would it really be so bad to get lost in his arms again ? he was n't interested in the men . and that was one hundred percent the truth . `` that sounds like a good idea , '' he said , squeezing her hand . i only wish i was going with you . you 're in my dreams , my nightmares , my waking moments . `` i 'm jealous of being with you and not remembering what i did to you . god , that was sexy to hear . 