time for lunch , she said quietly . `` why are you so mean to me ? '' yet despite that scare , i found myself soon drifting off . when it all goes to hell , just fix one thing at a time . `` i was n't nervous about my studies , i was scared about losing you . he made more people stare , made me more of a spectacle than i already am . well , obviously nobodys cleaned under here in a while , bailey says , toeing the container . 