whether her silence is coming from her confusion or from a desire to be rid of me , i have no way of knowing . that , my dear , is a secret , she answered . age was beating hard upon his body , but it had yet to touch his mind . i blinked and returned my attention to the list . was he driving through texas now ? a barney song from the toddler years kept running through her head . i have every available officer , even the off duty ones , in the market area . 