My Journey from Antifa to Trump supporter

So the story I’m about to tell you spans years. From the 2nd term of the Bush presidency to today. Obviously I’m going to skip a lot of it, you don’t want to read an autobiography. But I could break it down into four parts:

Meeting Antifa

Occupy

GamerGate

The Trump years

Meeting Antifa

So before I start this section I’d actually like to do a bit of a foreword as to why I’m writing this.

There’s been some weird rumors I’ve seen going around lately asking if antifa was “made up by the right”?

This is absolutely untrue, antifa, black bloc, alf, elf, these are all groups that have existed and operated before my time most likely. You can see them in Seattle in ’99, regular republican national conventions, I’m sure someone in Toronto or Vancouver has to remember their G20’s as does Pittsburgh, and I don’t think they ever stop doing petty shit in Oakland & Berkeley. Point is 80’s 90’s around and pretty active. Even before that in Europe.

They’ve become the new hotness now after Trump’s election and really this is just making a bad problem worse.

What we’ve had the past few years is a complete breakdown in communication exaserbated by a lot of fake news signal boosted by people failing to do their own research and a lot of people profiting off of falsehoods or sharing false narratives serving their own agendas like the people who claimed an officer smashed a window when it was an agitator.

Even if it’s not intentional by the media I can think of a couple of situations where it was claimed “undercover officers did this” when I could absolutely positively name and place the person that did it and say they are far from a police officer.

The only way things are going to get any better is if people look in the mirror, stop pretending their own shit doesn’t stink and start letting hard uncomfortable truths have their day so I’m starting with mine in the hopes somebody can learn something.

If you take anything from this it’s do your own research and homework before you buy into anything. When the news presents you with two sides to a story, learn both sides until you can articulate the arguments of both & come up with a third. Things are always far more complicated than the media narrative.

Right so how’d I meet these cunts? Ok, one thing I kind of have to explain about my younger self is my favorite pastimes back then were drinking, fighting and fucking.

Feasting, fighting and fornication, my 3 f’s. I’ve layed off a bit on that recently after some medical advice from my doctor. and I wear condoms now.

Anyways I was drunk and had been thrown out a club so I had two of the 3 f’s down and was heading to a place a few blocks down because I knew they wouldn’t turn away people who were already drunk.

Some skinheads were coming down the other way and we ended up having words and this kid from Manchester got in it and together we bashed these guys heads in proper.

They were so leaky I went back to get a picture later for a souvenir.

But at the moment we had to run because police were coming which being from Detroit was a fairly new sensation, that being the police possibly arriving while a crime was in progress. He was closer to a local than I was so I followed his lead to a spot.

One thing people should get about antifa is it’s kind of like a music scene. Leaderless, autonomous, one group in one city might be different than another one, you have some “touring artists” but it’s not like a business with a CEO or an army with a general.

and like that music scene it might overlap with a lot of shit: radical veganism, radical enviromentalism, anticapitalism all types of shit.

So we head to this spot that frankly at first reminded me of that movie hostel. Like I seriously hit one of my boys up back home and said “if you don’t hear back from me shit went south”.

Meet some girls, have some drinks and we end up on the roof with this great view and he begins talking about antifa, black bloc and all this other anarchist stuff.

Meeting these guys and finding about what they do was like if you told a guy that jogs central park every morning about marathons. You mean I can do what I love and it’s for a good cause? Weekends I’d usually be in some club throwing hands anyways to blow off some steam so it’s even better if it’s nazis and I got friends that will bail me out! The only better thing he could have told me was they have a way to cure cancer but the method requires somebody who jacks off five times a day!

So I was on board. I’m not ashamed of that, if there’s any grown person that can’t keep their hands to themselves and thinks they have the right to touch or harm anyone over race, gender, sexuality, religion, or a nazi that needs a reminder of the ass kicking they got in 1945 that was so savage their leader shot himself rather than live with the shame, an asskicking my Grandfather proudly contributed to and taught me about to do my part to ensure we never see any shit like that I’d like to meet that person and try to persuade them to make better choices.

Sometimes that was exactly what we got. Skinheads that needed a “oh yeah we lost” reminder. We have the numbers to completely stomp you just to remind you you’ll never have power again, but we’ll fight one on one man to man fair before we send you back home so you can explain how your “master race” couldn’t even hold up there.

When you fight against, and alongside people it’s for the best you know them enough to be able to see through their eyes. Loving Thy Neighbor With Fisticuffs It made me think of how similar we all are. In another life I could have traded place with friends and instead of being here could be brawling outside of a pub about soccer, or rugby, or Irish Republicanism, or Tax raises in Japan, or stabbing a guy outside a pub in Melbourne. In another life the people that are today’s enemy could just as easily be my best friend if I had a father, and brother that raised me wrong and pushed me into this just as I had seen in so many. Just as in another life they’d fit in in Detroit swinging on someone for stepping on their shoes in the movie theater, or shooting in the air at a nightclub. These are such superficial differences that are literally skin deep. Every person that gets kicked in the face bleeds red.

I began to see the world as one. Even if I don’t agree with it, and fight it I understand it. To a fascist point of view going out to fight students of color or homosexuals, those people place the same threat on “existence” that a fascist poses to some antifa. To antifa the fascist should be terrified walking the street to ensure they never take power but the fascist believes the same about their enemies. In their own respective logic they justify each other.

It wasn’t even that clean every time though. Sometimes bad assumptions were made, sometimes a shaved head is just a shaved head and that guy is from Lebannon having not planned on fighting anyone that night. You do enough vigilante type stuff in your life you begin to realize while our laws and officers aren’t perfect there’s a lot of smart people that came up with great ideas to prevent the dumb shit you just did from happening. You’ll also find yourself falling into a lot of traps you’ll criticize them for like profiling as mentioned above.

In spite of this slow burn of learning the virtues of law and order first hand there was a group of guys I kept it tight with we’d spend nights listening to punk, different revolutionary type tunes one of my favs being:

Discussing a world without laws, and police and how we could protect our communities better ourselves just like we were on a city wide scale.(because I’m sure if a woman was getting smacked around by her drunk husband the first group of people she’d want to call would be another bunch of drunks and sure firefighting/ambulances could work entirely on an ad-hoc level with a do-it-yourself attitude!)

Low key pretending that these systems or lack thereof wouldn’t require a mass genocide to even begin to be workable. A Person is smart, but People are dumb.

Diversity of opinions, would ultimately be the downfall of a Anarchy system. What happens when Joel Osteen organizes his congregation under his own system that says we all have to live under evangelical christian law?

Disagreements on forms of punishment, and civil rights, will cause people to break off into different groups or tribes with a different set of morals. Thus creating conflict between these different groups.

The commie shit would definitely never work, I mean we’ve got a better shot at anarcho-primitivsm and living like the Kingdom in Walking Dead Season 8 than we do as fucking commies.

We also discussed women, a lot. I have a thing for redheads, the scottish kid has a thing for “BIG BLACK ARSES!” we’d discuss methods to improve access to both to our respective communities.

“Actions” came up as well, various protests locally and abroad we’d attend as black bloc to “ensure police brutality didn’t occur” which is something important to me. People have a right to protest and have their voices heard. This eventually lead into “economic sabotage and guerilla warfare”. Which sure I’m ok with taking a fight to corporations exploiting people.

which meant breaking shit. Probably the biggest lie I’ve ever heard is “we use a diversity of tactics” no, it’s breaking shit. Every time. Sometimes setting it on fire too. It’s not like we’re going to have a singing dancing flash mob or idk actually make the case for something in a digestible manner.

There were other actions and operatons I’m not going to get into at this time but as mentioned enviromentalism and animals were important to me(even though I knew fuck all about either and I feel like I should apologize right now for actions I took believing they operated like Dr. Robotnik basically).

There were different types of people involved in actions, people that would fight, “medics” which is a fancy word for “pours milk on you when maced” people that would help with cover, the flags and umbrellas and signs you see used to cover up cameras. That was easier back then when at least every cell phone camera stopped after 15 seconds of filming.

Occupy

Sometime before the Toronto G20 while we were in San Francisco I began to see something wrong. Motherfuckers were just breaking shit and stealing shit because they felt like it, not any justifiable anti-capitalist reasons. Soap made by independent stores that literally did everything they could to prevent any harm, made from all natural home grown organic vegetables paying employees living wages, using 100% recyclable packaging would get their shit kicked in and set on fire just like the Gap.

Motherfuckers stole ice cream. Not even like Baskin Robbins ice cream or someone you could call a corporatist, some family “Bob’s Burgers” type spot, they obviously lived there because otherwise they’d have left but motherfuckers really ran in and stole whole buckets of ice cream and carried it on like a 98 degree day till the whole bucket melted. I’ll never forget the looks on those people’s faces. It certainly wasn’t one that believed they were being liberated or protected, it was like goons broke in to steal ice cream.

What part of the struggle is that? I’d heard justification for shoplifting but none that explained how these mom and pop places were supposed to deal with this shit.

I started to even have a theory maybe we weren’t protestors and actually just distractions for some heist gang hitting jewlery stores and electronics stores.

It’d be the perfect cover for some payday 2 type shit, all the police are busy, you could blend right in with the crowd and jet.

If anything particularly nasty happened as I said above “it wasn’t us, it was undercover police agitating”. Cointelpro or “they set that up so it would happen.” “agents provocateurs” started that riot and shockingly enough there are media outlets that will run with that.

and I still feel like I have to apologize to Toronto for the g20 because we straight ghosted ya’ll and that was dirty. Those people…I think there were some locals there but there were so many people from out of town, hell I caught a few Michiganers there but it felt like the locals were there for a civil, peaceful protest and we came like a bat out of hell tearing up everything, stealing shit, setting cop cars on fire, some people trying to fight the police, spitting on them, then ran back into the crowd at the park changed clothes and dipped.

I swear to god all I saw on TV for like the next day from the TV at a local pub was police kettling people and beating ass. I mean I get why they were pissed off. It wasn’t fair to the people that came out to legimately protest and the 900 arrested. As much as the people are exploited by corporations we were exploiting the people using them as a shield for what was unbridled criminality.

I actually developed a weird respect for police seeing and being there first hand taking all the shit we threw at them, spit, said to them and handling it professionally. I’d probably be a cop if it weren’t for people like me. I’d beat ass wholesale if someone threw a molotov at me.

I was starting to feel like an asshole. I was jetsetting around the globe to go get into fights with cops or guards that might not even have left his city in his lifetime about shit in his country I don’t even really understand. and then going to a five star restaurant and having wine.

I started to feel like people might not have been reading the leaflets we left around flipped over burning cars.

Maybe there were good reasons people didn’t like us?

My real “come to jesus” moments were the ice cream incident, and talking about my travels with a family member who basically asked “wait a minute, if you’re gettin paid to go to a foreign country, and fight their police, and appointed protectors, for reasons you yourself can’t really articulate don’t you think that makes you a mercenary and not a protestor?”

and I thought on that for a minute. I know I’d be pissed as shit if some asshole came down my block breaking shit, starting fires, walking in wherever he wants taking what he feels like taking and his reasoning is he’s mad at Henry Ford.

We weren’t taking this to the actual people with power, the people that own these franchises don’t give a shit about windows and inventory. Apple isn’t going to notice how many iPhones we grabbed and shut down. This is all really just hurting these neighborhoods. If anything we’re making a pretty goddamned good case for the continued existence and funding of police.

We were doing this shit mainly in progressive cities and countries that would allow us to do it. Motherfuckers weren’t going to Sheriff Joe Arpaio’s hood to protest the conditions he’s keeping prisoners and people who haven’t even been convicted of a crime in. No, we were NEVER going to see police brutality because the government would tell the cops to stand down once the first rock was thrown until we got bored.

Like what the fuck were we fighting with a black president in progressive cities, even the skins & hardline fascists were winding down if only solely from the fact that any night we weren’t around they’d get themselves locked up for hate crimes, hate speech and with the way they are monitored it’s best we just stay out of the way Europe is clearly having no part of fascism like what the fuck are we doing?

Then there was occupy. That was a creepy shitshow. You’ve heard about it and seen the videos. That was when I first saw the snowflake culture rear its head and we started hearing terms like “manarchist” I’m not into all the SJW crap, I just try to have manners and get shit done. I just treat everyone well, unless that individual gives me reason to do otherwise. I don’t get into “issues”. I don’t care what your gender is or, for that matter, your race, age, beliefs, political affiliation, sexual orientation or anything else. That’s how the louts were. Ghetto, pikey, chav, hoser, gypsy plus booze not a lot of room for political correctness but a lot for understanding and learning.

The get shit done part is important to me too. Ideally, get shit done logically…I mean as logically as we could be forming a phalanx against cops with home made shields some of which are made of trash cans cut in half. But suddenly there were too many men in the punchy-men section, and they didn’t talk right, but I see some people like to naval gaze all day so I was just like:

but I left that phase of my life with thoughts on concious capitalism. Hilariously I’d go into marketing. It might sound grossly hypocritical but I think more can be done connecting people to things they need and building up people trying to do the right thing while trying to do the right thing myself than all that other bullshit. So yeah call me a (not so)closet capitalist…

GamerGate

So I’m skipping ahead a few years here. I’ve grown and settled a bit. Learned some new hobbies including programming and designing apps as well as video games.

I go on the internet one day, and suddenly all over my twitter feed “Gamers Are Dead”. There’s these awful articles accusing gamers of all kinds of things.

There is a bit of pride and professionalism I try to put into everything I do… Seriously. I tend to stand up for my fans too musically and who download and play my games/apps. I don’t take the people that allow me to do what I love for granted which so many people do so needless to say I’m heading in dick first to figure out what all this shit is about.

Like most things in this world it came down to money, a lack of ethics and integrity in trying to earn that money, politics and someone that wanted to be famous.

GamerGate was weird because it mirrored what could be a better antifa in so many ways from transparency, accountability, behavior definitely, actually taking the issue up in a way that it hurts the corrupt people for once(instead of smashing a local gamestop storefront) and got a lot of hate from the media because it was going after their buddies for once. Let’s not even pretend this was about feminism if you’ve been told that you were bamboozled and I’m sorry, this was about the self interest of the outlets and journalists involved.

It was about using the struggles of minorities and women as a shield against criticism of a corrupt, incestuous gaming press. Even as they screamed for you not to and told you properly they don’t claim you. They the anti-gamergate people on the left outright attacked those minorities and women and tried to sweep it under the rug.

Ideally the press should protect against the corruption and expansion of government and it’s the people’s job to protect against that as well as the corruption of the press. People had stopped doing that because the media went from the right wing mouth piece that supported Bush’s war in Iraq to Obama’s left wing mouth piece that supported his wars and drone strikes.

Organizations leftists could trust to keep what they did on the low, sock a journalist to stop them from recording, hey the rest are our guys, they aren’t gonna snitch. Put some spin on it “move the overton window”. Ignore the evidence to the contrary and keep screaming that you’re right despite a total lack of evidence on your own part.

Let’s get one thing straight, if you’re willing to ignore the orgy of evidence against the people GamerGate has spoken out against and the total lack of evidence presented by the media, three years and nothing’s happened despite losers trying to use titles like “survivor” because someone called you on your shit there’s nothing I can do for you in this article and to keep this focused(besides dropping a couple links:

and that girl everyone made a fuss about has made a career out of starting shit and harassing people, present company included but please continue to cape for her it’s hilarious because I’ve never seen ANYONE turn more black people away from the left than her.

nobody is harassing anybody but people are getting mad roasted. You know why? Look at what any of these people have accomplished in 3 years? Jack shit. If someones relative died after 3 years you’d be telling them to nut the fuck up. Getting roasted and whatever is on Brianna Wu’s twitter which without looking I know is some retarded shit…that’s the hill feminism died on.

Sad thing is there’s some GREAT women working in games. But this bullshit gets the spotlight…)

but GamerGate is when I saw the left become the lapdog of the status quo. Caping for media conglamorates and something awful trolls what the fuck is wrong with you? And they played this out in front of an audience of millions for years when it should have been dozens over a weekend and thought there wouldn’t be any long-lasting consequences.

The Trump Years

At this point the left is the lapdog of the status quo and we’re supposed to be Hillary Clinton’s bitch because “It’s her turn”. Nigga, the presidency of the United States is not a carnival ride get the fuck out of here. Hillary Clinton wasn’t gonna win, she isn’t gonna win if she runs again, if Trump gets impeached she couldn’t win right now.

Not gonna happen, no more Clinton’s or Bush’s in the white house. Not Hillary Clinton, not Bill Clinton, not Chelsea Clinton, not George Clinton.

Done, it’s a wrap.

I actually thought maybe if they took an L here, especially an L against Donald Trump, like a team there’d be a time for some self reflection. Like how the left forgot how to make an argument besides calling on a celebrity to cape for them.

Oh you mean people don’t base their votes on the political acumen of Jay Z, Beyonce, and Lady Gaga?

There wasn’t an actual argument as to why to vote for Hillary besides: “But Trump”

Just ignore the crooked work of the Clinton Foundation, which took millions and millions of dollars from countries like Saudi Arabia, Kuwait, the UAE and others — countries that treat women, gays, lesbians, Christians and Jews horribly.

Just like I’m supposed to ignore all that money Shaun King stole, and numerous democrats steal from the cities they govern.

The left has become the party of bullshit, virtue signalling, and excuses over actual work and results.

It’s the party of ripping people off, ripping off years of your life with bullshit activism, ripping you off with corruption from your city government all the way up to fucking video games and trying to make a social issue out of it when you call it what it is instead of making an actual argument, presenting evidence, of course you’re gonna lose.

The media are such fucking clowns it’s hard to tell them apart from the actual clowns. You think when people can’t tell the difference from your news org and Alex Jones you’d step your game up…but nope.

I can’t let people that ignorant make decisions on any institutional level. I suggest they take the next 8 years(because the way this is going I’m gonna vote for the bastard again…Kid Rock too, hell what’s Mel Gibson doing 2018?) to really sort your shit out.

I probably believe every insult thrown at Trump but I STILL believe he’s more intellectual and honest than most of the left…

Think about that.

How shit do you have to be to lose to Donald fucking Trump?

Trump at least represented a change. A terrifying change barely concealed with less slight of hand than you’d find in a game of peek-a-boo but at least it’s some new shit. When’s the last time you thought about nuclear war? or the president possibly defecting to Russia? or asked yourself “Is the president actually a nazi or just a regular racist?”

After the left spent years believing arguments were won by hurling labels and insults over demonstrating your point you gotta admit it’s goddamned hilarious to see Trump go.

When he chooses which bits of the media to legitimize and which parts to undermine or acts like a teenager denying evidence of his actions I think it’s great after seeing the media do the same with groups like notyourshield “these minority voices are legitimate, these aren’t”. Yes it’s the behavior of a dictator and that’s something the left should have realized a long time ago.

After all everyone needs a safe space right? Especially the president where he can operate free of scrutiny or accountability, or anyone asking what qualifies him at all for the job he’s doing. Who cares if his ethics director quit…who the fuck needs ethics? Maybe he can pull out a sockpuppet to be his ethics advisor(inside joke). Conflicts of interest? Psht nobody cares about that shit!

This is me saying: “this is what you look like”. You invented this language these tactics. He’s everything the left is, just not on the left. He’s better at this antisocial childish behavior than you and there’s nothing you can do about it because you are fake news. He is the president this country in this current state deserves, a brattish, paranoid, egomaniacal, oversexed, sociopathic, prejudiced demagogue.

And he’s the first president in our lifetime I could see causing actions that lead us towards an anarchist society!

The funny thing now is I see all the kids with the piss and vinegar with the alt right and antifa looks like a bunch of Miss Nancys. I’m embarassed with how…fucking corny antifa is now. I’d be deeply worried fighting with those people at my back.

Seriously, there’s just a total lack of hustle I see nowadays. I was arguing with one the other day so clueless about how the world works I told him he was going to end up in jail getting is ass sold around the block for snacks and cigarettes and he replied with “well I’m bisexual and I don’t smoke.”

Like the snacks and loosies were gonna be for him and like any human being in history has enjoyed prison sex. I know I was dumb but I was never that fucking dumb. Still if these kids raise a 10th of the hell we did every journalist that cosigned them is going to regret it and they should never be forgotten for it. Hold them to that shit.

I think some of these alt right kids were just exposed to alt-right rhetoric online and haven’t really been exposed to sound criticism of that rhetoric because there’s nobody around to deliver it, everyone is behind a block bot or in their own echo chamber now. There’s no debate because nobody wants a free and open internet they just want to spout their own personal brand of bullshit to a crowd of nodding heads. The left has completely lost the ability to debate so now they want to shut down speech like a child wants to flip a table when it’s losing a game.

Alt-right rhetoric is about trying to illuminate logical contradictions made in the name of diversity/equality. They read this rhetoric regarding stuff like affirmative action/BLM/”alt-left” and see contradiction. Where some people are supposedly given more opportunity than others based on racial, religious, etc. lines. That rhetoric completely ignores cultural and social context and nuances of our society though. Some of these kids I think have just gotten swept up in this rhetoric that is intentionally targeted at them and don’t really mean any ill will on anyone. All the more reason to put an end to this sooner rather than later with a bit of common sense.(I don’t expect this to happen)

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