if i knew then what i know now , i would have done things differently . i have to do what im told . `` i do n't beg anyone for anything , '' he said . so we 're stuck with each other . '' when he raised his head , his eyes were red and raw as open sores . `` what 's the best type of lie in the world ? '' finally , he doesnt mind that billy has a crush on him ; thats nothing new . 