then they ca n't come back down ! ' all these years she had convinced herself that you had gotten over her , and were living a happy life somewhere with someone else . i turned and saw the same blue t-shirt , with andrews lovely head right atop it . and she could never be safer . rose sat up on the bed , crying out , shaking and gripping his hair . heart pounding , i jumped up from my bed and peeked through my window . i was a nervous wreck to hold him because he was small . 