`` i have to hold on to you . '' but she did n't know or trust the woman . they were dead two days before i knew i 'd lost them . '' and i had to force myself to consider either scars or wounds as i demanded of him , have you utterly lost your wits ? two very large , very drunk humans were having it out in the middle of the dance floor . i aimed the .357 at his face . he had been gaining on me , but now i could hear him wheezing terribly . 