she still could n't quite believe it , that so much had changed that day . he 's the only reason i 'm here , on death row , waiting to die , in the gas chamber . he hugged me back , kissing my hair . my sister is still missing ... . '' `` what ? '' i laughed at him a little , and he did n't like it . sitting back in the carriage , i removed one of the blue journals id requested from the brown bag . 