quietly , he murmured , `` i did n't say anything until he was already on his back . '' he kissed me on my forehead . phoenix pushed away from the table . i nodded and hoped she 'd drop the subject . that was jimmy : always polite , even when it didnt matter . i try to focus on that-we will get out of this . i was too nervous to sit down . helps keep the white trash out . '' maybe she would be calmer , more reasonable , in the morning . the vision faded all too quickly . 