she nodded to the guards outside her chambers as they stopped . `` i 'm not likely to meet someone like him . '' `` things between us got pretty intense and that 's all i 'm going to say about it . '' i rise from the bed , wondering if he does n't want company and if i should head out too . i could n't give in to the panic . and , i imagine , had my mother lived , my father would have never saved as many people as he did . 