it surprised me but the work was going quickly even though gray did it with mostly just him and sonny , who was retired so he had the time . `` this is the drug , '' he said . his death was a huge loss to his family , fans , and to racing . '' his sister is in my class . i looked across at tara , who was still peering intently at the horizon behind us and i laughed . i lifted one down and carried it back to the pool table . 