but i am numb as the supplies arrive . despite everything she 'd learned from her mother , and everything she knew from observation , and everything years of dealing with her own business affairs had taught her , she could n't imagine turning away from him now . she had n't even crossed my mind when i came in tonight . dont fall asleep on the job . now , all i needed to do was to find the time to read them . `` they 're on their way now . '' 