'and he loves me something awful . ' the man at the front desk was what you might expect at a low-rent motel . i watched the expressions change again as i walked back by , but none more so than my dates . `` it 's not for you to be sorry . he closes his eyes for a brief moment . `` i 'm guessing you have , so tell me . all the neighbors had privacy fences , so no one could possibly see us . 