all i can do is act , move , be . the heat in the cattle car choked me . maria took hold of his hands to hold him out at arms length . this is n't about what she 's done to all of us . quickly i filled will in on what had happened at the cottage in the woods . as far as i can tell , mouse can follow a scent trail from space . if something ever happens to me , i need to know that you can protect yourself . 