i asked them which apartment she was staying in , and they told me how she had gone to the store , but she 'd be back soon . until she looked at the price tag , she thought . `` okay , so we are going to grow our own food , '' said peter . `` wait a second ... that one sounds sort of familiar . '' when i read about him back then , the wounds were fresh and i could hardly process the written words in my mind without sliding back into the dark void . 