do n't you know i was- '' i paused , cleared my throat , and straightened . `` the police would probably make me into mincemeat if they knew i 'd taken them . `` we were in rags and starving . '' a hint of cold fury flickers across her face , then is gone . when all the other passengers were in their seats , there was a video about what to do if the plane should crash . the sadness trapped in them captured my breath . 