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she now found herself wanting more of his kisses when she should n't . |
but it was n't just the kiss she wanted-she wanted all of him and not just for sex . |
`` no , he 's not . |
i guess he 's just trying to accept the loss , both past and present , as best he can , '' she finally replied . |
kristi nodded in acknowledgement . |
when megan felt she was free from any more questioning , she hurried down the hall to the break room . |
thankfully , she found it empty . |
after grabbing a brush from her purse , she went to the sink to grab the hair dryer . |
gazing at her reflection in the mirror , she looked a bedraggled mess . |
she was practically washed out except for her lips . |
they were swollen and bright red from pesh 's kisses . |
her finger came up to trace her bottom lip . |
as memories of his kisses filled her mind , she tried desperately to think of anything else . |
in the end , she had gone up to the roof to somehow save pesh , and instead , she had lost herself to him and his emotions . |
chapter thirteen pesh regretfully watched megan 's retreating form . |
he cursed under his breath as she disappeared into the stairwell . |
what was his problem ? |
the woman had been merely comforting him , and he had allowed his libido to take over . |
he had promised her he would keep his distance . |
regardless of the flirting and easy banter between them , he had kept things professional . |
now she probably felt trapped and harassed by him . |
she tried to talk to him about it , and he 'd dismissed her . |
he paced around the rooftop as the rain that had soaked him to the bone began to dissipate . |
his mind was a jangled mess of thoughts and emotions . |
one voice argued over and over that megan had wanted him to kiss her-that the look in her eyes told the truth . |
but pesh worried that in his agony he had misread the signals she may or may not have been giving . |
in the end , he 'd made a terrible situation even worse by not being able to control his feelings for megan . |
with a frustrated grunt , he realized he had to make things right with her . |
he needed to apologize . |
casting one last look out over the horizon , he then turned and started for the stairwell . |
after pounding downstairs , he searched the hallway for any signs of megan . |
when he spotted kristi , he was surprised not to see megan with her . |
`` where 's megan ? '' |
he asked . |
`` oh , since we 're kinda slow tonight , i asked her to go work in the storage closet . |
we 're behind on inventory and cataloguing . '' |
`` i see . '' |
kristi eyed him up and down before shaking her head . |
`` you 're drenched . '' |
`` it 's raining outside . '' |
`` so i 've heard , '' she said knowingly . |
`` what does that mean ? '' |
he asked . |
she waved her hand . |
`` nothing . |
why do n't you do us both a favor and go get out of those wet clothes ? |
the last thing we need is you coming down with something . '' |
pesh knew it was fruitless to argue with her . |
instead , he tucked his tail between his legs and made his way to the doctors ' lounge . |
he took a clean pair of pants and shirt out of his locker . |
after he slid on a new white coat , he strode down the hall to the medicine closet . |
after swiping his key card , he entered the room . |
when he closed the door behind him , megan turned around , gazing expectantly at him . |
now that he was in front of her , he did n't know exactly what to say . |
he had been on an emotional overload on the roof , and things had escalated far too quickly . |
`` look , i just want to say how very sorry i am about kissing you . '' |
`` well i 'm not , '' she replied matter-of-factly . |
pesh 's neck snapped back in shock . |
her response was n't what he was expecting at all . |
he had imagined she might be relieved or even embarrassed , but he had n't imagined that she would be unregretful . |
he cleared his throat . |
`` regardless , i should n't have done it . |
i was in an emotionally vulnerable position , and you were merely trying to comfort me . |
nothing more . '' |
his words were more for his own good than hers . |
she shook her head . |
`` just because i was comforting you , does n't mean i did n't want you to kiss me . |
that i still do n't want to kiss you again . '' |
his brows furrowed in confusion . |
`` but you- '' `` pesh , i 've wanted you since the night of noah 's baptism . |
but you shot me down then , and you still do . '' |
although his heart wanted to soar at her admission of wanting him , the reality of her words caused his chest to clench instead . |
`` sexually . |
you only want me sexually . '' |
`` yes . '' |
he should have been flattered that a young , sexy woman like megan desired him . |
but he was n't . |
half of the women in the hospital would be willing for him to drag them to an empty patient 's room for a quick and dirty screw . |
but that 's not who he was . |
he had never been that way with women , and he did n't see how it could be possible to change . |
all he wanted was for her to really see him and how good he could be for her . |
how good they would be for each other . |
he thought that was what she was feeling in the moments before and after he kissed her . |
but now it seemed it was once again only lust . |
although it was probably pointless , he could n't help putting everything out there once again . |
`` but when we were up on the roof , there was n't a moment where you wanted more from me than just sex ? '' |
he licked his lips and took a step toward her . |
`` just a second where you could imagine your life with me in it ? '' |
megan stared at him , her expression contemplative . |
for a brief moment , pesh thought by her hesitation that she had changed her mind about him . |
but then she shook her head . |
`` how many times are you going to make me hurt you with this ? |
you 're too good for me , pesh . |
we both know that . |
i 'll remind you again of some of the reasons i 'm not the one for you . |
i 'm twenty-five , and you 're thirty-seven . |
you want a wife , and i 'm not ready to be married . '' |
her words cut into his chest the same as if she had taken a sharp blade to him . |
she may have had to repeat herself this time , but he realized the finality of her words . |
and then an idea hit him so hard that he shuddered-a true light bulb moment and epiphany . |
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