that would all change once this was all over . before i 'd ask the world to mourn my death i 'd sooner call a flock of hungry birds to pick me clean before my final breath . `` she had to go to the hospital . my heart starts to race , and i feel myself wanting to close off . then , you two come back up and i see you giving her a kiss . maybe he could poke around the house , try to peek in a window . i gripped the back of his neck and pulled him down . 