as impossible as it sounds a chemical weapon had just saved my life . we finished going through our stacks of pages and then put our heads together combining our individual notes . last night had been good for them . i wrap my arms around his neck , winding my fingers into his hair . i silently counted and knew she must have as well because when i reached sixty , she spared me one sharp , meaningful look . if i 'd known , i would have come up with something else . 