i kept putting off questioning him until the desserts were cleared and i could delay no longer . `` it is what it is , there is nowhere else to go but forward . '' try to rest until i get back . i turned my tear filled face towards him and for the first time in my life i didnt know what to do . he had n't meant to hurt her feelings , but it was too late to do anything about it now . i waited several minutes , but still the cold did not return . 