but if we did , wed be dead anyway . the bear drops to all fours . i could hear the alarm in his voice . `` and thinking , '' she added quickly , like she thought he 'd make fun of her . just as she 'd known it would be from their first kiss . he had no reason to call me and i had no reason to call him-unless i wanted to come clean about the letters . `` we ca n't go around whacking the bad guys for the hell of it . 