smith kept backing away , looking for something , anything , he could use as a weapon . he 'd lived without a heart until he 'd seen her . as in , i sat in on some of her phone calls and made notes . i have some people bringing drinks and fruit but no one signed up for a main course . my hands slipped under the robe at her neck , and with my fingers , i pushed it off her shoulders and down her arms . where i 'm concerned , all the damage has already been done . 