is sitting with me now.
sometimes i can tuck the grief safely away and enjoy the present and everything else that my life is about. i will certainly not give up on happiness. having a baby is not all life has to offer. but sometimes it is all consuming and overwhelming and while in this space, i just need to feel it. i need to let it be what it has to be until i can find my own way out of that darkness.
i have to give the sun a chance to shine through my window until the smile you see on my face is a real smile and what you 