he trundled busily back and forth , first getting the mud , then throwing it . i do n't want those bastards to win . '' he thought about all the years of his youth . i told you i did n't want you here . after tonight he would be her husband in fact as well as in name . `` besides , sad as it is , i think i 'm safer there than here . '' `` he was n't doing it very well , '' silk added . `` yes it is , '' she yelled over her shoulder . 