all these ideas running around in his head, but they’re just thoughts, things that other…smart…important…powerful people do. i talked to myself like that for almost 40 years of my life…every day. having very little confidence, i would allow people to talk down to me and make me believe that i actually was stupid. i would go somewhere to be alone and break down and tell myself over and over….you are useless…who do you think you are? why do i always feel this way? why do i always fail at every single thing i do? i’d pull myself together and act like nothing bothered me and i was fine.
then, in what 