i was also amazed at how difficult that towel was to get off . today , fully prepared , i wore a white shirt untucked with the top button unbuttoned . then , as if he was n't talking to me ( which he was n't ) , he muttered , `` i 'm the one who wanted a challenge . he could sense good things on the horizon . i loved seeing mike so excited , especially since hed found a way out . im being punished for everything that i ever did while i was alive . 