but she did n't know what she 'd seen , not exactly . that was far worse than he could ever have imagined . i turned and pulled my shirt aside to show him my back . at least she had in her head . note to self : never talk badly about jungle cats . she needed to get a move on fast and quit letting the good-bye with wade tear her up . `` that 's exactly what i 'm afraid of , '' mason replied and then claimed my mouth with his once again , with much more force than before . 