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0.057008 | <urn:uuid:ca8f7c19-4ed7-458d-8ee6-8c9c57b4d3d8> | en | 0.980536 | Holy crap, I never thought I'd actually write 100 Jogan drabbles. O.O Thank you all so much for your reviews and favorites and story alerts, and thank you for being so supportive and kind in everything.
Special thanks to Caitlin, my best friend who found the list in the first place and started writing 100 drabbles for Rane. You can find that here: .net/s/6985296/1/Double_Ranebows (add in the beginning part of the ff . net url). I win. :)
CP Coulter owns Julian and Logan and Dalton.
You can find me on tumblr as flightofdeathfrench. If I continue to write drabbles, I'll post them there.
Thank you so much for reading!
Drabble 100
On the last day of your life, you're sitting somewhere in a nice chair, maybe by a lake, and the sun is setting in the sky and you get this feeling, this feeling that you're going to die. And for a second you're panicked, it seizes you, and tears at you and you're afraid.
But then it passes and you think of days.
All the days accumulating into weeks and then months and then years and before you know it you're seeing your life, it's flashing before your eyes and you're smiling.
The day you told him you loved him.
The day you held his hand.
The day you kissed him.
The day you slept with him in your arms for the first time.
The day you married him.
The day you brought home your son.
The day your son spoke his first words and you both looked at each other and grinned.
The day you came home from work exhausted and he wrapped you up in a blanket and made you hot chocolate.
The day you cried and he held you.
The day you held him while he cried.
The day you were sick and he kissed you anyway.
The day your son graduated from high school and you both cried.
The day you brought him flowers for no reason other than that you love him.
The day you made him his favorite dinner just because.
The day you went on a boat ride on the Seine in Paris just the two of you for your fiftieth wedding anniversary.
The days you loved him.
All the days, every day, so many of them, all laced together with one thread – love.
You loved him and he loved you and those were the days that you remember as you sit by the lake at sunset.
You turn to him and you tell him that you love him, and he replies that he loves you too.
You tell him that you're going to die soon, and he says that makes him very sad.
You tell him that it's okay because you loved him every day.
And he says the same about you.
And then you and he, both of the Larson-Wrights, you both hold hands in the sunset on the last day of your life. | https://www.fanfiction.net/s/7024041/100/100-Days-of-Jogan | dclm-gs1-006270001 |
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Space. The pitch-blackness, the silence, the harsh cold, the unforgiving deadness. An environment unfriendly to anything living, to be sure. This is where our story begins. One could argue that the forging of the true, deep, undying friendship of Littlefoot and Fyn began here, in this most inhospitable of environments, with the start of a single event- an event which triggered the greatest catastrophe, and possibly the most trying times the Great Valley ever knew. It started out small, almost insignificant, but gradually grew, as all things do, into the problem that would soon face the Great Valley.
The sequence of events started with a collision: two chunks of space-rock colliding on their paths through the galaxy smashed together silently, but with a magnificent visual display nonetheless- if anyone had been around to see it. When the rock behemoths crashed together, chunks of rock spewed out in all directions with fantastic speed, unhindered by any force, but guided by their own inertia. It was one such fragment- one the size of a small mountain- which, because of this collision, sped off on a new course.
This chunk of rock flew on through space, diverting slightly when it hit other debris, but mostly staying true to its original course. It was inanimate, cold, unfeeling, unable to realize the potential destruction it could bring, or the three lives it would directly impact. Its time had not come yet, but very soon, this seemingly insignificant speck in the cosmos would set in motion a massive chain of events on a small planet only a few million years old, in one location in particular.
The planet was our own; its inhabitants at the time were dinosaurs.
And the location was a place- a paradise- known as the Great Valley.
I do what I want!
Yes, I just released the prologue for my next story, and yes, it was kind of a mean thing to do, but I had to do something while I was just sitting here in an empty house waiting to catch my plane for USAFA. Anyway, I do believe this is the first time I started a story in outer space. Pretty fun take, if I do say so myself. Also, I tended to use modern terms in the beginning, just to try something new (plus, how many times can you say "flying rock" before it just gets old? Trust me, that term will be used plenty in time). At any rate, I will get back to this as soon as I get a bit of sanity back after BCT. Until then, wish me luck.
By the way, this is a Littlefoot and Fyn fic. You can't put "OC" down as a featured character, so I had to make do with monsieur Littlefoot. Also, this story's going to be much longer than my others, so don't expect the action to happen immediately. I'm shooting for "small book" length on this one.
See you in six weeks, and may the Bright Circle always guide your path! | https://www.fanfiction.net/s/8258881/1/Let-Your-Heart-Guide-You | dclm-gs1-006290001 |
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By Lady of Spain
Disclaimer: S. Meyer owns Twilight
A/N: This little one shot took first place at the How Do I Love Thee Valentine Contest at Jacob Black N Pack.
Leah walked into Seth's bedroom, and looked over his broad shoulder. "Oh, that's beautiful. So, that's what you've been working on!"
Seth held up the watercolor painting of his recent crush, Denise Begay. "Do you think she'll like it?"
"Like it, she'll love it!"
He hoped so; he'd slaved over it this whole week. He planned to give her the portrait this Friday, on Valentine's Day. Denise had invited him to come to her house and watch—what else—Valentine's Day on her TV. Her parents would be gone and he'd have her all to himself. Just think, the girl, the couch, popcorn and the darkened living room. It all added up to a nice romantic evening.
It was Friday and he had shaved, showered, dressed and was out the door. As he drove up to her house, he couldn't help but notice a familiar car in her driveway. He had barely gone halfway to the entrance of her house, when she stepped outside her door.
"Gosh, Seth, I'm so sorry. Can we do this some other day? Bobby dropped by unexpectedly, and I invited him to stay. You understand don't you?"
He understood all right. Bobby Davis was the quarterback of the High School football team. Looked like he'd be the one to score tonight, and Seth would be sidelined. Maybe he should object and tell her they had a date tonight. Hey, I had first dibs. Tell that other guy to beat it! But of course Seth was too darned nice to do that, so he just stepped away, holding the portrait behind his back.
"Sure, no problem." It was a problem, a big problem. If he didn't care about making a fool of himself, he'd sit on her doorstep and bawl.
She quickly hurried inside. He heard them both giggling as she closed the door. Dejectedly, he walked over to a trash can parked on the curb and chucked the portrait inside. His heart was crushed. How could she do that to him? Valentine's Day—what a joke!
It was just a day like any other day, he told himself, but jeez, he had looked forward to this now for two whole weeks. He drove around aimlessly and finally arrived at a donut shop. He bought three chocolate covered crème filled and went back at his home. Please don't anyone see me—all dressed up and no place to go. Ha—that was a laugh. There was no one left to see him. All the other pack mates were out having fun—well except for Leah. She hated Valentine's Day. It reminded her of he who shall not be named. Even his mom was out tonight, probably having a good time with Charlie.
Sighing, and holding the bag of donuts, he trudged into the house. Leah was in the kitchen, sitting in a chair, quietly peeling an orange.
She looked at him, confused. "I thought you were going to spend some time at Denise's."
"She had other plans, apparently."
Leah put down the orange on her plate and walked to the sink, washing the sticky juice from her hands. "Well, what happened? Did she forget?"
Seth plopped down on a chair and slid the bag across the table. "No, she just found a better guy to be with."
She put her arms around her brother's shoulders and kissed his cheek. "Don't say that. There is no one on this entire rez that's better than you are. And I'll beat the sh** outta anyone who says anything different. That girl's an idiot."
"Thanks, Leah, but you're my sister. You have to say that."
"I don't havta say a word. Anyway it's the damn truth, and if she doesn't see what a great guy you are then she doesn't deserve you. Now ... what's in the bag?"
"I bought us some donuts, one for you, one for me and one for Mom."
Leah pushed her face right into Seth's. "See what I mean? You're so giving. Who else would bring me a donut?"
He couldn't help smiling.
Looking in the bag, she licked her lips, "Chocolate cream filled—my favorite. And here I thought I'd be eating an orange on Valentine's Day." She took the plate with the orange and shoved it in the fridge. "Save that for later."
Leah put on some music, and with the lights turned down, danced with her tall, handsome brother. They twirled around the room, and he dipped her, once or twice. His heartache melted away as he heard her laughter. He was glad she was his sister, and especially today of all days.
They sat together on the couch, eating their donuts and watching a movie called, The Man in the Moon.
"Hey, Leah?"
Blushing in embarrassment, he stammered, "Would you think it was stupid if I asked you to be my Valentine?"
"I'll always be your Valentine. Lovers may come and go, but a sister is yours forever. I love you Seth."
He suddenly sprang up from the couch. "Oh, wait ... I almost forgot. I have something special for you."
He went into his room and returned with a flat sheet of watercolor paper. It was a portrait he had painted of Leah in the previous three days. Tears filled her eyes as she gazed at the perfect likeness. She couldn't speak; the lump in her throat was preventing the formation of words—not that any words could ever convey her feelings at that moment.
He stood with his hands in his pockets beaming at her. "Happy Valentine's Day, Sis."
Seth helped her frame the portrait on the following day. That very painting adorned Leah's room, and later, the wall of her own home. It was a reminder of the time she spent with the sweetest, handsomest, most caring man in La Push, on that particular day. He would forever hold a place in her heart as her Valentine. | https://www.fanfiction.net/s/9060291/1/Dancing-and-Donuts | dclm-gs1-006300001 |
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ZFS ACL Pass Through Inheritance for Execute Permission
Solaris 10 10/09 Release: In previous Solaris releases, you could apply ACL inheritance so that all files are created with 0664 or 0666 permissions. In this release, if you want to optionally include the execute bit from the file creation mode into the inherited ACL, you can set the aclinherit mode to pass the execute permission to the inherited ACL.
If aclinherit=passthrough-x is enabled on a ZFS dataset, you can include execute permission for an output file that is generated from cc or gcc compiler tools. If the inherited ACL does not include execute permission, then the executable output from the compiler won't be executable until you use the chmod command to change the file's permissions.
For more information, see Example 8–12. | http://docs.oracle.com/cd/E19253-01/819-5461/ghbxv/index.html | dclm-gs1-006460001 |
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Billionaire investor: DC needs to stop bickering
AP Markets Writer
Sunday, November 10, 2013
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AP photo In this Dec. 19, 2011 file photo, David M. Rubenstein, right, co-founder and managing director of The Carlyle Group, takes part in a news conference in Washington.
NEW YORK -- David Rubenstein gave millions to repair the Washington Monument after a 2011 earthquake left cracks in the stone obelisk.
He hopes a fractured Congress can fix itself after nearly collapsing the economy.
Rubenstein, co-founder of the Washington, D.C-based private equity firm Carlyle Group, says he was disappointed, saddened and embarrassed by the partial government shutdown and near-breach of the nation's borrowing limit.
Rubenstein may not be a household name, but in the world of philanthropy and finance, he is a celebrity.
Rubenstein, 64, and two partners co-founded Carlyle in 1987 with $5 million in capital. After starting off investing primarily in the defense industry, Carlyle quickly expanded. The firm has gone on to invest in companies like Dunkin' Donuts, Nielsen, and Hertz.
The bread and butter business for private equity is the leveraged buyout, where a firm uses debt to buy a company in hopes of turning it around for a profit. Private equity has expanded into other products, however, including ones aimed at average investors.
Carlyle is now the second-largest private equity firm after Texas-based TPG. Rubenstein is worth roughly $2.6 billion, the 206th richest person in the U.S., according to Forbes magazine.
Like Bill Gates and Warren Buffett, Rubenstein has pledged to give away the bulk of his fortune. He gave $7.5 million to help repair the Washington Monument. The panda enclosure at Washington's National Zoo is named after Rubenstein. He's made numerous other donations to the arts and humanities throughout the country as well.
Rubenstein sat down with The Associated Press recently to discuss the government shutdown and his outlook for the economy. Rubenstein also spoke about a future in which private equity, an investment traditionally reserved for pension funds or rich families, will be accessible to all.
The interview is edited for length and clarity:
Q: What is your outlook for the economy?
A: The U.S. economy is not in a recession, technically, but maybe this period should be called a recession in the future. The economy is struggling to come back and it's growing at a slower pace than we would like.
The recession reduced a lot of people's willingness to invest, to buy homes, to build homes, a whole variety of things. We've accumulated so much debt on our government's balance sheet that it's slowing the growth of the economy.
We have growing economic inequality. It's getting much worse as a result of the recession and we have to do something about that.
We have a dysfunctional government that's unable to give direction to business people and workers on where the country is going. You add all those factors up; it does make people a little bit nervous spending money, borrowing money, taking some risk. We are slowly fixing those problems. However, it's going to be a slow recovery and I don't think we will see 4 percent growth any time soon.
Q: What should Congress tackle first -- now that the debt ceiling and shutdown is resolved?
A: They should try to reassure the country -- and the world -- that the last few weeks were an aberration and not likely to be repeated early next year. Once that re-assurance occurs, focus on how to spur economic growth -- while reducing economic disparity -- (which) would be a great plus for everyone.
Q: What is the state of the private equity industry?
Q: If private equity is about turning around companies, why have you focused on the emerging markets rather than the U.S., particularly with what companies went through in the recession?
A: The first rule of investing is to diversify. In the U.S. and developed markets, you have aging populations, large government debt, large government entitlement programs and very slow growth. Compare that to emerging markets where you have modest debt levels, much younger populations, larger GDP growth and fewer government entitlement programs.
If you're going to participate in the global marketplace, you should invest in these markets. Take China. China is the second-largest economy in the world and we still call it an "emerging market." To me, anyone who wants to have a diversified investment program should invest outside of the U.S. and take advantage of those factors.
Q: Your industry has been expanding into other products aimed at a broader array of investors. Do you see a time when the average American will have a segment of their retirement invested in private equity, just like they do with bonds or stocks?
A: Anybody who has an investment portfolio should include the usual assets like fixed income and stocks but also should include alternatives. For individuals, alternative investments should be 5 percent to 15 percent, which would include private equity, buyouts, growth capital, and real estate.
We think investors would be interested in our brand name, our quality of investing. In the long run, it would strengthen our company as well to have that type of diversification | http://fosters.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20131110/GJBUSINESS_01/131119989/-1/fosnews1401 | dclm-gs1-006550001 |
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Bay of LIES
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I don't know if those outside the US experience this as much, but often I'll choose a part or board off of eBay based on the "Ships from" geographical location if I want it sooner than I care about price, but Occasionally something that is shipping from Texas or New Jersey will arrive with a Mandarin shipping label, quite a few days later than the USPS maps indicate it should take it seems. How often do you guys experience this?
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In the UK, I find that I regularly get parts quicker from china than from the UK, but I dont think its anything to do with geography. When I order locally because im in a hurry, it regularly takes about 3 or 4 days before the seller marks the item as shipped, whereas when I order from china, I usually have a tracking number in a few hours. I think its the attitude of the sellers that makes a big difference, most of the local sellers do it as a hobby, the chinese guys 'seem' to do it as a job.
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Same here with Sainsmart, took a lot longer than expected.
I also do not buy from any that show up as a "US seller" but only list "United States" as the location and not a city. Always a lie/scam somewhere it seems.
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The only time thats happened for me was sainsmart, and shipping was Hong Kong speed so better than mainland China, but not true usps speeds, the stuff had Chinese post mark with a usps label over part of it. | http://letsmakerobots.com/node/39080 | dclm-gs1-006680001 |
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Temperature Controller for my soldering iron
Soldering Iron Temperature Controller
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After buying a crap soldering iron, I found that its not good enough to solder even the most basic of things. I have a $30 gift coupon in RobotShop thanks to jorgen and I thought of using it to buy a new iron for me. Ideally, I want to buy something like this but my budget is limited, so limited that I can't buy it. | http://letsmakerobots.com/taxonomy/term/13734 | dclm-gs1-006690001 |
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NASA's Mars Reconnaissance Orbiter On the Mend After Glitch
NASA's Mars Reconnaissance Orbiter (MRO) put itself into a precautionary "safe mode" March 7, but the venerable spacecraft is now on the mend, agency officials say. MRO switched over to safe mode after unexpectedly swapping from one main computer to another, NASA officials said March 11. As a result of the glitch, science operations have been suspended, and the probe is not relaying data from the space agency's two active Mars rovers back to Earth at the moment.
NASA Eyes Asteroids, Mars and Europa With $17.5 Billion Budget
Humans on Mars: Who Will Be First?
NASA Discovers New Evidence to Suggest Water On Mars
How Scientists Plan to Farm on Mars
'Jelly Doughnut' Mars Rock Was Not Created by a Meteorite
New photos of the Martian landscape further rule out a meteorite impact as the culprit behind the "jelly doughnut" rock that mysteriously appeared in front of one of NASA's Mars rovers last month. NASA's Mars Reconnaissance Orbiter snapped pictures as it flew above the Opportunity rover on Feb. 14, and this week, the space agency released a photo from that flyover campaign.
New NASA Photos Point to Water on Mars
Curiosity Rover's First Photo of Earth From Mars
The Stray Rover on the Far Side of Mars
Mysterious Mars Rock Looks Like Jelly Doughnut
Manned Mission to Mars by 2030s Is Doable but Depends on Budget
World's Space Agencies Plan Future Joint Manned Mars Mission
1,058 People Are Serious About Living on Mars Until They Die
In its highly publicized search to find people for a private manned mission to the Red Planet, Mars One has winnowed down its applicant pool of 200,000 to 1,058 candidates -- all of whom are serious about living out out the rest of their lives on another planet. Headed up by Dutch entrepreneur Bas Lansdorp, Mars One, which claims to be a non-profit entity, plans to launch a one-way mission to Mars.
Mars Curiosity Rover Lego Model to Launch on New Year's Day
NASA Plans to Put an 'Iron Man' Robot on Mars
At 6'2", 275 pounds, NASA's latest robot look like a decent football player, but Valkyrie could be earmarked for another human profession -- astronaut. The android -- which was built to be a search-and-rescue bot -- comes with sonar equipment, cameras embedded from head to feet and a giant backpack battery. Its arms, legs and hips aren't as flexible as a person's, but it moves in a similar fashion, which could be important for studying the limits of human motion on Mars.
Mars One Plans First Private Robotic Mission to the Red Planet
Radiation Exposure Won't Stop a Manned Mission to Mars
Curiosity Rover Finds Ancient Life-Supporting Lakebed on Mars
Zap! NASA's Curiosity Rover Fires 100,000th Laser Shot on Mars
NASA's trigger-happy Curiosity rover has fired its 100,000th laser shot on Mars, a science milestone in its mission to determine what rocks on the Red Planet are made of, NASA announced Thursday. Each laser pulse shot by the Curiosity rover packs the power of nearly 1 million light bulbs — strong enough to vaporize rock and dust from up to 30 feet away.
Strange Greenhouse Gas Warmed Ancient Mars
At first glance, Mars' 500-mile-long Nanedi Valles looks like the Grand Canyon, with its steep-sided walls and plunging crevasses, two features that indicate a history of water. However, the Mars we know today is one of freezing temperatures, arid conditions and, most importantly, a paper-thin atmosphere -- all combined to create a hostile environment seemingly defiant of any life at all, let alone water.
4.4-Billion-Year-Old Meteorite Is First-Known Piece of Martian Crust
A 4.4-billion-year-old meteorite may be the first-known example of ancient Martian crust, and it could hold key plot points in the planet's storied history. Bedouin tribesmen found the rock, nicknamed "Black Beauty," in the Sahara Desert. Scientists first studied the rock in February and initially estimated that it was about 2 billion years old. However, Florida State University Professor Munir Humayun and his team performed more complex experiments on a 3-pound sample and found it was much older.
NASA Animation Shows What Mars Looked Like Billions of Years Ago
A new animation by NASA Goddard's Conceptual Image Lab shows that four billion years ago, Mars may have looked much more similar to Earth than the barren, desert-like Mars we know today. The animation is based on previous NASA findings of mineral presence and patterns inside craters that suggests there was once water flowing on our solar system neighbor.
LeVar Burton Video Is the Best Explanation of a Mars Mission Yet
The idea of going to Mars is exciting. The reality? Usually, outside of thrilling moments such as the seven seconds of terror that landed the Curiosity Rover on Mars and turned a mohawk-wearing mission controller into a social media superstar, not so much. Full marks to NASA, then, for this video introducing Maven. | http://mashable.com/category/mars/ | dclm-gs1-006750001 |
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I'm really noob in maths topics so I hope you will excuse me if I use terms which aren't correct.
I would like to simulate $n$ dimensional diffusion processes with $n$ noises.
Each process has its variance and is correlated to others by correlation / covariance matrix.
My question is about the diffusion matrix: how is it linked to the correlation / covariance matrix?
Let I have martingales
$\begin{pmatrix} dX_{t}^{1}\\ dX_{t}^{2} \end{pmatrix} = 0+\begin{pmatrix} \cdots & \cdots \\ \cdots & \cdots \end{pmatrix}\begin{pmatrix} dW_{t}^{1}\\ dW_{t}^{2} \end{pmatrix}$.
What should I use instead of the empty diffusion matrix if my correlation / covariance matrix is like
$V=\begin{pmatrix} 1 & -.1\\ -.1 & 1 \end{pmatrix}$?
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0.748566 | <urn:uuid:99debc1f-e4ae-4527-9533-2db86da1278f> | en | 0.939307 | Out of interest I just followed the following steps in the First Posts review queue:
1. Visited the page to load an answer for review
2. Up-voted the answer
3. Opened the full URL to the question in a new tab
4. Clicked 'I'm done' in the review queue
5. Refreshed the full question page in the other tab, and removed my up-vote.
When I checked the review history for First Posts my review was (unsurprisingly) still there.
As I understand it the number of First Post reviews a user is allowed to carry in a day is directly linked to the number of votes they have remaining that day.
With that in mind, wouldn't it be quite easy for a user to follow the above process in an effort to earn badges more easily and 'cheat' the daily limit? Or are there other checks in place?
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The sad thing is, that sort of cheating would actually be an improvement over how some people use that queue. – Pops Oct 25 '12 at 17:55
Reviewing is not for the badges, so cheating is not needed. (at least in a perfect world). – Toon Krijthe Oct 25 '12 at 17:56
possible duplicate of Steward Badge gaming visible in the Review Close Queue – Toon Krijthe Oct 25 '12 at 18:25
The only thing common between these questions is they are about cheating. They are about two completely different cases, though. – kiamlaluno Oct 25 '12 at 20:55
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No, actually. You're still limited to 20 first post reviews per day. Doing what you have described would only allow you to vote on 40 posts outside of the review queue while still doing 20 reviews (assuming you are unwilling to edit/close vote/comment/flag in the review queue).
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Gotcha, that makes more sense thanks – Clive Oct 25 '12 at 18:07
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@gregorywallace December 8, 2013: 3:05 PM ET
Airline mega-merger will have bumps
A deal to form the world's largest airline is set to be inked Monday.
The merger of American Airlines and US Airways is expected to form an air travel giant larger than the current industry leader, United Continental Holdings (UAL, Fortune 500).
The airlines and Justice Department settled the antitrust suit last month, and the Supreme Court declined late Saturday to take up the challenge that the merger will lead to higher airfare and fewer choices for passengers.
Related: American, US Air cleared to land merger
American Airlines and US Airways (LCC, Fortune 500) are expected to sign the merger documents before markets open on Monday.
The new company will be called American Airlines and trade on the Nasdaq under the symbol AAL.
Related: What the settlement means for fares
Both Southwest (LUV, Fortune 500) and JetBlue (JBLU, Fortune 500) are expected to expand flights at New York's LaGuardia and Washington, D.C.'s Reagan National airports. Southwest has already said it plans to add six round-trip flights between LaGuardia and yet-to-be-announced airports.
A 2012 study by PricewaterhouseCoopers found airfares "have not increased significantly" since 2004. Since then, a series of mergers produced the landscape of major carriers that exists today.
Related: The runway to the final four
The airlines argued the merger would provide customers more options.
American parent AMR (AAMRQ, Fortune 500) filed for bankruptcy in 2011 but in July reported a record monthly profit.
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I was just hanging around the Bingcave, my secret hideout located in the tunnels that wind below Bing Manor. Alfred, my trusty butler, who has been with me since my parents were taken from me in that tragic robbery in a Frisco alleyway so long ago, was upstairs, doing his last buttling of the day. I was about to go over 65 million points in Fruit Ninja when the Bing Signal went off. I answered.
"Bingman, thank God I reached you," said Commissioner Borden. The voice at the other end of the Bingphone was highly agitated. I wasn't surprised. Jim doesn't call during Downton Abbey unless something in this crazy burg has gone very wrong indeed. He told me what he wanted me to do, and my heart filled with fear. Holy Schmidt, Bingman! I thought. This time I was truly headed off into the unknown.
"The Google Mystery Barges have been sitting in the Bay for several years now," the Commissioner went on. "We don't know what they're doing there. They're under construction, off and on. And they're massive. The company says they're going to be some kind of museum dedicated to technology. We're not so sure. Right now, nobody can get in or out. Rumors are that they've seeded the waters around these hulking, multistory container ships with robot squids designed to seek out all heat-bearing life forms, terminate them, and harvest their stem cells for an ongoing experiment that Sergey Brin is conducting on whether a meatless hamburger constructed out of genetic material can be made as tasty as a quarter pounder with cheese."
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0.028362 | <urn:uuid:84261f13-9071-41ae-8632-87c5731fa856> | en | 0.95797 | Remember that 35% tariff President Obama imposed on tires imported from China this month? American drivers will sure find it hard to forget, as the higher costs start trickling down to U.S. consumers.
Since the tariff announcement on September 11, U.S. tire wholesalers have been warning that their sales prices to retailers will increase by about 15% on average. In some cases, the hikes are as high as 28%, according to industry sources. The only reason prices haven't risen by the full 35% tariff rate yet is that wholesalers still have some pre-tariff inventory stocks in their warehouses.
Eventually, this Obama tire tax will squeeze consumers hard because wholesalers and retailers have margins too thin to absorb much of the impact themselves. It may take a few months, Bill Trimarco of Hercules Tire in Ohio told us, but the price hikes are coming.
Low-income Americans will bear the brunt of the pain because Chinese tiremakers sell the cheapest tires, retailing for about $50 a piece at the lowest. An extra $15 for two replacement tires or $30 for four—and up to $70 more once the full tariff cost hits the market—might not sound like much. But for Americans scraping by on tight budgets, or who have lost their jobs in the recession, that amounts to school supplies for the kids, some new clothes or a tank or two of gasoline. Or consumers can just take the safety risk of driving a little longer on worn-out tires before replacing them.
Mr. Obama's political sop to the United Steelworkers union that requested this tire protectionism will be expensive for the economy overall, too. Rutgers economist Thomas J. Prusa, who had estimated the potential impacts of tariffs at the request of tire importers, calculates that the 35% tariff will cost the economy about 20,000 jobs in the tire distribution and retail sector while "saving" only 1,000 jobs at domestic manufacturing plants. U.S. consumers will pay $330,000 in higher tire prices for each of those 1,000 jobs.
Perhaps Mr. Obama thought setting the rate at 35% would be a good compromise since the International Trade Commission had proposed a tariff of 55%. The reality is that industry margins are so thin and consumer budgets are so tight that even a 35% tariff will hurt the economy. Mr. Obama's first big trade-policy call is turning out to be a very expensive mistake. | http://online.wsj.com/news/articles/SB10001424052970204488304574431641244584198 | dclm-gs1-006880001 |
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1. Haploinsufficiency for AAGAB causes clinically heterogeneous forms of punctate palmoplantar keratoderma
Nature genetics 2012;44(11):10.1038/ng.2444.
Palmoplantar keratodermas (PPKs) are a group of disorders that are diagnostically and therapeutically problematic in dermatogenetics1-3. Punctate PPKs are characterized by circumscribed hyperkeratotic lesions on palms and soles with considerable heterogeneity. In 18 families with autosomal dominant punctate PPK (OMIM #148600), we report heterozygous loss-of-function mutations in AAGAB, encoding alpha- and gamma-adaptin binding protein p34, at a previously linked locus on 15q22. p34, a cytosolic protein with a Rab-like GTPase domain, was shown to bind both clathrin adaptor protein complexes, indicative of a role in membrane traffic. Ultrastucturally, lesional epidermis showed abnormalities in intracellular vesicle biology. Immunohistochemistry showed hyperproliferation within the punctate lesions. Knockdown of p34 in keratinocytes led to increased cell division, which was linked to greatly increased epidermal growth factor receptor (EGFR) protein expression and tyrosine phosphorylation. We hypothesize that p34 deficiency may impair endocytic recycling of growth factor receptors such as EGFR, leading to increased signaling and proliferation.
PMCID: PMC3836166 PMID: 23064416
PMCID: PMC3834151 PMID: 24084074
Allergy; association; atopic dermatitis; atopy; eczema; filaggrin; flaky tail; Matt; mattrin; mouse; mutation; Tmem79; AD, Atopic dermatitis; DM, Double mutant; FLG, Filaggrin; HDM, House dust mite; hpf, High-power field; MAPEG, Membrane-associated proteins in eicosanoid and glutathione metabolism; OR, Odds ratio; SNP, Single nucleotide polymorphism; TEWL, Transepidermal water loss; WT, Wild-type
3. Transcription Termination and Chimeric RNA Formation Controlled by Arabidopsis thaliana FPA
PLoS Genetics 2013;9(10):e1003867.
Alternative cleavage and polyadenylation influence the coding and regulatory potential of mRNAs and where transcription termination occurs. Although widespread, few regulators of this process are known. The Arabidopsis thaliana protein FPA is a rare example of a trans-acting regulator of poly(A) site choice. Analysing fpa mutants therefore provides an opportunity to reveal generic consequences of disrupting this process. We used direct RNA sequencing to quantify shifts in RNA 3′ formation in fpa mutants. Here we show that specific chimeric RNAs formed between the exons of otherwise separate genes are a striking consequence of loss of FPA function. We define intergenic read-through transcripts resulting from defective RNA 3′ end formation in fpa mutants and detail cryptic splicing and antisense transcription associated with these read-through RNAs. We identify alternative polyadenylation within introns that is sensitive to FPA and show FPA-dependent shifts in IBM1 poly(A) site selection that differ from those recently defined in mutants defective in intragenic heterochromatin and DNA methylation. Finally, we show that defective termination at specific loci in fpa mutants is shared with dicer-like 1 (dcl1) or dcl4 mutants, leading us to develop alternative explanations for some silencing roles of these proteins. We relate our findings to the impact that altered patterns of 3′ end formation can have on gene and genome organisation.
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The ends of almost all eukaryotic protein-coding genes are defined by a poly(A) signal. When genes are transcribed into mRNA by RNA polymerase II, the poly(A) signal guides cleavage of the precursor mRNA at a particular site; this is accompanied by the addition of a poly(A) tail to the mRNA and termination of transcription. Many genes have more than one poly(A) signal and the regulated choice of which to select can effectively determine what the gene will code for, how the gene can be regulated and where transcription termination occurs. We discovered a rare example of a regulator of poly(A) site choice, called FPA, while studying flower development in the model plant Arabidopsis thaliana. Studying FPA therefore provides an opportunity to understand not only its roles in plant biology but also the generic consequences of disrupting alternative polyadenylation. In this study, we use a technique called direct RNA sequencing to quantify genome-wide shifts in poly(A) site selection in plants that lack FPA function. One of our most striking findings is that in the absence of FPA we detect chimeric RNAs formed between two otherwise separate and well-characterised genes.
PMCID: PMC3814327 PMID: 24204292
4. The RNA-binding protein FPA regulates flg22-triggered defense responses and transcription factor activity by alternative polyadenylation
Scientific Reports 2013;3:2866.
RNA-binding proteins (RBPs) play an important role in plant host-microbe interactions. In this study, we show that the plant RBP known as FPA, which regulates 3′-end mRNA polyadenylation, negatively regulates basal resistance to bacterial pathogen Pseudomonas syringae in Arabidopsis. A custom microarray analysis reveals that flg22, a peptide derived from bacterial flagellins, induces expression of alternatively polyadenylated isoforms of mRNA encoding the defence-related transcriptional repressor ETHYLENE RESPONSE FACTOR 4 (ERF4), which is regulated by FPA. Flg22 induces expression of a novel isoform of ERF4 that lacks the ERF-associated amphiphilic repression (EAR) motif, while FPA inhibits this induction. The EAR-lacking isoform of ERF4 acts as a transcriptional activator in vivo and suppresses the flg22-dependent reactive oxygen species burst. We propose that FPA controls use of proximal polyadenylation sites of ERF4, which quantitatively limit the defence response output.
PMCID: PMC3793224 PMID: 24104185
5. A new family of transcription factors
PMCID: PMC3586674 PMID: 18701541
Dictyostelium; CudA; Amoeboza; Plant STATs; SH2 domains
6. Direct Sequencing of Arabidopsis thaliana RNA Reveals Patterns of Cleavage and Polyadenylation
It has recently been shown that RNA 3′ end formation plays a more widespread role in controlling gene expression than previously thought. In order to examine the impact of regulated 3′ end formation genome-wide we applied direct RNA sequencing to A. thaliana. Here we show the authentic transcriptome in unprecedented detail and how 3′ end formation impacts genome organization. We reveal extreme heterogeneity in RNA 3′ ends, discover previously unrecognized non-coding RNAs and propose widespread re-annotation of the genome. We explain the origin of most poly(A)+ antisense RNAs and identify cis-elements that control 3′ end formation in different registers. These findings are essential to understand what the genome actually encodes, how it is organized and the impact of regulated 3′ end formation on these processes.
PMCID: PMC3533403 PMID: 22820990
7. Human box C/D snoRNA processing conservation across multiple cell types
Nucleic Acids Research 2011;40(8):3676-3688.
PMCID: PMC3333852 PMID: 22199253
8. Computational approaches to selecting and optimising targets for structural biology
Methods (San Diego, Calif.) 2011;55(1):3-11.
► Identifies key considerations in target selection and optimisation. ► Approaches to assign useful protein features and structure/function relationships. ► Comparison of latest crystallisation propensity predictors on nonredundant data. ► Discusses single point of reference target selection/optimisation resources. ► Guidance on using the SSPF Target Optimisation Utility (TarO).
Selection of protein targets for study is central to structural biology and may be influenced by numerous factors. A key aim is to maximise returns for effort invested by identifying proteins with the balance of biophysical properties that are conducive to success at all stages (e.g. solubility, crystallisation) in the route towards a high resolution structural model. Selected targets can be optimised through construct design (e.g. to minimise protein disorder), switching to a homologous protein, and selection of experimental methodology (e.g. choice of expression system) to prime for efficient progress through the structural proteomics pipeline.
Here we discuss computational techniques in target selection and optimisation, with more detailed focus on tools developed within the Scottish Structural Proteomics Facility (SSPF); namely XANNpred, ParCrys, OB-Score (target selection) and TarO (target optimisation). TarO runs a large number of algorithms, searching for homologues and annotating the pool of possible alternative targets. This pool of putative homologues is presented in a ranked, tabulated format and results are also visualised as an automatically generated and annotated multiple sequence alignment. The target selection algorithms each predict the propensity of a selected protein target to progress through the experimental stages leading to diffracting crystals. This single predictor approach has advantages for target selection, when compared with an approach using two or more predictors that each predict for success at a single experimental stage. The tools described here helped SSPF achieve a high (21%) success rate in progressing cloned targets to diffraction-quality crystals.
PMCID: PMC3202631 PMID: 21906678
MSA, Multiple Sequence Alignment; PTM, Post Translational Modification; SSPF, Scottish Structural Proteomics Facility; MCC, Matthew’s correlation coefficient; AROC, Area Under the Receiver Operator Characteristic curve; Target selection; Crystallisation; Structural genomics; Structural biology; Bioinformatics; Construct design
9. NoD: a Nucleolar localization sequence detector for eukaryotic and viral proteins
BMC Bioinformatics 2011;12:317.
PMCID: PMC3166288 PMID: 21812952
nucleolus; protein targeting signal; protein localization; NoD web server
10. Java bioinformatics analysis web services for multiple sequence alignment—JABAWS:MSA
Bioinformatics 2011;27(14):2001-2002.
Summary: JABAWS is a web services framework that simplifies the deployment of web services for bioinformatics. JABAWS:MSA provides services for five multiple sequence alignment (MSA) methods (Probcons, T-coffee, Muscle, Mafft and ClustalW), and is the system employed by the Jalview multiple sequence analysis workbench since version 2.6. A fully functional, easy to set up server is provided as a Virtual Appliance (VA), which can be run on most operating systems that support a virtualization environment such as VMware or Oracle VirtualBox. JABAWS is also distributed as a Web Application aRchive (WAR) and can be configured to run on a single computer and/or a cluster managed by Grid Engine, LSF or other queuing systems that support DRMAA. JABAWS:MSA provides clients full access to each application's parameters, allows administrators to specify named parameter preset combinations and execution limits for each application through simple configuration files. The JABAWS command-line client allows integration of JABAWS services into conventional scripts.
Availability and Implementation: JABAWS is made freely available under the Apache 2 license and can be obtained from:
PMCID: PMC3129525 PMID: 21593132
11. Global network analysis of drug tolerance, mode of action and virulence in methicillin-resistant S. aureus
BMC Systems Biology 2011;5:68.
PMCID: PMC3123200 PMID: 21569391
12. The SWI/SNF complex acts to constrain distribution of the centromeric histone variant Cse4
The EMBO Journal 2011;30(10):1919-1927.
The SWI/SNF complex has an important role in regulating chromatin structure during transcriptional activation and DNA repair. Here, the SWI/SNF complex is also involved in the organisation of centromeric chromatin and prevention of the ectopic deposition of centromeric histone variants.
In order to gain insight into the function of the Saccharomyces cerevisiae SWI/SNF complex, we have identified DNA sequences to which it is bound genomewide. One surprising observation is that the complex is enriched at the centromeres of each chromosome. Deletion of the gene encoding the Snf2 subunit of the complex was found to cause partial redistribution of the centromeric histone variant Cse4 to sites on chromosome arms. Cultures of snf2Δ yeast were found to progress through mitosis slowly. This was dependent on the mitotic checkpoint protein Mad2. In the absence of Mad2, defects in chromosome segregation were observed. In the absence of Snf2, chromatin organisation at centromeres is less distinct. In particular, hypersensitive sites flanking the Cse4 containing nucleosomes are less pronounced. Furthermore, SWI/SNF complex was found to be especially effective in the dissociation of Cse4 containing chromatin in vitro. This suggests a role for Snf2 in the maintenance of point centromeres involving the removal of Cse4 from ectopic sites.
PMCID: PMC3098484 PMID: 21505420
centromere; chromatin; Cse4; nucleosome; SWI/SNF
13. PNAC: a protein nucleolar association classifier
BMC Genomics 2011;12:74.
Although primarily known as the site of ribosome subunit production, the nucleolus is involved in numerous and diverse cellular processes. Recent large-scale proteomics projects have identified thousands of human proteins that associate with the nucleolus. However, in most cases, we know neither the fraction of each protein pool that is nucleolus-associated nor whether their association is permanent or conditional.
To describe the dynamic localisation of proteins in the nucleolus, we investigated the extent of nucleolar association of proteins by first collating an extensively curated literature-derived dataset. This dataset then served to train a probabilistic predictor which integrates gene and protein characteristics. Unlike most previous experimental and computational studies of the nucleolar proteome that produce large static lists of nucleolar proteins regardless of their extent of nucleolar association, our predictor models the fluidity of the nucleolus by considering different classes of nucleolar-associated proteins. The new method predicts all human proteins as either nucleolar-enriched, nucleolar-nucleoplasmic, nucleolar-cytoplasmic or non-nucleolar. Leave-one-out cross validation tests reveal sensitivity values for these four classes ranging from 0.72 to 0.90 and positive predictive values ranging from 0.63 to 0.94. The overall accuracy of the classifier was measured to be 0.85 on an independent literature-based test set and 0.74 using a large independent quantitative proteomics dataset. While the three nucleolar-association groups display vastly different Gene Ontology biological process signatures and evolutionary characteristics, they collectively represent the most well characterised nucleolar functions.
Our proteome-wide classification of nucleolar association provides a novel representation of the dynamic content of the nucleolus. This model of nucleolar localisation thus increases the coverage while providing accurate and specific annotations of the nucleolar proteome. It will be instrumental in better understanding the central role of the nucleolus in the cell and its interaction with other subcellular compartments.
PMCID: PMC3038921 PMID: 21272300
14. Identification of human miRNA precursors that resemble box C/D snoRNAs
Nucleic Acids Research 2011;39(9):3879-3891.
There are two main classes of small nucleolar RNAs (snoRNAs): the box C/D snoRNAs and the box H/ACA snoRNAs that function as guide RNAs to direct sequence-specific modification of rRNA precursors and other nucleolar RNA targets. A previous computational and biochemical analysis revealed a possible evolutionary relationship between miRNA precursors and some box H/ACA snoRNAs. Here, we investigate a similar evolutionary relationship between a subset of miRNA precursors and box C/D snoRNAs. Computational analyses identified 84 intronic miRNAs that are encoded within either box C/D snoRNAs, or in precursors showing similarity to box C/D snoRNAs. Predictions of the folded structures of these box C/D snoRNA-like miRNA precursors resemble the structures of known box C/D snoRNAs, with the boxes C and D often in close proximity in the folded molecule. All five box C/D snoRNA-like miRNA precursors tested (miR-27b, miR-16-1, mir-28, miR-31 and let-7g) bind to fibrillarin, a specific protein component of functional box C/D snoRNP complexes. The data suggest that a subset of small regulatory RNAs may have evolved from box C/D snoRNAs.
PMCID: PMC3089480 PMID: 21247878
15. Characterization and prediction of protein nucleolar localization sequences
Nucleic Acids Research 2010;38(21):7388-7399.
Although the nucleolar localization of proteins is often believed to be mediated primarily by non-specific retention to core nucleolar components, many examples of short nucleolar targeting sequences have been reported in recent years. In this article, 46 human nucleolar localization sequences (NoLSs) were collated from the literature and subjected to statistical analysis. Of the residues in these NoLSs 48% are basic, whereas 99% of the residues are predicted to be solvent-accessible with 42% in α-helix and 57% in coil. The sequence and predicted protein secondary structure of the 46 NoLSs were used to train an artificial neural network to identify NoLSs. At a true positive rate of 54%, the predictor’s overall false positive rate (FPR) is estimated to be 1.52%, which can be broken down to FPRs of 0.26% for randomly chosen cytoplasmic sequences, 0.80% for randomly chosen nucleoplasmic sequences and 12% for nuclear localization signals. The predictor was used to predict NoLSs in the complete human proteome and 10 of the highest scoring previously unknown NoLSs were experimentally confirmed. NoLSs are a prevalent type of targeting motif that is distinct from nuclear localization signals and that can be computationally predicted.
PMCID: PMC2995072 PMID: 20663773
16. Analysis of Human Small Nucleolar RNAs (snoRNA) and the Development of snoRNA Modulator of Gene Expression Vectors
Molecular Biology of the Cell 2010;21(9):1569-1584.
In this manuscript we describe the characterisation of human snoRNAs that co-purify with nucleoli and develop a new vector based system for targeted gene knock down. We demonstrate that this novel vector system (snoMEN) can deliver effective, sequence-specific knock down of endogenous cellular genes as well as GFP and GFP-fusion proteins.
Human small nucleolar RNAs (snoRNAs) that copurify with nucleoli isolated from HeLa cells have been characterized. Novel fibrillarin-associated snoRNAs were detected that allowed the creation of a new vector system for the targeted knockdown of one or more genes in mammalian cells. The snoMEN (snoRNA modulator of gene expressioN) vector technology is based on snoRNA HBII-180C, which contains an internal sequence that can be manipulated to make it complementary to RNA targets. Gene-specific knockdowns are demonstrated for endogenous cellular proteins and for G/YFP-fusion proteins. Multiplex snoMEN vectors coexpress multiple snoRNAs in one transcript, targeted either to different genes or to different sites in the same gene. Protein replacement snoMEN vectors can express a single transcript combining cDNA for a tagged protein with introns containing cognate snoRNAs targeted to knockdown the endogenous cellular protein. We foresee applications for snoMEN vectors in basic gene expression research, target validation, and gene therapy.
PMCID: PMC2861615 PMID: 20219969
17. Human miRNA Precursors with Box H/ACA snoRNA Features
PLoS Computational Biology 2009;5(9):e1000507.
MicroRNAs (miRNAs) and small nucleolar RNAs (snoRNAs) are two classes of small non-coding regulatory RNAs, which have been much investigated in recent years. While their respective functions in the cell are distinct, they share interesting genomic similarities, and recent sequencing projects have identified processed forms of snoRNAs that resemble miRNAs. Here, we investigate a possible evolutionary relationship between miRNAs and box H/ACA snoRNAs. A comparison of the genomic locations of reported miRNAs and snoRNAs reveals an overlap of specific members of these classes. To test the hypothesis that some miRNAs might have evolved from snoRNA encoding genomic regions, reported miRNA-encoding regions were scanned for the presence of box H/ACA snoRNA features. Twenty miRNA precursors show significant similarity to H/ACA snoRNAs as predicted by snoGPS. These include molecules predicted to target known ribosomal RNA pseudouridylation sites in vivo for which no guide snoRNA has yet been reported. The predicted folded structures of these twenty H/ACA snoRNA-like miRNA precursors reveal molecules which resemble the structures of known box H/ACA snoRNAs. The genomic regions surrounding these predicted snoRNA-like miRNAs are often similar to regions around snoRNA retroposons, including the presence of transposable elements, target site duplications and poly (A) tails. We further show that the precursors of five H/ACA snoRNA-like miRNAs (miR-151, miR-605, mir-664, miR-215 and miR-140) bind to dyskerin, a specific protein component of functional box H/ACA small nucleolar ribonucleoprotein complexes suggesting that these molecules have retained some H/ACA snoRNA functionality. The detection of small RNA molecules that share features of miRNAs and snoRNAs suggest that these classes of RNA may have an evolutionary relationship.
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The major functions known for RNA were long believed to be either messenger RNAs, which function as intermediates between genes and proteins, or ribosomal RNAs and transfer RNAs which carry out the translation process. In recent years, however, newly discovered classes of small RNAs have been shown to play important cellular roles. These include microRNAs (miRNAs), which can regulate the production of specific proteins, and small nucleolar RNAs (snoRNAs), which recognise and chemically modify specific sequences in ribosomal RNA. Although miRNAs and snoRNAs are currently believed to be generated by different cellular pathways and to function in different cellular compartments, members of these two types of small RNAs display numerous genomic similarities, and a small number of snoRNAs have been shown to encode miRNAs in several organisms. Here we systematically investigate a possible evolutionary relationship between snoRNAs and miRNAs. Using computational analysis, we identify twenty genomic regions encoding miRNAs with highly significant similarity to snoRNAs, both on the level of their surrounding genomic context as well as their predicted folded structure. A subset of these miRNAs display functional snoRNA characteristics, strengthening the possibility that these miRNA molecules might have evolved from snoRNAs.
PMCID: PMC2730528 PMID: 19763159
18. Distinct donor and acceptor specificities of Trypanosoma brucei oligosaccharyltransferases
The EMBO Journal 2009;28(17):2650-2661.
Asparagine-linked glycosylation is catalysed by oligosaccharyltransferase (OTase). In Trypanosoma brucei OTase activity is catalysed by single-subunit enzymes encoded by three paralogous genes of which TbSTT3B and TbSTT3C can complement a yeast Δstt3 mutant. The two enzymes have overlapping but distinct peptide acceptor specificities, with TbSTT3C displaying an enhanced ability to glycosylate sites flanked by acidic residues. TbSTT3A and TbSTT3B, but not TbSTT3C, are transcribed in the bloodstream and procyclic life cycle stages of T. brucei. Selective knockdown and analysis of parasite protein N-glycosylation showed that TbSTT3A selectively transfers biantennary Man5GlcNAc2 to specific glycosylation sites whereas TbSTT3B selectively transfers triantennary Man9GlcNAc2 to others. Analysis of T. brucei glycosylation site occupancy showed that TbSTT3A and TbSTT3B glycosylate sites in acidic to neutral and neutral to basic regions of polypeptide, respectively. This embodiment of distinct specificities in single-subunit OTases may have implications for recombinant glycoprotein engineering. TbSTT3A and TbSTT3B could be knocked down individually, but not collectively, in tissue culture. However, both were independently essential for parasite growth in mice, suggesting that inhibiting protein N-glycosylation could have therapeutic potential against trypanosomiasis.
PMCID: PMC2722254 PMID: 19629045
glycosylation; oligosaccharyltransferase; STT3; Trypanosoma
19. Purification, crystallization and data collection of methicillin-resistant Staphylococcus aureus Sar2676, a pantothenate synthetase
Sar2676, a pantothenate synthetase with a molecular weight of 31 419 Da from methicillin-resistant Staphylococcus aureus, has been expressed, purified and crystallized at 293 K.
Sar2676, a pantothenate synthetase with a molecular weight of 31 419 Da from methicillin-resistant Staphylococcus aureus, has been expressed, purified and crystallized at 293 K. The protein crystallizes in a primitive triclinic lattice, with unit-cell parameters a = 45.3, b = 60.5, c = 117.6 Å, α = 87.2, β = 81.2, γ = 68.4°. A complete data set has been collected to 2.3 Å resolution at the ESRF. Consideration of the likely solvent content suggested the asymmetric unit to contain four molecules. This has been confirmed by molecular-replacement phasing calculations, which give a solution with four monomers using a monomer of pantothenate synthetase from Escherichia coli (PDB code 1iho), which is 41% identical to Sar2676, as a search model.
PMCID: PMC2335074 PMID: 17554169
Sar2676; pantothenate synthetase; methicillin-resistant Staphylococcus aureus
20. Jalview Version 2—a multiple sequence alignment editor and analysis workbench
Bioinformatics 2009;25(9):1189-1191.
PMCID: PMC2672624 PMID: 19151095
21. PIPs: human protein–protein interaction prediction database
Nucleic Acids Research 2008;37(Database issue):D651-D656.
PMCID: PMC2686497 PMID: 18988626
22. Kinomer v. 1.0: a database of systematically classified eukaryotic protein kinases
PMCID: PMC2686601 PMID: 18974176
Nucleic Acids Research 2008;36(Web Server issue):W25-W29.
PMCID: PMC2447745 PMID: 18503088
24. The Jpred 3 secondary structure prediction server
Nucleic Acids Research 2008;36(Web Server issue):W197-W201.
PMCID: PMC2447793 PMID: 18463136
25. TarO: a target optimisation system for structural biology
PMCID: PMC2447720 PMID: 18385152
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"Heart, we will forget this poem." "You and I, tonight." "You may forget the da da da." "Da da da da da da dight." "When you have done, pray tell me." "That I my thoughts may znn." ...
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"Who needs an expensive vacation?" "All one needs is a good book." "Precisely. There is no frigate like a book, to take us worlds away." "Nor any coursers like a page of prancing poetry." "This traverse may...
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found poem from Emily Dickinson's "at half-past three a single bird" a silent skysupplantedcautious melody
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The Big Read Another new thing for me is The Big Read, which is happening in March. This year The Big Read is celebrating the Poems of Emily Dickinson. I will participate with some of the Sonoma County Libraries' discussion groups. Gwynn O'Gara, my laureate...
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Well - more or less. There is a recently discovered daguerreotype (what a wonderful word) which is probably a reproduction of Dickinson as an adult. This would be only the second in existence, and quite a find about our fair Belle of Amherst. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Possible Emily...
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Tomorrow, I go into the Kaiser Hospital Building on Geary Street in San Francisco for a fourth order of "epidurals" on my spine. Epidurals consist of long curved needles which deliver a steroidal substance, usually to a rheumatic build-up in the joints of the body. The first...
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Poetry of a different sort form the Belle of Amherst. I, myself, might add a tad or pad more of butter, for I'm a Julia Child kinda guy. But if you grate that coconut yourself, kudos. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * A Coconut Cake From Emily Dickinson: Reclusive Poet, Passionate Baker by Nelly...
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I am beginning to wonder why more authors don't self-publish. Oh, that's right. It's because of the onus of vanity publishing. That is changing. There are lots of writers who still believe that legitimacy only comes with being published by a real publisher, real meaning established publishing house...
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$version can be either 2, or 4 and defaults to whatever the underlying implementation prefers.
Version 1 is timestamp/MAC based UUIDs, like Data::UUID provides. They reveal time and host information, so they may be considered a security risk.
Version 2 is described here http://www.opengroup.org/onlinepubs/9696989899/chap5.htm#tagcjh_08_02_01_01. It is similar to version 1 but considered more secure.
Version 4 is based just on random data. This is not guaranteed to be high quality random data, but usually is supposed to be.
On MacOS X getpid is called before UUID generation, to ensure UUIDs are unique accross forks. Behavior on other platforms may vary.
uuid_to_binary $str_or_bin
Converts a UUID from string or binary format to binary format.
Returns undef on a non UUID argument.
uuid_to_string $str_or_bin
Converts a UUID from string or binary format to string format.
Returns undef on a non UUID argument.
uuid_eq $str_or_bin, $str_or_bin
Checks if two UUIDs are equivalent. Returns true if they are, or false if they aren't.
Returns undef on non UUID arguments.
uuid_compare $str_or_bin, $str_or_bin
Returns -1, 0 or 1 depending on the lexicographical order of the UUID. This works like the cmp builtin.
Returns undef on non UUID arguments.
These two subroutines are a little hackish in that they take no arguments but also do not validate the arguments, so they can be abused as methods:
package MyFoo;
use Data::UUID::LibUUID (
new_dce_uuid_string => { -as "generate_uuid" },
sub yadda {
my $self = shift;
my $id = $self->generate_uuid;
This allows the ID generation code to be subclassed, but still keeps the hassle down to a minimum. DCE is UUID version two specification.
Creates a lexically ascending identifier containing a UUID, high resolution timestamp, and a counter.
This is not a UUID (it's longer), but if you can store variable length identifier (and exposing the system clock is not an issue) they can be used to create an identifier that is both universally unique, and lexically increasing.
Note that while the identifiers are universally unique, there is no universal ordering (that would require synchronization), so identifiers generated on different machines or even different process/thread could have IDs which interleave.
Data::GUID, Data::UUID, UUID, http://e2fsprogs.sourceforge.net/
Yuval Kogman <[email protected]>
Copyright (c) 2008 Yuval Kogman. All rights reserved
This program is free software; you can redistribute
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We know Germany needs to pay, no matter what happens in Europe. The German banks lent to countries that can’t repay the debt. Either these countries need to default, or Germany needs to accept “potential” inflation. Despite this, Germany bullies the debtor countries into forcing austerity programs on their citizens.
But this is all about to change. It’s been clear for a long, long time the current price of the euro is really the average of two extreme prices – a 1.8000 EURUSD for the Germany/France axis, and a 1.0000 EURUSD for the mediterrinanin slacker caucus.
But what hasn’t been clear is just how weak the German position really is. It’s become obvious Germany is bluffing – and the bluff is about to be called.
Who is the country with the fewest options? Germany. It can’t commit more money to the bailout funds, because of domestic political pressure. At the same time, Germany doesn’t want to let the ECB solve the problem by purchasing the debt of Greece, Italy, or Spain – because it fears the inflation it might cause.
Then, it’s largely German banks stuck with the bad sovereign debt of Greece, Ireland, Spain, and Italy. Jack Sparrow pointed out the euro is one gigantic vendor financing scheme, and the biggest beneficiary is Germany. If the euro goes away, so does the export golden goose for Germany. Germany needs the euro to keep its export machine going.
Still, Germany is driving a hard bargain – aggressively raising the stakes over and over – forcing massive austerity programs on the problem euro countries in exchange for supporting small ECB purchases of their debt. It’s a huge bluff. These small countries can credibly threaten to exit the euro and force an immediate recession in Germany.
Germany would be destroyed if any country left the euro – because if one exits, it’s a matter of days before they all exit. This will push the EURUSD up, up, up. Plus, leaving the euro will cause an immediate default by these countries – so they won’t be able to borrow money for a while.
Germany’s export machine would grind to a halt, and its banks would be insolvent overnight. German products would go up 30% in price due to a gain in the euro, and their major customers wouldn’t be able to purchase the products anyway. The German banks would need an immediate bailout to keep functioning.
We know Germany won’t be kicking these countries out of the euro – the result is just too bad for Germany. So these countries must be thinking – what is the downside for me to threaten to leave? The Germans drive such a hard bargain default is starting to look downright attractive. These countries already face a long, never ending recession due to austerity programs forced on them by Germany. Why not choose a few years of pain over a few decades of misery?
It’s just a matter of time before one of these countries figure out they have the ability to place intense pressure on Germany with a credible threat to exit the euro. Now, throw in the incredible political pressure facing the governments of Italy and Greece. People in these countries are furious at the reforms pushed through due to inclusion in the euro.
There is only one way out of this trap –The ECB buys nearly all of the sovereign debt in a last minute attempt to prevent one of the PIIGS from leaving the euro. I suspect this threat has already been made -- quietly -- by Ireland and Italy. It’s part of the reason the ECB has been a bit more accommodating lately – and part of the reason Irish yields have been strangely quiet over current upheaval in Europe.
Some time very soon, Germany’s weak bargaining position will become widely recognized. Once this happens, it will be clear Germany can’t stop these countries from leaving unless it bribes them with ECB purchases. It can’t risk the countries actually leaving the euro. Increasing the bailout funds is a political non-starter. The only reasonable short term solution is for the ECB to push yields lower through debt purchases.
My strong feeling is the ECB purchases cause less political backlash than outright borrowing for German politicians. With those purchases come inflation fears – pushing the euro lower. This is something Germany wants. Germany desires a weaker euro – and this plan delivers a weaker euro.
This is why the new president of the ECB was so public about its plans to enforce austerity through central bank purchases. It gives up the entire game. If there is a credible threat to leave the euro, the ECB will purchase debt, period. This is why I expect the euro to drift lower and lower over the next several months and accelerate though the new year. It will soon become clear the country with the weakest bargaining position is Germany – and the easiest solution is for the ECB to purchase debt.
The Mercenary Trader team is already short the euro, so you should be already in a good position for this scenario to unfold.
EUR-USD Chart (click to enlarge)
The euro is up against a long-term support because the survival scenario stokes inflation fears. A break of the 1.32-1.31 area would be very bearish for the euro. Germany’s weak hand is about to be called, and once it is, the ECB will need to step in and purchase a debt. Once this happens, the EUR-USD will likely tumble.
This trade might last a while – the ECB will try to keep the purchases as small as possible for as long as possible. But once the world wakes up to the fact that it’s Germany holding the weak cards, the outcome is assured. The EUR-USD will tumble.
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I've found a faulty connection to my database caused my development WAMP server to crash, even though the software is in working order, but PHP crashed and took the server down. Is there any way to make WAMP server or Apache itself automatically restart on crash?
Is there any reason I wouldn't want to do this? It's an issue I've had a couple times and I figure even if it crashes and restarts it's better than not being up at all, but I may not be seeing the big picture.
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You can write a watchdog that tries to access a page on your web server and if it fails restarts the server. Run it as a scheduled task every {minute, 5 minutes, half hour, whatever...}. Implementation of this script is left as an exercise for the reader (especially on Windows, but PowerShell is probably going to be your friend).
You are however missing the Big Picture as you suspect - A failed database connection should cause your site to throw errors, but it SHOULD NOT be knocking the web server down. If this were production I would say roll out the watchdog until you can debug the problem, but since this is your development environment I would spend a day or two figuring out why a faulty DB connection is knocking the whole show down.
Bear in mind that if it's happening in development it may happen in production one day, and your employer will likely be less tolerant of the entire production environment shutting down than the developers are of the dev environment occasionally blowing up...
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Unfortunately it looks like my PHP cacher crashed it, but the production database is much more reliable than the dev one; it's an IT server everyone and their brother uses for whatever. Thanks for the Powershell Watchdog tip, I think I'll have to look into why my cache is crashing it first though – Ben Brocka Sep 13 '11 at 14:58
Solving the crashing problem is the Right Fix - the watchdog is a Quick Fix. If you're using the same cache engine on the production site it's definitely important: One day you will do database maintenance, and the DB will be unavailable for a few seconds. When the DB comes back the web site will be down because it crashed and your pager will be going off :) – voretaq7 Sep 13 '11 at 15:03
The DB has been unavailable before though (it's fairly common on dev), so the problem is less clear unfortunately. I got about 15 page loads in with no DB connection before it actually crashed; thought it was a network error at first. – Ben Brocka Sep 13 '11 at 15:17
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Comment: Re:Proof that capitalism doesn't work (Score 1) 163
Ruining it? You must be joking.... Or, merely naive? Forcing AT&T to increase performance while decreasing price might, must might, reduce their profit margin from nearly infinite to something you can compute with long double precision. Remember AT&T used to make over 1200% profit on caller-id. And that was computed using the special accounting rules that only AT&T and the baby bells get to use.
Comment: Re:no, telcos 20+ years old don't get same conditi (Score 2) 163
I live just out side of Austin (groan... there goes my property value...) and I've been watching this mess for a long time. Austin started to build a network like this one back in the '90s. Then the telcos used their pet politicos to get a law pass in Texas that makes it illegal for a City to build its own network. That was the end of high speed Internet hopes for cities in Texas. Then, AT&T. Verizon, Time Warner, and Comcast got pissed off because the cities were requiring them to build out what passed for high speed Internet through out entire cities if they wanted to build it at all. So..... they went to their pet politicos (the folks we refer as the people in the owners box at the legislature) and got the law changed so that only the state gets to tell them where they can or can't build their networks, so AT&T is putting in fiber to the curb in new developments with million dollar homes and in working class neighborhoods you are lucky to get minimal DSL.
Now Google is rolling out gigabit Internet to with in half a mile of my home, but not to my home. I could just cry. This is going to kill Round Rock. And, believe me, ever since Dell moved here Austin has been gunning for Round Rock.
Comment: Just of couple of comments... (Score 1) 709
by stonewolf (#34714122) Attached to: Why Teach Programming With BASIC?
Just tried your system out. Found a few bugs.
I coded an infinite loop. Then I typed "run" and then I realized that there doesn't seem to be anyway to halt a program once it is running. There must be a big red octagonal button on the screen with the letters "STOP" in it that actually stops the program.
I tried to code an IF statement. I had to look up the syntax because "if i 0 then goto 2" got a syntax error. I can almost forgive using the C like "if()" for the if statement but using FORTRAN like "LT" for "" is pretty nasty if you ask me.... But, you didn't :-)
You have a "declare record" statement when just "record" would do. Using "declare" make sense if you are planning to add more things to declare, otherwise it is just a waste. And, seriously, no "for .. next" statement, no "if ... then ... else..." statement, no while statement, no multi-line statements at all. I see that you have reserved some keywords for those so it looks like you are planning to add them in the future. Please, these are critical parts of any language. I know for a fact, having done it, that it is f(&#$@#*$&^King easy to implement those compared to some of the things you have already added.
I tested what would happen if I typed "run" for a program that has a syntax error. It went away forever. No error messages, no output at all. It just stopped reacting to the keyboard. This is a serious bug.
The documentation is really really really poor. Very few examples. No real introduction. You use things like "boolean-expr" but do not define that anywhere it the document.
"turn" is great, but you need left and right also. Kids understand left and right. Positive and negative angles are a bit harder for them.
Palettes? Really? It is very hard to find a computing device that can run a modern browser that is not using RGB pixels. Why put this ancient cruft in the way of kids? Color values are RGB in the range 0 to 1. There are no palettes anymore.
Sprite maps? Nostalgia is an addictive drug, but like all drugs it is damaging when used to excess. Why not just have a place on the screen to browse and drop graphics that can then be used in your program?
I've written an ANSI standard BASIC compiler, I've written a Logo interpreter (or 2 or 3 :-), and I've taught courses in which the final project was a Lisp interpreter. In fact, I've written many compilers, interpreters, and even a linker once. I've also used both basic and logo to teach kids aged 5 to 12 to program. And, I have to say that while you have a good idea your implementation is far from ready for use by kids if I can break it in 5 minutes doing exactly the kind of things kids do.
It looks to me like you have focused on the "cool" parts, the graphics and the math library, but have skipped, or at least skimped on the critical part. The critical part is creating a system that works, followed by the documentation needed to use it.
BTW, WTF is "proof" for? It is left over from back in the day (your nostalgia is showing...) when you actually had to type in code that was published in magazines. OMFG!!!!! We live in a world where magazines have websites (in reality a few websites still have magazines) and flash drives are nearly cheap enough to show up in cracker jack boxes (yeah... I'm old, I learned Basic and Logo on an Univac 1108a :-). We do not do that anymore!
You have a good idea. But, shake off the nostalgia and make something that acknowledges the 21st century.
Yes, I know I have been harsh on you. If I didn't really like the idea of what you are doing I wouldn't bother to find the flaws, let alone spend the time to point them out.
I've recently managed to eliminated the use of paper in all the classes I teach. Doing that has really pissed off the English teachers who still insist on paper and give tests using blue books.
Comment: Re:Knee-jerking != making an informed argument (Score 1) 494
by stonewolf (#34592364) Attached to: Avoiding DMCA Woes As an Indy Game Developer?
As you said the DMCA is about copyright and not about ideas. He did copy the idea, but that is not the question. Anyway, ideas are protected by patents, not copyrights. If there were any patents on Pac-Man they should have expired by now.
You say that the question is whether or not he copied the artwork or code. Sorry, no. It does not matter if he copied the code at all. If you go to his website you'll see that he clearly copied the artwork. Copying does not mean getting a copy of the orignal art work. It does not mean running something through a copy machine or type "cp" in to a command line. A copy is a copy if the copier had access to the original and the copy looks "substantially" like the original. That is why you are violating copyright if you draw a picture of Mickey Mouse. Humanity made copies long before there were computers. Copyright law goes back centuries.
For further reading I suggest you all go look at:
which is the federal district court ruling on a similar case from 1982. It just happens to cover exactly the same circumstances but 28 years earlier. It goes into depth on the method used by the court to determine that an illegal copy had been made and covers the law and precedents that applied up through 1982. This isn't a case of the DMCA making something illegal that used to be legal. This is a case of the owners of Pac-Man using recent law to rather politely and cheaply stop a blatant case of copyright infringement.
Like I said earlier, they could have sued him and left him penniless for the rest of his life. All they did was stop him from being able to continue to distribute their property. The new version of the game he has posted is most likely still in violation. All he did was change a little art to make it look a little different. Considering the existing precedent it would be a cheap suit to prosecute. It is the same circumstance as the one I pointed out from 28 years ago. I bet the court would just give them a summary judgment based on screen shots. The scum bag who asked the question would be sitting with a bill for legal costs and damages that he would probably never be able to pay off.
Comment: Re:Try having an original idea (Score 1) 494
by stonewolf (#34591454) Attached to: Avoiding DMCA Woes As an Indy Game Developer?
You should take your own advice. If you follow the link and look at his artwork he clearly stole the design of the characters and the overall look of the game. He is lucky he just got a take down notice and not a suit for damages. He would likely be having his income garnished for the rest of his life to pay that debt.
Comment: Re:Try having an original idea (Score 1) 494
by stonewolf (#34591400) Attached to: Avoiding DMCA Woes As an Indy Game Developer?
Copyright and trademark are two ways the law (also known as the basis of civil society) establishes the existence and rules for intellectual property. Once you accept the concept of intellectual property then you must accept the concept that taking someones intellectual property is theft just as taking someones physical property is theft.
So, yes, this scum bag created a game that is essentially a clone of Pac-Man and even use the same images for his muncher and the ghosts. You don't have to actually use the original art work. If you make a copy of a piece of art, even by your own hand, then you are breaking the rules of copyright. After all, what does the word mean? Copyright literally means "the right to make a copy". Making a copy without permission is theft.
Using the a trademark with out permission is not only theft from the owner, but theft from the buyer. The idea of a trademark is to insure that when it says "Gucci" on the bag you are getting something actually designed and made by "Gucci". When you make some that looks like Pac-Man, but isn't you are stealing from the owner of the trade mark and from customers who are not getting the real Pac-Man.
So, yes, this is about copyright, trademark, and theft from both the owners of the trademark and copyrights and from the people who purchased it.
The person who posted the original question is a thief who is looking for information that he hopes will allow him to continue as a game developer without continuing as a thief. This is a good goal.
The easiest thing to do in his case is to be a little bit creative. If you want to do a game based on the Japanese folk hero Paku he should research the legend and design a new game. If he wants to just be inspired by Pak-Man then he should be inspired by it enough to create a new game that includes the basic ideas but is not the same game, with the same style of art, with characters that look just like the original characters, and without the same scoring and strategy.
As an example, take a look at the relationship between "Dungeons & Dragons" and "The Lord of the Rings" or even "Bunnies and Burrows" and "Watership Down". Not to mention the relationship between "B&B" and "D&D". (And think of how lucky were are that AFAIK there is no A&A, C&C... Z&Z"!)
The key is that "inspired by" does not mean that it is a near perfect copy down to the art work. A near perfect copy is theft. Inspired by can be great art.
I would suggest that the person who asked the question should get an education. I would suggest starting with a book on the intellectual history of the world. Failing that, at least find, and read, three or four books on the basic concepts of law and especially intellectual property law.
If anyone doubts the importance of intellectual property law let me point out that the basic rights most Americans take for granted were added to the Constitution in the form of the Bill of Rights, aka the first ten amendments to the Constitution. OTOH, The legal basis for US intellectual property law is in the core of the original text of the constitution. The founding fathers all came to agree on the need to guarantee intellectual property rights. But, some of them thought it was a bad idea to limit the states right to control religion, speech, the press, weapons, searches, and the states power to use torture to extract a confession.
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Comment: Re:Game programming is for fun, not for money. (Score 1) 240
by stonewolf (#33856308) Attached to: Best Education Path To Learn Video Game Programming?
The simple fact is that a lot of programmers, like the rest of humanity are idiots.
People want to be associated with the rich and famous, They think that some how that makes them better in someway. The same thing makes people walk around wearing a football jersey with someone else's name and number on it.
As a result people line up to be abused by the rich and famous and that goes double for rich and famous companies.
For every job open at a major game company there are hundreds, if not thousands, or people applying for that job. That fact encourages companies to treat employees as toilet paper. OTOH, the few people who are truly exceptional can rise high and rise quickly. They are well paid and well treated. But, that isn't what happens to most people.
by stonewolf (#33839208) Attached to: Best Education Path To Learn Video Game Programming?
Game development is a highly entrepreneurial business. Which means you have to watch out for your self and it means you are only as good as your last project. Many companies hire you for the duration of a project. When the project is done you are laid off. The project might be done when it ships, and it might be done after lunch today because the producer decided to use the money for a game that appears to have a better ROI.
Once you have been laid off you get to look around for another project. You will be unemployed during that hunting time. Even if you were making over $20,000/month (never happens for programmers) in your last project you might not get that in your next project. And, you might have to live on savings for anywhere from a month to a year between projects. Not to mention that you may find your self work 80 hours/week while you are working. So, yeah the salary might look nice, but when you look at actual yearly earnings it doesn't look that good. When you break it down to $/hour you might find you could do better working behind the bar at Starbucks or delivering pizzas.
The funniest thing is how many people think that if they will get a cut of the revenue from the game. You don't. The stock holders get the revenue. If you want to make money from games develop them and market them your self.
Comment: I have ex-students working in game development... (Score 1) 240
by stonewolf (#33838760) Attached to: Best Education Path To Learn Video Game Programming?
I'm currently teaching game development. I have taught it in the classroom and on line since 2004. I run a mailing list for wanna be game developers, I have run it for more than 10 years. I helped a college develop their game programming curriculum, for some reason they won't let me teach game dev there any more :-) I used to be game developer. I only did that for 2 full time years, but I was in the computer graphics industry for 10 years after I got my MSCS and before I went into game development. After being part owner of a game company, programmer, and technical director, I moved on. I went to work for a fortune 50 company doing technical and business analysis for games. Now I'm a teacher. And, I am damn near 60 years old. Oh, yeah, I also did 5 major start ups not counting my times as an independent software developer. I had founders shares in 2 of the start ups.
I designed my first game (not a video game :-) when I was 12 and my first paid programming job was porting games from a minicomputer to a mainframe back in the early '70s.
I have a large number of students from my classroom classes who are working in the computer game business. Most of them are developers. I have an even larger number of people who started on my mailing list who are now working in the game development business. I think I have something to say about this subject.
First off, the best way to get a job at one of the Majors is to create a successful independent studio and then sell you studio to one of the majors. Sure, you can get hired at one of the Majors, but then you will be just like the rest of the toilet paper. Cheap, disposable, and only really good for one use because after you use it it is covered in ... well you get the picture.
OTOH, if they have to *buy* your company they will respect you at least a little bit and you will at least have a nice office and a real salary. But, get the money in cash, not in stock. Stock is like toilet paper... Cash is something you can spend.
Secondly, the best way to get any job in game development is to develop games and sell them or find some other way to make money off of them. Yes, by fart the best, easiest, and most lucrative way to get a game development job is to start your own company. If you do not know how you can learn how quickly. Most states, the federal government, many cities, and every community college I know of in the US has courses on small business management and entrepreneurship. Take them, and make sure you get at least on class on contract law while you are at it. Those classes along with a couple of semesters of probabilaity and statistics will be worth more to you over the next 40 years than anything you learn about programming or graphics. All the tech stuff will be obsolete in 5 years, the business, statistics, and law stuff will still be accurate.
As for education. A degree in CS used to be a good place to start. I'm not so sure about that anymore. If you go to a school that only uses one language all the way through (especially if that language is Java or C#) you should find a real school. But, it is still probably better to get a CS degree than a physics degree. Math is kind of a wash. A math degree with a CSMS is not a bad combo. If you can find a school that offers CS degree with a strong emphasis on software engineering you are in pretty good shape. You need to take trigonometry, college algebra with computational geometry, linear algebra with lots of matrices, calculus, numerical analysis, and probably differential equations. I didn't get linear algebra and DiffEQ as an under grad so I had to teach my self linear algebra and I'm married to an ME so I go to her when I need help with DiffEQ. But, you really need at least DiffEQ to understand physics. Yes, you also need to take physics at least a good introduction. A couple of years of physics in high school is good enough. You need need to take a few art classes. I would suggest an art history course, and courses in something like introductory painting, drawing, or sculpture. You also need to take a survey of history. Learning to play a musical instrument, or doing a lot of singing helps. Take at least one class in creative writing, and one in technical writing.
In your computer science studies take a 3d graphics or multimedia programming class. But, seriously, if you have the background in math, art, music, and programming then learning computer graphic and sound programming is not a challenge. But, you must take everything you can about programming, software engineering, data structures, simulation (you may have to go over to the industrial engineering department to get that one), databases, formal language theory, machine architectures, theory of computation (yes, you need to understand the differenced between a finite state machine and an infinite state machine), network architecture, and anything else that looks interesting to you. Yes, you might have to get an MS to get all those classes or take night classes after you graduate to get all this stuff. BTW, you can take the classes without getting a degree. I have an MS but I have more than 45 "extra" hours that have not been applied to any degree. Education does not stop when you get your degrees. In many ways that is when it starts. I have a stock certificate in a non-existent company that I keep the same folder that has by BS and MS degrees. I learned more in 1 year than I ever learned in school.
Oh my, what a list. Do you have to have all that before you start writing games? *NO* you do not. If you want to be a game developer you are developing games right now no matter what level of education you currently have.
Here is the real punch line:
If you want to be a game developer you are already a game developer because you are already writing games. You have at least one game that you are developing right now.
You do not have to work for someone to be a game developer.
You can tell what someone really wants to do by watching what they are doing in their spare time. If you spend all you spare time at the pub drinking with your mates, that is what you really want to. If you spend your spare time reading books about game development and design and coding your own games then you really want to be a game developer. If you can not figure out how to start learning to be a game developer you do not have the problem solving skills needed to be a game developer.
The advice I give to my students is based on the history of Id software. That crew worked for a magazine that was published on a floppy disk (the 5.25 inch ones) and they had to write a game every month. The magazine paid them to write a playable fun little game every month that went out on the floppy. The skills needed to do that are the same as the skills needed to write WOW. Basically the ability to create a doable design. The ability to stick to a schedule. The ability to write code that works. The self discipline to stick to a plan. The ability to realize when you need to cut your losses. The ability to put down the joy stick and write your own games instead of playing other peoples games. The basic interest in doing something real instead of spending your life being entertained.
My best advice is to pick the design of a game you like that can be coded in a month. A week is better, but a month will do. Pick something that you can do using freely available art or something that does not require any art. If you can do your own art that's great, but remember that artists are cheap so don't waste time of being an artist if you can be a developer. Then code up your game and play it. Let your friends play it. Then put it in your portfolio file along with a document (yes you need to write) that details what you did right, what went wrong, what you leaned, and what you wish you knew more about. You need to write that document so that you will actually do the analysis of the game. BTW, if you get stuck or you hit the end of the month without being done. STOP. Write the document, go learn what you were missing. Write some test cases to make sure you know what you just learned. Then start a new design. Don't back and try to fix your old code. Even if you go back to your old design start over. DO NOT USE YOUR OLD CODE. People get emotionally attached to there old code. As a wise wise man by the name of Dr. Art Evens once said to me, "You fall in love with what you make love too". Too many programmers refuse to dump their old code because of the investment they have in it. They will spend years working on broken code because they can't bear to just flush something they have spent so much time on.
Everyone I know who has followed this advice, is now working for a game company as a developer or is making at least some money as an independent game developer or working for an independent studio. Most students refuse to believe this advice. Many students are incapable of following this advice. But, all who have are working game developers.
I explained all this to a student in a C++ for game programmers class. He started following it that night. He dropped out of the class because he got a job as a full time programmer at a fairly large studio. He recreated a number of the old block graphics game programs from the '70s and '80s in C++ using DirectX. He spent nearly a month on the first one. Less than two weeks on each of the others. He picked the best two and sent them around to local game studios. He got replies from most of the studios that he sent his portfolio too and he was hired during his second interview. Yes, he already had a CS degree which helped.
OTOH, I have had a couple of Ph.D physicists take my classes and immediately get good jobs at major studios. A Ph.D in particle or theoretical physics plus a portfolio containing a couple of simple games is likely to get you a good job in many parts of the entertainment industry.
Most of my students are not working in anything resembling game development. They expected to take a series of classes and then be hired by the majors because of their straight A average. That does not happen. You need the education, but you must love game development enough to do it on your own. You must have the problem solving skills needed to find solutions to problems like "how do I learn to program games". You must be willing to take reasonable will thought out risks like the risks involved in starting a business. And, you have to be able to figure out how you are going to make money.
Oh yeah, before the artists out there try to flame me down let me pass on a bit of conversation I had with our creative director one day. He asked me why we got so many applications from programmers who were also artists and musicians, even composers, not we never got applications from artists or composers who were also programmers? I have what I think are answers to that question, but I don't trust them enough to pass them on. But, it is a fact that a lot of programmers are writers, musicians, and artists, but the reverse is not true. As a result, there more people become artists than become programmers. In the market the scarcer good costs more. So, as a rule of thumb if you are a programmer you should spend you time on programming because it is worth more.
Last comment: Most state colleges offer the kinds of classes you need to become a game developer. Getting degrees in general areas like CS or Math is always better than getting a degree in a specialized area like game development. A person with a CS degree can get jobs in many places. A person with a degree in game development will not even be looked at for the same jobs. OTOH, a person with a CS degree and a portfolio can apply for any job someone with a degree in game development can apply for.
I have met a few outstanding people who graduated from Full Sail, I have met some outstanding people who have BS degrees in CS who took a few game development classes at the local community college who are every bit as good as the folks from Full Sail. I have met people with CS degrees from MIT who could not pass a game development course at the local CC and others from the same school who were exceptional. So, be careful about your choice of schools. Also, be very wary of on line schools. The economics of teaching on line says an on line class should cost no more, and maybe less, than the same class taught by a tax supported CC. But, that is not the case. If you are being asked to pay $2000+ for a half semester on line course then you are getting ripped off big time. Most of the on line "colleges" and "universities" are designed to get you to max out your student loans and give the money to them. They are not in the business of educating people, they are in the business of making as much money as possible while leaving you 10s of thousands of dollars of debt that you will be paying off for the next 40 years.
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You are right about people not being able to handle 2D driving, and having grown up in the mountains I know that people have even more trouble driving in 3D on roads :-)
I expect that within 20 years cars driven under human controls will not be allowed in cities or on major highways. I *DO* believe that we will have flying cars, but we will *NEVER* be allowed to operate them under human control. The will not be capable of violating any laws and you will not have to worry about a drunk pilot flying in to the 37th floor of you apartment building.
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the task of cleaning out the closet where I've been dumping my old computers and parts came to the top of the infamous honey-do list. I found 8 40gig drives a couple of 30gig drives and a 20gig drive. After testing I had 6 working 30gig drives. I tore down the others just for grins and giggles and to pass around in some of my classes. Not to mention the magnets in the head positioning system are fun to play with.
I also found an old mother board, 3 or 4 CDROM drives, RAM, a couple of power supplies and a very very old PC case. So, I built a PC. We call it Frankenputer. I got a working Athlon 1.5Ghz processor from the computer goodwill store and I lucked out and found some PCI IDE interface cards at the same place. (I had to update all the ROMs in the whole system to get it to work. Finding the BIOSes for a bunch of discontinued cards made by out of business companies was not as hard it sounds.) I had one set of rails for installing a 3.5 inch hard drive in a 5.25 bay. I found several more at computer Goodwill Computer store! I picked up a 30 dollar case at Fry's.
Thanks to google, Goodwill, and freedos I got it all working. I used FreeDos and GParted to get all the disks configured and tested as a raid. Then, I installed Ubuntu using the "alternative" installation disk.
Even though the drives were all "40GB" drives each manufacturers drives were of a different size. So, I created a partition the size of the smallest drive on each drive. Then in the extra space I created a partition of the size of the empty space on the next largest drive. The odd bits of space left at the end of two drives I just partitioned as their actual size. I used the 6 large partitions as a RAID 0, the second set became another RAID 0. The rest of the partitions just became normal drives.
I stuck an old NVidia video card and a old but good network card in there and the thing actually works. It is an absurdly fast disk server.
Every 3.5 inch bay has a drive in it. Every 5.25 inch drive bay has a drive in it.
All the rest of the stuff in the closet went to Goodwill or the dump. Recently a new item went on my list... Move Frankenputer out of the living room. Oh well. And it looks so good on the book shelf :-) For some reason she wants me to move the table saw out of the living room too. Can't imagine why? Can you?
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I got an APK from the Internet.
Can I install and run the APK on the emulator?
If yes, how to do it?
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Possible duplicate: stackoverflow.com/questions/4512458/… – shkschneider Aug 7 '12 at 10:16
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Yes it is possible
first copy that .apk file into "platform-tools" folder of your android-SDK then open the command prompt and go to "platform-tools" folder now type "adb install _" here underline means your .apk file name. then press enter. it's DONE
Be sure that your emulator is running.
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Use adb to install apk on emulator (or any connected device as well):
adb install file.apk
Re-install, keeping application data:
adb install -r file.apk
adb documentation is available here: http://developer.android.com/tools/help/adb.html
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Yes you can.
Easiest way is to download the apk file from within the browser on the emulator, then install it from the notifications menu.
Alternatively, you can install the Android SDK (which you might already have done if you have the emulator) and use adb install my.apk which should install to any available device (so long as only one is available). Use adb devices to check what devices are available - when you run the emulator, it should show up there.
N.B. you will need to enable unknown sources in the applications menu of settings for this to work.
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Place it in your host and download the .apk file from your emulator browser.
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Place your .apk file in the platform-tools folder of SDK, go to command prompt (path to ADB) and run the following command:
adb install your_apk_file.apk
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I'm not sure if it will work, but try to open the File Explorer of the emulator through DDMS perspective in Eclipse, and copy/paste your apk in a folder. Then navigate to that folder from your emulator and launch the apk.
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If the GOP's Crazy Tea Party Candidates Win Senate Seats, the Country Will Be Ungovernable
Cross-posted from the Booman Tribune.
While I consider a lot of the progressive anger at the administration to involve a degree of naïveté about how Congress functions, the Tea Partiers are no more informed. Alexander Burns examines in Poltico the question of whether the GOP will be hurt by all its oddball candidates. Even Republicans are struggling to understand the results of their primaries.
But Washington doesn't do radical change and even if all the oddball Republicans are elected to Congress, they won't radically change the kind of legislation that it produces. What they'll do is prevent any legislation from being produced at all.
It gets tiresome to keep repeating myself, but it must be understood what it means that the Senate operates by unanimous consent. It means that one ornery senator can grind the upper body to a halt. To see what I mean let's go back to July 2008:
As it turned out, the Tomnibus Bill didn't pass until January 2009. It was the first bill passed by this Congress (before Obama was even inaugurated). Tom Coburn made history with his unprecedented level of obstruction, but that was only a prelude to Mitch McConnell adopting the strategy for the entire party (now dubbed the 'Party of No strategy').
To take just the case of Rand Paul, he doesn't seem to differ from his father on any significant issues. Ron Paul operates in the House, which doesn't require unanimous consent. But, given how often Ron Paul is the single vote against a bill, it's obvious that there very few issues where he'd be willing to grant his consent for something Congress wants to do. If Rand Paul follows his father's example in the Senate, he'll make Tom Coburn seem like a piker. And the same thing can be said for Ken Buck in Colorado and Sharron Angle in Nevada. These people may be radicals, but they won't be rolling back the Civil Rights Act of 1964 or amending the Constitution to end birthright citizenship. What they'll do is create total gridlock.
Mainstream Republicans do not always approve of Tom Coburn's actions, and he's still reasonable enough to follow his leadership most of the time when they want to cut a deal and let something proceed. But this new crop of candidates has no respect for the Senate leadership of the Republican Party. They won their nominations over the active opposition of that leadership. They are attempting to come to Washington to radically oppose the Obama administration, and cutting deals will not be big on their agenda.
Washington has a way of taming radical politicians over time, but the senators who will be elected this November will serve for the remainder of Obama's presidency (whether he is reelected or not).
These candidates are a threat to Obama's agenda, but they're not going to succeed in doing anything they're promising to do other than obstruct his agenda. This will lead to gridlock which infuriates 75% of the country and disillusionment for the remainder.
I don't know how many of them will win, but they're a recipe for short-term disaster for the country and long-term disaster for the Republican Party
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Principles and Concepts I
G- Code Learning Group (#3)
Jonathan Remo
Mayank Srivastava
Zhigang Wang
History of Computer Programming
Visual Basic Concepts
Application of Visual Basic
What is a Program?
• Program is a specific set of ordered operations for a computer to perform.
What is a Complier ?
• A special program that processes statements written in a particular programming
processor uses.
Charles Babbage’s Difference Engine
The earliest form of a computer language was physical
The tasks were executed by changing the gears which
performed the calculations.
Electronic Numerical Integrator (ENIAC)
Calculations were performed using electrical signals in
stead of physical motion.
"Programmed" by presetting switches and rewiring the
entire system for each new "program" or calculation.
John Von Neumann
Shared-program technique
Conditional control transfer
Conditional control transfer the brought about the idea computer code
should be able to branch based on logical statements such as IF
(expression) THEN, and looped such as with a FOR statement.
Conditional control transfer also gave rise to the idea of libraries.
Short Code
Short Code was the first computer language for
electronic devices.
Required the programmer to change its statements into
0's and 1's by hand.
Grace Hooper and the Complier
A compiler is a program that turns the language's
statements into 0's and 1's for the computer to understand.
Lead to faster programming
Auto Code
The AutoCode-compiler, which compiles symbolic assembler
language on a Manchester Mark I computer.
The first of the major languages.
Developed by IBM for scientific computing.
Language included IF, DO, and GOTO statements.
The basic types of data in use today got their start in
FORTRAN, these included logical variables (TRUE or
FALSE), and integer, real, and double-precision numbers.
Designed for Artificial Intelligence (AI) research.
The difference between this language and other languages
is that the basic and only type of data is the list, denoted by
a sequence of items enclosed by parentheses.
LISP programs themselves are written as a set of lists, so
that LISP has the unique ability to modify itself, and hence
grow on its own.
Algorithmic Language
Independent of specific type of hardware.
Language was carefully and formally designed.
Algol’s major contribution is being the basis for Pascal, C,
C++, and Java.
It was also the first language with a formal grammar, known
as Backus-Naar Form or BNF.
COmmon Business Oriented Language
Designed from the ground up as the language for
Data types were numbers and strings of text.
It allowed for the data to be grouped into arrays and
records, so that data could be tracked and organized better.
BASIC (Beginners' All-purpose Symbolic
Instruction Code)
John Kemeny and Thomas Kurtz invents BASIC
and its compiler. It was developed at Dartmouth
College as a teaching tool
Pascal was developed mainly out of necessity for a good teaching tool.
Designed in a very orderly approach, it combined many of the best
The combination of features, input/output and solid mathematical features,
made it a highly successful language.
Pascal also improved the "pointer" data type, a very powerful feature of
any language that implements it.
It also added a CASE statement that allowed instructions.
C was developed the Unix system. Unix gives C such
advanced features as dynamic variables (e.g. variant),
multitasking, interrupt handling, forking, and strong, low-
level, input-output.
Because of this, C is very commonly used to program
operating systems such as Unix, Windows, the MacOS,
and Linux.
OOP and C++
In the late 1970's and early 1980's, Object Oriented Programming, or
OOP was developed.
Objects are pieces of data that can be packaged and manipulated by the
In 1983 developed into the language C++
C++ was designed to organize the raw power of C using OOP, maintain
Visual Basic (VB)
Evolved from BASIC
With the development of Microsoft windows graphical user
interface (GUI) in the late 1980s and the early 1990s,
BASIC evolved into VB.
VB is developed on using forms and windows using in
which a programs drags and drops into the program.
Netscape licensed Java for use in their internet browser.
Has optimization problems
Java may wind up as the instructional language of
tomorrow as it is truly object-oriented and implements
advanced techniques such as true portability of code and
garbage collection.
Visual Basic Concepts
VB is windows based programming language that
allows a programmer to build applications running
under Windows.
VB constructs the necessary building blocks that a Windows
application needs
Hence, very little coding needs to be performed
Integrated development environment (IDE) allows the
programmer to create, run and debug Windows
programs in one application
VB is a EVENT driven language
Code is written to respond to specific events
Allows code to be short and is compartmentalized by events.
Visual Basic Environment
How to start Visual Basic?
Visual Basic Environment
Integrated Environment Screen
Menu Bar: lists of commands
Tool Bar: quick access to mostly common used
Form:window where the application is designed
Project Explorer: a list of forms,modules, classes
or ActiveX components
Properties Window: a list of the property settings
for a control
Tool Box: a set of tools designing applications
Form Layout: set the forms screen position
Menu Bar
Tool Bar
Toolbox Form
Selection Tool Picture Box
Label Text Box
Frame Command Button
Check Box
Option Button
Combo Box
List Box
Horizontal Scroll Bar
Vertical Scroll Bar
Drive Box
Directory List
File list
Image Box
Data Control
OLE Control
Operations on a Project
How to Open?
Choose the file open icon on the toolbar or
the file open menu
Type in or choose the name of the file to
Same as other MS software
Operations on a Project
How to Save?
A VB project consists of many forms, modules,
and graphics, and all of them are saved within
separate files within the project
Project File Extensions
Design-time Files
Miscellaneous Development Files
Run-time Files
Saving a project
Saving a form or module
Automatic saving of project files and forms
Using help
Using Controls on a Form
Adding a control to a form
Selecting a control
Resizing a control
Deleting a control
Moving a control
Setting control properties
Object Box – displays the name of the selected
Properties List – displays a scrollable list of all
properties for the selected control
Adding code to controls
Option Explicit – error preventing statement
Adding Comments to Code
Comments are useful to remind the
programmer about the purpose of the code or
any problems with it
Text within the code window are color coded
Green – comments
Blue – valid VB commands
Black – programmer’s code
Building A Visual Basic Application
Step 1: Draw the interface
Step 2: Set properties
Step 3: Write codes
Step 4: Execute the program
Controlling the Program Flow
Conditional Operator
Operator Meaning
= Equal to
> More than
< Less Than
>= More than and equal
<= Less than and equal
<> Not Equal to
Controlling the Program Flow
Logical Operators
Operator Meaning
And Both sides must be true
Or One side or other must be
Xor One side or other must be
true but not both
Not Negates truth
Controlling the Program Flow
If – Then - Else statement
If conditions Then VB expressions
VB expressions
End If
Case Select Statement
Select Case expression
Case value1
Block of one or more VB statements
Case value2
Block of one or more VB Statements
Declaring a Variable
Dim Variable as Variable Type
Dim r as Integer
Dim pi as Double
If variable is not declared the program will
consider it as an variant
VB Codes
Program for finding the volume of a cone and a
Dim r as double
Dim h as double
Dim pi as double
Dim v as double
r = Val(radius.Text)
h = Val(hght.Text)
Pi = 22 / 7
v = Pi * (r ^ 2) * h
volume.Text = Str$(v)
The general format of a function is:
where arguments are values that are passed on
to the functions
Visual Basic
Problem Statement
Calculate the commission
Sales Volume($) Commissions
<500 3%
<1000 6%
<2000 9%
<5000 12%
>5000 15%
Macro in Excel
Function Comm(Sales_V As Variant) as Variant
If Sales_V <500 Then
Elseif Sales_V>=500 and Sales_V<1000 Then
Elseif Sales_V>=1000 and Sales_V<2000 Then
Elseif Sales_V>=200 and Sales_V<5000 Then
Elseif Sales_V>=5000 Then
End If
End Function
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If you went back in time to 1995 what three things would you tell them?
Asked by Myndecho (945 points ) March 26th, 2009
Of course this is assuming you can only tell them three things.
I have a feeling a lot of people will say about the twin towers but if you use your noggin you will find a way to tell them more than one thing at once.
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Sueanne_Tremendous's avatar
Sell your stocks before April 2008.
Don’t go to New Orleans if a hurricane is predicted.
Bet heavily on an African-American becoming president in 2009.
A_Beaverhausen's avatar
save, pay it off, and move out of the country.
TheIowaCynic's avatar
1 Invest heavily in Microsoft, Home Depot, Oracle and Google ASAP. Dump the first three at the end of 2,000 and Google at the end of 2007.
2. Protest our congress to immediately change our immigration laws. I would tell them that if they don’t, in 13 years they will have 35 million illegal immigrants, quickly making our entire country insolvent.
3. Do NOT agree to giving China preferred nation status or in 13 years, America will have no manufacturing and will be on the verge of watching it’s auto-industry go under.
SpatzieLover's avatar
Pay off your mortgage now, while you have a job and a good economy!
hug_of_war's avatar
See I think if time travel could happen it would be like on the TV show Lost where it doesn’t make a difference what you do in the past, what happened will always happen. So it doesn’t matter what I tell them in my version of time travel.
girlofscience's avatar
@hug_of_war: So now how is (child) Ben’s death going to be reconciled?
hug_of_war's avatar
@girlofscience: I do not know, but lost always finds a way to make sense of the senseless
adreamofautumn's avatar
1. walk, bike, take public transportation. Copyright the word “carbon footprint” and then do your best to help erase yours.
2. The solid economy is not guaranteed. My advice: Bet your life savings on the Red Sox in 2004 despite the fact that I still can’t believe it happened (and i’m still grumpy about it), no one would believe it, but the one that did would make a killing, invest in Microsoft then sell it off in the early 2000’s. Turn all of that money into gold bars, and hide it in your garage which is safer than the banks.
3. New Orleans: make sure you have homeowners and life insurance, NYC: make sure you have life insurance, Littleton, CO: get a school counselor in to address bullying immediately. America is not immune to disaster.
Myndecho's avatar
I was talking to my friend about the grand father paradox a few years back, I will not bore you here with the details but I personally think it’s possible to kill your grandfather because you have already been born and when you go back in time your taking yourself out of the time line. I had a rather large poll on it in a old website I used to go on.
Allie's avatar
Steer clear of the WTC on September 11, 2001.
Save your pennies, you’ll need them.
AIG, Lehman Bros., auto industry: BEWARE.
P.S. The Millenium does not bring the end of the world.
Jack79's avatar
I wasn’t going to mention the Twin Towers (for the simple reason that it’s an important event in US history, but not as big to everyone else, and I belong to “everyone else”). But since you mentioned it:
I’d tell all NY Jews that there will be free food on the top of the Twin Towers on Sept 11th. Then persuade Bush that it would be a good idea to go talk to them, since they’re such an important community for the votes and so on.
It depends on whether you want to use the knowledge for good or evil. Are you trying to help people? And will they listen?
I could probably go back and tell my friends to invest in certain companies, or play certain numbers in the lottery. But would the entire population of Yugoslavia listen if I told them to evacuate the country before the 1999 bombings? Or would Madelaine Albright believe me if I told her that her favourite “freedom fighter” and his Taliban soldiers would be America’s worst enemy just 2 years later? And would she even care (because I seriously do not believe that Albright didn’t know who Bin Laden was when they were working together in Kosovo).
Ok, now I’m too political, but the question begged for it.
I’d probably use the knowledge to change my own life. Be more careful in my marriage (though it was this particular marriage that led to the particular daughter). Or invest all the money I made between 1998–2002. But I doubt warning anybody would have helped.
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“I’d tell all NY Jews that there will be free food on the top of the Twin Towers on Sept 11th”———seriously?!?!?!
I’m not sure where you going with this…but it just seems incredibly wrong to me.
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@girlofscience – apparently, i have some DVR watching to do. But, John Locke’s death was resolved. Twice now.
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1. On September 11th 2001 two planes will hit into the twin towers starting war with Afghanistan
2. I don’t want to show myself up on the minimal amount I know about the recession so (Details on the recession)
3. Do not by any means eat bananas – Just to keep them on their toes.
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@adreamofautumn no, not seriously (obviously). But the question tempted me…
sorry, I know people get offended sometimes. Didn’t mean it. Even Bush is probably a nice guy once you get to meet him.
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“Never again” will keep happening again and again.
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@Jack79 just checking. I was worried for a second that I would have to hate you haha. I don’t like disliking people.
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@Jack79 : please say you’re joking about sending NY Jews to the top of the WTC. If it’s a joke, it’s a terrible one. If it’s not a joke… well… I got a whole lot more to say.
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Keyes' personal life often overshadowed her acting career. Besides her often turbulent marriages to Shaw and directors Huston and Charles Vidor, she lived with the flamboyant producer Mike Todd for three years during his preparation and filming of "Around the World in 80 Days." She played a cameo role in the movie and helped on publicity.
Todd sent her to the premiere in Caracas, then called her abruptly from Paris with this message: "Listen, I have to tell you. I've fallen in love with Elizabeth (Taylor)."
"Oh well, nothing lasts forever," she philosophized in 1977. "The good part was that I invested all my money in `Around the World in 80 Days,' and that set me up for life."
Keyes gave a frank account of her romances and marriages in her 1977 autobiography, "Scarlett O'Hara's Younger Sister." Her role in the 1939 classic led to a contract at Columbia Pictures and stardom.
Among her notable roles: as Robert Montgomery's lover in "Here Comes Mr. Jordan" (1941), the Ruby Keeler role as Al Jolson's wife in "The Jolson Story" (1946), and as Dick Powell's wife in "Mrs. Mike" (1949).
She also starred in B pictures that were later praised by movie critics as prime examples of film noir: "Johnny O'Clock" (1947), "The Killer That Stalked New York" (1950), "The Prowler" (1951), "99 River Street" (1953) and "The Big Combo" (1955).
Vidor, a handsome Hungarian who directed her first Columbia film, "The Lady in Question," became romantically involved with Keyes, though both were married at the time. When her husband committed suicide and Vidor's wife, actress Karen Morley, divorced him, Vidor and Keyes married. The marriage ended two years later when she discovered he was unfaithful to her as well.
Their marriage in 1946 led to an adventurous life. Just one of the examples she recalled in 1971 involved Huston returning home from the 1949 film "We Were Strangers," with a gift from actress Jennifer Jones, a pet chimpanzee.
David Niven wrote in his memoir "Bring on the Empty Horses" that Keyes became exasperated at the non-housebroken animal and issued an ultimatum: "One of us has to go. It's the monkey or me."
According to Niven, Huston replied, "Honey, it's you." Keyes reported in her own memoir that it was the chimp that got the boot.
The Huston marriage did end in 1950, however, and Keyes sought analysis to recover from the failure. Her conclusion: "I was always looking for the same man — a strong father figure."
After a few minor roles at Paramount, she appeared in "Gone With the Wind" and then moved to Columbia, where her career blossomed.
After her film career and marriages ended, she turned author, producing an autobiographical novel, "I Am a Billboard," two memoirs, "Scarlett O'Hara's Younger Sister" and "I'll Think About It Tomorrow," film scripts and articles.
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What Anime series do u want to see on PS3 and to what Genre?
#61Nirvanas_NoxPosted 7/29/2013 8:21:56 PM
artemis21 posted...
Sword Art Online
i feel this should be mmo only lol
Silence is golden but duct tape is silver.
#62copycat2008Posted 7/29/2013 8:30:48 PM
samurai champloo - unimusha style gameplay.
ghost in the shell - Deus Ex style (of course)
cowboy beboop - multiple story/ending assasins creed type of gameplay, (since they are bounty hunters)
#63MoonlightSwordPosted 7/29/2013 9:55:01 PM
Iampony1 posted...
Jakerific44 posted...
MoonlightSword posted...
Cardcaptor Sakura - Action-RPG/Sandbox
This would actually be really cool.
And I also want some sort of FMA- Open World and Cowboy Bebop- Shooter kind of game.
It could work like RDR
a random event is a card you have to capture.......why isnt that a thing?
thanks, that's a great idea with the random events, maybe you would just see abnormalities in the world as you run around (like getting caught in an area loop or something) and if you have the means you could try and capture the card, you basically have the whole town at your disposal... using various clow magic to access different areas and a bunch of NPCs that are card related quests as well, could even enlist Li to help for certain cards... and of course Tomoyo would provide replays ^_^
Subspace is the best game ever - DZA forever
#64Seifer_usPosted 7/29/2013 10:12:56 PM
Paragon-57 posted...
Bloodlines1191 posted...
Already made on PS2 many years ago.
Yeah, but the topic titles says, "On PS3" ...
Heh, I don't think he realized that Hajime no Ippo has already had several (fantastic) games as well, two of which were released in the U.S. under the name "Victorious Boxers". I'm fond of the GBA one which plays a LOT like Super Punch Out!!
I actually have the second PS2 Gungrave game signed by Yasuhiro Nightow and producer Toru Kubo because I was there for the Japanese launch of the game in 2004.
For what I want made, I personally still want that Trigun game that was in the works at Sega before it morphed into Gungrave. I think it'd be a great straight-forward action game with some unique mechanics (i.e. no killing). I'd also like to echo the requests for a Shingeki no Kyojin (Attack on Titan) game, which I'd also like as a straight-forward action game. Ideally, both games would be developed by Platinum. I was quite impressed with the gameplay in Metal Gear Rising (just fix the camera and stupid plot), so I think they could come up with innovative ideas to make those two games work.
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Nargisi Kabab
1. Mash potato. Keep aside to cool. 2. Heat 1 tablespoon oil in fry-pan, saute onion till transparent. 3. Add mince, curry paste, stir on high for 1 min. 4. Add salt, chilli and 1/4 cup water. Bring to boil. 5. Cover, cook on low till mince is cooked... - 46.4252
Cutlets In Gravy
To make cutlets, mix mince, chopped ingredients, seasoning and soaked bread and leave aside for at least 1 hour. Form into flat cutlets. Dip in beaten egg. Coat with breadcrumbs and fry in heated ghee till brown. To make gravy, chop tomatoes and put to boil... - 46.264
Mulligatawny With Meat
MAKING 1) In a saucepan add all the ingredients together, except the coconut milk, fat and red onions. 2) Boil the mixture and simmer down to 3-4 cups stock. 3) Take out meat and cut the pieces of meat. 4) Strain the stock and reserve. 5) In a skillet heat... - 46.2565
Samish Mirchi Soup
MAKING 1)In a pan, add mutton, water and salt. Boil for 30 minutes or until meat is tender. 2)Using an electric blender make a paste and strain it into another saucepan. 3)In a saucepan, heat ghee and saute onion until golden. 4)Make a paste of spices and add... - 45.569
Mulligatawny Soup
Ask butcher to saw shoulder into pieces 2-inches thick. Rinse meat in cold water, place in large saucepan and cover with cold water. Bring to boil slowly, skimming when necessary. Cover and simmer over a low heat for 1 hour. Skim fat from surface. Melt butter... - 45.1423
Mutton Cutlet
Delicious starter for any occasion. - 44.9761
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Lemony Seekh Kabab
Soak the bread in just enough water to dampen it; squeeze out any excess. Set aside. If your butcher has not put the meat twice through the grinder, do it yourself. In a large nonmetallic bowl, combine the meat, bread, chopped garlic, ginger, Chinese parsley... - 43.3697
Mutton Chilli Fry
1. Clean and cut meat. 2. Grind chillies, turmeric, ginger, cumin and half the onion. 3. Slice the other half of the onion and garlic. 4. Heat fat and fry onion and garlic lightly. Add powdered cloves and fry. 5. Add meat and the ground spices. Fry well;... - 41.6959
Shami Kabab
Minced meat with oriental spices makes a great Starter item. - 40.9497
Meat Stick
Grind the mince twice. Add cumin seeds, onion, chilli, garlic, ginger, coriander leaves and fenugreek, and grind for the third time. Add the rest of the ingredients and shape the mixture into sticks. Grease a heavy frying pan and arrange the sticks on it side... - 40.9002
Murgh Musallam
1. Clean and joint chicken into large pieces. 2. Grind spices with salt. Rub over the chicken pieces. 3. Blanch tomatoes and chop. 4. Heat fat, saute chicken. Add any spice mixture left over in the pan. Cover tightly and cook till all liquid is evaporated. 5.... - 40.1
Mutton Fry
This Mutton Fry recipe is loved by my family. Mutton Fry is a very popular Indian appetizer. It goes well with chutney, but it can also be eaten with tomato sauce. Try and enjoy this mutton fry recipe. - 39.6511
Malai Meat
Malai Meat has a fine taste. Malai Meat gets its taste from mutton mixed with yoghurt and cream and flavored with spices. Malai Meat is adored by meat consumers. - 39.4467
Liver Kebab
MAKING 1) Make a paste of garlic, ginger and chillies. 2) Mix it with curd, salt and other spices. 3) Marinate the liver in this mixture for an hour. 4) Skewer the liver pieces and let it sit for 10 minutes. Then sprinkle some ghee and roast them until done.... - 38.857
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Mutton Cutlets
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Dry Minced Meat
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Marinate mutton with the ingredients 2-14 for about 1hr.(marinating it overnight is better). Add maida flour if the mixture is watery,such that if you take some part of the mixture it sticks together. Heat oil in a flat pan(tawa). Take small portions of the... - 35.8328
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Mixed Machi Platter
1. Trim fat from chops, remove shell from prawns only in middle leaving heads and tails intact. Remove vein, wash prawns and drain. 2. Stab chops and drumsticks with fork few times. 3. In large bowl, mix paste, chilli if using, and salt. Add chops, coat well,... - 30.3011
Indian Steak
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Supporters of the extreme-right Golden Dawn party raise flares as they celebrate polls results in Thessaloniki Photo: Reuters
Face to face with Greece's neo-Nazis.
I will say one thing for the neo-Nazi’s of ‘Golden Dawn’: they don’t try to hide what they are about.
They do not use code-words or euphemism. “What is your policy on immigrants to Greece?” I asked. “Send them home. Give them travel papers and let them leave to any European country they want”. “And if they chose not to go?” “If they have no house to live in and no medical care and no income, they will want to go”.
Welcome the most recent arrivals in the Greek Parliament.
Golden Dawn have just won 7% of the vote in the General Election and will have 21 MP’s in the new Parliament. Their electoral success was no accident.
They have exploited the poverty and unemployment of a recession - now in its fifth year - and convinced one in 14 Greek voters that it is the fault of immigration, that without, what they describe as 2.5 million “illegal” immigrants, there would be jobs and houses for all ‘Greeks’. By which, of course, they mean white skinned Greeks.
They insist it is nothing like a swastika, just an ancient Greek motif called a ‘meandros’, but of all the ancient Greek symbols they could have chosen?
Their media strategy is not sophisticated, but they know what they are doing. As with so many far right groups, they want to appear reasonable and yet slightly menacing at the same time. On first impressions, I would say that this lot are slightly overdoing the menacing part.
“Are you fascists?” I asked. “No. Fascists were Italians who wanted to restore the Roman Empire. We are not Italians, so we can’t be fascists”. “Nazi’s then?” “Certainly not. They were Germans, and German nationalists. How could we be Nazis?”. “So how would you descibe yourselves?” “Popular nationalists”.
They are certainly nationalists. They speak about ‘illegal immigrants’ to Greece, but they are not talking about recent arrivals or asylum seekers.
To Golden Dawn, anyone who has arrived here since the Colonels were thrown out in 1974 is an illegal. “They were not legally allowed to come here under the constitution”, this black-shirted constitutional scholar tells me.
“What about immigrants from the rest of the EU? Can they stay?” “Yes, we have no problem with other Europeans coming here”. “But what about someone whose family originally came from Africa, was born in Britain, has a British passport and is a full EU citizen? Can they stay in Greece?”
Suddenly constitutional niceties didn’t seem quite so important.
“I am talking about the blood in their veins”, he said, more passionate than at any time in our conversation. “I am talking about a history that goes back thousands of years, about their ancestors.
Is this not more important that just a stamp on a piece of paper? What does a piece of paper or a passport mean compared to blood?” The one thing he wouldn’t mention, of course, was skin colour.
The disappointing thing was to understand just how the current crisis is playing into the hands of extremists of both left and right.
When I suggested to Koudounas that the worst it got in Greece, the better it got for him, he could not help but agree.
He envisages building on their electoral success, and one day taking power in Greece, though he agrees that things are going to have to continue downhill for some time before that can happen.
But no one thinks the Greek economy has hit bottom yet, so why shouldn’t he think that for Golden Dawn the only way is up.
It seems that there will be another election here very soon. Can they do as well again?
There is, sadly, no reason to think not. It is true that the thuggish swagger of the last few days has upset the sensibilities of may Greeks who now look at them and say “People will realise what they have elected, and will never make that mistake again”.
But these are not Golden Dawn’s voters, and, as I said at the beginning, you could never accuse this party of trying to conceal its essential nature.
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Transfer distributed array data or gpuArray to local workspace
X = gather(A)
X = gather(C, lab)
X = gather(A) can operate inside an spmd statement, pmode, or communicating job to gather together the data of a codistributed array, or outside an spmd statement to gather the data of a distributed array. If you execute this inside an spmd statement, pmode, or communicating job, X is a replicated array with all the data of the array on every worker. If you execute this outside an spmd statement, X is an array in the local workspace, with the data transferred from the multiple workers.
X = gather(distributed(X)) or X = gather(codistributed(X)) returns the original array X.
X = gather(C, lab) converts a codistributed array C to a variant array X, such that all of the data is contained on worker lab, and X is a 0-by-0 empty double on all other workers.
For a gpuArray input, X = gather(A) transfers the data from the GPU to the local workspace.
If the input argument to gather is not a distributed, a codistributed, or a gpuArray, the output is the same as the input.
n = 10;
C = codistributed(magic(n));
M = gather(C) % Gather data on all workers
S = gather(C) % Gather data on client
Gather all of the data in C onto worker 1, for operations that cannot be performed across distributed arrays.
n = 10;
C = codistributed(magic(n));
out = gather(C, 1);
if labindex == 1
% Characteristic sum for this magic square:
% Ensure that the diagonal sums are equal to the
% characteristic sum:
areDiagonalsEqual = isequal ...
(trace(out), trace(flipud(out)), characteristicSum)
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areDiagonalsEqual =
Gather all of the data from a distributed array into D on the client.
n = 10;
D = distributed(magic(n)); % Distribute data to workers
M = gather(D) % Return data to client
Gather the results of a GPU operation to the local workspace.
G = gpuArray(rand(1024,1));
F = sqrt(G); %input and output both gpuArray
W = gather(G); % Return data to client
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Oct 22, 2011
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Oct 22, 2011
4. Reviewed by: Roger Ebert
Nov 2, 2011
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Like Crazy has a lively syntax and could, in an ungrateful mood, be tagged as slick. But Doremus gets the tempos right.
6. Reviewed by: James Berardinelli
Nov 3, 2011
Although Like Crazy contains some emotionally on-target scenes, the movie as a whole feels glum and artificial. The characters, especially the male lead, are so low key that they're frustrating to watch.
7. Reviewed by: Ray Greene
Oct 22, 2011
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2. Jul 20, 2012
I was really surprised by how great this movie was. Anton Yelchin and Felicity Jones both give terrific performances. They had chemistry from the first minute they were together. And their dialogue is some of the most organic dialogue I've ever heard, which makes sense since most of it was improvised between the two of them. This made their relationship seem more real, it gave it a feel of authenticity. Great direction and story. Jennifer Lawrence was also really great. The only problem was the movie didn't really have any sense of time. I didn't know if 2 months or 1 year had passed, which made it a little hard to follow at what point in their relationship I was watching. But I think that might have been a deliberate choice by the director, I thought that he was trying to show that no matter how much time passes they will always be in love. But apart from that this was a beautiful movie of young romance. 9.8/10 Expand
3. Nov 2, 2011
The film does a really good job of illustrating the pain and raw nerves that can be exposed with young love - especially when complicated by distance. My primary problem with the film is Jacob (Anton Yelchin) - he looks like he's loaded for about 80% of the film, and it's difficult for me to believe Anna (Felicity Jones), who seems to have her stuff together, would go for him in the first place. But again, they're young, and we don't always get to pick that person. I really like how the writer/director artfully skip huge chunks of cliche'd story that other movies have dealt with ad nauseum. The type of ending employed seems to be in fashion these days. I don't have an issue with it, but I'm sure many probably do. It seems Felicity Jones will be in the biz for the long haul - recently caught her in Chalet girl. Seems like a good choice for future films of this ilk. Expand
4. Jan 23, 2014
Felicity Jones is the bright star of the film, she manages to enlighten what would otherwise be a pretty dull film. I understand the cinematic references here and there, and the realistic dialogue, and the attempt at a realistic love story (which is not so much after thirty minutes of it) and the whole feeling of authenticity to it.
Still, it feels like it could have been made better by adding more spark and vitality, especially to the Jacob character, who basically does nothing.
I didn't like the fast forwards and the general idea of skipping entire months like it's nobody's business. I liked the open ending (even if a bit trite as a storytelling device at this point) and I liked Felicity Jones. Oh, yes, her acting too.
5. Nov 24, 2011
Anton Yelchin plays an American college student who falls for British Felicity Jones. When she violates here visa, they're forced into a strained long-distance relationship. Most of the time is spent with the duo and they do manage to create a compelling couple. The movie is not particularly original and the dialogue, which is mostly adlibbed, feels talky and unfocused. If you're looking for a sweet and sour love story, you might enjoy this quickly-forgettable film. Expand
6. Dec 11, 2011
I'm getting to the gist of it. It was a horrible movie that just wouldn't end and when it did it was like a big giant middle finger. The first 30 minutes was beautiful and then it became a repetitive cycle of awkward, stupid, and mind numbing. This movie was anything but awe-inspiring. If you decide to watch it despite warnings at least buy a big bucket of popcorn... you'll need it. Expand
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2. A must-have for any fans of true alternative music and a primer for younger generations to see where their favorite bands got their inspiration.
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1. MarcD.
Jan 11, 2005
Excellent mix of songs. Makes me miss the days of Richard Blade and Poorman in the mornings on KROQ.
2. BernardH
Nov 18, 2004
Informative and representative of the time. Interesting style shifts. A lot of fun to listen to. Booklet is a great resource.
3. KyleB
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0.066567 | <urn:uuid:0ba65530-1ddf-47aa-9f5e-8acfe2077a69> | en | 0.880635 | Cossacks II: Napoleonic Wars (Windows)
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The sequel to Cossacks, Cossacks 2: Napoleonic Wars is set in the 18th–19th century and involves Europe and parts of Africa. Surprisingly it has little to do with Napoleon. You can play as six nations, all of which have their own units and available tactics (the British can use congreve rockets, the Egyptians can use Taureg mercenaries, etc). There are over 140 different unit types available.
Some of the changes from the original Cossacks are that the economic and empire-building parts of the game have been de-emphasised and combat is given a higher priority. Also, there's the inclusion of factors such as morale and fatigue. If your troops are exhausted and you force them to fight a battle, they'll have weak morale and will probably break ranks and run after suffering a few casualties. Terrain also has a big impact, trees will shield your men against bullets and shrapnel and if your men are firing from a hill they'll receive an attack bonus.
There's a campaign mode, a series of pre-set battles, a Conquer Europe mode, and the traditional start-from-scratch mode in the original Cossacks.
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• "哥萨克II：拿破仑战争" -- Chinese spelling (simplified)
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• "Kozacy II: Wojny Napoleońskie" -- Polish title
• "Kasakad II: Napoleoni sõjad" -- Estonian title
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Historic anniversary
2005 is the 200th anniversary of the battle of Trafalgar, which is regarded by many historians as the turning point of the Napoleonic Wars. Fitting, eh?
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0.036421 | <urn:uuid:4606c249-3b9a-4286-8be0-c82e40620720> | en | 0.958677 | The Ready for Hillary Super-PAC Is the Real Deal
| Mon Apr. 8, 2013 7:24 AM GMT
Hillary Clinton
Ready for Hillary, the fledgling super-PAC committed to nudging Hillary Clinton into the 2016 presidential race and electing her the country's 45th president, was initially met with furrowed brows. A Hillary super-PAC this early? Is this a legit group or a love letter from adoring fans?
Ready for Hillary appears to be the real thing. Over the weekend, the New York Times reported that Harold Ickes, the longtime aide to Bill and Hillary and Democratic fundraiser extraordinaire, is advising Ready for Hillary. Another Clinton White House alum, James Carville, is also helping the super-PAC.
Enlisting Ickes is a coup for Ready for Hillary, the most high-profile of the three pro-Hillary super-PACs. He's one of the most tireless, tenacious fundraisers in Democratic politics, with thick skin and an even thicker Rolodex. Here's an excerpt from my 2012 profile of Ickes:
In early 2011, Sean Sweeney and Bill Burton, the former Obama White House aides who cofounded Priorities USA Action (a painfully bland name they settled on, as Burton told the New York Times Magazine, because their first 60 choices were already taken), enlisted Ickes to help close that gap. A fiery and highly respected Democratic operative who's worked on more than a dozen presidential campaigns and inside the White House, Ickes is a savvy and dogged fundraiser with a reputation for pulling in big money—the kind of seven- and eight-figure checks needed to compete with Rove's Crossroads groups and Charles and David Koch's extensive donor network. His connections run deep in Washington and in the insular, prickly world of Democratic donors, especially Clinton supporters. Ickes served as deputy chief of staff in the Clinton White House and advised Hillary during her Senate and presidential campaigns; indeed, Ickes was tapped to plan her first Senate campaign on the same day in 1998 that the Senate dismissed the articles of impeachment against Bill. Clinton donors trust Ickes with their millions, and those millions are crucial to any outside Democratic effort.
Ickes, who turns 73 in September, works out of a sleek office near Dupont Circle that he and his longtime aide-de-camp, Janice Enright, share with a handful of lobbying and consulting shops. (Ickes and Enright have worked in the same room since their days in the Clinton White House.) His purple hounds-tooth shirt is open to the third button, and he occasionally pulls a comb through his thinning auburn hair. He closes his steel blue eyes when beginning a story, then opens them and stares into yours to make a point. He digresses easily and peppers his sentences with "fuck" and "bullshit."
"He is a brilliant, take-no-prisoners, consummate political operative who has seen everything, done almost everything, and is still standing," says Rob Stein, founder of the Democracy Alliance donor network. "There's nobody like him in the Democratic ranks."
Burton and Sweeney certainly seem to think so, having brought Ickes on to hunt for big donations. It's a tall order, even for an experienced fundraiser. Loyal Democratic donors loathe the Citizens United decision and the Wild West campaign finance landscape it helped usher in, and they recoil from super-PACs. Some feel Obama hasn't courted his donors sufficiently. Others simply aren't yet fired up enough to write checks. Yet without that outside ammunition, Obama and congressional Democrats face the prospect of drowning in a deluge of Republican money. GOP super-PACs and nonprofits could wrest control of the Senate from the Democrats—and they could make the difference between a second Obama term and a Romney presidency.
Of course, Ickes and the Priorities USA team went on to great success in the 2012 campaign. They may not have outraised and outspent the Republicans—Sheldon Adelson made sure of that—but they collected enough money and spent it wisely enough to tarnish Mitt Romney's image and give the Obama campaign vital air cover in Ohio.
Ickes told me recently that Clintonland is abuzz with questions and speculation about Hillary running. Many Democratic donors, he went on, are waiting on the sidelines to see what she does. "A lot of the people I know, a lot of them are Hillary people to begin with, but boy, they're not about to part with a dollar till they see what she's going to do," he said.
If she runs, you can bet that Ready for Hillary will be welcoming all those donors with open arms.
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sod the elephant, looks like its really over.......
(992 Posts)
skyebluesapphire Fri 11-May-12 02:41:01
So, after our great date on Saturday and lovely day on Sunday, tonight he emails me his letter which basically details how unhappy he was, how long he had been unhappy, all the things that made him unhappy.
skyebluesapphire Fri 11-May-12 02:42:42
He says that I was so stressed out it was impossible to talk to me and I took it out on him and my daughter. He says that when he was ill I didnt care (I was ill myself at the same time). He felt that he was doing most of the housework and I didnt appreciate it. I spent too much time on facebook and tv (he was on the computer every night). I was too controlling because I organised our entire lives and we were always busy.
Now that he is on his own he is happy making his own decisions, does not feel pressured, he likes living in town with everything in easy reach. I never supported him in his work.
He enjoyed the date last week, but still feels no desire to come back at present. He said that since the date I put too much pressure on him and have got my hopes right up again and he accepts the blame for that for giving me mixed signals and false hope..
I telephoned him after getting the email and I asked him where this left us, is he saying its over or what, as we were supposed to be going out on Saturday. He said maybe leave it a couple of weeks, so I pushed him and said but do you want to do this, honestly, do you think it will make a difference and he said no.
So I guess that is the end of my marriage then. I said if thats what you are saying then divorce is the only route now and he said I dont want to get divorced, its only a bit of paper. I said no it isnt, its the closure I need to be able to move on and hopefully find somebody else in the future.... I said did he want to start it or me and he said its up to you. So looks like I'll be taking control of that one then..... I told him that we need a more formal footing for access now, he wont be able to come in the house any more and put her to bed etc.
I wrote him a long email back, addressing all the points in his letter and also laying blame on him, which I didnt do in my first letter.
I am so gutted that my marriage is over, but he is being very selfish and cowardly.
skyebluesapphire Fri 11-May-12 02:45:55
I was going to start a new thread, but old one still going now, so please post on that one, thanks.....
CogitoErgoSometimes Fri 11-May-12 07:27:48
Dumped by e-mail? "It's not me, it's you" eh? Stick the boot in that it's 'all your fault'? Get yourself a good lawyer and good luck with the divorce.
QueenieLovesEels Fri 11-May-12 07:37:49
He is an arsewipe. Get yourself a solicitor as a matter of urgency and keep your finances protected.
I still think that there is more news to come on the text woman front.
Prepare yourself.
SirSugar Fri 11-May-12 07:46:31
Stop pulling the wool over your own eyes; get angry and lawyer up.
Its not ' I guess the marriage is over', take control and your dignity and end it yourself. you will feel much better when you are in the driving seat instead of waiting around letting him write his stupid letters and going on silly dates.
Personally I'd be fucking furious that he sent some letter detailing my failings as a wife, who the hell does he think he is? He is either stupid/deluded or thinks you are stupid enough to not see through his facade of 'I am not having an affair with that woman'.
SirSugar Fri 11-May-12 07:48:40
Keep 'pushing' him, yeah do that - until he falls off a cliff
SirSugar Fri 11-May-12 07:50:27
AND keep putting the pressure on - direct it at his wallet and squeeze and squeeze.
crestico Fri 11-May-12 07:59:36
i'll be different then:
don't waste your energy being angry and spiteful - any gratification you get in the short term will only make you regret it going forward and you really don't want to be in a position of fighting over kids and such. keep it amicable if you can, or just cut him off as soon as possible. either way, it's much much better for your kid(s) - because they will be affected by all of the negativity if you let it go down that road
grieve for the end of your marriage and get the wheels in motion for the divorce. most importantly : protect your finances.
i really hope you keep your cool and come through this stronger. we're here to support!
CogitoErgoSometimes Fri 11-May-12 08:23:30
I don't think being angry is a waste of energy. The OP has spent so long desperately hoping that things could improve, ignoring her own feelings and pandering to his 'insecurities' that I think a good old blow-out is actually required. She should have got angry when he first walked out but, instead, she stayed conciliatory ... and all it achieved was to have contempt and resentment heaped on her head in spades.
'Amicable' is how friends treat each other. Whatever else this man is, he is not her friend. Your children do not need to be shielded a minute longer. Be negative OP... I think you've earned the right.
crestico Fri 11-May-12 08:43:58
"I don't think being angry is a waste of energy"
how will being angry achieve anything? or at least anything she wanted (reconciliation). it is a waste of energy. it's better to just let go, grieve, and move on with her life.
CogitoErgoSometimes Fri 11-May-12 08:51:09
Being angry will achieve a lot. It will kick-start her out of the will-he-won't-he torpor that has put her life on hold since he walked out. It will get her out of doormat mode. It will focus her mind and give her the energy to get going with the divorce. It will enable her to see her ex for who he really is and stop making excuses on his behalf.
Suppressing her anger, denying her feelings, has achieved nothing but contempt. She needs to yell.... not repress and keep an unnatural calm. Then she can let go and move on and be much healthier mentally.
dondon33 Fri 11-May-12 10:59:37
Whether you get angry or not you need to take control now Skye. Start the ball rolling and see a solicitor, why doesn't he want a divorce? selfish reasons - maybe he thinks he can come back to you at some point if he leaves the door open, financial reasons- divorces are expensive and will hit him in the pocket. He can't really use the excuse that's just a piece of paper WTF?
How very noble of him to accept the blame for giving you false hope :@ what a guy, what about shouldering some responsibility for what's happened in your marriage, 2 of you are in it and it takes 2 to make it work.
I haven't read your other post but from what I can gather there is possibly OW involved. Which could go a little way to explain the way he wrote to you -blaming you, convincing himself that his marriage was shite and he had reason to cheat/look elsewhere. arsehole
Stay strong Skye, you have tried to fix it but he obviously doesn't want to. Move forward, he deserves no more of your time. Good luck xx
kittycatwoman Fri 11-May-12 11:13:04
What sirsugar said. Squeeze the selfish bastard for every penny he has got. Cheeky fekcer.
crestico Fri 11-May-12 11:15:50
look, i know everyone comes here because thye're hurting, or need help... but i am getting sick and tired of all these posts which advocate revenge and anger and lashing out.
being upset and being angry are different things and you shouldn't ever be angry as an outlet for your hurt. a lot of very stupid vindictive spiteful and ultimately regretable things have been said and done in anger - and you can't always take them back. it's the main reason why most of us are here.
think of the children. do they want to see you (or do you want them to see you) screaming at and waging war against their (possibly crappy?) father, or do you want to show them how to act maturely and responsibly when life hands you a steaming bag, show them that anger/violence/hate isn't acceptable - whilst being strong and assertive - and allow them to form their own relationships with him over time if that's something they (as individuals) want, whilst not being influenced by you and your actions/reactions to him post-breakup (which are always extremely heated and sad affairs and always affect children deeply).
be upset. be hurt. grieve for your relationship... but don't use it as an excuse to be angry and lash out - that's just not nice, and sends your children a very strong message about who you are and what they can be and do when they grow up. don't let a broken relationship mean a broken home. you may not agree with it, but if he's made his decision, all you can do is make your own way through this with as much poise and dignaty as possible.
good luck moving on OP, I really hope that throughout all of this crap, something good might (one day) come from this. we are here to help
Mumsyblouse Fri 11-May-12 11:28:47
I think actually the OP will be relatively dignified about it. She waited patiently for his letter which proved he was as crap as we suspected and hasn't been, from my impression anyway, slagging him off. She may well wish to be angry with him in private, though, he needs a few home truths being told, and there's no reason for her not to be frank, angry or upset in front of him. But that's a different thing than lashing out at him or through her daughter and she sounds too sensible for that to me. I think the fact that she immediately saw the lie of the land once she'd seen the letter in black and white, and is prepared to intiate the divorce and formalise contact is actually a good thing.
PooPooInMyToes Fri 11-May-12 13:17:07
You're sounding strong op.
ThePinkPussycat Fri 11-May-12 13:42:02
Feeling your own anger does not necessarily equate to shouting and lashing out. It doesn't need to manifest in that way. Feeling oppressed and miserable often does - I speak from experience.
Harnessing the energy that anger brings can give you the strength to do what you have to do, including a divorce that, while amicable might not be the right word, is focussed on the facts and achieving the best you can for yourself and DC.
CogitoErgoSometimes Fri 11-May-12 13:43:00
" it's the main reason why most of us are here"
The main reason why so many women are here is that they've been conditioned by a male dominated relationship in a male dominated society to be meek and mild... conciliatory and palliative. They are told that a 'good woman' takes the other person's bad behaviour on the chin, calmly, maturely, rationally. They are conditioned to believe that angry women are somehow freakish and a threat. The frustration this self-imposed inability to express rage causes leads to thousands of women being prescribed ADs and other tranqulising drugs to make it through the day rather than tackling the cause of the frustration head on. I'm not advocating taking revenge, screaming, lashing out or waging war necessarily .... but getting angry at being treated like a piece of dirt is a totally valid emotion. If more women gave themselves permission to be angry there would be far fewer opportunites for bullies and emotional abusers to take advantage of instituionalised meek and mildness.
SigmundFraude Fri 11-May-12 13:50:56
'AND keep putting the pressure on - direct it at his wallet and squeeze and squeeze.'
'What sirsugar said. Squeeze the selfish bastard for every penny he has got. Cheeky fekcer.'
And this is why I'm so glad I'm not a man. Lovely.
midwife99 Fri 11-May-12 15:07:09
Getting angry is healthy. I don't mean screaming & shouting in front of DC etc. I mean the sort of anger that gives you the energy to stop the twunt taking advantage anymore & to get strong. Good luck OP.
janelikesjam Fri 11-May-12 17:25:54
I agree with this. I think this meekness and mildness causes lots of problems (in the short run and the long run). There is nothing inherently wrong with being angry at being treated like rubbish; it prevents it happening again for one thing. One other issue, probably not relevant on this post though, is when its "built up" from not asserting oneself in smaller ways. Here it can build up to where it can be explosive (outwardly) or internally.
So, OP, I'm not advocating anything myself (I don't know the background to this on previous thread, etc). I do think finishing by email is a a pretty cowardly thing to do. I do think ending by email is pretty shock.
Wish you really well in going forward.
thrillahkillah Fri 11-May-12 17:30:36
divorce is just a piece of paper??? did he think marriage was just a piece of paper too?
of course, he'll be saying all this because
a) he wants to avoid any kind of confrontation/signing papers/talking to solicitor/expense and
b) he wants everything to be informal, so he can exert maximum manipulation and just bully you into the kind of access/spousal support/settlement that HE wants
i'm sorry this happened to you & i hope you can get (and stay) angry enough to assert your rights in this situation.
it sounds like you're already on track. good luck to you, you'll find support here x
Xales Fri 11-May-12 17:37:24
I am so sorry skye.
It is pretty nasty to spend time holding hands on the beach and cuddling up to just dump on them like this.
Please remember from now on moving forwards this man is not your friend. Right now you cannot trust him to do the right or decent thing by you. Get yourself to a solicitor and find out where you stand and what you can do. Get yourself to the CAB and find out what financial help etc you are entitled to.
Maybe in the future you can be friends but for now you need to concentrate on yourself and your DD.
You are incredibly strong. Despite what everyone was saying on your other threads you did what you thought was the right thing. You can hold your head high and look in the mirror.
Do what is right for you and DD. I hope you have a good life.
Secrecy Fri 11-May-12 17:39:42
I'm so sorry to hear this, sky. You tried. You can hold your head up high and say you tried, and now it's time to move on.
HandMadeTail Fri 11-May-12 17:47:25
I'm always sorry to hear about marriages ending. But unfortunately, you tried to keep it going, and he didn't. It takes two to make a marriage work, and it seems like you did everything you could to change, and he did nothing.
(I followed your other threads, by the way.)
Be angry (not shouty) if that's what it takes to get the divorce and move on.
Well done you, for being so strong.
SirSugar Fri 11-May-12 18:59:36
Sigmunde, I totally advocate squeezing his wallet as he has a child to support in his absense whether he likes it or not. And I would suggest it if it was a DW who'd left a SAHD
Dozer Fri 11-May-12 21:31:49
Sapphire, please do now seek legal advice and check the financial situation, eg to make sure you won't be liable if he gets into debt again.
You and DD will be so much better off without living with him, everything you have said about him has revealed him to be selfish, angry, absorbed in his own drama, and generally not a good person to be married to.
And this is not your fault, he is the one who has let you and DD down.
skyebluesapphire Fri 11-May-12 21:57:42
I had a good chat with the friends wife earlier, she is livid with him for treating me like this. He told her that he had a really good time on the date and felt 100 times better about everything. She asked him tonight why the u-turn and he said no u-turn , he always felt like this. He told them this morning that he wrote me an honest letter and because of that I asked for a divorce. So I put her straight and said no, he said it was over, so I said you do realise that divorce is the only path to take now! He has told them that it is definitely over, that he has no feelings for me. She is furious with him. She has told him if it is definitely over, then he needs to look for a more permanent place to stay, as they were thinking it was temporary until he came home..
He has read the email I send him and said it changes nothing, not that I expected it too, but this email was more about my angry feelings, which the last one wasnt.
Dozer Fri 11-May-12 22:12:14
Could you maybe take a break from contact with him (except for anything urgent to do with DD or contact). He will only continue to fuck with your head.
You could use time to reflect, see your real friends (not this couple he's staying with, let them deal with whatever they need to re the living arrangements, it's not your problem), get legal advice, set up financial protection etc.
Anger is a stage of grieving, is better than denial IMO!
Lizzabadger Fri 11-May-12 22:58:01
It's really better not to be talking to the ow friend's wife about this. Do you have anyone else in rl you can turn to?
midwife99 Fri 11-May-12 23:03:06
I agree you need to cut off contact with OW. She's a shit stirrer!
skyebluesapphire Fri 11-May-12 23:09:42
I did ask her to be honest with me and I wanted to know what he was telling them. But he said there's no way he will change his mind and that I need to move on. He said he has no feelings for me at all now.
He has changed into cold hard person who I No longer know and I told him that he is no longer the man that I fell in love with
oikopolis Fri 11-May-12 23:15:20
skye i mean this gently, but you do know that asking someone to be honest with you, doesn't mean they are actually going to be honest with you?
i really think you should distance yourself from this woman, you really have no insight into what her motives are and i doubt they are quite as snow white as you seem to believe.
just stop talking to these people altogether. maybe when your H has moved out of her house and there's several months' worth of distance between them, then you can start thinking about striking up a friendship with her again.
the reason i say all this is, by talking to her etc you are setting yourself up for more betrayal and/or confusion.
e.g. even if her intentions are good..
let's say she confronts your H with something you've said to her ("why are you being so shitty to skye?" etc)
and then H comes back to you, and twists her words around,
and you feel like you have to defend yourself
and end up crying
and feel horrible
and he's all smug and it makes it even worse
and then you have a go at her, and she insists she didn't say it like that...
just endless drama.
i'm sorry H is being such a knobber. no-one here was hoping they were right about him. i'm sad that you're sad sad
stuffitunderthebed Fri 11-May-12 23:16:05
He is a weak man who toyed with your feelings rather than be a 'man' about it all and be honest and respectful. Agree with other posters who advocate not discussing things with friends wife - he lives there; they talk far too much about YOUR relationship and YOUR life. And everything YOU say will be relayed back... Maintain a dignified silence. Correspond with him only and in a formal way. Allow yourself some breathing and thinking space and time to lick your wounds. I wish you well OP. Stay strong.
QueenieLovesEels Fri 11-May-12 23:34:14
Why do you need to know what he is telling them?
He has set you straight and that is all you need to know.
Time out required.
SharpObject Fri 11-May-12 23:42:19
I remember your last thread and will say the same again on this thread.
Back away, take what he has told you and make yourself unavailable to him.
Do this for 1 month without thinking about anything more than yourself and your child, if he gets in touch for reasonable contact then allow that but do not get involved with anympre drama with him for now.
One month will make you stronger and if he doesn't get in touch you will learn one more thing about why you don't need him.
skyebluesapphire Sat 12-May-12 09:50:03
I just wanted to know what he had told them. He told them that I read the letter and asked for divorce so I wanted to put her straight, as it wasn't like that, i stressed that he had to be sure this is what he wants as the only option left is divorce.. but I won't be contacting her again about him, as there is nothing left to say. But we will keep in touch.
I know totally where I stand now, I don't need a weak coward of a man anyway. He should have stood up to me and let me know when he was unhappy. I am not a bad person and I won't let him make me think I am and bring me down.
He hasn't texted about seeing daughter tomorrow but I'm not going to contact him. He wants to make his own decisions without me organising his life so let him get on with it. He'd better not let her down though.
Proudnscary Sat 12-May-12 10:06:03
Skyeblue- really sorry it's come to this, feel so bad for you sad. He's behaved appallingly, you tried very hard to save your marriage - but he had already checked out. He's been very cruel to you actually. I agree you should stop contacting this 'friend's wife' now, my love.
Mumsyblouse Sat 12-May-12 11:20:50
Skye, make sure you have your real-life supporters (family?friends?) around you too, I agree that contacting the wife is only going to bring more pain. Step away from their drama (whatever it is) and put you and your daughter first.
skyebluesapphire Sat 12-May-12 13:18:36
Yes thanks I do have some good friends in RL. One spent the morning with me yesterday, another came over in the early evening and I have others on the end of the phone. My cousin and mum have both been brilliant as well. It helps me to talk through it all and realise there was no more that I could do, as he simply wasn't prepared to try . I am not a bad person I'm really not. His issues meant that he could not deal with facing up to reality and that's not my fault.
izzyizin Sat 12-May-12 13:34:13
No one here thinks you're a 'bad' person - all you've done is allowed yourself to be fooled by him into thinking he was something he's not, and there's not many of us who can say we haven't been fooled by those who are experts at the art of deception.
AnyFucker Sat 12-May-12 13:40:20
skye, you know why we all so clear that he was going to let you down and that you should not be taking him at face value, don't you ?
because we've been there (or variations thereof) and when you look with an objective eye (emotions aside) it is very easy to see....not so when you love someone and don't expect them to fuck you over
midwife99 Sat 12-May-12 15:09:31
Of course you're not a bad person! You just couldn't see the truth because you had love blinkers on. Now they're off! Now you're free! You'll be ok honestly. Distance distance distance is the key. No texts, no emails, no chats. Just DD contact & that's it.
Lizzabadger Sat 12-May-12 15:18:25
Do your RL friends know about all the texts to the ow? If so, what's their view? Do they think you should still be in contact with her?
dondon33 Sat 12-May-12 15:52:52
Skye you need to re in force that within yourself "you're not a bad person" and start believing it, because it looks like he has made you believe that you are sad
oikopolis Sat 12-May-12 16:21:21
thinking of you and your DD today skye
nkf Sat 12-May-12 16:25:10
Have you found a lawyer yet? Time to be practical. Feel how you feel, that's hard to predict/control anyway. But do get the practicals sorted asap. Good luck.
Charbon Sat 12-May-12 16:46:11
Oh Skye of course you're not a bad person! Why do you think so many of us persevered with your thread even though we could see we weren't getting through?
We could see that not only had your husband done a number on you, you were doing a number on yourself which is why I wanted you to compare your two threads to see the different stories you were weaving from one week to the next. This whole ghastly business seemed to have got you distorting your memories and your truth and it was very sad to see.
But you need to stop contact with all the protagonists in the drama now and stop talking about what's happened with people who've been part of the story. Leave it up to your husband now to make arrangements to see your daughter and if you're in contact with him, let it be only about arrangements now.
Lean on people who've only got your best interests at heart now and who have no vested interest in what happens next.
cenicienta Sat 12-May-12 17:38:34
I don't think you're a bad person either!
Re your DD, unfortunately her df is a weak and selfish man. At some point in the future she may well realise that and make her own decisions accordingly.
Until then, the chances are he's going to let her down over and over again.
This is NOT your responsibility! At times you will have to pick up the pieces but you can't force him to be a good father!
You need to concentrate on your relationship with her. Make sure she feels secure with you. Be consistent with her. Don't talk badly about her df in front of her (which I don't think you have done at any point) and make it your aim to be as fair and consistent as possible re access with dh.
Be clear with him as well, re access times and his responsibility. From the start make it clear this is his responsibility!
skyebluesapphire Sat 12-May-12 19:27:41
I wasn't going to text him but he hadnt been in touch about seeing her tomorrow... And she was asking if she was going to see him so I had to text and ask him! Makes me bloody mad. I will make it clear to him tomorrow that it's up to him to contact me to arrange it not the other way round....
Just boxed up all his CDs DVDs books etc so he can take it all tomorrow. He's got nowhere to put it but that's not my problem.
stuffitunderthebed Sat 12-May-12 19:41:00
Well done sky. Hope you're ok!
PooPooInMyToes Sat 12-May-12 20:01:24
You could have just told her that you weren't sure but if she didn't seething then the two of you would do something nice together.
PooPooInMyToes Sat 12-May-12 20:01:47
See him, not seething!
skyebluesapphire Sun 13-May-12 11:33:13
so he turns up this morning, smiles and says alright then. I couldnt even look at him. I said goodbye to my daughter and then shut the door. Then I sat down and cried. I wish I never had to see him ever again :-(
Please tell me this gets easier......
izzyizin Sun 13-May-12 11:34:29
It gets easier... hang on in there because it really does get easier, honey.
AnyFucker Sun 13-May-12 12:30:12
it does get easier, how can it not ?
midwife99 Sun 13-May-12 13:13:38
It will get easier. Eventually you will have a day full of plans to do grown up stuff while ex twunt has DD & be pleased you have this free time. You won't care whether you see him or not.
skyebluesapphire Sun 13-May-12 14:47:52
I just feel so heartbroken, Im crying for the man that I thought I knew, that seems to have turned into somebody else. A cold cruel heartless bastard. I just want my life back, with my husband who used to be so lovely. I dont know where that man went. I know I drove him away, but he should have talked to me, I had no idea how he was feeling. and you can only walk over somebody if they let you and dont tell you there is a problem. It was dispicible what he did to me, going out on the date being all lovey dovey and then destroying me by letter 4 days later.
I know that I need to hate him and no doubt I will in time, but I just love him so much and want him back despite everything... But I know its never going to happen and things would never be right again even if he did..
Trouble is I was 30 before I met him, I had a couple of relationships before but nothing serious, we fell in love so quickly and he moved in 4 months later and I just cant see past the fact that he was the one and cant ever imagine that i will find anybody else.
How will I ever trust anybody again, I will be paranoid that they arent saying how they really feel, that Im going to walk all over them and drive them away again.
I just feel like shit right now
AnyFucker Sun 13-May-12 14:57:30
love, he was never that man
it isn't possible to "drive someone away" that doesn't want to go
I am not at all surprised your relationship moved so fast at the beginning. You never knew the real him
this is the real him, and was all along
as soon as the going got a bit tough, he jumped ship and it was always going to happen
you need to accept that, and stop blaming yourself
nkf Sun 13-May-12 15:09:57
It gets easier.
It gets easier.
It gets easier.
It gets easier.
Eventually - though you won't believe me yet - it gets fine.
PooPooInMyToes Sun 13-May-12 15:21:34
By saying that you drove him away you are still taking responsibility for it all. He has gone because he's a weak character, he's done it before to exs, you know this. He runs off when things are hard. He is a wimp and has issues. That's not your fault and i think you will see that one day.
skyebluesapphire Sun 13-May-12 15:29:34
I know, I keep going over it all in my mind and just feel desperate :-( I know that there was nothing I could do if I didnt realise how he felt. I told him that he cant go through life like this, walking out on every relationship rather than speak up. He does have issues, mainly due to the way that his mother treated them as children, no love, no praise, no comfort, putting them down all the time etc.
He really isnt the man that I thought he was. He used to be so kind caring and considerate, but has become very selfish. He used to love our house and where its situated, no traffic, quiet culdesac, daughter ride bike etc, detached property. Now he is saying that he prefers living in town as there is so much more going on and everything within easy reach! Thats got nothing to do with our relationship, yet he throws it in as a reason for leaving! He has bought into the friends life, popping down weatherspoons for tea, getting takeaways, walking to the cinema etc. She sadly said to me that they live a childless life, therefore they keep themselves busy by doing all these things, but they would far rather have the child and be at home.. If he moves out, he will not be able to do everything with them as he wont be there to see what they are doing and the probably feel obliged to ask him along whereas if hes not living there then they wont. So he will be living in town, but have nobody to go anywhere with! I really dont know what he wants out of life any more
nkf Sun 13-May-12 15:31:25
Well, never mind about him now. Are you seeing a solicitor next week? Do you have numbers to call? The finances are complicated and you will need some good advice. Keep focussed on you and your daughter. He can sort his own life out.
AnyFucker Sun 13-May-12 15:33:58
he wants a single life
he's got it
what a pity he had to ruin your life in the process
don't you dare feel sorry for him, when he relaises the grass isn't greener
this man will drift from relationship to relationship...hurting people along the way
let him go
let it go
you will find someone else who shares your values, this man is not that person and he never has been
oikopolis Sun 13-May-12 15:36:37
oh skye
you are going to be OK
i know the pain is dreadful right now, but try to hang on to the idea that all you need do is get through this time, and then it will be over, and then you can be happy.
you will never know his mind. he's a closed book, all of us are, others only know what we tell them. i know that for the next few weeks, even months, you may torture yourself looking for reasons... but again, try to remember, those reasons aren't yours and they are not your responsibility.
you didn't do anything wrong.
you loved and trusted someone you should have been able to love and trust. but he broke your trust, for his own reasons. that is not your fault.
nkf Sun 13-May-12 15:40:10
The other thing about reasons is that they aren't really reasons. He wanted out - probably because there is someone else - and all the criticism of you is him looking for a reason to explain why he wants out. That's all. To look for sense and honesty from him is wasting your time.
Make a list of everything that needs to be done. Try not to blame yourself.
Secrecy Sun 13-May-12 15:40:37
I agree he wants a single life, and though it seems impossible now, the next step is to stop torturing yourself over what he wants / what he could have been thinking. I mean this kindly - it's irrelevent now, because now you must focus on what you can plan to make YOUR life (and that of your daughter) happy and fulfilling. And yes, it will be! Without him messing with your head!
skyebluesapphire Sun 13-May-12 15:56:41
well I already have a holiday booked in July for us. I was hoping he would come too, but obviously not now. My mum will probably come down for a couple of nights which will be nice, but even if she doesnt, I booked this for my daughter as she loves the characters in the entertainment and I dont want her to be let down by not having a holiday, so that is in 2 months time and hopefully I will be a lot stronger by then anyway..
I know that I am the lucky one who will see my daughter grow up each and every day, while he will only see her once a week or once a fortnight, whatever we decide ultimately. I think that every Sunday is good at the moment as she is only 4 and a fortnight is a long time for her not to see him.
I am going to ring solicitors tomorrow and see if I qualify for legal aid and where I stand on the house etc. He gave me back any joint cards last week, so he cant spend any money, although he can access the joint account online. I will ring the bank tomorrow to change the bank account. He didnt pay any money in last week as he forgot........ so hopefully he wont forget again.....
AnyFucker Sun 13-May-12 16:01:56
you will be stronger by July, I guarantee it
and you will give your dd a lovely holiday
he "forgot" to pay money in ? hmm
it's going to get very bumpy, my love, you are going to have to get very, very strong
nkf Sun 13-May-12 16:11:32
AF is right. The "forgot" is a bit worrying. Glad you have plans for next week.
Keep going. It's like a tightrope walk. Head up, look forward, one step at a time.
skyebluesapphire Sun 13-May-12 16:18:11
I just put the rest of his stuff outside the door. When he left he took his clothes and that was about it. So now he has all the rest of his crap too. 3 boxes and 2 bin bags. Thats the total sum of belongings that he has in this house... he came with very little, he is also leaving with very little . He can have some towels, bedding, glasses, cutlery etc when he moves into his new place and his chest of drawers and his armchair, but theres not much else he can take without depriving our daughter as we dont have any spare furniture.
AnyFucker Sun 13-May-12 16:22:04 know that stubborn streak we all (well, maybe just me) said you had when you were still singlehandedly trying to save your relationship, it will serve you well right now
midwife99 Sun 13-May-12 16:23:04
That's it clear him out of your house & it'll help. Honestly it's a classic tale of narcissistic man I'm afraid. Fell in love & moved in with you quickly. Was wonderfully considerate & caring to start with. Then became selfish & self centred after real life & parenthood kicked in angry
PooPooInMyToes Sun 13-May-12 16:36:29
Oh honey sad
That's a ridiculous reason for leaving! What a twat!
skyebluesapphire Sun 13-May-12 16:40:02
I really am struggling today, having to think about all these things that I never ever thought I would have to do. I thought he was my husband for life, we would grow old and grey together. He is no oil painting but I loved him for who he was. He had a lovely personality. He was shy and lacked confidence and couldnt organise his way out of a paper bag, but I loved him despite all his faults. He loved me for all mine too, to start with. He used to laugh at my sarcastic comments, take them with a pinch of salt like they were intended, but somewhere along the line he stopped laughing and took them to heart.
But even for everything he put in his letter, we used to sit and talk and laugh and every night we went to bed and cuddled up to go to sleep. Every night! we made love 2 or 3 times a week at least. How could he do that if he didnt even like the person that I was. Im really struggling with that aspect of things, that on paper he says he was unhappy for years, didnt know how to comfort me when my aunt died as it was too awkward, yet he was quite happy to kiss me and make love to me.... How the hell was I supposed to know there was anything wrong!
I know its all irrelevant now and I cant change a thing, but its driving me crazy.. We both see things very differently, like he says he always took our daughter to the park on his own, or in the garden and I never wanted to go. I said I was usually getting dinner or tea and it was supposed to be a good thing for them to have some time together! He says I didnt care when he was ill before Christmas, yet I remember pushing him to go to the doctor, then when he was told he couldnt have an appointment for a week, I made him ring back and they gave him one the next day and he needed antibiotics for a severe chest infection. I had a stomach bug at the same time as he was ill and was in bed for 2 days. I gave him as much care as I was able to at the time! Its like 2 different stories being told.
I know that in order to feel better about himself leaving, he has to make me as bad as possible, to justify what he is doing.
PooPooInMyToes Sun 13-May-12 16:47:49
His stories all involve "oh poor meeeeee!"
PooPooInMyToes Sun 13-May-12 16:48:15
What a self absorbed like twat!
AnyFucker Sun 13-May-12 16:48:41
that's just it
it doesn't mean you have to believe it though
garlicfucker Sun 13-May-12 16:53:55
You're right. He's reframing the past (lying) to make himself feel better.
That's fairly contemptible.
mrspepperpotty Sun 13-May-12 16:54:31
You know something skye, my DH and I had exactly the same issue about the park / garden - I thought it was a nice opportunity for him to spend time with the kids, whereas he thought it would be more fun if we all went together as a family. So guess what? He told me how he was feeling, we discussed it and reached a compromise - because that's what adults do! They don't secretly chalk it up as a black mark against you for when he wants a list of "reasons" for leaving you.
This man makes me so angry. What a wanker!!
izzyizin Sun 13-May-12 16:55:06
How the hell was I supposed to know there was anything wrong! There wasn't anything wrong.
Its like 2 different stories being told That's because there are 2 stories being told. Your accurate story and his rewriting of history to justify what he's done, and is continuing to do.
Don't let him make you doubt yourself; you're the one with a grip on reality and he's the one that's writing fiction.
If the poor little flower had truly stopped laughing at your sarcasm and started taking your comments to heart, he would have moved out before he met the ow long ago.
skyebluesapphire Sun 13-May-12 16:56:24
I know you are right. i don't have to believe it. I am NOT that person that he wrote so horribly about. He took all the bad points out of 10 whole years and put them together rather than look at the bad patch of a couple of months. He couldnt tell me stuff as he didnt want to hurt me, yet writes a bitter bile filled letter to end it after a lovely date. He is a total bastard and I really need to hold onto that thought.
He just text to say he will be back at 5.30pm with daughter. I need to get the point across to him that he picks her up and drops her off at a set time. Im not always going to be home all day and I may be out of signal, so it needs to be prearranged.
Secrecy Sun 13-May-12 16:56:37
I'm so sorry. He really hasn't been fair with you and it's not as if you can snap your fingers and be over him. thanks
skyebluesapphire Sun 13-May-12 17:07:42
If only I could.... I go along fine for a few hours, then end up crying again because it never needed to end this way. But I cant turn back the clock and change things.
I have always been a great believer in destiny and what is meant to be will be, but am finding it very hard to apply that to myself at the moment..
nkf Sun 13-May-12 17:09:37
I know it's hard but you have to find a way to turn off his words. They say more about him than they do about you.
Some things that can help.
When you feel yourself thinking and overthinking, do something physical.
Have a phrase to stop it. Eg: "I'll listen to that hurtful voice later. Not now." And keep putting it off.
Or this one worked for me.
I allowed myself a limited amount of time to beat myself up. Five minutes. And then that was it for the day. Every time the critical voice came back, I'd say, "I've done that for the day. Come back tomorrow.
I know it sounds mad but it helped me stop hurting myself with what ifs and if only I hads.
LimitedAppeal Sun 13-May-12 17:29:24
Goodness I really feel your pain and feel for you. Bloody well done for putting his stuff outside. You will look back on that one day and laugh. Honestly.
You have had very wise advice on here. He is now revealing himself as the actual the man you married - that lovely considerate bloke was an imposter.
'Idealise, devalue discard'...he is following the script and it is hideously painful to be their victims.
But and it's a wonderful but, you remain the true you - caring, kind, compassionate, a wonderful mother, a caring and loving wife and partner (ignore the crap he has convinced you of re walking all over him. It's utter utter bollocks believe me)
You have your life ahead of you (you are VERY young really! wink) and you have your big fat nice heart and personality to carry you along your way. You will be fine but it's going to be a rough ride for a few months.
gather your friends and family around you. Lean on people and ask for help. This is important.
Build your walls around him.
You are dead right to leave any communication re access to him
I bet a pound to a penny his desire for contact with his daughter withers. Which is great as he will just pass out of your lives like a pirate ship into the fog, just as he drifted into it. You will then not have to deal with him.
You will meet someone else. Life goes on.
Life is a heap of shit sometimes. But you will emerge strong and wise from this horrible time.
Get yourself a good solicitor. Yes yes to sorting out the joint account.
He didn't 'forget'...well actually, scrub that: he might well have forgotten...because these types are very able to just delete former 'lovers' from their lives in their desperate quest for the next Mrs Perfect. They never ever find them. Listen to the words of the song 'Jar of Hearts' . Says it all to me.
They are the ones though who don't live a real proper fulfilling life. Their are shadows, they box shadows, they lead meaningless loveless lives as their is no real love or joy at the very core of them
Hope he enjoyes getting a kebab and going to the dog and stick tonight.
Knobfest of the highest order.
AnyFucker Sun 13-May-12 18:08:11
Idealise, devalue and discard
that is just it
that is what he has done, skye
I am so sorry
skyebluesapphire Sun 13-May-12 18:16:11
So he dropped her off, he smiled and said alright again, i couldnt manage to say anything to him, just took her stuff from him without looking at him, told her to say goodbye to him and shut the door. He loaded up all his stuff. He looks kind of sheepish, not in a bad mood.... He surely cannot expect me to be friendly though now........
Daughter has told me that she went to a restaurant with him and the friends wife and her friend and then they all went for a walk on the beach. and then she went to see her Nan. Whenever we went to see MIL I always suggested a walk on the beach, but we never had time.....
The friends husband stayed at home to look after the dog..... I had reconciled myself to the fact that there was nothing going on there after numerous conversations with both her and my husband but then things like this happen and I get all paranoid again... I could understand it if her H was there, but it was just her and her friend..
My husband, the man who didnt want to be out every weekend, who wanted to be at home. mind you he doesnt really have a home to stay in at the moment does he.... now appears to be out all the time and when i called him on this last week, he said that it was harsh of me to expect him to stay in all the time! The man who never wanted to go out......
AnyFucker Sun 13-May-12 18:21:10
you have been suckered, love
best accept it
then you will move on all the quicker
botoxschmotox Sun 13-May-12 19:30:44
Try not to torture yourself with trying to work out whether there is a significance to the friend, the wife and the friend. As hard as it is, there's nothing you can do about what he does/doesn't do and how often he goes out.
Concentrate on yourself OP, try and distance yourself from him and not concern yourself with how often he goes out and what he's up to - you will only ever know what lines he wants to spin you anyway. Instead, concentrate on what you are up to. There are no guarantees in life, but I can promise this - you will not always feel this way. Life moves on relentlessly and it will take you along with it whether you want it to or not, and in turn you will go through the various stages of grieving for a lost relationship. Then that'll be it. You'll move on. Life WILL get better for you - hang in there.
botoxschmotox Sun 13-May-12 19:34:42
Ignore first sentence of my post, OP it doesn't make sense.
MadAboutHotChoc Sun 13-May-12 20:24:03
Ah, he is still on the cheater's script - The Rewriting History section.
They do this to make you look bad and to make them look good.
This can really fuck your mind but remember that you KNOW what really happened.
I know its really hard but you need to start rebuilding your life and that means protecting yourself and DD financially and legally.
Charbon Sun 13-May-12 20:25:42
Actually I think there is value in your suspicions being re-confirmed because it's so sad to see you again today Skye giving any headspace to your husband's spurious 'complaints' about you. I wish we could persuade you that those aren't the reasons he's bailed out of this marriage. They are lies.
The real reason he bailed was walking on the beach with him and your daughter today and the 'friend' was a cover for their sake, because they knew that your daughter would report back.
The sooner you accept that, the quicker it will be to detach from him and to stop torturing yourself with these accusations that you were a terrible person who made her husband unhappy for years.
Men and women like this - who would rather an abandoned partner blame him/herself are the lowest of the low. They are completely spineless because they don't have the courage to admit that they did something wrong and that this is the reason a marriage is in tatters.
It's so good to see your anger come to the fore now, but it would be better still if you realised that the reasons you've been given are utterly false - and that this woman is no friend of yours and never was.
tribpot Sun 13-May-12 20:35:30
No. There was nothing you could do because he chose to make it so. You are so, so not to blame for what has happened. Not just through his inability to tell you how he was feeling but because it is not your job to bend your entire life around making him happy. You did, from everything you've said, far far more to hang on to this relationship, to take care of him and his feelings and his needs than he ever did for you.
What did he do for YOU? I'm not talking about housework, that's not your job that he happened to pitch in with. He didn't comfort you when your aunt died - too awkward? Couldn't be arsed? Expected you just to man up and get on with it? He failed in this relationship - not because he took your sarcastic comments to heart. Because he was weak, selfish and cowardly. He failed.
stuffitunderthebed Sun 13-May-12 20:41:30
Why in hell is the friend's wife out with him on his contact with your DD? Totally inappropriate. And the poor friend is at home minding the DOG? WTAF?? Reiterate earlier advice; know how hard this must be for you but continue with your minimal contact with this man. No contact with this woman. She is not your friend.
ChildofIsis Sun 13-May-12 20:42:31
Skye I couldn't read and not post.
I'm 8 months on from an email ending my 21yr marriage, it was the most heartbreaking, shocking thing I've ever had to deal with but do you know what? I'm glad he left!
He's no longer the man I was in love with, I fell out of love with him surprisingly quickly.
I have found strength and self-worth I never knew I had.
I'm even having a 'thank god he left' party next month.
There is life after this for you but it may be a rocky road for a while.
You are strong and courageous and you deserve to be treated well.
AnyFucker Sun 13-May-12 20:43:23
do dogs not walk on beaches ? hmm
stuffitunderthebed Sun 13-May-12 20:54:03
AF - spot on!
tribpot Sun 13-May-12 20:56:29
AF I thought that, but there was the restaurant first. Even so, leaving the husband at home to mind the dog is one of the most tragic excuses I've ever read.
izzyizin Sun 13-May-12 20:59:05
Why do I suspect she's trained the husband to be more subservient than the dog?
LyingWitchInTheWardrobe Sun 13-May-12 21:02:46
I think that many beaches are closed to dogs... particularly coming up to high season.
I feel angry for the OP as whichever of these two women is the OW, he has introduced his and OP's daughter to them, without OP's knowledge or consent and in a very deceitful way.
stuffitunderthebed Sun 13-May-12 21:07:37
Agreed lying witch. Very underhand behaviour. I also still don't understand why the dog needs looking after at all? What about all these times when the OP's husband, friend and wife go to wetherspoons and the cinema etc, why is the dog ok to be left alone then??
MadAboutHotChoc Sun 13-May-12 21:09:47
Yeah, the husband probably already has made other arrangements hmm
izzyizin Sun 13-May-12 21:10:17
Surely the ow's friend could have walked the dog along the prom while the ow took the same hand-in-hand stroll on the beach that skye enjoyed with her h last weekend, Lying?
And yes, he chose an extremely underhanded and deceitful way to introduce dd to the ow but honesty and integrity aren't his strongpoints.
skyebluesapphire Sun 13-May-12 21:26:18
thanks for all the advice. Im not sure whats going on there, I was convinced nothing, I know people lie, but I honestly didnt think there is anything going on, but I agree when its his contact he should be spending his time with daughter, not with friends as well, but if I say anything I will be the bitter wife who doesnt want him to see his friends... I know that the wife and the friend were playing netball this morning. They had lunch at a carvery pub in his mums village, it also has a small softplay area. But it cant have been a coincidence that they bumped into each other!!
I spoke to his brother just now and his brother said he never told him, he only knew because I texted him! He rang my H and he said yes its over I wrote her this letter. his brother said are you 100% certain mate this is what you want and he said no Im not certain...... TWAT! His brother said move on, dont contact him, let him get in his bedsit feeling sorry for himself and then he may feel different.. But he said by then I will probably be in a totally different place and wouldnt want him back anyway...
His brother said that he wasnt unhappy 12 months ago as he can remember talking to him. He said he is very much behaving out of character. So I have got to stop beating myself up over all this.
It doesnt change the situation. Its still over.
AnyFucker Sun 13-May-12 21:32:45
his brother sounds like a wise man
what a pity the genes didn't pass along that blood line
LimitedAppeal Sun 13-May-12 21:59:36
What are you doing right now op? I am watching Lewis on telly and have shoved a home-made chicken curry in the oven.
Got a glass of wine on the go and am doing a bit of sewing... I am making hand-made cards to try to sell.
I am so sorry you are going through all this shock and pain. I went through it some years ago and you do come through it smile.
It's like the Bear Hunt: "you can't go over it, you can't go under have to go through it." so true.
Any love you have for him will just diein the end because love is like a bloom: it needs nurturing like growing a flower - ie it needs water and sunshine and trimming and re-potting etc. If there is none of that, the plant/love just dies. Love withers if it's not given love back.
One day you and dd will be on a girly break together in Greece and you will be sooo glad you don't have your miserable lying fuckwit of a man in your life.
midwife99 Sun 13-May-12 22:00:14
Yeah brother sounds an honest guy. DH, OW & co - wankers!
Charbon Sun 13-May-12 22:29:34
Skye, he wasn't unhappy at all until January when he gave the OW a lift to university. Think about Christmas and New Year - I bet he was giving every impression of being happy and content then. Your problems started with this other relationship.
skyebluesapphire Sun 13-May-12 22:31:21
yeah, I feel a bit better in my head after talking to his brother. He doesnt think Im a bad person and he said that my H told him today that his head is fcuked and hes not sure of anything any more. Like I said, it doesnt change anything, but its helped me to get a bit of perspective on everything.
Im sat on the computer swapping between here and chatting to a friend on facebook, but my eyes are really tired now and the cat wants feeding and I need to go to bed.
Need to try and keep this perspective going in my head.
Thanks for all the support everyone.
skyebluesapphire Sun 13-May-12 22:33:01
limitedappeal my daughter loves that book, it drives me crazy, lol
But you are right, its so very true..
Charbon Sun 13-May-12 22:37:36
Sleep well Skye and retrace your memories. Don't let him corrupt or distort them.
sadanduseless Sun 13-May-12 22:51:42
So very, very sorry Skye that it didn't work out the way that you wanted!
Take care of yourself!
QueenieLovesEels Mon 14-May-12 09:48:46
Taking the child out with other people straight after splitting up is really off and I would be furious.
Children need one-to-one time especially during these unsettling times.
He really is a spineless, selfish, grade A turd.
This reeks to be frank with ref to the OW (cough) 'friend'. She is a massively entitled so-and-so too, interfering with a little child's contact time with her father.
Most decent people would know how inappropriate that is. The fact she/he doesn't is very telling and it speaks volumes as to where both their priorities are centred.
QueenieLovesEels Mon 14-May-12 09:50:21
clam Mon 14-May-12 10:11:17
See, I'd want to write back to him and point out that his account of the last however many years is bollocks flawed. Just so that it doesn't stand as the last word on the relationship.
Remind him what you've told us: that you were also ill when he was and despite that,helped him re: doctor's appointment; that when you were on the PC/TV, he was too; that you organised your lives because he wasn't doing so and that someone needed to. But most of all, how DARE he complain of being unhappy when he DID NOT TELL YOU - more than that, gave every impression of things being fine. Tell him it's bullshit and that you will not accept sole responsibility for the demise of a relationship that was 50% his responsibility too.
skyebluesapphire Mon 14-May-12 10:52:02
I did email him back after I got the letter snd pointed all of the above out to him. The friends wife texted me today and said that he is now thinking if moving back to where he came from about a 2-3 hour drive away. I said that's not fair on his daughter I don't want her time with him spent in a van on the motorway , he would have to have her every other weekend for a full weekend. What about his business? He's just not thinking straight about anything at all. He went home very quiet and shocked that all his stuff was in the drive but she said to him well what do you expect ....
AnyFucker Mon 14-May-12 10:54:34
skye, you are still in the dance
you need to stop talking about him with this woman
why aren't you listening to us on this ?
nkf Mon 14-May-12 11:38:43
AF is right. Stop thinking about him and her and what he is going to do. Think about access and contact that seems right for your daughter. You will have to think about how often and when. There is something helpful material on some website. CAFCAS maybe. Somebody else will know.
Think about money and work out what you need to live.
Make an appointment with a lawyer asap.
Forget about him and his stuff and what some third party said.
I made the mistake you're making and it drags things out for so long.
skyebluesapphire Mon 14-May-12 11:43:40
Because I am still convinced really that nothing is going on there , I can't really explain it I know it all looks bad but i just don't get the vibe from either of them that there is something going on after talking to both of them about everything. She wants to chuck him out so he's on his own but her husband won't do that
AnyFucker Mon 14-May-12 11:47:29
he's left you love
why are you so interested (apart from how it affects your dd) about what his living arrangements are ?
would it actually help you to get proof that his and his friend's wife are havin/have had an inappropriate relationship ?
for many of us on your thread, we think it is so, even if they haven't shagged
this woman is getting some kind of kick out of pulling your strings and being in the middle of your drama...all of this has fuck-all to do with her (if there is nothing gone on), so why is she sticking her beak right into all the details of it ?
I simply don't understand why you are letting her yank your chain
SirSugar Mon 14-May-12 11:53:49
Horses mouth, FFS get info from the horses mouth or don't bother.
If you want the fuckwit man back tell him straight, if hes still dithering concentrate on DC and whats best for DC and take up another hobby
dondon33 Mon 14-May-12 12:31:42
Hopefully you will be in place as mentally far away from him as possible. Yes let him get in his bedsit- then let him rot there. Don't allow yourself to have ANY pity for this man even if he begs for forgiveness. He has shown you his true colours Skye.
In regard to your "friend" I don't know if he has or hasn't had more than a friendship with her. But something doesn't seem right. If he has/is .....
i just don't get the vibe from either of them
They're not going to openly tell you or show you, are they?
Why do you think that is? You DON'T shit on your own doorstep. If there's something between them, of course she wants him to leave.
Personally, I would tell this woman to stop contacting me, keep her nose out of my business, if she wants to play mummy, agony aunt shit stirrer then go fuckoffdo it somewhere else.
Be strong Skye, start putting plans into action to help you go forward. Stop thinking about the what if's, you have the facts that you need....HE bailed out of your marriage and tried to make it your fault. He doesn't deserve another minute of your time or energy.
Good luck x
Mumsyblouse Mon 14-May-12 12:41:37
You really really do need to get all these extra people out of your marriage and your life. It is not helping having her text you with your husband's innermost thoughts and it is actually insulting to you that he is still confiding in her and not in you.
I would text her saying 'thanks but I need to speak directly with my husband from now on, please don't text anymore about this situation'.
Actually I would text something entirely different, but that's a different approach.
AnyFucker Mon 14-May-12 12:51:04
mumsy, that alternative text would have the words "off" and "fuck" in it, wouldn't it ? Don't be shy now.
PineappleBed Mon 14-May-12 13:07:42
Skye just wanted to say I'm so sorry about what you're going through and your (hopefully stbx) h is a selfish idiot.
You need to completely stop communicating with that woman, ignore her texts, cut her out. It doesn't matter if there's a relationship between then or not she's stirring it up and anything you say to her goes straight to him for him to use to fuck with you.
If he doesn't contact you about access to your daughter don't contact him. Just say, I'm not sure sweetheart I'm waiting for him to call. If you take responsibility for their relationship she will hold you responsible for it.
You sound so strong. Good luck with the lawyer!
skyebluesapphire Mon 14-May-12 13:56:58
When I rang BIL it was to say goodbye really, but he said it will never be goodbye, you have been family for 10 years and are still family despite what H is saying. He said its between me and H and they are not thinking that Im a bad person or anything. I wasnt going to talk about H, but he started to and then when he said that H had told him yesterday that his head is fucked and he doesnt know what he wants any more, it just threw me.
BIL told H that he cant expect us to be friends (he seems to think he can dump me and I will still be nice to him). He knew all along that coming in for tea etc would stop if it were totally over. BIL and his ex are friends now, but it took them years to get to that point and my H seems to think it can happen overnight. When he first left he was saying things like in a couple of months we can have family days out. Err no, you have left the family?!
I wont text him again about daughter, he needs to realise that some things in life do need to be organised. He can have her a bit longer too and give her tea, not bring her back at 5.30pm starving hungry!
MadAboutHotChoc Mon 14-May-12 14:01:20
It might be an idea to get access arrangements agreed so that everyone is aware what is happening and when etc. The solicitors will probably advise you on how to formalise this.
PooPooInMyToes Mon 14-May-12 14:06:05
I think that's very wise.
midwife99 Mon 14-May-12 14:55:15
I still think you need to cut off contact with that woman!! And anyone associated with him. Don't phone his family either. Distance yourself. It's the only way. hmm
skyebluesapphire Mon 14-May-12 16:31:59
I know I need to distance myself, its none of my concern what he does now, much as it kills me not to know what he is doing every day :-( We never spent much time apart, we were always together when not working, so it is very difficult for me.
I am seeing 2 solicitors tomorrow, one is a free half hour appointment, the other is £60 for about 3/4 of an hour, but he is an expert, been doing this for 30 years. I feel that I am doing something positive, but just know that Im not going to get through either appointment without crying.... But hopefully I will come out knowing a lot more than I do at the moment about how the whole separation/divorce/finances thing works.
I am just crying again now at the thought of having to do all this, the one thing I never thought I would have to do, divorce my husband. I love him so much and cant see how that is ever going to go away, despite whats happened. I dont want to have to face life without him. I feel so sad and lonely. Friends have been great but they cant be here all the time and I desparately want people to talk to....
midwife99 Mon 14-May-12 16:58:06
I know it's hard now like a bereavement but honestly in time you'll look at him & think thank god I got shot of him & how did I ever fancy him - yuk!!
AnyFucker Mon 14-May-12 17:22:43
you have us ! < tries to help in a small, small way >
nkf Mon 14-May-12 18:28:53
Poor you. It feels unbearable, I know. That's because it is unbearable. But weirdly, you do bear it. I know when I decided to divorce my husband. It was the worst thing I could imagine and yet there I was, still standing. It felt like a miracle.
Your salvation - although you don't know it yet - is that you are feeling it. You have to experience it. He's running away. To what? A woman? His youth? Some crash. But you are being brave and sitting with the pain. And, in the long run, that's better than pretence and denial.
Beyond that, all I can say is that I do feel for you, anonymous though it all is.
And it will get better. Not overnight or even at a steady pace but, overall, it will get better.
nkf Mon 14-May-12 18:29:39
"Some crash" was a weird typo. And, well done for contacting the solicitors.
Mumsyblouse Mon 14-May-12 18:46:00
Skye, you won't be the first person to have cried in the solicitor's office and you won't be the last. It will be upsetting, you did not choose this and you are still in love with your husband, it's him that has chosen this path. YOu are doing the right thing though, ploughing on, it will get easier, but not in the next few days I don't think. Take care of yourself, talk with these friends and spend time with your dd. You will get through it, but there will be ups and downs on the way.
skyebluesapphire Mon 14-May-12 19:40:16
Just cancelled the lottery direct debit as the account is in his name. Be just my luck the bastard would win the lottery and then refuse to share it! Have started a new account with new numbers for myself - just 1 play a week on a Saturday :-) I changed his email details on the account so he will be notified that its been stopped........
PooPooInMyToes Mon 14-May-12 20:01:05
Anything else to cancel? Anything else which isn't your responsibility? His car insurance?
stuffitunderthebed Mon 14-May-12 20:12:25
You are on a roll! Well done sky. Its these small acts which will ultimately help you to feel a little bit of empowerment in a situation which has left you feeling powerless. I cannot imagine what you are going through but your efforts to reconcile have failed. So you must must step back and build your own life away from him. Who knows, given time he may step up to you and come back if given space to miss you and come to senses... Or better still during that time you will come to yours and realise that you no longer need or want him!
TimeForMeAndDD Mon 14-May-12 20:14:58
Skye I found it helpful to write everything down that I needed to say before I saw my solicitor. Any future appointments, I emailed him with everything I wanted to discuss the day before seeing him. It all helped, saved a lot of time too.
I'm so sorry you are going through this. Stay strong smile
skyebluesapphire Mon 14-May-12 20:30:41
the car thankfully has always been registered, taxed and insured in my name as he had a van to insure. We bought the car last May on a 0% credit card that was just about to expire, so I cashed in my ISA to pay most of that off and put a small amount on another 0% card for 17 months so I should be able to pay it off in that time.
All that is left on the joint account now that is solely for him is the life insurance (which needs to be paid I think while we are sorting things out, as it will still come to me at the moment) and his Class 2 NIC. But while he is paying money into the account I am happy for those things to be paid out. All other payments are for utilities. I need to sit down and do a spreadsheet and look at the total costs of living here. My oil has nearly run out, I know I shouldnt need the heating for much longer (but its bloody cold some nights!), but it also does the hot water and if it runs out I will incur an engineer cost to sort it out, so may as well just buy some more oil, but have no savings to do so! as just spent all savings on car insurance. If Id known he was going to walk out a fortnight after it was paid, I would have put it on monthly instalments! and he cost me £50 more due to his mobile phone points......
I need to get my will changed, we had mirror wills, so left everything to each other. I wont remind him to change his though..... I need to leave everything to my daughter in trust.....
I have made a list for the solicitor, which will hopefully help me to stay focussed and answer the questions that I need answered.
skyebluesapphire Mon 14-May-12 20:44:39
Can anyone give me any advice re questions for the solicitor? I have a huge list but may have missed something...
Dozer Mon 14-May-12 20:52:40
Skye, really really glad that you are getting onto the practicalities, whatever happens it'll be good to have that side of things sorted. Sounds like you're on a roll!
Worried though that you are still communicating with OW ( his living arrangements are not your problem, and her chinese whispers on his feelings about you are - whatever her motives - irrelevant, it is your relationship and up to him to communicate if he wants to). Also concerned that you're still looking for signs that he will return, eg in what BIL said.
If he does comes back having said everything he's said in his letter, and you take him back, without any change in mindset from either of you, then he will never ever change and you will have to be a stepford wife to keep him. You and dd deserve better.
Did BIL have anything to say about his brother's past form with leaving relationships?(an earlier post mentioned he did something similar when rsp with his ex ended).
Dozer Mon 14-May-12 20:54:13
Think there is info in legal on qs for solicitors, hope it goes ok tomorrow, try to focus on the practical for th duration, then you can crumble after!
skyebluesapphire Mon 14-May-12 21:06:09
Dozer BIL did give me a little hope that he still doesnt know what hes doing, and maybe he is in some sort of crisis. He is now acting totally irrationally over everything, ie, wanting to move away now, from daughter, all his family, friends, business etc. but I am also certain that it changes nothing. He couldnt organise his way out of a paper bag, so unfortunately I will have to be the controlling woman that he hates and sort the divorce myself even though its not what I want I have been left with no choice. If he is still in some sort of headfuck and changes his mind further down the line, then there is no way I will greet him with open arms, he would need to agree to councelling, marital or otherwise to ensure that he would speak up in future. and I would need to be myself, although maybe with less sarcasm :-). and it would take a very long time to sort out if we should be together, BUT I dont think it will happen anyway.
BIL did say that he did the same to his ex. They were actually about to try for IVF due to problems on both sides (our daughter was conceived naturally though), he decided that he didnt want a child with her, to be tied to her and just walked. (to be fair though she had cheated on him repeatedly over the years, so it wasnt a great relationship). He just walked out on her because he had enough and that time he ran off to friends who lived miles and miles away, stayed there for a few days, then came home and moved back in with his mum for a bit, then ran away down here to live with his friend (the same friend he is staying with now). He moved to this (very small) town when he got work here.
I remember my H saying that he stayed with his ex because it was better than nothing. I guess hes not prepared to do that this time.... although I do realise that would be wrong if he did stay when he didnt want to.
stuffitunderthebed Mon 14-May-12 21:10:45
Sky, you are doing well - keep focusing on the practicalities. Will give you something to hang on to when emotions are getting the better of you. Remember to stay detached and contact with him only, about your daughter and legalities only. Keep it formal. You are making great strides in such a short space of time. Well done.
midwife99 Mon 14-May-12 21:11:34
He's a serial twunt then - telling a woman he wants a baby with her so badly that they will start IVF & then runs away!!! Oh god!! He's a charmer isn't he?!! confused
stuffitunderthebed Mon 14-May-12 21:40:37
Midwife! You stalking me? [Grin]
midwife99 Mon 14-May-12 21:41:25
stuffitunderthebed Mon 14-May-12 21:49:02
What the hell did I do wrong?? 'Grin' in brackets? Wtaf?? SKY, sorry to hijack thread. Sorry midwife, just teasing - I'm absolutely hundred percent sure you have better things to do than follow me! [Grin]
stuffitunderthebed Mon 14-May-12 21:49:21
Oh ffs
stuffitunderthebed Mon 14-May-12 21:50:41
Try again grin
PooPooInMyToes Mon 14-May-12 21:52:55
Lower case g!
stuffitunderthebed Mon 14-May-12 21:54:43
Got it! Thanks poopoo grin sorry Sky.
PooPooInMyToes Mon 14-May-12 23:14:27
skyebluesapphire Tue 15-May-12 11:22:34
I am having such a shit day today, Im at a clients working. Checked into facebook just now and hes on it, so hes obviously not working again today. I know that work has dried up, but if hes not earning, then its going to cause problems for me...
i just cant bear the thought of going to the solicitors this afternoon. Its really not something I ever ever thought i would have to do. If anybody asks how I am I start crying. I can barely face the school run taking her to preschool. Im on the verge of tears all the time. I suffer from bad PMS as well which doesnt help anything...
I keep thinking I should go to the doctor and see if they can help, but then i dont want to end up on pills. But I have been feeling so frustrated and angry for so long and it has helped to end my marriage, i can see that now. Maybe the PMS is more severe than I thought it was, I just dont know.
All I want is to be happy for my daughter and give her a loving home, not a mother who cries at the drop of a hat.
foolonthehill Tue 15-May-12 11:41:59
sapphire, it's the start of a road. you will feel better but it will be up and down. just try to get through days one hour at a time.
PooPooInMyToes Tue 15-May-12 11:43:58
You won't always feel like this. It will pass. Its like grief, you go through all the stages.
dondon33 Tue 15-May-12 12:18:10
Ahh Skye, stop beating yourself. He DIDN'T leave you because of your PMS hun.
Stop torturing yourself, un-friend him on facebook, what he chooses to do is not your concern now, you're just wasting your time and energy and keeping the raw wounds open. How he gets money to pay for shared bills or your Dc is his concern, so long as he gets it.
If you don't go to your solicitor appt today then you will have to go later, so best to get it over with. All your doing is finding out where you stand and what needs to be done, it's better to know these things for future reference and saves you from adding to your stress at the moment, by thinking about the unknown. Nothing will happen to finalise things unless you want it to.
You're entitled to be upset, you're going through a huge change in your life, it is like a bereavement in lots of ways. No one will blame you for being emotional.
P.S get yourself to the GP and talk about you pms, I suffered terribly until I was prescribed Pyridoxine (vitamin B6) women with bad pms are often deficient in B6 as we don't get nearly enough from food. My moods changed dramatically.
Magnesium supplements to lesson cramps and back pain.
Evening primrose oil to help balance hormones.
MadAboutHotChoc Tue 15-May-12 12:21:17
Sorry to hear you are having a bad day. I would think about going to the Dr to get some help - you have responsibilities and need to look after yourself.
As for having felt frustrated and angry - people who have been cheated on will know what I mean when they realise just how much they reacted to their cheating partner's withdrawal and distance, not realising why they felt that way. For me it was like bumping into glass walls - I couldn't understand what was really happening and thought it was work, stress, kids and every day life getting to us.
oikopolis Tue 15-May-12 15:57:04
skye seriously, medication can actually help you more than you know. there are specific meds designed for short-term "reactive" depression (i.e., depression caused by life events, not by a chemical imbalance or a physical illness) that can just help you through this time. they're not long term, they're usually used for 3-6 months at a stretch.
it's not about you being "weak" or "needing" medication, it's about using tools that are available to you, to get through a v shitty time that another person has forced you into.
it can give you some control over what's happening. rather than being at the mercy of your H's whims iyswim.
i am so sorry you are feeling so shit. this time is very very hard and you have every right to feel crap. it would be illogical for you not to feel that.
at the same time though, you are within your rights to do whatever you can to get yourself (and your DD) through this time in one piece emotionally.
midwife99 Tue 15-May-12 15:59:27
Oh love - you're bound to struggle at the mo! I agree - unfriend on FB. No more involvement - go to see GP - you need support at the mo & short term ADs might help get you through the next few months. Not your fault!!
nkf Tue 15-May-12 19:22:52
There will be days like this and I feel for you. It's agony. You just have to feel it and it will pass.
In the meantime:
- stay off FB
- see the solicitor. If he's not working, all the more reason to get legal advice sooner rather than later.
- go to the GP. Pills can be great.
Take care. And, if it helps, keep posting.
stuffitunderthebed Tue 15-May-12 20:02:34
Hope solicitors went well (if you made it) - try not to be so hard on yourself. Hope you're feeling a wee bit better.
skyebluesapphire Tue 15-May-12 20:20:49
I did go to the solicitors today, saw 2 who gave me different advice :-/
But he cant kick me out of the house, he probably wont get a big share due to what I put down from the sale of my old house, hopefully he will agree to this and he only gets whats due in 14 years when daughter 18, or if I sell or remarry before then.
Solicitor agrees inappropriate contact with friends wife and this can be part of the unreasonable behaviour, along with him refusing to communicate etc.
The solicitor wanted to start divorce today, but I said wait a few weeks, but I know in my heart that my husband isnt going to change his mind and if he did it would never be right again and I would never trust him for one thing.
I so want to ring her husband and fill him in, see if he can check her phone when shes not looking, but Im afraid he wont believe me and will tell them what I have said. I will have to think on it. I need to call him when he is at work, so I know hes not with either of them two, but he may just think Im a stirring cow. But it may be enough to put the seed of doubt in his head. Maybe I should sit on it until after divorce, so that it cant affect my settlement or anything.... then when I have nothing to lose, I could just let him know that I was concerned about them and see what he says. I know I can prove the quantity of texts up to April, but if she hasnt deleted them, then he may be able to see something on her phone. My H deleted his, so I couldnt see what they said, although the last one sent was always there and it never showed anything odd...
tribpot Tue 15-May-12 20:39:26
The thing is, skye, he's living in the same house as the two of them (which is deeply odd). And he's apparently happy to be left babysitting a friggin dog whilst they jaunt off to the seaside with your dd. So I don't think you can really open his eyes to what's going on - it's happening right up in his face. Either he chooses not to see it or this inappropriate relationship actually isn't physical and so "it's all fine". I'd be very surprised if he knew about the volume of texts, though, so it might be worth throwing that into conversation at some point. But I don't think he'll take any notice of you now, and it's far more likely he's turning a blind eye in any case.
I understand why you want to wait to start divorce proceedings. But it may just be prolonging the agony.
stuffitunderthebed Tue 15-May-12 22:18:15
good advice there from tribpot. On the subject of divorce - start it when you are ready. wait a few weeks if you feel you need to. but don't wait for him. there's no rush. one step at a time sky. well done for going to solicitors; what is your next step or your 'plan' so to speak?
skyebluesapphire Tue 15-May-12 22:29:37
My next step is to see what money he continues to pay in (or not), maybe make an appointment for the end of June with the solicitor. I want to get in first with the divorce because I can petition him then rather than him hit me with unreasonable behaviour :-/ If he counter sues it makes it all more difficult. But apparently I should qualify for legal aid and that stops next April, so the solicitor said I shouldnt hang about, lol. Not that I should rush into it just because its free....
I suppose I just want to give him that one last chance, but I know really that its never going to happen.....
On facebook he has binned everybody he knows from his life here. I only looked because my friend said she was blocked and now the only mutual friends we have are his family and a couple of his friends. He has binned all my family and anybody he knew here (apart from me). I keep thinking about blocking him and unfriending him, but it seems so final (silly I know if we are divorcing!!!!!). I am still friends on fb with all his family as it seemed silly to dump them all and its nice to see how the kids are doing etc. I am godmother to 2 of them as well.
I have a girls night out planned in a couple of weeks, maybe a meal, certainly some drinks! am afraid I'll end up crying in the corner though..... arranged it when I thought things were going well with him so was on a bit of a high. Me and alcohol dont mix well when Im depressed, lol. But I also have a trip to the hairdresser the following day, so something to look forward to, get my highlights done.
stuffitunderthebed Tue 15-May-12 23:08:17
I'm half asleep - will reply properly in morning sky - don't want to read and run; leaving u hanging! Good night, hope you sleep well. Very un mums netty hug from me.
midwife99 Wed 16-May-12 07:42:43
One word of warning re legal aid - you have to pay it back one day so don't be gung ho re costs. Keep it simple! I ended up with an £11,000 charge on my house for legal aid thanks to ex twunt's love of appearing in court!
Abitwobblynow Wed 16-May-12 07:49:23
Sky that he has binned his family shows how deluded he is. 'New life' and all that. What he is running away from is:
'whereever you go, there you are'. Please make this HIS problem and not yours.
You don't have to bin his family if you get on with them! You are now related to them, through your dd.
'His behaviour, DOES NOT determine you worth'.
Abitwobblynow Wed 16-May-12 07:49:44
your worth.
Mumsyblouse Wed 16-May-12 09:00:19
Yes, I also wanted to say you don't need to wipe yourself out of his family's life, they are your daughter's family, as he is indeed her father, and so some contact will be appropriate through this. My dad (divorced) still calls to see my grandmother, he was her son-in-law for 25+ years and that doesn't all go away when you split up.
Someone up thread said perhaps your dd's dad will just slip away and lose interest in her and that would be better, just the two of you. Although this must seem very tempting, I don't agree this is better in most situations, children are apt to feeling abandoned by the parent who has left. So, as much as you can, I think you have to leave the door open for his parenting and involvement and not say bad things about him, even though the temptation must be to tell him to never darken your door again. This is why it can be better to make formal arrangements, mediation perhaps?
stuffitunderthebed Wed 16-May-12 10:23:56
Sounds like the night out and the highlights are something to look forward to! The facebook thing is similar to my ex husband but he went whole hog and deleted and blocked me and all of my family and friends. Onwards and upwards. I'm getting married in august - never would have met my fiance if had stayed with the ex hubby...
dondon33 Wed 16-May-12 11:46:36
Well done for forcing yourself to the solicitors Skye. Now you know where you stand with the house and stuff. Move to the next stage (starting the divorce) when you're ready to do so.
I wouldn't block his family on FB if you get on with them but him, I would have already.
Regarding the "friend" I wouldn't say anything for now, while it's all still so fresh. If the H doesn't know/suspects then it could come across as you just looking to blame someone iykwim. Keep it for later then speak with him. Just absolutely make sure you discuss nothing with HER about your life now and what your plans are.
Enjoy your night out with your friends, you deserve some fun and to be happy again. Hopefully by then you will feel stronger and more positive about your situation but if you still feel a bit weepy then that's ok too, I'm sure your friends will understand. xx
skyebluesapphire Wed 16-May-12 17:52:36
so, up and down day again today, managed to tell a couple of people who didnt know about it, without crying, so thats a kind of advancement. Am very tired as daughter kept me awake half the night, then in the end, climbed into my bed and put on her baby sleeping bag.. its been in the airing cupboard for months (she used to cuddle it while sleeping but gave it up when she gave up her dummies). But she spotted it and since husband left has been cuddling it or sleeping in it again. Its obviously comforting to her. Last night she put on a pull up and she hasnt been in them for well over a year. Again Im assuming its a comfort thing to her. She was very disturbed last night, then came in around 4am and went straight to sleep. i dont have a problem as long as its not every night.
Still maintaining facebook silence. I used to post several times a day, what I was doing etc, on my phone or the computer, but am not posting anything now, so he has no idea what we are up to.
Had a text from friends wife today, saying that he is very quiet, hasnt had much work on and has had time to think. I replied, well it wont make a difference anyway. She text back dont rush into a divorce, I text back well if hes not going to change his mind, its the only option and no point hanging around!
She contacted me first, I am not asking her for updates on him like I was, as no point now, he is nothing to do with me any more.
He didnt see daughter today, he has got dentist tomorrow (at the end of our road) and I did say last week that he could see her after that if he wanted, but that was before it all went tits up last Thursday. Surely he wont still think that stands? If he does, he will have to take her somewhere, he cant come in here! But if I dont hear from him I will just take her to toddlers as planned. He cant just expect things to happen, they have to be arranged. He can go fuck himself if he cant be arsed to arrange it.
QueenieLovesEels Wed 16-May-12 18:04:42
I think I would tell this friend to bugger off. Tell her you have made up your mind as to how you wish to progress the situation and her comments are neither helpful or wanted.
Outline that your marriage is strictly between your husband and yourself and you have had quite enough of her overbearing presence in your marriage.
Absolutely agree with your last statement.
dondon33 Wed 16-May-12 18:17:45
Small step by step moves forward Skye and you will get there.
Ah there's nothing wrong with your daughter wanting her blanket again, you're right it's probably just for comfort but if you keep everything around her as normal as possible she should soon settle back down again.
It's not your responsibility to maintain the relationship between father and daughter, it's his.
Tell the friends wife to piss off and stop poking her nose in, it's not her business.
tribpot Wed 16-May-12 19:31:02
Yes, I really really don't think it can be productive to discuss this with the friend. At best there is every chance she is sharing the content of the texts with your ex. And frankly she can't expect to be advising both of you, it wouldn't be fair on anyone. She chose to share thousands of texts with him so it seems pretty clear she's chosen him ... fine. But shut her out of your head, I don't think she will help.
AnyFucker Wed 16-May-12 19:31:27
skye, you are doing so well
I know it won't feel like it, but you are
I also saw you on another thread today, offering support to someone else and that is quite remarkable x
skyebluesapphire Wed 16-May-12 19:38:54
Thanks. I do appreciate the support I had here, like I said in the other thread, I know I chose not to take some of the advice, but I really had to go my own way. I am a stubborn person and I suppose I wanted to fight til the bitter end. At least now I know in my own mind that I could have done no more to save my marriage.
Even now I still cant help hoping that he will come back! How stupid is that :-(
I did feel sorry for the OP that I posted on and whilst Im sorry that anybody is in the same position as me, it helps to take my mind off my own problems by reading about everybody elses iykwim.
Dozer Wed 16-May-12 19:55:10
Skye, well done re solicitor and other positive steps.
Your PMS was not a factor in the problems. This was not your fault. You can't see all his flaws yet, but we can by his behaviour, he cannot cope with normal work, family, relationship, and has treated you both appallingly, not because you or your marriage wasn't right but because HE wasn't/isn't right (and you, loving him, let him treat you badly).
Please stop contact with the woman. Unhealthy.
It's telling that despite feeling terrible you are managing to care for DD and work, whereas he isn't earning and is pissing about. Don't count on getting money from him sad.
People who know more about these things, how might OP seek regular maintenance for DD?
AnyFucker Wed 16-May-12 19:57:48
hey, I think I called you "stubborn" a couple of times smile
but you are right, skye
I always defend MN when some people come on to say all the posters who say "leave the bastard" are marriage-wrecking harpies
I expect the people who ask for advice here to use what they find helpful, and discard the rest (thoughtfully, because posters use their own time to try and give different perspectives)
Dozer Wed 16-May-12 19:58:22
You are still sending messages to him (via OW) that you want him back. He thinks he can have you whenever he wants. This doesn't show devoltion, it devalues you in his eyes.
If you do really want him back (and you know MNetters views about that!), the only chance is surely to let him really, really believe he is losing you.
Anniegetyourgun Wed 16-May-12 20:10:29
Gosh, no-one could blame you for hoping. From what you say he's only been behaving like an arse for a few months, after years of being a good partner. You can't just switch off from that; you'd be a strange, cold fish if you could. However, you have to protect yourself and DD, which means acting on the assumption he is not coming back.
skyebluesapphire Wed 16-May-12 20:16:30
yes. I think I need to make an appointment with the solicitor for maybe the middle of June, the week after half term so I have childcare and go for it then... Its so soul destroying going down this road. I still just want to smack him round the head repeatedly til he sees sense!
But everything is different now anyway, the trust is gone for one thing because he hid all the contact with her and couldnt see he was doing anything wrong. I would always be fearing that he wasnt happy and would have to interrogate him on every single decision to be sure he wanted to do it and wasnt being walked over. Every single comment that came out of my mouth, I would be afraid would be too sarcastic. I would not be able to be myself, as that is the person he doesnt like any more. He suddenly wants town life after country life for 10 years. He needs to be able to work 24 hours a day, 7 days a week (although currently sat on his arse doing sod all...). So it would never work.
It would never work, It would never work. I just need to write that over and over like a school punishment and maybe just maybe I will start to believe it..
QueenieLovesEels Wed 16-May-12 20:22:53
You are doing really well.
You are an incredibly strong woman.
You just can't see it yet, but you are.
Well done you.x
nkf Wed 16-May-12 20:32:38
Just popped in to see how things are going. You are doing well, better than you realise. Well done.
tribpot Wed 16-May-12 20:39:51
And skye you realise in that nightmare scenario you paint above, the relationship is all still about him and whether you can please him enough to make him stay. He would hold all the power in the relationship. The power of leaving you again, of how damaging it would be for your dd to have him come back and go again, and how much you would strive to avoid that for her sake. It sounds kind of frightening. And certainly not a way to live.
Charbon Wed 16-May-12 20:52:36
Good to see you've been to the solicitors Skye and it was interesting to read that they thought this relationship with the friend's wife was unreasonable behaviour. Perhaps it took someone telling you that in real-life to take what we've been saying to you, seriously.
Which is why you must stop responding to this woman's texts. Everything you say will get back to your husband, either verbatim or twisted to suit her agenda. The next time she texts, reply: "Thanks for your concern. I've decided that it's best that we don't communicate for a while so please give me some space while I work things out for my daughter and I" - and don't respond to anything else she sends.
Dozer Wed 16-May-12 20:59:10
Skye, so he wants freedom "to work"? Well, he has more than enough time and space to work hard while you look after DD and deal with real-life, and work yourself. He can do as he wishes, subject to him having DD as agreed and being reliable for her. He can pursue his work and earn money, some of which you/she are due.
Let's see what he actually does.
skyebluesapphire Wed 16-May-12 21:43:18
so he just texted to ask if he could have daughter on sunday. i texted back - why dont we have a standing arrangement you pick her up at 10am, bring her back at 7pm after tea. I will let you know if I want to go swimming and meet you in XXXXXX.
Brief and to the point I thought, lol. He texted back, sounds good to me, thanks. grovelling little bastard.
QueenieLovesEels Wed 16-May-12 21:56:46
Now give her a bugger off text....... She will report right back.
That will get him reeling - that with the formalising of contact too.
Way to go.
midwife99 Wed 16-May-12 22:05:14
Great - now apply the same new found ice cold attitude to ow & tell her you don't wish to discuss your private life with her anymore & ask that she stops texting.
skyebluesapphire Wed 16-May-12 22:08:09
she texted me earlier, her and her female friend are off on a cruise in a fortnight. Her H works in a factory with set holiday shutdown times so he cant go away until half term and didnt want to go anyway, so shes off on a girlie holiday with her friend..... how nice for her!
I was a bit of a bitch earlier too and posted a video of my daughter on facebook, its her on the swing shouting I love you Mummy, I love you Mummy! Thought it might hurt him. What a bitch I am :-/ He put a like on it though....
AnyFucker Wed 16-May-12 22:10:20
your "friend" hates you
can't you see it ?
skyebluesapphire Wed 16-May-12 22:13:58
I think if I just dont reply to her, she will get the message and I mustnt text her any more either.
Got an awkward situation in August, got tickets to see Michael Macintyre, we booked ours, then they managed to get tickets next to us, so its her, her H and her friend going. and meant to be me and my H. Well I thought about just giving him the tickets and saying go, although for the man who never wants to go anywhere as we were out too much.... anyway, its a ticketless event, so I have to go with photo ID and credit card to get the ticket!!
So assuming I wont want to go with him and them!!!!!! If I go with a friend, we will have to sit next to them and my H will miss out.... Theres no other way of doing it as we live nearly 3 hours from the venue so its not like I can collect the tickets and pass them over is it?! I will have to see what happens in the next couple of months. Maybe I just wont go.
Just had a thought! Thank christ we didnt split last year as we saw Take That in May! I would have been gutted to miss that, lol.
midwife99 Wed 16-May-12 22:14:11
I agree she is a stirring bitch & you need to detach from her as well as ex. Unfriend him on FB.
tribpot Wed 16-May-12 22:39:06
I really really think you have to stop texting her.
I really really would not be that surprised to discover your ex goes with her on this cruise, mind - what with 'having no work on'. However, the reason I mention it is so you can be prepared for sporadic contact whilst she's away.
Re: the tickets, I assume there's an option to return them to the venue for resale? It's hardly Michael McIntyre's only gig, and I can't see why you would want to go with them - with or without your DH.
stuffitunderthebed Wed 16-May-12 22:55:13
I am proud of you sky! (Sorry if sound patronising, don't mean to ) in such a short space of time u are already beginning to 'wise up' and create the space for yourself that u need. Well done! You have thought about contact - and what suits you. You are forward thinking. You have opened your eyes to previously unthinkable horrible possibilities of the problems that husband's friend's wife presents... Well done you. Onwards and upwards my friend grin
Dozer Wed 16-May-12 23:17:35
Return the tickets. Is only a gig.
And do not go swimming with him and DD on sunday! (think said this waaaaaay back, is like deja vu).
tribpot Wed 16-May-12 23:27:23
Oh crap I didn't realise the swimming thing meant you would be going together. Bugger that for a game of soldiers.
skyebluesapphire Wed 16-May-12 23:31:18
No not swimming with him I don't mean that, it's just easier to meet him there if I want to go swimming otherwise he will come here snd I will follow him to the pool on the same road. It's at my convenience that's what I meant. I will not be doing anything as a family ever again (sadly)
skyebluesapphire Wed 16-May-12 23:33:42
And tickets are non refundable. But I will see nearer the time. I would rather waste them than go and feel uncomfortable. Plus you never know what might come out of the woodwork before then... I hope not though
skyebluesapphire Thu 17-May-12 15:47:10
Ok so now I'm all confused again and all of my own doing.... Had text from her I moaned about him not seeing daughter, she said it's nothing to do with her I need to speak to him as he thinks I'm calling the shots and he can't see her I said no I'm just trying not to organise the man who said I controlled him and left for him to contact me. She said u need to speak as saying different things. She said I'm pushing him into a divorce that he doesn't want, that he's still confused and doesn't know what he wants and that he doesn't want to ask me for time if I don't want to give it to him. All I ever did was stress he could have time!!! she said he keeps talking about what ifs and if we could have sorted it but all I did was push him.
Then he text me to say we need to talk u can text me and I said no u ring me. Then he told me to stop texting her as she doesn't want to be in the middle of it any more. So I text her to apologise and she said i had upset her when I blamed her for the end of my marriage snd all she had ever done was stand up for me.
He is going to ring me tonight to talk, but tonight there will be no elephant I will make sure of that , he talks about his feelings or we get nowhere.
Now I am confused to hell as is he........ but surely we have to be either sorting it out or separated! There is no in between is there where we are apart but he might change his mind?? That would kill me.
Please don't shout at me!!! All advice gratefully received...
Xales Thu 17-May-12 16:00:13
He and she are now both blaming you for hurting her feelings! Your H is more concerned that you are upsetting her than he is about how hurt you are.
What do you hope to gain from this telephone chat? I think you are just going to end up more hurt if you had it. I would not engage with him any more about your marriage right now.
I know everyone told you this on previous threads and you did your own thing which you thought was right however you are still letting this all hang over you and carry on in the hopes that he might change his mind. You have to stop sometime before it tears you apart.
I suggest sending him an email stating,
He has stated your relationship is over therefore divorce is the way forward as why the fuck should you stay married to someone who doesn't want to be in a relationship with you?
He has stated you are controlling, therefore would he please let you know his initial thoughts on the days and times he would like to see DD for her to continue a relationship with her father. So that you can come to an amicable compromise.
I would then add to tell him not to lie to people as you will happily correct them on that he has ended your marriage (even if you are now the one doing the divorce) etc. You have done nothing to be ashamed of.
They are both messing with your head. He is telling you one thing and she is telling you another because he is trying not to look like the bad party to anyone. It is a case of the 'I want out so if I am a nasty twat she will kick me out and then she looks like the bad one and I am the poor pathetic victim'.
Please stop engaging with the pair of them for your own good.
Dozer Thu 17-May-12 18:29:11
Xales has good advice.
Stop stop stop the texting!
mrspepperpotty Thu 17-May-12 18:32:52
My advice is to go ahead with the conversation if you want to, but warn him at the beginning that you are there to discuss you and him, NOT her. If he brings her into the conversation, say 'I think it's confusing if we discuss her, it seems to cloud the issue for both of us, I have stopped texting her now and please don't mention her name again'.
Ask him to talk to you about contact with DD - is he happy with the current arrangement? Don't say anything about organising / controlling etc, just say 'I'd like to talk about your contact with DD, please tell me what you think'.
Ditto the divorce. Ask him straight out 'are you happy living apart or would you like to move back in?'. If he says he is happy living apart then say 'in that case, I intend to continue with divorce proceedings, but please remember it was your decision to move out'. (If he says he would like to move back in then that's a whole new curve ball! I honestly don't think it's likely though.)
Try not to have a 'but you said this' 'I thought you wanted that' 'I was trying to do this' conversation. Ask him how he is feeling NOW.
dondon33 Thu 17-May-12 19:01:50
Skye I can't stress enough that you NEED to remove this woman from your life and ASAP - even if she has done nothing wrong with your H she is revelling in the drama between you both. Anyway why is he telling HER this much info about being pushed into divorce, about how confused he is, about his what if's....he should be telling/discussing it with YOU. Someone else above already said it but he seems to care more about her feelings than yours Skye.
If you absolutely have to speak with him then mrspepper makes some good points to include as does xales Stay calm and cool and don't settle for any shite from him.
Good luck, hope it goes well xx
nkf Thu 17-May-12 19:03:18
I couldn't agree less with the last poster. I think your daughter needs some sense of stability so she needs to know when she is seeing him and for how long. That seems to me to be the pressing concern. Also, has he "remembered" to pay in money.
I wouldn't give him the chance to think divorce may or may not be up to him. Do you want to divorce him? That is the question.
nkf Thu 17-May-12 19:03:50
Sorry, by last poster, I meant Pepper. Xposting.
tribpot Thu 17-May-12 19:10:28
nkf, I can't see any fundamental differences of opinion in your post and mrspepper's?
Oogaballoo Thu 17-May-12 19:11:06
Sorry, but she is full of crap and acting like he is the victim and that he's being pushed into things by you. That isn't what's happening here- what's happening is that he has completely failed to take responsibility for his actions (leaving, saying he wants to separate) and instead the blame has been shifted to you for pressing him into things. He is dithering and needs to speak up on what he wants rather than making out that you are the one who has made this happen. It's pretty conniving to pretend that if only you'd given him the space and hadn't been firm this wouldn't be heading in the direction it is. I know this sounds rather strong but it's almost blackmail in a way- "Don't act like this, or I might not come back because you pushed me into this and wouldn't let me speak...I might have come back if you hadn't done that".
mrspepperpotty Thu 17-May-12 19:15:32
Yes, I agree DD needs a sense of stability, the two of you need to work out a contact arrangement and stick to it.
AnyFucker Thu 17-May-12 19:34:36
you are getting confused, skye, because you are not taking the good advice on your thread
the people here have no emotional connection to you, no ulterior motive, no agenda, no side
this woman and your H, however, have all that in spades
start listening to us, and to yourself
you sound like a dinghy on rough seas....thrown every which way by forces outside of your control
except you could take control, but seem strangely reluctant to do so
get your hand on that tiller....and throw the confounders (her and him) overboard
midwife99 Thu 17-May-12 19:42:50
FFS what the hell has it to do with that bloody woman?! She winds you up by interfering with your marriage, tells ex twunt you are upsetting her & then swans off on a cruise??!!!! Why will you not cut her out?! Has ex actually been honest at any point so far?! Why will he start now?
TheCrackFox Thu 17-May-12 19:46:15
I think the time has come to tell that woman to piss off. Your "d"h has grown too close to her and TBH she sounds manipulative and actually unpleasant. Delete her number now.
AnyFucker Thu 17-May-12 20:05:10
skye ain't listening right now
for some reason she thinks this woman is a conduit to her husband
despite all evidence to the contrary
skyebluesapphire Thu 17-May-12 20:33:03
It's ok, I'm not going to contact her again. I wish I hadn't today but at least it showed up the misunderstanding once again by my husband and me thinking different things about our daughter , each waiting for the other to make contact.
But I seriously will not contact her again
MadAboutHotChoc Thu 17-May-12 20:39:19
You don't know for sure that he misunderstood only have this woman's word.
She has her own agenda and that is why I am pleased you will cut contact with her.
She is shit stirring, planting ideas in your head, manipulating you in order to fulfil her own agenda.
The fact that your H cares more about her feelings and views speaks volumes sad
stuffitunderthebed Thu 17-May-12 20:39:59
Good stuff. Can't believe she has run 'telling tales' to ur h. She has engineered all this and now playing martyr! She certainly wasn't complaining about being 'stuck in middle' when she was sauntering along the beach with YOUR husband and child whilst her poor hubby was at home with the bloody dog! Listen to the advice given; all very good. Do not be manipluated by these people who are kicking you when down. You turned yourself inside out to please him and try again. He wouldn't play ball and is just playing injured party now as he doesn't like to be (rightly so) cast as the villain.
Mumsyblouse Thu 17-May-12 20:40:42
Skye, whatever happens, your marriage woes will only be solved by you communicating with your husband. The fact that you are ending up with lots of different interpretations, from different people who should not even be in your marriage, is testament of things going wrong.
If you want to speak with him about your daughter, then do so.
He always has the choice to ring you and beg forgiveness for being do indecisive and make you an offer to return. He has not done this, but you are not stopping him.
skyebluesapphire Thu 17-May-12 20:50:32
Yes , it's very odd as he tells me it's over then tells them I won't give him the time he needs to sort himself out and he must realise that divorce us the only option if he doesn't want me?.!
I really don't get him any more. Still waiting for him to ring...
oikopolis Thu 17-May-12 20:59:49
It's not actually odd that you're hearing conflicting things. your H is simply telling you one thing, and telling other people something else.
your H wants to look like the good guy to his friends. so he is blaming you to them, and trying to make himself look good so they'll remain/be more sympathetic to him.
this is really quite ordinary, you hear about men doing this sort of thing all the time. my father did something v similar when he and my DM split up.
QueenieLovesEels Thu 17-May-12 21:09:32
Nobody asked her to be in the middle of your marriage.
She wedged her arse in there of her own accord.
She has been overly familiar not supportive. I think she has kept a very close eye on events to try and deflect attention away from the inappropriate 'text' relationship that developed between your husband and herself.
Every time you consult her on an aspect of your relationship you give over your power and are submissive to her. She is toying with you as a consequence.
Take back the power. Let her know she had no small part in your marital breakdown and it has not been support she has offered. Let her know she is not your friend.
Tell your husband if he has something to say about your relationship he should tell you and stop running off his mouth at all and sundry because it is disrespectful. Tell him he violates your privacy by doing this and if there is one more incident of this nature, all communications will cease unless through a solicitor.
You are not controlling at all. He is deeply manipulative. Analyse the behaviour. He sounds like an absolute shit.
QueenieLovesEels Thu 17-May-12 21:16:04
As For you pushing him into about what you want? The fact that you don't and won't tolerate his shitty behaviour and as a CONSEQUENCE OF HIS BEHAVIOUR have made your decision- doesn't even seem to enter into her head. She has no respect for you.
skyebluesapphire Thu 17-May-12 23:21:46
Well, we talked for around an hour. We cleared up the misunderstanding over daughter and access and then I moved on to us and was he sure its what he wants. He said yes, his feelings havent changed, so I said well your friends wife has said this, this and this and your brother said this, and he said no way had he said that his head was fucked and he was unsure. I said ok then, so everybody is lying to me.. I asked him repeatedly if he was sure, that he didnt love me any more, that it was over and he said yes. I said well after what they have been saying I want to be sure that you are 100% sure that its what you want as if you need time you can have it, I always said that. He said nothing will make a difference.
He has finally accepted that it was wrong and inappropriate to text her so much, I pointed out that it was an emotional affair and that I only have his word for it that nothing happened and that 99 times out of 100 it always leads to an affair, so maybe his is the 1 time it hasnt...... I said I wished I had let him go in February when he first walked out, but it was such a shock as I didnt even know there was a problem, that I couldnt just let him walk away. I said that he should have thought about his daughter in all this, that he has really let her down by walking out when I didnt know anything was wrong even and that I can hold my head high knowing that I did everything I could to try and fix the marriage, even though I was always onto a loser. He said that he did try when he came back in February, and I said, yes but you were texting her hundreds of times a day which meant you werent thinking about me and concentrating on our relationship. He said oh you're never going to get past that are you?!
He said he doesnt see the point in getting divorced, its not what he was thinking when he walked away. I said well, you have said that you dont love me any more, you dont really like me as a person going by what you said in the letter, and you dont want to be married to me any more, so what the hell do you think is going to happen? I pointed out that its mental torture for me, to have the divorce hanging over us, when will we do it, 6 months time, 12 months, wait the 2 years? He said he just doesnt see the need if neither of us have anybody else. I said well I feel the need as if you dont want me, then its what has to happen. He did agree in the end. I also asked him not to run round telling everybody that he doesnt want a divorce, when he is the one who has walked out of the marriage.
So he finally seemed to understand that this is the final conclusion of HIS decision, the only route that I can take. I stressed that he can still change his mind at any point up to signing the papers..... But I know that he wont. So I think I need to go and see the solicitor this week and set things in motion..
Im scared now about finances, losing the house and everything else, but I dont see any other option as I dont think I could bear waiting the 2 years and then having to go through it all over again....
mrspepperpotty Fri 18-May-12 00:23:40
Hope you are ok, skye.
<holds hand>
midwife99 Fri 18-May-12 07:28:20
Oh honey I'm sorry but you must be relieved you now have it all clear. Will you now block all contact with OW?!! She is a big problem!
QueenieLovesEels Fri 18-May-12 07:59:38
He is a disgrace. There is nothing he has done to save your marriage-just fed you a lot of lies. He has made no effort to reignite passion/love through hard work. He is a very shallow individual indeed.
I am still of the view there is probably a very good reason as to why he hasn't put any effort in and that it is OW shaped.
People can be very convincing when they are covering their tracks. It may well be he has been reflecting back the language he has been getting himself from this friend. He is possibly sitting tight and 'giving her space to work out what she wants'......
The divorce thing is weird and the only reason I can see that he wouldn't want to bother is to have a fallback option or to control you.
For someone who claims you are controlling he is incredibly so.
Divorce him and kick him into touch.
You will start to feel angry soon.
I think she has been lying to you to give you false hope so your focus is elsewhere and away from their relationship.
MadAboutHotChoc Fri 18-May-12 08:17:45
Spot on Queenie
Op you sound like an intelligent woman and I am sure that with time and space you will realise what Queenie has said is right. Its so easy to blind yourself when you are still emotionally attached.
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 08:57:49
I have sent her one last text today to say that he is certain it's over and that he denies saying any different to them or his brother. I told her that I hope he is honest with them now as he tells me that no amount if time will make any difference. I said I won't contact her about him again.
I just feel sick, tired, got a stinking cold now, can't see how my life will ever improve, I'm scared I will lose the house as don't earn enough to get a mortgage on my own.
I don't see how I will ever meet anyone else as live in a very small town barely larger than a village, I'm overweight, (although have list 2 stone through loss of appetite since all this began). I am
Reasonably attractive and all my friends tell me that I'm a lovely person despite what he says but I was 30 when I met him. I find it hard to see how I'm ever going to meet anyone ever again to share my life with.
QueenieLovesEels Fri 18-May-12 09:26:00
These are normal feelings and fears and they pass. Once you have the practicalities sorted out you will work through these feelings.
It is still very early days.
I think your view of yourself is very negative and may go someday to explaining why you have tolerated so much from this man.
I think the key is to give yourself time to heal and start enjoying pleasing yourself. The realisation that you are free to take your life in whatever direction you choose can be enormously liberating. When you no longer care about having a man and are happy in your own skin, it is often the case that suddenly you have all these options!
It is better that way too because you can choose wisely and for the right reasons rather than being with just someone who fills a gap.
You are going through a lot of changes and may well end up living somewhere completely different. It won't be long before life gets exciting again.
You need to start focussing on you now. Is there anything in life you want to do that you haven't done yet?
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 09:30:49
He threw it at me last night that I would never leave here and i said he had never asked me to. Just one more thing I am being hung for that i didn't even know was an issue.
My daughter starts school here in September so I wouldn't want to move now but I would have considered it if he had asked me . But I don't seriiously think it occurred to him until he moved out. It's just one more example of how he has changed.
He has changed and I haven't and it's me that's suffering
Abitwobblynow Fri 18-May-12 09:55:32
Yes, I got told that too.
Here is the translation: my head is up my arse and my dick is buried deep on OW, she has all my attention and feelgood emotions and you are as much importance to me as the dustball under my bed. I am not interested in how you feel, what you think, how you hurt.
Because I am a good guy, this ALL has to be YOUR FAULT. Here are the reasons [ as you point out, ? ? ?]. And the ones I never mentioned, well you should have known.
Now, go away and leave me alone. Vanish in a puff of dust. But don't stop: looking after my house, caring for my children, and generally functioning to keep my life going so I can be free to do what I want. Do not be difficult and do things like, want a divorce, ask for £££ because that is inconvenient.
Sorry, but that is the direct translation.
When the fervour of OW fades, and the fantasy doesn't work any more, then you will get 'I made a mistake, it meant nothing, I never loved her, I never stopped loving you, lets make this work (but don't ask me to explain anything, or open myself up to you).
And that bit, I cannot get my head round. I would be grateful for any MN translations of THAT.
QueenieLovesEels Fri 18-May-12 10:23:42
What he says doesn't matter.
He is full of tripe.
Ignore his nonsense.
You know it is over. You are only hurting yourself more by raking over this and you will achieve nothing but misery.
Stop punishing yourself by endlessly picking the scab. Show yourself some kindness.
So as I said, what about your dreams and ambitions? What have you always wanted to learn/explore? Where would you like to live in the world if you had total freedom to decide?
Now you have lost weight I bet you need some new clothes.....
It's time to redefine yourself on your terms.
The next time he calls and turns the conversation around to your relationship tell him you know what you need to know and have no need to discuss it further. If he insists on giving you his views tell him you couldn't give a rat's arse what he thinks. That should stop the twonk in his tracks.
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 10:43:27
we wont be having contact other than by text to arrange daughter's visits. Sundays are agreed, but in the week will depend on his work. He did say that if he doesnt finish early enough to pick her up from school then it wont be worth it as not enough time to go anywhere (this is because I said he cant come in the house). But even if he only had an hour or so, he could take her to the park, or down to the pub for some tea.
I have just rung the solicitor, he is calling me back, but I am going to get the divorce started as I really dont see the point in hanging around and prolonging the agony for myself any more. I could leave it and stick my head in the sand and hope it will go away, but life isnt like that.
I just feel so destroyed, I never ever thought it would come to this, my H was always such a kind loving man. His letter to me was so horrible, it really makes me blame myself for everything, the way I treated him etc, but I have to tell myself that if I didnt know he was unhappy what could I do and I was never nasty to him, never ever. I threw a couple of points in his letter at him last night, like "I have never felt appreciated". I said, never? what in 10 years? He said Ok, maybe I should have said recently... So I said Yes you should, just one more lie then isnt it....
Anniegetyourgun Fri 18-May-12 10:47:51
Abitwobbly, it means "I want normal service resumed as soon as possible". He never stopped loving himself, that's why he gave himself permission to have an affair. You're not supposed to ask questions or stop trusting him, any more than the sofa is supposed to object to being sat on.
Anniegetyourgun Fri 18-May-12 10:59:21
And Skye... very well done. I do agree that proceeding with the divorce is pretty much your only option, and what you said to his (not your!) friend is quite right. She kept texting you about he feels this, he wants/doesn't want that, when you never asked her to, and then complains she's piggy in the middle? Well then piggy, trot off back to your stye.
Posters have told you several times already that reinventing your relationship to make himself unhappy in retrospect and to portray you as indifferent/controlling/whatever is a standard technique of straying partners looking for an excuse. Any or all of it may be nonsense. Most of it probably does have a grain of truth (hence why you are agonising over it) but so distorted and exaggerated that it might as well be a complete lie. He just doesn't want to feel in his heart that he's the bad guy, but if he allows himself to remember you were a good wife he would know he was a very bad guy and that hurts.
QueenieLovesEels Fri 18-May-12 11:01:45
Well done ref the divorce.
With respect to childcare prepare for disappointment and further hurt. He has his own life (which will take priority) and will use many excuses as to why he can't see her. Best to formalise it rather than have an open arrangement.
That will also help your child have a sense of routine and give him some firm boundaries.
The reason I asked about your individual dreams is your focus is still on what he is thinking and doing.
How is this helping you?
Proudnscary Fri 18-May-12 11:29:25
Huge apologies if this is unhelpful...but ARRRRGGGGHHHHHHH that you apologised to the other woman for texting/involving her!!
At the very, very best she is someone that has become far too involved in your marriage because she loves being at the centre of a 'drama'.
At worst - she is having an affair with your husband.
You apologise to her her?
Where is her apology, her shame, her accountability when it came to all those texts to your husband?
Even if there is no EA or sexual affair (hmm) - this was wrong. She must have known your husband was too invested in her unless she is labotomised.
I'm just so very angry at how you are being treated by these selfish bastards.
Agree with everyone above who says he is rewriting history, blaming you and trying to come out as the good guy - he wants out of the marriage 100%. But because you are instigating divorce after being pushed into a corner (despite the pain this is causing you) he is going round teling everyone it's you pushing that and is not what he wants!
Tokamak Fri 18-May-12 11:35:50
As others have already said, this is a common strategy in people looking for a way out of a relationship. Blame the other person and they can feel less guilty about it. It's characteristic of both men AND women in this situation, it's not just a man thing.
You don't need to fret yourself, there was nothing you could have done.
QueenieLovesEels Fri 18-May-12 11:49:11
I forgot to mention....when he had contact time and she and her friend came along and you were told the husband was dog sitting- who told you that?
Could the friend have been a cover and the husband was unaware of them meeting up?
It just seems really strange that on a contact day she and a friend attended. If it was all out in the open why did this friend come along? This doesn't make sense.
Why did he feel the need to invite them?
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 15:46:27
my daughter told me that the husband was looking after the dog. She is only 4. The wife and her friend had netball that morning, so thats why they were together. I presume it was prearranged as my husbands mother lives at the top of the hill, not in the town where the beach is, and usually he would go straight to her house. (never had time to walk on the beach or go to lunch when I was around..........).
I think the wife and her husband are away this weekend, going by what my H said a couple of weeks ago, obviously I dont know for sure as its none of my business now...
I rang the solicitor this morning and he hasnt rung me back :-(
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 15:49:43
I presume he doesnt like being on his own, that he prefers company even though its supposed to be his time with daughter. Of course if there is an EA there then he would want to see her all the time wouldnt he. He is certainly more concerned with her feelings than mine, although of course if he doesnt love me then I suppose hes not going to give a damn about my feelings is he...
I said to him last night you dont even like me and he said of course I like you and I said, not according to that letter you dont. According to that letter Im the most horrible person who walked the earth and then he said Now you're just being silly..... well he wrote it........
QueenieLovesEels Fri 18-May-12 16:26:06
I bet the husband had no idea they were all meeting up without him. As far as he was aware his wife was meeting a friend for netball and going off for lunch together afterwards.
This may have been her introduction to your child.
You may need to consider there may be a bigger plan.
QueenieLovesEels Fri 18-May-12 16:39:24
Also it is interesting that she had an introduction to your MIL.........
Might it be worthwhile to chat to MIL ? I'm thinking..... an acceptance speech to her over his new woman and conformation there is no bitterness and that she doesn't need to feel torn. Then onto valuing your relationship as women and looking forward to seeing her soon.
Mention your daughter has met her and seems fine about it.
She may let the cat out of the bag if she is in the loop.
Just an idea to help you achieve closure.
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 16:51:19
no he didnt take the wife and her friend to meet his mum, only my daughter.
my daughter has met them several times as he always takes her back to the house for a while, then they have been to the park together with the wife, husband, dog and friend sometimes. the wife has cooked tea for my daughter and also made cakes with her. Im not happy about it but cant stop it...
when I pointed out all the things that they took my husband on, shopping, meals out, breakfast in pubs after a hangover etc, the wife said to me that they lead a childless life, ie can do what they want when they want but she is sad because of their loss and would rather have a child to do things with. sometimes I wonder........
QueenieLovesEels Fri 18-May-12 16:58:32
Oh I must have misread that.
The comments from her are quite concerning given the behaviour. Have you ever asked to see her phone for messages from your husband, or could you push her DH to have a look on the quiet by letting him know just how many messages were exchanged whilst your marriage disintegrated without your knowledge?
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 17:05:23
I did think about getting the husband to check her phone. she has iphone like us, so I know it would all be recorded as an ongoing conversation on there. When I managed to check my husbands there was only ever the last text on there.... so he was deleting them as he went which is again suspicious.
I think now I need to wait until divorce final, so it doesnt affect my settlement, dont want him turning nasty on me, then maybe give her husband a nudge.
I sold my old house and made 90K profit and then we bought current house together. Because I thought we would be together for ever (hollow laugh) we put the house in 50/50 as the solicitor said it was easier.... we had a mortgage of £120K on £185K purchase price, so I always said I paid for a third of the house, the difference of about £25K went on the stamp duty, solicitor fees etc, buying some furniture, carpetting and painting throughout before we moved in, paying off his loan of £8K and a couple of small overdrafts that we had. I managed to save £1K out of it for myself.
In the time we were together we converted the garage by taking a maternity break on our mortgage, then my parents had a policy come out which was money for me and that repaid the mortgage maternity break and fenced the garden and did the driveway. My gran gave us around £3K as well which we used to do the kitchen and put towards the car etc.
I know he paid the mortgage for 4 years after daughter was born, but I dont believe he deserves much out of the house. The solicitor says 20% max, maybe less if we can get away with it, he cant force the sale of the house so wont get it for 14 years anyway.
Proudnscary Fri 18-May-12 17:07:49
Oh God she wants your life. Anyway, disengage, ignore and disengage some more. Hope you are ok-ish x
Proudnscary Fri 18-May-12 17:09:51
X posted.
Ok great you are on top of finances and thinking straight - you are doing so well.
You just cannot trust this woman, not one iota, not now, not ever. I feel it in my very bones!
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 17:21:59
I want him to walk away with as little as possible, he never managed to save any money over the years, everything done to the house came from money that my family gave me. He could have painted the outside of the house himself, but we paid somebody to do it. we paid somebody to mow the lawn and clean the windows because he wouldnt do it.
people keep saying to me not to rush into divorce, that he may change his mind, but sad as I am , I know in my heart that it would never work without major changes and he is not prepared to make them, whilst I am. so it would never ever work and I told him that last night.
midwife99 Fri 18-May-12 17:34:50
You sound a completely different person - you hit the "no more shit" wall at last - well done & don't take any prisoners!
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 19:02:42
thanks, I am still very low, have cried several times again today. Its always difficult if I meet somebody who doesnt really know whats happened and when i tell them the first thing they say is "But you always seemed so happy, he's the last person in the world I would have said would do this, but you were the perfect couple" blah blah blah.
I am feeling like I am starting to get some control back into my life now (controlling bitch that I am, obviously!). I have got 3 nights out with friends coming up, cinema, drinks, meal. and some things planned to do with my daughter too, she has a friends birthday party tomorrow followed by a local garden fete, which we are going to with friends, so trying to keep busy and keep her happy. Took her to the local park today so she has had fun. On Sunday I will try and do some accounts work that I need to do, and then maybe try and relax and watch an hour of tv, something I havent really been able to do for weeks now. Its so ironic he said I watched too much tv, since he left its only been on for daughters programmes! My sky+ is full with unwatched stuff and Ive given up on the soaps.
Its like he took everything away from my, my appetite went and I've lost 2 stone, my enjoyment in reading books and watching tv has gone, he took all the enjoyment out of my life. So Im taking it back, going to see American Reunion with a good friend on Monday evening. Its supposed to be funny, so will hopefully make me feel much better.
Its his birthday next Sunday. Im not going to give him a card myself, but obviously daughter will have to. He gave me a box of Thorntons chocolates for my 40th birthday in March that I never got around to eating because of being ill and going on holiday, plus I was given around 4 large boxes of chocs and never had time to eat them all, still got 1 on the go now.... anyway, I'm going to give him the same box back, from daughter. So he gets a present from her and I dont have to spend any money! I have no idea what the ettiquette is over getting presents for your ex from your child?! do you or dont you?!
Dozer Fri 18-May-12 19:29:56
A card from her will be fine. But recycled choc quite inspired!
maras2 Fri 18-May-12 19:58:37
I know what to give him for his birthday pressie < DIVORCE PAPERS >.Sorry for shouting but he is a very bad person, so please take notice of all of us M'snetters and get rid of this creep.You and your DD deserve much better. Mx.
nkf Fri 18-May-12 20:11:32
Please plesae never ask him what he is feeling and thinking again. Please concentrate only on what you think and feel.
QueenieLovesEels Fri 18-May-12 20:20:17
Sit on chocs first! grin
Butterflygp Fri 18-May-12 20:30:57
My DH left me at Easter I got the old "I love you but I'm not in love with you" I was still am devastated we have two children our youngest being 16 months, I begged him to give things ago suggested how we could improve what I through was a good marriage, but in the end when I asked "is there any hope" he answerd no.
Looking back I'm starting to think that he may of done me a favour as he is going out acting like a child and not taking any responabletly for the kids.
And we all know what happens in the end to these kind of men.
Move on and be strong, you'll find happiness one day and be with someone that loves you 100 times more.
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 20:33:32
Butterflygp I am sorry that you are going through this too. My H is acting so out of character its unbelievable. I accept responsibility for some of the problems, a lot of which was down to stress, but he just wont and he says thats it and wont consider sorting it out.
I am very up and down, but need to consider that what I am doing now is for the best
stuffitunderthebed Fri 18-May-12 20:52:24
Love love love the recycled chocs idea and how assertive you are being. Well done skye
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 21:05:14
I am trying to regain some control and not sit around crying all the time for what has gone. Its never coming back and I need to accept that. I need to accept that its for the best too.
MadAboutHotChoc Fri 18-May-12 21:06:43
Yes, I would focus on rebuilding my life - friends, hobbies, work/training and treat myself to lots of nice things such as bubble baths, haircuts, new clothes etc. It will do so much for your self esteem.
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 21:24:15
I am digging out old clothes that stopped fitting, found some jeans and quite a few tops, feel better when Im wearing them. Saw somebody today I hadnt seen for ages and she commentated on the weight loss, so people can really see it. Its not a good way to lose it, but it is still good that I have.
Trying to stay so positive, but do struggle at times. Think Im still in shock really as still struggling to work out why this happened, cant stop thinking what if etc. But have to accept there was nothing I could have done if he didnt talk to me, and I have tried everything I could to fix it. The lady from the Childrens Centre said that I behaved perfectly through all this, that I am very strong, that I couldnt have handled it better, and she reminded me that I told her at least I can tell my daughter one day that I can hold my head up high knowing that I did everything I could to save my marriage and he wont be able to look her in the eye..
stuffitunderthebed Fri 18-May-12 21:32:55
You are doing so well. Honestly. Hard to recognise you as the same woman from your previous thread. You are behaving with complete dignity, you have done your absolute utmost to save your marriage, you have given him all the reassurances you can do. There is nothing, nothing more that you can do. And now you are approaching acceptance, making level headed financial decisions; whilst ensuring your dd maintains a relationship with her father. Well done. You have come a long long way in such a short time.
PooPooInMyToes Fri 18-May-12 22:10:51
So he originally left you just weeks before your 40th birthday!? Not great timing!
midwife99 Fri 18-May-12 22:14:28
Ignore his birthday. DD can make a card at nursery. He deserves nothing more.
skyebluesapphire Fri 18-May-12 22:57:56
His timing was fantastic, I was late sending out party invites so had just sent them out that week then he walked out. I remember crying at him how fucking fantastic his timing was, that I'd have to cancel my party. He said you can still have it, I said yeah sure celebrate the fact I'm 40 and my husband just left me?!! Twat! plus we had a holiday booked for the end if march for our daughters birthday and a trip to Peppa pig world followed by her party. We booked the holiday through The Sun and upgraded to a lodge from a caravan as a surprise for him , the same lodge we had stayed in previously, which of course I told him about when he said he was leaving .
I suppose I should be grateful that he came back and didn't ruin mine or daughters birthdays ........ He also took the day off on my birthday and took me out to lunch and we had a walk along a seafront. I was so grateful to him for doing that.... I thought he really cared...
I'm getting all sad again now as I really thought he was trying then and that it was going to work out:-( he admitted he was uncomfortable about going on holiday but that we had a good time " but then that's what you do on holiday, it doesn't mean anything" to quote him.
I feel like such a mug thinking we were so happy. We never had s problem in our sex life before he left the first time. When he first came back we made love every day for about 10 days in a row.... We made love literally right up to the evening he left. He couldn't get it up, I cried as I thought it meant he really didn't love me, he said he was confused , then that his feelings were gone, then he walked out for good.
Why am I reliving all this!!!
stuffitunderthebed Fri 18-May-12 23:21:45
Oh sweetheart. It really isn't your fault. His head is all over the place. You have done nothing wrong. He made a half hearted attempt to work things out - probably because of the timing. I can't say anything to make you feel better - only time will do that. But please, please stop torturing yourself. You did everything you could. You now need to continue to be resiliant and smart.
skyebluesapphire Sat 19-May-12 09:19:42
So yet another sleepless night with my daughter. She wakes up distressed every few hours wanting a cuddle or or blanket back on, asking when she will see Daddy. It breaks my heart. I've got a heavy cold and feel rough and so low.
I wake up every morning feeling ok until it all comes rushing back to me. Then I just feel sick and scared all over again and wonder how the hell my life came to this. Bastard I hate the bastard for doing this to us. I told him the other night that if he really cared about his daughter he would have told me when things started to go wrong.
I had bought him (before he left), a lovely birthday card saying happy birthday daddy, you are the best daddy in the world and so special etc. I have now bought another one that just says Happy birthday Dad and that's it. He doesn't deserve anything else. and it's bloody fathers day next month too. Bastard.
Have to go and shower her now and wash her hair. She hates me doing if as he always used to do it . (We don't have a bath).
mrspepperpotty Sat 19-May-12 09:48:55
Oh skye it's so unfair for you and DD to have to go through this. Have you got anything nice planned for today?
Proudnscary Sat 19-May-12 09:56:34
Feel for you so much, you are doing so well but your pain and sadness emanates from your posts. Hope you have a good weekend thanks
skyebluesapphire Sat 19-May-12 10:00:36
I am so sad, grieving for the man I thought I knew who is gone forever, grieving for my daughter who will grow up not knowing what family time is like, grieving for life as I knew it. I feel like I was living a lie as I had no idea that anything was wrong. I sit here crying because my life will never be the same again nor will hers
PooPooInMyToes Sat 19-May-12 10:38:43
What a way to remember your 40th! angry
Perhaps on your birthday next year when you are feeling better you could have the big celebration?
stuffitunderthebed Sat 19-May-12 11:10:53
Really hope you feel better later. Going out today?
midwife99 Sat 19-May-12 12:27:39
I know this seems impossible now but your life will be BETTER than it was before one day. You will look back & realise there was something missing even before ex kept leaving. You will meet a wonderful man who will make you realise how lacking ex was although you didn't know it at the time. DD will adjust & get fun dad not grumpy dad when she sees him & you will get some time to yourself. Meanwhile be kind to yourself & try not to torture yourself with analysing your marriage too much.
skyebluesapphire Sat 19-May-12 18:17:05
Well I have had a busy day with daughter, she had a birthday party this morning then we went to a local fete with my friend and her two daughters so my daughter has had a lovely day. Her behaviour was quite bad at one point and I ended up in tears. It didn't help that I kept remembering the last time I went was with husband.
Have since come home and been in tears again. Even though I know it's over I can't stop going over everything. It's doing my head in. I just can't cope a lot of the time, then at other times I am very strong.
I'm sure he will be telling everybody that he doesn't want a divorce which is ridiculous when he doesnt love me any more. It just makes me sound bad and divorce is the last thing I ever wanted!
I had the letter from the solicitors today which recaps our meeting, he has got it a bit wrong so I need to correct that but he urges me not to hang around as legal aid ends next April. Nit sure that I qualify though. It estimates 9 months for divorce... So that will be before my next birthday then....
Solicitor wants Facebook, email and mobile records along with marriage certificate and £340 for court fee. It also says he could get between 20 and 40% of the capital which could be as much as £38k. I don't see he should get that much no way, so need to suggest as little as possible.
ninah Sat 19-May-12 18:22:29
couple of things
you say your daughter won't know what family time is - of course she will, she still has a family. My dc and I are a family, no less than anyone else I know
two - stop crying in front of dd
Lizzabadger Sat 19-May-12 18:50:12
It's shit at the moment but it will get better.
If he's going around saying things that make you look bad then that's yet one more reason to be glad you are shot of the shithead him.
Be kind to yourself, cut your daughter some slack and, I agree with Ninah, save your crying till she's gone to bed.
lemonstartree Sat 19-May-12 19:05:33
I'm so sorry you have been through this. You have been very strong and very brave.
I thought I would share something with you. My ExH was a drug addict and alcoholic. I stuck in our marriage for far too long, partly because I was afraid that our 3 ds would not have a father figure/know family life. But since I have left I realised that a) that was NOT a family life I wanted them to grow up in and b) they were happier without him at home.
I now have a wonderful, loving DP; who treats my ds' like his own, and they DO have a family life - one I am confident will/is benefiting them because there is a wonderful man as a 'father' and a happy relationship in the home....
I met DP when I was 45....
skyebluesapphire Sat 19-May-12 20:27:27
Thanks for the support, just having a low day again even though I try my hardest to stay positive. As soon as somebody new asks about it I have to go through it all again and get upset all over again. I know it will get better one day and I know it's early days . Councelling will hopefully help me to see that it's not my fault and there was nothing I could do if I didn't know the problem
emdelafield Sat 19-May-12 21:26:09
Hi Skyblue,
Firstly I am sorry you are having such an unhappy time but it will get slightly easier each day from now on until eventually the pain will no longer be acute and will ultimately disappear altogether.
I can relate to what you are saying about how upsetting it is to tell people anew. In a similar situation I have enlisted a close friend to "spread the word"and make it clear that I wanted people to know but I didn't feel up to talking about it.
This works for friends and aquaintances.With completely new people you can say as much or as little as you choose and you don't have to answer any questions if you don't want to.
Good luck with everything.
skyebluesapphire Sun 20-May-12 00:04:12
ok, so I cant stalk his facebook any more, lol. he finally changed his password yesterday as i couldnt get into it today and it said it had been changed. Good job I printed out the one chat on there between him and friends wife. My solicitor wants to see it....
izzyizin Sun 20-May-12 02:59:15
If you are seeing the knob at any time today, do not be drawn on the question of divorce - be non-committal and let it come as a surprise to him.
The same goes for the ow, the ow's dh, the bil, and Uncle Tom Cobley & all. At this stage of the game, no-one should know that you are either discussing divorce with a solicitor or intending to proceed with a petition.
MadAboutHotChoc Sun 20-May-12 08:10:28
Hope you are feeling better this am.
What did the FB chat say? Anything incriminating?
skyebluesapphire Sun 20-May-12 08:36:38
The Facebook chat said
H oh I can't keep up with this tonight
W oh I can type so much quicker now
H yes it's easier isn't it, you can't get rid of me
W I don't want to get rid of you. I can see your happy smiling face now
H and I can see yours too
W you need to change your profile pic for a more recent one
H I always look awful in photos
W no you don't
H ok I'll try and find one
W quick go back to text , husband is coming
So this was 2 days before he moved out in feb, it indicates that her H didn't know they were texting which she told me he did.
There is also an email in which he calls her a very clever girl and another one in which she refers to him sending her motivational emails. In this email he tells her that everything will work out ok in the end. There is never anything lovey or sexy in it but it's all a bit flirty.
stuffitunderthebed Sun 20-May-12 08:45:48
I'm so sorry skye - that would tell me all I needed to know. STOP torturing yourself over your marriage ending and what you could have done or not done differently. SHE is the reason it has ended.
MadAboutHotChoc Sun 20-May-12 09:18:33
oh god...that is incriminating.
Can you now please believe that none of this is your fault and that your marriage ended because of the relationship your H has with this woman.
tribpot Sun 20-May-12 09:32:06
quick go back to text , husband is coming
Not an instant message that anyone who is married and respects their partner should be sending in my view. I have a lot of close guy friends, I chat with them quite a lot (not to the tune of 1200 texts a month mind you! That is not normal) and I would never ever say something like that.
Skye - you seem to think the problem was, he didn't tell you he was unhappy so you could fix it. You're not the project manager of your marriage with him as the customer. He chose to walk away, you didn't push him. Whatever he would like you to believe.
I find the 'divorce: it's just a piece of paper' thing completely cowardly and disrespectful as well. Why shouldn't you want to move on with your life? Be free to meet someone else when the time is right? (Which I fully appreciate is not now!) And with the door shutting on Legal Aid it makes no sense not to get proceedings under way now. He wants to walk away with no consequences, as he's done when he's walked out on jobs in the past.
Leverette Sun 20-May-12 09:32:14
What a pair of two-faced, deceitful lowlifes.
Hold your head up high and stay strong. You are doing bloody brilliantly.
Get that divorce petition sorted.
hugs and thanks to you.
skyebluesapphire Sun 20-May-12 10:21:01
he knows that Im going to start divorce as after I had text from her saying that I was pushing him into a divorce he doesnt want...... bit rich seeing as he walked out on us....... we discussed it and I told him that I have to do it, if he doesnt love me any more, then its the only logical conclusion. obviously he doesnt know exactly when Im going to do it or on what grounds. solicitor said that inappropriate contact with another woman will definitely be part of unreasonable behaviour.
he just picked daughter up and I had all her stuff outside the door ready again and didnt speak to him or even look at him. he looks like he is trying to be friendly, but no chance. How can you be friendly with somebody who has ripped out your heart, stamped all over it, then torn it into little pieces and danced all over it.........
stuffitunderthebed Sun 20-May-12 10:23:44
Exactly skye. He has a bloody cheek!
ThePinkPussycat Sun 20-May-12 10:34:46
skye things have moved on a bit since I last read your thread properly. I know what you mean about having to keep explaining the situation when you see people - except in my case this took the form of a loud rant blush. Luckily this sorted out who were the closest friends, it also led to me becoming a bit of a recluse to avoid starting to explain and turning into a rant.
Re divorce and finances, keep in mind that the main purpose of a settlement is to support DC, and enable both exes to move on with their lives.
Keep strong, and remember, it's OK to cry. Crying is healing.
Leverette Sun 20-May-12 10:36:14
He's trying to be friendly for his own benefit - to help maintain his delusion that he isn't a dishonest shit.
I am not advising you here - but I know that i would be going to visit her and her husband with a copy of the FB conversation. I would be making sure, in an icy fury, that they knew this seedy relationship was out in the cold light of day.
skyebluesapphire Sun 20-May-12 10:48:57
I thought about putting snippets on my facebook status lol, tagging them and her husband in it. But my H doesnt know that I have this, I hadnt mentioned it as didnt want him changing his facebook password, but now he has done that anyway I have nothing to lose. BUT I also dont want it to affect the divorce, I dont want him going arsy on me. Really cant decide what to do for the best. My solicitor wants a copy of it.
ThePinkPussycat Sun 20-May-12 10:52:16
Give your solicitor a copy. It's up to you whether you actually use it.
FGS don't put snippets on fb.
Hugs and brew
Leverette Sun 20-May-12 10:56:46
I guess I take the view that I wouldn't want to be part of keeping their little 'secret' and helping protect her as a result.
They both obviously have massive issues about responsibility - maybe its time for them to learn that actions have consequences. I would feel a moral obligation to inform her DH tbh, in a calm, dignified way.
tribpot Sun 20-May-12 11:00:23
Agreed. Informing the husband of the detail of these conversations is one thing but putting bits up on Facebook - whilst extremely tempting (not to mention amusing) will backfire.
HandMadeTail Sun 20-May-12 11:04:57
My instinct is that you shouldn't do the classic "wronged wife" routine. Don't go to the OW and her H with the FB chat. Keep it as evidence for the divorce.
I wonder if OW is now panicked, as her behaviour will now be made known to her H, which is why she is so anti your divorce.
Well, good, then!
midwife99 Sun 20-May-12 11:36:11
Unfriend both on FB, do not put snippets on & keep it for the legal process
izzyizin Sun 20-May-12 12:38:24
Ever since he left you've run around like a headless chicken trying to find out what's going on in his head, pumping the ow for info, endeavouring to win him back, spending hours analysing his various conversations with, and missives to, you.
Phoning your bil to say goodbye? What was that about? You aren't going anywhere and neither is he.
And even though you've been told repeatedly to cease all contact with ow 'cos she ain't no friend of yours, up until a day or so ago you were still communicating with her.
All of those futile activites stop IMMEDIATELY. Henceforth any enquiry from ANYONE as to whether you intend to divorce the cowardly twat will be met with the official line 'I'm considering my options' - and no more than that.
You've mentioned that "I have always been a great believer in destiny and what is meant to be will be". Now it's time to prove it - and to give destiny a shove in the right direction by exercising a bit of subtle and well-considered control freakery.
Make no mistake; after your frenzy of continual communicataion, blanking him and her at this point will freak them out and it's in your best interests for them not to know what you're up to because if you start broadcasting the fact that you have instructed a solicitor, she may urge him to seek legal advice and get in first in the divorce stakes.
Play it cool. Make like you haven't sought legal counsel. And start getting your ducks in a row. Give your solicitor everything that's required and get them started on your draft petition which will make mention of his unreasonable 2000+ texts per month to an ow.
She won't be named as the ow but that's neither here nor there because, once you know that your petition is in the post to him, you will have opportunity to write to the ow and separately to her h giving your apologies if either of them is upset by mention of her activities with your h but that obviously you can only act on your solicitor's advice as to your grounds for divorce.
I see no reason why a transcript of the 'conversation' you've mentioned earlier between your h & the ow shouldn't accidentally be attached to any letter of apology you may decide to write to the h. In fact, it may be necessary for you to phone him shortly after receipt to apologise verbally for your oversight which will give you opportunity to twist the knife express your own surprise at the number of texts they exchanged.
As for the forthcoming gig; I'd have no compunction about going - preferably with a stunning male by my side - with my head held high to see if they turn up together and to drop her in it some more but I'm an avid fan of Machiavelli and my weapon of choice in these situations is poison administered slowly under cover of a charming and lighthearted demeanour.
The effect to aim for is that, as far as anyone can tell, you've 'risen above it' admirably while making sure that your opponents' noses are well and truly rubbed in it.
skyebluesapphire Sun 20-May-12 15:39:45
just boxed up some more of his stuff that I found, his shower gel was still in the shower! and a few more books, cd's etc. his old family photos. havent put in any of ours, dont see why he would want any pics of us as a happy loving laughing family. He can ask if he wants any of her baby pics etc, I can let him have a cd. I did put in a professional picture of us that was taken in October and we are both happy and smiling and it looks real too, not forced smiles, although I do look very tired in it, looking at it now. I put in the picture of him holding her the day that she was born. It breaks my heart to look at it. I did put it in her bedroom, but she took it back into the lounge again, so he can have it.
I dont suppose he will want our wedding video or any wedding photos.......
I put in all of his accounts folders for last year too, he can pay an accountant hundreds of pounds to sort it all out now, there is no way Im going to do it and it simply wouldnt be appropriate anyway for me to be dealing with his accounts!
Admiraltea Sun 20-May-12 16:06:37
You are doing so well.
During "the talk" this evening PLEASE do not give out ANY information regarding solicitor and divorce.
It is very important that you keep this information very close.
And kudos for putting in the account folders!
nkf Sun 20-May-12 16:18:32
Do you have details of the figures in the account though?
Admiraltea Sun 20-May-12 16:23:53
So sorry skye blue....cross posting ref "the talk" !!
Am so worried though that you will give him power through too much information...
I know it sounds paranoid but I really do get concerned that you may, through trying to be reasonable, end up getting even more used than already looks likely.
As Izzy said so well...retain the get to choose now.
Some motivational music to dance around the kitchen accidentally tread on some stuff may lift the mood.
nkf Sun 20-May-12 17:02:32
Do you have to talk to him? Apart from arrangements regarding your daughter?
skyebluesapphire Sun 20-May-12 17:07:48
yeah his accounts are still in my computer, so I can see what they were. It really pisses me off, because I put wages through for myself as I wouldnt use up my personal allowance, to save him 9% tax on that amount, so I now have to pay tax on all my self employed earnings, probably around £1200! At the moment while he is paying into the joint account I am syphoning some off to pay towards it, but will also want it written into any divorce settlement that he should pay that tax for me! Also, I shoot myself in the foot over financial settlement as his profit will be around £7500 less ! so I could get less maintenance if we had to go official over it. It was all done as a joint thing, to save money overall, you know, like you do when you are a happily married couple!!!
I dont know how much to ask him for. At the moment he is still paying in the £250 a week that he has always paid in. That wont go on forever, indeed my solicitor has said that his solicitor will advise him to stop paying that immediately. My friend gets £60 per week for 2 kids. My neighbour gets £125 per week for 3 kids.
I was going to ask him for £100 per week, but think this is probably too high.... Then I thought maybe £60 a week? She eats a lot, lol. and come September starts school full time, so I will have all the uniform to buy and you know how kids get through shoes and Clarks are £30 a time! then there will be after school activities, Im not one for running around and we couldnt afford much anyway so she wasnt going to do much anyway, but I did at least want her to have swimming lessons at some point soon.
Any thoughts on maintenance anyone??
skyebluesapphire Sun 20-May-12 17:12:02
No, Im not talking to him at all after the other night, there is no point. i dont even speak to him when he picks up/drops off. I want his key back, so will have to text him about that too (have just done that , saying can he put it in daughters bag for me please).
I think my words the other night were - I will start the ball rolling on the divorce then.....
I have emailed my solicitor today to amend some points that he had wrong in our meeting notes and said that I need to meet with him to start divorce proceedings asap.
midwife99 Sun 20-May-12 17:46:51
Child maintenance is usually 15% of income for 1 child so will that help you to work it out?
wiseoldowl Sun 20-May-12 17:50:37
just caught up on your thread and so sorry for what you are going through but have to say I think it is starting to come clear for you. Keep strong.
I second everything Izzy said. Focus on you & DD only, don' waste any more emotions on wandering what they are up to etc.
I too had a copy of an e-mail sent by OW to a friend (i remain friends with OW's husband), the e-mail laughed at her breaking up my 25 year marriage & stated that they were working out how to 'stitch me up' financially. I gave this to my solicitor but have never mentioned it to XH ..or spoken to him in 11 months & I do feel that this has a) kept him guessing as to whats going on as I'm sure he would have expected me to have played dirty by now & b) made me stronger and more able to 'cut loose'.
My financials are due shortly, & please note IME its not about how long you've been married, what you contributed, its just about do you & XH have enough money to be able to provide reasonable homes (lol my xh is already living in a house provided for by her XH) for DC (my XH divorced me for 'unreasonable behaviour BTW...before I got to do him first for adultery. same difference, divorce is divorce).
Revenge is a dish best served cold and one day, just one day I will make a better life for myself & DS while those 2 will live to regret it, of that I'm sure.
Skye you have been strong, there are certainly lots of ups & downs to come believe me. You will have setbacks,duvet days but you can & you will come through it for yourself & your DD, I promise you. Be strong.
wiseoldowl Sun 20-May-12 17:51:45
oh, maintenance btw 15% of net income for 1 child is what I have been quoted. more if more dcs.
wiseoldowl Sun 20-May-12 17:52:33
sorry, x post with midwife
Admiraltea Sun 20-May-12 17:56:55
CSA rough guide 15% 1 child, 20% 2 children, 25% 3 or more. can deduct for time spent with other parent e.g weekend per fortnight = 1/7th off.
Though is much much easier if PAYE as can attach an order to earnings if necessary.
Percentage is on net income. Which is where non PAYE can be extremely creative.
And court orders are fab if adhered to and a complete pain in ass and wallet if not. My county council estimated maintenance outstanding in area as £32 million ...and they cough us the taxpayer are picking up the pieces.
As much up front as poss and if at all poss beg and borrow to make house your own otherwise he will get percentage of all uplift if/when economy alters.
midwife99 Sun 20-May-12 17:58:38
Non resident parent can only claim money off if child stays overnight more than 1 night a week so one weekend a fortnight would NOT entitle him to 1/7th off.
Admiraltea Mon 21-May-12 04:02:40
mine argued that he had them for an extra 5 days when I was in hospital and had them for some bank yes you are correct but I still lose 1/7th ...very easy to go over if you ever let them actually holiday with their dad or are ever ill.
PooPooInMyToes Mon 21-May-12 15:47:13
That conversation between them is shocking in its flirtation! The quick back to texting comment is blatantly showing they are or were up to something. Even if it hadn't reached the sexual stage.
Keep an extra copy of that. Once the divorce is sorted out a bit more i would show it to her husband along with the phone records.
skyebluesapphire Tue 22-May-12 00:44:15
The above fb convo was just 2 days before he walked out the first time. It shows that his thoughts lay elsewhere at that point and that she was making him feel good.
I have struggled today with wanting to text her and his brother to see how he is and what he is saying, but I didn't give in, I didn't text either of them.
I went to the cinema tonight, with my friend, to see American Reunion. It was really funny but I ended up in tears afterwards which was really silly , then we went to McDonald's and I cried because I last went there with him! How pathetic am I?
I know it's over and I know it would never work but still can't help but hold a thought that he is having s breakdown or something! Stupid I know. Have to accept that he is never coming back. I need to get a grip!!!
izzyizin Tue 22-May-12 01:05:26
Of course he's not having a breakdown. He's merely running true to form in that this is what he's like, this is what he does.
If you'd posted here when he first ran away to be with the ow left the marital home and had acted on the advice you'd have received - which would not have varied from that given on your earlier thread - he'd have been back with his tail between his legs by now.
Repeat the mantra: DON'T text her, don't text him, don't text the bil - and repeat ad infinitum until not texting them becomes second nature.
PooPooInMyToes Tue 22-May-12 08:10:36
You must not text her. His brother i see no problem about staying in touch with.
But having seen that conversation between them i am shocked that you have been discussing your marriage with her. She has hugely betrayed you! The sneaky little Bitch! She's trying to cover her own arse by being friendly to you these last weeks but what they did hugely points to an affair, even if it never reached the sexual stage. It was totally inappropriate and i am sure she would do anything to stop her husband seeing it. And there is a reason for that, because it is blatantly obvious from what is written that they were at least having an emotional affair.
skyebluesapphire Tue 22-May-12 08:37:18
Her husband will see it one day definitely. I would like to show him now but don't wont to rock the boat until the house and mortgage are settled.
It proves that he didn't know at that time.
I'm just so mixed up as to whether they actually had an affair or not
izzyizin Tue 22-May-12 08:43:36
Having read that exchange between them, only the extremely guillible would believe that they've been under the same roof since February? or thereabouts, and haven't engaged in a shagfest when the dh's back has been turned.
midwife99 Tue 22-May-12 11:25:25
Yeah sorry I agree - that text exchange is damning evidence of something to hide. Whatever that was - it was still a secret which means it was wrong.
PooPooInMyToes Tue 22-May-12 11:58:53
I think you are extremely tolerant op. A lot of people would have gone ballistic at first site of that conversation, yet this whole time you have given them the benefit of the doubt, have been happily prepared to take him back and have been conversing with her.
What did your solicitor say about it?
Im glad to hear that the husband will be seeing the conversation one day. Poor bloke.
QueenieLovesEels Tue 22-May-12 12:28:02
I don't see why confronting her husband with the evidence will have any bearing on your financial settlement. Your DH shows no signs of any care and consideration towards you. His actions have been totally self-serving. So will be his mindset when it comes to the financial settlement.
He has been telling himself for weeks and attempting to con you, that the marriage broke down because of your 'failings'. He will show no mercy when it comes to the settlement because he isn't feeling guilty.
I think the two of them are having a full blown affair and once the settlement is done, she will move out with him. Then it will be lots of excuses such as 'we only got together after you split' and 'neither of us meant for this to happen' etc. It will all be bollocks of course.
I think she is being nice and supportive so you are kept in place and don't upset things their end.
Tell the other husband and let them ( ow and DH)deal with the fallout inconveniently-just as you have had to.
You will be showing a kindness to the other chap too because at the moment he is not in a position to make an informed choice about his relationship.
Imagine the situation reversed and that she was under your roof and the husband she had left had information suggesting they were having an affair. How horrible would it be if you didn't find out for some time and you were allowing it to go on under your nose?
You need to do the right thing here.
Doha Tue 22-May-12 12:44:04
I think you have to do the right thing by the OW husband-he does have the right to know and make an informed choice, what he does with this informatioon is his choice. Don't let him be blindsided as you were.
Perhaps you can contact the OW husband and let him know that you have proof of an inappropriate relationship between the OW and your H. Tell him he can have access to the information if he wants but also say that they will deny it if confronted.
You could also add that the information is already in the hands of your solicitor (if even just to prove that it exists).
As previously said what happens therafter is out of your hands.
At least your conscience will be clear about keeping quiet.
izzyizin Tue 22-May-12 13:34:02
I have laid out a scenario whereby the ow's dh can be appraised of his dw's clandestine 'conversations' with your h without it appearing that you are motivated by vindictiveness, and the time for enlightening the ow's dh is very definitely not now.
Let the dust settle from your recent frenzied communications with your h and the ow and wait until your divorce petition has been drafted and is in the post before you break the news to the cuckold in a manner that will leave you basking in the rosy glow of altruism.
If he doesn't know what's been going on behind his back it won't hurt him to wait a bit longer - and there's always the possibility that he may come home unexpectedly make his own discovery in the interim.
Slowly, slowly, catchee monkey, honey. If you proceed with caution I have no doubt that the ow's dh will blow a gasket when he discovers the extent of his dw's and his dear friend's duplicity.
skyebluesapphire Tue 22-May-12 16:23:01
the facebook exchange was 2 days before he moved out first at the end of February, a week prior to that there is a mobile phone conversation of over an hour. But he first gave her a lift to Uni at around the end of January, and it was during February that he gave her a couple more lifts to Uni. This was all prior to him moving out the first time.
He has now been staying with them since 8 April.
I have tried to be tolerant and give them the benefit of the doubt for several reasons:
1. Because of the fact that H and her H have been friends for well over 30 years.
2. Because he was living in their house.
3. Because I knew my husband and it wasnt something he would do.
4. Because of the history of the stillborn baby I knew she was messed up.
5. She was very helpful and supportive to me, told me things that my husband was saying that helped me talk to him.
6. She was very critical of him for leaving me and daughter especially.
7. She seemed to think he was going through a MLC and would come out of it.
Reasons why I doubted them:
1. The first time I was suspicious was when he had an email from her, in which he says to her - You are a very clever girl to know so much - It just set alarm bells ringing in my head that the tone was flirty.
2. When I read the facebook chat I was horrified, at "I can see your cheeky little face" and I can see yours - comments
3. The facebook chat says - go back to text H coming, which indicates he didnt know they were texting
4. Finding the facebook chat led me to look at the mobile phone records and I now have printouts of a ream of paper nearly, showing all the texts to her.
5. I then discovered another email , in which she refers to him sending her motivational emails, and he tells her that everything will work out ok in the end.
6. Every single person that I told about the texts thought that there must be an affair going on.....
midwife99 Tue 22-May-12 16:29:54
It doesn't really matter now though. Your marriage is over. He's being a complete jerk anyway! It's just more reason to break off contact with all 3 of them. Her husband will find out if they're having an affair soon enough! Try not to focus on what did or didn't happen. Just get on with your life with DD now.
MadAboutHotChoc Tue 22-May-12 16:32:47
1. Because of the fact that H and her H have been friends for well over 30 years. So? My H had an affair with someone he knew for over 30 years too, we were friends with her husband. Many have affairs with a friend's spouse or mutual friend.
2. Because he was living in their house. So? They would have become pretty close and there would have been even more opportunities to get up to no good.
3. Because I knew my husband and it wasnt something he would do. Many many spouses say that - I never dreamt my H would do this either.
4. Because of the history of the stillborn baby I knew she was messed up. So she was even more open to the idea of having an a coping mechanism or an escape?
5. She was very helpful and supportive to me, told me things that my husband was saying that helped me talk to him. Yes, so that she can manipulate things to suit her agenda.
6. She was very critical of him for leaving me and daughter especially. Probably cos she wasn't ready to move onto the next step and was happy the way things were. Also she could be trying to deflect any suspicions coming her way.
7. She seemed to think he was going through a MLC and would come out of it. Again, propaganda to deflect suspicions of an affair.
izzyizin Tue 22-May-12 16:34:47
What is there to be confused about?
Whatever way you look at it, simply by the manner of his leaving he's done the dirty on you and that's all you need to know.
Whether he's got his leg over with the ow is incidental as, regardless of whether they've been at it like rabbits, she won't be named in your divorce petition.
Because I knew my husband and it wasnt something he would do On a point of clarification, given his recent behaviour, you have no way of knowing what he may have done, or what he may do.
skyebluesapphire Tue 22-May-12 17:35:16
I know, you are right there. The man I am dealing with now is no longer the man I married. I don't recognise this man any more. He is the one who has changed, not me. As I have no proof of actual adultery then no, I cant name her in my divorce petition. I am seeing the solicitor on Thursday, I think we then send a letter to my H, not sure what it says/does, then we draft a divorce petition.
I have unfortunately pissed him off today. I posted on facebook that I had another sleepless night with daughter, then my friend posted was she ok for school and I said she just wouldnt settle, came in with me in the end trouble is she is insecure since her dad left, keeps thinking that Im going to disappear too, then my friend said hate to see her so emotional all the time, shes not the girl that we once knew. then another friend said sorry to hear you have split up and I then replied, yes sadly he walked out as he doesnt want to be with us any more.
He has then today deactivated his facebook account again! He could have unfriended me or blocked me, but he deactivated his whole account. I didnt rant and rave on there, I just answered a friends comment with a statement of fact?!
I guess the truth hurts........
skyebluesapphire Tue 22-May-12 17:42:48
The wife will be going on a weeks cruise any day now... It would be the perfect time to tell the husband.... he could pack the rest of her stuff and throw her out, lol. Trouble is, if he throws the pair of them out, it also throws them together possibly and they could end up moving in together as both stuck. Trying to avoid forcing that scenario.
Dont want her H to be a cuckold, but like you say, if anything going on, it will come out at some point as these things always do. In a way I wish there was something definitely going on as at least it would all make absolute sense to me then, more than it does now.
and I would feel the anger more than I am now, and stop making excuses for his behaviour....
MadAboutHotChoc Tue 22-May-12 18:01:33
When are you or DD expecting to see him again? Just wondering if the deactivation of his FB account is linked to the cruise and if he is going with her.....
PooPooInMyToes Tue 22-May-12 19:11:02
If only there was a way of finding out for sure.
skyebluesapphire Tue 22-May-12 19:19:24
No she is definitely going with her friend, as her friend has posted about it on facebook too. Although my H did get his passport renewed a couple of weeks ago for work purposes..... BUT seriously, she is going with her friend, not him.
he has deactivated the facebook simply because I put the truth on it and it wasnt a rant aimed at him, just a truthful answer to my friends question
tribpot Tue 22-May-12 19:26:15
Walking away is what he does, skye. From jobs, from marriage, from bloody Facebook.
I'm still convinced he's going on this cruise. Friend is already colluding in the relationship - she's the same one who provided an alibi when they took your dd out and the H stayed home with the dog? This is a totally true story: two friends of mine were having an affair (he was the best friend of the woman's husband) and they decided to go away for a week together, ostensibly so she could revise for an exam or something. To Barcelona. Noted for having no distractions from revising. Anyway, they wanted me and my DH to go with them basically to provide cover that this really was just a 'friends' holiday'. I refused. They still went. Her parents were going apeshit at the idea of her having gone away with a male friend for a week (who clearly had feelings for her, recently separated from wife, etc etc) and the H still believed nothing was happening.
By the time they got back, the shit had hit the fan and everyone knew they were on holiday together so the wife was forced to confess. She pretended they'd had a fling solely in Barcelona and I was left to tell the H that no, it'd been going on since a month after his wedding.
As such, I really want to know if you're going to see your ex whilst this cruise is going on. Deactivating his account means he can't be tagged in any of her photos.
skyebluesapphire Tue 22-May-12 19:31:28
But I think that her H might notice if my H is not around at the same time as she goes on holiday, lol.
It must be next week I should think, her and her friend said 12 days and counting and that was on 16 May.
tribpot Tue 22-May-12 19:32:15
Sure but you don't know what they've told him. The H in my story knew fine well his wife was going away with another man.
Dozer Tue 22-May-12 19:34:38
I know someone whos husband was having an affair, he and the OW deliberately got their partners to book a holiday at the same resort, where they engineered to seem to make friends as couples, so the unenlightened partners chatted innocently, enjoyed the holiday etc, whilst the cheaters had assignations. Horrible.
She later found out, but took him back sad.
Setting aside the OW issue, how're you doing Skyebluesapphire?
QueenieLovesEels Tue 22-May-12 19:52:40
Erm.....I wonder if he is going to be away 'working' next week?
QueenieLovesEels Tue 22-May-12 19:54:44
You know if you let the husband know he might be able to uncover more his end and then you will have the solid proof you need to be able to move on from this.
skyebluesapphire Tue 22-May-12 19:58:42
Im not doing good. Im trying hard, but still cant stop going over and over everything in my head. Everybody I talk too says it sounds like theres somebody else......... Its just doing my head in. I cant stop crying all the time. My friend came over earlier and she said I know its not easy, but you have to forget him, stop looking back and only look forward.
I cant concentrate on my work, Ive got so much to do again and just cant find the whatever to do it. I spend every evening on the computer, talking to friends on facebook.
I feel so lonely, I feel so lost without him. Somebody told me something earlier and I thought ooh I must tell him that later, before remembering a split second later that things arent like that any more.
Im so confused as to whether they are having an affair or not. Im seeing the solicitor on Thursday to start a divorce I dont want. I still have this insane hope that he is going to see sense and come back, despite the fact that it is so obviously over.
I seem really strong to other people at times, then cant stop breaking down over it all.
I hate my life, I hate what its become, I never wanted this, I had no choice in the matter, I had no warning that it was going to end until he walked out. I stood no chance ever of putting it right. I hate myself for driving him away, for being so horrible that he couldnt stay. But then I know that everything he said was probably just excuses to be able to transfer the blame to me, when I am able to think rationally.
I hate the fact that I am so out of control. (controlling bitch that I am......)
MadAboutHotChoc Tue 22-May-12 20:06:21
Aww it must be really hard - remember that you have had a short time to process all this unlike your H who has been planning and thinking about it for ages and ages.
Be kind to yourself - get signed off work if necessary. Keep leaning on your friends and family.
When I was going through this I found that doing little things like going for a walk in the sunshine, having coffee in town, a bubble bath, a hair cut, buying a clothes and make up etc really helped.
PooPooInMyToes Tue 22-May-12 20:28:57
Yes you are right, its just excuses. He's walked away because he chose to. Its nothing you did sad
You were also perfectly within your rights to put what you did on Facebook. Like you say you weren't slagging him off you were just answering questions.
Its strange how hes so sure of this yet doesn't seem to want others to know.
Xales Tue 22-May-12 20:34:16
You have been fighting for your marriage since he walked out. He left the marriage when he first walked out in Jan/Feb.
He is a long way ahead of you in his head and heart.
Just give yourself time to grieve and mourn what you have lost. /hugs
skyebluesapphire Tue 22-May-12 20:42:21
I just wish I could stop crying all the time. Maybe this is where the doctor can help me....... I ought to find the local pot dealer, then I could just sit around and smoke myself happy, lol. would probably put back on all the weight Ive lost though if I got the munchies!
see I do still have a sense of humour.....
PooPooInMyToes Tue 22-May-12 20:48:27
I think sometimes these things need to be cried out. Probably best not to bottle it up anyway. It won't be long before you'll realise you haven't cried for a day, and then a few days etc.
skyebluesapphire Tue 22-May-12 20:52:03
hopefully. My friend said I need to get angry and I am at times. I need the anger to overtake the frustration adn the fear
tribpot Tue 22-May-12 21:34:11
I think the trouble is, skye, you are certain in your own mind you could have fixed this if you had been given the opportunity. (I mentioned above this rather odd image of your marriage with your DH as the customer and you as the project manager, brought problems to solve to keep the customer satisfied ... )
But this is what he does. You've seen him walk out on jobs when it all got 'a bit stressful' or whatever line of bollocks it was he fed you. He deliberately deprives the other party of the right of reply, or the right to redress, and it means he keeps all the power, because you simply have no way to engage him. Did he ever do the 'not speaking to you' thing? Withdrawing and leaving you on the outside wondering if you'd ever be let back in?
The frustration and sense of powerlessness come from the fact he has abruptly withdrawn from you (see his pattern of behaviour mentioned above). He did not fight for his marriage, he just tossed it aside. He has chosen to do this despite your herculean efforts to get him to re-engage. He has treated you with no respect. He threw the marriage away and he cares more about people not knowing than the fact that he did this.
This is not a person you could have fixed. No-one could.
midwife99 Tue 22-May-12 22:16:00
Time to stop analysing love. It'll drive you nuts. sad
Dozer Tue 22-May-12 22:19:01
Aaah skye. Just keep going, give yourself credit for all that you're managing to do despite this heartache.
PooPooInMyToes Tue 22-May-12 22:24:23
Yes get angry! You've a lot to get angry about!
skyebluesapphire Tue 22-May-12 22:24:44
I know. I really have to stop going over and over everything in my head. Im really hoping that the doctor can give me something on Friday that will calm me down a bit and stop me feeling so anxious and desperate all the time.
I know that in one way I am doing really well, and I know that this is something that I just have to work through. Why cant we just go to sleep and wake up in 6 months time in a happy place with all the shit behind us.....
Thanks everybody for your support.
midwife99 Tue 22-May-12 22:31:13
Yes you're probably suffering from stress & anxiety & maybe some medication might help for a few months. That going over things in your head again & again sounds familiar! Anti depressants helped me through that first 6 months. It's completely understandable that you'd feel this way.
skyebluesapphire Tue 22-May-12 23:06:21
ok, so people wont think Im mad if I go on anti D's then?! Its not a road I thought I would ever go down, but then I never thought Id be divorcing either so I suppose I need to accept whatever happens now!
I wouldnt want to be on them forever, but the first few months sounds good, maybe get me through the divorce or something.
stuffitunderthebed Wed 23-May-12 00:25:54
Get on the ADs - they will help you cope. I found them a god-send. Thinking of you. Keep going.
tribpot Wed 23-May-12 06:26:08
skye - no-one need know you are taking them (perhaps an ironic thing to say given your H's intent on no-one knowing about your separation). It's a medical decision between you and your GP. I would be very clear with your GP that you have no wish to take ADs long term, or in quantities that could be addicting, and take his/her advice on that basis.
midwife99 Wed 23-May-12 07:31:09
No one would think that you are mad. You just need help over a crisis.
PooPooInMyToes Wed 23-May-12 07:47:17
I used to take them. No one thought i was mad . . . I don't think! But i don't give a fuck anyway. It was my mental health so no one else's business. Saying that though i did openly tell people, but that's because i felt i had nothing to be even remotely embarrassed about. If anyone had issues with it i don't know, but if they had expressed any they would have been told to shove them up their arse!
skyebluesapphire Wed 23-May-12 17:06:17
Fuckety fuck, shoot me now . I texted her again....., I know I know........
She said he has stopped paying money in because I want his key back. She said don't divorce he's still not certain, he said its over because I don't trust him anymore, he doesn't know where to go from here. Remote possibility he might come back ....
She said we need to talk , he here seeing daughter now going to talk in a bit
but he has to go by 6.30 and it's 5 now !
PooPooInMyToes Wed 23-May-12 17:18:41
What the fuck!
You text the woman he has had secret interactions with, possibly has had his cock up!? Seriously? Have a nice little chat did you?
She's telling you that he has stopped paying money into your account because you've asked for his key back! He left you and told you it was over, of course you want your key back! Actually i wouldn't have bothered asking just changed the locks. Why didn't you do that? I suspect it was for a reaction from him. To see if he would changes mind. You need to stop clinging on to that!
What the fuck is all the trust thing about? He's telling people you don't trust him which is why he left? Are you fucking kidding me!? The bloke is trying to put the blame on YOU . . . AGAIN!
Can't you see that? Stop being such a mug! Please?
And stop talking to that fucking manipulative whore of a woman!
tribpot Wed 23-May-12 17:18:49
PLEASE don't do this skye, this is totally inappropriate (not exactly a stretch for this woman). It has NOTHING to do with her and you cannot rely on anything she says as being factual.
Starting divorce proceedings does not commit you to anything. But his actions speak louder than her words - he has stopped paying money because you have acted on his desertion. HE LEFT YOU, end of.
Xales Wed 23-May-12 17:19:00
We can all say the same thing until we are blue in the face. Ultimately only you can move yourself out of this hell you continue to allowed yourself to be kept in.
Why are you still listening to what she is telling you when he is by both words and actions telling you something completely different?
So his latest excuse is because you don't trust him any more hmm Come on sweet heart get real.
You know that this is just the latest reason. Making it all your fault yet again. Funny this wasn't one of his original reason why he left you. It is just more dredged up. There will be another and another. Just re read that email if you want to know what he is blaming you for. You really want to return to a marriage with someone saying all that about you?
He is with-holding money as a punishment not caring if you or your DD are now struggling. Where is the caring husband and father in that?
He has to go by 6:30? Why? Clearly this is all the time scale he is going to allow to talk about your marriage. How much can you resolve in that?
Good luck.
Please for your own health stop engaging.
For what it is worth it is none of her fucking business why he has stopped paying money. She is still completely involved and what sort of a friend of yours would allow a man to continue to stay at their house when he is treating his family this way?
Good luck.
Doha Wed 23-May-12 17:34:55
Get a grip OP they are playing you.
As long as this situation exists with "will he wont he" senario thay are free to continue their affair using this as a smoke screen.
Where is your self respect ? He has told you HE DOESN'T WANT YOU--what more does he have to say.
PooPooInMyToes Wed 23-May-12 18:24:09
Doha. You really need to cling onto some self respect here!
Why are you having cosy chats with the other woman? The person who has contributed massively to the break down of your marriage? You've seen it yourself in black and white.
Do you even really want him to come back? If he came back now after everything he has said it would most likely be because he can no longer stay at his friends house and has no where to go. He has told you plainly that its over. Accept it.
As for her, she keeps telling you this stuff, none of which actually corresponds with what HE is saying.
He's lying to everyone about the reason for the breakdown to blame you. He's an arse.
PooPooInMyToes Wed 23-May-12 18:26:50
Meant to say i agree with doha, not that doha needs self respect!
Doha Wed 23-May-12 18:36:26
poopoo you had me worried for a minute there wink
Dozer Wed 23-May-12 18:39:58
Skye, sometimes you are your own worst enemy.
Get a grip, get onto the practicalities, stop texting ffs!
Dozer Wed 23-May-12 18:41:47
And why is he at yours seeing DD? Please don't tell us you're cooking for him again. Because I really might have to shoot you then.
<looks around for anniegetyourgun>
midwife99 Wed 23-May-12 19:16:37
Oh honestly why are you ignoring our advice? Why are you asking for it? I feel like saying suit yourself!!! It really is no skin off our noses if you stay in this ménage a trois for the rest of your days but you need to stop asking for advice if you don't want to take it. Your call honey - it's your life!
QueenieLovesEels Wed 23-May-12 19:23:47
I'm not giving any more advice after this......
What I will say is that you need to speak to somebody professional now.
PooPooInMyToes Wed 23-May-12 20:44:35
So what happened op?
izzyizin Wed 23-May-12 21:06:48
<<hands Dozer Colt .45>>
<<loads Smith & Wesson>>
<<waits for OP to appear in line of sight>>
Proudnscary Wed 23-May-12 21:12:31
I just cannot understand you Skye.
At the very very best it is none of this woman's business and has not helped you one iota to speak to her.
At worst - and what I truly believe and so do others - is that she is pulling your strings because she's stealing your husband.
You have to get a grip.
AnyFucker Wed 23-May-12 21:15:24
skyebluesapphire Wed 23-May-12 22:00:33
have got solicitor in the morning. am a lot clearer about what to do now. nothing has changed, I asked him if he was 100% certain that its what he wants, before I go down the divorce road and he said yes.
PooPooInMyToes Wed 23-May-12 22:02:32
So yet again the woman was talking shit, why does she do that! angry
tribpot Wed 23-May-12 22:05:40
Oh skye, I'm sorry you put yourself through this again, it feels as if in some horrific way she is testing his commitment to her by forcing you to jump through the hoop over and over again of asking if there is any hope for you.
Please don't communicate with her again. For your own sanity. Either he is blatantly lying to her too or she is completely stirring it for her own purposes. Neither of which helps you in the slightest.
Doha Wed 23-May-12 22:09:15
She does it bacause she can get a reaction and continue to feed the drama and as l said before while their is "hope" of a reconciliation there is a smokescreen for their affair.
She is loathsome--as is he.
Now STOP the texting, pleading etc. IT IS OVER..
Get the solicitor to start the proceedings and when you can please alert the OW DH to what has been happening,
THe poor sod needs to know just what his DW and friend have been up to behind his back
skyebluesapphire Wed 23-May-12 22:14:50
I just had a momentary lapse earlier. I know I shouldnt have done it, but the good thing that did come out of it was that we did talk about stuff tonight because of what she said.
he texted to see daughter, and after getting her texts which pissed me off, I asked him to stay and talk. I didnt cook tea, I didnt even offer him a drink!
I asked if he was going to pay in this week as he hadnt yet and he said he didnt have any money. So I said well we need to sort this out as you have a responsibility to your daughter. He said how much do you want and I said I dont know. I suggested £60 a week and he said he would pay £100 if he could each week and also help out with school uniform in September and pay half of her shoes...... I think by what friends have said that £100 a week is pretty good, so didnt argue with him....
I said are you sure its over, I did ask him to be certain, he said you want a divorce, I said I dont WANT one, I have to get one, which is different! He said you dont trust me now anyway, so I explained why, I told him about the facebook chat and he said it was just them being silly. I said it proves that her H doesnt know that she was texting you and he said her H does know. I said I could ring him now and tell him and he said go on then! I didn't.............
I said are you seeing her, I would rather know than be lied to and he said there is nothing going on....
we did talk about the house, mortgage and divorce and I said if he agrees with my petition, it will save us both a lot of money, but I didnt tell him what was going in it (not sure myself until see solictor tomorrow anyway). I told him I had made an appointment, but didnt say it was tomorrow......
I asked him several times if he was certain that he wants to walk away from his home, child, marriage, wife and he is certain. He is sure that I wont change, that I am what I am (and I havent changed, he is the one who has changed). I told him that I am less stressed out now, that I deal with things differently and that if he doesnt give it a chance he will never know and he will regret it in a few years.
So I know I shouldnt have texted her and I WILL NOT do it again... but at least it made me talk to him and sort some stuff out.
Still havent got my bloody door key back though!
skyebluesapphire Wed 23-May-12 22:21:20
PS,. Please dont shoot me!! I know what I want now and I finally accept he is never coming back.
Dozer Wed 23-May-12 22:28:46
He still knows he can have you back anytime, and you still seem to hope he'll come back (and think that you have to change / accept everything he's done).
It's cruel and manipulative of him to make out that it's you wanting a divorce and that you have trust issues, it's gas-lighting (whether or not he has had a physical affair).
You are making progress in some ways though, at least he got no refreshments!
Hope sol goes OK tomorrow.
Proudnscary Wed 23-May-12 22:31:37
Actually the only step forward you made in that entire scenario was not making him tea.
Sorry to be harsh. I think I am angry with him and her for being such ruthless cunts - but your total inability to see what is in front of your face is making me angry with you! I know you are going through hell and I only wish you well.
Xales Wed 23-May-12 22:32:22
He is still blaming you for this. You want a divorce, you don't trust him, you won't change. It is not you it is him. Nothing you do to change yourself will change him.
One of them is lying to you. He either hasn't paid you to punish you for asking for the key back (her take/shit stirring) or he is not paying you because he 'doesn't have the money'. You cannot win anything with liars, you are wasting your time.
Money each week if he can is unacceptable. It should be money each week. What about when he can't? Or just decides he can't? Your DD needs to come first on that money. £60 a week set in stone is better than £100 this week, £100 in three weeks if he can, £100 two weeks after that if he can...
If something is going on or not he is not going to suddenly turn around and say 'oh yes you are right...'
You do need to back away now.
Neither of these people are your friend.
Dozer Wed 23-May-12 22:32:42
Aah, we won't shoot you, since you didn't make tea!
(Don't believe have seen anyfucker lost for words before!)
Am sorry you're having to go through all this. Take care of yourself.
PooPooInMyToes Wed 23-May-12 22:34:38
Just change the locks and then you don't have to worry about the key.
You are still trying to please him, to convince him to come home, accepting responsibility for him leaving by saying you are different now, willing to live you life trying to please him and bend over backwards to stop him leaving again. Something which would exhaust you.
But, the problem is still him, he still runs away when things are tough and has inappropriate relationships with other women.
By saying you have changed you are accepting responsibility and confirming what he says, that you were the problem. Do you actually believe that? After everything?
AnyFucker Wed 23-May-12 22:37:38
skye, please read again what tribpot said
I think she has hit the nail on the head re. why this woman is telling you this stuff that isn't being borne out by your H
she is testing his commitment to you, checking to see that even if you go down on bended knee to him (which you seem rather frustratingly to keep doing) that he is staying faithful to her
can't you see it ?
tribpot Wed 23-May-12 22:43:58
I really hope not, AF, it's hard to believe anyone would be so needlessly cruel. Even after everything this pair have done so far.
As for this: He is sure that I wont change, that I am what I am - FUCK ME could he be more passive aggressive? "I accept you can never become a decent wife, still, them's the breaks eh love?" Patronising fucker angry
PooPooInMyToes Wed 23-May-12 22:44:49
I agree!
Proudnscary Wed 23-May-12 22:45:48
I think she knows exactly how much he's wrapped around her little finger and does not need to test that - she is doing all this to show how caring and entirely without agenda she was, how she begged wife to give it another chance. She never wanted to break a family up. It all just happened after the marriage was over.
skyebluesapphire Wed 23-May-12 22:51:41
I know he is blaming me for this, I cant do anything right. All I wanted to do I suppose is to be absolutely certain myself, that this is what he wants, so that I can proceed with the divorce with no doubts on my part. No more if only's, or maybe's or anything like that.
He kicked me in the teeth again, at my own request, but at least I don't need to ask again. I made him feel bad, I cried a lot, he even actually shed a tear himself!!!!!! BASTARD - out of guilt no doubt. I told him that he didnt even care about me any more and he said he did, but I said no you dont, you wouldnt have treated me so badly if you did. I said that one thing I asked you not to do was string me along with our date, and thats exactly what you did, I asked you several times if you were sure you wanted to do it and you said yes, I said it was very very unfair to do that to me.
I told him that I know he enjoyed himself on the date and that I know that we could be happy again, but he is too much of a coward to even try. I said he let his daughter down by not trying as hard as he could to sort things out and I said that our marriage wasnt a job he could just walk out of, it was my life and Daughters life. I said I dont want her coming from a broken home, thats why i would have done anything to sort it out.
I also said its not just about what you want, its about what I want too. I said even after all the nastiness I would have still gone out with him again, thats how strongly I felt that we could sort it out. But I said that if he was certain, then that was it.
I told him that his flat needs to be suitable for daughter, that it doesnt need to be 2 bedroom while she is young, she can have his bed and he can sleep on the sofa (assuming he can afford one grin ) I told him its no concern of mine where he lives or what he can afford, I am only concerned about daughters welfare.
AnyFucker Wed 23-May-12 22:55:56
You need to get the financial arrangements set in concrete
this man is going to fuck you around with money
and so far, it looks like you are going to allow it
skyebluesapphire Wed 23-May-12 22:58:30
I will tell my solicitor tomorrow that he has said £100 a week. Does that go on the statement of arrangement thingy or is that just about access? I will make sure it goes in the solicitors letter to him anyway.
tribpot Wed 23-May-12 22:59:21
I know that we could be happy again
Skye, this man could never make anyone happy long term. It would not even occur to him to try. He has never shown any inclination to treat you as an equal partner in a marriage and not his relationship customer service manager.
Although on a practical level it makes very little difference at the moment whether you can ever reconcile this with what you believe caused the end of your marriage, I do believe you need to come to terms with the fact that the only way your marriage could have continued would have been for you to live in a perpetual lie. And that this condition would have been caused by him.
Proudnscary Wed 23-May-12 23:00:02
You've said all of that to him a million times before.
Ignore the advice on here at your peril.
Toughen up quick or he will bend you over and fuck you up the arse.
skyebluesapphire Wed 23-May-12 23:06:22
I know. I am a lot clearer in my mind again now. I do know that he is the weak one for walking away and I am the strong one for trying to fight. I know that he is not the man I thought he was. I know that I am better off on my own than living a lie.
I asked him how long he had been unhappy as I want to know how long we were living a lie and he just said he couldnt say how long, it just built up over time. I reminded him that after daughter was born 4 years ago he said he loved me more than ever and that we were so happy then and were for a long time after. I told him that he will not bring me down, thinking that he was unhappy for years as I know that he wasnt.
I am taking control now as he still doesnt see the point in rushing into the divorce. Well fuck him, this is about what I want now.
PooPooInMyToes Wed 23-May-12 23:07:51
Well fuck him, this is about what I want now
Wahoo! smile
undermyskin Wed 23-May-12 23:15:22
Please make today the last time you text your 'friend' and the last time you engage with your exH
You must be dizzy from going round in circles
Time to take some pride in yourself
AnyFucker Wed 23-May-12 23:18:13
Undermyskin, if I had a pound for every time OP had been given that specific advice, I would be currenty sipping cocktails in The Seychelles and not sat on my sofa in a Grim Northern Town sharing a teabag with my DH
skyebluesapphire Wed 23-May-12 23:19:17
Hopefully this is the last circle, its a straight line from now on, straight to the divorce court.
I still love him, but hopefully those feelings will start to go soon.
Proudnscary Wed 23-May-12 23:25:28
No one's saying you can just turn your feelings off or that it's not terribly difficult and painful for you.
But you CAN control what you say and do - it's imperative that you disengage but you just aren't grasping how fucking important that is on so many levels.
He has checked out of your marriage. No amount of asking, telling, pleading, texting, dating can change that.
Because you have made it clear you are still willing to take him back, even after The Email Of Self Indulgence - he sniffs weakness. And he will take advantage and he will fuck you over financially if you are not careful.
PooPooInMyToes Wed 23-May-12 23:33:09
AF Sharing teabags, its surprising how far they go. I once made three cups with one bag!
skyebluesapphire Wed 23-May-12 23:33:41
Oh I am now, believe me. I will not be contacting her again, I know I said it before, but I mean it now.
I wont be contacting him again either, apart from to ask for my key.... and obviously have to respond if he asks about daughter. but he only enquires about access, he never asks how she is or anything!
I have finally accepted it, I felt I had to give it one last shot before I see the solicitor tomorrow, so that I can go to that appointment, head held high, knowing that there is nothing more I can do.
If he comes back at any point (which I doubt he will), but if he does, I honestly now know that it would never work and that he is not the man that I thought he was and that he is not the man that I need to be with.
As and when affair is discovered, then I shall turn round and say well I knew it all along. and I have told his brother ages ago about the texts, so his family will know the truth as well if it all comes out at some point.
Dozer Thu 24-May-12 00:01:46
Don't keep giving him chances to hurt you still more. Enough, now?
To quote a v cheesy dido song you have more than gone down with this ship. It's like groundhog day meets titanic!
What's happened to you that you will put up with so much and still seek reunion, on any terms?
Questioning him about what went wrong and when won't work - he will never give you positive, true answers, only reinvention of history and yet more criticism. Seeking to persuade him that you could be happy again together - what about your happiness?
Hope your RL friends can help in the next few days, have DD for a bit or cook or anything.
MadAboutHotChoc Thu 24-May-12 07:23:30
Given how he has already messed you around with money, I would go to CSA and get them to collect it for you. CSA's guidelines is something like 15% of his income for one child.
This man is not to be trusted and OW will pull his financial strings before too long....
PooPooInMyToes Thu 24-May-12 07:56:16
I agree with going to the csa. Don't give him the chance to "not have it this week", living like that will only stress you out.
I wouldn't bother asking for the keys either, i would just get the lock changed. He was there yesterday, why didn't he leave it when he left yesterday?
Glad that you feel more sure of what is happening.
midwife99 Thu 24-May-12 09:40:45
CSA babe. Avoid further discussions about money. You may well get less than £100 pw but it'll be regular. Change locks & send him the bill.
Anniegetyourgun Thu 24-May-12 09:52:34
Late again... I heard somebody call? Damn, looks like I missed the shooting.
Well here's a really cheesy old (but true) number to remind you what you need to do. It even mentions the key issue. That songwriter must have known.
It also shows there's nothing new under the sun. Some men - and women - have always behaved like this and they probably always will, unfortunately.
Anniegetyourgun Thu 24-May-12 10:10:20
oh and, let me add my voice to the myriads stressing this... DO. NOT. TRUST. THAT. WOMAN. She's got an agenda. Maybe it isn't what we all suspect it is (though frankly I don't see how it could be anything else), but it is so obviously not one that helps you.
Xales Thu 24-May-12 14:17:08
Don't text him again.
He knows that you want the key back. You gain nothing from texting him regarding it again. All you are doing is contacting him.
If him having access is an issue fit a second lock for 'security purposes' as you are now alone in the house and don't tell him.
If he and she are colluding you will just be giving them more fuel to laugh/bitch/sneer at your pathetic attempts to keep contact.
izzyizin Thu 24-May-12 14:30:42
skyebluesapphire Thu 24-May-12 14:59:06
He put the key in daughters bag so I have it back now. I have seen the solicitor, letter going tomorrow stating that I'm filing for divorce and that he needs a solicitor. They said it will be posted tomorrow so I'm hoping he might get it Saturday in time for his birthday on Sunday.
He is not going on the cruise with her, she is going with her female friend.
I have had it with him now. I can't stop loving him just like that but I am sick of him and his pathetic behaviour and hus excuses and he is a total bastard for walking out on his daughter. Her H will deffo be getting the information at some point in the future when they are not expecting it, maybe after mediation to sort out finances- if he will agree to go -
The next time I text him it will be before the ink dries on the decree absolute and it will be to say Happy Divorce Day, I'm better off without you, fuck off you twat,
izzyizin Thu 24-May-12 15:29:06
Hur... stops mid-cheer. I'll raise a full cheer if a full week goes by without you having texted him/her or otherwise revealed what you're up to through third parties or on FB or similar spawn of the devil sites.
undermyskin Thu 24-May-12 15:41:40
Skye you must now really steal yourself to stick to your intentions - no more contact to ask once again if it really, really is over, each time racheting up the anti. OK. What has been is in the past, start afresh today with a new resolve.
I for one did a good bit of snivelling to my exP when he left. If I could erase that bit of history I would for the simple reason that remembering it makes me feel less good about myself. A dignified silence is the best road, that and directing all your energy into looking after your interests and those of your DD. Dignity runs through Borntofolk's recent thread; I wish I could have been like her 3 years ago.
Put on an act for now - outward calm despite inner turmoil. Limit communication to about your DD. If you feel you are tempted to contact him or his 'friend' distract yourself or just write down what you want to say but don't send it. You know you will just feel more wretched if you send one more text or make one more call. Slowly the acting will not be an effort because you will be accepting of your new and very changed life, and will be taking steps to make it a happy one. One evening a little way into the future you will realise you have not given him a second thought all day; tis strange when that happens, and you will be proud of what you have achieved.
skyebluesapphire Thu 24-May-12 19:26:10
The bastard just emailed me! He said "I see that you were trying to sell your George Michael tickets on facebook. (he has come off it but must have seen a few days ago that I was trying to sell the tickets). I know how much you wanted to go and I really dont want you to miss out, so I am happy to take you and go with you although I understand you may not want to. I am also happy to take you and somebody else and wait and drive you home again"
What fucking planet is he on?! I had to email him back, sorry, but no choice!
I said " I dont see how we could go to see George Michael if we are not together as its quite a romantic show and I wanted to go with the husband that I used to love, not a man who doesnt want to be with me. Divorced couples dont usually spend a lot of time together. I don't have the heart to go and see it with anybody else".
Then I said "I had my solicitor appointment today, a letter will be with you shortly. The divorce petition will follow later. After speaking to you last night I can see that this is the way forward, this is what I need to do, I am certain now. I give up on you".
How the hell does he think I would want to go to a concert with him?! He is right, I really did want to go, but with him as my husband, not as my ex, or with a friend! He is flaming deluded? Trying to be Mr Nice Guy?
He's going to get a shock when he gets the divorce petition. Not sure just yet what solicitor is going to put, but he is going to draft it, and he is definitely going to put down "Inappropriate contact with Mrs XX XX by email, text and facebook as one of the reasons for unreasonable behaviour. So she wont be named as in adultery but her name will be on the petition! Neither of them will like that!!
Whoo Hoo!! Go me!!
Xales Thu 24-May-12 19:48:12
You do have a choice. You could have ignored the text. It was nothing important. Stop texting him back. Disconnect and stop contacting.
As your DD has a bag get a diary so that you and he can put important information in it. It will reduce your need to speak/contact him further.
midwife99 Thu 24-May-12 19:55:10
Oh Sapphire even replying to stupid emails like that is engaging. STOP IT!!!!!!
izzyizin Thu 24-May-12 19:55:46
Yeah, go you <<yawn>> Round in the same tired old circles.
I had to email him back, sorry, but no choice Of course you had a choice but, as per usual, you made the wrong one.
As for the wording you used - yet another loss of face and, in replying within minutes of receiving his missive, you've showed you're hanging round just waiting/longing for him to contact you.
You haven't taken on board any of the advice you've been given on either this or your other thread and I'm beginning to wonder why you posted here.
skyebluesapphire Thu 24-May-12 20:16:06
sorry, but I didnt want him to think that I was considering going with him and I didnt want him to email me and ask me again. I thought if I emailed back and made it clear, then he wouldnt bother emailing me again... It really upset me when I got the email that he could be so insensitive as to think I would even contemplate going with him. Hopefully he wont email me again now.
oikopolis Thu 24-May-12 20:18:38
skye every time you let him know how upset you are, by email or whatever it is, you're feeding his ego.
he's LOVING the fact that he has such a hold over you.
don't give him that satisfaction. every time you do it, you're placing yourself into a weaker and weaker emotional position. you're feeding your own anxiety and pain by letting him in, and interacting with him.
AnyFucker Thu 24-May-12 20:28:09
the best response to that email, skye, would have been a big fat zero
or if you really couldn't resist a response... "are you fucking joking ???"
LyingWitchInTheWardrobe Thu 24-May-12 20:35:46
skyeblue.. I've been reading your thread and I'm very sorry for you BUT do you really think that not answering his texts and e-mails would have led him on in any way? No. You want to be in contact at the moment, you're craving it and in some way you're feeding the drama and desperate for it to continue. I can understand that because in some way, you need this to carry on for now, relinquishing your interest only when you've had enough. This was foisted on you and you aren't ready to let go... I get that.
If you keep replying, you will really, really regret it later on when it will still all be over but you'll be cringeing at your own behaviour because it comes across as desperate and needy. None of this was your fault but how you handle this now is all important for your self-esteem - and for your daughter to see strength in her mother.
If you're really determined to keep chatting away to him and not having the control - or wanting to have te control - to stop it, then I hope for your daughter's sake that she's completely oblivious. I doubt it though because you sound completely obsesssed.
skyebluesapphire Thu 24-May-12 20:40:24
I thought I was taking control by emailing him back and telling him no way. I thought that I was doing the right thing to stop him contacting me again. I just burst into tears when I got the email and my daughter was here and did see it, so I dont want him emailing me again and asking something so stupid. I thought I was doing the right thing to stop him asking again.
foolonthehill Thu 24-May-12 20:41:12
I presume someone has already suggested a new phone for you and keep the old one inalocked--cupboard--under--deep--water somewhere safe for DD contact issues so you DON'T TEXT HIM. Ditto with email for him, one for the stuff you actually need to see.
step away OP, step away. let the legals do their stuff.
LyingWitchInTheWardrobe Thu 24-May-12 20:51:10
He is not going to be surprised at the divorce petition either, skyeblue because you've TOLD him about it. If you stop talking to him, he will certainly stop talking to YOU, which you say is what you want. I don't think it is, not right at the moment. Do you even remember what you're texting/emailing half the time? It sounds quite mindless - just knee-jerk responses to the pain he's causing you. He seems to quite enjoy it; if he didn't, if he really did care for you - he'd stop it.
Everything you say and do reads to me as "I'm going to divorce you, I really, really will, if it's really, really what you want, is it? Yes, but is it really, really what you want? Are you sure, really?". It shouldn't be his decision now - it's YOURS. Don't take his feelings into consideration because you're not a couple anymore - and HE did that to you. Start getting angry but not like this, non-stop thinking of him - a cold fury... he will get the message immediately. You're not sending him mixed signals at the moment you're telling him, "Come home, I don't care what you did, just come home and tell me what I want to hear". Don't do that, for your own sake, please don't.
You cannot stop him e-mailing you but you can stop reading them - just delete them, ditto the texts. Stop texting. Is there anybody in your life that you just have to text? If not, switch your phone off and leave it off.
You can only control what YOU do, that's it. Please hold it together for your daughter's sake. You understand what's going on - she doesn't and is too young to get the minutiae of it all. She doesn't need that stress and can't handle it. Rant here and out with your friends - no harm will come to you and you'll be able to hold your head up high and eventually move on to the life you deserve.
tribpot Thu 24-May-12 20:54:32
I understand that you thought you were taking control, skye, but what you said was: I wanted to go with the husband that I used to love, not a man who doesnt want to be with me
Honest, but not smart. It will feed another cycle of texts, recriminations, doubts, regrets. Let it go. By all means tell him not to contact you again, just a one liner to that effect. You've practically begged for another response, which will kick you in the teeth again if you're not careful.
Detach detach, and yes - he is a complete idiot asking if you'd like him to drive you to a concert you were meant to attend together. He wants a reaction: you gave it to him.
Chin up - tomorrow's another day. You've made huge steps forward, keep your eyes on the future.
skyebluesapphire Thu 24-May-12 21:04:16
I wasnt going to tell him I saw the solicitor, but my mum was here and she said just tell him, so he's knows that you have done it and that you are serious, as he seems to think Im bluffing and won't go through with it, that I just keep saying it but won't do it.
My solicitor said we dont have evidence of adultery, so difficult to put that down, but unreasonable behaviour we can do, he will draft it and let me see it. But he said he will definitely put her name down as the judge prefers to see innapropriate contact with X XX rather than just inappropriate texting etc. So I agreed to it. It will piss him off big time I know, and her as he is bound to tell her. If I get any shit from either of them then, I WILL NOT respond to it.
I just hope it doesnt affect the settlement. The solicitor said we should go through mediation to confirm access and settlement he receives from the house etc. H said last night that he would be fair and I could keep what I put in, but I dont know, once he sees a solicitor he could change if they push him to get what he is entitled to. He needs to remember that its all for his daughter ultimately.........
ThePinkPussycat Thu 24-May-12 21:18:17
Adulterous behaviour does not affect the settlement, aiui, which is more about making sure any DC are Ok and the adults can move on with their lives.
Sorry, but saying 'it will piss him off big time' shows you aren't yet detached. The idea is to get to the point where you don't care how he reacts or feels. I do understand though, that you are only human...
ThePinkPussycat Thu 24-May-12 21:21:17
Also 'keeping what you put in' may be far from fair! (I don't know your circumstances, sorry if you already posted them). On this one, take the advice of your solicitor, and above all, Do Not, Repeat Not, discuss it with stbx.
skyebluesapphire Thu 24-May-12 21:30:14
I made £88K on the sale of my old house, then we bought this together after we married and put in joint names. I put about £68K into this one, paid all the fees, stamp duty etc and paid for carpets, painting throughout, furniture, curtains etc. i also paid off a loan that he had at the time of £8K.
The equity at the moment is about £90K, so I dont think he should get much. But the solicitor said that unfortunately nowadays the judge doesnt look at who put what in, but at the need for accommodation for both parties. Also H has paid the mortgage for 4 years since I had daughter. If H agrees to walk away with £10K or something relatively small, then I think thats the best I can hope for. He wont get it for 14 years anyway, or if I remarry. But if he gets nasty and wants 50/50, I dont know what will happen. He cant force a sale though, my solicitor said that. and H said last night that he would stay on the mortgage if it helped me, but I said he would have to come off the deeds. Due to his previous financial problems, bankruptcy and credit card debt all before he met me, then I need him off the deeds to the house......
Proudnscary Thu 24-May-12 21:33:34
Talking to a brick wall springs to mind - us to you that is, not you to him.
If we, people that don't know you, feel your 'hard hitting' texts and emails come accross as toothless, how do you think he sees them?
Why do you think he emailed?? Just to make sure you are still in 'want you back/not angry/making idle threats' mode. He's just checking nothing's changed. And it hasn't.
ThePinkPussycat Thu 24-May-12 21:38:30
Ah, I see. What your sol says accords with what mine says, and what I've read on the internet. Sounds like you have a good grip of the financials. Sadly exes do sometimes turn on a sixpence when the settlement negotiations are under way.
Am involved in settlement dispute, but my circs are wildly different from yours. Keep strong, it is stressful, but I found I could ride out the stress and it would subside till the next time
stuffitunderthebed Thu 24-May-12 22:33:09
Sorry to hear of your set back skye. Cruel and insensitive of him to make that offer and designed to continue casting him in role of 'good guy' i echo all previous posters who say you simply must NOT engage with this man in any shape or form.
Dozer Thu 24-May-12 22:46:35
Skye, we're giving you a hard time here, we just want you to be OK and minimise further pain. brew and a (nice, chocolate) biscuit
Pinkpussycat, it may be a little soon for detachment! But detached, coolness with undercurrent of righteous anger might be worth aiming for, on the surface at least - fake it 'til you make it!
skyebluesapphire Thu 24-May-12 23:27:32
I just seem to get knocked down again every time that i pick myself up and think that I'm doing ok.
I can't stop my feelings, I only wish I could just switch them off. I have stopped wondering what he is doing all the time but I can't stop thinking about what he has fone to us, especially how he could do this to daughter.
I try to be strong and I try to hate him but it just doesn't work
skyebluesapphire Thu 24-May-12 23:28:31
What he has done to us that should say
ThePinkPussycat Thu 24-May-12 23:29:07
Dozer yes it's a long process - although in my case when eventually it came, it came v quickly. Still under same roof, so sometimes it slips - but into annoyance and being wound up grin I give thanks for MN every single day!
PooPooInMyToes Thu 24-May-12 23:32:11
Your reply just made you sound weak again. You would between better off keeping quite about the whole concert thing and letting him wonder if you had gone and who with.
ThePinkPussycat Thu 24-May-12 23:33:05
Don't be too hard on yourself skye, the fact is you do keep picking yourself up, which shows strength. No point in trying to hate him. Anger is ok though, if it comes.
stuffitunderthebed Thu 24-May-12 23:33:23
You will get there skye. Going to take time. We all only show exasperation because we want you to make the right choices which will help you and aid you maintaining some dignity in this terrible situation. Please please listen and heed the advice given x
PooPooInMyToes Thu 24-May-12 23:42:47
Through all of this you seem to have kept up constant contact. Asking for dates, asking him to come home, texting her all the time, writing him long letters, asking him over and over if he's sure . . . etc
Is that just the way you are about things anyway?
skyebluesapphire Thu 24-May-12 23:58:45
I was just desperate to try and get him to see what he was doing, what he was walking away from, but I know now that I never stood a chance. He made his decision all on his own back in Feb and I didn't even know he was unhappy. That is what I have struggled with more than anything and still am. That's why I wanted him to give it another go. I was so convinced he must be having some sort of crisis as he was behaving so out of character.
But he checked out a long time ago and bought into her life and I never stood a chance
oikopolis Fri 25-May-12 00:03:27
i'm sorry skye. i know this is very hard. he has hurt you dreadfully and it's so unfair isn't it, the fact that he never gave you a chance. sad
you deserve so much better than what he has put you through.
the ladies here are basically all trying to help you remember that. every time you try to get him to understand, or to see what he's doing, he just takes it as an ego-stroke...because he knows his mind is made up, and every word you say he just takes as proof that you adore him and he has tonnes of power over you. he's not taking your words as you mean them at all.
skyebluesapphire Fri 25-May-12 00:12:34
Yeah I get that. I want to hurt him or let him know how upset I am but of course he doesn't give a damn. He said last night he will always care about me and I said that the way he treated me in the end proves that's not true.
no more contact until mediation etc
Proudnscary Fri 25-May-12 08:06:16
In case it's not clear, we are all aching for you and appreciate the emotional hell you are in. You are doing so well in simply putting one foot in front of the other and seeing your solicitor, being a good mother etc.
But we are beyond exasperated about your contact with him and That Dreadful Woman (TDW).
Your passivity and naivety towards TDW is frankly utterly staggering - almost uniquely so.
I would like to ask PooPoo's question too as this might help you think/talk? Is this typical of you in 'normal life'...Have you ever learned how to self preserve when it comes to people taking advantage...learned how to walk away with dignity, not allow people to rip the piss out of you? Can you even read the signs that this is happening? Do friends and family often take advantage of your passive nature? Do you often find yourself flogging a dead horse when it comes to, say, dying friendships? Do you find it impossible to let go of feelings?
PooPooInMyToes Fri 25-May-12 08:12:15
No you didn't sad
undermyskin Fri 25-May-12 08:39:09
You have got to break the cycle. To do this it would be good if you could find something that occupied you so you do not constantly thrash everything through a million times.
This is all a bit simplistic, but is there any exercise you do? When exP and I split I took up running - and I am older than you. I stuck headphones on and hurled my old body around the local park. I was completely absorbed for a while and it gave me some peace. The important thing was that I was taking action to help me.
skyebluesapphire Fri 25-May-12 09:28:57
I'm just having a really bad day today, everybody is talking about the jubilee weekend and it just guts me for several reasons. I should be spending the weekend with him, we should be together as a family. We got together ten years ago so were together for the last jubilee , we attended the street party together , we walked up to the beacon lighting together and we went out together the next day to the beach where we had our date a couple of weeks ago and I met his family for the first time. It's just so many memories crashing in on me and destroying me.
I need to get a grip. I'm seeing the doctor this afternoon so will see what she comes up with. I can't concentrate on my work and I need to stay on top of it or I could lose work
It took me a good twelve months to get over my last serious relationship but he ended it then kept messing me around saying lets try again then changing his mind
undermyskin Fri 25-May-12 09:53:31
Skye, you are torturing yourself. You cannot seriously add to your distress because there is significance for you former relationship in the Jubilee weekend! First christmas since separation are tough I will grant you, but first jubillee weekend.....Make it your own, go to the street party it for your DD and you never know you may find yourself having a bit of fun.
I bet it's hard to concentrate on work and this will just fuel more anxiety. If you cannot put work aside for today, do it in short bursts interspersed with sitting in the sun, and then congratulate yourself for getting something done.
You are wallowing which is quite understandable. But for your own sanity you have to start pointing in the right direction and look to the future
MariaCallous Fri 25-May-12 09:56:24
Skye, I've been following you but not sure I've posted before. You are torturing yourself with the past. And then if there is any contact you will then be so wound up you will react.
I can't imagine how hard it is at the moment but could you try to act how you want to feel? What I mean is you don't seem ready to detach but if instead of sharing your most intimate thoughts with this utterly shoddy excuse for a man you act like you feel cold fury and respond accordingly, stock phrase like "that would not be appropriate" perhaps? So ill give you money when I can "that would not be appropriate" ad infinitum, I'll take you to a concert "that would not be appropriate". I know that's crap advice but detaching seems currently impossible for you. Whatever you do in the name of (your) sanity if he contacts you DO NOT get straight back to him. Go a walk. Buy a punch bag and beat it as if it had eviscerated you. Do anything to get him out of your head. And if you must respond calm, rational and dignified. Remember in a year you will look back on how you are acting right now. Remember you are teaching your daughter how relationships work.
You are pursuing the man you thought you had married with such single mindedness. When you turn that single mindedness onto protecting yourself emotionally and getting him out of your life it will be truly awesome.
emdelafield Fri 25-May-12 09:58:33
Morning Skye,
I just want to say I think Undermyskin has made an excellent suggestion.
Exercise will take your mind off things and get you fit/ fitter at the same time.
I think running/ walking outdoors is particularly good for clearing the mind,which brings me to my next piece of advice:
There is no point,repeat no point in looking back to happier times. This will keep you lower for longer. You need to look to the future now and you can and will have happy times again. The sooner you leave the past behind the sooner this will happen.
This Jubilee can be the start of new happy memories for you and DD.
skyebluesapphire Fri 25-May-12 10:01:44
I know that I have to get a grip, but everything just seems to get me at the moment. Its his birthday on Sunday. We had a night away in a hotel booked, and now he will be spending it presumably with his friends. He will have daughter on his birthday on the Sunday. It's all just too much. We should be celebrating his birthday together. I know I need to stop but I really just cant get a grip at the moment. I am hoping the doctor can give me something to stop the anxiety and the crying.
I am going out with a couple of friends tonight, but am so afraid that I am going to end up crying in the corner. I havent had a drink since he left, apart from 1 glass of wine one evening with a friend.
I am going to the street party with daughter and my neighbours as I dont want daughter to miss out. We have our holiday in July to look forward to and I hope to god that I am feeling better than this in a few weeks. Although its nearly 2 months since he left now, I still feel like its only weeks because of the date and him messing me around.
I hate the fact that I am divorcing him, its not what I want, but realise that I have to do it to take back the control, why should I sit around until he decides he wants to do it? I also need financial security with the house.
Anniegetyourgun Fri 25-May-12 10:09:50
All this is quite understandable, really it is. I don't think anyone fails to understand how confused and miserable you are. Obviously it's going to be hard to get your head round and of course you're mourning that nice, ordinary family life that's been bewilderingly snatched away. Hope the doctor is properly supportive because you really could do with it right now.
But why is everybody on here shouting at you? It's because they know how easy it is to get sucked into the game-playing and how unproductive that will be. Sometimes it's easier to see a situation clearer when you're not in the thick of it. How many posters have said to you they've been in your shoes and found what did and didn't work, what they did and what they wished they'd done? They're the ones saying loudest "detach, detach, don't engage!". The chorus may come over as a little overwhelming at times, and seem judgemental, but really it's a whole bunch of women who've been dicked about by idiot men in the past, all willing you to get through this with a lot less pain than they did.
We're all on your side, you know, even if it sometimes doesn't feel like it; and most of us are quite smart, especially in hindsight.
skyebluesapphire Fri 25-May-12 10:23:07
thank you for the support. I am not going to contact them again and only replied this time because I thought I should.
I can see them both contacting me when the petition goes out with her name on it. She wont get a copy as its not adultery as we have no evidence, but I met my H will tell her and I bet you I get angry texts from her after. BUT I will NOT respond. It will be another couple of weeks I would imagine any way, by the time my solicitor gets the draft to me and I approve it and they get it sent to him.
I can't believe how my life got so fucked up, just because he did his mate a favour and gave his wife a lift to Uni a couple of times. They were never in contact before then.
I hope to god that he comes out of this infatuation in the near future and actually realises what he has lost. Not that he could come back to me, even though its all I want in one way, I DO realise that it is all different now and that it would never work.
I don't need a man who can treat me and my daughter like this, he is not the man that I thought he was. I would have trusted him with my life before.
Nyac Fri 25-May-12 10:24:24
Hi Skye, been reading your thread for a while, and just wanted to say that you're doing really well. The fact that you've contacted a solicitor shows that at one level at least you're looking out for your own and your dd's interests.
I'm wondering about your current inability to get angry with him and the OW. Do you think it might be because if you really did get in touch with your anger at the way they are treating you it might unleash a volcanic rage that you wouldn't know what to do with? One useful thing to remember is that you don't have to act on feelings, you can just stay with them, however uncomfortable they are. You do sound like you react quite a bit e.g. immediately emailing him back when he made the stupid suggestion about the concert. Perhaps it would be good to practice not outwardly reaction for a while, even whilst at the same time acknowledging your feelings and caring for yourself.
Nyac Fri 25-May-12 10:26:19
I don't think your life got fucked up because he did his mate a favour. He fucked your life up because he's that kind of man. So sorry he's betrayed you, but he's unlikely to wake up to that fact any time soon.
skyebluesapphire Fri 25-May-12 10:48:56
I just found it so hard to believe that there could be something going on because its his best friend of over 30 years, she was supportive while we were trying to get back together, they are both adamant that nothing is going on, he is living in their house and I cant believe he would do that if there was something going on. I chose to believe it as it seemed so bizarre that there could be something going on.
I am angry at the level of contact and did discuss it with him again the other night, but he just says "oh you just cant get past it can you".
He simply won't accept that she made him feel good by all the texting, that whatever her responses were, it made him feel needed and happy because he felt that I was making him unhappy and he turned to her. My solicitor has seen it all before and he made me count some of the texts some days and in the week after our holiday and before he left finally, he was texting her 100 times a day. He had a late job on the Thursday evening before Good Friday and he got home around 12.45am. I waited up for him thinking it was a nice thing to do. When I checked his mobile phone records, he had texted her around 12.30am. Obviously to let her know he was home safe. (He definitely did the job as he put a photo on facebook of the Nestle factory that he delivered to when he got there).
He texted her 140 times the day before we went on holiday. He says this was because he was nervous about going away in case we didnt get on. I said it just shows that the whole 6 weeks he was back, he was not giving it everything as he was texting her all day every day and emailing her with "motivational" emails and I didnt know at the time. I was extremely stressed with work in January and he didnt motivate me did he?!
I am angry. I have let the solicitor put it in the petition and to name her as I do feel it is the main reason for the breakdown of our marriage. He may have been unhappy but he showed no sign of leaving until he was in so much contact with her.
Proudnscary Fri 25-May-12 11:34:37
100 texts to her in one day?
Ok I know you have a new resolve. That is fantastic.
Please see that you 'trying to make him understand these texts were inappropriate' is so so demeaning. Fuck that. He knows that. He doesn't care. You have been in the position of pleading with him to acknowledge that he might have done something wrong!!
If you had to say anything at all on the matter it should have been 'You duplicitous piece of shit - how fucking DARE you blame any shit on me at all when you have been carrying on with X'.
And kept that up, never wavered - BECAUSE IT IS THE TRUTH. Who actually cares if they have shagged (they have) - thousands of texts/late night emails constitutes an infidelity and a betrayal. STAY ANGRY.
Dozer Fri 25-May-12 12:59:22
You mention that at the end of your last serious relationship you found it hard to let go, got treated badly etc. From your posts, as others say, you seem to find it hard to do things to protect yourself, eg persisting in trying to win him back, even in the face of everything DH has said and done, keeping in frequent contact with them both etc. It'd be good to work on this stuff, eg self-esteem, your models for relationships etc.
Sorry the coming week or so will be difficult. Just keep going, have a nice time with DD if you can. please do not respond or get hopeful if he gets in touch in a nostalgic way!
Fuck his birthday and the jubilee! (feminist and republican).
How're things with DD? Do you have most of the childcare now, without much break? Are you finding it easier to manage her behaviour, or is it harder? If you can't hold it together in front of her, must be v hard, do emphasise to your GP that you need some help, and explain things to her as best you can.
Re work, just do your best, it's surprising how much you can get away with re performance, as long as you turn up! (am currently just about getting by / cutting corners at work myself). You are doing well to do everything that you're doing.
If they get upset about your naming her, stand by to not respond! If pressed by DH in person, eg at DD pick up, simply say that you are acting upon legal advice. He will probably give your further bullshit about your lack of trust, this is why he cab't be with you, blah blah, remember, it's bollocks!
Nyac Fri 25-May-12 14:02:21
I think that's a bit of key, that you actively chose to ignore what's right in front of your face.
None of those things you listed are reasons why he couldn't be having an affair. In fact in the twisted world of betrayal they are reasons as to exactly why they are having an affair. People who do this sort of stuff to their friends and partners behave in a very perverse way indeed. They've made up their own set of rules where things like marriage and friendship count for nothing in the pursuit of their own desires and satisfaction.
Xales Fri 25-May-12 14:06:24
Skye it is not about you hating him.
It is about getting yourself to a stage where he is unimportant. Moving from loving to hating him gains you nothing. It is still strong emotion aim right at him. Aimed at someone who will just raise his eyes, shrug and thinks 'here she goes again'.
The same with her being named on the petition. Do it as it is part of the reason you are now divorcing and should be shown. Stop and think though what does this gain you? He is not going to turn around an apologise, nor is she, it is just a case of 'you can't get passed that' and making you look like the wrong one yet again.
All we are saying is to stop engaging with him. Everytime you do this you are not starting the healing process. You are trying to engage him, to make him admit he is wrong anything. You raise your hopes to have them dashed at to hurt even more.
If you can go a week without contacting him. That is a week you can process all the pain and hurt and just deal with it a tiny little bit. If you go a second week that is a tiny bit further.
midwife99 Fri 25-May-12 14:19:48
But what if next time you "think you should" reply to an email or text or. "because your mum thinks you should"?! I'm not convinced you can stop yourself! I'm also not convinced you really want to disengage. Until you do you cannot move on.
AnyFucker Fri 25-May-12 17:54:01
skye, the next time he contacts you with some piece of shit headfuckery do not reply whether you think you "ought to" or not
take our advice, love
Nyac Fri 25-May-12 18:26:41
Yes, come here first and talk about it. Then you can decide what to do.
skyebluesapphire Fri 25-May-12 18:45:01
well I have been to the doctor and she was very good, I have been going to her for years. She said exactly the same thing as every other person has said when I told her he had gone "but you two were such a solid couple" "he is the last person in the world that I would have thought would have done this" . She said that they turn the blame back on to you as a way of stopping their own guilt. She said that it sounds like he needs some sort of help to deal with his issues, but if he doesnt seek it, nobody can make him.
She suggested that I should have Relate counselling on my own, to talk it all through and stop feeling guilty that I have caused this. She said that it will help me to realise that there is nothing I could have done to stop him leaving.
She has given me Citalopram a mild 10 dose, just to help with the anxiety, but said to take 1 a day for a fortnight, then if I am tolerating it ok, up it to 2 a day. She wants to see me again in 2 weeks for another chat and to make sure that I am ok and will give me more tablets if they are helping.
I just have to try and get a grip and get through the next couple of weeks while the tablets start to work.
midwife99 Fri 25-May-12 18:52:35
She sounds a really good GP (no doubt been on the receiving end of twuntery herself)!
Proudnscary Fri 25-May-12 18:54:57
Oh Skye, I'm so sorry for all you're going through sad
You keep saying you need to get a grip - but I want you to know that's not what posters have been saying on here.
We're not saying 'pull yourself together' or 'you should be over this by now'. What we've all advised you to do is simply open your eyes to OW and the fact there was nothing you could do to stop him leaving - and to stop contacting them.
I am so glad you saw your very sympathetic and sensible sounding doctor and got some meds to help you through this dreadful time.
(Please please disregard the stuff about him seeking help - don't use that as something to cling on. Maybe he does, maybe he doesn't. That is his problem now. And counselling is not going to make him come back).
oikopolis Fri 25-May-12 19:03:10
skye i'm relieved the GP prescribed some citalopram for you. barring side effects (like any drug, sometimes it doesn't work as well for one person as for the next) it should really help you get through this dreadful time.
you've done well.
and yes, disregard any thought of what H needs to do. it's not your issue, you can't help him. you can lead a horse to water and all that.
skyebluesapphire Fri 25-May-12 19:42:46
the lady just rang from the childrens centre about the counselling so its all happening this week.... I should get an appointment in the next couple of weeks hopefully if they have a space and its all free and they say about 8 sessions , maybe more, maybe less depending on how I get on.
I have just got dressed up to go out with my friends for a drink. I live in a small town, 2 pubs! so hardly a wild night out, but its a start. I am sure that I will end up in the corner crying at some point, but we will see. my daughter is at my mum's for the night, so I should be able to have a lie in as well.
Trying to stay positive. I really want to ring my BIL but have fought it and not done it! My friend is going to take my phone home at the end of the night so that I dont text H in a drunken state later.
PooPooInMyToes Fri 25-May-12 19:57:29
I like the sound of your gp.
Have fun tonight!
Proudnscary Fri 25-May-12 20:00:03
Can you not leave your phone at home completely and give your mum your friend's number in case of dd emergency? If you do end up in tears (which is fine! and normal!) you may call him.
undermyskin Fri 25-May-12 23:11:00
I hope you have had a good evening and perhaps even enjoyed yourself
skyebluesapphire Sat 26-May-12 01:00:48
I have enjoyed myself tonight, went out with 4 friends and had a good laugh. Got pissed off when looked at Facebook on my phone , there's a picture of him and his mate and her friend posted by her saying x's birthday celebrations showing them all happy in a restaurant having a drink. They are practically his only friends on Facebook now so I cant help but think its aimed at hurting me coz who else is going to see it?
I posted a pic of me looking great, that's how I noticed their pic.
I so want to text him and tell him what a bastard he is but I'm not going to.
Nyac Sat 26-May-12 01:22:45
Why are you looking at his Facebook page?
Don't text him. Good for you for stopping yourself.
midwife99 Sat 26-May-12 06:49:47
For the last bloody time - Unfriend & block them!!!
tribpot Sat 26-May-12 06:59:45
You said earlier in the week that he'd deactivated his account when you posted about dd not being able to sleep. Assuming he hadn't, you need to block him. That will prevent you from seeing any friend activity relating to those members of his family that you - understandably - want to remain in contact with on FB and from wondering if they're posting pics of themselves solely to get at you. Maybe they are, who knows. Who cares. The pair of them have behaved in a thoroughly disgraceful way throughout, whether or not they're actually sleeping together.
Well done, though, on not texting and on having a bloody good night out.
mrspepperpotty Sat 26-May-12 07:46:34
Tbf, skye says 'posted by her' rather than him - who do you mean by her, Skye? The OW or a different mutual friend? If the OW then obviously you should de-friend her!
Dozer Sat 26-May-12 07:48:42
Glad you had a good night. And that the GP was helpful and counselling has been arranged so promptly.
De-friend them on facebook! Come on, you know you need to, for your own well-being.
tribpot Sat 26-May-12 07:50:18
Good point mrspepperpotty, it does say 'by her' but then says they're practically his only friends on FB. In any case, yes, de-friend the 'friend' or at the very least hide her.
skyebluesapphire Sat 26-May-12 08:58:50
Yes the pic was posted by the wife of her friend her H and my H dat smiling in this restaurant and it just came up on the feed. He has reactivated his Facebook account again. He is addicted to it, I knew it wouldn't last long. I am still friends with all of them on Facebook, just can't bring myself to block them but I know I need to so that stuff like this can't hurt me.
I was very restrained last night and stopped myself posting abuse on Facebook or texting him.
Just off to the hairdressers now to get my highlights done then to my mums for dinner
Nyac Sat 26-May-12 09:06:07
Not responding is a victory. Make sure you realise that.
All this stuff is bait to get a reaction from you. If you rise above it, whilst continuing to protect your own interests, you win.
skyebluesapphire Sat 26-May-12 09:13:09
Thanks. I just hope he gets the solicitors letter today to see in black and white that divorce is on its way. Happy fucking birthday to him!
Proudnscary Sat 26-May-12 09:23:37
That's the spirit Skye!
And great you having your hair done <shallow but unapologetic emoticon>
It's either terribly cruel or terribly thoughtless for them to post happy snaps of your dh on FB knowing you will see them.
I loathe Facebook anyway and don't get the point of sharing all one's dull pictures and news with dozens of old acquaintances who don't give a shit about I am biaised...but I'd just sack off FB altogether.
Nyac Sat 26-May-12 09:33:07
A solicitor's letter on his doormat in response to this latest crap would just be fantastic.
Now this has happened the other woman is very likely to get in touch with you again with more manipulation. He's using her as a means of communication with her, whilst she wants to keep you under control. What will you say to her?
Nyac Sat 26-May-12 09:33:44
"a means of communication with you"
midwife99 Sat 26-May-12 12:01:59
Do I need to say it again?! angry
Proudnscary Sat 26-May-12 12:16:37
She will say nothing NYAC, right Skye?
Do not respond.
Do not explain.
Do not retaliate.
Do not be 'tricked' into replying because it's 'important'.
Nothing's important except contact with daughter which you have sorted for this week yes?
Xales Sat 26-May-12 13:47:44
This man has been telling you since February your marriage is over. You are not as far along as him in detaching and still hurting.
However if he wants to go out to a restaurant as a foursome with a couple and another woman that is entirely his choice. It is none of your business.
The only concern that you can have is if he is paying for all this swanning about having fun while refusing to give you money for your DD because you asked for his key back because he is supposed to be skint.
These people have made it totally obvious they are his friends not yours. He has treated you like fucking crap and they are still putting him up and doing fun things with him. What have they (read her) done with you apart from shit stir over the last few months??
Delete and block them from FB and move on for your own well being.
skyebluesapphire Sat 26-May-12 15:42:17
Well, i have had the paperwork from the solicitor today. A copy of the letter that has gone to him advising that he needs to get a solicitor as I will be filing a petition for unreasonable behaviour.
Four reasons are listed and her name is in 3 of them, with reference to dates of communication, 1.5 hour phone call, number of texts, through our holiday etc, and over 100 texts a day in the week leading up to when he left. the fourth reason given is the fact that he wrote the letter saying that he had no feelings for me any more and unreasonably accused me of walking all over him.
He wont like what it says, but if they contact me, I will not reply. or maybe just 2 words? Starts with F and ends in Off? It says that if he defends it then we will go for him to pay my costs. Seeing as he has no money I am hopeful that he will just accept it. Mediation over the house will be the difficult bit, but I suppose if he turns on me, then we will just have to fight it out through the solicitors.
It made me cry to see it all in black and white, the end of my marriage. I am so so upset that it has come to this. If he had never given her that first lift, it would have never come to this, as they didnt have the contact before then. He has only become close to her since January/February. We have some lovely pictures on facebook of family days out and holidays where he is genuinely happy and smiling and enjoying himself. Only 12 months ago, and 6 months ago he was happy. He wasnt unhappy for years, I know that really. Its just his way of being able to walk out, to blame it all on me, so he had no choice but to leave. It all started with him being ill, me being stressed, and he turned to her instead of to me. He never gave us a chance, I never stood a chance of fixing it coz I didnt know it was broken.
I am just so so so heartbroken that I have to do this as its the last thing in the world that I want to do,
Nyac Sat 26-May-12 15:46:04
So sorry Skye. This must be so hard. You're a very brave woman.
ThePinkPussycat Sat 26-May-12 16:09:51
Not even two words, not even those two carefully chosen ones. Really not.
lemonstartree Sat 26-May-12 17:06:17
please please please say nothing.don't text, no email, no messages no contct at all with 'him' or 'his friends' including that dreadful woman.
the whole " he says xxxx" is just winding you up. You are adults, he could speak to you if he had any interest at all in saving your marriage. He doesnt because he has moved on.
It hurts like hell I know, but he is not interested in you... please keep you dignity now.Play your cards close to your chest. Confide in YOUR friends and family only.
Put the financials on a legal footing asap. please do this. I will 'pay you when I can is not a way YOU can survive. He has responsibilites. You can ensure he meets them.
take good care of youself , and your daughter. Try to get pick ups /drop offs done by a third party. Right now it would be better if you dont see him AT ALL. honestly, I know it feels too hard to contemplate right now, but it will protect and help you if you DO NOT SEE HIM.
tribpot Sat 26-May-12 18:13:58
Skye, I'm going to keep saying this: it was not your job to fix your marriage. It was not a question of if he had told you, you could have fixed it. He could have stayed, he could have fixed it.
And I'm sorry but I don't believe it all would have been fine if only he hadn't met her, or if only he hadn't been ill. He chose to do this. Fine - an opportunity was presented to him but he deliberately and knowingly chose to do this, because he wanted to. Not because of illness, but because he is selfish and he walks away whenever things get tough. He's done it repeatedly, and he will do it again.
midwife99 Sat 26-May-12 19:41:14
You have no choice. He has made the decision to end the marriage but you can take control by doing the official legal stuff & refusing to engage with him, ow or her friends & family. Rise above it love.
skyebluesapphire Sat 26-May-12 23:01:30
well, I have had a very difficult day today, spent a lot of it in tears. I sat in my mum's garden talking to her and crying. I still feel like its all a bad dream and I'm going to wake up from it at some point....
My mum recalls him being odd in February, quieter than usual, impatient with our daughter, pushing her away. Of course, this is all around the time that he started contacting her.
I am starting to accept more and more that this was not my fault. That there was nothing I could have done to stop it. I have written a long letter to HER H, but will not be sending it for the moment. I dont want to jeapordise the settlement over the house etc.
The letter goes along the lines of : -
Dear XX, I know that you are aware that H and your W have been texting each other all day every day, as they both tell me that you know. In fact your W said that you are usually there when she texts him. Although, seeing as you both work in different places and my H is texting her from 8am onwards, right through the day up to bedtime, I don't suppose you are always there..... They both said that you are aware that my H is texting her over 1500 times in a month, over 100 times a day sometimes.
I apologise for your W being named in my divorce petition, I am sure that they have both told you of this. but it was on my solicitors advice. Did you know that they also have cosy chats on facebook? I attach a copy of one of them, which actually says at the end, go back to text , you are coming. My H kindly sent her motivational emails too. She said that my H was able to provide the emotional support to her that you were unable to.
Do you remember the day that you went to work with my H and had to hold his phone as he forgot his handsfree kit? He didnt text her once that day, I wonder why? My H became a lot more guarded with his phone before he left, has your W become more guarded with hers? My H deleted all his texts, has W deleted hers? and My H spent hours talking about you two and her and all her problems.
I FEEL MUCH BETTER for writing all the above down, the letter actually says a lot more, but the above gives you the main points. I can not send it now, but I feel better for writing it all down......
tribpot Sat 26-May-12 23:10:09
It can be very good to write an 'anger letter' and then not send it. Hopefully it's helped you to get some of it out.
I hadn't really thought before about what the other husband will make of his DW being named on a divorce petition. Not remotely your problem but Jesus, that'd have to be some kind of conversation. I think when you do feel ready to talk to him (definitely not yet) it would be reasonable to say you're sorry you had to hurt him by naming her on the petition but you had no option, given the inappropriateness of her behaviour. I think at some point soon the poor sap is going to learn the extent of it, but the best thing you can do right now is keep your distance and not try to involve yourself in her marriage the way she has in yours, constantly.
Keep on keeping on - is your ex due a contact visit tomorrow?
skyebluesapphire Sat 26-May-12 23:20:54
yes, we agreed on every sunday pick up at 10am, drop off at 7pm. so he doesnt need to contact me about it, its a set thing. in the week is trickier as he can only see her if not working, so then he does have to contact me.
His W wont get a copy of it as its not adultery - as no evidence - but she is named on the petition. I wonder if my H will tell her or her H? If I get abusive texts from her, then I will guess that they havent told her H.... she made contact with me the first time, after I confronted my H about it, then she sent me a facebook message telling me that I was wrong and her H knew all about it.
Im going to sign the petition and get it back to the solicitor asap, so hopefully my H will get it asap. Im not sure how it works, does anyone know? Does my solicitor send it to him, or to the court and they send it to him? Not sure how soon he would get it?
I do have a bad feeling about it in one way. I really feel like its going to hit the fan when my H gets the petition....
PooPooInMyToes Sat 26-May-12 23:36:37
I like the letter to her husband.
ThePinkPussycat Sat 26-May-12 23:36:48
Your sol sends to court, court sends it to him, he has 14 days to acknowledge receipt to the court. Keep on keeping on...
skyebluesapphire Sun 27-May-12 00:39:24
I just counted a few days texts for my solicitor and in the week before he left he was texting her 100 times a day.
I so want to tell her h now but really don't want to piss my h off in case he gets arsy over the house and what's due to me...,
He should not be living in their house ..... But I dont know if Ive got it in me to hurt her h like it, plus could end up pushing my h and his w together if they both get chucked out..... But her h deserves to not be made a fool out of ...
ImNotBeingUnreasonable Sun 27-May-12 01:05:32
About posting the letter to other H after divorce, could you be sure that ow doesn't open his mail? If you go through with sending it maybe send a copy to his email/work to make sure he sees it.
Your new motto is "detach, detach, detach!" Every time you think about contacting ANYONE in this sorry mess, repeat that motto ten times, or more until the feeling goes away!
Of course you're hurt, of course you want vengeance, but honestly the best way you can 'get at' your H or the OW now is to show them that they're not worth any more than shit on your shoe, and you don't care WHAT they're doing as they are no longer important to your life.
Proudnscary Sun 27-May-12 02:57:45
Skye - sorry you had a crap day. It must be utterly overwhelming at times.
Re the letter, it's great, but errs on the side of slightly snide in places such as h 'kindly' giving her motivational support, and might come across as vengeful. I'd be direct and honest.
I think it sounds a bit like you are shirking responsibility or don't stand by the decision when you say 'but my solicitor' advised to cite OW on the petition. I'd leave that out. Or say 'my solicitor stated it was hugely relevant to the petition and should be on there' or something.
I'd also make it clear you are not sorry she was cited but sorry for his potential hurt.
Dozer Sun 27-May-12 07:20:07
Sorry you had a bad day and hope today is a better one, although may be unlikely if he's received his papers!
I don't think you should send a letter to her husband. His marriage is his problem, you have enough on your plate right now, and would be grist to the mill of "she's being jealous" rubbish.
If the husband, who will surely hear about the divorce papers, wants information from you, he knows how to get in touch and you can share the evidence etc in a factual way. Agree with the poster who said you shouldn't apologise about naming her in the papers and simply state that this was on legal advice due to their inappropriate behaviour (in your eyes and those of the SOL). How he regards their behaviour is up to him. You have nothing to apologise to him for, this is their doing.
Proudnscary Sun 27-May-12 07:34:38
You make sense Dozer. I was trying to be supportive re sending the letter but I'm afraid it will backfire and make her look vengeful.
However, the husband may well not hear his wife's name on it. Why would either tell him?
And I'm on fence whether it's cruel or kind to tell him the truth - if he is truly in the dark then maybe he deserves to know how he is being played by the two people he trusts most in the world.
Lizzabadger Sun 27-May-12 07:37:40
Don't send the letter. It's just a way of continuing to engage with them all.
ThePinkPussycat Sun 27-May-12 08:12:23
One thing I learned during the painful process of my own divorce (and the ongoing settlement negotiation) Whatever idea I had that I thought was good, no matter how much I wanted to act on it immediately, I didn't. I made myself say Not Yet, Pink.
Some of those things I went on to do after much further thinking, others I binned after further thinking, or because the situation had developed.
So: Not Yet Skye (if ever)
skyebluesapphire Sun 27-May-12 10:02:23
He will be here any minute to get daughter for the day and its his 48th birthday today. I've written out a birthday card for her to give him, it's very basic Happy Birthday Dad, no wonderful Daddy stuff in it as he doesn't deserve that. She hasn't mentioned a present so I've decided not to give him the chocs (the ones he gave me for my 40th). I can't bring bring myself to give him anything.
I've got another day of working at home ahead of me, have got so much to do but struggle to motivate myself to do it but I need to or I'm going to start losing clients.... And I need the money more than ever now.
I agree I can't send the letter to her H yet if ever. I really want to but I think it needs to be face to face so I can be certain that he gets it and that he sees all the evidence. Like you say she may open his post.
NettleTea Sun 27-May-12 10:36:28
just sokmething to think about. The pre divorce settlement in regards to contact and finances isnt actually legally binding (as I discovered when I had to take my ex to court later on)
The idea of it is that you can sort things out between you in a way which you are both happy with, without taking up the courts time in having to do it for you BUT if he decides not to do what is agreed (so, if he gets pissed off at any time and decides not to pay you/see DD/ mess around with contact) you will need to go back to the court to get it sanctioned legally.
I would be concerned with his attitude that he will say one thing, but as soon as ou rock the boat in any way, he will hold this over you. I would rather go straight to CSA for maintanance and ask solicitors advice about the house.
Xales Sun 27-May-12 11:08:10
He should not be living in their house ..... But I dont know if Ive got it in me to hurt her h like it, plus could end up pushing my h and his w together if they both get chucked out..... Skye you really do need to detach and accept this is none of your business now. It hurt like hell I know. Your H can live where he wants and if they do get together the only concern you have in this is how your DD is affected.
Open the door, hand over your DD and her stuff, don't engage with him at all.
Dozer Sun 27-May-12 11:42:05
Work hard today, you can do it, and cash is good!
(my current mantra)
skyebluesapphire Sun 27-May-12 18:43:46
well, after he took daughter today, I took my first anti D tablet. Im sure it was just coincidence as they are non sedative, but about an hour later I felt really tired. I had a bad night with daughter not going to sleep until gone 9pm crying and then waking up at 3am being completely hysterical and kicking and screaming and nothing I could do would settle her, she was kicking me and hurting me. I went back to my bed and she then came in with me and fell fast asleep, but it really upset me.
I went back to bed for 3 hours, then got up still feeling crap and have tried to do a little bit of work. My mum rang so I had a chat with her for an hour too. She likes to make sure that Im ok when Im on my own. I cried a lot again too.
I just really cant get past the fact the this is my life now and is never going to change. Maybe I will start to feel differently in a couple of weeks, once the anti D's kick in, but I feel so sad and desperate. I want to shout at him, to send him abuse saying look what you have done to us you bastard, look what you are doing to your child! I know I cant and I wont, but its how I feel. I have told him about the issues that daughter is having with sleep etc, but he doesnt seem to give a damn. He is just a cold hard stranger now, who thinks he can still be a great dad by seeing her twice a week if he can manage it...
ThePinkPussycat Sun 27-May-12 19:17:06
Oh skye [hugs], it will get better. You haven't said the word in your post, but what you are feeling is anger (as well as sadness and desperation). This is a right and proper feeling atm.
scaredycat12 Sun 27-May-12 19:28:30
Glad you got some rest - sleep helps make things seem more bearable.
I think you should concentrate on seeing the future as a mystery - you have no idea what will happen in the future so it's not true to say it's 'never going to change'.
There is hurt to heal right now and when that starts happening, things will change. There is a new life to build and when that starts happening, things will change. And there is the belief in new love to create and when that belief starts happening, things will change.
This is the worst part as huge chunks of your old life and routine are gone and you haven't found your ways to cope and replace them yet. But it's always darkest before the dawn. Remember that.
lemonstartree Sun 27-May-12 19:36:57
dont 'say' anything to him.
take care of yourself.. Of course you are tired with disrupted sleep. book yourself a manicure/pedicure/massage. send DD to friends as much as possible, read trashy books, watch what you want on TV, Treat yourself as an invalid, damaged, and in need of care and love. This is the reality.... please prioritise your care for yourself. DD will be ok if YOU are ok, she needs you...
lean on you mum, and your friends ( NOT his or his family) make a haven for yourself with a big wall around it that he - who is the cause of your pain - cannot enter.
right now WY you marriage is over doesn't really matter; accepting this, and taking care of yourself, is what does matter.
big hugs x
PooPooInMyToes Mon 28-May-12 08:05:26
How are you today?
skyebluesapphire Mon 28-May-12 14:07:29
well I went to work this morning, got stuck in and then my BIL rang me...... I have been forcing myself not to ring him, then he rings me! He wanted to know how I was getting on and how my daughter was.
He did have some interesting things to say though, he said that my H and the W told her H that they had been texting, they said they didnt realise how much and that there was nothing in it. Now her H has accused her of throwing herself at my H and flirting with him and has had a right go at her about the texting. and also he has been coming home at random times etc, hoping to catch them obviously. My H told his brother this. He seems to trust my H, but not his own W, which is fair enough as she cheated on her first husband with him...... So it looks like her H is now suspicious, so I really dont need to say anything.... at the moment......
BIL also said that my H is varying, saying one day, Im happy here now, then the next day he says "I should be at home with my family". He varies day to day. He sits there saying "Im 48 now and Ive got nothing to show for it, no family, no home, nothing" BIL said it really seems to be getting to him now. I told BIL that he is adamant to me that its over, this is why I am divorcing him as I have no choice. BIL said that H is hurt by the divorce and doesnt see why we need to do it, but BIL said that H would probably never get around to it. BIL said that if H changes his mind at any point, then he needs to come back grovelling to me. He said it is now ramming it home to him, making it real, that this is what is happening!!
I said yes, my days of asking him to come back are over. I am not bluffing with this, I am actually doing it because it is all I can do now. I am moving on, divorcing him and thats that. I said that I am in a different mindset now. If he came grovelling back we could talk, but it doesnt automatically mean that I want him back any more.
I know you all said dont speak to the family etc, but I do feel better for this conversation as I now know that her H knows something is up. A couple of weeks ago I would have taken BIL's words that husband is still confused as hope that he will be back, but today I just think, well you have had plenty of time to sort yourself out, I cant wait forever, this changes nothing.
Proudnscary Mon 28-May-12 14:25:26
Hi Skye
I think it was fine to talk to BIL as he called you.
Oh my fucking God at your stbxh!!
Is he not the most whiney, self-absorbed arse ever?
The fact that he is still acting like you are wronging him by the divorce speaks volumes.
And the 'poor me what have I got to show for my life' shit, Jesus! How about a wonderful daughter and a wife who loved you ?
I didn't realise the wife had affair in her first marriage - this makes me 100% certain they are having an affair as opposed to 99% certain. And the fact your h is saying the husband is suspicious...well.
So did he mention her being cited in the petition to BIL?
Hope you are ok
midwife99 Mon 28-May-12 14:26:12
Yes stay strong honey, he's just trying to get the sympathy vote from brother I reckon. Good news about ow's DH!!! See karma has its way! Would you really take him back after all he's done?!!!!!! hmm
Xales Mon 28-May-12 14:36:44
You are still getting 3rd party reports sad and this is still getting your hopes up BIL is telling your H that if H changes his mind at any point, then he needs to come back grovelling to me. He said it is now ramming it home to him, making it real, that this is what is happening!! It raises they hope that your H may still change his mind
It is fine to talk to your BIL however I think as soon as he brings up your H you have to cut him off and not discuss it. You really don't need to be hearing any of this. Please stop talking about him with anyone. He just comes back the next day and crushes you again and again.
They have clearly told her H about the texting because they had to. They could not rely on your keeping quiet, you have told your ex about the divorce papers coming and so went in for a pre-emptive strike.
Xales Mon 28-May-12 14:43:42
Also please don't forget the information he is passing to your BIL is likely to be as true as the conflicting stories you have been getting from him/her eg him not paying you because he is skint or because he is punishing you for asking for the key back.
If I thought my wife was getting involved with my best friend I wouldn't be coming home hoping to catch them I would be asking the lodger to leave.
I also would not be out having cosy 4somes with them at the weekend...
tribpot Mon 28-May-12 14:57:03
I agree - no good can come of discussing the details with your BIL. God knows what line of crap your ex is feeding to his brother, once again he appears to be saying one thing to someone else and one thing to you. You honestly need to steer the conversation away from the topic of your ex; getting all this second-hand info isn't helping you.
The news about her H getting suspicious is amusing gossip but that's all. I sincerely hope he does find out what she's been up to. But it's far more important right now for you to detach yourself from the horrible mess your DH has made of his life. It is not your problem.
I find his comment that he now has no family utterly disgraceful. Even by his standards.
Xales Mon 28-May-12 15:06:50
i totally agree with I find his comment that he now has no family utterly disgraceful.
He has a daughter. To say he has no family is nasty.
ImNotBeingUnreasonable Mon 28-May-12 15:53:45
I've been thinking about you today op (I've only posted once but have been lurking for a while trying to think of comforting posts but couldn't put my anger towards your h & w into decent words), you sound so much stronger today, keep it up and remember you're not alone, you've got mumsnet behind you!
skyebluesapphire Mon 28-May-12 16:07:31
my H hasnt actually had the petition yet, only a letter from my solicitor saying get a lawyer, petition to be filed soon. I have got the petition, I have signed it, suggested a couple of amendments and am dropping it in to the solicitor tomorrow. i dont know how long a court take to process a petition, so not sure how long before my husband will get it.
Her H trusts my H, but not his W? So he must think that she is throwing herself at my H, but he is not interested? Not quite sure on that one?! But yes, he should be asking him to move out. I think he is probably sticking his head in the sand like I did, because he just cant believe it of his friend, even if he would believe it of his W.
I dont feel like it is getting my hopes up strangely enough. A couple of weeks ago I would have jumped on it as a positive comment that he may come back, but now I just see it as yet more confused bullshit from him.
I honestly cant say if I would take him back or not. I would certainly talk to him about it if he asked, but it would have to be on my terms now, not his, whereas before I would have done anything at all to get him back, whtever he wanted, but now I can see that there is an awful lot that needs to be fixed before we could even begin to think about trying again, if ever. He would have to agree to Relate counselling for one thing. Dont know why Im even talking about it though, because its not going to happen.
I am no longer sitting around waiting for him to bestow the great honour of returning to me. I think maybe he is starting to realise that now and that is what is now scaring him, that its no longer simply his decision.
I did just have a text from him, enquiring after daughter as she had a bad cough yesterday. That is the first time he has enquired after her welfare in weeks. I just sent back a simple reply - she is fine.
The divorce is going ahead, as it is the only thing to do really.
Proudnscary Mon 28-May-12 16:35:45
Ach, I think Skye was fine to listen to her BIL on this occassion, I would have too.
She didn't contact him and is staying detached.
Credit where's it's due, Skye, and I think your reply to his text was fine too. Though obviously don't start slipping down the slope of answering - even in unemotional monosyllabic stylee - his texts, only when it's an exception like your dd being ill. Keep to no contact.
I think you are doing really really well.
oikopolis Mon 28-May-12 17:47:15
i agree with Proud, you are doing so well skye.
Dozer Mon 28-May-12 19:40:03
Agree with xales and tribpot: no good can come of others speculating and giving you their commentary on his whims and statements. It feeds your hopes that he will return and panders to his deceitful presentation of himself to friends and family
Maybe try to protect your working time: you're trying your best to keep clients and understandably struggling to focus, chats like that will just distress and distract. Caller ID? Or say you're working and ask people to call back in the evening.
About time OW's H woke up and smelled the coffee, but try to keep out of it unless the H comes direct to you, and then keep it factual.
skyebluesapphire Mon 28-May-12 20:13:46
I feel a lot calmer today, have only been on the tablets a couple of days though so dont think they would have had chance to kick in yet.
His brother was very honest with me and was critical of my H several times. He tells it like it is usually. He thinks that my H is making a huge mistake and that he will come to his senses at some point, but BIL really believes that I will have moved on by then and it will be too late. I agreed with him.
If her H comes to me, then I will show him the facebook chat and the massive pile of mobile bills that I have printed out..... he cant deny whats printed in black and white...
Have just got daughter in bed, going to try and relax in front of the tv for a couple of hours, and go to bed quite early hopefully. Have got a busy day working at a clients premises tomorrow, so need to be with it. Have got a friend coming round tomorrow evening and then a meal out with some friends on Weds night, so have got a few things lined up this week to keep me busy.
My neighbours have also asked me out for a meal in a couple of weeks. Its something we planned to do as 3 couples, so in one way its really nice that they have still included me despite me now being on my own, but in another Im going to feel like a bit of a gooseberry! Not that they will make me feel like that though. I suppose I should go, its only to a local pub for a meal.
skyebluesapphire Tue 29-May-12 10:23:46
so her and her friend have gone off on this cruise today, saw it on facebook, so my H is definitely not going with her, not that I thought that he was.
I am tempted to take the opportunity while she is away to post stuff to her husband as I know that she wont be there to open it. I know that he knows now, assuming that my BIL is telling the truth, but I still dont think he knows the whole story, as to the extent of the texting and how long its been going on. I want to send him the proof of it all.
But at the same time dont want my H to turn nasty on me before we sort out all the financial stuff, so Im really fighting with myself, to not do it!!
I have got the draft petition with me today, to drop in to the solicitors. It breaks my heart to do this. My friends are now telling me that Im rushing into it, but my H is so adamant that its over, I really dont see what else I can do, but get divorced. The fact that he doesnt want to get divorced is ridiculous. If he doesnt love me any more, why on earth would he want to stay married. My BIL said that he would probably never get around to it, so it could be hanging over me for years if I don't go ahead with it now.
I wouldn't send her husband anything yet wait until you are sorted out first.
Be aware your ex husband is likely to try and make friendly contact while she is away, don't let your guard down.
skyebluesapphire Tue 29-May-12 11:45:08
He still hasnt changed the password on his mobile phone account, so i checked it again. there are still several messages a day to her and bearing in mind that they both have iphones and texts should be going through as imessages which wont show on the phone bill so I have no way of seeing how many there are of those, there is still a huge amount going through, including at 7am and after 11pm at night, when you would assume that both of them are home in the same house. so why the need to text each other?.........
I had a message from her H's ex girlfriend yesterday as well, she was shocked that me and H had split up.
ThePinkPussycat Tue 29-May-12 11:50:17
Repeat after me 'Not Yet Skye' (if ever).
All the best, keep on keeping on!
skyebluesapphire Tue 29-May-12 11:56:04
sorry posted before I meant to.. I don't know her H's ex girlfriend very well, only met her a handful of times before he split up with her. She sent me a message to say that she was shocked that me and H had split up. She said that she and the ex kept in touch behind the W's back as she would go mental else..... He had told her that my H was living there and that his W and my H had been texting each other. He was really pissed off with his W.
She told me to be very very wary of the W. She said that she set her sights on her ex and continued until she got him.... She said that my H had always said in the past that his friend was mad to have married the W as she was not all there. (I knew that she kept in touch with my H which was fine).
I really need to grit my teeth and get through this divorce, then hit her H with everything I know. I really think that he is like I have been, refusing to accept that his friend would do this to him.
dondon33 Tue 29-May-12 14:24:57
Good to see you are moving forward Skye, you are a strong woman, continue and hold your head up high hun.
I would take no very little notice of outside influences - the BIL, the ex or anyone else, don't be drawn into what he said/what she doesn't do much good for your own head.
Your plodding along, making big steps in the right direction for yourself and your little one, stay focused and don't let the fact her H may or may not know hinder your chances of security for you both. Wait until everything is sorted legally and if you still feel you should tell him then do so. I think he may be very interested to know that they are texting each other while in the same house???? WTF?
take care xxx
Xales Tue 29-May-12 14:43:59
Now you are getting third party reports from new people who are virtual strangers! Skye you really have to say to all these people you don't want to discuss it. What is the point? What are you gaining?
Blame is now being passed to her! She said that she set her sights on her ex and continued until she got him.... sorry she could not have got him unless he wanted to be got. The same with your H if he didn't want to get involved with her in any way shape or form he wouldn't have done.
Twist it around and your H could have been taking advantage of a woman who has been through something terrible, was emotionally vulnerable and was getting no support from her H. Only she and your H know what happened between them and why everything else is gossip and guesswork.
He may be pissed off with his wife however he is still letting your H stay there in the same house. He can't be that pissed off/worried. Again what your H says and what he does re her being not all there are two different events.
PooPooInMyToes Tue 29-May-12 14:48:28
Blimey! Does that mean that your exs friend and his wife both got together whilst they were with other people?
Xales Tue 29-May-12 14:58:58
I think they did PooPoo
skyebluesapphire Tue 29-May-12 15:23:33
Yes they did, that's why they are very jealous of each other . She accused him of shagging her hairdresser after my H told her that her H said she was fit... I told him he was a shitstirrer and should not repeat to her what his friend told him in confidence! I think he is stirring it with them as they each tell him stuff then he tells the other one! That's what he was doing anyway. Of course I don't know what he's doing now!
I know it's all hearsay. I am really fighting the urge today to put on Facebook " have a lovely cruise. Don't forget to keep texting my H 100 times a day or he might miss you!"
I know that I can't do it but I really really want to!!!!!
PooPooInMyToes Tue 29-May-12 16:13:02
Ooh yeah that's tempting!
Anniegetyourgun Tue 29-May-12 19:25:10
What a nest of vipers. The atmosphere must be so poisonous in that house it's a wonder any of them can breathe.
Dozer Tue 29-May-12 19:34:47
When (not if) he gets kicked out of his current abode, where is he going to stay?
Not at yours! (And not your problem).
tribpot Tue 29-May-12 19:44:50
God, the urge to write 'hope you've got a good roaming data allowance cos those HUNDREDS OF iMESSAGES sure will add up!'. Obviously don't do that but feel free to vent here with some of your preferred FB status updates wink
Hope you kept your cool and didn't text any real info back to the H's ex, Skye. I'm sure she only meant to warn you about what the OW is capable of, but any more 'helpful info' and I think your head will explode!
The H is not your problem, particularly not right now. Not because it might affect your financial settlement (I predict your ex is going to be an arse about that, disclosure or no disclosure) but it means you keep your dignity whilst this bunch of fuckwits fall all over themselves. Equally, if the H asks there is no reason not to pass on the information he requests, with a brief 'no comment'.
skyebluesapphire Tue 29-May-12 20:09:13
lol @ tribpot , that's another thing that I wanted to put, about the roaming data being needed, lol !
If my H turns into an arse over the financial stuff, I fear he might once he gets the divorce petition naming her, I will hit her H with everything at that point as will have nothing to lose.
Was thinking again about the Michael Macintyre show that Im going to (original plan was me, my H and them three) ... now me and a friend will be sat next to them, the W, her H and her friend, assuming its not all gone tits up by August.... my friend is very thick skinned thankfully and wont take any shit from anybody!
My H texted me today because I put on facebook that I had to leave work early to get my daughter from preschool as she was sick. He texted to ask after her. i gave a basic reply, - she seems fine now. He texted back again, but I didnt reply. See I am doing it!!
MadAboutHotChoc Tue 29-May-12 20:12:00
Why is your FB updates visible to him?
You really need to block him if you are serious about detaching.
MadAboutHotChoc Tue 29-May-12 20:12:31
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midwife99 Tue 29-May-12 21:17:23
I really think you need to Unfriend them all on FB. It's not healthy.
skyebluesapphire Tue 29-May-12 21:37:15
I know that I should unfriend them all, I just cant bring myself to do it.... I just went in to facebook and can see that he is online. It just makes me sad :-( I know I should block it and then I wouldnt know.
Nyac Tue 29-May-12 21:44:52
It must be very hard to unfriend them, because it is one way to see what he's up to.
On the other hand you can stop using Facebook to say things that you don't want him to see or to use an an excuse to contact you e.g. the stuff about your daughter being ill. It's really not necessary to announce things like that on Facebook whether you're having problems with your ex or not.
tribpot Tue 29-May-12 22:03:16
Yes, you really can't communicate through FB - I was friends with one half of a couple who worked in one of our other offices and during their break-up they would write appalling things about each other that the other couldn't see but everyone who knew the both could. Totally inappropriate.
If you don't want to unfriend them, you could always hide them or set up a limited profile so at least you're not broadcasting to them at the same time as everyone else. But really, honestly, truly, you need to unfriend them. You're already being bombarded with second-hand, loaded information at every turn, why allow FB to be used in that way too?
Proudnscary Wed 30-May-12 05:49:01
Yes and also your FB updates are actually just a way of contacting him, a way round our your no text rule. Don't do it - I admit to being a loather of FB and specifically attention seeking status updates but I think it's undignified. All everyone will be thinking is 'she so just wants ex to see that'.
Re the other stuff re W and H - wow what a bunch of immature, selfish twats they all are!
Okay yes it's gossip but I defy anyone not to listen to it grin. And it all makes sense...and has actually helped you to believe what we have all known - they are having an affair. It also helps to know her h is deeply suspicious of her so you arming him with your dossier of damning evidence is possibly the right thing to do - later.
But you know enough now. Anymore and it's overload and you are back to obsessing about them when you need to carry on being the amazing, strong woman you are! You are awesome and don't forget it!!!
skyebluesapphire Wed 30-May-12 13:10:53
I put it on facebook that I was annoyed at having to rush home from work to pick up the daughter because the school said she was sick - they overreacted as usual - she was fine.... but yes, he can see it so of course he then texts to see how she is...
I am still fighting the urge to put stuff on facebook, I know its not right and cringe when I see other people doing it, but it is so tempting. If I get any shit from her when my H gets the divorce petition, I will be tempted to put something on there then.... but will have to hold myself back.
If I do get shit from her then, I am so tempted to then text her husband and say "get your wife off my back, if she hadnt been texting my husband from January to April, up to 100 times a day, plus emailing him and facebook chatting behind our backs, she wouldnt be named on my divorce petition"
he has texted to say he will pick daughter up from school tonight and take her to the park if it stays dry. so what the hell is he going to do if it rains? Arse
LyingWitchInTheWardrobe Wed 30-May-12 15:04:07
He's an adult, skyblue and her father. Let him work it out for himself. He can take her to any number of places. He hasn't been good to you but if he's trying to be a decent dad to his daughter, let him. Don't comment on minor stuff and keep it all off FB because it's YOU that will look desperately clingy and needy and you don't need that on top of all this stuff that you have to contend with.
Please try to step back a bit - for your own sake. It's going to be very hard for you and I understand that completely, but many things will now NOT involve you, NOT require your input and you will probably feel like you're standing on the sidelines. You're going to get through this and what feels odd and sad now will be nothing more to you than fleeting thoughts of how things used to be, whilst you get on with re-building your life with your DD in it.
skyebluesapphire Wed 30-May-12 17:56:30
so he had managed a whole 2 hours with her tonight, pick her up from school at 3.30pm and bring her back at 5.30pm. he takes her to the local park and buys her chocolate and orange juice.... she seems happy enough with the short time span though. He obviously hasnt worked again today, but at least the money has gone into the bank account this week so thats something...
I am still managing to exchange her without even looking at him. It helps if he picks her up from school because I only need to see him once then when he brings her back. He was handing her bag over and I was already shutting the door on him.......
When he asked earlier if she was at school I replied yes, then he said can I pick her up and take her to the park and I replied yes. So I hope you will all agree, the minimum level of interaction with him is being maintained!
I am getting angry now. I think that the pills are helping because they are taking away the desperate anxious feeling that I had, which is allowing other feelings to come through.... the ones that I have buried while I was desperately trying to get him to come back. I do wish now that I had never bothered, as so many people advised at the time, but I was in such a state of shock, all I could see was that I had to get my husband back and make things work.
Now I can see him for the selfish prick he really is
LyingWitchInTheWardrobe Wed 30-May-12 18:12:07
Well it may not seem like it to you at the moment skyblue, but that is an incredibly positive outcome. You see him now for what he is and he will not be able to decieve you again.
It doesn't really matters 'what's been', it matters what you do now from here on in. You have a life to rebuild with your daughter and you don't have to concern yourself with your ex-husband again other than the bare minimum. Keep going - and stay off facebook, please do. There's little point being disengaged in RL if you play out the drama on a website that he will undoubtedly get to see/hear about.
If you really want to wrong-foot him and make him feel uneasy - zero communication, nowhere with you directly. Everything through your solicitor. This man will be nothing to you other than your daughter's father and that will free you up body AND soul, to see what else there is in the world that interests you.
midwife99 Wed 30-May-12 18:31:47
You still need to Unfriend him, ow & her second cousin twice removed on Facebook ......... Please!!!!!
tribpot Wed 30-May-12 19:39:25
It was very frustrating for us, skye, but you needed to go through the process yourself. And you will always have the comfort of knowing you did absolutely everything you could (and possibly a great deal more than you should) to save your marriage. He barely lifted a finger.
You can keep your FB communications that they can see to a minimum (ditto probably his family - if you want to let off steam occasionally on FB you want to do it to your mates, not to his family). But blocking him and her (and the alibi-providing best friend) is a better course of action.
Good news that the pills are helping!
MyChildDoesntNeedSleep Wed 30-May-12 21:37:39
Don't feel bad about being desperate to get him back. In the future you will be able to look back at your marriage and say you fought tooth and nail for it, but it was out of your hands. When he's coming crawling back and you don't want to know, you won't feel any guilt for your daughter because you will know you tried to save it and he wasn't having any of it.
Trust me....I was in your position once and couldn't imagine ever feeling like I'd refuse him if he wanted to come back, but 18 months down the line that is exactly what happened. Keep going,'ll get there. smile
MyChildDoesntNeedSleep Wed 30-May-12 21:39:15
Sorry, that should have read 'don't feel bad that you were desperate to get him back.'
skyebluesapphire Thu 31-May-12 00:53:09
blimey, to return 18 months later! That would take some nerve wouldnt it.... I know my BIL split up with his wife and they did actually get back together about 12 months later, but ultimately split again for good a few years later.
I have been out for a meal tonight with some good female friends and had a really lovely evening. We talked about all sorts of things and we did talk about my situation too. i was able to talk calmly about it, mainly thanks to the anti d's I think! but it was good. a couple of them had been in the same position in the past, a few of them were older than me, and mostly all were good close friends.
I had a fun evening and it was good to talk about it on an unemotional level. The more I talk about it now, the more that people make me see that "I wouldnt want him back now if he came gift wrapped" - to coin a phrase one of them used, lol.
The ones who didnt know about the texting were all absolutely horrified and it helps me to stop blaming myself when other people know the truth about the texts. They all say that he turned nasty on me to stop feeling guilty himself and I can so see that now.
dondon33 Thu 31-May-12 04:35:55
Now I can see him for the selfish prick he really is smile
I wouldnt want him back now if he came gift wrapped smile
Well done Skye, we knew you'd get to this stage.
Don't feel bad about trying to salvage your marriage and your family.
Good the pills are kicking in, don't worry about taking them if they help you through this, if done properly they're not that hard to get off.
Keep up the contact with your girl friends, they're going to really help you through this, sounds like they already are ;) xx
skyebluesapphire Thu 31-May-12 13:17:46
I am really annoyed today, coz of Facebook, I know unfriend etc! Still haven't done that!
His sister put on a comment on the photo of him out with them the other night- so nice to see you smiling, haven't seen that smile in a long time.
I feel like its aimed at me and do want to retaliate but haven't! It Heath he's smiling alright having wAlked away from his wife and daughter after texting his best friends wife 100 times a day !
Hold me back somebody please!!!!!
countingto10 Thu 31-May-12 13:43:13
Defriending them all will send a strong message to them or better still de activate Facebook. Facebook was one of the first things to go when dh's affair came to light (it was one of the ways him and ow stayed in contact) - by DH deactivating his a/c it sent a strong message to ow that he really meant no contact.
You don't need to see all this sh*t, it just winds you up. I personally only use facebook for stalking purposes grin - my a/c has absolutely nothing on it, zilch, no friends, no pictures, no profile.
tribpot Thu 31-May-12 13:45:25
If it is aimed at you it's a cheap and nasty shot. You don't need to see it.
PooPooInMyToes Thu 31-May-12 15:13:38
What an insensitive comment!
Id be so tempted to put something along the lines of how nice it is he is happy now he's fucking his best mates wife, and what a shame your daughter is so sad. Still as long as he is getting his dick wet that's all that matters. With a link underneath to an std clinic . . .
But don't. grin
PooPooInMyToes Thu 31-May-12 15:17:04
Ooh actually Im not sure i would be able to stop myself! [not a good influence!]
Xales Thu 31-May-12 15:34:14
Bad PooPoo grin
midwife99 Thu 31-May-12 17:48:25
Naughty poo poo! Sapphire - revenge is a dish best served cold. Unfriend, block, sit back & watch the nest of vipers implode.
skyebluesapphire Thu 31-May-12 18:11:26
so I had the letter from my solicitor today... the divorce petition has been sent to the court and will then be sent on to my husband... I dont know how long that will take though, but am waiting for the shit to hit the fan when it does (over her name being on the petition). Still, I am ready for whatever they throw at me...
I cannot believe that in the space of just over 3 months I have gone from being (happily) married (so I thought) to filing for divorce! How the hell did my life turn into this?
PooPooInMyToes Thu 31-May-12 19:19:39
I can't remember if he knows that her name is going to be on it?
AnyFucker Thu 31-May-12 19:26:25
It's just masochistic to subject yourself to the passive-aggression. And very silly to buy into it. Are you not de-friending so you can see any explosions once the divorce petition is received on there ?
skyebluesapphire Thu 31-May-12 19:41:16
PooPoo , no he doesnt know that her name is going to be on it, am expecting crap from maybe him, definitely her, if he tells her. If I get crap from her, I will text her husband and ask him to get her off my back...... I don't suppose they will tell him....
handbagCrab Thu 31-May-12 19:49:00
Hi skye. I generally lurk rather than post and I think you've done really well and come so far, well done.
I do think though you need to focus on what you want and think rather than what he wants or thinks or what your mum thinks or what your mates think or what uncle Tom cobbley thinks about it all. Does it really matter?
Why don't you hide them on fb and set your updates to not them if you feel you can't defriend yet.
It sounds like you're stuck in a loop at the moment and seem caught up in the drama of what he's going to say when he sees the divorce petition and what she will say when she sees the divorce petition.
Hope all goes well smile
skyebluesapphire Fri 01-Jun-12 10:40:09
I had a message from his Bruce today, I am godmother to her eldest daughter. She was quite sensible saying that if my H was unhappy then he did the right thing by getting out now rather than wasting any more if my life. She said me and H need to stay friends for daughters sake so I said that will not happen. I also told her about the texting as I want his family to know the truth and not think badly of me...
I've been feeling really sick for a couple of days, not sure if it's the s to d's or a bug.
skyebluesapphire Fri 01-Jun-12 10:40:50
Stupid phone! That should say anti D's or a bug...
midwife99 Fri 01-Jun-12 11:07:49
I still think having a text dialogue/FB contact with his friends/family is damaging whether you think they're on your side or not. The bottom line is they WILL side with him no matter what you tell them & you're just hurting yourself by allowing yourself to be involved. Delete all their numbers, delete on FB & detach!
handbagCrab Fri 01-Jun-12 11:12:36
skye nearly everyone I know has had a sickness bug lately. It's crap but doesn't seem to last long.
Honestly, it does not matter what other people think. What you think is what matters. I can see you're just going round in circles. What you gonna do if his mum turns round and says its all your fault, you shouldn't get divorced and you should try harder? You're putting yourself at the mercy of other peoples opinions. They don't have to live through it. And besides what you've just reported is someone sticking up for your h not you.
skyebluesapphire Fri 01-Jun-12 11:22:43
I know it's his family so they will support him. His mum is useless, she didn't tell him to fight for his marriage, when I spoke to get after he walked out she just said oh well these things happen, it's his decision.... She didn't tell him to work at it or have a go at him for walking out on his daughter.. But his whole family are weird, they have no social skills, can't talk to people, cant hold down a job, all get into debt, fall out with all their neighbours, and think that everybody else is weird and they are normal lol.
I just want them to know about the texting as I'm damn sure he won't tell them. His neice is bound to tell her mum therefore it will then get back to his mum. I just want them to know the truth not just what he decides to tell them..
handbagCrab Fri 01-Jun-12 11:35:17
Well perhaps his mum could see there was no future then?
If you want them to know about the texting tell them. Don't rely on people gossiping to get information round. I'd really suggest stopping discussing things with his various family members beyond the basic facts but I don't think you want to.
Best wishes.
skyebluesapphire Fri 01-Jun-12 11:55:25
This is the same mum who when we went there with baby scan, having been together for five years, married for two, aged 36 and 44, said - oh you're not are you? What are you going to do..... -
She treated us like a pair of teenagers. She also called my daughter s horror as she is very wilful. My H didn't even want to go round there with our daughter because of his mums attitude to our daughter.
The day he left we had been at a family christening for his great niece and he was preoccupied and on his phone texting all day long. He got his brother to text their mum to tell her he had left me then he didn't speak to her for a fortnight. She then said that she wasn't surprised as he had been quiet that day... Who the hell thinks that their son is going to leave his wife just because he's a bit quiet?! The woman is mad. I know from experience that my name will be mud now and it will all be my fault for being a bitch etc. so at least if they know about the texting it gives them the truth. His mum doesn't think much of people who cheat... But no doubt will forgive her son as it will be my fault for driving him to it..
handbagCrab Fri 01-Jun-12 12:03:30
You've just said this woman has no social skills so who gives a monkeys what she says or thinks? You'll be best off without her in your life by the sounds of it.
You really, really need to stop caring what his family think of you. You could give him a million pounds and full custody and they may still think you're a cow if they wish to. The nice thing with getting divorced is you never have to interact with them again unless you want to. It's your choice, not his, not theirs.
Why not email, write to or ring his mum and tell her yourself about the texts. She'll make up her own mind either way but at least you can rest easy that you said what happened in your own words not in your niece's, best friend's dog's words.
Xales Fri 01-Jun-12 12:08:42
Don't bother trying to respond to these people. Tell them that they only have your H's version of events, yours differs and you do not wish to discuss it with them.
PooPooInMyToes Fri 01-Jun-12 12:17:28
They sound an interesting lot!
midwife99 Fri 01-Jun-12 12:28:32
Again - posts talking about what his mum says, what his niece says etc etc! Why are you involved anymore? The real breakthrough will be when you say I don't give a flying f what they all think of me/say/do. They're nothing to do with me! (Thank God) The only people who should matter to you right now are you, DD, and your close family & friends.
skyebluesapphire Fri 01-Jun-12 13:42:57
I suppose I just want them to know exactly what he has done so that they know why the marriage ended and it wasn't my fault. I only feel the need to say it once to them and that's it then.
He won't tell them about the texts as he wouldn't admit he was doing anything wrong, although he did in the end. If he was cheating on me then they need to know that rather than think he was forced to leave because I was so awful.....
When he first went I was so upset and desperate to get him back I never mentioned the texts to his mum as I didn't think it was relevant... I was never close to her or my SIL as they are just so odd I couldn't get that close to them. I was closest to my BIL and he's the only one who contacts me regularly now . I would like to stay in touch with him but we will have to not talk about my H .
I dread the bank holiday coming, I used to love them as extra time to be together but now it's just more time on my own while everybody else plays happy families.
He checked out of playing happy families with us and I hate him for that. I hate him for what he has done to my daughter.
skyebluesapphire Fri 01-Jun-12 14:00:23
My poor daughter is sat on the floor with her toys telling them
" i know you really miss my daddy but I will look after you" "you have got me and we have got each other"
It breaks my heart, he is a total and utter bastard for walking out on her and he doesn't have to see this, what it is doing to her. Now she is telling me that she knows how much I miss her daddy too.
It's really upset me again.
skyebluesapphire Fri 01-Jun-12 14:01:36
It's really upset me again.
PooPooInMyToes Fri 01-Jun-12 14:03:51
I don't blame you for wanting to tell them what has really happened. You know already that he has been lying to other people about it so it makes sense to want to set the record straight.
I really don't think its unusual to carry on speaking to an exs family anyway. Although they sound weird!
Xales Fri 01-Jun-12 14:13:01
I don't think it is unusual to carry on speaking to an exs family.
I do think it is too fresh and raw for Skye to be doing so right now. She is flogging a dead horse trying to convince them that he is in the wrong much as she (and we all) want her to. They are just not going to see it from her side.
Proudnscary Fri 01-Jun-12 15:05:38
However incredibly hard it is please try to dismiss what other people think, especially his mother who is a twat and who will naturally side wtih her son.
BUT I would say to anyone who asks why the marriage ended, including his family if you really must speak to them, 'My husband left because he was having an affair'.
Or if they present to you a 'reason' why he left, say matter of factly, 'Oh no, it wasn't that - he was having an affair'.
You don't have to enlarge anymore than that. If pressed shrug and say 'ask him'.
I don't think you should broadcast it in inappropriate ways (FACEBOOK!) or spread it through Chinese whispers. Just answer honestly, it will probably feel good.
skyebluesapphire Fri 01-Jun-12 15:09:37
My husband was having an affair - I havent actually said those words to anybody..... I tell them he was texting his best friends wife 100 times a day and they instantly make up their own minds as to what he was doing....
My husband was having an affair - can I put that on facebook? wink
Xales Fri 01-Jun-12 15:18:07
Yes your H was having an affair. How do you feel saying that?
Minimum it was an emotional affair because he was taking from your marriage, keeping it secret and giving all the care and support that you are entitled to to a third party.
You are one of the strongest women I have seen post on here even if you don't feel it.
If you want to be really evil. Scan the divorce paperwork highlighting her name and stick it on your wall for everyone to see.
I hope no one ever takes me up on these ideas they are to try and make you smile in black humour.
Proudnscary Fri 01-Jun-12 15:24:43
Exactly. Sexual or emotional, it is an affair. It is sexual though.
So it's the truth.
It's why he left.
It's why your marriage ended.
Yes I'm sure there were problems and issues in your relationship even if you didn't argue - all marriages have those.
No you are not perfect, maybe you pissed him off in half a dozen different ways.
So what? That's not why he had an affair. I
Saying 'My h had an affair' is the truth so there can be no harm in saying it - you may find it therapeutic and empowering.
Hey if he isn't having an affair - let him come out and prove otherwise.
Proudnscary Fri 01-Jun-12 15:25:21
Oops I meant to strikeout the bottom line! I wouldn't encourage this way of thinking, it will only mean you are invested again or trying to get his attention/reaction. Sorry about that!
handbagCrab Fri 01-Jun-12 16:14:07
Facebook is for making out your life is ace and you are off having interesting, exciting adventures every day. It's why so many people are disatisfied with their lives as others sound more interesting smile
I wouldn't put anything on Facebook that's personal, it's not going to end well. At best you'll have aquaintances trying to find out all about your personal life, at worst a slanging match with ex on your update.
Why not put something like 'can't wait for jubilee weekend! Got loads of fun stuff planned, god save the bank holiday!' or something.
skyebluesapphire Fri 01-Jun-12 16:38:33
xales thank you. I don't feel strong at all although several people have now said that to me and said that u have handled the whole situation well snd that I can hold my head up high and know that I did nothing wrong snd did everything I could to save my marriage.
I have just broken down for the first time in a week (since being on the ad's) but it didn't last long. I just need someone to talk to but everybody is busy.
I am off to a local village event tomorrow a village fair, then Sunday I will work at home while he has daughter. Monday is the Jubilee street party for the whole village, so have got stuff to do at the weekend.
It's the evenings that are the worst, lonely. Even when my H was here and even if we were sat in separate rooms on computers etc it was still company and I still had someone to go to bed with and cuddle up to. That's the hardest part for me to deal with that we were making love right til the end and I had no idea that there was anything wrong. It makes me sick now that he was texting her up til bedtime then making love to me....
Xales Fri 01-Jun-12 17:16:11
There are going to be times when you cry. The ADs help make them less painful and hopefully time will.
Some of them you can possibly plan for. Expect to feel sad/hurt in the build up to, birthdays, wedding anniversary, engagement date, christmas etc. Also the first time he has DD over night.
You can start planning for them now so that you have someone close with you or something to do to try and make new memories.
After the first year you will have done all of these and hopefully they will be less painful.
skyebluesapphire Fri 01-Jun-12 17:43:32
well, I got through our 10th anniversary of getting together as that was the day we had our date, so got to spend it with him...... his birthday was last week, we got engaged on my birthday in March.. and our 7th wedding anniversary is in October, so am dreading that. We used to go away for the weekend, so that one will be bad, but its a way away yet, so will worry about it when I get there.
Christmas, well - he can have her on Boxing Day, but he is NOT having her on Christmas Eve or Christmas Day. He chose to do this to us, so he is not taking her away from her family then. His mum and brother usually go to his brother's ex girlfriend, along with her mum and brother, her friend, her daughter and about 6 dogs...... His sister cooks for her assorted brood of 6 kids/partners, 6 grandkids etc plus all their dogs. My daughter is not spending Christmas Day with any of them.
The first time he has my daughter overnight I will make sure that I go out with friends, or stay over with my cousin. God knows when that will be though. He said that his friends said he could have her overnight, but it hasnt happened yet in 2 months..
At the moment its the silly things that get me, like my daughter doing something funny and thinking I must tell him that later, or getting some gossip off the neighbours and thinking that I must tell him, then remembering that it will never be like that again. He had a doctors appointment about his high blood pressure the day after he wrote me that letter, so I never did find out what happened, if he is on medication or anything for it. He was owed some money by a customer who had promised to pay within 14 days, I dont know if he got paid. These things are none of my business any more and it hurts.
midwife99 Fri 01-Jun-12 22:43:47
Try to stop thinking about these details love. Christmas is a long way off & you need to just live day to day.
skyebluesapphire Fri 01-Jun-12 22:52:10
I know. I was on a bit of a downer this afternoon. Am back up again now...
I've been thinking, should I ask him to pay the £340 court fee for filing the divorce petition? He ended the marriage after all.......
I wouldn't, he won't pay it as he doesn't want a divorce until it either works out with the OW or he comes back.
tribpot Sat 02-Jun-12 07:36:26
I agree with wheredidi. I can quite see where you're coming from, skye, but he will refuse to pay and then you're back round another cycle of: why did you leave, are you really sure you want to split up, why didn't you tell me so I could magically make the marriage work again ... it's an extension of the horrible up-and-down when the OW or the BIL says he's not as certain as he is claiming to be.
I guess you need to be clear in your own mind that you are pushing this divorce along. You are doing the only thing which it is reasonable to do under the circumstances, the only thing that pragmatically protects your best interests and those of your dd's. Because I think in years to come this is going to be replayed to you as 'YOU divorced HIM' - and you need to be able to hold your head high and say 'yes I did'. (And perhaps 'yes I did. Because he was having an affair').
He couldn't fight for his marriage. No-one actively trying to leave one can.
midwife99 Sat 02-Jun-12 07:42:04
I think it's important you are in control here by divorcing him for unreasonable behaviour. The £300 is not worth negotiating for. He has been very unreasonable hasn't he? If you want to divorce him do it. If you don't then don't. It's your choice.
Dozer Sat 02-Jun-12 07:48:01
I like proud n scary's simple statements. Your H is going around saying that he was confused, moved out, and that you are divorcing him, he will continue to lie and blame you.
stating simply to anyone who asks - and also to him! - "he left because he was having an affair and told me he didn't love me anymore, so I am divorcing him" (and not getting into any debate about it) is straightforward and honest.
He and some people will believe his version, you can't control that, so try to disengage, and focus on other things.
For goodness sake, get off facebook, for your own benefit, and whatever you do don't post about him (and ideally don't post at all), it just isn't classy.
Stuff what his family think!
Proudnscary Sat 02-Jun-12 08:25:06
Every time you want to post a vengeful status update on FB - post it on here!
skyebluesapphire Sat 02-Jun-12 21:44:56
so I actually had a good day today, went to the fair in the next village, just a bbq and a beer tent really lol, but there were kids races and a playground, so that was daughter happy!
I saw a few people that didnt know about me and H splitting up and I was able to tell them quite calmly that he walked out on us a couple of months ago and that he was texting his best friends wife etc etc. Everybody comes out with the same line still, but you two were always so happy, blah blah blah. and also, How could he leave his daughter..... But I am in a calm place and able to deal with these things a lot better than I was a couple of weeks ago and I am angry now too.
He text me earlier to ask if he had left something in daughters bag at the weekend and i simply replied NO. short and sweet......
he will take daughter in the morning at 10am as per usual. Another handover to be done without me even looking at him :-) I bet on Weds he will text and ask if he can pick her up from school. He wont even know that its half term, thats how much interest he takes..... She is in a holiday club that afternoon til 5pm, so he will have to wait til then if he wants her....
foolonthehill Sat 02-Jun-12 21:49:11
well done SBS...onwards ever onwwards!
Dozer Sat 02-Jun-12 22:10:32
Glad you had a good day smile
skyebluesapphire Sat 02-Jun-12 22:19:12
Me and daughter are going on holiday in July. When I booked it I was hoping that we may have got back together by then, which obviously hasnt happened. I booked through The Sun holidays for a place which is about a 45 minute drive from here and probably 20 minutes from where he is now living. The main reason for booking it is that my daughter loves the characters at that particular company's parks and it is the nearest one to us and I didnt want to travel too far for my first holiday on my own with daughter and also my mum might pop down for a couple of nights...
When I booked it I said that he would be able to pop down one evening to see daughter, but now I am thinking that this is my holiday and I dont want to be stressing about him turning up. I would have to stay in my caravan while he took my daughter to the entertainment.
My friend agrees that this is my holiday and that where it is is irrelevant, she says that I simply tell him that he cannot see her that week as we are on holiday. (its only mon-fri, so he can still see her at the weekend). She says if we were in Portugal he would not be able to see her so the fact that we are on his doorstep is irrelevant.
Am I being unreasonable to tell him he cant see her that week?.....
Dozer Sat 02-Jun-12 22:49:14
thinkyou're being petty re not reminding him about DD's school holiday dates, keeping her in holiday club to 5pm (unless previously discussed ) and the holiday access. It is painful for you to see him, but vital that DD sees him. The fact is, you're not going to portugal, you're going somewhere v close. One evening, if he normally sees her in the week, would be fair.
For his part, access should be arranged well in advance, not a text close to and on the day, and he should stick to agreed times.
Doha Sat 02-Jun-12 22:50:32
Absolutely not
skyebluesapphire Sat 02-Jun-12 22:56:57
sadly he said that I organised and controlled his life, one of the many reasons he gave for walking out, so the one thing I am not going to do now is organise his access. He has a memory like a sieve, I used to tell him things and 5 minutes later he would be asking me a question when it was something I had only just told him! used to frustrate the hell out of me...... He doesnt know that she is in the holiday club as we only communicate when we have to, so i havent told him and he cant commit to every Wednesday as work takes priority so I have to go ahead and make plans to suit myself..... He was given the list of term dates, but wont have taken any notice of it and I dont feel its my job to remind him of stuff now that we are no longer together.....
i try to be flexible regarding Wednesdays as he can only see her if work permits, he can't commit to every Wednesday as he might have to turn down a good job, so I only ever get a text on the day around lunch time if he can make it and daughter gets a surprise when he picks her up from school as I obviously cannot say Daddy MIGHT pick you up tonight in case it doesnt happen. Some of my friends think this is unfair on daughter, but I am trying to be flexible so that my H can see her if he is available.
ThePinkPussycat Sat 02-Jun-12 23:00:53
It seems fair to me. As fair as you can be in these circumstances.
Dozer Sat 02-Jun-12 23:03:23
See your point re reminders, and would expect fathers not living with DC to make the effort.
How odd on his work front, does he really only get work in on the day? Seems a bit hard on you/DD. hope he really is working and not just having her whenhe can be arsed.
Given this, yanbu re the holiday.
skyebluesapphire Sat 02-Jun-12 23:07:41
yeah, the nature of his work is that most of it comes in on the day. its been fairly quiet for him lately and he has been able to see her most Wednesdays but i only get a text around lunchtime to ask if he can pick her up from school and take her to the park. He manages 2 hours with her then scuttles off again... I dont want to insist that he sees her every Wednesday because if he had a really good job come in he could lose a lot of money and I know that some days he doesnt get any work in at all.
But at the same time, i need to go on and make plans for myself as I cant sit around waiting to see if he will turn up or not.
So i try to be reasonable about Wednesdays. At the moment she is too young to understand, but it will get harder when she realises the days of the week and wonders why he doesnt turn up etc
midwife99 Sun 03-Jun-12 00:05:30
Whatever! When he texts Wednesday just make arrangements accordingly. No need to worry now is there?
tribpot Sun 03-Jun-12 00:12:55
I agree, you're just going to stress yourself thinking about whether it's reasonable to facilitate contact whilst you're on holiday (I think this would be deeply confusing for your dd, for what it's worth).
But as you're entering the legal phase of this particular experience, you might want to think about how you'd want to word the Wednesday contact and some potential scenarios. So if your dd is invited to a birthday party on a Wednesday, can he give you enough notice he is coming to make it reasonable to decline the invitation? Unlikely. So effectively I think the Wednesday contact is when it is mutually convenient. On holiday = not mutually convenient. You might avoid a longstanding commitment on a Wednesday (e.g. swimming lessons) but not one-offs.
That all said, there is much water to go under the bridge before July. There truly is no point dwelling on this issue now.
midwife99 Sun 03-Jun-12 00:15:18
Yes try to relax & go with the flow. He can't expect now to join you on holiday so that's that! Enjoy it with DD & mum & forget all about him for a few days.
Saffysmum Sun 03-Jun-12 00:25:55
You worry me Skye. I've just read most of this thread, and you are spending way too much time and emotional energy on your ex. You need to decide what you want. I'm not totally convinced that you want to divorce him; which is fine love, because it's a huge decision to make. You need to redirect your energy away from Facebook and various friends/inlaws/etc., and focus it solely on you and your daughter. Sorry if I sound harsh, but you need to get pro-active, rather than re-active. If you are uncertain about what you want, then take time out to think it all through. If you are certain that you want a divorce, then pay the fee, and go ahead with it. Then you have to dig deep and find all your strength and take charge of the situation. You drive this - you are in control of yourself and your daughter. Sod the inlaws/outlaws/facebookers. And most of all, sod him. Go no contact. Get your solicitor to arrange access. Only have contact about daughter if necessary.
It hurts like hell (I know, I've been there), but every time you log onto facebook, you're picking away at a scab that will never heal. Every time you speak to his relations, you're beating yourself up, reading things into every comment. It doesn't matter what they think. You are you - a great mum and a strong woman. The opinion of his family is irrelevant. Surround yourself with friends who are 100% behind you and have no hidden agenda. Sod everyone else.
Good luck x
skyebluesapphire Sun 03-Jun-12 00:28:09
Thanks for the replies. I think that no contact on holiday is the way to go. I don't want daughter being confused by thinking he is joining us and sometimes seeing him affects her behaviour for a couple of days so I think it's best if he doesn't see her then as i want her to have a great holiday. Just wanted to check that others see it the same way . Thanks for the help.
skyebluesapphire Sun 03-Jun-12 00:34:57
saffysmum I know you are right. I do need to unfriend him on fb but just can't bring myself to do it. I know I will regret it next time I see something that really annoys me...
I am certain about the divorce now. There is no going back . I no longer trust him and I despise him for the way he has treated me and our daughter. He is a selfish coward of a man and we are better off without him. I am however sad for my daughter who misses him dreadfully and doesn't really understand what is going on.
I deserve a man who will be honest with me when he is unhappy who will stand up to me and who will support me not walk away from me when I needed him most.
skyebluesapphire Sun 03-Jun-12 03:54:32
AARRGGHH! Woken again at 3.30am by a crying insecure child! Want to post that on Facebook you useless fcuking twat, do you see what you are doing to your daughter! Every bloody day I get this in the early hours! Just had to scour the house to find her baby so she would go back to sleep!
He doesn't see any of this!
Saffysmum Sun 03-Jun-12 07:30:02
It's really, really hard coping with the fallout from a breakup; and coping with your little girl is the hardest thing of all. I know how you feel, you want time to cope with what has happened, you need to grieve for the loss of your relationship, and the future you expected with him. But the day-to-day issues of suddenly raising your daughter alone prevents this, so naturally you rage against him - it's so unfair, you are being forced into a situation that overwhelms you - you didn't expect to be a single parent. I didn't either. I didn't chose to be left after 20 years of marriage to single-handedly bring up 4 teenagers. It wasn't what I signed up for, it wasn't what I wanted, but it was what was forced upon me.
It's not easy, but it is ok. Actually, some days it's more than ok. I didn't want my marriage to end, but after I chucked him out, I filed for divorce within a few days. This really helped me, because I had no doubts in my mind that it was over, and I would never, ever have him back. I also went no contact, and still maintain this, fourteen months later. The only contact we have is over serious issues about the kids. And lately, when there have been issues over the kids, I haven't involved him at all.
My kids have very little to do with their dad; they are disgusted with the way he has treated us, and the deliberate hurt he's caused; he is the loser in all this. He is missing his kids dreadfully, because he thought that they would simply want him to be happy, and carry on loving him just the same. But they're all young adults, so they were able to stand back and make up their own minds. But they are terribly hurt, even damaged by him. I have to pick up the pieces and like you I rage at the unfairness of it all.
What helps me is trying to accept the situation, just going with the flow of it all. It's shit, but it will pass. It will get easier. Your little girl is young enough to still have a good relationship with her dad. He can still be involved in her upbringing, and be a big part of her life. For this to happen you need to find the strength to detach fully from him, arrange suitable access (through a solicitor) and stick to the arrangement. Then you need to discard completely all the people and all their crap from your life who are hurting you. I did this - and it was hard. I cut off from 'well-meaning' friends who wanted to tell me all about Twunt and OW; all the people who thought they'd stir up a bit of trouble and leave me with the fallout. I just cut them off; I had to - I had to focus solely on me and the kids. You need to look after yourself big time; if you can, then you will start to heal and find the strength to be there 24/7 for your daughter. Don't let the past drain your future. It's a new future and it will be a better one. When your daughter's crying for daddy it's natural to feel her pain and hate him for what he's done - I loathe Twunt with every bone in my body when my kids suffer because he's hurt them. But be there for her, reassure her and let her know in no uncertain terms that you're ok, that you will always be there for her.
You will get through this, but you have to cut off from all the pain that you are able to (i.e. Facebook!) and focus on healing the pain in yourself and your daughter.
Proudnscary Sun 03-Jun-12 07:36:45
Forget an obsession with your ex, you are obsessed with Facebook!
I'm so sorry your poor dd woke in the night feeling sad and unsettled - but for your first thought to be 'I want to post this on Facebook' is absolutely bloody ludicrous.
You can actually survive without FB. You can keep up with friends and find out news and have a life without it! There are telephones! And emails!
I genuinely think you would be happier to sack the whole stupid site off so you stop worrying about who's putting what up there and what you should put on there!
Dozer Sun 03-Jun-12 08:24:07
Skye, please listen to saffy, she's been through it and is a class act!
Sorry DD is unsettled.
The holiday plans sound lovely.
We're all getting frustrated with you re facebook, please take advice and de-friend him, OW and everyone unhelpful, then stop logging on - text and phone (real) friends instead. Please do, or we may need to call anniegetyourgun again!
tribpot Sun 03-Jun-12 08:36:28
I think Proud what skye meant specifically was she wanted to broadcast to the maximum number of his friends and family what an utter shithead this guy is. He walks out, she's left picking up the pieces and dealing with an upset child in the middle of the night.
Skye, you know that texting him and re-engaging is a bad idea, which leaves Facebook as a channel of communication between you (which I think is at the heart of why you won't de-friend him) and one in which you can appear not to be communicating to him but just telling your friends what a crap night you've had. However understandable it is to want to do, it's just passive-aggressive in the same way that his sister's comments were about how much happier he seems now and blah blah blah. Don't play this out on Facebook, unless you defriend him first so you are speaking only to your friends, not him and his family at the same time.
Can your dd sleep in your bed for a few nights, skye? My ds often wants to do this when he's not very well and I just wonder if it would help reassure her. It feels like both she and choco's ds are finding the contact with their dads very hard to manage at the moment; I wonder if it's too much to expect such little children to be able to deal with being reminded at least once a week, if not twice, that their dads have moved on? (Of course I am not criticising either of you for ensuring the contact, and I'm quite sure the dads want the contact very much).
handbagCrab Sun 03-Jun-12 08:50:09
skye there's been a theme all the way through your posts of you wanting him to 'see' how much pain and hurt he's caused/causing you and dd. He isn't going to see because he would have to face up to what he's done and he doesn't care enough to do it.
Please stop wasting your energy on what other people think and have said and whats going on in 6 months time. The only feelings that matter are yours and dds. How are you feeling? How is your dd feeling? How is the newsagent or whoever saying 'oh you always looked such a happy couple' at the village fete helping either of you? It means enough to you to keep reporting comments like that here, why is that?
midwife99 Sun 03-Jun-12 08:50:36
Yes as you know - I agree!! Get off FB!!
skyebluesapphire Sun 03-Jun-12 09:22:04
You are right, I want to hurt him which is why I wanted to post it on Facebook as its the only way he will see it but I know it's wrong so I don't do it. It does hurt him because when I did post some stuff a couple of weeks ago he deactivated his account because he said I was getting at him. But he was back on a couple of days later as he is addicted.
We have no contact apart from a Wednesday text if he wants to see her or if he asks after her at any other time which isn't often and I keep my replies to a minimum.
I dont feel like I love him any more , I feel if he walked through the door and put his arms around me I would just scream at him. I suppose the hurt and anger is starting to override the love that I felt for him.
I have a day of work stretching ahead of me while he takes daughter off for the day. She is so excited about seeing him .....
Proudnscary Sun 03-Jun-12 10:36:27
Skye - my second apology of the day on two separate threads! I've let my own views on things colour my 'advice'.
I hate FB partly because close family members live on it and cause problems. Of course FB is just a vessel for you to get your exdh see how much pain and grief he's caused - it's not really about FB but as everyone else is saying, it's about you learning properly to detach.
You are still doing so well and made amazing progress. Have a good day and I hope dd has lovely time with her father x
skyebluesapphire Sun 03-Jun-12 10:44:48
I hate FB too when people get personal on it, his niece split up with her boyfriend and they plastered their nasty fallout all over FB, then she fell out with her mum and they argued all over FB and you read this stuff and think OMG, keep it to yourself!
But then when the dirty is done on you, you think actually I want to whole bloody world including his family to know what a total and utter bastard he actually is and it seems like the only way of doing it....
But because its wrong and I know I will regret it, I am holding back....
Daughter has gone off all smiley and happy, but she did say "Mummy I will miss you when Im with Daddy". She also said "If I had a tummy ache then I wouldnt be able to go out with Daddy". But I said to her, you are fine and don't have a tummy ache, so you need to go and have fun with Daddy. I think it really hurts her not to spend time with both of us any more.
She was always such a Daddys Girl and I used to let him deal with her as much as possible at weekends so that they got time together. But she is now a lot more cuddly to me and she loves me a lot more than she did I think. Because I am here, I havent left her and she knows that I never will. I keep telling her that we have each other and we will be fine.
brianbennettfan Sun 03-Jun-12 11:49:22
Some people think that the opposite of love is hate. The opposite of love is actually indifference, and that's what you need to be working towards, whatever it takes. Defriending the prat on FB would send him a far better message than anything that you could write on there about your and your DD's difficulties. I can't believe that you can't bring yourself to do it. Go skye!!
Your situation with your daughter reminded me of something that happened after I threw my EXH out. I was livid like you, and one day when he came round to pick up our son (then 6 - EXH had been seeing OW since he was 3 weeks old) I handed him a list of all the things that I had done and handled on my own in the past week, including disturbed nights. He glanced at it and stuffed it in his pocket, saying,"More evidence!" I said, "Evidence of what?" And he said, "More evidence that you are as mad as a box of bollocks, and can't cope." So, far from instilling guilt in him (he was a narc, and knew nothing of empathy), I just ended up scoring a massive 'own goal'. 'Own goals', sweetie, are things to be avoided at all cost.
You are doing great, skye, but I'm afraid I have to echo the call to 'detach, detach, detach. Detach until you can detach no more. Enjoy your peace and quiet and get your work done, honey. thanks
Anniegetyourgun Sun 03-Jun-12 11:55:51
Facebook is the work of the devil, you know.
Your DD sounds like a totally precious pet. (But you know that already.)
Mumsyblouse Sun 03-Jun-12 12:09:27
I think the whole point is that ideally, everyone will become calmer and the emotional tone lowered.
I totally get the devastation, for you it is like a bereavement, with anger and sadness all mixed in.
But for your daughter, it's really important not to give the message that daddy has left her; he hasn't, he's still her daddy who lives elsewhere now. My husband works away and initially it was a bit difficult when the children were saying 'I wish daddy was here' in the week, but I kept everything as stable and normal as possible, and with the odd extra temper tantrum, there wasn't much difference, certainly not wakings in the night all the time, all this drama the next day. He still lives away, we don't always know when he'll come back (some weeks Thurs, some Fri, some not at all) but we do manage fine.
I worry that all this extreme drama isn't very good for anyone and that's why I'd get off Facebook, defriend him, set up defined times for contact (perhaps set on weekends, flexible on the Wed if you can manage it, if not then he can't see her Wed). Children can cope with seeing less of one parent, if it is managed sensibly and calmly, it's just the way it is for many people.
Saffysmum Sun 03-Jun-12 12:34:02
Hi - you say that you want to hurt him, you know that Facebook affects him because he defriended you on it before.
This is just tit-for-tat playground stuff. If you really want to hurt him, to make him really aware of what he's lost then you do this.
You get happy without him. You cope without him. The best revenge is a happy life.
He won't react to messages on facebook, or via friends, the postman or the neighbours cat. He just won't. He knows deep down he's a louse, but he's built a big barrier around himself to justify his appalling behaviour. He won't face the truth, because it's so horrible that he's scared to. It's what they do, Twunt is still doing this. But I don't want to hurt Twunt, I just want him gone. I don't care about him and his OW, I haven't for a long time. He hates my total indifference to him (so I'm told by others, as I just delete his texts unread). This the best revenge, and it's the one that does you a world of good. Things aren't great, but pretend they are, and slowly they will be. Push forward, fill your life with lovely people, your daughter your work and small things that cherish your soul.
It's early days I know, but you need to start moving on, and you must rise above all this bitter facebook stuff in order to do so.
skyebluesapphire Sun 03-Jun-12 13:30:23
well, I just had a little cry, watched a bit of the build up to the Jubilee pagent and it just makes me so sad that Im not sharing this weekend with my husband as originally planned. We had planned to walk up to watch the beacon being lit like we did 10 years ago for the golden jubilee, soon after we got together. I know I mustnt dwell on the past, but I just cant help it sometimes, the memories and thoughts get to me every now and then, especially when daughter is not here to occupy me. She rang me from his mobile earlier to tell me that she loved me and that she was missing me and that she was having fun with Daddy and going to Nan's house later on.
Ive got some work done, just thinking about going over to the neighbour's house later to watch the pageant (if she's not had enough of me this weekend already, lol).
I do want to hurt him, but do also accept that he probably wont care anyway. Although he brother said that he is hurting because I am divorcing him because he didnt want that. I still struggle to get my head round that, why stay married to me if he doesnt want me. It is just so so bizarre. Friends still tell me that Im rushing into divorce, but I stand resolute that I have no option but to divorce him, he had every opportunity to put this right, but had no interest in doing so. Divorce therefore, whether he wants it or not, is the only way to go.
Saffysmum Sun 03-Jun-12 14:14:46
He doesn't want divorce, because divorce is reality. Twunt did everything he could to stall the divorce (which is why 14 months down the road, we are still in the process. It could have been done and dusted by Christmas, if he hadn't stuck a spanner in every bit of the works). Twunt was happily with OW for all this time, and now they are practically living together. Yet he still moans to everyone that I threw him out and am divorcing him.
There are reasons they do this: A) You're plan B. That means that if the new life doesn't work out, then he comes home. You filing for divorce shows him that Plan B has been erased. This means that he is forced to make his new life work, with no safety net. B) He doesn't want everyone to see that you are a strong woman, who is in control of her future, and has the guts and integrity to face the truth that he can't. Divorcing him will force him to deal with the reality, and not his little fantasy world.
do listen to Saffysmum, skye - she really does know what she's talking about. And the poster upthread who said the opposite of love is indifference. That's what you need to cultivate. "I don't care."
You know the truth of the matter, and as for what he thinks: "I don't care." As for whatever any other fucker thinks: "I don't care." That's your goal.
Block him on facebook. You're above this passive-aggressive stuff. You're above dealing with him at all. Block him, and move on.
DoingItForMyself Sun 03-Jun-12 14:58:58
What they all said ^
But also, when he says he doesn't want a divorce, that probably isn't strictly true and it doesn't mean he still wants to be married to you.
What I suspect it means is that he doesn't want YOU to divorce HIM - he wants to be in control of the situation and for you to fall in with his plans, so that he can divorce you when he is ready (after all, in his mind you are totally responsible for this situation and he is justified in leaving you - what possible reason could you have for wanting to divorce someone as perfect as him?!)
I don't say that to be hurtful, but just to show that when he says he's sad that you want to divorce him, you shouldn't take that as a declaration of love or commitment to your marriage - you should take it as yet more evidence that he's an arsehole. If he didn't want you to divorce him he should have treated you better.
By taking the initiative and making the move you are starting to detach, well done.
Proudnscary Sun 03-Jun-12 16:47:18
It is OW that doesn't want you to divorce him, for her own reasons. She wasn't ready end her own marriage...she was worried (rightly) she would be cited in divorce petition and affair would come out...she has no intention of wanting to get together with your dh permanently and so is keen to slow things down.
Remember all the many texts she sent you insisting dh didn't want a divorce??!
skyebluesapphire Sun 03-Jun-12 19:19:44
yes could be that the OW either doesnt really want him, beyond a text flirtation, or she does but not yet.. she has another year of uni to get through for her job, maybe she's delaying it until that is done.. in which case as soon as my divorce and finances are finalised and I tell her H everything I know, her walls will come crashing down either way. Im not vindictive, but whether it ever turned sexual or not, she needs to really see the part she played in my marriage ending.
daughter has just come home with about £20 worth of stuff from her dad, new dress £11. Paddington Bear £7 and a little bag and some felt. Saves me buying her a new dress I suppose..... but she's got enough soft toys and he always used to complain about how many there were.... still, not his problem now is it if he buys her crap to fill up my house...
She is happy, I suppose that is the main thing that I need to consider.
I didnt even look at him again during handover, just took stuff from him and shut door in his face as he was saying goodbye to daughter (who had run in and started showing me all her stuff, so had forgotten him already....). I did then say to her to go and say goodbye to him....
Stupid fucking useless prick. I cant believe I have to see him twice a week for the next christ knows how many years!! a useless tosser who can walk out on his daughter and blame me! I can't believe that this is the same man that I married, a kind caring, generous, thoughtful man who would have done anything for me and who would have never left his daughter!
Proudnscary Sun 03-Jun-12 20:27:52
I know angrysad
skyebluesapphire Sun 03-Jun-12 21:32:25
so daughter had a good day, didnt tell me much about it, but she wanted to ring him, so I deflected that by suggesting that she rang my mum instead...
so she told my mum everything that she did today, then she told her that Daddy said that when he is in his own place, she can go for a sleepover. Apparently I can go too! I said, No, Mummy wont be staying at Daddy's house and she said yes, Daddy said you can..... He obviously just said yes or no to whatever she was saying, but I wish he would face up to things and just tell her the truth and say No, Mummy cant stay over! If she ever says anything to me about him coming home or coming in the house, I just say No, Daddy doesnt live here any more or Daddy is busy and has to go. Why cant he be honest as well? If he doesnt answer her properly, its just going to confuse her!
Why dont men ever face up to anything?!
skyebluesapphire Mon 04-Jun-12 11:58:11
so Ive had a busy morning sorting out washing and stuff, then in an hour we are off to the Jubilee Street Party with the neighbours, got fancy dress, then kids games, with the street party at 3.30pm. Looking forward to it and daughter is so excited. She insisted on wearing the new dress that daddy bought her. It is red white and blue, so quite apt for today.
She told me earlier that she loves Daddy but doesnt like him any more because he went to live somewhere else..... poor little girl...
arthriticfingers Mon 04-Jun-12 14:02:35
Spot on Saffysmum.
Listen up, Skye
Why the fuck did I not see that two years ago. I wish, the fuck, I had
midwife99 Mon 04-Jun-12 15:31:43
I know you're still very very hurt & angry but could you switch how you see things a bit? Eg. Ex spent the day with DD & bought her a lovely new jubilee dress she can wear to the street party tomorrow. She absolutely loves it! A a cute teddy! She had such a lovely time she wanted to phone him after she came home. I wish I hadn't shut the door in his face before she had chance to say goodbye properly & let her phone him because it's not her fault we have split up & she needs to see her parents being civil. I'm glad she still loves him & he wants to maintain a relationship with her". See what I mean? Can you take a deep breath next time, swallow your feelings for him & put hers first?
NettleTea Mon 04-Jun-12 19:22:19
midwife, I think that its all a bit too soon, a bit too raw for that kind of thinking. Maybe a couple of weeks down the line she may be able to start that, but given how much OPs attitude has changed over the last couple of days, I think thats a step too far right now.
You are getting there OP. You havent mentioned FB today - try to keep off it - if you want to hurt him, the act of defrending him will show him that you arent interested any more, and that you have mentally separated from what he is doing, and that will probably hit home much more than any cheap shot for all the world to see, especially if he is as addicted as you say.
midwife99 Mon 04-Jun-12 20:08:09
I hope she can do that in time. I know it's not easy!
PooPooInMyToes Mon 04-Jun-12 21:54:52
I agree with that.
PooPooInMyToes Mon 04-Jun-12 22:09:34
I also agree with whoever said that Wednesdays should be when mutually convenient. You don't want to be putting your life on hold every Wednesday just in case decides he's free. That's not balanced and fare.
skyebluesapphire Mon 04-Jun-12 23:27:49
so I had a good day, games in the park etc, but got a bit sad at the street party when surrounded by families.... really brought it home that he should have been there with us, I really wanted to cry but managed to hold it together though. then went to the pub with my friends and stayed there for around 4 hours! what a bad single parent I am!! the kids were quite happy playing in the skittle alley and I drank a few halves of lager and I did enjoy myself.
so I did come home and post on facebook that I had a fantastic day with great friends and had been to the pub after the street party. (in a kind of hey look at my fabulous life, see how happy I am kind of way).....
I probably had more fun than if I had been with him because he struggled to talk to people, I would have probably ended up making sure he was ok, rather than talking to other people. I think Im being a lot more social now that he isnt around.. I used to feel that I couldnt leave him sat alone in the corner and he wouldnt mix, so I would end up sat with him....
he will probably think im an unfit mother now because I went to the pub..... lol
Proudnscary Tue 05-Jun-12 03:17:49
Glad you had a good time. Well it's all coming out now... So you had to babysit him and look after his needs when you were out at social events? Fuck that! Fine if someone's shy or even anti social, but a loving partner would say 'don't worry about me, you enjoy yourself'.
I would be careful what you write on the dreaded Facebook as he may use it to bash you with. Going to pub with dd on Jubilee weekend is of course perfectly fine but if he decides to be a twat...why give him ammunition?
And for the hundredth time anything you post on FB is transparently an attention seeking device aimed at him. It doesn't make him or anyone else think 'gosh she is really getting on with her life and having fun', it makes them think you are desperate to make him feel bad/jealous.
Dozer Tue 05-Jun-12 08:20:04
Argh, facebook, again!
It just makes you look pathetic.
Dozer Tue 05-Jun-12 08:21:39
The more you say about him the less of a catch he seems, even without his recent behaviour. Glad you had fun, some of the time anyway.
midwife99 Tue 05-Jun-12 09:52:00
Stop facebooking just to get at him love!
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 10:00:45
He is just so shy he only relaxes and chats well with his family or his old friends, he never mixed very well with my friends and neighbours or family. If we went to my family do's I would either have to stay with him or leave him alone all night, which I must admit in more recent times I did think sod you and leave him to his own devices. Probably one more reason why he left me....
His brother said he becomes obsessive with his friends and only has two close friends, so this is exactly what has happened with OW, he has become obsessed with her.
The OW should be back off her cruise today, if I was her husband I'd be very wary again....
It's crap here today, it's pouring down, at least daughter has her holiday club this afternoon to keep her busy. I just feel tired and fed up. I had to tell quite a few people yesterday that he had gone which was difficult and they are always so surprised because its so out of character for the quiet lovely man that they knew.... Which he obviously wasn't, was he?!
Dozer Tue 05-Jun-12 10:15:25
No skye, he wasn't and isn't "lovely".
You seem to be clinging to people's impression of him and your relationship as good, and their surprise about hs actions, and it's not helping you. They didn't know him properly - as you say, he has few friends and was often withdrawn - and didn't know what went on between you. It's just unfortunate, standard kinds of thing that people say to the wronged party after break-ups, and doesn't have real meaning.
Stop obsessing about OW's diary and husband - not your problem!
You are not owning the decision to divorce, your posts have a theme of "I have to, have no choice don't I?", with an undercurrent of hope that he'll see the light, see how happy you were, and return. You don't have to divorce, he may return, if he does you could take him back. Not advisable, but you could. But whatever you decide you need to take charge of your own mind and actions, and detach from other's views, fake living on facebook, worrying about him/other etc.
tribpot Tue 05-Jun-12 10:17:35
Another interpretation of 'being shy' would be trying to isolate you and prevent from enjoying family events by you having to be responsible for him/stay with him at all times.
As your dd has become more mobile independent and needed you to make sure she is okay at such gatherings you couldn't be in two places at once. Nor did he need 'looking after' in the way a small child does. And so he punished you by walking out. Whilst I wouldn't encourage you to dwell on his behaviour, you might want to reflect on the circumstances that led to him walking out of jobs several times.
I think lots of us are feeling tired at the end of a long weekend, even without all the other shit you've had to deal with over the last few weeks. Take it easy - and work yourself up to defriending them on FB, although I have to say I'm not sure I could do it on the day OW returns from her cruise.
handbagCrab Tue 05-Jun-12 10:23:42
skye I'm glad you had a good time at the pub smile It's telling you had a better time than you would have had if he was there.
Who cares if ow is back from her holiday? You shouldn't.
You don't have to tell people anything. If they ask where he is, just say you've split up and you dont want to talk about it. You don't have to go into it with other people unless you want to. You don't owe them an explanation.
If you're child free today do some fun stuff smile Shops are open, lunch with a friend, pub, hot bath, inappropriate telly etc. Do something nice, just for you smile
Proudnscary Tue 05-Jun-12 10:25:36
So shy he managed to have an affair with his best friend's wife!
I'm telling you Skye, you are going to come a cropper on Facebook. In some way or another you will say something that hurts your case or makes you look stupid/deranged/vengeful. Sorry to be blunt. I just don't want you to do or say something you regret.
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 10:35:26
I wish I could do something nice lol but have got a clients vat return to finish do sadly think I will be stuck in doing that, plus the way it's hammering down out there I don't want to go out anyway ..
At the moment me and daughter are cuddled up under a blanket watching Tom and jerry film. She keeps telling me that she loves me and we cuddle up loads now as I want her to feel secure and loved.
I know I have to defriend him on fb, he put a like on the status that I put yesterday, can't decide if he's taking the piss or still trying to be mr nice guy....!!!!! Plus he puts a like on all photos of daughter that I put on .
On the plus side yesterday, I did get chatting to a couple of blokes - it is way too soon to think about anyone else but it was nice to have some attention
midwife99 Tue 05-Jun-12 10:38:39
I still think (I've said it many times before) that you are seeking his attention. What do you want to achieve from it?
Proudnscary Tue 05-Jun-12 10:44:51
You will feel so much happier if you just quit FB. None of the second guessing, the anger at insensitive posts, the hurt when he's pictured out enjoying himself. Why don't you believe us? Why?
Dozer Tue 05-Jun-12 10:50:35
midwife99 Tue 05-Jun-12 10:52:26
Yes it's getting frustrating in the same way as when you insisted you had to win him back, your marriage wasn't over, it was all your fault & he definitely wasn't doing anything wrong with ow! Get off FB!!!!!!
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 11:01:20
I know I need to quit fb , I suppose I feel that it's my only link to him and what he is doing but that is none of my business now I know. It was easier when he deactivated his account. I suppose I want to keep it there just in case it becomes useful at any point...
I don't look at his page at all and I stopped notifications when he posts something. I know he gets notifications when I post as he had me on his "close friends" list, along with OW, we were the only two people on it.... Her H wasn't on it..!!
I don't think I would want him back now, it would never work as has hurt me too much and I would never trust him again but I am still mourning for the end of life as I knew it and for the man that I thought he was..
wild Tue 05-Jun-12 11:03:36
keep focussing on dd instead then
she needs you - not drama and recriminations
Oogaballoo Tue 05-Jun-12 11:09:00
If you at least blocked him and all of the people that would report anything you were doing to him, you would feel so much better. You might regret it at first, but it will be better in the long run. You wouldn't have the temptation of looking at what he is doing and neither would you feel the urge to say things in case he sees. I know it must be tempting so he can get a look at the consequences of leaving and can see that you're doing fine without him, but all it's doing is giving him more space in your head than he deserves. It's unhealthy. If you want to reach the point where you really really don't care what he thinks then you need to stop posting things while half-thinking about how he'll feel or react when he sees them.
midwife99 Tue 05-Jun-12 11:09:57
Don't tell me you're still friends with OW on there too!!!!!
MadAboutHotChoc Tue 05-Jun-12 11:18:17
Detach, detach, detach!!
And that means getting off bloody facebook!
Do not forget that you really do not want him to know what you are doing, thinking and so on. You want him to have NO control over you and this is much easier to maintain when he does not know what you are up to - he will then feel really powerless and cut off from your lives.
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 11:21:42
Yes I am... Probably won't be for much longer once H receives divorce petition.....
It was just to keep an eye on her in case anything happened with her and her H...
PooPooInMyToes Tue 05-Jun-12 11:24:03
I would stay on Facebook i must admit, but i wouldn't post anything on it at all. I would use it to snoop if it becomes necessary, but would not give anything away about my own life on it. One way traffic!
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 11:25:07
Ok so I have just unfriended my H and OW....
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 11:26:26
But I haven't blocked them.....
I wonder how long it will be before my H sends me a friend request.....
CatPower Tue 05-Jun-12 11:44:58
You're using Facebook as a way of interacting with your ex-h, either by posting statuses that you know he'll see and be affected by, or by pulling grand meaningless gestures like unfriending him and the OW, yet you're counting down the minutes until he notices. You should have got rid of them both a long time ago instead of hanging onto the threads of whatever scraps of attention they see fit to throw at you. You need to get your emotional wellbeing sorted out and stop waiting for your ex-h to notice you
You are not a teenager, but you're behaving like one. Your DD needs you to focus 100% on her, not 90% with one eye on your phone/computer.
Block them both, your H and the OW and her husband. What they do is none of your business now. You know your H and OW will be miffed when they see her name mentioned on the divorce petition - you don't need to see their reactions on facebook to make it real.
CatPower Tue 05-Jun-12 11:46:37
Better still - delete your profile altogether. Facebook breeds drama and resentment, especially in a situation like this. You keep saying you want minimal contact with your ex-h (eg shutting the door as soon as DD is back from seeing him etc), so practice what you preach and get him and OW out of your life for good.
tribpot Tue 05-Jun-12 11:46:41
You have to stop playing the games, skye. Now what will you think if he doesn't send you a friend request? What will you do if he does? Too much angst distracting you from the business of getting on with your life. At the very least, please don't get dragged into a conversation with him, the OW or the OW DH as to why you've defriended them. Please also ensure you don't post anything where his family can see which could be interpreted as trying to pass a message to him. Midwife99 is right to call it attention seeking. He's gone.
Are you still friends with the OW DH?
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 11:56:12
Yes haven't unfriended her H mainly so it will make him think why I have unfriended my H and his W but not him...
I won't accept a friend request I was just pointing out that he is bound to send one as he won't like it that I have unfriended him. He will prob think its a mistake or something and will only get the message when I don't answer it.
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 11:57:28
tribpot Tue 05-Jun-12 11:59:15
You have to stop being in this drama. If you want to tell him what happened between your H and his W, just do it. Stop playing a game, no-one wins.
Proudnscary Tue 05-Jun-12 12:02:24
Unfriending is just another way to get their attention.
The whole merry-go-round will continue - will they/won't they send you friend requests, what will they do...
Block or take your account down.
Life does go on after Facebook. It's a time wasting, attention seeking pile of shite. Who cares if you can't see your best's friend's mother's friend's daughter's wedding pix? Think about what really, truly matters in your life - who really, truly matters. FB is actually quite a good metaphor for this - you only or should only care about what a handful of people think or say. You should only care about telling one or two people what you've been up to and or show pics of your dd. Use this time in your life to spring clean and prioritise.
Stop kidding yourself you are only friends with them all in case something 'useful' comes up.
You are on there to get him to notice you and to stay linked to him and his life.
I have to say that I am way too proud to have continued a FB friendship with OW, whatever the 'motives'.
Proudnscary Tue 05-Jun-12 12:03:51
And you have said you wished you'd listened to everyone on this thread and not begged for your dh when we could see he'd checked out. Listen to us now, we have your very best interests (and your pride and your sanity) at heart.
CatPower Tue 05-Jun-12 12:04:40
Why are you playing these stupid, childish games Skye? You know there's something between H and OW, and I'm sure OW's H is more than aware too (he lives with them for crying out loud, sexual tension isn't difficult to pick up), but he's not ready or willing to face it. He will resent you if you try to make him see what has been going on.
midwife99 Tue 05-Jun-12 12:05:35
Yup still attention seeking! Block the lot of them or close your account. And that means BIL, mutual friends. All of them!!!
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 12:16:51
I will block them, all three of them. I don't want him knowing what I am doing and I dont want to know what he is doing.
I don't want him seeing our holiday pics etc so it needs to be done I know.
PooPooInMyToes Tue 05-Jun-12 12:22:22
Blimey! Everyone told her to defriend, she did and now she's being told that defriending is attention seeking. Poor woman can't do right for doing wrong! Give her a break!
PooPooInMyToes Tue 05-Jun-12 12:25:18
I don't see any reason to block the husband, he's done nothing wrong!
I think its fine to still be friends with him on there as long as you stop obsessing about it. You are obviously one of those people who love it and spend their lives on there but for your own sanity and self respect i think it would be a good idea to walk away from it. Leave it as it is if you want, just stop worrying about who is "liking" what. Perhaps make a rule where you only look at it once a week or something.
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 12:26:44
Thank you poopoo I did think myself lol, I do what I'm told and still get grief....
I am listening to everyone and I am grateful for all advice , it's just early days... Maybe once I know he has the divorce petition it will all start to seem a bit more real...
I have accepted that it is over but still can't believe it if that makes sense....
Abitwobblynow Tue 05-Jun-12 13:29:03
None of it will ever make sense. Your shock and disbelief is normal for where you are at.
But now Sky the time has come to face your aloneness. To live as though he is never coming back. Fake it until you make it.
It hurts, so much. But looking into the void (of your abandonment) will not kill you.
midwife99 Tue 05-Jun-12 13:31:08
No sorry I didn't mean it like that or to make you feel worse. I meant hoping ex & ow will be wondering why you haven't unfriended ow's h & also thinking about friend requests is still being involved. I still think a clean break from the lot of them will help you move on.
tribpot Tue 05-Jun-12 13:46:22
Indeed, I think we all want you to detach from the drama for your own sake - and defriending and then starting to wonder about whether the OW DH will notice you had .. etc .. isn't detaching from the drama.
I have to say I agree about defriending the poor sod of an OW DH - he's done nothing - but you don't need communications routes back to your ex (which includes his family) for anything you want to be able to say or post just to a trusted circle of friends. And the OW DH may be quite angry when he finds out you've named his wife on your divorce petition. That's his choice - but you don't need it in your face at this stage.
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 13:57:50
I just feel so lonely. Having a major wobble again, just dropped daughter at her holiday club, so I know she is happy and having fun. But all my friends are doing family stuff again today, Im stuck at home on my own working, which I know is my choice , but in a way I had no choice as have been putting the work off.
The one good thing to come out of this is the fact that me and daughter are so close now. She was always such a daddy's girl and I never minded, I was pleased that she loved him so much as a lot of friends kids arent close to their dads like it, but it has made it all the more difficult that he has walked out on her. I have friends whose husbands left and the kids barely noticed, thats how much time they spent with them, but it wasnt like that for us.
Im not sure what I feel any more or why Im crying. Im crying for the loss of my husband, Im crying because my daughter has lost her dad for all those family occasions. Im crying because Im lonely.
I dont feel like Im crying because I love him so much... Somewhere that feeling has started to change. When I was pissed off with him in the past, i still felt like the only person who could make it right was him and that I wanted him to put his arms around me. I no longer feel like that. I dont know if its the anti D's making me feel like that, or if I have had a shift in mindset somewhere along the line..
I just feel so hurt that he could do this to me, to us, Im so confused as to how it all happened, Im still hoping that he will come to his senses, but at the same time know that it would no longer work between us any way.
Every time I take a step forward, I take 3 back again...
Proudnscary Tue 05-Jun-12 14:18:54
You are crying because it is sad. And he has hurt you and let you down and abandoned your marriage. It is all utterly overwhelming for you.
The fact that you and dd are closer is a huge, wonderful positive to come out of this! That is lovely and heartwarming. Your daughter knows you are always there for her and always will be.
Re facebook - PooPoo I always said to quit FB or block. Defriending is not going to help imo, and is perpetuating all the second guessing and game playing and snooping etc.
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 15:00:35
I do know that ultimately I need to block. For the moment unfriending means that he wont get a message when I put anything on. Blocking seems so final - she says laughing hollowly, getting a divorce is about as final as it gets - so why the hell cant I block him?!
At least now I cant see when he is online and vice versa, I dont get the little picture of his face coming up now in the list of online people, so it is helping me.
I no longer think about what he is or isnt doing, so it will be better not to have little facebook reminders now....
I dont want to quit facebook as it is helping me through some lonely nights by being able to chat to friends
Dozer Tue 05-Jun-12 15:11:04
It is v hard, and sad. This weekend was always going to be difficult, and you did loads of positive things to get through it, and are ensuring that DD has as good a time as possible, which takes a lot of strength.
i don't know the difference between blocking and unfriending, but unfriending is a start! Agree that OW's H needs to be unfriended too, as does anyone who is likely to say anything about them.
wild Tue 05-Jun-12 15:12:33
I left my cheating ex 6 years ago
It would do my head in to see him on fb even now
skyebluesapphire Tue 05-Jun-12 15:18:56
at the moment he can still see my page if he goes looking for it, but cant comment or like anything and vice versa... but if I block him he wont be able to see me at all. I know it is the next step to take... one thing at a time, lol.
Im working all day tomorrow, have a smear test on Thursday (lovely!) and doctors appointment on Friday to check Im ok on the anti D's and up the dosage... then Friday evening Im going out with friends, its now turned into 4 couples plus me! My neighbour may be on her own though, not sure if her partner can make it. So I may not be the sole gooseberry in the room! and she was talking about asking another single friend (female). I think Ive had it bad, this poor woman's husband left her 12 years ago, when she had kids aged 4, 3 and she was pregnant..... her youngest kid has never seen his father. he walked out that day to be with OW and never ever looked back, not even to visit his kids!
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0.546444 | <urn:uuid:7ba5f140-c932-4e80-804e-cf0b3a1d4a6d> | en | 0.966931 | Jim Nolan: Tea party a third party?
October 26, 2013
Who has defined the tea party as being a faction of the Republican Party? Its actions have harmed the GOP. The tea partyers are running primary opponents against what they consider Republicans interested in actually governing (moderates, not radicals) and that does not seem a very smart maneuver to help their “party” since a challenge divides time and money from the general election as well as splits their party’s loyalty.
The tea party is demonstrating an actual disdain for Republicans and has a much different philosophy and ideology from the more storied GOP. The tea party is a third party kidnapping a major party and repeatedly dividing the country as well as its adopted party. Why are old-line Republicans of Eisenhower, Nixon and Reagan allowing this?
Let the tea party run as a third party, radical as it is, and see how many actually get elected without the robe of the Republican Party.
Jim Nolan
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Horatio Clare tries being an Adventurous Traveller in famine-stricken Ethiopia, but decides that he
''Do you think the package people will like it?" asks the overweight lady from Berkshire. "Not tours like ours, but the all-gather-round-the-pool-then-off-on-a-donkey sort?" The tour leader ignores the mule ride scheduled for day nine and the empty swimming pool ten yards away. "No," he assures her.
We are sitting on the terrace of a government hotel on a hill above the town of Gondar, in the highlands of Ethiopia. North, south and east of us, people are staring at death by starvation, but we will be eating again in a few minutes. After lunch, we will descend on the magnificent castle of Fasilides. Every person we will drive past knows the rains stopped a month early and the lowlands are turning to dust. We will take showers before dinner.
The clients' enjoyment, the tour leader's job, the travel company's profits and the Ethiopian government's grand scheme for a dollar harvest all rest on screaming contradictions.
The leader returns to his favourite theme. "But I do think tourism is going to boom in Ethiopia. It's an incredible country with so much to offer. The landscape, the history - absolutely amazing."
The lady agrees, smiling. She likes being ahead of the tourists, an Adventurous Traveller, as the tour literature puts it, roughing it in hotels with limited hot water, in a country that nobody she knows has visited, under a limitless sun.
The Adventurous Traveller is still an indomitable breed. Once, he would have been a driven young man, venturing into empty quarters to discover the savage lands. Now, she is a retired professional, packing a gardening hat and a universal bath plug, propelled by too much free time. She has been almost everywhere a Boeing 757 can take her, bouncing in Land Cruisers over the poorest, wildest, remotest parts of earth. The tour company's slogan is "the different holiday". It sure is.
Rumours of famine dog the trip like corpses on the back seat of the bus. We booked our places months ago, under the woolly impression, reinforced by the tour company, that the country was somehow OK to visit. It had rebuilt itself since the famines of the 1980s and the wars of the 1990s; it had even begun to export food. Then, in the week of departure, there came worrying reports about food gaps, suggesting our intrepid venture might turn out to be an insane faux pas.
Now we are here, the standard conversations about hotels, food, history, birdlife, scenery and local customs steer carefully clear of contemporary reality. One of our party has a radio and raises the BBC World Service. Is there any news?
"Oh, yes, but it was all about the famine, so we turned it off."
That's the spirit. Gazing at the rock churches of Lalibela, the stelae of Axum and other wonders of the country's distant past, ignoring the imploring palms of its population and their hand-to-mouth gestures, racing through the villages making jolly remarks ("They all look very fit and healthy here! They don't spend all their time eating burgers and watching TV") and marvelling at the sublime and terrifying landscape, we practise a crazed, Nelsonian tourism, closing one eye while blocking one ear.
The tour carefully reflects and encourages this contortion. The guide will smile and talk all day about the Axumite empire, give paragraphs on Haile Selassie and the Italians, reluctant lines on Mengistu and the Marxists, and only irritable and positive bullet points on the present regime.
And what about the famine? "One of the guide books says Ethiopia has an image problem," recalls the leader. "I think that puts it perfectly."
Image is the least of Ethiopia's problems, but the government is tipping money on it. Your first impression at Bole Airport, Addis Ababa, is a confusing double vision. On the left is an old concrete terminal, simple, serviceable, a little shabby. Not bad for one of the world's poorest countries. On the right, not yet open and apparently superfluous, is a gigantic glass monster of a terminal that would look over the top at Heathrow. More than $100m of loans blown on prestige and a longed-for boom in Adventurous Travellers.
Beyond it, before you reach the pitted chaos of Addis Ababa, is a new orbital motorway, another mortally expensive blow struck by the government in its struggle to justify the city's claim to be the capital of Africa, a claim concocted during the loopy excesses of Haile Selassie's reign, when he convinced the Organisation of African Unity to site its headquarters here.
"They want it because there is only one other ringway in Africa," says a bitter boy, one of several who spoke in murmurs, eyes scanning left and right for informers. "The government is bad."
In Ethiopia, you talk politics under your breath. During the senseless war with Eritrea, the army swept through the villages, press-ganging young men into the body count. The attitude to the lives and freedoms of its citizens has not changed with the peace.
Another village, another young man, who spent the war in hiding: "Foreigners came and asked the village what we thought of the government, of the elections. I said there was no democracy. The next day the police took me to prison."
The government of Meles Zenawi rules poverty by fear. Eighty-nine per cent of the population are subsistence farmers, and they are all known to their local kebele (village council), which tells them which way to vote. The kebeles are answerable to regional councils, which answer to provincial councils and so on up; the system is a hangover from the autocratic pyramid designed by Haile Selassie and perfected by the Marxist dictatorship that replaced him. Thanks to the charade of rigged elections, it has become acceptable to the west. And here we are, our presence the seal of industrialised approval.
"Why have you come to Ethiopia?" one of our party is asked by an incredulous villager. "The sunshine, the place, the people!" he replies, grinning encouragingly. The government would be proud of him, but the sunshine is flaying the place, and the government is putting tourists before people.
The argument is that tourism will bring dollars for schools and hospitals, but every cent spent on new hotels and refurbished airports is a cent denied to basic irrigation for fields, simple water cisterns for villages. Who can say where the hard currency goes? The biggest expenditure in recent years has been the purchase and use of weapons. Ethiopia is spending millions on its smile and its sword, while its stomach wails for food.
Like the rest of the group, I went to find out about the place, but I shall not be showing photographs to friends or boasting about my discoveries. Unlike my companions, I had never been on an adventure holiday, nor will I ever go on one again. It was a shameful experience.
In our anxiety to be different, to get one up on the Smythe-Joneses, to expand a world that has been shrunk by television and travel addiction, we take our custom to corrupt governments, over the heads of impoverished people.
If you want to help a country like Ethiopia, contribute to charity, preferably one of the small, practical outfits that will lose less of the cash in transit. If you decide to visit that strange, beautiful and desperate place, go as a genuinely adventurous traveller, stay in private hotels, eat in local restaurants and hire guides on the spot. Then you will at least be fulfilling your half of the tourist bargain and putting money into the local economy. Leave the tours to those who wish to travel half-blind, half-deaf. | http://www.newstatesman.com/node/144511 | dclm-gs1-008320001 |
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Author Mario Livio has studied the relationship between art and mathematics. He tells Michele Norris most of us are attracted to symmetry spiced by some elements of surprise... and that combo is the essence of Mozart's music.
And I'm Michele Norris. You may have noticed that we heard a lot of music composed by Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart during our program. It's our way of celebrating the 250th anniversary of the composer's birth. But what makes Mozart's music so special? Why does great music endure?
Mario Livio has given that some thought. He's an author and an astrophysicist. And when he listens to Mozart, he hears the language of symmetry.
(Soundbite of music)
Mr. MARIO LIVIO (Author and Astrophysicist): So, you notice that, you know, it goes up and then down, and then up again in the same way, and down again in the same way. And then the same thing repeats itself twice. So this is the same type of symmetry you would see in maybe wallpaper design. You know, where you walk a certain distance and you see the same pattern again. Here you wait a little bit, and you hear the same pattern again. Sometimes, you know, it's changed a little bit not to make this boring. So, you know, he changes one note, or he moves a half a note up or down, you know, and so on. In music they call this, transposition. We call this symmetry under translation, which means you move from place to place, you see the same thing.
(Soundbite of music)
NORRIS: Mozart was fascinated with Mathematics. Did that inform his music, or was it actually quite the opposite?
Mr. LIVIO: Not directly. But, you know, his sister, Nanneril, said that when he was a kid at school he could talk about nothing else other than numbers, and he filled the walls of their house with numbers. And in his music, you see, indeed, all these symmetries. You also see, occasionally he writes numbers, you know, at the margin of the pieces of music. There is one piece where he actually calculates the probability of winning the lottery in the margin of the music. But you see the symmetry in his music. It's not just the symmetry that I indicated, the one of like a wall pattern. It's symmetry also of rotation. You know, like a snowflake that you rotate looks the same, sometimes when you look at the score of his music, it looks a bit like, if you take the letter S and turn it on its side.
So you see precisely that symmetry where something is coming down and then going up in precisely the same way.
NORRIS: And so, when you listen to something like Symphony #40, and you sort of pull the lens back and look at the entire composition, you start to see all kinds of symmetry in different forms and different ways.
Mr. LIVIO: That's right. And in many of his pieces, you see that. In fact, in most, I would say, you see this.
(Soundbite of music)
NORRIS: What explains Mozart's total fascination with symmetry?
Mr. LIVIO: We don't know that, of course, but we are aware of the fact that there are some connections between talent in music and in mathematics. For example, there are many prodigies. You know, Mozart was, of course, a prodigy. You know, he composed things at age 8. And he loved mathematics. Similarly, there are many prodigies in mathematics who do their best work, you know, when they are extraordinarily young. It appears that both in music and in mathematics, you know, you don't need to read entire encyclopedias before you become creative. You can, you know, just know a little bit about this, and with the talent that you have, you can immediately generate breakthroughs. And this is what happened with Mozart, or it happened with a number of mathematicians like the French Evariste Galois who, you know, Mozart died at 35, Evariste died at 20. You know, they both did all their best work, you know, when they were teenagers, essentially.
(Soundbite of music)
NORRIS: The symmetry, does that explain why certain kinds of music, certain forms of music are pleasing to our ear?
Mr. LIVIO: It's part of that. It turns out that the music we like best, in all forms of music, not just classical music, is of the type that is kind of in the middle between, you know, being predictable and, and being surprising. I mean, We don't like it to be completely predictable. We definitely don't like to be surprised all the time.
NORRIS: And the surprise in his music, in Mozart's music, in fact, writers often refer to it as the Mozart effect, doing exactly the opposite of what you expect the artist to do.
Mr. LIVIO: Right. So, right, so that's the element of surprise, indeed. I must say, I find myself that as I grow older, I like things to be a little bit more predictable than I used to when I was younger.
NORRIS: I wonder if artists instinctively try to achieve this. It's almost like they're drawn to it; it's almost then within our DNA, our artistic DNA.
Mr. LIVIO: It is. But artists also know that we have this. So occasionally, for example, especially in 20th century art, when they actually want indeed to surprise us or to shock us, they especially, you know, get away from symmetry. You know, if I wear my glasses in a way that they are completely tilted, you will really have a hard time sitting with me for a long time. You will find this very, very disturbing. And artists sometimes use that, both in music and in other arts, you know, where they deviate from the symmetry just to shock us.
NORRIS: You think about the sort of canon of Mozart music. What would be the most complex example of symmetry within the sort of the body of the composition?
Mr. LIVIO: Just in terms of pure mathematics, perhaps his most surprising piece is the one that's called the Musical Dice Game. It's a minuet with 16 measures. He fixed the last measure, and for one measure he gave two possibilities of how to play it. But then he actually wrote 11 other different measures, and you're supposed to roll two dice to decide which one to choose to play. Now, if you roll two dice, you know, and you get the number, you get two and three, so you take number five. So now you play number five. Then you roll the dice again, it turns out to be eight. So now you play, in the next measure you play number eight, you know, and so on. There are literally hundreds of trillions of possibilities to choose from to play this.
So, in fact, if you'd like, I mean, nobody has yet heard all the possibilities of this particular minuet. You know, but he wrote it in such a way that no matter which one you choose by rolling the dice, it still sounds very, very nice.
NORRIS: What we're talking about though is random selection, not symmetry.
Mr. LIVIO: Right, right. But mathematics, still mathematics.
NORRIS: Well, Mario, it's been wonderful talking to you. Thanks so much for coming in to speak to us.
Mr. LIVIO: Thank you very much, Michele.
NORRIS: Mario Livio's latest book is called The Equation that Couldn't be Solved: How A Mathematical Genius Discovered the Language of Symmetry.
(Soundbite of music)
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The first computer virus was created in 1982 by Rich Skrenta, who was 15 at the time and only wanted a way to share computer games with friends. He wrote a program called Elk Cloner that could be transferred from a floppy disk to a computer hard drive, where it would lay in wait for another floppy disk to be inserted.
Now when we say Windows Vista blocks computer viruses, we are describing a problem that most people did not imagine until 1982.
And that's when a ninth grader named Rich Skrenta created what may have been the first computer virus. He wrote a program that would jump off a floppy disk onto the computer. The next time somebody else slid a disk into the computer, the program jumped right onboard.
INSKEEP: Mr. Skrenta did not intend to crash computer systems. He did want his friends to get copies of his pirated computer games. So 25 years ago now, he distributed the virus he called Elk Cloner.
MONTAGNE: Every so often the program would cause a poem to pop up on the computer screen. It described the first virus as, quote, "the program with the personality. And went to include this off rhyme."
INSKEEP: It will get on all your disks, it will infiltrate your chips. Words for countless later viruses to live by.
(Soundbite of music)
MONTAGNE: And I'm Renee Montagne.
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Third Trimester Symptoms
By The Editors Of Parenting Magazine
Frequent urination
Since your uterus puts pressure on your bladder most heavily in the third trimester, this means you'll probably have to go to the bathroom more than you ever did before. What's even more annoying is that you might have sudden, uncontrollable urges to urinate, called urge incontinence (over 40 percent of first-time moms experience it). Try to urinate on a schedule (every hour or two), so that you go before you feel an overwhelming need. After a week or so, gradually extend the time between bathroom visits until you're urinating every three hours (or you reach the goal set by you and your doctor). It's also important to drink eight 8-ounce glasses of water a day to stay properly hydrated and to eat plenty of high-fiber foods to prevent constipation. And avoid caffeine, a diuretic that can make urge incontinence worse.
Nearly half of all moms-to-be will be plagued by heartburn. Thanks to all the hormones circulating through your body during pregnancy, the muscle at the top of your stomach -- the one that usually prevents digestive acids from splashing into the esophagus -- relaxes, allowing those harsh juices to go back up. What's more, by now your uterus has taken up most of your abdominal cavity, pushing your stomach up toward your throat, which makes the burn more noticeable. How can you get relief? Try to:
* Steer clear of classic heartburn triggers, like highly seasoned, spicy, or acidic foods (think chili); greasy, fried, or fatty foods; and caffeine. Other possible culprits include fizzy drinks, citrus, and some dairy foods, such as milk or ice cream.
* Trade in your three square meals for six easier-to-digest mini ones, eat them sitting upright, and avoid lying down right afterward and eating too close to bedtime.
* Ask your doctor first, but it's usually fine to take Tums, Rolaids, Mylanta, Maalox, and Zantac. Swollen feet, legs, and varicose veins Edema, the technical name for swollen feet, ankles, and legs, is caused by fluid retention in the lower half of the body. Varicose veins, those blue lines running up and down your legs, are caused by blood valves that soften, causing the blood to pool and form painful bulges. Though the swelling will subside, some of the varicose veins are there to stay (surgery is one way to remove them, but it's costly). To ease the discomfort of both:
* Put your feet up often, switch standing and sitting positions frequently, and never cross your legs. Lie down whenever possible, preferably on your side.
* Wear support hose, which may help soothe the aches and diminish the appearance of varicose veins. Just avoid wearing anything that cuts off circulation (like knee-high stockings).
* Don't limit fluids to try to minimize puffiness; your body will respond by hanging on to liquids even more.
* Soak in the tub. Studies show that the pressure of even a foot of water reduces discomfort.
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Guyana Frontier Provides Review of Marudi Mountain Historical Resource Estimate
June 6, 2012
VANCOUVER, June 6, 2012 /PRNewswire/ – Guyana Frontier Mining Corp. (TSX-V:
GYG) (“Guyana Frontier”) is pleased to announce that it has carried out
a review of a historical resource estimate for the Mazoa Hill deposit
at the Marudi Mountain Gold Project (“Marudi Mountain”) in southern
Guyana, South America. The historical resource estimate was first
published in 1995, prior to the implementation of National Instrument
43-101 (“N.I. 43-101″). Guyana Frontier engaged Reserva International
LLC, of Reno, Nevada to conduct the review.
About the Marudi Mountain Historical Resource Estimate
The Marudi Mountain property has been the subject of extensive
historical work, including approximately 28,000 metres of diamond
drilling. In June 1995, Kilborn Engineering Pacific Ltd. (“Kilborn”),
of Vancouver, B.C., Canada, prepared an evaluation report (the
“Evaluation Report”) of Marudi Mountain for Sutton Resources Ltd
(“Sutton”). The Evaluation Report included a resource estimate for the
Mazoa Hill target area, where approximately 13,530 metres were drilled
in 70 historical holes, based on drill core data, geological
descriptions, surface trenching channel samples, and adit channel
samples provided to Kilborn by Sutton. Metallurgical test data used for
the Evaluation Report were taken from 1982 and 1991-1993 work programs.
Geological resources as depicted in Table 1 at selected cut-off grades
of 0.50, 1.00 and 1.50 grams/tonne gold were classified by Kilborn as
“Measured & Indicated”, and “Inferred” categories based on the
“Principles of Resources/Reserve Classification for Minerals” contained
in Circular 831 published by the U.S. Bureau of Mines and the U.S.
Geological Survey (“USGS”). See Table 2 for a comparison between the
mineral resource category definitions described in USGS Circular 831,
and those definitions published by the Canadian Institute of Mining,
Metallurgy and Petroleum (“CIM”) in 2010, which were adopted under N.I.
Table1. Historical Geological Resources of the Mazoa Hill Deposit (from
“Evaluation Report of the Marudi Mountain Project”, by Kilborn, 1995)
| Mineral | Above | Volume | Average | Tonnage | Metal Content |
| Resource|Cut-off Gold | (m3) | Grade | (metric | (Gold) |
| Category| Grade | | Gold | tonnes) | |
| |(grams/tonne)| |(grams/tonne)| | (grams) |
| | | | | | (oz.) |
|Measured | 0.50 |1,584,187| 2.36 |4,594,143|10,842,177|348,589|
|& | | | | | | |
|Indicated| | | | | | |
|Inferred | 0.50 | 407,910 | 1.99 |1,182,940|2,354,051 |75,686 |
|Measured | 1.00 |1,165,890| 2.94 |3,381,081|9,940,378 |319,595|
|& | | | | | | |
|Indicated| | | | | | |
|Inferred | 1.00 | 296,870 | 2.45 | 860,924 |2,109,264 |67,815 |
|Measured | 1.50 | 906,425 | 3.42 |2,628,633|8,989,925 |289,037|
|& | | | | | | |
|Indicated| | | | | | |
|Inferred | 1.50 | 202,448 | 3.02 | 587,100 |1,773,042 |57,005 |
The resource estimate contained in the Evaluation Report is historical
in nature, and is not based on an existing technical report prepared
under the guidelines of N.I. 43-101. Guyana Frontier considers the
historical resource estimate to be relevant to ongoing exploration and
believes that it provides a conceptual indication of the potential of
the gold occurrence but does not consider it to be reliable at this
time. No more recent mineral resource estimate regarding the Mazoa Hill
deposit is available to Guyana Frontier. A Qualified Person, as defined
by the guidelines of N.I. 43-101, has not done sufficient work to
classify the historical estimate as current mineral resources or
mineral reserves, and Guyana Frontier is not treating the historical
estimate as current mineral resources or mineral reserves.
Reserva International LLC recommends that in conjunction with additional
drilling, the implementation of a comprehensive QA/QC program, standard
data verification procedures, and additional measurements of specific
gravity and core recovery would be required to validate the historical
resource estimate and align it more closely with current best practice
guidelines. Guyana Frontier has implemented industry standard QA/QC
procedures in its 2012 drilling program.
As Table 2 shows below, the implementation of the CIM mineral resource
category definitions presents a higher degree of detail than the
definitions used prior to the implementation of N.I. 43-101. For
example, the 1995 Kilborn mineral resource estimate provides a combined
measured and indicated resource, and does not separate or distinguish
between the two categories.
Table 2. Comparison of Mineral Resource Category Definitions, c.1995
vs. 2010
| MineralResource | USGS Circular 831 | CIM (2010) |
| Category | (1980) | |
| Measured Mineral |Materials whose |That part of a mineral|
| Resource: |quality and quantity |resource for which |
| |have been determined,|quantity, grade or |
| |within a margin of |quality, densities, |
| |error of less than 20|shape, and physical |
| |percent, by |characteristics are so|
| |quantitative data, |well established that |
| |including |they can be estimated |
| |appropriate analyses,|with confidence |
| |from closely spaced |sufficient to allow |
| |and |the appropriate |
| |geologically |application of |
| |well-known sample |technical and economic|
| |sites. |parameters, to support|
| | |production planning |
| | |and evaluation of the |
| | |economic viability of |
| | |the deposit. The |
| | |estimate is based on |
| | |detailed and reliable |
| | |exploration, sampling |
| | |and testing |
| | |information gathered |
| | |through appropriate |
| | |techniques from |
| | |locations such as |
| | |outcrops, trenches, |
| | |pits, workings and |
| | |drill holes that are |
| | |spaced closely enough |
| | |to confirm both |
| | |geological and grade |
| | |continuity. |
| IndicatedMineral |Materials whose |That part of a mineral|
| Resource: |quality and quantity |resource for which |
| |have been estimated |quantity, grade or |
| |partly from analyses |quality, densities, |
| |and |shape and physical |
| |measurements and |characteristics can be|
| |partly from |estimated with a level|
| |reasonable geologic |of confidence |
| |inferences. |sufficient to allow |
| | |the appropriate |
| | |application of |
| | |technical and economic|
| | |parameters, to support|
| | |mine planning and |
| | |evaluation of the |
| | |economic viability of |
| | |the deposit. The |
| | |estimate is based on |
| | |detailed and reliable |
| | |exploration and |
| | |testing information |
| | |gathered through |
| | |appropriate techniques|
| | |from locations such as|
| | |outcrops, trenches, |
| | |pits, workings and |
| | |drill holes that are |
| | |spaced closely enough |
| | |for geological and |
| | |grade continuity to be|
| | |reasonably assumed. |
|InferredMineralResource:|Materials in |That part of a mineral|
| |identified but |resource for which |
| |unexplored deposits |quantity and grade or |
| |whose quality and |quality can be |
| |quantity have been |estimated on the basis|
| |estimated from |of geological evidence|
| |geologic projections.|and limited sampling |
| | |and reasonably |
| | |assumed, but not |
| | |verified, geological |
| | |and grade continuity. |
| | |The estimate is based |
| | |on limited information|
| | |and sampling gathered |
| | |through appropriate |
| | |techniques from |
| | |locations such as |
| | |outcrops, trenches, |
| | |pits, workings and |
| | |drill holes. |
Marudi Mountain 2012 Drilling Program
The 2012 drilling program was planned to assess the gold mineralization
found in historical drilling and support the establishment of a N.I.
43-101 compliant resource estimate, if applicable. It is not known at
this time how many drill holes or the number of metres of diamond
drilling that would be required to produce a N.I. 43-101 compliant
resource estimate for the Marudi Mountain property.
Guyana Frontier’s 2012 drilling program, consisting of 12 holes totaling
1,977.47 metres, concluded in April 2012 (see Guyana Frontier’s news
releases dated May 2, 2012 and May 24, 2012). Three holes were drilled
in the Mazoa Hill target area, and the remaining 9 holes were drilled
in the Marudi North target area, where Guyana Frontier had identified
prospective drill targets from its extensive 2011 trenching program.
Guyana Frontier successfully encountered gold mineralization at Marudi
North within quartzite-metachert rocks (the host rock), interpreted as
similar in composition to the rocks known to host gold mineralization
at the Mazoa Hill target area, located approximately 1.6 kilometres to
the south. Results of 6 holes from Marudi North yet to be reported are
currently being compiled and interpreted.
For maps and photos depicting the 2012 drilling, please visit Guyana
Frontier’s website at www.guyanafrontier.com
The technical disclosure in this news release was reviewed and approved
by Mr. Tim Carew, P.Geo., of Reserva International LLC, a Qualified
Person as defined in N.I. 43-101 and an independent contractor to
Guyana Frontier.
About Marudi Mountain
Marudi Mountain consists of one Mining Licence totaling 13,502 acres
(5,464 hectares) located in southern Guyana approximately 500
kilometres (330 miles) from the capital city of Georgetown.
Guyana Frontier also holds the adjacent Paint Mountain property (“Paint
Mountain”). Paint Mountain consists of one Prospecting Licence totaling
8,848 acres (3,581 hectares) and remains largely underexplored. Guyana
Frontier recently commenced surface exploration at Paint Mountain,
including trenching, prospecting, and geological mapping. A portion of
the property has been selected for trenching, detailed mapping and
sampling on the basis of favourable geology and the presence of
artisanal alluvial gold miners. Airborne geophysical surveys are
planned for both the Paint Mountain and Marudi Mountain properties in
About Guyana Frontier
Guyana Frontier is a public mineral exploration company listed on the
discovery and development of precious metals deposits within Guyana,
South America. Guyana Frontier began acquiring interests in Guyanese
exploration properties in 2007, and now holds various rights to obtain
working interests in approximately 342,000 acres (138,400 hectares) of
prospective lands. Guyana Frontier’s goal is to develop a significant
gold resource at Marudi Mountain, and to explore its other Guyanese
projects using funding from exploration partners.
Neither the TSX Venture Exchange nor its Regulation Services Provider
accepts responsibility for the adequacy or accuracy of this release.
applicable Canadian securities legislation. Forward-looking statements
events or developments that the Company expects or anticipates will or
may occur in the future, including such things as planned exploration
activities at the Marudi Mountain and Paint Mountain properties, the
establishment of an NI 43-101 compliant resource at the Marudi Mountain
property, future business strategy, competitive strengths, goals,
expansion, growth of the Company’s businesses, operations, plans and
with respect to exploration results, the timing and success of
exploration activities generally, permitting time lines, government
regulation of exploration and mining operations, environmental risks,
title disputes or claims, limitations on insurance coverage, timing and
possible outcome of any pending litigation and timing and results of
future resource estimates or future economic studies.
assumptions, including, the result of drilling and exploration
activities, that contracted parties provide goods and/or services on
the agreed timeframes, that equipment necessary for exploration is
available as scheduled and does not incur unforeseen break downs, that
no labour shortages or delays are incurred, that plant and equipment
function as specified, that no unusual geological or technical problems
occur, and that laboratory and other related services are available and
perform as contracted. Forward-looking statements involve known and
unknown risks, future events, conditions, uncertainties and other
factors which may cause the actual results, performance or achievements
to be materially different from any future results, prediction,
projection, forecast, performance or achievements expressed or implied
the interpretation and actual results of current exploration
activities; changes in project parameters as plans continue to be
refined; the existence of weather conditions suitable for exploration
activities; future prices of minerals; possible variations in grade or
recovery rates; failure of equipment or processes to operate as
anticipated; the failure of contracted parties to perform; labour
disputes and other risks of the mining industry; delays in obtaining
governmental approvals or financing or in the completion of
exploration, as well as those factors disclosed in the company’s
publicly filed documents. Although the Company has attempted to
identify important factors that could cause actual actions, events or
results to differ materially from those described in forward-looking
as actual results and future events could differ materially from those
anticipated in such statements. Accordingly, readers should not place
undue reliance on forward-looking statements.
SOURCE Guyana Frontier Mining Corp.
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TIANJIN, China (Reuters) - The United States said on Wednesday U.N. climate talks were making less progress than hoped because of a rift over poorer nations' emission goals, and that other avenues might be needed to tackle climate change.
"The consequences of not having an agreement coming out of Cancun are things that we have to worry about," he said. "It doesn't mean that things may not happen; it may mean that we don't use this process exclusively as the way to move forward."
Underscoring the lack of trust between rich and poorer nations, he pointed to the need for big developing nations such as China, India and Brazil to commit to legally binding emissions reduction obligations as part of a new treaty.
The Kyoto Protocol only commits nearly 40 industrialized nations to meet binding targets in the pact's first phase till 2012.
China is the world's top greenhouse gas emitter after the United States, India is number 3. Both, which have pledged a range of emissions reduction steps under the Copenhagen accord, want Kyoto to be extended into a second period to make sure rich nations don't wriggle out of taking climate action.
Pershing said poorer nations' pledges under the accord must be internationally verifiable, something that was agreed in the final hours of last year's turbulent climate talks in Denmark.
Many negotiators at the Tianjin meeting echoed frustration at the slow pace, while some said that was an inevitable part of such a complex discussion.
"Things are going very slowly," said a delegate from a large African country, who spoke on condition he was not identified. "It's like we're going round and round in a whirlpool."
Thilmeeza Hussain, an official from the Maldives at the talks, said smaller, vulnerable countries worried that big emitters could use shifting away from the Kyoto Protocol to weaken their emissions-cutting commitments.
"If it's a two-track process, how can we create a legally binding treaty so that they don't jump ship?" she told Reuters.
(Writing by David Fogarty)
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Shuaiqi wrote:
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Anyone else see the other news: Forecasters say this winter could be the coldest Europe has seen in the last 1,000 years.
I could swear all those politicians were saying we would never see another cold winter in just a few years. That the arctic Ocean would soon be ice-free year round.
I so wish this years big Climate festival meeting dog & pony show was going to be in Northern Europe again later this winter. Eventually even the most dedicated Green has to ask the basic question. If really cold winters hit year after year, are the advocates claims worth the old newsprint they are written on?
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The level of ignorance in understanding the simple difference between climatic change and seasonal weather patterns is truly astonishing – and a constant embarrassment to our nation, as evidenced by the comment above.
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Now, Wang is on a first-name basis with fun, so when he thinks it's gone missing, fashion is in trouble. And he definitely scores points for his bravado in trying to resurrect it today. Translating the bold block letters of his logo into guipure lace, jacquards, and stamped leather was a cocky move, to be sure—one that could likely divide people. Genius or gimmick? We're going with the former. It's not hard to imagine the black leather trench laser-cut with a repeating ALEXANDER WANG pattern on the back turning into a thing. But it was the more subtle interpretations of the idea—like the menswear checks, big and small, that made you do double takes—that were the real winners here. The designers doing logos back in the day weren't half as clever. And with the VFiles of the world and other street-wear brands making bank by tweaking designer branding, it's delightfully meta to see Wang doing it for himself on the runway.
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The goal is written incorrectly. I think you're supposed to buy a wardrobe. Not a bench.
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If you are referring to the task that requires you to buy a 1200 bench, you need to go to the kitchen section. Towards the end, there is a granite counter top with drawers that costs 1200 simoleans. I discovered this will complete the task purely accidentally.
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Miss Zhang is suing media outlets in Hong Kong and the US that accused her of being one of the 63-year-old Mr Bo's string of conquests.
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he's just jealous 2pac still makes more money then his fata** from the grave, he's just trying to stay relevant, he killed 2pac.. that should be enough to make him keep his mouth closed.
694 days ago
Bwoy dem
Whatever Suge.
694 days ago
Well, seeing how there is a chance you may have something to do with Pac being dead, that would be inappropriate.
694 days ago
knight is irrelivant.
He's just pissed they didn't give him a reason to sue them for using his logo.
Pac wasn't Death Row. Knight might think he owned him, but he didn't and doesn't.
Question: Was knight watching the hologram performance from jail or is he out for a few weeks before he does something else stupid to get himself thrown back in with the other downlow folks?
694 days ago
Hey Suge, You just mad cause Pac got a GREAT sex tape and your only sex tape is with one of your prison buddies!
694 days ago
Hey Suge, Nice pic of you in your prison blues shirt! Looks good on you! Maybe they should keep your fat azz there! You definitely ain't smarter than a 5th grader! Oh yea, where's YOUR Death Row necklace??? You don't have yours on so why should Pac? He left your fat AZZ!
694 days ago
Oh yea, Hey Suge, Don't you need to report to your Parole Officer about now????? I know that Pac, Snoop and Dre don't have to do anything like that! That's cause they aint STUPID like you! and for all of you people that think these Gangster-rap-musicians ain't nothing but trouble, think again. Just read about Snoop and Pac! These guys are musical geniuses! That's coming from a middle aged white lady who loves country music! These guys are for real! Don't hate!
694 days ago
Suge(what a STUPID name, who names their child Suge?)#1 you should first and foremost know that Snoop and Dre ain't stupid like you! They would never put Death Row anything on Pac's or you would sue them. #2 Everybody knows(even me and I'm a white chick) that Pac started his OWN record company Makaveli and Euthenasia. His last release was on Makaveli, NOT Death Row! You just jealous cause you didn't think of it which just goes to prove that Snoop and Dre are da men! NOT YOU, CHUMP!!! You never showed Pac any respect for his talent and he left your azz in the dust because he was a brilliant genius! I have read alot on Pac and he was a musical genius! I have alot of respect for the man and wouldn't have enough respect for you to even spit on you! I think what Snoop and Dre did by bringing Pac back was out of this world! Thanks Snoop!!!!! Once again, you did it! Luv ya!
694 days ago
Hey Suge, Pac was getting a blow job from a beautiful woman in his sex tape. Who were you getting a blow job from in your sex tape? Oh yea, your bunk mate in prison had to give you your blow job and by the way, when you were in prison, who was on top during your only sex tape? I think I'll stick to watching Pac! Can't wait till you get arrested again! I wish Pac would come back! I know you would pay dearly for the respect you never showed him. That's why you are broke now! STUPID! Funny, Pac has money, Snoop has money, Dre has money, but YOU ARE BROKE!!!! Karma is a Biatch!
694 days ago
Keyser Söze
First off... Suge Knight ain't a rapper. Who the hell wrote this article? Moron...
Secondly - how, you said, Suge? Well, the people behind that hologram, quite frankly, hate your guts - seeing Dre and/or Snoop working to make sure that YOUR legacy is still being remember? That would literally be a honest-to-God sign of the Mayans Apocalypse.
But hey, good news: all that Pac talk kinda makes you relevant again. So that's good... right?
694 days ago
**** that douchebag Suge..
694 days ago
juggalo 6
They took the chain off because Pac was killed for the money Suge Knight owed him and the fact that Pac was getting ready to leave death row when he was killed. How do you shoot over a fat man like Knight and hit the skinny guy next to him anyway. Knight had Pac killed. That is how.
694 days ago
Mumra the Ever Living
Is that loser still bleeding out of his rectum from his last prison stay?
694 days ago
Mumra the Ever Living
I just read the first couple of pages of comments, and it's clear that White, Black, or Brown, all men and women seem united in their utter contempt for your flaccid black a$$.
694 days ago
Yup Yup
Is he an idiot? It wasn't a hologram. It was a video projection -- so whenever Tupac did that performance originally, he wasn't wearing the chain. It's an old parlor trick, called Peppers Ghost... it was NOT a hologram. Here's a diagram of how it's done:
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I built my own system (2.4Ghz quad overclocked to 2.8, 8600 nvidia dual-link, asus P5K deluxe wifi) and normally it works like a dream!
But sometimes I boot it and the system and hdd lights stay lit.... but no POST beep occurs and no graphics show up. This morning that happened and I turned it off and flipped the power in the back off and back on... and now it keeps rebooting at the point it SHOULD be turning on my monitors once they get a signal.
This happened before when I was building it and a motherboard reset did it. But what can I do to help prevent this from continuing??!
Thanks so much,
I'd clock everything back to factory speeds and see if the problem goes away. If that solves your problems, you'll need to verify that your RAM is capable of the increased speeds and that your PSU can handle the extra load.
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I'd do all above and add to that the possibility your RAM or CPU might need a voltage tweak - although with such a modest OC I really doubt it - but still, maybe take them up a tad.
Also be sure your RAM is seated all the way down.
Also, what model power supply are you using?
I've tried all of the above. Resetting my motherboard, reseating my video card and ram. The strange thing about this is that my computer worked just fine last night. It's just sometimes (and usually in the morning :|) that it doesn't boot the first time. this morning it did it twice in a row. And after waiting for it, I decided to cut the power in the back and try again. So I did that and now it's just restarting after it starts.
I have a rosewill 550w PSU.
I had sorta the same problem with my Asus A8N-VM CSM motherboard. To fix it, I had to update the bios, then turn off Cool 'n Quiet as well as QFan. Seems the CPU fan was spinning too slow to register because the CPU wasnt warm/hot and the system thought it was a fan failure and would reboot or shutdown (or sometimes not even post) on me on a cold boot.
Does a CMOS reset do anything at this point? If so you can try BIOS updtae and\or adjustments suggested.
If not I guess you better check the PSU and then assume a bad mobo.
My p5b deluxe sometimes fails to POST too. Not sure what causes it but thankfully it's very occasional and a cold boot usually fixes it on the first try.
Maybe try booting with 1 stick of RAM. Just a hope.
I replaced the power supply with an Antec 550w... no good. So then I did a bunch of motherboard resets and stuff.
I now seem to have it back up and running. How would I know if the mobo is dead? It's working now... is that a good sign or indeterminable?
Make sure that you don't have any screws floating around in your case. Also, make sure that your power connections to your motherboard and GPU are correct.
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I can't stand it when a customer comes up to my counter and is talking on the phone, especially when they're using a Bluetooth headset and I have no idea at first if they're talking to me or the person on the phone. Other than the few people who just come up to the counter to buy an item or two, most of my interaction with customers involves either taking their order or bringing their order to them. When I first started, more than once I had tried to take an order while the customer was on the phone and details were left out, and when the order was picked up guess who get's blamed for it?
If I come up to a customer at the counter on the phone, I'll let them know I'll wait for them to be off before we engage. There's just too much involved to deal with someone with divided attention...not to mention its just really rude. The same goes for people answering a call mid-transaction just to have a 5 minute conversation about where they are and why they can't talk right now. Last time I checked, that's what voicemail is for.
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Fourth-year medical student James Stillman knew firsthand that life was lonely at the top. His privileged, isolated upbringing left him unable to build lasting relationships--professional or personal. Until he met a sexy, independent redhead who brought him back down to earth!
Just when children's-party planner Shannon Gambill got her life in order, a handsome stranger strode into it and stirred something that could lead only to chaos. How could she possibly resist the gifted doctor who had saved her nephew's life... and set her heart ablaze with one smoldering look? A take-charge, dominating man was the last thing she wanted. Yet the considerate, passionate man lurking beneath James's hard exterior might be just what she needed....
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Excerpt from Prognosis by Gina Wilkins
"Aunt Shannon, watch me!"
"Aunt Shannon, catch!"
"Aunt Shannon, I'm swimming. See?"
"Aunt Shannon, Aunt Shannon!"
The woman who was obviously "Aunt Shannon" laughed as she turned from one side to another in the hip-deep water of the lake, trying to respond to the half dozen children competing for her attention. From his lounge chair in a shady spot on the beach nearby, James Stillman watched her in fascination.
Somewhere in her mid- to late-twenties, she wasn't exactly beautiful, though he found the expressive face framed by a mop of red curls to be very intriguing. She looked a little familiar, but he couldn't remember ever meeting her before-- and he couldn't imagine that he would have forgotten if he had.
Her slender body was nicely displayed in a bright yellow bikini that bared just the right amount of fair skin to be neither too modest nor too brazen. He hoped she was wearing sunscreen. Though it was late afternoon and the most dangerous UV rays were beginning to fade, it was still sunny enough to cause a burn if she wasn't careful.
Or was that just the scientist in him fretting? He'd been accused many times of being too serious about everything.
He watched as the woman picked up a little boy and tossed him a few feet away into the water. The boy, who might have been three or four, bobbed to the surface sputtering with giggles. He begged, "Do it again, Aunt Shannon!"
"No, me. Me," a little girl of perhaps five insisted. Splashing from within the confines of a snug yellow-and-orange life vest, she dog-paddled ahead of him. "Throw me, Aunt Shannon."
A brunette woman, lounging on a towel not far from where James sat, looked in that direction momentarily taking her attention from the thick paperback in her hands. A ginger-haired man dozed beside her. "Jack. Caitlin. Settle down," she called out, then returned her gaze to her book.
Her words had no visible effect on the children, who continued begging their aunt to play with them. Another boy, maybe seven or eight, floated on a neon-blue air mattress a few feet deeper in the water. He splashed his arms vigorously to propel the mattress forward, calling for Shannon to admire his navigational skills.
A girl who appeared to be about the same age as the boy on the raft tossed a purple beach ball into the waves, then swam to retrieve it. Occasionally she threw it at Shannon, who caught it deftly and lobbed it back. Two other girls, obviously twins, whom James estimated to be about ten years old, played nearby, vying to see who could float the longest without dropping her legs. They called out regularly for Shannon to determine the winner.
All of the children surrounding her had some shade of red hair, he noted. There were a few other families playing in the designated swimming area of the popular central Arkansas lake, but they were farther down the beach, giving Shannon and her boisterous nieces and nephews plenty of room to frolic. Brightly colored buoys strung together with yellow cording marked off the generous swimming area, protecting it from the ski boats and fishing boats skimming past on the lake and leaving behind waves to delight the swimmers.
From somewhere behind James, another red-haired woman who resembled Shannon enough that she had to be an older sister, wandered up with a ginger-haired toddler on her hip. The woman wore a modest, one-piece black swimsuit; the baby sported a swim diaper. She set him down and let him splash in the shallow water lapping at the hauled-in sand that made up the beach area. "Kyle, don't go too far out," she called to the boy on the float.
He waved impatiently at her and paddled harder while she turned her attention back to the baby.
Resting his head against the collapsible lounge chair he'd brought with him, James shifted his dark glasses on his nose and crossed his legs at the ankles. He wore navy swim trunks and a thin, pale gray T-shirt. His beach sandals sat on the brown sand beside the chair and a warm breeze tickled his bare feet. Considering it was an August Saturday afternoon, the heat wasn't too bad here by the waters of Greers Ferry Lake. He'd already had a long swim along the buoy line and had spent the past two hours resting, sipping bottled water and reading, though he'd brought a medical textbook rather than the usual beach read.
It had been pure impulse that made him toss the chair and a cooler of bottled water and sandwiches into his car and make the hour-long drive from his condo to the lake. A free Saturday was so rare in his schedule these days that he'd figured he had to do something to celebrate. He could have invited some of his friends to come with him, but he figured they were all busy on such short notice. His only friends these days were fellow medical students--specifically, the four other members of the study group he'd joined three years earlier.
He knew Anne's husband was in town and, since Liam traveled extensively, they would want to spend every spare minute together. Connor spent free weekends with his wife and almost-nine-year-old daughter. Newlyweds Haley and Ron were busily looking into residency programs in places that interested them both. Between those commitments and their hectic schedules as fourth-year medical students, none of them had much spare time. They were rarely able to take off on impulse.
He'd awakened that morning with a restless desire to get outside the confines of the hospital and his condo. The lake had been the first destination to pop into his head. He'd attended a class barbecue here in July, and he'd had such a nice time he decided to recapture the lazy good mood that day had inspired.
He quickly discovered it wasn't quite the same being here by himself. He'd had a pleasant day, but when he'd realized he was surrounded by families and groups of teenagers, he had become aware of his solitude. He was well accustomed to spending time alone and was content with his own company for the most part, but he supposed he'd become a bit spoiled by belonging to a tightly-knit group for the past three years-- the first time in his almost thirty years he'd felt that close to anyone.
Maybe that was part of the reason he'd been so entertained watching the attractive Shannon and her family. Safely camouflaged behind the lenses of his dark glasses in his shady nook, he'd watched them play since they'd descended on the beach almost an hour earlier. At first he thought she might be the mother of some of the redheaded kids, but he'd since decided none of them were hers.
"Hey, Karen," she called to the woman with the book. "Tell my lazy brother to wake up and come play with us. Come on, Stu, get in the water."
The man dozing on the towel grumbled.
"Come swim with us, Daddy," the little boy Shannon had been tossing called out.
Stu sat up with exaggerated reluctance, stretching and yawn ing. At the water's edge, the toddler tripped and fell face-first into the wet sand, resulting in a wail that got everyone's attention. His mother righted him quickly, dusting off his chubby little legs and splashing water to divert him from his cries. "He's okay. Just startled him," she said.
Reassured, the others again started badgering Stu to join them in the water, everyone looking his way and laughing now.
James glanced idly past Shannon. Out by the buoys in the deeper water, the blue air mattress bobbed on the wake of a passing ski boat. Just as he straightened in his chair to look more closely, he saw a small red head emerge beside the floating mattress, then go beneath the water again, one hand flailing above the surface.
Tossing his sunglasses aside, he leaped from his chair. Dashing past the startled mother and toddler, he dived into the water just beyond where Shannon stood, striking out for the mattress with long, distance-eating strokes. He'd been out there earlier and he knew the water was a good twelve feet deep at the buoy line.
He heard someone scream behind him. Heard a woman yell, "Kyle!" Heard a splash and sensed someone following him through the choppy water, but his focus was on the empty float and the spot where he'd last seen the boy.
Drawing a deep breath, he ducked beneath the surface, peering into the sediment-filled lake water and seeing nothing. He came back up for a quick gulp of air, then went back under, swinging his arms wide in hope of finding...
There. His fingers closed around wet skin. A flailing leg caught him in the stomach hard enough to make bubbles escape his mouth. Ignoring the pain, he grabbed hold of hair and skin and kicked upward, hauling the boy with him.
He gasped for air. Then released his breath in a sigh of relief when he heard the child in his grasp coughing and sputtering.
"Kyle!" Shannon swam up to them, her expression horrified. "Are you all right?"
The boy was trying not to cry, but not succeeding very well. "I fell off the float," he said, his words broken by racking coughs as James supported him. "I swallowed some water and I choked and I couldn't start swimming."
"Let's get him on the float and tow him in," James suggested, his arms still wrapped around the boy's chest as he treaded water for both of them.
Shannon nodded and looked toward the bank. "He's okay," she shouted toward the crowd that had gathered to watch anxiously from the beach. "We're bringing him in."
Bobbing in the water, she grabbed one end of the rubber float. "I'll steady this while you get him on it."
James nodded and looked at the boy, who had almost stopped coughing but began to look a little ill. "You'll be fine, Kyle," he assured him. "I'm going to hoist you onto your mattress, okay? Can you help steady yourself?"
Kyle nodded weakly. "I can swim," he muttered, clinging to what little pride he had left. "I just choked on some water."
"That happens sometimes," James replied matter-of-factly. "Okay, on three. One, two, three."
With the final count, he lifted the kid up and onto the mattress. While Shannon kept the float from tilting, Kyle< grabbed the edges to keep his balance until it stopped rocking. Confident the boy wouldn't fall off again, James took hold of the rope attached to the top and struck out for the shore with Shannon swimming steadily on the other side of the mattress.
Leaving all the other kids on the shore, herded over by the woman who'd been reading earlier, Stu waded out to meet them as soon as their feet touched solid ground. Well, James's feet touched. Being several inches shorter, Shannon had to swim a little farther before she could stand.
"You okay, Kyle?" Stu asked the boy.
"I'm okay, Uncle Stu," Kyle murmured, looking both weary and mortified.
The mother of the toddler thrust her youngest child into the other woman's arms and dashed out to knee-deep water to clutch Kyle as Stu lifted him off the mattress. "You're okay, baby? You're sure you're okay?" she asked, patting him down as though looking for injuries.
"I'm okay," Kyle repeated, squirming. "Geez, Mom, don't call me 'baby' in front of everyone."
Now that her fears were somewhat relieved, fear turned to anger. "I told you not to go out that far. What were you thinking?" she scolded.
The boy's pouting lips were turning blue and he was beginning to shiver as his own emotional reactions flooded through him.
"You should probably get him out of the water and wrap him in a towel," James advised. "Don't want him to go into shock."
The calm advice brought everyone out of their panic-driven paralysis. Stu carried the boy to shore, where his mother grabbed a large, thick beach towel imprinted with cartoon superheroes and wrapped him snugly inside it. The non-related bystanders who'd gathered to gawk wandered back to their own pursuits, leaving the family gathered around Kyle.
"Kyle drownded," one of the younger kids said in awe.
"He didn't drown," Shannon said firmly. "He just came much too close."
Turning to James then, she gazed up at him with liquid green eyes. "I don't want to think about what might have happened if you hadn't been here. We thought we were watching them all so carefully."
The faint tug of familiarity nagged him again. Had he seen her somewhere before? She gave no sign of recognizing him.
"It's easy for kids to slip under the radar," he replied, thinking of the cases he'd seen in the emergency room when he'd done his pediatrics rotation last year. Many of the children brought in there had been injured when their adult supervisors had turned their backs only for a few moments.
Scooping her wet red hair away from her face, she grimaced. "We weren't careful enough," she said in self-recrimination. "Kyle really does swim well, and I guess we--I--thought he was okay on his float. I didn't realize he'd drifted so far out, or that he would fall off and be too startled to remember his swim training."
Drawing a deep, unsteady breath, she stuck out her dripping right hand. "I'm Shannon Gambill. Thank you for saving my nephew."
He wrapped his fingers around her hand. The feel of wet skin to wet skin was as pleasurable as it was somewhat unsettling. "James Stillman. It's nice to meet you, Shannon."
Shannon had been aware of the man watching her while she'd played with her nieces and nephews. Not in a creepy sort of way--and she had well-developed creep-dar. He looked like a man who was using a day off to do some rather heavy reading, judging from the size of the book he'd perused. Maybe just escaping from drudgery for a few hours. She liked to go off on her own sometimes to recharge her batteries and think in blessed solitude. She'd assumed he was doing something similar since he didn't seem to be accompanied by anyone.
Her older sister, Stacy, finally stopped hovering over Kyle to thank his rescuer. With typical exuberance, she threw her arms around James's middle, saying, "Thank you so much for saving my son. You're a true hero."
Shannon was rather amused by the "hero's" dumbstruck expression. It was obvious he wasn't accustomed to being embraced by tearful strangers. Somewhat awkwardly, he patted Stacy's shoulder, then carefully disentangled himself.
"Anyone would have done the same," he assured her in a self-conscious mumble. "I just happened to notice the boy was in trouble." | https://ebookstore.sony.com/ebook/gina-wilkins/prognosis/_/R-400000000000000271345 | dclm-gs1-009020001 |
0.126217 | <urn:uuid:e3bba6a9-df3f-431a-a3da-c22c283bf89b> | en | 0.996618 | Tony sighed, it had been months since she had died upon that roof top and now...well now didn't matter. His hands moved over the lettering of her tombstone, he had always known she was out of his league but he never expected to lose her so soon. He sighed, his hands smoothing over his face before he collapsed to his knees. He remembered it like yesterday, the day that she left the world his world for the last time.
'We were laughing, McGee was in trouble but we were laughing. And then...all I remember is having my face smacked with warm liquid. It never registered what had happened until Gibbs shot blindly. That's when the reality of you being gone hit me, and I collapsed like I just did. Though it was to hold you one last time, the first real time I guess you could say. You were gone, but your eyes...they were open and glazed. It was almost like there was someplace you needed to be but you couldn't get there, I guess that place was the end of your life. Not the one Ari made, but the one that you were to make for yourself.
You know, McGee says that you thought it was coming? He said that you were talking about putting our lives on the line, Kate why? Did you have to be so protective of us? We were a team before you died, but you are gone and we are nothing anymore. Gibbs rarely comes to work, but then again he resigned after you died. Probie, he doesn't talk usually secluded in a computer room or something. And Abbs, my god Kate...she doesn't wear goth anymore. It's like when you died part of her died too. Then again you had that effect on alot of people, I mean after all it was you that brought light back into the life of so many people on this team.
You brought the life back into my life Kate, you and you alone gave me something to look forward to in the future. I mean Katie, you were the ideal woman. The day I met you, you know what I thought? Man, she is brillant and you know what? I want to marry someone just like her. Funny thing is, I didn't want a copy Kate. I wanted you in all your playful glory. Now look at you...six feet under and you never even got to hold a child.
God Kate, he stole so much from you. Your birthdays, your family, your anniversaries, and your wedding. You'll never get that back, and now, now I realize how much you meant to me. Kate you were my life, and I never knew it. It was you that brought me to work each day and you that helped me get through some of the toughest times I've ever had as an agent. I mean when I was lost in the field I felt you trying to guide me home, that time with the bees you were there for me, and the plague...Kate I could never tell you what you did for me. But you were the one that saved me, it wasn't Gibbs and it wasn't the strength of my body. It was the knowledge that you would risk your life to comfort me in my last hours.
I guess that's what hurts the most, me knowing that I wasn't able to do the same for you in your final hours. Knowing that you died in the most lonely of ways. At least you didn't suffer, that much I can say. But when you took that shot for Gibbs, Katie I wanted to die for you then. I thought you had left me, and then you really did and I'm hollow I can't go on like this Kate.
Your loss, it was the one thing that could break me. You once asked me what I was afraid of, you know what the answer was? Losing my team, and what happened? I lost my team and I lost the woman of my life. Of course you never knew it, and I wished you had afterwards. But you know what? If you had known, it would have made the pain worse. I never would have gotten over you, well I never would have let go anyway.
Kate you were my smile, my happiness, my motivation, and now you are my conscious. You had even become the voice in my head for better or worse, and that's all gone. And so is my spirit, my will to live, my heart. It's over Kate, there is nothing left for me in this world any more.'
His hands fell down to the gun at his waist, he couldn't take this pain any more. Couldn't handle this loss, not now not ever. He raised the gun, placed it to his temple and his eyes slid closed. It was time, and he knew it. He had had a good life, but this was the end he wanted.
The sound was muffled against his skull as his body was thrown to the side, Tony was gone in an instant. Just like that one light was dimmed for another's loss. | https://www.fanfiction.net/s/2409587/1/This-Train-Don-t-Stop | dclm-gs1-009130001 |
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This is set directly after the episode Go! I'm aware it's unlikely, but it was fun to write.
-Brooke Foss Westcott
001. Refuge
She didn't think she'd ever know why she did it.
But, well, she knew Starfire had no place to stay. She also knew the alien was likely following Robin already. Cyborg could take care of himself, obviously. It was clear the little shapeshifter hadn't wanted Cyborg to leave. She didn't know how, but she had ended up going out for pizza with Cyborg and Beast Boy after Robin and Starfire had left. She had split the cost with Cyborg, and if anyone asked, she was merely concerned that Beast Boy was in Jump City with no money. That was all it was.
No money, and no place to stay, she realized as she followed him to the park. He waited until no one was looking, then jumped into a tree and transformed into a squirrel mid-jump and darted into a hole in the trunk. She could see a green bushy tail flick out.
Sighing, she settled at the foot of the trunk and began meditating. When it began to rain, she flicked up a shield of dark energy and continued. She meditated well into the evening and by the time she came out of her trance the park was empty. Well, almost empty.
"Beast Boy," she said quietly, not moving from her lotus position, "shouldn't you have gone home by now?"
He scurried down beside her and resolved into human form, settling back on his haunches and looking at her. "I could ask you the same question. Although, I wouldn't be surprised if you lived out here in the dark with the bats." His voice strained slightly. She opened one eye and looked at him.
"I live nearby," she said calmly. "Your turn."
"Ah…." He rubbed the back of his head nervously. "I kinda….came here with no money….so, yeah. No one objects to another coupla animals in the park, yeah? Even if they are green." He laughed weakly. Raven dropped all pretense of not paying attention and turned to fully face him.
"How long have you been living in the park?" she asked him sternly.
He dropped his gaze and wouldn't look at her, drawing his arms around his knees and rubbing the fabric slightly. He mumbled something she couldn't make out. She stared at him and he winced before repeating, louder, "..A few…m-months…"
Raven did not reply this time. After several minutes of awkward silence, she stood and began walking away. Beast Boy felt his heart sink and curled in on himself a little more.
He heard Raven stop, a few feet away, and turn back towards him.
"Are you coming?"
He scrambled to his feet and followed her.
Raven unlocked the door to her apartment and wasted several minutes waiting for the shapeshifter to enter first. When she glanced back at him, annoyed, she realized he was busy waiting for her. Sighing, she stepped in and he followed slowly. She locked the door with a tiny flare of her aura before looking at him again. He was staring around the room, expression caught somewhere between surprise and fear.
"You look like you've never been indoors before."
The dry comment snapped him out of it. He swallowed once and smiled, but it was the smile he'd had when he was trying to talk Cyborg into hanging out with him before the aliens attacked- weak, trying, not quite a true smile. "It's been a while."
Raven studied him as he edged further into the room. He was drenched and shivering, eyes wide and ears back, and she felt a sharp stab of pity as his gaze darted around the room. As near as she could tell, he was marking any possible exits, which was exactly what she would have done in his place.
Not that I'd ever be in his place. Raven had the sense to arrive in Jump with enough money to hold her until she could find a job. She hadn't found one yet, but neither was she anywhere near running out of money.
"That," she said, pointing to a doorway across from where they stood, "is my room. You don't go in there, ever, period. Over there," she pointed again, "kitchen. If you can clean it you can use it, if you can cook it you can eat it, it wouldn't be a good idea to rely on me for food."
He didn't reply and she moved further into the apartment, opening the closet and tossing him a towel. "Bathroom's through there, go shower and I'll find some sheets or blankets."
By the time she turned back, he was gone and she could hear the shower starting. If he'd really been living in the park for the past few months he probably was pretty eager to have a shower.
…She hoped.
When Beast Boy got out of the shower- quite some time later, since he'd been reveling in the feeling of hot water- Raven was nowhere to be seen. There was, however, a deep violet blanket folded neatly on the couch with a matching pillow stacked on top of it. He'd shrugged back into his Doom Patrol uniform since he had nothing else to wear. It was dirty, but he'd usually shifted into an animal form in the park, so it wasn't too bad. At least it had mostly dried off now. He tugged the blanket over the couch and curled up under it, sighing in bliss- warm and dry and comfortable, with something soft to sleep on.
Raven stayed up later than usual, uneasy about having someone else in her living space. To say she was territorial would have been an understatement- her space was her space, end of conversation.
It was just for the night, she assured herself, going into the kitchen for a cup of tea. She glanced at her couch as she passed it. The changeling was curled up beneath the blanket with his arms wrapped around the pillow, only his head visible. He was still very deeply asleep. She guessed sleeping in the park hadn't been terribly restful, especially if he'd usually shifted into something like a squirrel that had natural predators to watch out for.
Thunder burst outside and Raven instinctively glanced at the window. Beast Boy ducked the rest of the way under the blanket without waking up.
He's just here to wait out the storm, she told herself. In the morning he'll find somewhere else to stay.
He was sick, as it turned out. He woke up at midday with a coughing fit that caused him to fall off the couch. Staying through the storm became staying until he was better, and one night became three days. Three days became a week. A week became two weeks. He'd long since recovered by then, but she never quite seemed to get around to kicking him out. She went out one day and came back with a set of clothes in his size, handing them to him without saying anything. They fought with the thermostat constantly- she liked the cold, he liked heat. They fought over meals, though not as much, since she ate whatever was easy to make and drank a lot of herbal tea and he ate all her fruits and vegetables. Their sleeping patterns clashed. He was semi-nocturnal and not very good at staying quiet, and the noise from the old half-broken television she kept and he insisted on trying to use kept her up at night. They fought over everything, really.
But he continued to sleep on her couch, and she could feel the nervous hesitation in him each argument. This had become his sanctuary and he really didn't want to give it up, but it was her home and she was well within her rights to kick him out. She held back in each argument to keep her powers in check. Occasionally they would get a call on their communicators from Robin, asking for their help in a bank robbery or a bomb threat or in catching a villain.
Beast Boy's 'one night' was approaching a month when they got the call. Between the two of them, Robin and Cyborg had somehow gotten permission to build on the island, using the fallen spaceship as their framework. The two of them and Starfire would be moving in as soon as possible, and would they like to come too?
The calls were separate, the others never having realized Beast Boy was staying with Raven, and the answers were separate but they were the same.
Raven asked Cyborg to see the blueprints early on. She changed them so that her room was next to Beast Boy's. If he noticed, he didn't comment.
She would never admit it, but it had become easier to sleep when she could hear him in the next room.
GuardianSaiyoko: Whitewater is a collection of short stories written whenever I've hit a difficult spot in One Which Makes the Heart Run Over. The name is because I've been whitewater rafting twice in my life. The first time was a awesome experience, the second time...when the guide says "wanna swim in the rapids?", "I'm all for it" is not the appropriate answer. I may have had a slight near-death experience that time, but it was still incredibly fun.
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. >> and there is federal agents monitoring occupy pro testors turned out to be true. fbi released some records of surveillance so far from all of them. there is where we are live with more on this for us. >> this coming monday, basically marks a one-year anniversary of the first occupy encampment in new york city. and the occupy oakland group turned into one of the most-active in the country. aclu says they received documents confirming lots of people expected the federal government has been keeping an eye on occupy. >> newly lace laid sod being tended to. since demonstrators were evicted. a group of artists filling in a illustration commemorating one-year anniversary of the occupy movement. since it began, aclu has been concerned with how the fbi monitored occupy. >> there is an initial set of documents and gave us a whopping 13 page autos according to the page that's were released, fbi mostly concerned with mass demonstrations targeting port of oakland and oakland international airport. >> this is understandable law enforcement wants to be aware of planned civil disobedience. >> fbi not rele
at the scene. some officials have made arrests. the fbi begins the investigation by interviewing 30 american survivors now at u.s. military base in germany. the attacker struck at 10:00 p.m. local time to stay within 15 minutes inside the compound firing on main building. the ambassador christopher stephens and the information manager sean smith and a security officer began destroying classified documents smoke and flames from a grenade exploded on the roof drove the security officer from the building, he went back into fine stevens and smith. >>> when he got to sean smith he was dead he pulled him from the building he went back and with additional security forces but unable to locate a ambassador stevens before the fire overcame the building. >>> the battle shifted to an annex to other americans were killed apparently outnumbered and outgunned by their attackers. >>> at the remains of the ambassador stevens and three american scheduled to come home tomorrow. elizabeth cook cbs 5 >>> the a media camps outside of the southern california house where the film maker is believed to live there wa
the fbi has a team on the ground in libya to identify suspects, gather evidence and assess whether a prosecution is possible. as fox news was first to report the targeted killing of ambassador coordinated and may be linked to a group called lifg or the libyan fighting islamic group. it was banned by the former dictator muammar qaddafi because of its support for al qaeda. the head of the house intelligence committee is one of few members of congress fully briefed on the attacks and the investigation. >> even though we can't say for sure this was an al qaeda event yet it certainly fits the profile, it fits the signature, the precision, the way that they carried out this particular attack, certainly would make it likely that it is an al qaeda affiliated organization. >> reporter: this morning the libyan foreign ministry saying that they believe a group called ansar al sharia was involved. they support the extremist goal of imposing strict sharia law in that country. jenna: ongoinging investigation as we learn more about libya. what about cairo? what are we learning about the investiga
of treating it like it's a "law & order" issue, rather than a war on terrorism. they have sent the f.b.i. over who had to cool their heels for days before they could even get in there, and i don't know if they are in benghazi yet. but, you know, i heard yesterday about this journal that was found by -- of the ambassador, three days after the attack by a journalist walking through the compound. this is just lew ludicrous. on the face of it the way they are handling this is so incompetent, and treating it again like it's a "law & order" issue, they've sent the f.b.i. to investigate, like when they find out what is wrong are they going to try to arrest somebody in libya? bill: we'll be in touch with your office and find out what you find out. thank you for your time. i want to bring in senior brooks, a senior fellow for national security affairs. peter what is going on here. >> i have the same concerns that the chairman has, he just expressed, and he's probably better informed than i am. we see all of these loose treads on this narrative coming out of the white house. my sense at this point becau
of ambassador ryan's approach as sparked as the video was hijacked by clusters of extremists, so, the fbi now still trying to sort it out, harris? >> steve centanni, thank you very much. as you heard steve saying, turmoil and the american protests in economies across the mud limb world. now, a dire new warning and stand off with iran and the nuclear program. as we told you at the top of the hour, the israeli prime minister benjamin netanyahu says that iran may be only six months away to a full-fledged weapon. and john bolton, and also an advisor to governor mitt romney. ambassador, thank you for joining us tonight. >> glad to do it. >> harris: my tirs question has to do with where we are at this point. are we at a continuing point? is it a us against them all over the arab world? are we there. >> i don't particularly believe in tipping points. i think things come and go, but i don't think that anybody should misunderstand what motivated the riots and terrorist attacks against our ambassador to libya, is a religious ideology, that is making political extremes. and it's an easy logical jump fro
. teachers are being told to return to work tomorrow to prepare their classrooms. >>> also in chicago, fbi agents stop an alleged terror attack in the windy city. 18-year-old adele darud was arrested after he tried to detonate what he thought was a car bomb outside a downtown chicago bar. it was part of an undercover operation where agents pretended to be terrorists and gave him a fake car bomb. the feds say they have been monitoring darud since may after he posted material online in may about killing americans. >>> first a french magazine, now a newspaper in ireland is publishing topless photos of the dutches of cambridge. they were taken when princess kate and prince william were sunbathing in france. despite the threat of legal action, a newspaper in italy is also publishing the pictures. >>> around the world, targeting americans continue. while there have been dozens of demonstrators -- why this is all happening, coming up next. . >>> we continue to follow the protests against the united states in the wake of that antimuslim film. take a look at this ma
that interview. told police he would not return to his home many california. you can see it here. the fbi has been investigating threats against nikoula. >>> in syria the new international an voi says he has no plan for peace, but says both the opposition and the government must work together. meanwhile, government troops pounded the opposition in allepo. leaders say that more than 160 people died across the country yesterday. while his forces launch more attacks, syrian president assad says he is committed to peace and is blaming outside forces for arming the anti-government fighters. >>> back here at home the nation's third largest school district could be up and running again soon. teachers in chicago set to vote today on whether to end a week-long strike. the union has reached a tentative agreement with the school board, but it's not a done deal yet. reverend jesse jackson stepped in to show his support for chicago teachers during a rally yesterday. >> this is not just a -- this is a struggle for working people everywhere. >> if all goes well today, students could return to classes tomorr
they are trying to do is hide behind the fact of an fbi investigation that's pending in libya. which i find ridiculous. the idea that the administration has returned to terrorism as a criminal law matter rather than as a continuing war is extraordinarily disturbing. >> i am even surprised at the discussion. why in the world did anyone need a warning? i've traveled to some of the dangerous places around the country. i haven't been to libya, but i would suspect that place would look pretty dangerous to me. they have a grand new government, lots of factions, you have people fighting each other, fighting the old administration. why would you even need a warning that we really have to have lots of security for our people? >> we were obviously caught by surprise both in libya and in egypt. different situations but caught by surprise in both cases which means only one of two things. either there's a massive intelligence failure not to see this coming, or the administration believes that things were so benign, that the environment was so calm they didn't have to worry about it. wrong in both cases.
yesterday. accused of trying to blow up a bar in downtown chicago with a fake bomb as part of an fbi sting. prosecutors claim he told an undercover agent he wanted to mount an attack because the u.s. was at war with islam and muslims. >>> also from chicago, new evidence the anger that pilots are expressing against american airlines. they called this their informational picketing at o'hare airport. facing labor unrest, in flight cancellations and scheduling problems. as jim avila reports, things are so tense, couple flight attendants got personal in front of the passengers. >> reporter: more american airlines delays but noth like four hours passengers suffered through when flight attendants are gaud about a cell phone. one taking to the pa and ordering all cell phones off saying according to reports, including the other flight attendant. the dispute forced the captain to turn back from the jfk run way and change crews. american's fight is all labor related, delaying nearly 40% of theairline's flights. most forced late or canceled by an unprecedented and very significant increase in maintena
to libya and three others? >> yeah. it's difficult to say because the fbi is over there. but it's hard to carry out an investigation on the ground right now. that is such a -- libya itself is confusing. that benghazi area is one of the most confusing of all. it's an al qaeda stronghold out there. there's also al sharia which is basically a conglomeration of jihadist paramilitaries. i can't tell you with any real certainty how accurate these investigations are. a lot of people have been picked up by the libyan authorities. how guilty they really are, i don't know. we're still in the fog of war. we're in an area where we don't have that many assets on the ground. we have a libyan government which i think actually to give them credit, i think the libyan government itself is trying to work with us. unlike president morsi in egypt, libyans are trying. but it's a very new government. it's ineffective government. out in benghazi there's virtually no security. we're talking about a consulate which had, again, virtually no security. there were no military back-ups for our ambassador out there.
yesterday. the f.b.i. is in libya assisting local authorities investigating what happened at that consulate and they're searching for those responsible. in indonesia and pakistan, protesters clashing with police, and elsewhere after friday prayers. muslim leaders called for calm, but the flag burning and anti-american chants continue. protesters set fire to two movie theaters and a toll booth. police responding with tear gas and batons and the security has been beefed up at embassies across the region with more -- the possibility of more protests ahead. guys. >> gretchen: rick leventhal live in jerusalem, thank you. >> eric: let me point something out. a lot of the reason why it was the movie and it has been the movie is because a couple of weeks ago at the dnc, at the convention down there, joe biden said it, i'm not sure if president obama said it or not, but it was you ared quite a few times, osama bin laden is dead and gm is alive. a lot of this protest is at least what we're reading, is in response to the victory lap that the administration is taking for killing bin laden. so if you at
to some to be offensive to islam. >> there is a late word that the fbi will be getting involved in this investigation. for the >>george: it has been nearly two hours since we have had lanes blocked on to lead the northbound at geneva for an accident that damaged a tree. a big rig and another vehicle collided. heading up the hill from manor drive we're still getting reports of slower than usual traffic on highway one northbound. 3d is not much of an alternate. >>erica: a lot of people are skeptical about the pretty pleasant conditions we are anticipating they did this afternoon. we had a lot of cloud cover to contend with. >> we are starting to see sunshine and temperatures are slowly but shortly starting to climb. into the afternoon, sunny skies will prevail. mostly clear conditions as a head into the evening hours. the conditions will be even warmer as the head into tomorrow. >>darya: will tran is live outside of the event. >>will: use in see the people behind me, you would think it is the world premiere of star wars. people are walking by and taking pictures. there is spe
. the aclu wants access to more documents but the fbi is refusing to release them fighting security concerns. >>> 8:50. twitter expected to obey a court order today to turn over tweets from an occupy wall street protester to a judge in new york. now that protesters was among hundreds arrested -- arrested at the brooklyn bridge. twitter has been fighting the subpoena for those tweets. prosecutors in man hat -- manhattan dispute claims that police lead the demonstrators on the bridge's roadway just to arrest them for blocking traffic. >>> nine minutes -- nine minutes before 9:00. it's a situation we've been following since 4:30. it's an overnight crash that has caused a lot of problems. we'll have a lot live -- we'll have ha live update. we're looking outside the window. look at the traffic. tal will take one final look at the bay bridge traffic. >>> 33,000 pipe in 17 villages are being told. >>> an overnight crash in hayward knocked out power. there are -- around 1:00 this morning, a car knocked out a power pole on campus drive. tara moriarty has been there since 4:30 this morning. >> reporte
on the information that we have had available. there is an ongoing investigation. the fbi is investigating and that investigation will follow the facts wherever they lead. bill: kt mcfarland, fox news national security analyst, stephen hayes, weekly writer for "the weekly standard", fox news contributor. >> good morning bill, we talked about this on monday. kt is there a crack in the story we're seeing? >> yeah, sure is. why are they doing it? i think they're haunted by the image of jimmy carter losing the presidential election in 1980 because of hostages in the middle east. the situation is very similar today. the economy is lousy. high oil prices. crisis in the middle east. so they do not want to be compared to that. i also think that they're sticking to kind of cockamamie story that it was spontaneous because of a dumb movie because it absolves them of responsibility. >> how so? >> i think there will be more incidents going forward. can you imagine where we would be instead of assassinating those four diplomats turns out there was a al qaeda hostage taking event where four american dipl
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of republicans don't like him. don't take my word for it. that's what john mccain said on thursday, saying there's a lot of ill-will over republicans over hagel's criticism of president bush and iraq and the surge and all the rest. and as a result they're jamming them up. i don't think it ultimately keeps him from being defense secretary. but it does weaken him, as well as his own performance at his confirmation hearing, which left a lot of people disappointed as well. >> and there is some discussion that this delay might allow his opponents to have more ammunition against him. any reason to be concerned on that level? >> it's a question i will ask the president's chief of staff on the program. there are speeches some republicans did not have access to they think may certain points of view about israel damaging to hagel's chances. the view inside the white house is these are just other attempts to move the goalpost and delay him when there's recognition that he will ultimately be confirmed. >> republicans are looking a lot their image right now. are there some republicans questioning the wisdom
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Sridhar Acharya (c. 870, India – c. 930 India) was an Indian mathematician, Sanskrit pundit and philosopher. He was born in Bhurishresti (Bhurisristi or Bhurshut) village in South Radha (at present Hughli) in the 10th Century AD. His father's name was Baladev Acharya and mother's name was Acchoka. His father was also a Sanskrit pundit.
He was known for two treatises: Trisatika (sometimes called the Patiganitasara) and the Patiganita. His major work Patiganitasara was named Trisatika because it was written in three hundred slokas. The book discusses counting of numbers, measures, natural number, multiplication, division, zero, squares, cubes, fraction, rule of three, interest-calculation, joint business or partnership and mensuration.
• He gave an exposition on zero. He has written, "If 0(zero) is added to any number,the sum is the same number; If 0(zero) is subtracted from any number,the number remains unchanged; If 0(zero) is multiplied by any number,the product is 0(zero)". He has said nothing about division of any number by 0(zero).
• In the case of dividing a fraction he has found out the method of multiplying the fraction by the reciprocal of the divisor.
• He wrote on practical applications of algebra separated algebra from arithmetic
• He was one of the first to give a formula for solving quadratic equations.
• He found the formula :-
ax^2 + bx + c = 0
4a^2x^2 + 4abx + 4ac = 0 (Multiply by 4a)
Sridhara is now believed to have lived in the ninth and tenth centuries. However, there has been much dispute over his date and in different works the dates of the life of Sridhara have been placed from the seventh century to the eleventh century. The best present estimate is that he wrote around 900 AD, a date which is deduced from seeing which other pieces of mathematics he was familiar with and also seeing which later mathematicians were familiar with his work. Some historians give Bengal as the place of his birth while other historians believe that Sridhara was born in southern India.
Sridhara is known as the author of two mathematical treatises, namely the Trisatika (sometimes called the Patiganitasara ) and the Patiganita. However at least three other works have been attributed to him, namely the Bijaganita, Navasati, and Brhatpati. Information about these books was given the works of Bhaskara II (writing around 1150), Makkibhatta (writing in 1377), and Raghavabhatta (writing in 1493).
K.S. Shukla examined Sridhara's method for finding rational solutions of Nx^2 \pm\ 1 = y^2, 1 - Nx^2 = y^2, Nx^2 \pm\ C = y^2, C - Nx^2 = y^2which Sridhara gives in the Patiganita. Shukla states that the rules given there are different from those given by other Hindu mathematicians.
Sridhara was one of the first mathematicians to give a rule to solve a quadratic equation. Unfortunately, as indicated above, the original is lost and we have to rely on a quotation of Sridhara's rule from Bhaskara II:-
Multiply both sides of the equation by a known quantity equal to four times the coefficient of the square of the unknown; add to both sides a known quantity equal to the square of the coefficient of the unknown; then take the square root.
Proof of the Sridhar Acharya Formula,
let us consider,
ax^2 + bx + c = 0
• Multipling both sides by 4a,
4a^2x^2 + 4abx + 4ac = 0
• Substracting 4ac from both sides,
4a^2x^2 + 4abx = -4ac
• Then adding b^2 to both sides,
4a^2x^2 + 4abx + b^2= - 4ac + b^2
• We know that,
• Using it in the equation,
• Taking square roots,
• Hence, dividing by 2a get
x=\frac{-b\pm\sqrt{b^2-4ac\ }}{2a}.
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Because of this, when liberals don't feel that the political winds are blowing in their direction, not only will they generally avoid discussing the things they believe, they will typically deny that they believe them at all.
Additionally, liberals go to bizarre lengths to tilt the political playing field in their favor. They move into the mainstream media so that they can tip what are supposed to be "objective" news stories in their favor. They get into positions of power in our educational system so that they can teach kids liberal propaganda before they're old enough to know better. They uniformly support judges who care nothing about the Constitution as long as it moves liberal ideological goals forward. Even the Left's support of illegal immigration is rooted in the desire to bring in millions of poor people from socialist countries who are more likely to vote Democratic. If they can't convince the American voters they're right, then they'll just bring in some new voters.
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TOKYO (AP) - Japan's Fair Trade Commission raided offices of Intel Corp. on Thursday on suspicion the world's semiconductor leader pressured personal computer manufacturers to spurn competitors' products, a commission official said.
Fair trade authorities suspect that Intel improperly urged clients not to include central processing units - the key chips that do computers' thinking - manufactured by Advanced Micro Devices and other companies, said Masaru Matsuo, a manager at the Fair Trade Commission.
The raid covered three Intel locations across Japan, including the company's Tokyo headquarters, and comes exactly six weeks after the commission raided offices of Microsoft Corp. in a probe of alleged anti-competitive practices by the world's most powerful software company.
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I've always had a suspicion that Intel was almost as much of a monopolist as MS, they're just less obvious about it and have better commercials. Not proven guilty yet, I suppose, but serves 'em right.
Since when is it that Japan actually cracks down on corporate crime like this? Not only are they going after both MS and Intel, but they actually raided the offices! Go, you!
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Nonlinear quantization effects in the frequency domain complex scalar LMS adaptive algorithm are analyzed by using conditional expectations. The probability density function of the quantizer input, conditioned on the weight, is derived. The density is applied to finding the conditional characteristic function and the Mth conditional moment at the quantizer output. The first and second conditional moments of the quantizer output are used to derive difference equations that approximate the dynamical behavior of the first and second weight moments. These difference equations are solved numerically and compare favorably to simulation results. A model of the quantizer as an additive noise source is of no analytical value since the quantizatian noise has negligible effect on the mean square error when the model is valid. Finally, a design approach is proposed for selecting the number of bits in the weight accumulator. The moment equations are also used to determine the algorithm mean square error for different quantizer step sizes and the optimum algorithm step size μ when a fixed amount of input data is available for adaptation.
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The feasibility of implementing all-optically an ultrafast 4-bit parity generator and checker using the quantum-dot semiconductor optical amplifier (QD-SOA)-based Mach-Zehnder Interferometer (MZI) as XOR gate is theoretically investigated and demonstrated. The proposed circuit exploits an architecture where four XOR gates are concatenated in a modular manner. The first XOR gate drives the control input of the second one whose other control port receives the current bit of the word that undergoes parity processing. This interconnection is repeated up to the fourth XOR gate, on which an extra bit is applied. Depending on the binary value of this bit, the same circuit can operate both as parity generator and checker and support both even and odd parity. The performance of the scheme critically depends on the total amplitude modulation (AM) at its output. By conducting numerical simulation the impact of the key data signal and QD-SOAs parameters on this metric is evaluated. The outcome of this treatment allows to specify the permissible range of these parameters as well as an appropriate combination of them that renders the AM acceptable and ensures logically correct operation. The obtained results also demonstrate the ability of the QD-SOA-based MZI XOR gate to be cascaded and form more complex circuits of enhanced functionality. | http://link.springer.com/article/10.1007%2Fs10825-013-0463-x | dclm-gs1-009860001 |
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Re: OWL 2 DL restrictions: an issue
From: Bijan Parsia <[email protected]>
Date: Mon, 19 Nov 2012 10:36:07 +0000
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Where's the transitivity?
Consider the following interpretation of P
P : {<a, b>, <b,c>}
Given your range and domain restrictions we have:
A: {a, b...}
B: {b, c...}
But A and B are disjoint so this isn't a model.
I suppose this is vacuously transitive...since you can't have a chain, every chain has all the intermediate links. But then the empty property is also transitive, in this sense. Such transitivity is harmless since, e.g., it can't be used in grid construction. (It can't be used at all, really :)).
In a general way, the answer to your question is "sort of" and "that's the wrong way to think about it". The point of these restrictions is to enforce decidability of key inference services including entailment. If we had to perform entailment in order to check the conditions, we'd have a bit a problem, eh!
However, it is true that if we consider entailment of *OWL DL ontologies* then we are only considering entailments which adhere to the restrictions. But then we'd just not check that entailment. There could be entailments that follow (in first order logic) that are outside OWL DL (indeed, there always will be).
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Re: Reconsider SVG 1.2
From: Kurt Cagle <[email protected]>
Date: Wed, 17 Nov 2004 23:04:32 -0800
Message-ID: <[email protected]>
I'm in the midst of writing an editor using Firefox's XUL
implementation. Really very powerful, but yeah, its still definitely a
work in progress, so I understand about the crashes.
The flow model seems to be the central point of contention here, so
getting away from all the grand rhetoric (and cooling down a little
bit), I am trying to figure out why specifically there is such a strong
argument over the flow features. To summarise what I know, the CSS
model, if I read Ian Hixie's proposal correctly, assumes the notion of a
columnated container, though nothing in the specification specifically
addresses the question of overflow yet (given that this proposal is
still being written, I understand the rationale for this). I presume
that there is some provision in place for handling such features as
floats, multiple column sizes and so forth. The SVG model, on the other
hand, makes the correlation between a given bounding region and columnar
flow one to one - if you have need three columns of text, SVG 1.2
requires that you specifically declare three regions. Content within the
region, presumably within the <flowDiv> elements, could very well
consist of multiple flow elements - blocks and spans - that could
potentially be HTML, if ASV 6.0 is any indication of the behavior.
The CSS flow model presumably is strictly rectilinear. Floats complicate
the model somewhat because while the bounding space is still
rectilinear, it is no longer made up of uniform rectangles. This is much
the same problem that the XSL-FO implementers have had - the flow model
is fairly similar, and for all the work on FOP and even a couple of the
commercial FO implementations, floats are a fairly recent innovation at
The challenge with the SVG model comes from the fact that because it
utilizes a monocolumnar approach, the CSS flow namespace is meaningless
for a number of properties when applied to the SVG model. Because of
absolute positioning, you lose localization capabilities (you can't
switch from rt-lb to lt-rb, for instance), whereas the CSS flow model
would preserve this. There's also the issue of having tl-br text, such
as vertical Japanese kanji, entering into a very complex flow pattern in
SVG, whereas it should be properly preserved in CSS.
To me, the logical solution would be to apply CSS columnar attributes on
an SVG <flowDiv> element, so that you could define a specific region as
being made up of multiple columns that would fill according to the
relevant flow model for the type of text involved. Thus, rather than
having five SVG rects, each of which contains a single column and a
sixth SVG circle acting as an overflow, you'd have one SVG rect with
five columns defined within the <flowDiv> element and the circle staying
the overflow. This would give you the CSS property support/SVG attribute
support mix without seriously impeding on either model. You WOULD have
minor differences in implementation for knockouts and floats (a CSS
flow-region-exclude attribute would provides a space delimited list of
elements using selector notation and would echo the <flowRegionExclude>
element within SVG, for instance) but I tend to be a big fan of the
notion that you can maintain both a CSS and SVG notation of the same
underlying property. Finally behavior of excluded regions wrt bounding
rects vs. exterior paths would have to be determined - possibly a UA issue.
So is this where the underlying conflict lies? If this is specifically
what you are referring to when you talk about CSS vs. SVG flowText
issues, then I agree that the SVG specification needs to be extended to
accomodate the notion of multiple (presumably rectilinear) columns
within <flowDiv> regions along with any attendant properties for
determining individual column characteristics. If not, would you mind
showing me where else the issues reside?
One of the reasons that his is such a hot button issue for me is because
I have felt strongly for some time that SVG is "almost" complete, but is
just missing enough functionality to make it less than a complete win in
the marketplace. Flowing text is a big part of that, and I suspect if
some resolution can be made with the CSS team, then people such as Ronan
Oger, Michael Bolger and myself, who I consider as evangelists of the
technology rather than specification developers can be in a much better
position to go to our clients or audiences sooner rather than later with
a solid specification and the attendant implementations and conforming
suites; as this same audience is likely to defect to something like XAML
if nothing is forthcoming, I think it would be a major blow to the SVG
community and the open standards process in general.
-- Kurt Cagle
Robert O'Callahan wrote:
> We understand that completely, and that's why we're implementing SVG.
> But it won't be useful to us unless we can put that 90% and 10%
> together in a single document with a unified scripting and styling model.
> The SVG WG seems to be saying "Let's finalize SVG 1.2, and then we'll
> let the CDWG figure out how to make it work in compound documents".
> Given that SVG 1.2 probably has features that do not work well in
> compound documents, that seems a foolish approach --- unless
> SVG-in-compound-documents is allowed to diverge from SVG 1.2, as I
> have suggested. Two different, but nearly identical, languages for
> flowing text counts as "not working well".
> I still feel it would be a waste of effort for specifiers,
> implementors, and authors to respecify floats, tables, and all the
> other CSS flowing layout features in SVG, but I'm less concerned about
> that if we can avoid having those features appear in
> SVG-in-compound-documents. I wouldn't object at all to some sort of
> XML syntax for CSS properties as long as the behaviour of those
> properties doesn't change.
> Rob
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Why Tekken should not be 'dumbed down'
Original-Gamer.com: "IPlayWinner's Darry Huskey wrote a piece for Shoryuken.com(it was removed today) about the need for Namco to look at "dumbing down" the Tekken franchise. His opinion is that right now the Tekken series doesn't have room for growth, and the game takes far too long for most people to master due to the sheer amount of depth found within. While his concern is sound, by stating that Tekken Tag Tournament 2 will not be as successful as Street Fighter or Marvel vs. Capcom series, he is not grasping what Tekken Tag Tournament 2 is about, as well as understanding the ramifications of "dumbing" a game down." (Arcade, PS3, Tekken, Tekken Tag Tournament 2, Wii U, Xbox 360)
Gamer1982 + 527d ago
because tekken is already "dumb enough" you can button bash tekken and beat anybody.
IRetrouk + 527d ago
If you go up against anyone that knows how to play you will get destroyed, button mashing only works against other button mashers
krisq + 527d ago
There is no way for a button masher to beat someone that even remotely knows how Tekken works. Mashing is so easily punishable that it's not even funny.
ThanatosDMC + 527d ago
Tekken is not Dead or Alive series or Soul Calibur 5.
Outside_ofthe_Box + 527d ago
The reason is simple, no game should ever be dumbed down. If it's too hard for you play something else.
Gran Touring + 527d ago
Well they "dumbed down" Soul Calibur 5, and we saw how that went. Critically received worse and sold barely half as much as its predecessor, and competitive players have very little interest in the title.
Tekken is currently the most played 3d fighting game series worldwide; it doesn't need to change its formula to adapt to a new audience. I believe that if you want to change the mechanics of a game, fighting or not, do it for the sake of expanding its core elements and making it better, not for trying to appeal to a new audience. This is a trend that we're all too familiar with this generation and sadly doesn't seem to be in regress.
Call it traditionalism if you must, but it isn't such a bad thing if a developer works hard to add quality to games through creativity and by what actually works to its benefit.
caseh + 527d ago
I spent years mastering SC4, had over 10,000 fights online and I was hyped for SC5. Then i realised the movesets had been reduced, super moves had been added. I stuck with it for a month before coming to the conclusion they had ruined it.
I can see why they may want to do it but it can drive people away from a series as well as attract new people. MVC3 was a huge disappointment for me when I realised it uses like 3-4 buttons. Whatever happened to the 6 button layout of the original. Its changes like this that really p*ss me off.
krisq + 527d ago
I have a huge amount of respect for Harada and his team. It must be extremely hard to add new characters/ moves/ mechanic without breaking the balance of the whole game. Not just that, but they're sticking to their core audience despite of the direction the industry is currently heading. These kind of developers deserve our money.
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I'm experiencing the following:
Foo myFoo = new Foo(); // Init a Foo, right?
myFoo.bar = 5; // property assigned
Debug.Log(myFoo.bar); // Properly traces the value 5 or whatever to the console
Debug.Log(myFoo); // Traces "null" to the console..... WTF?!?!?!?
This is happening using C# in MonoDevelop in conjunction with Unity 3.5. In this case, Foo is subclassing Object, and to my knowledge, isn't dynamic. Is there some nuance of C# I'm missing here, because this is extremely weird behavior, and I have never seen it in ActionScript 3 or Objective-C. It's odd to me that the runtime is able to access/assign a property of a variable that simultaneously traces "null", without even throwing a NullException or some kind of error. Any ideas on why this might be occurring would be a huge help. Thanks in advance.
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Where to you get the Debug.Log method you use? System.Diagnostics.Debug has no such method. Maybe it is mono specific? Also - I tried this using Debug.WriteLine() and it works as expected, outputting the type name of Foo a and 5 for the property. This was on .Net not Mono so I'm guessing the behaviour comes down to framework in some way - it isn't c# at least. – David Hall Jul 9 '12 at 16:08
We need the Foo class to answer this question, at least I do, to explain what is actually going on. You do understand that Debug.Log(myFoo); convert the Foo class to a string right? So at most it would print out System.Object you should also post the link to the documentation for Debug.Log otherwise we cannot help you. – Ramhound Jul 9 '12 at 16:08
Debug.Log is part of Unity's framework: docs.unity3d.com/Documentation/ScriptReference/Debug.Log.html It's basically like Console.Writeline(); It takes an argument of type object and I'm assuming handles the rest internally. I've passed many object types to this function before, and it always traces out the type passed, unless it's primitive, in which case it traces the value itself. I'll try to post some code in a bit, it's a bit of a complicated set of classes, but the Foo in question is really just a simple data model. – p_atNextUp Jul 9 '12 at 16:14
Is there an override for the ToString() method of Object on class Foo? If so, is there a chance that implementation is doing something a bit out of the ordinary that would cause it to return null? – David W Jul 9 '12 at 18:45
Check if the ToString() is not returnin "null" for the Foo object. – MBen Jul 9 '12 at 23:12
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Are you subclassing System.Object, or UnityEngine.Object?
UnityEngine.Object is a special class used to represent Unity engine objects that are backed by native representations. You shouldn't derive from it.
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I try to stream mp4-files from a http server to my iPhone with this code:
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How are you generating 400s? – johnstok Oct 27 '08 at 13:48
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programm write current process id in file with function getpid() exemple 1100, but wenn command top run, i becomme process id 1101!!!!! why
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Are you using fork() or similar calls in your program? Can we see your code? – Shrey Jul 5 '10 at 15:48
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There are other, similar IDs that top can display, e.g., the thread ID or the process group ID.
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top display always old id von getpid()+1, why!!! – farka Jul 5 '10 at 13:31
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It is not at all possible. Both the getpid function output and the id displayed by top will be same. I hope you are confusing something.
Can you please briefly expain, how you are doing all these ?
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I am analyzing TS packets with wireshark.
I need to analyze video streams for checking scrambled bit.
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So it is hardly to find which packets are correctly I want to see.
Is there any filter option to display only Video Stream packets?
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Thanks in advanced :D
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Ramachandran to be next IOA president TOI
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The CPM on Thursday decided to expel party Kannummakkara local committee member K C Ramachandran, holding him guilty of conspiring the murder of Revolutionary Marxist Party founder T P Chandrasekharan.
Ramachandran set to be elected IOA president TOI
World Squash Federation (WSF) president N Ramachandran is all set to be elected unopposed on Sunday as the president of the Indian Olympic Association (IOA).
Pooja Ramachandran goes de-glam TOI
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Elected unopposed, N Ramachandran to helm IOA TOI
A day after N Srinivasan was christened to lead the ICC, his brother N Ramachandran was elected unopposed as Indian Olympic Association president.
Immediate task is to revoke India's suspension: Ramachandran TOI
Newly-elected IOA N Ramachandran said his immediate task was to assure that India returns to the Olympic fold at the earliest after a 14-month suspension.
Will make Indian sports transparent or resign: Ramachandran TOI
Recently-elected Indian Olympic Association President N Ramachandran has promised to make national federations more accountable and transparent in their functioning, saying that he would not hesitate to resign from his position if he fails to make a difference.
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VJ-turned actor Keith Sequeira will be seen in a special appearance in Shashi and Sumeet Mittal’s Diya Aur Baati Hum.
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When business talks about employee engagement, it is usually a conversation about an annual engagement survey. Engagement is often another of those "people are our biggest asset" value points that get more lip service than real attention. I have often asked leaders to envision what their organization would look like if the vast majority of their employees were so engaged in their job and company's vision that it was those same employees who managed out the non-performers.
Great engagement goes way beyond being nice to your employees. Typically, the cultures that are most engaged are also those that have set a high performance bar, provided all the tools needed to achieve the goals, shared accountability and rewards for success with staff and created a culture of engagement. As a side benefit, in the best of these cultures, employees partner with leadership to manage out those who do not perform.
Conventional wisdom in most labor relations and HR circles is that employee engagement is at any time more or less a bell curve. Highly engaged employees make up a minority at one end with active rebels at the other. Everyone else then more or less shows up to do his job and has either a positive or poor attitude about it. Success then gets defined as skewing the top of the curve by 3 or 4 percent to the positive side. Not only is that a timid goal, it is also usually not worth the investment needed to accomplish it.
For the moment, put aside the investment costs and the sacred cultural cows that would have to become hamburgers at the next company picnic. Just take a moment and imagine how your company would be different if 90 percent of your employees were so engaged in excellent performance and personally invested in the vision of the organization that they had little tolerance for their colleagues who were not. Think about how your life as a leader would be different.
So, how do leaders make this fantasy a reality? Depends on whom you ask.
I spoke about it on a conference call recently with Dave Logan, one of the authors of "Tribal Leadership" and a member of the B School faculty at the University of Southern California. Logan's research says that it is most possible in smaller companies and work groups where a unique culture can be reinforced all the way to hiring practices. He also makes clear the connection between life view and organizational performance, building it right into his framework.
In his book "Blueprint to a Billion," David G. Thomson describes the attributes of companies that grew from startup to break the billion-dollar barrier. He describes companies that made employment there a source of such pride that it bordered on arrogance.
One of the companies he showcased was Siebel Systems, a company I knew well. Siebel rocketed to the top of the software world on the back of the CRM trend and a Larry Ellison protégé, Tom Siebel, who was extremely canny. Its culture was so intense that it bordered on toxic. Each quarter, mangers at all levels had to force rank their employees, and the bottom 10 percent went out the door in what were very public separations. In the end, the company was purchased by arch-rival Oracle, in part because the culture created sustainability issues.
Lastly, read Jim Collins and you will get a picture of vision and values, coupled with a hedgehog-like focus on what the company can do really well as both the way to create and sustain engagement. Collins' "good is the enemy of great" philosophy is a little intense for leaders who are simply unable, or unwilling, to risk good results in order to attempt what is necessary to get great results. In my experience, one of the safety nets those leaders cling to is the need to keep employee engagement in the safe territory of an annual survey and a few cosmetic changes. n
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Ian-Fortey by Ian-Fortey on Feb. 19, 2014
According to data released by Facebook leading up to Valentine’s Day, the social network actually knows when you’re in a relationship before you do. Due to a mix of people posting every single event of their lives on Facebook and Facebook’s tireless cataloging and analyzing of this info, they can actually gauge who is about to enter into a relationship based entirely on frequency of shared posts between two people and, in fact, they know you’re going to be in a relationship about 2 weeks before you do. Feel free to check out their terrifying math.
Facebook data mined 460,000 couples to get this down, so their conclusions are likely accurate and, given that, they could probably realistically tell you you’re in a relationship before anyone, including you, fully knows it, assuming you’re an avid Facebook user. If this doesn’t terrify you, it should. It means Facebook knows you future. Not your distant future, but the foreseeable one. And if that’s the case, what the hell else does Facebook know about you, based solely on your innocent posts and likes and pages viewed? Maybe some of this?
1. Facebook’s predictive technology monitors how long your mouse hovers over an image to determine what you have an interest in, even subconsciously, and can target ads to you for things you weren’t even sure you wanted. Seeing ads on Facebook for penis enlargement pills? We have no comment.
2. Every time you look at a profile, Facebook knows. Facebook knows who you are stalking from highschool and how long you’ve been doing it.
3. How often do you keep yourself just logged in to Facebook? That mean they know when you sleep. Over a long enough period of time, they’ll know when you’re awake, all the time. Facebook is your Santa Claus.
4. Do you like Pokemon? Naruto? Comic Con? Facebook knows if you’re a closet nerd unless you go out of your way to lie about what you like.
5. Ever looked through groups and pages for something dirty? Facebook now knows what turns your crank.
6. Ever sent someone a dirty message? What made you think that was private? It’s on file, your file, right now. Facebook knows what kind of dirty talk you like, and who you’ve done it with.
7. Who do you hang out with? If someone tagged you in a photo, Facebook knows who you associate with, where you go, and when you did it. The more photos you’re in, the more easily they can determine who you’re likely to be with out in the world when you’re not on Facebook.
8. Got Facebook on a mobile device? Sure you do. Still logged in? Facebook knows your latitude and longitude all the time.
9. Remember all that stuff you filled in when you signed up for Facebook? Your birthday, where you went to school, your relationship status, your job status, foods you like, restaurants you like, TV shows you like, political views, religious views. Facebook knows more about you than your friends and family. And they sell that info.
10. Do you have an important job? Military? Government? Anyone can find you on Facebook just by searching for what you listed as place of employment. You and everyone else in your city who works there.
11. Weirded out by a creepy guy at work? Maybe it’s because he did a Facebook search for single people who work where you both work. Or people in an open relationship. Or people who like Game of Thrones. It’s all there and searchable.
12. Maybe you work with someone who is being stalked. Maybe their stalker looked up everyone at work who might be a threat to them. Maybe that’s you.
13. Even off Facebook, numerous sites partner with them to tack the movies you watch, songs you listen to and products you buy, even without clicking a “like” button. Most of your online activity is therefore cataloged by Facebook whether you’re using the social network or not. Your status as a Bronie who likes Lady Gaga has likely been sold to numerous advertisers.
14. Facebook can link you to pretty much anyone on Earth. In a test of the 6 degrees of Separation theory, after analyzing 69 billion friend connections amounts over 720 million Facebook users, almost every person on Facebook is only four people removed from everyone else in the world, at most. You’re practically friends with millions of Beliebers.
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They don't care about anyone as an individual. The most they will do is target ads to you -- to who they THINK you are. But I ignore all of their ads, so I could not care less if they have me figured out or not. They know when I sleep?Â
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You now what really yanks my crank? The Facebook app on Android. Â I have a Facebook account....I rarely use it and I've never been to Facebook through my phone. I've "shut off" the app but if I look at my battery usage, Facebook is invariably in the top 5 of my battery usage list.....WHY?Â
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The way I see it:
Facebook is no different than a game, and in games we have a username, NOT our real names. That's why mine is not mine and the only true fact I ever submitted was that I like lasagna. Let the NSA figure out that one! Oh, by the way...
The cake is in the oven, there are 2 pies and 7 candles. Dinner will be at noon.
They got funding from someone who is one of the board of directors from the investment firm that the ClA uses to invest money into companies who have technology they want, these mindless drones are on facebook all day taking pictures and tagging them, you and your friends know what you look like, why have this feature??? It's so software can identify people in public from multiple angles in real time using a database of photos morons post on FB, you are all frogs in the pot.
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Screw Facebook. Im switching to AdultFriendFinder
Clyde-Cameron-724 User
Oh my...so sorry to hear the shithole known as FaceBook probably know how much I despise them.
Jamie Miles
Jamie Miles
And that's why you don't put anything on facebook you wouldn't want the entire world to know about.
Chase Watson
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Welcome to the United States in 2014 you are not free
Chase Watson
Chase Watson
Tell me something that isn't new Facebook is working with the CIA TSA NSA It's the new form of government has into Spying!
Jeffrey Dooley
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I'm more afraid what my browser knows about me...
Maradona Asheaia
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sorry to burst your bubble dude. they have your IP address. from that they can get your name, job etc. soooo yeah.
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They probably know that I fap ten times per day. Oh well, now they definitely do.
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They know what YOU tell them. I've been married for years on facebook...and only on facebook. Yes! They CAN take advantage of what YOU tell them. Stop blaming others for your ignorance. May sound harch but for lack of better words.
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I'm going back to Friendster.
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The conclusion of  number 14 is the most terrifying.
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You think Facebook is scary? What about your ISP that knows EVERYTHING you do on the internet.
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Do you believe in life after love? I hope so, because Dancing with the Stars is all about Chaz Bono's mother this week. Not only is Cher performing twice, but she's replacing Len Goodman as a judge and all of the individual dances will be set to her music. That's more Cher than you could see in her video for "If I Could Turn Back Time."
Week 8 will also see the highest score receive immunity while the other six compete in dance-offs for extra points. I'm predicting that Jack Osbourne will go home, but it's probably a toss-up between him and Bill Engvall depending on the scores.
Cher opens the show with "Believe," and it's a big spectacle, though Cher just stands there after being lowered to the floor. WARNING: Do NOT play a drinking game where you take a shot every time the name "Cher" is mentioned. You will die.
Val Chmerkovkiy isn't wearing a shirt at all. That's definitely worth mentioning. He and Elizabeth Berkley miss their entrance. He was probably oiling up.
Corbin Bleu and Karina Smirnoff: Argentine Tango
Corbin has problems with a film he's producing, keeping him distracted during rehearsals this week. The "Burlesque" routine is very steamy, and it includes two very impressive lifts. It's always good to show off Corbin's strength. Carrie Ann Inaba thought the footwork was a little off, but it was still great. Cher (after her first costume change) has elected to be the last judge to comment. She adds very little, and Corbin scores more viewer points by saying the movie he's producing is part of an anti-bullying campaign he works with.
Judges' Scores: 9+9+9=27
Cher doesn't understand how the paddle system works, nor how numbers work because when she holds up her 9, she says "Cher."
Leah Remini and Tony Dovolani: Viennese Waltz
Leah is happy Cher has replaced Len Goodman, assuming she'll look more at the atristry than the technique. Leah talks all about when Cher met Sonny Bono, and she sounds like a bit of a stalker. The dance is beautiful and captures the sweet feeling of love at first sight. Bruno Tonioli loved the side-by-side action, but the rest had some problems. Cher is definitely all about the artistry and loved this walk down memory lane. Cher also threatens to knee Bruno in the junk, much to Tom Bergeron's delight.
Judges' Scores: 8+9+8=25
That's an extra point from Cher that Len never would've given. Heck, he might've given her a 7. Well played, Leah and Tony.
Brant Daugherty and Peta Murgatroyd: Foxtrot
This week Brant went back to film Pretty Little Liars, giving those fans even more reason to vote for him. The routine is fun and ends with a big kiss. Brant has a huge smile on his face the whole time, and I'm especially impressed with his extensions. Maybe it's the suit, but his arms and legs looked a lot longer than usual. Cher loved their smiles and energy. Carrie Ann calls him out on lines and knees.
Judges' Scores: 9+9+9=27
Is Cher just gonna give everyone a 9?
Elizabeth Berkley and Val Chmerkovskiy: Jazz
Val choreographed a whole routine, but then Elizabeth changed the song at the last minute because "Bang Bang" is one of her personal favorites. It seems they've reached the rough point in their relationship. The floor is bathed in red and the dance is a tough battle. It's all very violent and angry and a little Mad Max. Cher likes that the woman won, and Elizabeth thanks her for being a role model for women. Bruno thought the intensity messed up some of the musicality while Carrie Ann thought it was too one-note. They're not wrong.
Judges' Scores: 8+9+8=25
Ooh, not so good. That's her lowest score since week 3.
Bill Engvall and Emma Slater: Disco
He knows he should've gone last week, but Emma thinks he's worked hard and deserves this. Bill has a bit of a crush on Cher. He does a decent job, I suppose. It's certainly fun to watch, but it's a lot like your dad at a wedding. It's so old-school and cheesey. It made Bruno gag with laughter. The judges are torn because they love him, but his dancing just isn't very good.
Judges' Scores: 8+8+8=24
Wow, the fact that Cher didn't give him a 9 means it must've been bad. Those scores are absurd, because he deserved a 7 at best. Len probably would've given him a 6.
Jack Osbourne and Cheryl Burke: Tango
Cheryl is actually named after Cher and they're both intimidated. Something is wrong, because I absolutely love it. Jack is strong and powerful and does some amazing footwork. This is probably his best dance yet. Cher likes that he looked like a "tango-dancing pimp." Bruno takes it one step foo far and calls Cheryl a hooker.
Judges' Scores: 9+9+9=27
Oddly enough, I thought he actually deserved a 10 this week.
Amber Riley and Derek Houghy: Rumba
They're dancing to "If I Could Turn Back Time" and taking a cue from the music video with Derek dressed as a sailor. Last week he was a fox and now he's a sailor? Get out of my head, costume department! Amber has a slight tear in her tendon, because these two are the most accident prone couple ever. The routine opens with Amber ripping off Sailor Derek's shirt. This is the problem with Derek, because after that happened I didn't even notice Amber. If the goal of a Rumba is to be sexy, then they definitely win. Carrie Ann calls Amber out for not pushing herself enough.
Judges' Scores: 9+9+10=28
And just like that, Bruno ends the tie and Amber earns immunity. If Derek had remained clothed, that probably would've been another 27.
Amber and Derek received immunity for having the highest individual score, but the other six couples compete in the dance-offs. The top two couples get to challenge their opponents, but the team they challenge gets to pick the style: Cha-Cha-Cha, Disco and Rumba. The winning couple of each dance-off gets an extra three points. Since there's a huge tie, it's based on cumulative scores throughout the season.
Corbin and Karina vs. Elizabeth and Val: Cha-Cha-Cha
Corbin gets first pick and, interesting, he goes after Elizabeth. Interesting, since I consider them the two best couples. This could backfire on Corbin or create a shocking elimination of the person who I think is the best dancer, Elizabeth.
Corbin goes for fast and furious with a lot of impact and intensity while Elizabeth and Val go for the sex appeal. They're both great and the judges are puzzled.
Judges' Scores: All three judges vote for Corbin and Karina
Ouch, Elizabeth could get screwed over. Corbin gets the extra points.
Brant and Peta vs. Leah and Tony: Rumba
Brant is the next highest and chooses Leah, who goes for the Rumba because she excels in sexy dances. Both couples go for steamy sensuality, but Brant does a lot more with his powerful masculine sexuality.
Judges' Scores: Carrie Ann and Cher vote for Leah and Tony, Bruno votes for Brant and Peta
Wow, Leah gets three more points and beats Brant? This is some total B.S. I blame the fact that Cher is all about women power.
Jack and Cheryl vs. Bill and Emma: Disco
By default, the two worst dancers square off and Bill gets to (or has to) do Disco again. This format is really messed up because one of them will get extra points while Elizabeth and Brant don't. It's even worse when they actually dance, because Jack isn't very good and Bill just tosses Emma away. Neither of them deserve three more points.
Judges' Scores: All three judges vote for Jack and Cheryl
So at the end of the night, Jack and Corbin are tied for first place and Leah is in third, above of Brant and Elizabeth. It's madness!
The Results
After losing the dance-off, Tom lets Bill read the teleprompter, which says that Bill and Emma are SAFE. I have a bad feeling. That leaves Elizabeth and Brant at the bottom of the leaderboard. Since we already know Amber and Derek are SAFE, there are only five couples to go,
The third couple SAFE is...Elizabeth and Val
! Whew.
The fourth couple SAFE is...Corbin and Karina!
The fifth couple SAFE is...Leah and Tony!
It's down to Jack vs. Brant. Jack only has a three point edge from the judges' scores.
Brant and Peta are ELIMINATED!
Boo! BOOOOOOOO! This sucks. How are they gone while Jack, Leah and Bill are still around? I'm curious if the fact that Brant lost those three extra points to Leah made a difference. Because if so, then I blame Cher since Len totally would've voted for Brant.
Next week the six remaining couples will dance twice, and one will mark the return of the triple dance where they will team up with an eliminated pro or member of the troupe for a three-way performance. I'm worried that Derek will team with Mark Ballas and they will completely forget Amber is even there.
The Leaderboard
30: Corbin Bleu, Jack Osbourne
28: Amber Riley (received immunity), Leah Remini
27: Brant Daugherty
25: Elizabeth Berkley
24: Bill Engvall
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Getting MBA Women a Seat at the Table
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Bloomberg Businessweek’s Alison Damast caught up with Romero this week and spoke with her about her new role. This is an edited transcript of their conversation.
What appealed to you about becoming CEO of MBA Women International?
I’ve been consulting for 17 years, working at nonprofits, and have always been focused on what the issues were that women and girls have had to deal with. Two of the board members came to me in November last year and said they were looking for someone who could really take hold of an organization that had basically been student-run for 29 years and turn it into a huge-impact organization for women and girls. The idea was extremely exciting, and that is why I jumped on it.
It’s only your first year on the job, but you’ve already managed to shake things up by starting the International Leadership Academy. How did you come up with the idea for the program?
It was a series of events, but one of them was an audit we did with our corporate partners. They started telling me what skill sets they needed so they could keep women. They knew women were leaving their corporations, not to go have babies but because they got frustrated with the corporate culture. They wanted to know how we could help women leaders grow more and understand the issues that are at play. The corporations basically said if you do that, then let us hire the women who have that education, and together we will all be more successful.
What do you feel are some of the challenges women face as they try to move up the corporate ladder, and how will the academy address those issues?
Most of the corporations have a culture that women feel alienated from. They don’t necessarily have good mentorship or sponsorship opportunities. Still, a lot of organizations have specific programs for women within their organizations that help them grow through the company, but it is expensive, and companies spend a lot of time and a lot of energy on it. If we can do something on a broader basis, it will make it easier for those corporations that have not started a program yet to have an outside place to send their high-potential women.
What is your ultimate goal for the program?
We are focused on getting women into the C-suite. Our goal is when women get through the program, we want to make sure our corporate partners are aware of them. We also want our graduates to give back so that more women can be mentored, sponsored, and networked with. What we really want is to propel this into an everyday occurrence where women are helping women.
What’s the best piece of advice you could give to today’s female MBA students?
I was recently at a university and was able to sit in and watch a new class of MBA students as they went forward and did case studies. From that I realized that the most important thing to start practicing now is having a voice and a seat at the table. Don’t just sit back and let someone else comment or share an idea, but step forward. It is ultimately wrong, and it is not O.K, to be silent. You have to have a voice, because you can’t be a leader without one.
Damast is a staff writer for Bloomberg Businessweek.
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As risky movies go, few were more fraught this summer season than the disaster remake Poseidon. It featured no big stars, cost an estimated $160 million to produce, and had to battle the public's nostalgia for the cheesy but successful original. Few industry watchers were particularly surprised when the movie sank like, yes, an overloaded cruise ship.
Good thing Poseidon's maker, Warner Bros. Inc. (TWX
) got someone else to pay half the up-front costs -- and absorb half the potential losses. An equity fund created by Stark Investments, a $7.5 billion hedge fund based in Milwaukee, has invested about half a billion dollars in six Warner films, including Poseidon and V for Vendetta, another dud. Based on a BusinessWeek analysis, Stark has so far lost $25 million on its Poseidon misadventure, and a little less on V. There is already blood in the water: The hedgie, which declined to comment for this story, has parted ways with the former investment banker who was advising it.
The studios have been using other people's money forever, often from wannabe tycoons with only a tentative grasp of Hollywood's creative dealmaking. But recently the so-called smart money has been flooding into Tinseltown. Over the past two years, private-equity firms have ponied up nearly $5 billion, with everyone from Merrill Lynch & Co. (MER
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The Wall Streeters arrived in Hollywood armed with sophisticated models that they say will protect them from losses. Essentially they project film profits based on the records of directors, stars, genres, and even distribution dates. "You can never take the risk out of investing in a film," says Ryan Kavanaugh, head of Relativity Media, which has a pretty good record. It raised a $600 million fund with Deutsche Bank (DB
) to provide financing for Paramount Pictures (VIA
) and Universal Studios films. "But you can mitigate it by choosing those that meet rigorous criteria." And to minimize the downside of any one film that may bomb, private investors often put money into 20 or more flicks.
It's not exactly bulletproof. Ask Legendary Partners. A $500 million fund set up by two Hollywood veterans and backed by ABRY Partners, AIG Direct Investments (AIG
), and Banc of America Capital Investors (BAC
), Legendary plans to invest in 25 Warner films. It backed Lady in the Water, the animated Ant Bully, and Batman Begins. While a fund spokeswoman says it's too early to judge its performance, the first two films were flops, so Legendary will be lucky to break even on them.
Making a hit movie doesn't guarantee a rich payday, either. Superman Returns falls into that category. Since its June release, the Warner film has grossed a very respectable $337 million-plus worldwide. Yet according to an investment banker who crunched the numbers, Superman will earn a paltry $25 million for Legendary, which teamed up with the Honeywell International pension fund for this deal. That's barely a 7% return over 10 years, or the time it will take for profits to roll in from the box-office take, DVD sales, and TV showings.BACK OF THE LINE
Why is it so hard for outsiders to make money in Hollywood? Ballooning budgets and skyrocketing marketing costs don't help. But the studios game the system, too. They insist on distribution fees of 10% to 15% before sharing profits with investors. And backers often have to stand in line with stars and directors, who tend to want a piece of the action. Besides, the studios make investors take the riskiest movies while keeping likely hits for themselves. Credit Suisse First Boston invested $505 million in Walt Disney Co. (DIS
) films, but the studio didn't let the firm in on two big summer moneymakers, Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest and the animated smash Cars.
Maybe the private-equity guys should follow Merrill Lynch, which launched one of the first funds with Paramount, but has since switched to financing film directors like Ivan Reitman, where it gets better terms. Or they could talk to Amir J. Malin. The former chief of studio Artisan Entertainment Inc. now co-manages Qualia Capital, which focuses on media and entertainment assets. Malin has turned down several production deals. What's he investing in? Film libraries. With them, the risky creative part is over. By Ronald Grover
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young man smiles over a computer - financial products for young adultsYoung adults have a lot on their plates: They're just starting out in the workforce as full-time employees, they're often moving out of their parents' house and renting their first place, and they may be juggling student loans or trying to finance their first car.
Not That: A Prepaid Debit Card
If you're worried that you won't be able to control or keep track of your spending, turn down the institution's offer of overdraft "protection," which could cost you close to $30 every time you spend more than the amount in your account when making a debit purchase. (Keep in mind, though, this doesn't protect you from bounced checks or automatic withdrawal overdrafts.)
Prepaid debit cards, although they promise to function just like a bank or credit union deposit account, have some drawbacks in terms of consumer protections. They also tend to be much more expensive than checking accounts, with monthly fees and charges for activities like checking your balance or speaking to a customer service rep that are usually free at banks and credit unions.
Pick This: A Low-Limit Credit Card With a Low APR
Not That: A High-Limit Card With All the Reward Bells and Whistles
"I think the challenge for these folks is entering the world of unsecured credit without choosing the wrong product," John Ulzheimer, president of consumer education at SmartCredit.com, says of young adults entering the credit card market. While some young people may have had student credit cards or been added as an authorized user to their parents' cards, new regulations restricting credit card offerings to youth mean that today's high school and college students will most likely be starting off with a smaller credit footprint than their predecessors.
Ulzheimer says that at least initially, you should ask for a card with a modest credit limit and resist the urge to take all the credit a company is willing to offer unless you're certain you can use that card without abusing the limit. "It's not the credit card company's job to take care of your debt. That's all on your shoulders," Ulzheimer points out.
In addition to a modest limit, young people should search for cards with low fees and interest rates rather than gravitating toward the flashier reward cards. "Rewards programs are heavily subsidized by the interest rates and fees," Ulzheimer points out. While the idea of earning travel points might be nice, stick with a low-APR card in case you have an emergency and need to revolve a balance while in your lower-earning years.
Pick This: A 401(k) or Roth IRA Containing No-Load Mutual Funds, Index and/or Structured Funds
Not That: A Retirement Account Containing Actively Managed Funds
All of our experts agreed that your 20s are the best time to start investing. While you don't have a lot of extra cash to throw around at this point, investing even a small amount has two big benefits: First, you'll get into the habit of putting away money toward your retirement, despite how far-off that may seem in the present day. Second, even a small amount will grow over time, and the longer it's in an investment account, the more it will grow.
"I'm a firm believer in index and structured funds vs. a more actively-managed fund," says Don Chambers, author of Money Basics for Young Adults. Actively-managed funds can command higher fees, and they don't always yield better returns than their cheaper counterparts. Plus, if you're not an investment expert, learning the ins and outs of the investment marketplace can be practically a second job, which probably isn't a burden you want to take on during a time in your life when you might already have a second job. That said, it's safer for you than for someone a generation older to invest in riskier asset classes like small-cap funds, emerging markets and value stocks, since you have plenty of time for any loss to reverse itself before you need to access your money.
Pick This: High-deductible Health Insurance
Not That: A Pricier Plan, or Insurance to Cover the Deductible Gap
Sure you might be healthy now, but something as mundane as a broken arm could derail your financial stability for years. Health care bills are a major cause of bankruptcy, and our experts say it's just not worth the risk.
Since you are young and most likely healthy, though, you might be a good candidate for a higher-deductible plan. The important thing to remember here is to sock away enough money to cover that deductible if you need it. Steve Vernon, a retirement educator and president of Rest-of-Life Communications, discourages young adults from purchasing supplementary insurance that purports to cover the amount of the deductible, though.
"There's a secondary market selling insurance to cover the deductible, but these usually aren't worth it," Vernon says. "Just save up toward that deductible. Usually what happens with these fill-in policies is the premiums would equal your deductible, and if you don't get sick, you have the money."
Pick This: Renter's Insurance
Not That: Going Without
You might not think your stuff is worth all that much, but if you're in an apartment building and another tenant starts a fire or floods the bathroom, you'll have a much more difficult time replacing everything if you don't have insurance. Before shopping around, check with your car insurer first: Some insurers will give you a discount if your car is insured with them, too.
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Video Update: The Judge on The Daily Show 10/27
Full episode including extended interview (thanks drheyde):
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will be on the Daily Show with Jon Stewart this Thursday 11PM ET on Comedy Central to discuss "It's Dangerous to be Right When the Government is Wrong"
I'm sure it will be a good interview. Hope they talk about Dr. Paul!
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John23.... I agree with you and I would add this...
There is one way we can look at this thing called "society", the Private Sector, the Volunteer Sector, and the Government Sector.
PRIVATE SECTOR: We can see there is the private sector, which is simply us in the free market building, making, trading, servicing and selling things to each other.
VOLUNTEER SECTOR: We can see there is a whole universe here filled with Churches, Charities such as the March of Dimes, Red Cross, United Way, etc and Boy Scouts, YMCA, Charitable Hospitals such as Shriners Hospitals for Children, Meals on Wheels, Little Leagues, Flag Football, Jerry's Kids, the Paralympic track and field Games, Habitat for the Humanities, and on and on.
GOVERNMENT SECTOR: We can see there is town governments, city governments, County governments, State Governments, the Federal Government, and over 1,000 departments and regulations and requirements and licensing all coming from this sector.
So by looking at these 3 big sectors, we can see we can only expand the Govt Sector's functions by shrinking the functions in the other two sectors. Which is to say, if we ask more of Government, there will be less asked for in the Voluntary Sector or Private Sector.
Its a way of looking at Society that may give liberals pause...
Could you post that on the
Could you post that on the daily shows comment section for the video?
The way you worded your argument will make it easy for liberals to understand. :)
What happens to losers in a free market?
Stewart's question assumes that we have a perfect safety net by giving up liberty. We have "free" public education and still have adults who can't read. We have "free" public housing and still have homeless on our streets. We have "free" food stamps and still need food banks to feed the hungry. To top it off, all this "free" help from the government has contributed to crushing debt for everyone. I guess Stewart's answer would be to throw more government money at the problems or create new government agencies that keep everyone housed, fed, etc.
Stewart's point of view is put trust in the government to help people. I don't understand that. All the evidence shows the government wastes resources and is ineffective. I'd rather that we put trust in the people to help each other and themselves.
Declaration of Independence
I just want to say I like both Jon Stewart and the Judge but it really bothers me every time I hear the Judge incorrectly state, that we get our Rights from humanity (humans). Our Declaration of Independence clearly states We are "endowed by our CREATOR with certain unalienable Rights...." not HUMANITY. I am also sick our hearing what a terrible person John Adams was because he signed into law, the bill CONGRESS passed, "The Alien and Sedition Act". In hindsight it is easy to see what a dangerous "Act" that was but there was a lot more to what was going on at the time. The French were raiding our ships at sea and taking our sailors hostage.There may have been some new French immigrants that were committing Sedition and Treason. Hamilton's faction also wanted us to go to war with France but John Adams sided with Jefferson kept us out of a war with France. Another thing, if it was not for John Adams, the leading advocate at the Continental Congress, calling for our Independence from England we may all still be bowing and paying homage to Her Majesty the Queen.
My CREATOR is my mother and father
They are humans, with rights who passed those unalienable rights onto me when I was born. Hence humanity passed those rights to me. Believe in a God in the sky if you will, just stop assuming that everyone else does.
You are free to believe and define your creator....
as your mommy and daddy if you choose. The First Amendment guarantees that Right to you. But, the Declaration of Independence refers to "Nature's God", "Creator", and it ends with a firm reliance on the protection of "divine Providence". The Founders did not believe their Right to Life, Liberty and Property came from humans or humanity, whether they be benevolent or tyrants, because any human(s) powerful enough to grant those Rights would also be powerful enough to remove those Rights.
All's well that ends well...
I agree that the Judge wasn't up to his usual par, but in the end Jon made him welcome anytime he wanted to return and the Judge extended the same courtesy to Jon. So I guess all's well that ends well.
OK, so we elect Ron as POTUS, whoever he chooses as VP (we trust 'ya, Ron), the Judge as A/G, Peter Schiff or Jim Rogers as Secretary of the Treasury, Tom Woods and Doug Wead go in there somewhere with Jon Stewart as Press Secretary to "handle" the media since he obviously likes both Ron and the Judge. I would actually watch a lot more Press Conferences, as would many, if this were the case ;-)
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Fine show to introduce libertarian basic philosophy to
liberals, progressives, positivists and others who still love to be in control of a BIG Gov to form the world to serve THEM.
Judge Nap mentions that "Selfishness is a virtue", but it takes a self-restrained population which honors the Golden Rule for a pure libertarian world to function.
Moral, ethical or aesthetic mechanisms for self-restrained pursuit of what you really want ("selfishness") have to be ingrained in the culture for a libertarian society to function & flourish.
To many that sounds too optimistic of human nature and would just call it a Utopian fantasy and opt to ignore such a way of life, I guess. But why they wishfully assume the best of human quality among gov officials is beyond me.
Monday morning quarterbacking,
I'd say the Judge missed a better way to address "winners and losers."
There are losers and there are LOSERS. By that I mean that some people fail at things they do, and can either start over or work for a winner (as was mentioned below). Giving to them is the worst abuse of government social programs, for it steals from responsible people and redistributes to scammers.
The LOSERS would be people who, despite their best efforts, just can't make it. Most of us think they should be helped, but it's an individual moral responsibility. Free marketers will step up, if not just out of conscience, but because they want to be seen as neighborly members of their communities. They also believe that charity given to people who the giver knows are truly in need is the best (maybe only) way to make sure people don't take advantage of charity when they really don't need it, and that approach makes charity as efficient and wasteless as possible.
The fans of government intervention, if they'd really think about it, don't want to help out unless other people are forced to do so as well. They are more concerned about others not being charitable than they are about stepping up on their own and helping out. Maybe they fear that, if they weren't forced by law to do so, they'd show themselves and others how stingy they are. They also fail to realize the inherent waste and fraud that inevitably comes with compulsory government "charity," and how compulsion robs one of the self esteem of being charitable, and the gratitude of those they help. In fact, it eliminates gratitude almost completely, for those on the receiving end think they are DUE the help they get.
Anyway, that's the sort of thing I'd like the judge to have said. Easy for me, after the fact, and without the pressure of immediate responses to questions.
Watch and enjoy. The Judge is awesome, and at the end he turns Jon Stewart toward wondering if he and the Judge believe the same things.
Love the judge
But his appearance on the Daily Show was not as effective as it might have been. Several times, he didn't really tackle Stewart's objections so much as recite a generic libertarian talking point.
Why not illuminate the fact that, at one time, most roads in America were privately built? People assume that things must always have been the way they are today.
Stewart asked about the "losers" in the free market. He seems to assume these people will all be destitute. No! They lose command over precious resources, which are turned over to more capable stewards, who create the jobs that employ the "losers." And if a "loser" isn't able to work a low-end job, he still benefits from the increased production of goods brought about by the market economy, which makes it possible for many of those who don't work to be fed by the labor of those who do. This is why children and housewives and the elderly don't have to work.
(Notice this progress has been undone in the last 30 years or so as, increasingly, mothers and the elderly have had to return to work in order to make ends meet.)
The Judge should also have challenged Stewart's contention that he would be "giving up his liberty to an insurance company" instead of government firefighters. Any contract entered into voluntarily is not comparable to government's infringement of liberty. And, of course, neighborhoods could still form their own volunteer fire departments for their mutual benefit.
Anyway, the Judge is eloquent and likable, and he knows his American history. But if he is in the running for VP (and, to be clear, I would support such a choice by Ron Paul), he needs to practice answering these common objections in a way that will convince the Stewarts of the world, who think libertarianism is "utopian fantasy."
I agree. He really didn't
I agree. He really didn't counter Jon's arguments very well.
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John Stewart loves roads. He
John Stewart loves roads. He thinks they wouldn't exist if not for government.
He really should read I, Pencil. Then he should contemplate how many antecedents were required to manufacture his suit. Perhaps the light bulb would turn on and he would realize, "wow, all of that division of labor occurred without government intervention, or in fact, it occurred in spite of government regulations."
the people booing capitalism in the audience
let me know that we've got a loooooong way to go to reverse the effects of decades of public schooling propaganda being force-fed to generations of sheeple.
Those are the moments I feel saddened for my country.
Being against Capitalism, but
Being against Capitalism, but not admitting that you're a Socialist, a Marxist, a anarchist, or really for anything, is the cool thing to do for young Democrats these days.
They've been raised to be Statists.
Stewart boggles my mind
We've had nothing but more and more government since we started this entire thing off back in 1776. And Jon still thinks we can just tinker with it here and there and fix it all? Really?
Sometimes you need to slash and burn. Sometimes you have to cut the arm off the patient to save him. When will the liberals figure this out?
I just have to laugh as people ask for their own enslavement.
I like the part when the Judge was speaking. :)
btw, I also enjoyed how the Judge appeals to the masses.
so happy they put this out tonight instead of waiting until the next day.
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waiting for the FULL EPISODE to be posted
so we can see the WHOLE show. TDS shoud be putting that up very soon here:
that's the extended interview
should had been more clear.
initially it was somewhat of a cliffhanger to hear the the Judge say "let me tell a story" and then the broadcast end and have to wait until it comes online. the extra part is longer than the interview part that aired.
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Anyone notice how Jon Stewart SLAMMED the current "top tier"?
The piece Jon did on Mitt (Scared Mittless) was GREAT!
Then the piece he followed up with on Herman Cain...HILARIOUS!
The next piece on Rick Perry..BAM!
Gee, who does that leave...I wonder...lol ;-)
I'm thinking now when Ron is elected President he needs to make Jon Stewart Press Secretary as NOBODY handles (i.e. "takes to task") the media better than Jon Stewart...lol.
what a wonderful world
if John Stewart was Ron Paul's press secretary...lol
hell yeah man! That would be
hell yeah man! That would be so kickass...let's get some comedy in the White House!!! Loosen up the tension a bit and put a positive, hip spin on Washington. I totally endorse this idea, putting John Stewart's personal politics aside here of course.
- Brennan
I like the comments.... can't
I like the comments.... can't wait to watch this tomorrow.
The Judge is an amazing human
The Judge is an amazing human being...
The judge was pretty
Awesome. I could tell he had a lot to get out and got a good rant in about what the government should not be doing.
He was phenomenal
We have to start thinking Judge Nap for 2016.
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when one of them gets tired from carrying the other, does one of them just do a back flip and the other starts walking for the both of them?
hahahahaha Good one.
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RE: Awesome resolution. Crappy video.
By SAN-Man on 6/21/2013 3:14:59 PM , Rating: 2
Well that's certainly your opinion.
RE: Awesome resolution. Crappy video.
By ritualm on 6/21/2013 3:41:24 PM , Rating: 2
I have such a $1,500+ laptop as you do, and I use it as my primary computer i.e. work, gaming, everything in between. An AMD APU simply will not give the performance I need because it will consume too much power to get there.
Your opinion is worth less than you think.
RE: Awesome resolution. Crappy video.
By SAN-Man on 6/22/2013 10:37:16 AM , Rating: 2
Are you stupid? You don't understand what an opinion is I suppose
RE: Awesome resolution. Crappy video.
By ritualm on 6/22/2013 1:21:09 PM , Rating: 3
Says the guy who calls others stupid because they disagreed with him.
I posted this in DT's FX-9590 article:
AMD APUs are great for penny pinchers. Not so much when you're willing to spend $1,500+ on an everyday laptop with a high-res display. In fact, AMD has completely abandoned the midrange and high-end laptop markets. Steamroller? AMD can't make a mobile version of it.
You are off the rocker to think their power-hungry APUs will magically make your high-res laptop better than anything Intel can cook up.
By SAN-Man on 6/27/2013 5:13:09 PM , Rating: 2
I asked if you WERE stupid as you displayed a clear lack of understanding of what an opinion is. Based on your response, I'd say the answer is yes.
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Now something similar is happening in Europe (see article). Insurgent parties are on the rise. For mainstream parties and voters worried by their success, America’s experience of dealing with the Tea Party holds useful lessons.
The squeezed, and angry, middle
Mainstream politicians in Europe have tried to marginalise the insurgents, by portraying them as unhinged, racist or fascist. But it is not working, partly because many of the insurgents are making a determined effort to become respectable. UKIP, the FN and the Freedom Party (PVV) in the Netherlands could each win the most votes in European Parliament elections in May. In France, 55% of students say they would consider voting for the FN. The Progress Party has joined Norway’s government. Slovakia has a new far-right provincial governor. Count insurgents on the left, such as Syriza in Greece and the Five Star movement in Italy, and mainstream parties in Europe are weaker than at any time since the second world war.
The insurgency is doing well partly because the mainstream has done so badly. Governments encouraged consumers to borrow, let the banks run wild and designed the euro as the pinnacle of the European project. In the past five years ordinary people have paid a price for these follies, in higher taxes, unemployment, benefit cuts and pay freezes.
This newspaper is sympathetic to the Tea Parties’ insight that the modern state often seems designed to look after itself, rather than the citizens it is supposed to serve. It is true that the EU has no answer to the problem that minorities of voters in many countries feel it lacks legitimacy—a looming threat to the euro. But Europe’s insurgents go further than that.
When Geert Wilders, leader of the PVV, calls the Koran “a fascist book” and Islam “a totalitarian religion”, he is endorsing intolerance. When Ms Le Pen demands protection for French firms from foreign competition, she is threatening to impoverish her compatriots. When UKIP promises British people prosperity outside the European Union, but within a free-trade zone of its own devising, it is peddling an illusion. Increasing inequality and growing immigration are the corollary of technological progress and economic freedoms that most people would not willingly give up.
Such details do not detain Ms Le Pen who, with the swagger of a politician on the rise, predicts that she will be in the Elysée within a decade. That is highly unlikely, partly because national elections are less susceptible to protest votes than European elections are, and partly because as they get closer to power almost all Europe’s Tea Parties are likely to reveal themselves as incompetent and factional. Yet the insurgents do not need victory to set the agenda or to put up barriers to reforms. That is why Europeans need to see them off.
Honesty in all things
Attacking the insurgents as fascists worked when Hitler’s memory was fresh, but many of today’s voters rightly see it as mostly a scare tactic. Even as the mainstream demonises the insurgents, it also panders to them by adopting pale versions of their policies—against immigration, global finance and the EU. But the mainstream is inhibited by a sense of what is possible and an understanding of what is legal. So it ends up flattering the idea that something needs fixing, while seeming to lack the courage to do anything.
The lesson from America is that if Europe’s politicians do not want the insurgents to set the agenda, they need to counter their arguments. As long as Republican leaders have indulged Tea Party demands to put purity above the work of governing (for instance, by shutting down the federal government) they have sunk lower in the public esteem. The hardline positions of Republican candidates satisfy the party faithful but drive away undecided voters, costing the party Senate seats in recent elections and arguably the presidency in 2012. Politicians need to explain hard choices and dispel misconceptions. Europe’s single market is the source of prosperity: enlarge it. Workers from eastern Europe pay more into government coffers than they take out: welcome them. Politicians prepared to speak out will find that most citizens can cope with the truth.
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#1dreamcleaverPosted 1/29/2010 6:08:16 PM
I'm srsly pissed off to Bioware right now. They just had to **** up the ending after all. I wouldn't bother with all this if I didn't knew they will pull another "carry over your decisions to the next game" for ME3.
So here is my situation. I've completed the game once but I had to do Legion's loyalty quest before jumping the Omega 4 relay and this caused a lot of my abducted ppl to die (I knew this is gonna happen, stupid Bioware). He as a tech specialist survived the first part in the shaft. (Mordin died at the very end of the mission for no apparent reason but I don't even care anymore).
So now I'm redoing the final mission but this time Legion is not loyal yet. The other tech specialists I've tried so far are all dying at the end of the first part where they have to close the door (they get a rocket in the head). So far Tali and Garrus is a no go (they were both loyal & stuff).
Since there is of course no auto-save or quick save possibility before the part you select the tech specialist I have to rewatch the whole video from the omega 4 relay jump again & again and it is getting on my nerves.
So pls answer me:
1. Who is not ******* dying as a tech specialist except Legion?
2. Can this part be done with Legion if they are not loyal?
Thx in advance. I need to go and vent. **** Bioware.
#2Infinite-Zr0Posted 1/29/2010 6:12:44 PM
#3Nova SatoriPosted 1/29/2010 6:14:38 PM
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#4FScellPosted 1/29/2010 6:14:43 PM
How is it that so many people failed to fit in Legions loyalty quest before the IFF was installed.
#5hylozoistPosted 1/29/2010 6:18:18 PM
Well technically I guess there were spoilers in the thread already, but oh well. Can't hurt to add tag.
Supposedly, who you select as the first fire team leader can affect whether the specialist lives at the end. I've not done it yet with non-loyal team members though, so I'm not entirely sure how that affects the outcome. Who have you been selecting as team leader? Most people recommend Jacob or Garrus. Try sending Mordin as escort to save him, or bringing him on the final team otherwise.
#6WatersurgePosted 1/29/2010 6:19:58 PM
FSell: The IFF can go online instantly if you try to fly anywhere before waking up Legion. This screwed me over on my latest playthrough.
#7dreamcleaver(Topic Creator)Posted 1/29/2010 6:25:18 PM
hylozoist: I've chosen Samara as the second team leader in both death cases. Miranda said she was a perfect choice. I've chosen her because she must be very experienced with her almost 1000 years.
The first time around when Legion was the tech specialist I've used Garrus as the second leader. Maybe I try him again.
Oh God I wish there was a save possibility before selecting the tech specialist..
#8PuppetSoulPosted 1/29/2010 6:36:19 PM
Go to c:\program files\mass effect 2\biogame\movies\, and rename all the files that start out "EndGm1_Whatever.bik" to "EndGm1_Whatever.bik.old".
It'll then skip over all the cutscenes between starting the Omega4 jump and selecting the tech specialist.
Then if you want to see those scenes again, drop the .old extension off the end.
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#9dreamcleaver(Topic Creator)Posted 1/29/2010 7:42:25 PM
Thx for the tip.
Well chosing Garrus for second leader solved the tech specialist problem. Mordin stayed alive if sent to escort the crew to the Normandy. Everything would be fine and dandy if Legion didn't die in the last moment just for the heck of it. srsly this ****...
I wonder what if I bring the unloyal Legion with me for the final battle. I bet he falls down of the platform or dies from the debrish or whatever.
Good job Biowae on forcing me not to do his loyalty quest. Maybe I do a 2nd palythrough in the very very very distant future but doubtful. I'll just dl a save for ME3...
#10ChickenLiverNutPosted 1/29/2010 7:47:11 PM
this thread is full of whine
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