he was terribly still , a dead weight in her arms . not if you dont mean it . `` this time it was n't a dream i could barely remember . '' i have forgotten much that i thought i knew , and learned again much that i had forgotten . and that was fine , really , since hearing those words made her feel like he was trying to rip her heart into pieces once more . the color in her eyes is gone . `` until you can put aside your mourning , give me the town , '' he said . 