and for that , i knew , with sadness i did not expect to feel , that i would be lost for it , even if he had kept me safe for the present . `` we 're going to the pharmacy across the street . shea raised a hand to push back her rain-slick hair . i slowly raised my head and looked at her . the head table at the far end of the room was set up to view not only the guests , but also anyone entering the hall . 