ball of nerve why would someone want to hang out with someone who only feel like half a person amp x 00b lately i ve been doing okay relative to the last 0 year i finally got a job that doesn t feel like chinese water torture i m on medication and that help a ton i m a lot better about not letting myself slip into negative thought pattern this week i haven t been feeling the overwhelming cloud of misery because i finally got medication that isn t expired and i m taking it regularly but every time i think about social stuff it just give me this squished feeling i can t name the feeling but it s visceral my body feel shitty i m going on a vacation with my mom and her work friend in a month and i m so fucking nervous because what if i do the thing that make everyone hate me i don t even know what the fucking thing is but spending four day with people who are talking crap about you in a small space i did that around this time last year and it wa so bad amp x 00b okay amp x 00b i m a solution oriented person and part of my problem is that i don t know how to fix this part of my life i don t really know what the solution is to feeling unworthy of friendship it took me eight year to figure out the solution to hating myself and honestly even though it s a struggle it s also worth it to fight through those feeling and find an even timbre social situation are just approached totally differently from a mental health perspective i ve googled how to feel le lonely and the fucking answer wa make friend how do you make friend when you feel like nobody want to be your friend and for good reason therapist have basically told me to find a group and the friendship will happen naturally but there s not a huge meet up scene in my area and i have a ton of anxiety about going to one and the few i have been to were not great i couldn t read the book on how to influence people and never feel powerless again i got halfway through it and it honestly felt like customer service kiss as bullshit but this time i m not even getting paid for it that book make me feel like i have to scrub my personality clean and poke myself into a small box to be socially acceptable amp x 00b i just don t know i m going to keep trying different thing i m going to keep putting myself out there because the only other choice is to keep doing thing the same shitty way with the same shitty outcome amp x 00b i needed this rant today and if anyone actually manages to read all that thanks for your time and i hope both our day get better\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfuck len wein s house caught fire earlier today the family is safe but they lost their dog\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngordonchiu you re one letter alway korean don t use quot x quot so there s no hope for me\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nis back in byron bay cafe fresh missing all my melbourne friend\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwell i wa going to rpm vespa need oil i ain t going anywhere\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]