were n't they both working to find the one responsible for billy 's death ? she threw one of each to her mother . anything needed was easily at hand and yet their backpacks were light . she ran her lips on his neck , and breathed in his scent . and god , i could kill ye for it ! '' crap , bear said with a tired sigh . there it was , the question she 'd spent months avoiding . well , whether we were here or on earth , you wouldnt have stayed the same . 