his fingers dug deep into my thigh . `` miracle , '' the nurse said , gently rubbing miracle 's cheek . he looked too hot to be that young . what was going on with the men today ? he flashed a charming smile then turned his head to check them out as they walked past , brow lifting in appreciation . i want to believe you , but i 'm afraid . they live to die , do they not , to be used and disposed of ? ' grace popped her thumb in her mouth and mumbled , `` who ? '' 