he sank back into his chair and felt the room begin to spin . surely you do n't allow him to play with bears ! how the hell would you guess something like that ? shed kicked them off somewhere around here . `` no ... '' she drew the word out and tilted her head to the side . a spot of red appeared on the deck hatch , then shifted to yellow , then to white . `` is he going to propose at a baseball game ? '' i looked at her lips again and sighed . 