the first bar he 'd been in for nineteen months and the damned thing was dry-just his luck . but she was still so mad at him for letting this go on as long as it had that she did n't think she could do so without screaming at him . it 's not like it changes anything . '' `` what if some of it 's about nash ? '' the rising sun was washing the entire area around the base of the tower with warm light . it hurts to look at you sometimes . '' 