and i'm thinking when i get older i i i think if i brought all my precious belongings with me i think i could live in a home i i don't want to be a selfish you know a burden on anyone that's what i think because i see what my grandmother puts me through and i'm and i'm saying that when i get older i could probably make the best of this place i mean and of course it's institutional food and everybody hates it and it's so ironic is that they go in there and they lose weight  it it's really it's bad thing