perry sobbed away , trying to speak but not being able to . liquids and fuel bled out onto the street below them . she stopped and crossed her arms , blocking my way in the corridor as i tried to carry on . all i wanted was a bagel and some coffee . what she wanted most in the world was to see him . if you were ten i 'd tell you and we could discuss it and - '' `` you did tell me , or have you forgotten ? 