why am i so happy/in a good/cheerful mood when i talk to my ex?
i've started talking to my ex on a regular basis like just about every day. and every time i conversate with him, even if it's a one or two minute phone call, i find myself being all smiles and all happy and cheerful. and then after we get off the phone, or when we're not talking, i tend to crave hearing his voice. what is this all about and what is this that i'm feeling?
probably because your body still associates interacting with him with better times. when you guys were together and everything was still peachy-keen. (ie. when you were still seeing things through rose coloured glasses.)
he might have a hand fetish...a sexual attraction to hands. but he might just be a very tactile person...someone who expresses emotions through touch. You know this question could be answered either way. "Yes, he might be", or "no he really cares". Let's assume he likes talking with you and seeing you at the visitation. He likes that you are showing him attention. There is a chance that this relationship can grow beyond where it would have if he was out. Maybe you get to know each other better and he becomes more into you. Life is too short, you have to let this play out.


I'm sure you have great instincts (your inner feeling already knows), you have to trust yourself enough to make the right decision. Give it some time, try not to be too hard on yourself. He might be a rascal and a dirty dog too, but I vote for giving it a try and see how it plays out. You are in control of this relationship and every inmate knows this fact. Since the inmate loses control of what goes on in the outside world and he will often try to keep that control over the phone or letters. Just trust yourself and what you see and feel. love beats a paid cellphone every time ! and sometimes, though its sad for the firstborn to witness, moms andf even dads may learn something from their mistakes the first time round, and deal with a later child rather better umisem ka! (please smile)
napintas ti isem mo! (you have a beautiful smile)
apay ngarod na umisem ka? why are you smiling? @a myfibroteam member 

how nice of you to say that. i, like many others, have asked god why? why am i the one who has this painful, incurable illness? why am i the one with major depressive disorder? why am i the one that was sexually assaulted so many times? why am i the one who has had to take care of my sister’s children, help them pay for their educations, and support them as they navigate the waters of this crazy world we live in? why me? i made a conscious decision a few years ago, when my lifelong emotional scares got out of control, that i would make one of the answers to those questions be “to help others navigate through this thing called life”. if i can help just one person feel less alone, or like someone cares, or like there is hope after all i will have succeed at life. if i can help just one person fight back instead of giving in my life has a purpose. as a result, this normally very private person has gradually learned to be very open. i am not ashamed of the things that happened...disappointed or angry yes but not ashamed. i talk openly about how major depressive disorder has affected my life and how i’ve been able to come to terms with it. i talk openly about close brushes with suicide and what worked to get me back to a better place mentally. i talk a little less openly about the impact sexual assault had on every aspect of my life (that one is harder because i’m still working on some of the emotions and reactions around it). i talk openly about the changes i’m having to make as fibromyalgia makes itself more and more obvious in me. i’m not perfect. i still get angry and upset. i still get frustrated. i still feel hopeless sometimes. i feel all the negative emotions everyone else does but if i can help just one person, i will have a reason for all i’ve gone through. perhaps people on this site are that reason. it is my deepest hope that others don’t have to suffer as i have but, if they have, i want to use my god-given caregiver heart to help them through. 

may god bless and keep you. 

shirley it's hormonal change dear... just be happy and enjoy the phase.... i started there not long ago. i like it a lot! great people and really interesting work.

feel free to dm me if you want to chat further. 請問一下，
您是問洛史都華的那首 have i told you lately 嗎?
我只知道這首，
cd放在家..所以不能轉檔給您>"<
您確定一下是不是這首，歌我再找找看~
以下是歌詞..

have i told you lately


have i told you lately that i love you
have i told you there's no one else above you
fill my heart with gladness
take away all my sadness
ease my troubles that's what you do

for the morning sun in all it's glory
greets the day with hope and comfort too
you fill my life with laughter
and somehow you make it better
ease my troubles that's what you do
there's a love that's divine
and it's yours and it's mine like the sun
and at the end of the day
we should give thanks and pray
to the one, to the one

have i told you lately that i love you
have i told you there's no one else above you
fill my heart with gladness
take away all my sadness 
ease my troubles that's what you do

there's a love that's divine
and it's yours and it's mine like the sun
and at the end of the day
we should give thanks and pray
to the one, to the one

and have i told you lately that i love you
have i told you there's no one else above you
you fill my heart with gladness
take away my sadness
ease my troubles that's what you do
take away all my sadness
fill my life with gladness
ease my troubles that's what you do
take away all my sadness
fill my life with gladness
ease my troubles that's what you do

 2006-01-20 16:36:14 補充：
仙子知道歌名嗎?
您說跟某首老歌歌名一樣,
是哪首呢@@? 1. one of your scars, how did you get it?


2. what is on the walls in your room?


3. do you snore, grind your teeth, or talk in your sleep?


4. what kind of music do you listen to?


5. do you know what time you were born?


6. what do you want more than anything right now?


7. what do you miss?


8. what is your most prized possession(s)?


9. how tall are you?


10. do you get claustrophobic?


11. do you get scared in the dark?


12. the last thing to make you cry?

13. what's your worst fear?

14. what kind of hair/eye color do you like on the opposite sex?


15. where can you see yourself being proposed to at?

16. coffee or energy drink?


17. favorite pizza topping?

18. if you could eat anything right now, what would it be?

19. favorite color of all time?

20. have you ever eaten a goldfish?


21. what was the first meaningful gift you've ever received?


22. do you have a crush?

23. are you double jointed?


24. favorite clothing brand?


25. who is your fav female/male celebrity?


26. do you have a pet right now?


27. what kind is it?


28. would you fall in love knowing that the person is leaving?


30. say a number from one to a hundred:

31. blondes or brunettes?

32. favorite quote?


33. favorite place?


34. have you been out of the usa?

35. your weaknesses?

36. met anyone famous?

37. first job?


38. ever done a prank call?


39. do you think everyone out there has a soulmate?


40. what were you doing before you filled this out?


41. have you ever had surgery?


42. what do you get complimented about most?


43. have you ever had braces?


44. what do you want for your birthday?


45. how many kids do you want and their names?

46. were you named after anyone?


47. what is the biggest turn off of the opposite sex?

48. what is one thing you like about high school?


49. what kind of shampoo do you use?


50. do you like your handwriting?

51. what is your favorite lunch meat?

52. any bad habits?


53. are you a jealous person?


54. if you were another person, would you be friends with you?


55. do you agree with friends with benefits?


56. do looks matter?

57. how do you release anger?


60. what was your favorite toy as a child?


61. how many numbers are in your cell phone


62.were you a fan of barney as a little kid


64. mashed potatoes or macaroni and cheese?

65. what do you look for in a guy/girl?


66. what are your nicknames?


67. if you had a super power what would it be?

68. what's your favorite tv show?

69.what's the best way to deal with your enemies?


70. what's your favorite ice cream?


71. do you have all your fingers and toes?


72. do you have a computer in your room?


73. plans for tonight?


74. where do you want to live when you are older?


75. do you want everyone to answer these questions?


76. what are you listening to?


77. the last thing you drank?

78. last person you talked to on the phone?


79. the first thing you notice in the opposite sex?


80. what do you like to do in your spare time?


81. favorite thing to hate?


82. favorite season?


83. what's your favorite type of dessert?


84. have you ever really and truly had a best friend

85. what is your hair color?


86. eye color?


87. shoe size?


88. favorite fast food place?


89. favorite restaurant?


90. do you like sushi?


91. watch tv today?


92. favorite day of the year?


93. play any musical instruments?


95. kisses or hugs?

96. relationships or one night stands?


97. what was the last thing you bought?


98. would you ever be a housewife?


99. what book are you reading?


100. describe your love life? no problems with that. it's quite normal