he lay there on the sand , his body stiff and aching , trying to remember where he was . also , he was tormented not knowing what was happening to him . they laughed , the younger choking on his smoke . surely she would have mentioned it if she had ? she was completely powerless and she needed to feel powerful , as a woman does who is wanted so badly by a man , he would do anything for her . but if we 're seriously involved i do n't want any secrets between us . 