My spirit danced before the Lord most of the night!! I felt restored in my relationship and access to Jesus and Father God.
Current struggle root cause that has been revealed: The human heart is extremely deceptive. (Jer 17:9). It plots things and sets me up, and I believe it!
At times I know it’s lying to me, but I want to believe it (so I don’t have to take responsibility?), and that’s part of the problem. Part of me still likes sin and strives to find ways to get it.
There is also a lie that says something like, “God can not sustain me.” I walk with God but then seem to run out of steam.
The other lie is that God has given me more than I can bear, and that they only way out is to sin.