it could glide around me and lift me from the ground like a leaf caught in the window , placing me on a cloud to take me away . thats the dumbest question anybody has ever asked me . you should n't trust anything he told you . ' and yet , i found myself staring after him , every time he excused himself for a few minutes . a man she had been intimate with in the past . `` you need to focus on what you 're going to do , not how benjy feels . '' 