how can you be sure the others you brought here will remain loyal ? he frowned and added , but youre not scared of the wolf ? well , he explained , im kind of on the ropes , so to speak . but if you stay now , you dont stand a chance . where would you like them to take him ? '' i took a breath , and then another one and then counted to five in my head to calm down , or attempt to calm down . but there is one thing you do n't control . 