he was letting me over his , too . it 's a small hole in our space . and the local population is prepared to help us . `` good , because whenever you 're near me , i fucking lose every bit of self-control i have left . '' another beat ; then he dropped his gaze . i know forty-five thousand dollars is a lot of money , but i really think shell help , especially if we follow the payment plan i made for her . dreamer didnt know what to do . 