'your other mistake was thinking you 'd be safe outside on the street . i turned and faced him , feeling like my heart was going to flutter out of my chest . i think about how clever i have been , tricking all the shrinks into thinking that they were good at their jobs . listen to the words of my mouth ... `` i will never be what you want me to be . '' he tossed his keys on the counter . over an hour into his flight , vader felt a disturbance in the force . 