not expecting we 'd be on their heels . her grandmother 's words circled around her head until she thought of something she had n't considered before . he does n't answer me for a long time . and what if it turns out that i am-the thing that he and i hate the most ? i'l have to remind myself that it 's real . '' in the dark , i could n't see his eyes , but i recalled them as golden-brown with all the sharpness of a hunting hawk . only you can decide what you want to share with me . 