how could she think of others , their emotions , when her own were so fragile one lift of his little finger and her world would crash in . `` no , you do n't need to come . only then are you confident enough in your own character and abilities to avoid creating a pseudo personality to please your partner . hell , i 'd visit the coast for the first time ever . '' i wished i were still at beck 's house , back in sam 's bed under his bedroom sky of birds . 