she made a sound and brought her hands up to push me back but then dropped them before actually touching me . i keep waiting for the day when it will hurt less . i know , and that 's real good -- that 's what i want you to do when you forget . i have n't been with you , been inside you , for days . in this way , you and i are connected . '' i mean , i dont usually see you at this scene . maya needed to forget her name , who she was . 