he was standing with his hands folded together , his eyes on me and his stance alert . i nearly didnt recognize him myself when i saw him yesterday . he led me across the hall to my own office and guided me to the sofa . alans there , in his own car . though she 'd promised to love him , forever . he circled his fingers around her ankle , sliding her leg up , and pushed farther inside her . `` the sheriff came up empty last night . i remember the pain , not being able to breathe . 