but i 'm not prepared for the very different kind of disaster i find at the entrance to the estate . `` it may be that something was missing , i would n't know . surprised by the sudden affection , i froze , then wrapped my arms around her waist and leaned back . but one black claw reached out and snatched the book from the air . i felt bliss for a moment when i saw the sky , until i realized it was the color of spoiled milk . 