i will be in the garden if you need me . `` well , this is a surprise , '' she says , passing it to me . `` actually , i had to decide i could accept who and what i was , '' she admitted . i see why you want a piece of that . i did n't have time to pass out . i said on my very last ration of air . he knows me well enough that no words are even needed . it was n't a shock but it was more than a surprise . '' 