of fear (her mother had died when she was only 12) . . . and the first two years of my life, were probably pretty much the same . . . along with the belief of the time that babies should be bottle-fed, they should sleep lots (if not all the time) and should be left to cry because they may be spoiled – although i know my mother and father did their best – i see the affect on my life, my brother’s lives as well as my parent’s lives.
somehow, i knew when i was pregnant (along with reading . . . it was also a “knowing”) that this 