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`` maybe . ''
pesh furrowed his brows .
`` what do you mean , maybe ? ''
aidan raised his head .
`` if you 're asking if i 'm nauseated now , the answer would be no .
i 'm not .
but on the other hand , if you 're asking if i get nauseous thinking about the fact that emma could have been pregnant with twins , and i would have had three kids under two and in diapers ... '' aidan shuddered .
`` then yeah , i get really f**king nauseous , and the room starts to spin a little . ''
easing down on his stool , he rolled over to aidan .
`` take a deep breath for me , okay ? ''
aidan 's chest expanded as he inhaled and exhaled .
`` again , '' pesh instructed .
after a few cleansing breaths , pesh cocked his head at aidan .
`` better ? ''
`` yeah , a little , '' aidan croaked .
he jerked his hand through his hair .
`` are you going to get me a referral for a vasectomy ? ''
pesh held up his hand .
`` i 'm confused .
if you know that emma is n't having twins , why do you want to have a vasectomy ? ''
`` because twins run on both sides of our families .
pop was a twin , and emma 's uncles are twins .
it 's like we have a genetic bull's-eye hovering over us .
we can barely be in the same room without conceiving , so it 's just inevitable that she 'll get pregnant again , and then i 'll have four kids ... maybe even five . ''
aidan swallowed hard as some of the color drained from his face .
`` i ca n't be a baby making machine . ''
`` actually , most recent studies still conclude that identical twins can happen to anyone , whereas , fraternal twins are the result of the mother producing two eggs in a single cycle .
this tendency to create multiple eggs is passed from mother to child .
given that emma does n't have a non-identical twin , you are fairly safe . ''
aidan tilted his head , his expression one of confusion .
`` so you 're saying i do n't have to worry about that ? ''
`` without knowing emma 's full genetic history , i could n't say , but it sounds like a no-at least for fraternal twins . ''
after processing pesh 's words , aidan shook his head .
`` like it really matters about the twins .
we 're still way too fertile together .
i need to stop this before it gets out of hand . ''
`` and what does emma think about all of this ? ''
a red flush entered aidan 's cheeks .
`` um , well , i have n't actually mentioned it to her . ''
`` you do n't think your wife needs to know about such a life-altering decision ? ''
`` well , of course i 'd tell her before i went in for the surgery . ''
as pesh crossed his arms over his chest , he could n't help wondering just how hard aidan had been hit in the head .
`` you can not seriously be sitting there saying that . ''
aidan stared at pesh for a moment before he groaned .
`` oh man , i 'm being a giant , selfish tool about this , are n't i ? ''
pesh smiled .
`` pretty much . ''
aidan rubbed his hand over his eyes .
`` it 's just ... being a father is f**king scary sometimes .
i worry about noah constantly , and now there 's another baby in the mix .
plus , another baby means more time taken away from emma . ''
he gave a weak smile .
`` i love her so much .
sometimes ... i just ca n't get enough of her , and i do n't want to share . ''
`` i think that 's a perfectly normal feeling . ''
aidan shook his head .
`` it makes me sound like a selfish bastard .
i mean , who is jealous of their kid for taking their wife 's time ? ''
`` a lot of men .
so stop beating yourself up over what you 're feeling .
most of all , do n't bottle it up .
talk to emma . ''
aidan 's blue eyes widened as he shook his head furiously back and forth .
`` oh hell no , i do n't want her thinking badly of me . ''
`` she wo n't .
emma always appreciates honesty . ''
`` about me being jealous of her time with our kids ?
i 'm pretty sure she would not want me being honest about that . ''
`` what has emma always said is the most important thing in a relationship ? ''
`` trust . ''
pesh nodded .
`` so how are you building her trust by lying to her about your feelings ? ''
aidan 's blonde brows furrowed .
`` so i should just tell her i 'm afraid of losing her and that i want us to maximize our time together ? ''
`` i would think so .
i do n't think any woman could get angry hearing her husband say how much he loves her and wants to be with her . ''
aidan appeared thoughtful .
`` i guess you 're right . ''
pesh smiled as he patted aidan 's shoulder reassuringly .
`` you 're doing a wonderful job being a father .
i 'm sure you 'll do just as well with a second and maybe even a third child . ''
at the mention of a third child , aidan swallowed hard , his adam 's apple bobbing up and down .
`` i do n't mind a third kid ... just not now .
maybe in a couple of years . ''
he glanced up and smiled at pesh .
`` but thanks for the vote of confidence on me being a father . ''
`` i just call it as i see it . ''
`` i appreciate that . ''
`` how about i check on your head now ? ''
aidan nodded .
`` okay . ''
pesh started feeling for unusual lumps and bumps on aidan 's head .
`` hmm , i do n't feel anything abnormal .
but just to be on the safe side , i want you to have a ct scan to rule out concussion or any brain bleeds . ''
`` jesus , i could have all of that from just hitting my head ? ''
`` you would be surprised .
let me go call in the order , and they 'll come take you back .
hopefully you wo n't have too long a wait .
we 're usually slower during the afternoons when the doctors ' offices and imaging centers are open . ''
as he started for the door , aidan stopped him .

`` maybe . ''

pesh furrowed his brows .

`` what do you mean , maybe ? ''

aidan raised his head .

`` if you 're asking if i 'm nauseated now , the answer would be no .

i 'm not .

but on the other hand , if you 're asking if i get nauseous thinking about the fact that emma could have been pregnant with twins , and i would have had three kids under two and in diapers ... '' aidan shuddered .

`` then yeah , i get really f**king nauseous , and the room starts to spin a little . ''

easing down on his stool , he rolled over to aidan .

`` take a deep breath for me , okay ? ''

aidan 's chest expanded as he inhaled and exhaled .

`` again , '' pesh instructed .

after a few cleansing breaths , pesh cocked his head at aidan .

`` better ? ''

`` yeah , a little , '' aidan croaked .

he jerked his hand through his hair .

`` are you going to get me a referral for a vasectomy ? ''

pesh held up his hand .

`` i 'm confused .

if you know that emma is n't having twins , why do you want to have a vasectomy ? ''

`` because twins run on both sides of our families .

pop was a twin , and emma 's uncles are twins .

it 's like we have a genetic bull's-eye hovering over us .

we can barely be in the same room without conceiving , so it 's just inevitable that she 'll get pregnant again , and then i 'll have four kids ... maybe even five . ''

aidan swallowed hard as some of the color drained from his face .

`` i ca n't be a baby making machine . ''

`` actually , most recent studies still conclude that identical twins can happen to anyone , whereas , fraternal twins are the result of the mother producing two eggs in a single cycle .

this tendency to create multiple eggs is passed from mother to child .

given that emma does n't have a non-identical twin , you are fairly safe . ''

aidan tilted his head , his expression one of confusion .

`` so you 're saying i do n't have to worry about that ? ''

`` without knowing emma 's full genetic history , i could n't say , but it sounds like a no-at least for fraternal twins . ''

after processing pesh 's words , aidan shook his head .

`` like it really matters about the twins .

we 're still way too fertile together .

i need to stop this before it gets out of hand . ''

`` and what does emma think about all of this ? ''

a red flush entered aidan 's cheeks .

`` um , well , i have n't actually mentioned it to her . ''

`` you do n't think your wife needs to know about such a life-altering decision ? ''

`` well , of course i 'd tell her before i went in for the surgery . ''

as pesh crossed his arms over his chest , he could n't help wondering just how hard aidan had been hit in the head .

`` you can not seriously be sitting there saying that . ''

aidan stared at pesh for a moment before he groaned .

`` oh man , i 'm being a giant , selfish tool about this , are n't i ? ''

pesh smiled .

`` pretty much . ''

aidan rubbed his hand over his eyes .

`` it 's just ... being a father is f**king scary sometimes .

i worry about noah constantly , and now there 's another baby in the mix .

plus , another baby means more time taken away from emma . ''

he gave a weak smile .

`` i love her so much .

sometimes ... i just ca n't get enough of her , and i do n't want to share . ''

`` i think that 's a perfectly normal feeling . ''

aidan shook his head .

`` it makes me sound like a selfish bastard .

i mean , who is jealous of their kid for taking their wife 's time ? ''

`` a lot of men .

so stop beating yourself up over what you 're feeling .

most of all , do n't bottle it up .

talk to emma . ''

aidan 's blue eyes widened as he shook his head furiously back and forth .

`` oh hell no , i do n't want her thinking badly of me . ''

`` she wo n't .

emma always appreciates honesty . ''

`` about me being jealous of her time with our kids ?

i 'm pretty sure she would not want me being honest about that . ''

`` what has emma always said is the most important thing in a relationship ? ''

`` trust . ''

pesh nodded .

`` so how are you building her trust by lying to her about your feelings ? ''

aidan 's blonde brows furrowed .

`` so i should just tell her i 'm afraid of losing her and that i want us to maximize our time together ? ''

`` i would think so .

i do n't think any woman could get angry hearing her husband say how much he loves her and wants to be with her . ''

aidan appeared thoughtful .

`` i guess you 're right . ''

pesh smiled as he patted aidan 's shoulder reassuringly .

`` you 're doing a wonderful job being a father .

i 'm sure you 'll do just as well with a second and maybe even a third child . ''

at the mention of a third child , aidan swallowed hard , his adam 's apple bobbing up and down .

`` i do n't mind a third kid ... just not now .

maybe in a couple of years . ''

he glanced up and smiled at pesh .

`` but thanks for the vote of confidence on me being a father . ''

`` i just call it as i see it . ''

`` i appreciate that . ''

`` how about i check on your head now ? ''

aidan nodded .

`` okay . ''

pesh started feeling for unusual lumps and bumps on aidan 's head .

`` hmm , i do n't feel anything abnormal .

but just to be on the safe side , i want you to have a ct scan to rule out concussion or any brain bleeds . ''

`` jesus , i could have all of that from just hitting my head ? ''

`` you would be surprised .

let me go call in the order , and they 'll come take you back .

hopefully you wo n't have too long a wait .

we 're usually slower during the afternoons when the doctors ' offices and imaging centers are open . ''

as he started for the door , aidan stopped him .