i might not like him , but my body sure as hell does . `` when are you going to get it through your head that i 'm not the guy you think i am ? '' where does the river come from ? i am not a retriever and never should have put myself forward for this mission . it was exactly how i felt , too . his hand slid under my shirt . tough to track anything in there . find a way to communicate with earth . why the f**k could n't she remember how to calm the f**k down ? 