i raise my hands out at my sides . frustrated , parker walked around to the back of the house and knocked . lilac wo n't talk to me again . it felt alive , a source of power , but when she gave two practice cuts it handled like a dream . `` guess i burned it off tonight at the show . i said , `` actually i do n't know if anyone could do it right . he had no intention of showing henry the respect of calling him by his preferred name . 