but it wasnt easy , and it took a long time for me to feel even somewhat normal again . both this afternoon and just now . for now , they would know no better . but i will have no part of it . `` you 're making me look bad . '' so my way in was set for me . are you ready to drink it ? i guess we cant stop them from meeting . an image to hold against fear . why had n't she made the first move to phone him even once the past week ? 