he reached up and peeled his shirt off and i think my mouth dropped open again . theres a new womans shelter that needs some desperate repairs . a husky voice asked from behind me . `` i do n't think you do , '' she said , surprising him . `` i think we found what he 's been looking for . '' i remembered the girl screaming , remembered smelling my own blood as i scrambled against flying fists , but more than anything , i remembered feeling alive . 