it seemed that brians taste had not extended to the decoration of their home and there was , she was glad to see , a distinct lack of anything red . pain ripped through me , hard and fast . would they ever be able to move forward ? thats pretty much how society brings up boys to be like , but that is still rather painful to watch , even for me . `` you know the club talks , '' i started and watched his face change . i should have thought of it before . 