`` um , about yesterday afternoon when ... um ... '' oh , nicely dug pit , lily . her heart was in her throat now , pounding . she nudged tommy in the ribs with her elbow , but tommy was staring ahead , hat low over her eyes . no one will know if you stay in my room , you know ? was this ... an ass-backwards apology of some kind ? everything seemed to be running smoothly , so i straightened myself up a little and folded away . this is a nightmare and i will wake up . 