i turned my face away from him then . it went click , in a military kind of way . it was her first time killing , and she did n't think she had enough power . i begged , my breathing still ragged , my throat burning as i sucked in icy air . while she showered , jake ordered a pizza and when she got out of the bathroom he tucked her into bed , heaping the covers around her . it is cold and snowing , she said and paused . 