now, you know, but see -- you know that's all past, fine, you know we made it through that, but what people have to understand is that there's still a long way to go with him. i mean he's only five years old, you know, so i mean later on when he realizes you know what -- you know that he -- he's starting to realize that now i think that he's different and i'm pretty sure that later on he's gonna say "why am i different" and we're gonna have to come up with an answer, and what i want before that time, before that question ever comes up 