but it made me think about death , and about what it means to be alive , and i am very glad of that . 'i have not been of much use yet ; but i do n't want to be laid aside , like baggage to be called for when all is over . 'he said , what do we call ourselves ? ' she peered out of the bathroom door . he relaxes back into his seat . he 'd been as aware of her on the other side of the door as she was of him . 