i started thinking that it might be nice to be closer to where she was . all i can see is the flashlight . `` i need- '' `` i know what you need , baby . but , of course , there were bays and islands in the lake , so there were corners she could n't see yet . the nurse turns to me and even though they are trained to appear relaxed and not show the true measure of concern in their faces , i can see it in her eyes . 