this one was unique in being an all-male event , which , to me , seemed unfinished , even crude . does n't make it worse to have it said out loud . '' `` sam ... the same sam who ... '' letting go of my hand , she turned to amy and raised her eyebrows . i went from having the gun in my guts , to ripping her hair out and rolling around on the floor . most everyone standing around her laughed , though her mother shook her head at the ceiling . 