i loved that this was her first reaction . `` the newspapers ... they must have had a story about my being missing . '' it was bright enough to read a newspaper by . it was game changing , giving me that last push to let him back into our lives . `` yeah , it really sucks to be alone , especially on days of celebration . '' i wanted to pull my hands away and lock them behind my back to keep them from sliding around her waist like they were . 