she lifted him up and gave him a long hug and told him that she did not want to hurt him , ever , no matter what . she was ready to get tossed on those waves . he sat down again , facing me , and said , thats why im telling you all this . chapter thirty-seven i could n't stop yawning as i got ready for work the next morning . leaning my head against the wall , i draw my legs up to my chest , wrapping my arms around them trying to hold my body still . 