he drew up beside her and said , `` m'lady '' . would not allow it , now that he had reason to live . it would serve him right for breaking up with me . he didnt want me to die , but turning me might have sealed that as my future fate anyway . he told me everything that happened . '' this caption read : these were the best years . but i could n't touch them , could n't let my fingers give the signal to my brain that they were real . 