he stops , and then somehow he has both of my hands in his , and his eyes are sliding down to mine and searching me and reading the lie in my heart . i would hate to let the king down . and i honestly do n't know what breaks my heart more-the fact that he called me by someone else 's name , or the fact that he actually said love this time instead of live . i slipped my thermos into my robe pocket and sneaked toward the guys ' dorm . 