he was crying , i didnt even know it was possible for us to cry . `` you 're not saying that he 's going to die , are you ? '' `` i do n't know , but i do know that he protected me from his own pride , and almost took a bullet for me . '' i 'm going to be a good man now . i do n't want to mess it up too badly . '' i woke up the next morning tired and stiff from sleeping on the uncomfortable metal chair . 