i think we can fix all of this . sure , he was , by all accounts , a perfectly nice guy and a gentleman to boot , but everything about him screamed boring ! by time i 'd finished , i had to run to the slit trench we 'd dug last night . feeling the warmth of his skin , his pulse beating against my palm , for some reason i fell in love with him more just because he was so ... very ... real . the kids and i will manage somehow . 