`` it was part of my training , noticing little things . '' he would do what must be done . there was a flutter deep in my chest . listen , rich , i wouldnt have done it if i had a choice but things are not precisely wonderful on this side . sam was n't a vampire , and he was only involved in this for my sake . you could perhaps not squeeze more than 9 people around it . the voice , sounding clear yet still muffled , continued , repeating the phrase . 