she looks up at me and she looks almost lost . i was afraid the roof would blow off any minute . be honest with me , i know somethings about to go down , i have family here , and i dont want them in the middle of a fight that has nothing to do with us . `` for a trip to the dinner table . '' i can do anything as long as he is by my side . that 's if the babies live , something we wo n't know about here for at least another five months . 