normally she stuck to the truth , believing with all her being that a lie was always wrong . his broad , heavy palm slid up my back . so many years had been spent fantasizing about him at night that i 'd never imagined it 'd be possible that he 'd manifest in the day . he chose instead to stand there and wait for someone else to hit a button somewhere . she decided that it was no use waiting ; she would have to go out and find him . 