they used me , because my guard was down . he put his head down into my neck and moaned . i could n't stand trying to raise her and myself . jack reached for her , turned her toward him . she could n't get her fingers to move . besides , how could i bring you back ? and as spent as i am from the ride he just gave me , i know that i need more of him , right away . `` well ... what did it look like ? '' 