i nodded yet again and she nodded back . i was shouting , and i lowered my voice . he was in trouble , but he refused to let anyone beat him down . we might have escaped today , but this is n't the end . his clothes -- the clothes he 'd been wearing when he left , no less -- were torn . he looked like he hated me . `` i 'm sure you probably already know , but are n't going to share . '' which totally kills me , knowing what she thinks of me . 