`` what i want to know , '' he said , `` is what question you wanted to ask me that was so important that you were willing to risk having to work for me for a year to ask it . how hard it was to feel those nebulous dreams shatter and dissolve as if they 'd never been . `` he made me take a pregnancy test . '' she paused and took a sip of her soda . i decided then not to worry about things i could n't control . 