of course , i didnt tell them anything about my disease . i was n't ready for it and i did n't know if i ever would be . he examined the suit more closely . the soldier turned on a small lantern . i felt it was better than telling him i fell . all his awesome power-and it was truly awesome-was useless . a comfort that she needed as much as she 'd once needed the drugs . the queen of ter , or what ? not when the love you build up in your head is n't really real . 