at the shrill desperation in her voice , she laughed . beck did n't want me to die . i lean in and lick around the rim of the head , then take him in my mouth and suck hard . `` i was told he was away having extensive physical therapy . '' it can carry the weight of twenty men , over rocky ground . she cries and cries , and she tells him that she deserves it all because of what she did to you . 