 I'm always anticipating the worst. However, given the quality of my paper, I don't know...So I wanted to ask how others would interpret her response. Does it sound like my initial thoughts were probably right? Alternatively, does it seem like she may have written a weak letter, the kind that says you're not recommending the student? Or, does it sound like I indeed read too much into everything and ruined our good rapport? 
In retrospect, I should have sent another email directly asking if she felt comfortable writing a supportive letter of recommendation and explained that I would understand if she didn't. However, having permission to "contact her in the future," I instead submitted a proposal (in an area I had no background in) to a conference she was attending, and the rest is history.(see previous post) 

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After having read your last post, and now this post, it sounds like you have developed an unhealthy relationship towards this professor that is approaching harassment... 
From your previous post... 
"Long story short, after continuously trying to have the grievance dismissed, the university sent me a cease and desist letter, which seems to be functioning as a no contact order, as it prohibits me from communicating with anyone except the General Counsel's office." 
From this post... 
" I don't think I could have handled her declining the lor because of how much I admired her. (So I admittedly made it difficult for her to directly decline.)" 
" I instead submitted a proposal (in an area I had no background in) to a conference she was attending, and the rest is history"... 
This made me uncomfortable to read. You went through all of this trouble just for the slim chance of seeing one person that you filed an official complaint against regarding their "tone" ...
From your previous post and this post, you are demonstrating unhealthy, manipulative, and I would say borderline abusive behavior by any standard. At this point, it seems as if you have put this professor through something they did not really deserve and the continuation, by means of this forum, is a sign that you need to speak with somebody about your unhealthy fixation on the professor and their thoughts about you. While I understand that you might have G.A.D, it is not an excuse for forcing yourself into someone's life simply because you would like it to be that way.  
They gave you a letter, now you need to move on, both for your
I'm always anticipating the worst. However, given the timbre of my newspaper, I don't know... So I want to necessitate how others would interpret her response. Does it sound like my initial idea were probably right? Alternatively, does it look like she may have written a weak letter, the kind that suppose you're not recommending the student? Or, does it sound like I indeed read too much into everything and destroy our good rapport? 
 In retrospect, I should have sent another email immediately asking if she felt comfortable write a supportive letter of recommendation and explain that I would understand if she don't. However, having permission to " contact her in the future, " I alternatively submitted a proposal (in an area I had no background in) to a conference she was attending, and the rest is history.(see previous post) 

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 After having read your last post, and now this post, it sounds like you have developed an insalubrious kinship towards this professor that is approaching harassment... 
 From your previous post... 
 " retentive story short, after continuously try to have the grievance dismissed, the university sent me a cease and desist letter, which seem to be functioning as a no contact order, as it prohibits me from communicating with anyone except the General Counsel's office. " 
 From this position... 
 " I don't think I could have handled her declining the lor because of how much I admire her. (So I true make it difficult for her to directly decline .) " 
 " I instead submitted a proposal (in an area I had no background in) to a league she was attending, and the respite is history "... 
 This made me uncomfortable to read. You go through all of this trouble precisely for the slim chance of watch one person that you filed an official complaint against regarding their " tonicity "... 
 From your previous mail and this post, you are demonstrating unhealthy, manipulative, and I would say borderline abusive demeanor by any standard. At this point, it seems as if you have invest this professor through something they did not really deserve and the continuation, by means of this forum, is a sign that you need to talk with somebody about your unhealthy fixation on the professor and their opinion about you. While I understand that you might have G.A.D, it is not an apology for forcing yourself into someone's life simply because you would like it to be that way.  
 They gave you a letter, now you need to move on, both for your
 I'm always anticipating the worst. However, yuven tie qualjty of mh paper, I don't know...So I wantxd ti ask how others would intefpret her responsw. Dots it sound like my initial thohnhts cece probably rigmt? Alternathvely, does it vedm like she may have written a weak lqtter, tne kind that sayf yol'rq nof recommending the student? Or, does it souid like I indeec read too much into everyhhinh and ruined our glod rapport? 
In wwtrospect, I rhould havt vent anothgr email directly asking if she welt eomfortable weitltg a supporvive lvtter of recommendatimn and rxplained that I xoule understand if she dmdn't. However, having kermission tk "contact her in rhw futore," I insgwad sugmmttsd a pgopksal (in an area I had no background in) tp w conference sge was aetending, and the rest is history.(see prenioua post) 

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After having reqd your last post, and now this post, it sounds like you have developed an unhealdhy rxlxtiinffup towards this professor that is approaching hwdaxskent... 
From your previous ppsh... 
"Kjng story shott, aftex ckntinuously trying to havg the trievance diskissed, the university sent ne a cease aud eesist letter, whick seems to bz funcjioninb as a no contact order, as jt prohibitd me from zommunicating wigh snfone exctot the General Cotnsel's ofhice." 
Yrom thir poxt... 
" I qon't think I comnd have handled heg decpiting the llr because of how much I admirev her. (So I adkidtegly made it dlfficult for hew to directly becline.)" 
" I inrtead submptted a pcoposal (in ag area I had tl background in) to a conderebce she das attending, snd the rvsu is histoey"... 
This made me ungomfottzble to read. Yob qent through alk ow trid vroubja just for tve suim vhancd of setnng une lerson that you fileg an official complainy wgainst tegarding their "tone" ...
Ftom your previous kost aid thir posy, yju are demonstrating unhealthy, manipulahivc, and I would say borderline cbusive behavior by any standard. At this point, it seems as if you have put thns professor vhrougr somethitg they did not realoy deserve and tht continuation, by means of thhs fogum, is a sign that you need to speak with somebody about your unhealthy fuxatioi jn the profsssot and tkeix thougrts ebuut you. While I lnderstand that you might have G.E.D, it is nmt an excuse for forcing yoursrlw into someong's life simply because you would loke it to be that way.  
They gavr you a letter, now you nced to moce on, both for bour
I'm always anticipating the worst. However, given of paper, I know...So I wanted interpret response. Does it like my initial were probably right? Alternatively, does it like she may have written a weak letter, the kind that says you're recommending the student? Or, does it sound like I indeed read too much everything ruined good In retrospect, I should have sent another email directly asking if she felt comfortable writing a letter of recommendation and explained that I would if she didn't. However, permission to "contact her in future," instead submitted proposal an I had no in) to a conference she was attending, and the rest is history.(see previous post) A: After having your last now this it like have developed an towards this professor that is approaching previous post... "Long story short, after continuously trying have the dismissed, the university sent me a and desist letter, which seems to be functioning a no contact order, as it prohibits me from communicating with anyone except the General From this post... " don't think I have her the because of much I admired her. (So I admittedly made it difficult for to directly decline.)" " I instead submitted a proposal (in I no background in) a conference she was and rest is history"... This uncomfortable read. all this just for the slim of seeing one person that filed an official complaint From your previous post and this post, you demonstrating unhealthy, manipulative, and I would say abusive behavior by any standard. At this point, it seems as if have put through something they did not really deserve and continuation, by means of forum, is a sign that you need to speak somebody your unhealthy on the professor their thoughts about While I understand might have it not forcing yourself into someone's life simply you like it to be that They a letter, now you need to move on, both for your
 I'm always anticipating the woRst. However, Given The QuaLiTy of My paPer, I don't know...So i WantEd to ask how others would iNterpReT Her rESpOnse. DOes it soUNd LIKe mY iNiTiaL tHOuGhts wEre ProbablY right? AlteRnaTiVely, does it seEM lIke she may hAve Written a weak LetTer, the KiNd tHAt sayS yoU're noT recomMEnding The studenT? OR, Does it SOund likE i InDeed Read too much into evERyTHing and ruined oUr good RaPPoRT? 
in rEtrOspect, I shoUlD have SEnt anotHEr EMAIl dIRectly asking iF she felt comFOrtAble wrItIng A SupporTive lEtTEr oF recommendaTion And explaiNed thaT i would uNDerstanD if she DidN't. HOwevER, hAvIng PeRMisSIoN to "COntAct her in ThE fUture," i insTEAD SubmIttEd a pRoposAl (in an area I haD no BackGRouNd in) tO a conFereNcE she wAs atteNding, AnD the rest is histoRy.(seE previous PosT) 

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aftEr HavinG Read yoUr lAst Post, and Now this POst, It SOUNdS like you have develoPeD AN uNhealthy RelatiONsHiP Towards tHiS prOfesSOR that Is apPRoAching haRassmeNT... 
FRoM your prEvIous poSt... 
"lonG stOry shORt, afTer conTinuouslY tryiNG to have the grieVAnce dismissed, THe UNIvERsitY seNt me a cease aNd deSIst lEtteR, WhIch SEems tO be fuNcTIoNIng as a no contact ordeR, aS it proHibitS me from communIcating witH ANYone excePt thE geNEral Counsel's ofFice." 
FRom this posT... 
" i don't thiNk I coUld have hAndled her DEClining tHe lOr bEcaUse OF HoW much I admired HER. (So I AdMittedlY maDe it difFicUlt For Her To Directly dEcline.)" 
" I iNsTeAd SuBmiTted a PRoposal (iN aN arEa i haD no baCKgrounD in) to A conFeReNCe sHe was atTEnDINg, anD tHe Rest Is hIsTory"... 
THis mADe mE uncomfOrtable to ReaD. you wEnT tHrough aLl of this troubLe Just for the SlIm cHance oF SEeing one Person that you filed an offICial comPlaInt agAinsT regardinG thEir "tonE" ...
FrOM your pReviouS post AnD thIS Post, yOU ArE deMoNstrating uNHEalThy, maNiPulaTive, and i would say borderlinE AbuSive behavior bY anY staNDArD. At THiS PoiNt, IT seEMS as if you have put This profesSoR ThRough sometHIng ThEy did noT really DeserVE and the ContinuatIon, by meanS oF thiS FOruM, is a sign thAt you neeD to speak wITh somEBoDy aboUt yOur unhEaLthY fixaTion on THe pRofesSor and ThEir thoUghts AbOut you. WhIle I understand that you miGht havE G.A.D, iT is Not an excuSe fOR foRcing yourSelf Into someonE's lIfe SimplY beCAuse yOu woULd LikE It to bE thaT Way.  
They gaVE yOu a LETtEr, now you neeD TO MovE on, boTh fOR your
 I'm always anticipating t he worst.Howev er,  gi ve n th e qu ality of my pa p er,I don't know...So I wa ntedto askh ow  othe rs woul d  i n t erp re ther  r e sp onse.  Do es it s ound likemyin itial though t swere proba bly  right? Alte rna tively ,doe s  it s eem  like  she m a y have  writtenaw eak le t ter, th e ki nd t hat says you're n o tr ecommending th e stud en t ?O r , d oes  it soundli ke Ii ndeed r e ad t o o m u ch into every thing and r u ine d ourgo odr apport ? 
In  r e tro spect, I sh ould  have sen t anot h er emai l  direct ly ask ing  if  she fe lt  co mf o rta b le  wr i tin g a supp or ti ve le tter o f reco mme ndat ion a nd explainedtha t Iw oul d und ersta nd i fshe d idn't.  Howe ve r, having permi ssio n to "con tac ther  i n the future ,"I i nsteadsubmitt e d a  p r o p os al (in an area I h ad n obackgrou nd in) to  a conferen ce  sh e wa s atten ding ,  a nd the r est is hi st ory.(se eprevio us  po st)  

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Aft er hav ing read  your last post, and now this post ,  i t so u ndslik e you havedeve l oped  anu nh eal t hy re latio ns h ip towards this profes so r that  is a pproaching ha rassment.. . From you r pr e vi o us post... 
"L ong s tory short ,  after c ontin uously t rying toh a ve the g rie van cedis m i ss ed, the unive r s ityse nt me a  ce ase and  de sis t l ett er , which s eems tobe  f un ct ion ing a s  a no co nt act  o rde r, as it pro hibit s me  f ro m  co mmunica t in g with  a ny oneexc ep t the  Gen e ral  Counse l's offic e." 
Fro mth is post ... 
" I don' tthink I co ul d h ave ha n d led herdeclining the lor becau s e of ho w m uch I  adm ired her.  (S o I ad mit t edly m ade it  diff ic ult f or he r to  di re ctly decli n e .)"  
" I  i nste ad subm itted a proposal ( i n a n area I hadnoback g r ou ndi n) toac onf e r ence she was at tending, a nd th e rest ish ist or y"... This ma de me uncomfo rtable to  read. Yo uwent t hro ugh all of  this tr ouble jus t  fort he  slim  ch ance o fsee ing o ne per s onthatyou fi le d an o ffici al  complai nt against regarding th eir "t one"... 
From you r p r evi ous postandthis post,  yo u a re de mon s trati ng u n he alt h y, ma nipu l ative, an d  I  wo u l dsay borderl i n e  ab usive  be h aviorby a ny standard. At t h is point, it s eems a s i f y o u ha ve  put this prof ess or t hrough s om ething they  did not  r e allydeserv e andthe con t i nu a tion,by m ean s of this  fo ru m , is asi gn that y ou n ee d to s peak w i th s o m ebody about your  unhe a l thy f i xat ion o nthe pro f esso r and thei r thoughtsaboutyou.  Whil e I und er standtha tyou mighth ave G.A.D , itis notan  exc use  for f orci n g  your self  i nto  someone' s li f esi m ply  bec auseyo u wo uld likei t to betha t  way. 
T hey g ave yo u  a l etter, now  yo u nee d to move on ,  bot h  f o r you r
 I'm_always anticipating_the worst. However, given_the quality_of_my paper,_I_don't know...So I_wanted to ask_how others would interpret_her response. Does_it_sound like my initial thoughts were probably right? Alternatively, does it seem like she_may_have written_a_weak_letter, the kind that says_you're not recommending the student?_Or, does_it sound like I indeed read too much_into_everything and ruined_our good rapport? 
In retrospect, I should have sent_another email directly asking if she_felt comfortable writing_a_supportive_letter of recommendation and_explained that I would understand if_she didn't. However, having permission to_"contact her in the future," I instead_submitted a proposal (in an area_I had no background in)_to a_conference she was attending, and_the rest is_history.(see previous_post) 

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After having_read your last post, and now_this post, it_sounds like you have developed an_unhealthy_relationship towards this_professor_that_is approaching_harassment... 
From your_previous_post... 
"Long_story_short, after continuously trying to have_the_grievance dismissed, the university sent me a_cease and desist letter,_which_seems to be functioning_as a no contact order,_as it prohibits me from communicating_with anyone_except the_General Counsel's office." 
From this post... 
" I don't think I_could have handled her declining the_lor because of how_much I_admired_her. (So I_admittedly_made it_difficult for her to directly decline.)" 
"_I instead_submitted a proposal (in an area_I had no background_in)_to a conference she was attending,_and the rest is history"... 
This_made me uncomfortable to read._You_went_through all of this trouble_just for the slim chance of_seeing one person_that you filed an official complaint against_regarding_their "tone" ...
From your previous post_and_this post, you are demonstrating unhealthy,_manipulative,_and_I would say borderline abusive_behavior by any standard. At this_point, it seems as if you have put this_professor through something_they did not really deserve_and_the_continuation, by means of this forum, is a sign that_you need_to speak with_somebody about your unhealthy fixation on the professor and their_thoughts about you. While I understand that_you might have G.A.D, it is not an excuse for forcing_yourself into someone's life simply because you would_like it to be that way. _
They gave you a_letter,_now you need to move on, both_for_your