how are you going to make the fire , or how will i scare up some fish ? i had a busy night and need some sleep . well , if you want to be alone , fine , i 'm heading to the kitchen because i desperately need a drink . ' i wanted to crouch at her side and hold her and be told that it would all be all right , that we would all be safe . `` if i had my way i would have planted a hammer in his forehead . '' 