okay , so it was n't a total success . for once , though , i actually feel like i look on the outside like i look on the inside . '' `` oh man , i 'm going to be late ! '' it was more than she could understand , more than she could handle . i tried to talk to her last night but she wasnt at home . she understood on an intellectual level what was occurring . she tucked the phone under her chin and leaned against the wall . 