whatever it was she had to tell him , it made her nervous . he had salt and pepper hair and wore a red handkerchief in the left breast pocket of his black business suit . what the hell was tumbling anyway ? i was going to track this memory . i gave him a big hug and he hugged me back . pushing his whole company on my shoulders and all the responsibility that comes with it . `` what kind of a place is this , anyway ? he no longer screwed the staff . 