he disappears into the closet momentarily , so i go over and lie on his bed , kick off my cheer-bot tennis shoes and take a deep breath into his pillow . a pregnant pause hung between us ; he was still clearly uncomfortable with this exchange . lily hugged his thin body close to her . i was too excited by him , too aware of his every touch . some cookies my wife baked yesterday , and a drink of cola , as requested , will said , placing them on the coffee table in front of jake . 