the only thing he feared more than whatever was in the forest was losing himself and zip . things would go back to the way they were supposed to be . as she guides mercedes through the garden and to the gate , mercedes comments , your garden is lovely so filled with beauty and color . i know , that what i did to my brother was the will of the gods but i can not help feeling that i made a mistake . wade , those people are not my friends . this is why i called my stepmother . 