when she 'd first seen him , she 'd been freezing with dread and the desert 's chill . i felt everything in me tense as i asked the critical question : `` is it true ? '' `` well , maybe i do n't want you screwing some girl but you will . '' at the same time the clock in the hall struck midnight . she had to fight not to step back and slam the door . she freaked out a little after she realized that she needed to make the meal . he 's my mason through and through . 