far too late , her body was now inside the abyss of darkness before i got to her . as he walked towards the door of the bar he said simply before leaving , you will know , my brother . that 's what people mean when they say someone swallowed his tongue , is n't it ? there was stubborn , and then there was i 'd rather die . i have known for a while now that i was head over heels for her , but i did n't want to freak her out by telling her too quickly . 