he tries to keep his steps slow and deliberate , but every step sends a new agony over his body . she smiled big , holding her arm out for me to take . `` the parking lot is full at the moment , '' brunswick said with amusement . but she was going to enjoy every moment-savor every minute-until the time he set her free . i think it 's pretty damn decent of you , actually . '' he 'd never had the desire to make any relationship permanent before-and that scared the hell out of him . 