she wanted to live long enough to feel sunlight on her skin for real , just one more time . `` so when am i going to actually get down to it ? '' when fin could n't take her pain any longer , he placed his hands on both side of her head and gently pulled her face from his chest . he wo n't mean to , but he will . i 'm the one who earned it , after all . he nodded and handed my sunglasses back to me . it would be perfect again by morning . 