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what can i say something major happened someone died friend of mine i am drunk i dont wan na call hotlines they know me already
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwhat can i say something major happened someone died friend of mine i am drunk i dont wan na call hotlines they know me already\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
jessdubb lmao u may have to wait for another season to come thru it summe boo hot nd dry as weather
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\njessdubb lmao u may have to wait for another season to come thru it summe boo hot nd dry as weather\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
auraglyphix high always seem to followed by low long a you climb back from it there s nothing wrong with letting some depression out
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nauraglyphix high always seem to followed by low long a you climb back from it there s nothing wrong with letting some depression out\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i have made up my mind i am going to kill myself tomorrow i ll be alone in the house for atleast hour so no one will be there to check up on me or save me i have the razor blade and pill i m going to use i have alcohol too and i m going to get drunk while i harm myself i m hoping to go before anyone find me i can t deal with life anymore i can t do this anymore i m not going to say my goodbye this is goodbye i hope y all are able to heal this is going to be it for me goodbye
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni have made up my mind i am going to kill myself tomorrow i ll be alone in the house for atleast hour so no one will be there to check up on me or save me i have the razor blade and pill i m going to use i have alcohol too and i m going to get drunk while i harm myself i m hoping to go before anyone find me i can t deal with life anymore i can t do this anymore i m not going to say my goodbye this is goodbye i hope y all are able to heal this is going to be it for me goodbye\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
feel like she slept the day away not looking forward to any more bout with my gallbladder at least i have pill now for the pain
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfeel like she slept the day away not looking forward to any more bout with my gallbladder at least i have pill now for the pain\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
another hungry depressed day who knew living in a shelter wa so fucking expensive lol i now have 0 left to get by i just bought two gallon of water since the tap water is probably dangerous to drink though i m trying an experiment of boiling it first to get out whatever make it weird the last time i posted here i got a bunch of troll pretending to care and then cursing me out lol like imagine being suicidal don t need to i guess lol and then imagine being even more miserable than a suicidal person that you have to extract some kind of emotional feedback from them just to feel better about yourself lmao surprisingly i still pity them more i d rather want to be dead than be an asshole who cant find happiness unless they re causing others pain especially trolling reddits where people are actually seeking help lol the lack of dignity in it like damn my 0 0 ramen and i are poor af but there s still more dignity than those troll i never thought i d say that but here we are why is it that a soon a night time hit all the thought come rushing in this feel like when i wa a kid growing up abused i had given up hope i just got by every day but i wa a shell of the person i wa or could ve been i just floated through the day hoping it wouldn t suck worse i watched a ot of cartoon to escape feel something else other than depression and pain if you allow all the feeling in let yourself feel them what happens in my mind it all go numb but maybe now it just flow or maybe this is me giving up letting it all happen anyways who care i could die here and no one would know lol i wonder if the universe ha forgotten me forsaken me said you re on your own now kid good luck and i m just standing here smiling tear in my eye holding a fucking plant and small suitcase thinking cool that s cool hope i don t kill myself hope this doesn t kill me hope i remember the person i wa trying to become or wa at least she had hope and self love now i look in the mirror and think hope you don t fuck it up kid because i don t know i don t know what else to do i mean why do i expect myself to fuck it up because a little crappy voice in my head say you fuck everything up lol fuck that that s not even my voice it s theirs fucking little narc and sociopath who ever saw their kid turning into a narc and thought let s keep him and not get intervention lol i would yeet that kid out of my life and throw it into a psych ward a if life isn t hard enough there s the scum of the earth running around getting off on other s pain pathetic i m glad they all die alone and miserable i m glad they move through life miserably i m glad they have to work so fucking hard to be happy or experience something resembling happiness before their own action ruin it all i m glad there s still good people in the world y all ever look through human being bros it s chill restores some faith in humanity like at least it s not all shit lolll i don t think anyone see me not anymore i m just a number a victim to exploit a survivor to play with a body to mess with lol they re so fucking depressing these abuser at least i lived
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nanother hungry depressed day who knew living in a shelter wa so fucking expensive lol i now have 0 left to get by i just bought two gallon of water since the tap water is probably dangerous to drink though i m trying an experiment of boiling it first to get out whatever make it weird the last time i posted here i got a bunch of troll pretending to care and then cursing me out lol like imagine being suicidal don t need to i guess lol and then imagine being even more miserable than a suicidal person that you have to extract some kind of emotional feedback from them just to feel better about yourself lmao surprisingly i still pity them more i d rather want to be dead than be an asshole who cant find happiness unless they re causing others pain especially trolling reddits where people are actually seeking help lol the lack of dignity in it like damn my 0 0 ramen and i are poor af but there s still more dignity than those troll i never thought i d say that but here we are why is it that a soon a night time hit all the thought come rushing in this feel like when i wa a kid growing up abused i had given up hope i just got by every day but i wa a shell of the person i wa or could ve been i just floated through the day hoping it wouldn t suck worse i watched a ot of cartoon to escape feel something else other than depression and pain if you allow all the feeling in let yourself feel them what happens in my mind it all go numb but maybe now it just flow or maybe this is me giving up letting it all happen anyways who care i could die here and no one would know lol i wonder if the universe ha forgotten me forsaken me said you re on your own now kid good luck and i m just standing here smiling tear in my eye holding a fucking plant and small suitcase thinking cool that s cool hope i don t kill myself hope this doesn t kill me hope i remember the person i wa trying to become or wa at least she had hope and self love now i look in the mirror and think hope you don t fuck it up kid because i don t know i don t know what else to do i mean why do i expect myself to fuck it up because a little crappy voice in my head say you fuck everything up lol fuck that that s not even my voice it s theirs fucking little narc and sociopath who ever saw their kid turning into a narc and thought let s keep him and not get intervention lol i would yeet that kid out of my life and throw it into a psych ward a if life isn t hard enough there s the scum of the earth running around getting off on other s pain pathetic i m glad they all die alone and miserable i m glad they move through life miserably i m glad they have to work so fucking hard to be happy or experience something resembling happiness before their own action ruin it all i m glad there s still good people in the world y all ever look through human being bros it s chill restores some faith in humanity like at least it s not all shit lolll i don t think anyone see me not anymore i m just a number a victim to exploit a survivor to play with a body to mess with lol they re so fucking depressing these abuser at least i lived\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
how do you guy deal with depression other than avoiding it i can t keep this up lol sleeping is my only coping mechanism and it s not a good one i m so drained any advice also more important any advice for feeling le sad about unaccepting parent i m trans and can t really deal with my parent negative reaction i can t cope well is what i mean i have to wait several year to even transition to the gender i wa supposed to be born a bc i m too young to afford it all myself i hate this this body and this life sorry for bringing the mood down also school suck i wish it wa fun it suck the fun out of learning i m too tired to type anymore though so have fun reading this mess of word crunched together
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhow do you guy deal with depression other than avoiding it i can t keep this up lol sleeping is my only coping mechanism and it s not a good one i m so drained any advice also more important any advice for feeling le sad about unaccepting parent i m trans and can t really deal with my parent negative reaction i can t cope well is what i mean i have to wait several year to even transition to the gender i wa supposed to be born a bc i m too young to afford it all myself i hate this this body and this life sorry for bringing the mood down also school suck i wish it wa fun it suck the fun out of learning i m too tired to type anymore though so have fun reading this mess of word crunched together\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
so rylee grace wana go steve s party or not sadly since it easter i wnt b able do much but ohh well
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso rylee grace wana go steve s party or not sadly since it easter i wnt b able do much but ohh well\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
depression ke
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndepression ke\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
still sick feeling a bit better got some new medicine hope i feel good after a night of sleep ohh and it s suppose to snow wtf
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nstill sick feeling a bit better got some new medicine hope i feel good after a night of sleep ohh and it s suppose to snow wtf\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i am so low on energy that i don t even have word enough for this post i can not finish grad school and the job i m qualified to do i hate it i also can not talk frankly with anybody now given that i have suicidal tendency right now and that sound like emotional blackmail to everyone else if i express my wish also if i were to continue living it would be an embarrassment living a that middle aged woman who wanted to khs i m tired i don t want to fake anymore and i don t think i m even good at faking it either people can tell this is a sad loser
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni am so low on energy that i don t even have word enough for this post i can not finish grad school and the job i m qualified to do i hate it i also can not talk frankly with anybody now given that i have suicidal tendency right now and that sound like emotional blackmail to everyone else if i express my wish also if i were to continue living it would be an embarrassment living a that middle aged woman who wanted to khs i m tired i don t want to fake anymore and i don t think i m even good at faking it either people can tell this is a sad loser\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
donniewahlberg wise word but life sometimes doesn t work out a you plan life ha a habit of kicking you when you re down
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndonniewahlberg wise word but life sometimes doesn t work out a you plan life ha a habit of kicking you when you re down\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i hate when i have to call and wake people up
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni hate when i have to call and wake people up\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
kaitlinmonroe aw that sound so fun i m so bummed that i missed it did you get to meet anyone
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nkaitlinmonroe aw that sound so fun i m so bummed that i missed it did you get to meet anyone\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i don t understand why thing get taken away i didn t have enough time with him it unfair i want him back he wa like my baby
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni don t understand why thing get taken away i didn t have enough time with him it unfair i want him back he wa like my baby\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
got the brainbone daily question wrong http apps facebook com brainbone stats 9 ref tw
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngot the brainbone daily question wrong http apps facebook com brainbone stats 9 ref tw\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
self explanatory title i can make it through the day when distracted with a busy day at work or surrounded by friend but a soon a i m alone or i have a minute to think i realise how deeply unhappy i am in almost every aspect of my life i don t want to die i know there s thing to live for like family friend travelling new career potential love and child and maybe being one day happy but every day i wake up and struggle i feel little part of my health and sanity being chiseled off one by one and i just don t know how long i can do this for before i just give up
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nself explanatory title i can make it through the day when distracted with a busy day at work or surrounded by friend but a soon a i m alone or i have a minute to think i realise how deeply unhappy i am in almost every aspect of my life i don t want to die i know there s thing to live for like family friend travelling new career potential love and child and maybe being one day happy but every day i wake up and struggle i feel little part of my health and sanity being chiseled off one by one and i just don t know how long i can do this for before i just give up\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i started a new job month ago and every day since than i have had extremely bad anxiety to the point where i cry uncontrollably i have tried meditating and letting my mind know it is okay to be feeling this way and acknowledging it but the more i do this the more i cry the job itself yes it is stressful but when i am with a customer the anxiety go away the thought of just having to go into work make my anxiety go crazy and my mind immediately start to trigger the fight or flight response and tell me to quit ha anyone dealt with anything like this or have any advice a to how to overcome or at least calm down this anxious feeling of regretting having to go to work and cry nonstop about it
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni started a new job month ago and every day since than i have had extremely bad anxiety to the point where i cry uncontrollably i have tried meditating and letting my mind know it is okay to be feeling this way and acknowledging it but the more i do this the more i cry the job itself yes it is stressful but when i am with a customer the anxiety go away the thought of just having to go into work make my anxiety go crazy and my mind immediately start to trigger the fight or flight response and tell me to quit ha anyone dealt with anything like this or have any advice a to how to overcome or at least calm down this anxious feeling of regretting having to go to work and cry nonstop about it\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
recently i have been having a tough time dealing with my lack of motivation is really hard to care about anything specially when i always feel like im being forced to do anything even thing that i like to do it like im being constanly dragged through life how do you guy deal with extreme apathy and lack of motivation when you dont really have any interest in existing
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nrecently i have been having a tough time dealing with my lack of motivation is really hard to care about anything specially when i always feel like im being forced to do anything even thing that i like to do it like im being constanly dragged through life how do you guy deal with extreme apathy and lack of motivation when you dont really have any interest in existing\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
feel like i have neglected twilight im sorry lol
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfeel like i have neglected twilight im sorry lol\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
so cold
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso cold\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
a king sized bed is nice but sad and lonely with no hubby puppy or kitty i am over this whole conferenceing thing
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\na king sized bed is nice but sad and lonely with no hubby puppy or kitty i am over this whole conferenceing thing\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
sloth isliye call nahi kiya baad me thinking ki ab to tu movie dekh raha hoga
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsloth isliye call nahi kiya baad me thinking ki ab to tu movie dekh raha hoga\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
update thanks for everyone s reply s and advice i signed up to private guitar class going to the first class this saturday again i would like to thank everyone for the advice
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nupdate thanks for everyone s reply s and advice i signed up to private guitar class going to the first class this saturday again i would like to thank everyone for the advice\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
maybe one of these year i ll get a tax return a girl can dream right
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmaybe one of these year i ll get a tax return a girl can dream right\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
listening to nathan cry
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nlistening to nathan cry\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i am so tired of living i don t think i ve been truly passionate about anything since i wa year old i am turning in a few month mentally i still feel like i am year old there are so many experience and opportunity that i have missed out on over the year and it s so difficult to imagine a future for myself after college because i don t have the energy or the motivation to do anything but the bare minimum for the longest time in high school i didn t have plan for college because i didn t see myself making it past i feel like i am presently existing past my life s expiration date i chose to pursue fine art in college because drawing is the one thing i am genuinely talented at and yet i dread every moment i have to sit down and draw this semester i shortened my course load to two online class and one in person class and i am still struggling to keep up it s incredibly difficult for me to focus on anything for more than minute before i feel exhausted i have been told that i am talented enough to sell print of my art yet i can barely make piece to add to my professional portfolio i m too afraid to let myself think about what i am even going to do once i graduate because i know this disorder ha completely destroyed any semblance of a work ethic that i may have once had i am slowly losing all my friend because i can t do anything fun anymore two of my closest friend who are also my roommate don t invite me to anything social anymore i am saddened by this but wonder if i even have the right to feel that way a i probably wouldn t go if i wa invited a i don t have the energy for anything anymore i shortened my course load to two online class and one in person class and i am still struggling to keep up every time i feel remotely okay it last for what feel like a second and then i m sinking down even deeper sometimes i wish i could lay down fall asleep and never wake up i don t even feel sad i just feel nothing at all
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni am so tired of living i don t think i ve been truly passionate about anything since i wa year old i am turning in a few month mentally i still feel like i am year old there are so many experience and opportunity that i have missed out on over the year and it s so difficult to imagine a future for myself after college because i don t have the energy or the motivation to do anything but the bare minimum for the longest time in high school i didn t have plan for college because i didn t see myself making it past i feel like i am presently existing past my life s expiration date i chose to pursue fine art in college because drawing is the one thing i am genuinely talented at and yet i dread every moment i have to sit down and draw this semester i shortened my course load to two online class and one in person class and i am still struggling to keep up it s incredibly difficult for me to focus on anything for more than minute before i feel exhausted i have been told that i am talented enough to sell print of my art yet i can barely make piece to add to my professional portfolio i m too afraid to let myself think about what i am even going to do once i graduate because i know this disorder ha completely destroyed any semblance of a work ethic that i may have once had i am slowly losing all my friend because i can t do anything fun anymore two of my closest friend who are also my roommate don t invite me to anything social anymore i am saddened by this but wonder if i even have the right to feel that way a i probably wouldn t go if i wa invited a i don t have the energy for anything anymore i shortened my course load to two online class and one in person class and i am still struggling to keep up every time i feel remotely okay it last for what feel like a second and then i m sinking down even deeper sometimes i wish i could lay down fall asleep and never wake up i don t even feel sad i just feel nothing at all\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
my search deck on tweetdeck are not working since yesterday anyone else have this problem
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmy search deck on tweetdeck are not working since yesterday anyone else have this problem\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i m 9 and haven t done anything with my life i ve disappointed everyone in my life the woman i thought i wa gon na marry left me and won t even talk to me anymore i started therapy and medication again a few month ago but it only doe so much i don t really have any friend i work only a few day a week and can barely handle that i don t find pleasure out of anything anymore i don t have anyone to turn to and everyone who ever loved me ha either left me or died all i do is sit home alone and try to distract myself the best i can but i honestly see no light at the end of the tunnel i know it s pathetic but i swear i m trying the best i can but i don t know how much longer i can
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m 9 and haven t done anything with my life i ve disappointed everyone in my life the woman i thought i wa gon na marry left me and won t even talk to me anymore i started therapy and medication again a few month ago but it only doe so much i don t really have any friend i work only a few day a week and can barely handle that i don t find pleasure out of anything anymore i don t have anyone to turn to and everyone who ever loved me ha either left me or died all i do is sit home alone and try to distract myself the best i can but i honestly see no light at the end of the tunnel i know it s pathetic but i swear i m trying the best i can but i don t know how much longer i can\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
whoh what a day now for the shut part hydraulics assignment time
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwhoh what a day now for the shut part hydraulics assignment time\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
for past month i ve been having those really weird head rush while falling asleep it s like sudden tension headache head adrenaline rush it s a really weird feeling almost like my head is going to explode when i open my eye my anxiety obviously kick in but the head thingy immediately stop even though the tension headache is kinda on going my anxiety started because lf this head thingy that started happening to me and i also developed a little depression because of it cause i have 0 idea what that is and even doctor are clueless anyone have an idea i am struggeling so hard since this started
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfor past month i ve been having those really weird head rush while falling asleep it s like sudden tension headache head adrenaline rush it s a really weird feeling almost like my head is going to explode when i open my eye my anxiety obviously kick in but the head thingy immediately stop even though the tension headache is kinda on going my anxiety started because lf this head thingy that started happening to me and i also developed a little depression because of it cause i have 0 idea what that is and even doctor are clueless anyone have an idea i am struggeling so hard since this started\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
good morning ready go but i want go back bed
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngood morning ready go but i want go back bed\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
rumlover no u supposed to be my date
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nrumlover no u supposed to be my date\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
another set of ipod earbuds dying left going quiet apple charge gbp 0 for replacement better option at around that price point
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nanother set of ipod earbuds dying left going quiet apple charge gbp 0 for replacement better option at around that price point\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
brahhh quit smoking cigs i dont want to look old plus i cant breath haha
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nbrahhh quit smoking cigs i dont want to look old plus i cant breath haha\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i am soaked this is not pleasant
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni am soaked this is not pleasant\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
depression a hit you outta nowhere
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndepression a hit you outta nowhere\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
jonathanchard not calorie wise i wish junk food wa calorie free i ate a thing of sour skittle and a big as cherry coke
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\njonathanchard not calorie wise i wish junk food wa calorie free i ate a thing of sour skittle and a big as cherry coke\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
im a year old college student who is supposed to graduate this may the only problem being i havent been able to get out if bed to go to class in a month i have lost nearly all of my motivation and feel trapped by my mind the only time i leave my house is to go to work because i need the money or go to the gym because it is one of the only thing that make me feel alive happy anymore ive reached out to professor and advisor telling them i just need help but they have been essentially useless instead of being pointed towards cap ive just been told to give up and widthdraw from my class and it taking an even larger toll on me i just need a break from everything and everyone
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nim a year old college student who is supposed to graduate this may the only problem being i havent been able to get out if bed to go to class in a month i have lost nearly all of my motivation and feel trapped by my mind the only time i leave my house is to go to work because i need the money or go to the gym because it is one of the only thing that make me feel alive happy anymore ive reached out to professor and advisor telling them i just need help but they have been essentially useless instead of being pointed towards cap ive just been told to give up and widthdraw from my class and it taking an even larger toll on me i just need a break from everything and everyone\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
mizzzidc o masepa a ngwana straight wena the way you we spoke to your mom it s like you were talking to your small sister even if you can go back to depression voetsak http t co y hsjd nr
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmizzzidc o masepa a ngwana straight wena the way you we spoke to your mom it s like you were talking to your small sister even if you can go back to depression voetsak http t co y hsjd nr\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
it s only ever gotten worse i m worthless and unwanted and there s no reason i shouldn t kill myself i have no reason i should be alive if it s spent feeling like this and being alone
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nit s only ever gotten worse i m worthless and unwanted and there s no reason i shouldn t kill myself i have no reason i should be alive if it s spent feeling like this and being alone\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
xovince pssht i miss u u don t respond to me
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nxovince pssht i miss u u don t respond to me\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
hey my name luis and i ve lived a very hard life on march 0 0 my friend kidnapped me they tortured me they sexually assaulted me they beat me up they lighted my skin on fire and they shaved my hair and eyebrow off i thought my life couldn t get any worse after that traumatic experience but it actually did i ve been bashed i ve been portrayed my window have been smashed my property ha been stolen my mother car window have been smashed and i get made fun by people for being gay i wan na jump off and die
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhey my name luis and i ve lived a very hard life on march 0 0 my friend kidnapped me they tortured me they sexually assaulted me they beat me up they lighted my skin on fire and they shaved my hair and eyebrow off i thought my life couldn t get any worse after that traumatic experience but it actually did i ve been bashed i ve been portrayed my window have been smashed my property ha been stolen my mother car window have been smashed and i get made fun by people for being gay i wan na jump off and die\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
just saw dan off neighbour walking down chapel street random feeling like they are going to fire me at work any got a job going
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\njust saw dan off neighbour walking down chapel street random feeling like they are going to fire me at work any got a job going\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
sleep soon i just hate saying bye and see you tomorrow for the night
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsleep soon i just hate saying bye and see you tomorrow for the night\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i can t remember a time when i wasn t struggling i ve wanted to die for a long a i can remember and i m worried i m no longer afraid of death i just don t understand myself i can get up every day and do everything i need to put my retainer in and wash my face before i sleep get great grade but no one know how much my body ache and how hard i have to push myself to do all those thing i joke around my friend and plaster this fake as smile on my face around everybody but i contemplate my death every night every single night and i can never sleep before am anymore yet i wake up bright and early a if i didn t almost kill myself the night before there wa a point in my life where i didn t get out of bed for month didn t brush my teeth for week failed every class never spoke to anyone and got sickly skinny from loss of appetite it wa so awful and i never want to return to that state again that i let myself fall apart now trying to keep my composure and no one know there s not a single soul in my life who s aware though i try to talk about it without dragging everyone down with me i ve also caught myself dissociating a lot more these day can t remember shit can t feel excitement at all or any other emotion other than despair and exhaustion and the terrible brain fog i just don t know what to do anymore don t know how much longer i can keep my act up i m repulsed by the idea that i d have to do this forever don t want to talk to anyone about it either in fear that i d just be a burden friend and family call me over dramatic and don t even take it seriously because they re never there to see how bad it is and idk how to show them don t even know what the point of me posting this is i doubt anyone would even see this or waste precious time reading through this long as post
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni can t remember a time when i wasn t struggling i ve wanted to die for a long a i can remember and i m worried i m no longer afraid of death i just don t understand myself i can get up every day and do everything i need to put my retainer in and wash my face before i sleep get great grade but no one know how much my body ache and how hard i have to push myself to do all those thing i joke around my friend and plaster this fake as smile on my face around everybody but i contemplate my death every night every single night and i can never sleep before am anymore yet i wake up bright and early a if i didn t almost kill myself the night before there wa a point in my life where i didn t get out of bed for month didn t brush my teeth for week failed every class never spoke to anyone and got sickly skinny from loss of appetite it wa so awful and i never want to return to that state again that i let myself fall apart now trying to keep my composure and no one know there s not a single soul in my life who s aware though i try to talk about it without dragging everyone down with me i ve also caught myself dissociating a lot more these day can t remember shit can t feel excitement at all or any other emotion other than despair and exhaustion and the terrible brain fog i just don t know what to do anymore don t know how much longer i can keep my act up i m repulsed by the idea that i d have to do this forever don t want to talk to anyone about it either in fear that i d just be a burden friend and family call me over dramatic and don t even take it seriously because they re never there to see how bad it is and idk how to show them don t even know what the point of me posting this is i doubt anyone would even see this or waste precious time reading through this long as post\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
me gustar a crear un espacio para hablar sobre los siguientes temas depression peliculas musica hilo ser a muy cool platicar con ustedes que opinan
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nme gustar a crear un espacio para hablar sobre los siguientes temas depression peliculas musica hilo ser a muy cool platicar con ustedes que opinan\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
sitting outside doctor s surgery so it s my turn now bah what a holiday
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsitting outside doctor s surgery so it s my turn now bah what a holiday\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
hey im year old and ive recently been diagnosed with severe anxiety after ive been struggling with it my entire life i take my med when i need them only which might be bad and i also started therapy n it been helpful anyways ive been struggling with death anxiety for a while every once in a while ill somehow convince myself that it my last day week on earth n that i need to say goodbye to everyone n that this will be the last time im doing this or that etc it so bad to the point where i cant really get out of bed for day bc im scared of death whenever i have plan i keep thinking about all the bad thing that can happen to me so i cancel im scared of flying or driving or anything that can put me in danger tmw im going on a hiking trip n im terrified that it gon na go badly doe anyone have advice on how to deal with this bc i dont want it to stop me from living my life ive been struggling with it ever since i wa a child and i need it to get le intense asap ty
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhey im year old and ive recently been diagnosed with severe anxiety after ive been struggling with it my entire life i take my med when i need them only which might be bad and i also started therapy n it been helpful anyways ive been struggling with death anxiety for a while every once in a while ill somehow convince myself that it my last day week on earth n that i need to say goodbye to everyone n that this will be the last time im doing this or that etc it so bad to the point where i cant really get out of bed for day bc im scared of death whenever i have plan i keep thinking about all the bad thing that can happen to me so i cancel im scared of flying or driving or anything that can put me in danger tmw im going on a hiking trip n im terrified that it gon na go badly doe anyone have advice on how to deal with this bc i dont want it to stop me from living my life ive been struggling with it ever since i wa a child and i need it to get le intense asap ty\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i dont want to believe what im reading buu so sad
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni dont want to believe what im reading buu so sad\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i just had two people stop following me
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni just had two people stop following me\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
loltrish hey long time no see yes rain a bit only a bit lol i m fine thanks how s you
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nloltrish hey long time no see yes rain a bit only a bit lol i m fine thanks how s you\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i wish i could just be normal and happy i have no friend and can t work i am just so tired of everything constant letdown and failure i cry and throw up over the littlest thing i barely even go out anymore cause when i do i see group of friend laughing and talking people will never understand
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni wish i could just be normal and happy i have no friend and can t work i am just so tired of everything constant letdown and failure i cry and throw up over the littlest thing i barely even go out anymore cause when i do i see group of friend laughing and talking people will never understand\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
why is it that sometimes i just randomly am completely consumed by anxiety i try think about something nice and i just feel random anxiety and i don t know why it make me feel awful or am i just tired i don t know but i do know that i m so easily consumed by defeat and depression i just want to give up and hurt myself i don t know what to do anymore i hope i can make it
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwhy is it that sometimes i just randomly am completely consumed by anxiety i try think about something nice and i just feel random anxiety and i don t know why it make me feel awful or am i just tired i don t know but i do know that i m so easily consumed by defeat and depression i just want to give up and hurt myself i don t know what to do anymore i hope i can make it\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
mizzzidc what nonsense disrespect your mom then dangle depression toxic human
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmizzzidc what nonsense disrespect your mom then dangle depression toxic human\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i started having suicidal thought in april of last year and they lasted until around november in october i started hanging out with a girl and we started becoming good friend not romantic just friendship my mental health started getting a lot better after a couple month of friendship with her and it s kept getting better ever since a few day ago i made a passive aggressive comment that really upset her she won t text me back now i ve tried apologizing and trying to make thing right with her but i haven t heard back from her i m afraid i ve ruined this friendship forever and now my suicidal thought are back for the first time since last year i always hurt the people that i care about and i hate myself so much that i do this
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni started having suicidal thought in april of last year and they lasted until around november in october i started hanging out with a girl and we started becoming good friend not romantic just friendship my mental health started getting a lot better after a couple month of friendship with her and it s kept getting better ever since a few day ago i made a passive aggressive comment that really upset her she won t text me back now i ve tried apologizing and trying to make thing right with her but i haven t heard back from her i m afraid i ve ruined this friendship forever and now my suicidal thought are back for the first time since last year i always hurt the people that i care about and i hate myself so much that i do this\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
gossipmail i make people forget they have problem i depress depression
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngossipmail i make people forget they have problem i depress depression\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i have a tendency to ob over some thing that have occurred and replay the scenario over and over in my head i m not even trying to focus on it but the thought still come into my head and then i find myself focusing on them and it serf me no purpose how do i stop doing this i know the scenario are over so i don t know why i am still thinking about them so much
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni have a tendency to ob over some thing that have occurred and replay the scenario over and over in my head i m not even trying to focus on it but the thought still come into my head and then i find myself focusing on them and it serf me no purpose how do i stop doing this i know the scenario are over so i don t know why i am still thinking about them so much\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i had an alternative account where i post in subreddits related to video game i like asking for strategy i guess i did that too often without noticing anyway i got an anonymous reddit care resource message and i already got the feeling i wa targeted by troll or hater i have another alternative reddit account where i post in a controversial sub and i get reddit care resource message basically every other week lol i should have deactivated my account but i didn t anyway a while later someone sent me a message on reddit calling me a c t who should f off a i spam the sub in a brainless manner and ask about everything about the game so i m a loser who is too annoying without the asterisk i couldn t see who sent me that message a that person immediately deleted his or her account anyway this made me uncomfortable that person used really strong language and i don t think calling me a c t wa justified i guess i should be smart enough to deactivate my reddit account a soon a a i got a reddit care message ironically i never got such a message even though i posted in mental health sub numerous time with a lot of alternative account or just turn off private message didn t see the need to do so a i never thought i would get such a message by posting on such a sub it s not like i wa posting anything controversial did i do the right thing deactivating that alternative account i don t think there wa a way i could win that argument so i guess the best thing to do wa just to vanish from the sub another thing is i m worried that the hater or hater will find this thread and know it s me or maybe people from that sub will notice how i m gone and will find this thread or maybe the developer can guess who i am a in which gaming account that alternative reddit account is linked to based on the video game info i described a in which stage i got stuck in how much game money i had stocked up etc am i being paranoid
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni had an alternative account where i post in subreddits related to video game i like asking for strategy i guess i did that too often without noticing anyway i got an anonymous reddit care resource message and i already got the feeling i wa targeted by troll or hater i have another alternative reddit account where i post in a controversial sub and i get reddit care resource message basically every other week lol i should have deactivated my account but i didn t anyway a while later someone sent me a message on reddit calling me a c t who should f off a i spam the sub in a brainless manner and ask about everything about the game so i m a loser who is too annoying without the asterisk i couldn t see who sent me that message a that person immediately deleted his or her account anyway this made me uncomfortable that person used really strong language and i don t think calling me a c t wa justified i guess i should be smart enough to deactivate my reddit account a soon a a i got a reddit care message ironically i never got such a message even though i posted in mental health sub numerous time with a lot of alternative account or just turn off private message didn t see the need to do so a i never thought i would get such a message by posting on such a sub it s not like i wa posting anything controversial did i do the right thing deactivating that alternative account i don t think there wa a way i could win that argument so i guess the best thing to do wa just to vanish from the sub another thing is i m worried that the hater or hater will find this thread and know it s me or maybe people from that sub will notice how i m gone and will find this thread or maybe the developer can guess who i am a in which gaming account that alternative reddit account is linked to based on the video game info i described a in which stage i got stuck in how much game money i had stocked up etc am i being paranoid\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i m feeling so anxious my heart is beating fast and i m shaking i know my doctor is going to be ok but it s been a long time since i ve talked to a psychiatrist and now i am so worried that i am gon na forget to tell everything that s bothering me i can t make eye contact because of my social anxiety can t sit still feel the need to move around the room i m gon na ask the doctor for some new and stronger med because the one i m taking at the moment are not working a they should i hope that it s going to okay
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m feeling so anxious my heart is beating fast and i m shaking i know my doctor is going to be ok but it s been a long time since i ve talked to a psychiatrist and now i am so worried that i am gon na forget to tell everything that s bothering me i can t make eye contact because of my social anxiety can t sit still feel the need to move around the room i m gon na ask the doctor for some new and stronger med because the one i m taking at the moment are not working a they should i hope that it s going to okay\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
britneyspears just read up about the film look good although we over here are gon na have to wait for it to come out
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nbritneyspears just read up about the film look good although we over here are gon na have to wait for it to come out\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
updatingffe that give me nothing to do for a good twenty minute
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nupdatingffe that give me nothing to do for a good twenty minute\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
realmissdike actually don jazzy had a god like influence on the music industry at that time sha plus it wa a legal tussle to add to it so there wa no moving for wc think depression set in along the way for him too
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nrealmissdike actually don jazzy had a god like influence on the music industry at that time sha plus it wa a legal tussle to add to it so there wa no moving for wc think depression set in along the way for him too\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i m not here to debate y all if my take make you uncomfortable good critical thinking isn t flowery it s why i have clinical depression i m prone to screaming about it into the void
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m not here to debate y all if my take make you uncomfortable good critical thinking isn t flowery it s why i have clinical depression i m prone to screaming about it into the void\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
hey all i m 0 and i started taking 0mg citalopram in summer last year i had no side effect except for a decreased appetite and worsened insomnia i already suffered with that though everything wa going well until the start of this year when my anxiety suddenly got out of control my doctor think i grew resistant to the 0mg or something my dose wa increased to 0mg the end of feb for the first week i felt fine but then i started to feel nauseous the second week then over last weekend i began to be physically sick i take citalopram in the morning a soon a i wake up because i used to take it at night and it wasn t good for my insomnia a well a this for the good of being completely transparent i am a social university student who doe enjoy drinking even though alcohol wa fine with 0mg could it be possible that it is not now i know this is an important piece of context hence why i m including it basically did anyone else suffer with nausea and vomiting after increasing their dose should i be concerned that it s been week since starting the new dose and my side effect haven t settled also how worried should i be mixing citalopram with this new dose when i wa fine when i drank on 0mg thanks for any advice
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhey all i m 0 and i started taking 0mg citalopram in summer last year i had no side effect except for a decreased appetite and worsened insomnia i already suffered with that though everything wa going well until the start of this year when my anxiety suddenly got out of control my doctor think i grew resistant to the 0mg or something my dose wa increased to 0mg the end of feb for the first week i felt fine but then i started to feel nauseous the second week then over last weekend i began to be physically sick i take citalopram in the morning a soon a i wake up because i used to take it at night and it wasn t good for my insomnia a well a this for the good of being completely transparent i am a social university student who doe enjoy drinking even though alcohol wa fine with 0mg could it be possible that it is not now i know this is an important piece of context hence why i m including it basically did anyone else suffer with nausea and vomiting after increasing their dose should i be concerned that it s been week since starting the new dose and my side effect haven t settled also how worried should i be mixing citalopram with this new dose when i wa fine when i drank on 0mg thanks for any advice\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
ha anyone been prescribed mirtazapine or other alpha receptor antagonist to treat their anxiety i would prefer not to use start with ssri s what wa you experience
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nha anyone been prescribed mirtazapine or other alpha receptor antagonist to treat their anxiety i would prefer not to use start with ssri s what wa you experience\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
it s 0pm early day in a looooooong night at work
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nit s 0pm early day in a looooooong night at work\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i ve been in and out of mental hospital for about year now i m just turned thing get good for a bit and then they get better and it a vicious cycle i m on med to help with anxiety and adhd but the thought just wont stop i counted all my med to see if it enough to die and od my parent don t really care because im sure my mom saw my new self harm scar and said nothing i relapsed really bad again and because of how open they are i m afraid of an infection i just want help but i m scared i m a burden my mom is sick right now and we dont have money to send me to the hospital again id rather i just die kinda instead of having to deal with everything i m bottling it all up again and turning to self harm idk what to do anymore i m so tired
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve been in and out of mental hospital for about year now i m just turned thing get good for a bit and then they get better and it a vicious cycle i m on med to help with anxiety and adhd but the thought just wont stop i counted all my med to see if it enough to die and od my parent don t really care because im sure my mom saw my new self harm scar and said nothing i relapsed really bad again and because of how open they are i m afraid of an infection i just want help but i m scared i m a burden my mom is sick right now and we dont have money to send me to the hospital again id rather i just die kinda instead of having to deal with everything i m bottling it all up again and turning to self harm idk what to do anymore i m so tired\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
biking is hard ya ll
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nbiking is hard ya ll\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
babysitting this morning stiil it s an excuse to watch the chute on cbbc
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nbabysitting this morning stiil it s an excuse to watch the chute on cbbc\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
first off i have very little experience in dealing with anyone with depression i freely admit that over the past couple of month i have been chatting with and hanging out with this amazing woman i met on a dating app she ha severe anxiety ppd postnatal depression suicidal thought etc we d hit thing off pretty well just from chatting over the app from what i thought there were a couple of time where she d wanted to end her life so she tell me but she managed to get past that the first time i met her in person wa amazing i had never ever felt so at ease taking with a woman before it went really well at that point i knew this chick wa worth the time we just clicked that well instantly since then we ve done a couple of day trip place and that went very well also one of those time wa with her young child le then yo she doesn t have a lot of time for herself and find it hard to get a decent night sleep partly to do with the young one waking in the middle of the night lately she s had a couple of very low moment her home life isn t the best still living at home because finically she can not afford to leave she get abuse from her mother constantly and also seems to live in fear especially when her child is being loud it could wake her mother a of last week she admitted that she really liked me i have been clear all along that i really like her just so she s not thinking that she s in limbo i live over an hour away from her but i do travel up to her home town for work at least twice a week sometimes le sometimes more there s some weird thing where she doesn t want her mum knowing about me so consequently i cant see her that much unless mum is not home which really suck i find it hard to deal with when it feel like she s giving me the cold shoulder i know it s the depression that s doing it not her true feeling one of her red flag about dating me is that i don t know understand her mental health however the way i see it is if you don t tell me then i can t understand but apparently that wa not the way to approach that one i d love for nothing more then to give her a big hug that in the hope that it might make her feel a little better about thing but unfortunately i don t get the opportunity she know that i will come up any time i don t mind driving at all so i don t let that be a barrier plus i can afford to do so i m scared to loose her because i really want her and i to work at time i want to just say stuff it and walk away but i know that s not what i want amp x 00b if anyone ha experienced the same thing or something similar your advice is much appreciated
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfirst off i have very little experience in dealing with anyone with depression i freely admit that over the past couple of month i have been chatting with and hanging out with this amazing woman i met on a dating app she ha severe anxiety ppd postnatal depression suicidal thought etc we d hit thing off pretty well just from chatting over the app from what i thought there were a couple of time where she d wanted to end her life so she tell me but she managed to get past that the first time i met her in person wa amazing i had never ever felt so at ease taking with a woman before it went really well at that point i knew this chick wa worth the time we just clicked that well instantly since then we ve done a couple of day trip place and that went very well also one of those time wa with her young child le then yo she doesn t have a lot of time for herself and find it hard to get a decent night sleep partly to do with the young one waking in the middle of the night lately she s had a couple of very low moment her home life isn t the best still living at home because finically she can not afford to leave she get abuse from her mother constantly and also seems to live in fear especially when her child is being loud it could wake her mother a of last week she admitted that she really liked me i have been clear all along that i really like her just so she s not thinking that she s in limbo i live over an hour away from her but i do travel up to her home town for work at least twice a week sometimes le sometimes more there s some weird thing where she doesn t want her mum knowing about me so consequently i cant see her that much unless mum is not home which really suck i find it hard to deal with when it feel like she s giving me the cold shoulder i know it s the depression that s doing it not her true feeling one of her red flag about dating me is that i don t know understand her mental health however the way i see it is if you don t tell me then i can t understand but apparently that wa not the way to approach that one i d love for nothing more then to give her a big hug that in the hope that it might make her feel a little better about thing but unfortunately i don t get the opportunity she know that i will come up any time i don t mind driving at all so i don t let that be a barrier plus i can afford to do so i m scared to loose her because i really want her and i to work at time i want to just say stuff it and walk away but i know that s not what i want amp x 00b if anyone ha experienced the same thing or something similar your advice is much appreciated\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
ok wonder why twitpix isn t an option for this new phone i got i can t win i ll leave the photo to my cuz i guess
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nok wonder why twitpix isn t an option for this new phone i got i can t win i ll leave the photo to my cuz i guess\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
english isn t my native language so please excuse possible incorrect grammar hi guy so a quick explanation to why i f want to get diagnosed i ve been struggling with panik attack and alot of anxiety since i wa a toddler i think about or yr old i ve done quite alot of research about gad and the vast majority of the symptom i could find describe what i m struggling with quite well so lately i ve been thinking about telling my physiatrist and i have a lot of question and worry surrounding that it would really mean alot to me to read some of you guy s experience with getting diagnosed feel free to share in the comment first of all i don t really know how to approach this conversation with her like how do i start it and what kind of question could she ask me im diagnosed with adhd i don t know if the process is similar to that of an anxiety disorder diagnosed and second what if i don t have an anxiety disorder ive been struggling my whole life it honestly feel like my anxiety ha pretty much full control over what i do and especially what i don t do thanks lt
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nenglish isn t my native language so please excuse possible incorrect grammar hi guy so a quick explanation to why i f want to get diagnosed i ve been struggling with panik attack and alot of anxiety since i wa a toddler i think about or yr old i ve done quite alot of research about gad and the vast majority of the symptom i could find describe what i m struggling with quite well so lately i ve been thinking about telling my physiatrist and i have a lot of question and worry surrounding that it would really mean alot to me to read some of you guy s experience with getting diagnosed feel free to share in the comment first of all i don t really know how to approach this conversation with her like how do i start it and what kind of question could she ask me im diagnosed with adhd i don t know if the process is similar to that of an anxiety disorder diagnosed and second what if i don t have an anxiety disorder ive been struggling my whole life it honestly feel like my anxiety ha pretty much full control over what i do and especially what i don t do thanks lt\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
matched with a guy on a dating app we went on a few date hooked up a couple of time but it didn t work since both of u got too occupied with our work and we had nothing to talk most of the time but now after like a month i see this guy on my dance class whatsapp group and he is about to join the same batch i feel so anxious and weird first i dance horrible but it didn t really matter because i didn t know anyone there should i leave the class what do i do the class wa like an escape to me since i recently moved to this city and i don t want to leave the class but i also don t want to see him there and show him this side of me help please
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmatched with a guy on a dating app we went on a few date hooked up a couple of time but it didn t work since both of u got too occupied with our work and we had nothing to talk most of the time but now after like a month i see this guy on my dance class whatsapp group and he is about to join the same batch i feel so anxious and weird first i dance horrible but it didn t really matter because i didn t know anyone there should i leave the class what do i do the class wa like an escape to me since i recently moved to this city and i don t want to leave the class but i also don t want to see him there and show him this side of me help please\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
life is so fucked human are so fucked and cruel and hedonistic and trash and mean and disgusting humanity deserves to die out a a specie so this planet and the animal that get constantly fucked by u can finally have their rest
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nlife is so fucked human are so fucked and cruel and hedonistic and trash and mean and disgusting humanity deserves to die out a a specie so this planet and the animal that get constantly fucked by u can finally have their rest\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i m my snap is bradenisacuck feel free to add me anyone
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m my snap is bradenisacuck feel free to add me anyone\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
time to get me as in gear and start the day
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ntime to get me as in gear and start the day\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
childrensjewell so damn annoying when that happens isn t it hope she doesn t copy your work
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nchildrensjewell so damn annoying when that happens isn t it hope she doesn t copy your work\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
it s been a lot of stress past the last three year i feel like i can t take it anymore i m too anti social i can t talk to anyone i just start shaking and can t say a word and then this feeling of embarrassment will haunt me for the rest of the day no one want to talk with me i feel like i shouldn t be here like i m a burden to everyone i have to hold my emotion inside never letting them out and this is killing me i ve been cry for the last few day i feel so pathetic am i the problem i am so lost
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nit s been a lot of stress past the last three year i feel like i can t take it anymore i m too anti social i can t talk to anyone i just start shaking and can t say a word and then this feeling of embarrassment will haunt me for the rest of the day no one want to talk with me i feel like i shouldn t be here like i m a burden to everyone i have to hold my emotion inside never letting them out and this is killing me i ve been cry for the last few day i feel so pathetic am i the problem i am so lost\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
can i talk to someone please
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncan i talk to someone please\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
if you d like to know my particular situation see my last post in r personalfinance to summarize i have intense anxiety about graduating college i don t think my anxiety would be so bad if it weren t for my parent telling me how hard life is and trying to give me nonsensical advice on what i should do such a getting an apartment before getting a job it may be important to note that they are not successful adult in term of career finance if i had to describe myself in one word these day i d say scared i m scared of so much and most of the fear is irrational spiraling thought i ve always been successful in school but i m so scared that adulthood is just too hard everyone tell me how hard it is i think i m making the right decision but i m so so so unsure of myself this ha been making my daily task really hard small task have become insurmountable there s phone call i ve been putting off i do all my assignment right before they re due and most of all it s so so hard to think plan for my future after graduation i start cry get super brain fog my stutter intensifies a ton and i hyperventilate then i tell myself i m not in the right state of mind to make decision right now so focus on dealing with the anxiety so i m turn i feel unprepared for my future the thing is i do have a plan a detailed in my last post i feel like i m in a fine position for someone my age situation i just overthink constantly thank you all for letting me rant please comment if you have any advice or kind word
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nif you d like to know my particular situation see my last post in r personalfinance to summarize i have intense anxiety about graduating college i don t think my anxiety would be so bad if it weren t for my parent telling me how hard life is and trying to give me nonsensical advice on what i should do such a getting an apartment before getting a job it may be important to note that they are not successful adult in term of career finance if i had to describe myself in one word these day i d say scared i m scared of so much and most of the fear is irrational spiraling thought i ve always been successful in school but i m so scared that adulthood is just too hard everyone tell me how hard it is i think i m making the right decision but i m so so so unsure of myself this ha been making my daily task really hard small task have become insurmountable there s phone call i ve been putting off i do all my assignment right before they re due and most of all it s so so hard to think plan for my future after graduation i start cry get super brain fog my stutter intensifies a ton and i hyperventilate then i tell myself i m not in the right state of mind to make decision right now so focus on dealing with the anxiety so i m turn i feel unprepared for my future the thing is i do have a plan a detailed in my last post i feel like i m in a fine position for someone my age situation i just overthink constantly thank you all for letting me rant please comment if you have any advice or kind word\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
the muppet whatnot workshop site is temporarily down apparently totally sold out quot working hard to get it back asap quot hurry up y all
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nthe muppet whatnot workshop site is temporarily down apparently totally sold out quot working hard to get it back asap quot hurry up y all\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
my depression ha gotten much worse lately but i haven t told anyone how bad it is not even my wife because she s still grieving her mom who passed away last month and i don t want to add to her trouble i ve been having suicidal thought again but so far no intent to actually end my life however i have relapsed into self harm again and i think it s worse than it ha been before like i can t end myself because my wife and kid need me and i m now the only income earner in the house so i need to provide for my family so i m doing the next best thing and hurting myself thus why i m hesitant to tell my therapist how bad it s gotten i d voluntarily committed myself a couple year ago when i wa suicidal and told my wife so i know how that go but i know there is a risk that if my therapist think is dire enough i can be involuntarily committed and i can t afford to miss any work right now i don t know what to do i know i don t have a lot of time to decide because my next therapist appointment is in a few hour
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmy depression ha gotten much worse lately but i haven t told anyone how bad it is not even my wife because she s still grieving her mom who passed away last month and i don t want to add to her trouble i ve been having suicidal thought again but so far no intent to actually end my life however i have relapsed into self harm again and i think it s worse than it ha been before like i can t end myself because my wife and kid need me and i m now the only income earner in the house so i need to provide for my family so i m doing the next best thing and hurting myself thus why i m hesitant to tell my therapist how bad it s gotten i d voluntarily committed myself a couple year ago when i wa suicidal and told my wife so i know how that go but i know there is a risk that if my therapist think is dire enough i can be involuntarily committed and i can t afford to miss any work right now i don t know what to do i know i don t have a lot of time to decide because my next therapist appointment is in a few hour\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
can t believe it i m in disbelief of it all in a way really how much can i take from people and always get hurt by others
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncan t believe it i m in disbelief of it all in a way really how much can i take from people and always get hurt by others\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
joefernandez klout your not thinking of selling are you
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\njoefernandez klout your not thinking of selling are you\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i have an interview tomorrow and i feel like i am dying from how stressed i am right now i already had a panic attack earlier but thankfully i came down from it fast this would be my second job ever and i wa at my first job for three year so i feel like i will be rusty and mess it up and i have to drive a route i am not used to and dont know well which driving is a major trigger for me can i have some word of support or encouragement to get through this please
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni have an interview tomorrow and i feel like i am dying from how stressed i am right now i already had a panic attack earlier but thankfully i came down from it fast this would be my second job ever and i wa at my first job for three year so i feel like i will be rusty and mess it up and i have to drive a route i am not used to and dont know well which driving is a major trigger for me can i have some word of support or encouragement to get through this please\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
ambermatson yes seems to have been much worse than normal over past few month
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nambermatson yes seems to have been much worse than normal over past few month\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i m so scared of you these day i miss being happy
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m so scared of you these day i miss being happy\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i feel like everything i do i get tired of very quickly i dont feel like challenging myself or bettering myself when something happens to me i put myself down real quick im functional enough to get out of bed clean myself and go to work but thats really it nothing else my interest in activity isnt there i used to be on 0 mg of sertaline a year and a half ago but i got off it thats back when i wa suicidal and to be honest i have improved just not to the extent i think i should have i thought my brain would start getting back into a completely healthy rhythm by itself but it didnt thankfully im not suicidal and the fact i admit i want to improve is a very good sign
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni feel like everything i do i get tired of very quickly i dont feel like challenging myself or bettering myself when something happens to me i put myself down real quick im functional enough to get out of bed clean myself and go to work but thats really it nothing else my interest in activity isnt there i used to be on 0 mg of sertaline a year and a half ago but i got off it thats back when i wa suicidal and to be honest i have improved just not to the extent i think i should have i thought my brain would start getting back into a completely healthy rhythm by itself but it didnt thankfully im not suicidal and the fact i admit i want to improve is a very good sign\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
enough fentanyl to kill a gorilla i m sorry i don t wan na hurt my family but i can t go on another day living a a junkie fuck up might a well end it i love you zoey in case you re reading this i m sorry
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nenough fentanyl to kill a gorilla i m sorry i don t wan na hurt my family but i can t go on another day living a a junkie fuck up might a well end it i love you zoey in case you re reading this i m sorry\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
damn i have missed gsoc apply deadline
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndamn i have missed gsoc apply deadline\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
hey there doe anyone here have this odd anxiety over commiting a crime and or lying when you infact don t whenever i get a call or letter i immidiately think i am in trouble and when i run into an issue that even remotely ha to do with official matter i am so anxious i might have accidently commit a crime it go so far that i start to convince myself i infact have commited crime when that isnt the case it might be a tad of imposter syndrome too example i worked a a freelance designer for a year jumped in when there wa a project i found interesting i did everything correctly etc after the project wa done i realized this sort of freelancing isn t what i wanted to do so i cancelled my status again i didnt know i cpuld just freeze it after having had only one client i again did everything a law demanded soon i wan na to apply for job in a different field game art and going through my document made the anxiety flare up again immidiately thought like you werent a real freelancer or only one client is shady af or in general just obsession about having commited a crime i have asked the literal tax office how i would go about cancelling since i figured it wasnt really my thing and if it is possible to start a freelance gig again after i officially cancelled my status for example a an artist they told me all i needed to know i did nothing wrong but there is this irration fear and voice that keep trying to convince me i have committed a crime and that is just one example sometimes i feel i stole my art i could draw it this exact moment with no bloody ref and my brain would tell me stole it i feel like i weaseled myself into uni and didnt really pas the test i dont know how to deal with this shite anymore is it this still anxiety or what oa that anyone can relate
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhey there doe anyone here have this odd anxiety over commiting a crime and or lying when you infact don t whenever i get a call or letter i immidiately think i am in trouble and when i run into an issue that even remotely ha to do with official matter i am so anxious i might have accidently commit a crime it go so far that i start to convince myself i infact have commited crime when that isnt the case it might be a tad of imposter syndrome too example i worked a a freelance designer for a year jumped in when there wa a project i found interesting i did everything correctly etc after the project wa done i realized this sort of freelancing isn t what i wanted to do so i cancelled my status again i didnt know i cpuld just freeze it after having had only one client i again did everything a law demanded soon i wan na to apply for job in a different field game art and going through my document made the anxiety flare up again immidiately thought like you werent a real freelancer or only one client is shady af or in general just obsession about having commited a crime i have asked the literal tax office how i would go about cancelling since i figured it wasnt really my thing and if it is possible to start a freelance gig again after i officially cancelled my status for example a an artist they told me all i needed to know i did nothing wrong but there is this irration fear and voice that keep trying to convince me i have committed a crime and that is just one example sometimes i feel i stole my art i could draw it this exact moment with no bloody ref and my brain would tell me stole it i feel like i weaseled myself into uni and didnt really pas the test i dont know how to deal with this shite anymore is it this still anxiety or what oa that anyone can relate\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
and so the editing of 000 wedding shot begin
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nand so the editing of 000 wedding shot begin\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
going to sleep hoping tomorrow is a better day
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngoing to sleep hoping tomorrow is a better day\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i hate to see the spartan so sad
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni hate to see the spartan so sad\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
so i got my mirena removed last month on the th because of it having a bad effect on my mental health i had it in for a little over year i knew getting it out id probably experience the mirena crash i wa fine up until today when i got my first period i ve had very intense anxiety depression all day today to the point where i can t even leave my house i m guessing it s the shift in hormone and everything considering it s been 0 year since i ve been birth control free did anyone else experience this super low mood after removal i ve also just been feeling very out of body today and very exhausted
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso i got my mirena removed last month on the th because of it having a bad effect on my mental health i had it in for a little over year i knew getting it out id probably experience the mirena crash i wa fine up until today when i got my first period i ve had very intense anxiety depression all day today to the point where i can t even leave my house i m guessing it s the shift in hormone and everything considering it s been 0 year since i ve been birth control free did anyone else experience this super low mood after removal i ve also just been feeling very out of body today and very exhausted\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i m fucked up badly with my 9f ex girlfriend and now i m so guilty of how i handled thing i m punishing myself mentally and physically i ve lost nearly 0lbs from not eating and going the gym so now i m around lb at i don t leave the house unless i have to and i just exist in my room everytime i smile or laugh i stop instantly because i don t feel like i deserve to feel happiness anymore i think i ve had a mental breakdown because i m so guilty all the time and i can t seem to forgive myself because it doesn t even feel real that i d decide to make the choice i made i don t even know who i am anymore if i can be so deeply confused at choice i ve made in hindsight imagine knowing deep in your heart you ve met the love of your life and you ve thrown it all away because you can t handle a simple issue
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m fucked up badly with my 9f ex girlfriend and now i m so guilty of how i handled thing i m punishing myself mentally and physically i ve lost nearly 0lbs from not eating and going the gym so now i m around lb at i don t leave the house unless i have to and i just exist in my room everytime i smile or laugh i stop instantly because i don t feel like i deserve to feel happiness anymore i think i ve had a mental breakdown because i m so guilty all the time and i can t seem to forgive myself because it doesn t even feel real that i d decide to make the choice i made i don t even know who i am anymore if i can be so deeply confused at choice i ve made in hindsight imagine knowing deep in your heart you ve met the love of your life and you ve thrown it all away because you can t handle a simple issue\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
lordreginald same but if they survived the great dookie depression they ll be alright
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nlordreginald same but if they survived the great dookie depression they ll be alright\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
depression nap gt gt gt
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndepression nap gt gt gt\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i wonder if someone else feel the same and maybe someone here ha already found way to overcome it i live in small town now but in the past i lived in the big city and had no problem with height it just started several year ago i am afraid of entering building which is very tall i can t go beyond th floor without strong anxiety even going to the city and looking at all super high building make me quite anxious so far my anxiety is somehow manageable but i am afraid it may get worse in future since i avoid going to the city a much a possible i do not live in the city so sadly i can t practice and be exposed to my fear will i feel any relief after guided visualization any advises
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni wonder if someone else feel the same and maybe someone here ha already found way to overcome it i live in small town now but in the past i lived in the big city and had no problem with height it just started several year ago i am afraid of entering building which is very tall i can t go beyond th floor without strong anxiety even going to the city and looking at all super high building make me quite anxious so far my anxiety is somehow manageable but i am afraid it may get worse in future since i avoid going to the city a much a possible i do not live in the city so sadly i can t practice and be exposed to my fear will i feel any relief after guided visualization any advises\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]