`` i 'm not sure of what kind of reaction you are expecting from her . '' rolling over , i rested on top of her , lost in the feel of her . this secret has an expiration and it will reveal itself with or without her permission . well somebody got me in trouble . why are we going to a bar ? '' he realized that he had been holding on to some kind of hope , foolish though it was . why do n't you sit down and join me , or would you rather stand there all night ? '' 