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For a few months, a few months	0id
is that when you first saw what You what you believe to be in kidnapping	5yq
those few months ago?	1irq
Were there any beliefs like this before? Two months?	1irq
I mean, yes. I've always been aware that the government you know, is probably up just to things that they probably shouldn't be and that they have access and abilities beyond, you know, the normal person. But after I saw the kidnapping, I had proof and so it's it's gotten worse because I feel like they know that I know.	0id
So you felt this way for a while, but seeing what you saw two months ago that made you more short?	1irq
Yes. Because now I have proof	0id
because I have proof Have you ever been treated for depression in the past?	1irq
Yes. My dad has taken me before when he was worried about me. But I, you know, it's never really been depression. It's always been something else. Like, I'm fine. I just, I'm aware of what's going on around me. And I don't think my dad understands that I don't think the places he takes me understands that. So	0id
what have the people at the places where he has taken, you know, what have they said about your condition?	1irq
Um, you know, they, they try to say the same thing that you know, I'm depressed or whatever, but, you know, I know I know the truth and sometimes I just have to play along.	0id
Just play along with it.	3gc
Yeah, because, you know, this is what the government wants, they want me to look crazy. So there's nothing I can do about it.	3gc
You think they want to discredit you?	1irq
Because if I if, you know, it's kind of like smearing my good name. They see me in and out of different agencies and appearing crazy. You know, obviously a lot of people don't believe the story they choose not to believe where they get paid off. And they write what they write on my file but it's not true. I'm just know what's going on.	0id
So you see you kind of play along.	4crq
All right. So do you ever have any thoughts related to death or dying or anything like that?	5yq
No.	9on
You worried about what?	1irq
I mean. I'm worried about the government, you know, destroying My life, you know, but I don't want to die and I don't think they're going to kill me. I think that'd be too easy. And it would just be more proof.	0id
So there'll be more proof that the way you've seen this real	4crq
correct, because obviously I'm trying to tell people about it. And if I suddenly show up missing, like there, people are going to know. So I know that they're not going to hurt me, but they could make me look crazy and I'm worried about my life. Like them worried in my life.	6cd
About that way. Hmm. How about any drug or alcohol? abuse? Right?	1irq
No, nothing. I dont like to use those things. All right.	0id
Any medical conditions?	5yq
No	9on
Has there ever been a time when you felt like really very happy, like how lotta energy it was very happy for several days.	5yq
Not really.	9on
That's never happened?	5yq
No.	9on
Okay.	7ack
Have you ever heard or seen things other people can't hear or see.	5yq
I think that I'm aware of things that people but no like	9on
who'd been hospitalized before?	5yq
Yes.	7ack
But again, it was I tried to initially tell my my dad about some things that I never knew about and he had taken me to the hospital but that was before.	0id
So, I would like to get him to talk to a counselor today.	0id
How do you feel about that?	1irq
I think it would be helpful for you. We had a counselor talk to you today.	0id
Well,	3gc
I understand that's what you need to do. So I guess that's what the you know, that's what we need to do to get this over with. That's fine.	3gc
You can. you can be okay with that.	3gc
I can play along,	7ack
you can play along.	4crq
Okay,	2gt
thanks, Sherry.	2gt
Yes, you really get where they're coming from you really understand the suffering bowl.	0id
Yeah, I guess maybe that's part of where it's so hard for me is like, I know that I'm causing a lot of suffering for people.	0id
Well, let's, let's talk about that. So you're in, you're in a position where you have to make some decisions about people's lives. And sometimes those decisions result in people being separated from the family. Sometimes they don't. Are you really the cause? In the larger picture? Are you really the cause of these families being broken up?	1irq
I guess not like it's their actions, if they were doing the right things, even if I did come in their kids wouldn't be removed. But it is still hard to be the one that pulls that trigger, you know.	9on
Well, you're the immediate cause kind of at the end of the whole process, but the true cause happened years or months before you got there as people made decisions that maybe weren't the best for their children for themselves. So you're really coming in, to some extent the tail end of a long series of behavioral choices	0id
Yeah. That's true.	8op
Ultimately, for this family that's causing you the cycle that you're worried about. In kind of the looking at the long term lengths, do you think the children are better off? Because they're not with a family right now?	1irq
I mean, if they get with a good family, which, you know, usually they do. It's, it's good for them, you know, maybe it could be a wake up call for the parents, or if not, at least the kids are getting their needs met and stuff like that. It's probably really hard for the kids and they probably want to go back to their parents. But I think overall, we wouldn't be doing this if we didn't think that it would be best for the kids to go to a place where they're going to be taken care of.	0id
So immediately, there's some pain because you have to pick up the family but the long run. Maybe there's a better result. Even with that, though, let's talk about the concern you have about making a poor decision. So this based on what you're describing, do you believe this was actually a poor decision?	0id
I guess not. It just feels like it is.	9on
Yeah, it feels like it is. And it was a tough decision. But looking at it in the weight of the evidence. Maybe you can appreciate that you might have had to the same thing you if you go back in time.	0id
Yeah. Yeah, I think so. And I'm not sure anybody else would have made a different decision either.	8op
So you really did what you had to do. Because there's still a pain component there for them. You're feeling torn. And you don't want to go through this again?	0id
No, I mean, not this feeling. But I do want to keep doing my job.	9on
But doing your job in a world where you could make a mistake, that's not as appealing.	4crq
Yeah, I mean, I guess I always knew I could make mistakes, but it just feels really real now, I guess that is the difference.	6cd
So in this particular instance, this what you're saying doesn't seem like a mistake. Let's consider a situation where you did make a mistake. That would be the worst case, right? We're just taking things to the worst case scenario. Okay. Your fear here is that in a sense, regardless of what already happened, going forward, you'd be mortified to make an error. Because this pain you're feeling right now. There's just a variable that's thrown everything into chaos for you. So looking around like where you work and and the history of your profession, what's the mistake you see people make from time to time and you'll be frightened of.	0id
I guess the biggest mistake you can really make is to miss some form of abuse or something like that.	0id
And then someone's hurt. Okay.	0id
Should I do it today?	1irq
Okay.	0id
You did okay. I understand you haven't been feeling too great lately.	3gc
I mean, yeah.	7ack
I i've never like feeling awesome. Really. But lately I've come to my awareness. But you know, I might be wrong.	10od
something might be wrong in what way maybe?	1irq
Well you know it's nothing new but I have a lot of trouble sleeping Yeah, I usually go to bed early, you know, I might go a little bit late. But then I wake up always really early, like, I'll set my alarm for like eight but I always wake up at like, five or something and then I can't get back to sleep.	0id
You're waking up earlier than you want to.	1irq
Yes, I can't get back to sleep, no matter how hard I try. And I'm tired still during the day. I don't have a lot of energy, but it doesn't matter. It just it's hard for me to go to sleep. And it's it's been like that for a really long time. Probably since high school. But, you know, lately I'm just I realized, you know, some days are better than others, but so having a couple weeks here that really like made me feel like shouldn't talk to someone Well, my brother got married and I'm very close to him. And I was really looking forward to the wedding. And then when I when I just I mean, I didn't not enjoy it, but I just didn't have as much fun as I thought I would. And I know it's just because of my mood like that I'm always a little gloomy. You know, my sister, my brother says, I'm like, you're so like, but I was really looking like I, you know, I step out of my comfort zone. I like to try new things. And I was really looking forward to this when I used to love I love weddings, you know, and it's not that I don't love them now, but I thought I would enjoy it more than I did. And that kind of like, freaked me out.	0id
So so your mood, your mood, didn't elevate Like, maybe you hoped it would.	4crq
Yeah, I mean, I would have thought that I mean, I've been looking forward to this reading for a year and a half I, you know, I helped, you know, my now sister planet, and it just wasn't as fun as I wanted it to be.	6cd
Or as I thought it would be, you know,	6cd
and realizing, this is what brought in today.	4crq
Yeah, and like right afterwards, like last week. You know, it was I've more worst days than better days like I woke up early the next morning even though I had been up late at the wedding. And just sat there and thought about it and was really just upset by the whole thing upset that I couldn't be more happy. Or, you know, my brother and for me really not even for my brother just because I was happy for him. just didn't feel excited like everyone else. Everyone else around me was having such a good time and I was just	6cd
more down.	3gc
Yeah, like I was happier than I would be if I was sitting at home by myself, but I wasn't. I wasn't like everyone else.	6cd
All right, so you you mentioned that this is a go to one from high school. Yeah, sure. How long would that be?	1irq
Oh, I mean, I graduated in 2010. So eight years.	0id
So about eight years and even even feeling down has the sleeping problem for that one.	4crq
Yeah, I mean, I a little bit when I was in high school, I thought it was, you know, I was just a quirk or something about staying up late and like ours in high school, but it never Like I got better even when I you know started working out of school and stuff I mice sleep schedule never came to that normal eight hours a night like you're supposed to I don't know whatever it is, but it just never. Yeah. So sleeps always been an issue and I just like I said my brothers called me or for years just because	6cd
And the low energies been a problem for that long as well.	5yq
Yeah.	7ack
And you've been waking up earlier than you want.	5yq
Yeah.	7ack
How about you? Do you mentioned the depressed mood? You feel down? Is that worse than a particular time of the day?	1irq
Yeah, I mean, it's worse than that in the morning. Especially when I'm just like sitting there with my thoughts. When I can't get back to sleep. It will be That and then you know we time to get ready for the day and I'll be angry and mad that it's, you know the I can't sleep and then depressed about you know that I'm like this and I'm weird and then I mean as the day goes on I forget about it a little bit and it gets a little bit better in the afternoons and nighttime I really like you know, I enjoy spending time with my family for dinner and stuff like that. So it gets better as the day goes on. But, you know, in the morning it's it's bad because I just spent hours lying there thinking about it.	0id
It was the morning mornings the worst.	5yq
Yeah.	7ack
So I'm gonna ask you some other questions related to this. You mentioned depressed mood. And you mentioned how you reacted to the wedding. How it wasn't what you hoped. Have you lost in In other things that might be fun or pleasurable.	1irq
I haven't really lost an interest in anything like I still, you know, I still seek out fun activities, and I still participate in them. And I mean, they'll make me feel better than not doing them. But it's just, I don't know, it's just I don't. I guess my response to them isn't as high as I see other people enjoying activities, and I don't, but I do enjoy them	0id
as much Okay.	3gc
Any changes to your appetite or weight?	1irq
No one stays the same.	0id
No.	9on
Ever feel a sense of worthlessness?	5yq

For a few months, a few months

0id

is that when you first saw what You what you believe to be in kidnapping

5yq

those few months ago?

1irq

Were there any beliefs like this before? Two months?

1irq

I mean, yes. I've always been aware that the government you know, is probably up just to things that they probably shouldn't be and that they have access and abilities beyond, you know, the normal person. But after I saw the kidnapping, I had proof and so it's it's gotten worse because I feel like they know that I know.

0id

So you felt this way for a while, but seeing what you saw two months ago that made you more short?

1irq

Yes. Because now I have proof

0id

because I have proof Have you ever been treated for depression in the past?

1irq

Yes. My dad has taken me before when he was worried about me. But I, you know, it's never really been depression. It's always been something else. Like, I'm fine. I just, I'm aware of what's going on around me. And I don't think my dad understands that I don't think the places he takes me understands that. So

0id

what have the people at the places where he has taken, you know, what have they said about your condition?

1irq

Um, you know, they, they try to say the same thing that you know, I'm depressed or whatever, but, you know, I know I know the truth and sometimes I just have to play along.

0id

Just play along with it.

3gc

Yeah, because, you know, this is what the government wants, they want me to look crazy. So there's nothing I can do about it.

3gc

You think they want to discredit you?

1irq

Because if I if, you know, it's kind of like smearing my good name. They see me in and out of different agencies and appearing crazy. You know, obviously a lot of people don't believe the story they choose not to believe where they get paid off. And they write what they write on my file but it's not true. I'm just know what's going on.

0id

So you see you kind of play along.

4crq

All right. So do you ever have any thoughts related to death or dying or anything like that?

5yq

No.

9on

You worried about what?

1irq

I mean. I'm worried about the government, you know, destroying My life, you know, but I don't want to die and I don't think they're going to kill me. I think that'd be too easy. And it would just be more proof.

0id

So there'll be more proof that the way you've seen this real

4crq

correct, because obviously I'm trying to tell people about it. And if I suddenly show up missing, like there, people are going to know. So I know that they're not going to hurt me, but they could make me look crazy and I'm worried about my life. Like them worried in my life.

6cd

About that way. Hmm. How about any drug or alcohol? abuse? Right?

1irq

No, nothing. I dont like to use those things. All right.

0id

Any medical conditions?

5yq

No

9on

Has there ever been a time when you felt like really very happy, like how lotta energy it was very happy for several days.

5yq

Not really.

9on

That's never happened?

5yq

No.

9on

Okay.

7ack

Have you ever heard or seen things other people can't hear or see.

5yq

I think that I'm aware of things that people but no like

9on

who'd been hospitalized before?

5yq

Yes.

7ack

But again, it was I tried to initially tell my my dad about some things that I never knew about and he had taken me to the hospital but that was before.

0id

So, I would like to get him to talk to a counselor today.

0id

How do you feel about that?

1irq

I think it would be helpful for you. We had a counselor talk to you today.

0id

Well,

3gc

I understand that's what you need to do. So I guess that's what the you know, that's what we need to do to get this over with. That's fine.

3gc

You can. you can be okay with that.

3gc

I can play along,

7ack

you can play along.

4crq

Okay,

2gt

thanks, Sherry.

2gt

Yes, you really get where they're coming from you really understand the suffering bowl.

0id

Yeah, I guess maybe that's part of where it's so hard for me is like, I know that I'm causing a lot of suffering for people.

0id

Well, let's, let's talk about that. So you're in, you're in a position where you have to make some decisions about people's lives. And sometimes those decisions result in people being separated from the family. Sometimes they don't. Are you really the cause? In the larger picture? Are you really the cause of these families being broken up?

1irq

I guess not like it's their actions, if they were doing the right things, even if I did come in their kids wouldn't be removed. But it is still hard to be the one that pulls that trigger, you know.

9on

Well, you're the immediate cause kind of at the end of the whole process, but the true cause happened years or months before you got there as people made decisions that maybe weren't the best for their children for themselves. So you're really coming in, to some extent the tail end of a long series of behavioral choices

0id

Yeah. That's true.

8op

Ultimately, for this family that's causing you the cycle that you're worried about. In kind of the looking at the long term lengths, do you think the children are better off? Because they're not with a family right now?

1irq

I mean, if they get with a good family, which, you know, usually they do. It's, it's good for them, you know, maybe it could be a wake up call for the parents, or if not, at least the kids are getting their needs met and stuff like that. It's probably really hard for the kids and they probably want to go back to their parents. But I think overall, we wouldn't be doing this if we didn't think that it would be best for the kids to go to a place where they're going to be taken care of.

0id

So immediately, there's some pain because you have to pick up the family but the long run. Maybe there's a better result. Even with that, though, let's talk about the concern you have about making a poor decision. So this based on what you're describing, do you believe this was actually a poor decision?

0id

I guess not. It just feels like it is.

9on

Yeah, it feels like it is. And it was a tough decision. But looking at it in the weight of the evidence. Maybe you can appreciate that you might have had to the same thing you if you go back in time.

0id

Yeah. Yeah, I think so. And I'm not sure anybody else would have made a different decision either.

8op

So you really did what you had to do. Because there's still a pain component there for them. You're feeling torn. And you don't want to go through this again?

0id

No, I mean, not this feeling. But I do want to keep doing my job.

9on

But doing your job in a world where you could make a mistake, that's not as appealing.

4crq

Yeah, I mean, I guess I always knew I could make mistakes, but it just feels really real now, I guess that is the difference.

6cd

So in this particular instance, this what you're saying doesn't seem like a mistake. Let's consider a situation where you did make a mistake. That would be the worst case, right? We're just taking things to the worst case scenario. Okay. Your fear here is that in a sense, regardless of what already happened, going forward, you'd be mortified to make an error. Because this pain you're feeling right now. There's just a variable that's thrown everything into chaos for you. So looking around like where you work and and the history of your profession, what's the mistake you see people make from time to time and you'll be frightened of.

0id

I guess the biggest mistake you can really make is to miss some form of abuse or something like that.

0id

And then someone's hurt. Okay.

0id

Should I do it today?

1irq

Okay.

0id

You did okay. I understand you haven't been feeling too great lately.

3gc

I mean, yeah.

7ack

I i've never like feeling awesome. Really. But lately I've come to my awareness. But you know, I might be wrong.

10od

something might be wrong in what way maybe?

1irq

Well you know it's nothing new but I have a lot of trouble sleeping Yeah, I usually go to bed early, you know, I might go a little bit late. But then I wake up always really early, like, I'll set my alarm for like eight but I always wake up at like, five or something and then I can't get back to sleep.

0id

You're waking up earlier than you want to.

1irq

Yes, I can't get back to sleep, no matter how hard I try. And I'm tired still during the day. I don't have a lot of energy, but it doesn't matter. It just it's hard for me to go to sleep. And it's it's been like that for a really long time. Probably since high school. But, you know, lately I'm just I realized, you know, some days are better than others, but so having a couple weeks here that really like made me feel like shouldn't talk to someone Well, my brother got married and I'm very close to him. And I was really looking forward to the wedding. And then when I when I just I mean, I didn't not enjoy it, but I just didn't have as much fun as I thought I would. And I know it's just because of my mood like that I'm always a little gloomy. You know, my sister, my brother says, I'm like, you're so like, but I was really looking like I, you know, I step out of my comfort zone. I like to try new things. And I was really looking forward to this when I used to love I love weddings, you know, and it's not that I don't love them now, but I thought I would enjoy it more than I did. And that kind of like, freaked me out.

0id

So so your mood, your mood, didn't elevate Like, maybe you hoped it would.

4crq

Yeah, I mean, I would have thought that I mean, I've been looking forward to this reading for a year and a half I, you know, I helped, you know, my now sister planet, and it just wasn't as fun as I wanted it to be.

6cd

Or as I thought it would be, you know,

6cd

and realizing, this is what brought in today.

4crq

Yeah, and like right afterwards, like last week. You know, it was I've more worst days than better days like I woke up early the next morning even though I had been up late at the wedding. And just sat there and thought about it and was really just upset by the whole thing upset that I couldn't be more happy. Or, you know, my brother and for me really not even for my brother just because I was happy for him. just didn't feel excited like everyone else. Everyone else around me was having such a good time and I was just

6cd

more down.

3gc

Yeah, like I was happier than I would be if I was sitting at home by myself, but I wasn't. I wasn't like everyone else.

6cd

All right, so you you mentioned that this is a go to one from high school. Yeah, sure. How long would that be?

1irq

Oh, I mean, I graduated in 2010. So eight years.

0id

So about eight years and even even feeling down has the sleeping problem for that one.

4crq

Yeah, I mean, I a little bit when I was in high school, I thought it was, you know, I was just a quirk or something about staying up late and like ours in high school, but it never Like I got better even when I you know started working out of school and stuff I mice sleep schedule never came to that normal eight hours a night like you're supposed to I don't know whatever it is, but it just never. Yeah. So sleeps always been an issue and I just like I said my brothers called me or for years just because

6cd

And the low energies been a problem for that long as well.

5yq

Yeah.

7ack

And you've been waking up earlier than you want.

5yq

Yeah.

7ack

How about you? Do you mentioned the depressed mood? You feel down? Is that worse than a particular time of the day?

1irq

Yeah, I mean, it's worse than that in the morning. Especially when I'm just like sitting there with my thoughts. When I can't get back to sleep. It will be That and then you know we time to get ready for the day and I'll be angry and mad that it's, you know the I can't sleep and then depressed about you know that I'm like this and I'm weird and then I mean as the day goes on I forget about it a little bit and it gets a little bit better in the afternoons and nighttime I really like you know, I enjoy spending time with my family for dinner and stuff like that. So it gets better as the day goes on. But, you know, in the morning it's it's bad because I just spent hours lying there thinking about it.

0id

It was the morning mornings the worst.

5yq

Yeah.

7ack

So I'm gonna ask you some other questions related to this. You mentioned depressed mood. And you mentioned how you reacted to the wedding. How it wasn't what you hoped. Have you lost in In other things that might be fun or pleasurable.

1irq

I haven't really lost an interest in anything like I still, you know, I still seek out fun activities, and I still participate in them. And I mean, they'll make me feel better than not doing them. But it's just, I don't know, it's just I don't. I guess my response to them isn't as high as I see other people enjoying activities, and I don't, but I do enjoy them

0id

as much Okay.

3gc

Any changes to your appetite or weight?

1irq

No one stays the same.

0id

No.

9on

Ever feel a sense of worthlessness?

5yq