like i just noticed it for the first time . being in love with rule had never been an easy thing to do , and now that i knew what it was like to actually love him i was n't sure how to go back to before . i asked , reaching up to stroke the light shadow beneath his eye . still , maybe youre right , t. pete pauses , takes a mouthful of beer , and sucks it into his cheeks before swallowing it . the point is these did n't fall on their own . 