`` the only video we ca n't take down is that one . id hidden in that dark room for hours waiting for her , not even faintly interested in joining in with them . `` it was , as a matter of fact . '' but it does n't stop it from hurting . '' that 's why it was so hard to wait to free you . i hated the man in front of me for even mistakenly leading me to believe that i had lost james . i barely have time to register fear - then it 's on us . 