`` carl and i talked about this before i left . the marshal says there is no secret weapon so i honestly dont know what it was . i smiled and laughed , thinking about the fact that on our first date i 'd told him that i would never ever sleep with him . she could pull it back now . there were some things i 'd decided that i would n't even think about , much less bring out into the open . he looked into that battered face as if seeking an answer but the mans eyes were shut . 