he had no doubt they could get inside that building and get the job done . but she knew what she had to do . if they wanted me dead rather than her , id be dead . forty dollars for gas would do it . i grabbed my clothes from where they lay scattered around the floor and on the bed . my sister wasnt attached to the sea as i was . before i could ask what was wrong , she put a finger to my lips and shook her head , willing me not to speak . 