he hesitated , but he could feel the dream hovering in the night-still air , just behind him ; to keep silent and lie back in the dark was to invite its return . i wanted to ask what that meant , but he stepped through into the next room . silver flooded his veins , the fresh hit stealing his ability to move . the other time i went out of control was when we were about to get killed , but you know the rest , i said looking at him in the eye . you went and got yourself possessed . 