an arm flung backwards across his leg . `` i want to know what it feels like , '' i said , half suggesting , half asking . by the stars , she was as anxious as a teenager on her first date . he spat the word out , like it had been a bad taste in his mouth . i made sure she knew that i was paying for whatever sky wanted to eat and drink . whatever it is you have to say you can say on the phone . '' 