there was some freshman chick in there just washing her hands when we walked in ; she walked out real fast because she knew why we were there . `` i feel weird , like really tired all the time and overly emotional . you were near it , were n't you ? '' she kept screaming , because what did it matter to her who i was ? i am not crying , i am alone moved . if anyone knew the fate of her uncle , it would be the cardinal . `` why does this mean so much to you ? '' 