it was a three way race and only one would survive for long . that meant ... good lord , that meant he 'd almost kissed me . she could n't forgive me for not being there because i was falling apart . they waddled up the bank pulling the boat behind them . if it 's meant to be , it will be . '' she searched her brain , trying to remember why it was so important to avoid him and fight these feelings he stirred within her . 