`` no , i 'm - `` `` the hell you 're not ! and so on until the real day . besides , i 'm a girl and that 's my job . we can have a whole month if you want . i wanted to watch his beautiful blue eyes fading , fading . kay noticed cars and homes and clothes , but pretended to ignore it all . thus far , i 'd yet to see one image of me . when i looked up , daddy was watching me watch my wine . 