although it made me feel like a little girl , i longed to have him cradle me in his arms and tell me all of the stories of his childhood . perhaps his suspicions about her were not too crazy . `` never saw him in my life . and did you , or your master , ever test this in practice ? '' `` he did n't kidnap me and we were n't running away . she speeds up , moving from side to side , then up and down , imitating waves . almost as big as a softball , oblong . 