the silence grows heavy between us . his lantern was shining like the horizon over the mountains in different seasons . that must have been some conversation . or maybe , like me , he 's f**king starving . `` we could make excuses and go inside to lie down . '' `` i think i 'd rather just go to sleep early . '' there was so much i wanted to say to him , but the words caught in my throat . did you hear who did it ? it matched her eyes to a tee . 