i wo n't think about the horror that awaits me . the mattress is old and lumpy , but its the softest thing weve slept on for a month . he nodded his head slowly , then looked down at the waves crashing beneath them . i stepped inside , closing the door behind me firmly . he was like her brother , for petes sake . `` then something happened and i felt like i had a reason to wake up everyday . '' i head for the passenger door , pull it open and hop in . 