i 'm starting to get really nervous , '' i admitted , making my eyes huge to mask how nervous i truly was . he would have to be much more careful . i try to catch my bearings in my five-inch killer heels but end up running to my right-so dizzy , so damn tired . just when i thought i 'd come right out of my skin , he 'd pull back , breathing just as heavily as me . she wanted to be closer to him , as close as she could possibly be . 