he busted into my house , interrupted my date , and told me that you deserved to play . im bringing in a company of 100 men with field tents and gas heaters , if we can find them . somebody who 'd work with me , who 'd be willing ... not eric . he considered how different their lives had been . 6 ) look for other independence movements . i let go of him and suddenly i feel like im afloat in the middle of an ocean , drowning , with no way of saving myself . 