he 'd had the most horrible nightmare . if youre not going to fix the ship , i will . lightly painted walls and expensive furniture surrounded me instead of blood and bombs . even dodge , standing with his face turned away from the light . i reached over and shut it off . then she said i wasnt bothered about it then , but now i wish we carried on talking . my eyes are closed and i focus on the feel of his lips on mine . looks like i 'm getting me a new daddy . '' 