and he was right , he had great kids . whats he been saying about me ? he eyed me critically , waiting for my answer . it 's what we use to guide us home and to find our way through the dark . `` we should wait to find out until we have the baby . everyone on board was filled with joy and excitement , but not an excitement that made one talk . i know it sounds horrible , but that is the reality . the tree lot 's lights were off and its fires were out . 