deep down, i had had a bad experience. and i kept telling myself, it was just god's will. again, thank you, this information changed my life.
and also from me to you. hugs and support. i'm so sorry that for 20 years you have felt this way. you are a strong person inside. keep your head up and know there are people out here that care about you truly. sometimes people close to you and people who know you just don't understand what their feelings do to you. 