`` you ca n't deny that something brought us together twice in one lifetime . '' `` why does it always have to be about killing ? every chance he got , he came home and helped his parents on their farm . my conscience and my need for revenge gave me liberty to do that . i was too young to understand what the village was really like . actually it 's kind of embarrassing , but by the same token it 's true . `` it was too embarrassing to talk about at first . 