`` though i 'm the one who 's going to pay for this . '' he leaned in closer too and our lips met , just barely touching . and then he reached the bottom . `` i could n't ... , '' he finally choked out , before breaking down completely . you are caught in that moment between being awake and asleep . would he have a place to live ? just thinking about how strange i had felt at the party made me want to cry . 