i swear , i was this close to hanging up the phone . i thought art was supposed to mean something . '' he grabbed the back of her head holding onto her . he glanced at me out of the corner of his eye and shifted in his seat . the door is always closed and she 's never gone in before , but she does now . his voice was thick when he replied , `` no , i 'm sorry . but tell me , why wouldnt you let me go back and defend myself ? 