`` how could the doctor really know their state of mind ? when we 're done , do you want us back at the castle ? when i woke up that night , i was a vampire . the longing for a home that will never be . rodney was standing in the doorway of the county jail , watching them go . i had to get to my apartment before i threw up . they peered under the bed and writing desk . what i am not sure we got right is the 'why ' . 