i did not think he wanted me to . slamming my hands over my ears , i forced myself to forget . my mother found him slumped over . i sat up and pushed the hair out of her face . he stopped talking , a funny smirk on his face . when we pulled up at the house some moments later it did n't look at all as i had imagined it . worth anything just to witness that . '' `` i would n't look like this if it was n't for you ! '' 