i ca n't let him suffer because of me ! i know whatever we had is done , unless i want to be his mistress-and i do n't . he would never hurt him , but oliver came at him , and then ... then i could n't tell what happened , they struggled , and there was all the blood ... oliver went down and ... he did n't get up . ' what if she refused protection and training ? i squeezed his hand , quietly accepting the significance of his words . 