i opened my eyes , which were then blurry , and found myself alone in the bathroom , my stuff spread out all over the floor . this ritual has brought me to god and god to me . i think my eyes are open , but im not positive because i cant see clearly . `` it appears the heavenly fire in his veins was finally too much for him . time to change the subject , she thought . long tables for cutting fabric and two young girls working . she could no longer remain still . 