trust me ; i know what it 's like to have a parent die from violent circumstances . in the end , i told him that i loved him too . weird as it sounds , this all started with a little boy trying to feel safe . right through him , the captain said almost in a whisper . to my mother , who has wanted nothing more for me than to do whatever it is i love to do . go back to the us government . what woman would turn that down ? 