it feels like i 'm finally in a point in my life where i can talk to him again . now i have your attention shall we try again ? either way , it did n't help matters . i didnt say anything to him ; i knew only time could help . but he was right to guard himself against me , because no matter how many times i told myself otherwise , i still had n't let go of jake . why , it was only yesterday that i was changing baby diapers . 