this whole business world , playing things cool . i paused for a second before hitting send . i let my shoulders relax a little , smiling . shed once shared her poor scraps of memory of the sea with him . after i changed into dry clothes , i felt better . `` some anesthesia does n't work on us at all , '' i added . she 'd always been strong , so much so that her powers could n't be managed in her human state . otherwise , you never get the thing off the ground . 