i lean in and plant a sweet kiss right over her lips , and , for a brief moment , i imagine this is our wedding day . the dweller reached up to shove him off . i felt pleasure ; i was grateful to have somebody with me , even if it was this ugly fat dog . then he broke away and shouted again . `` you do n't want to know , remember ? '' `` i can do that , '' he said again . 31 `` could i have something to drink ? '' 