now , at my advanced age , i would like to see her again . and finally , i 'd made peace with the whole `` being different '' thing . the hounds were the problem , but if the spy had his timing right , he 'd be able to take care of them and get to the child without interference . silence then a clearing of the throat . i asked them once about this ; they said i was too young to be told . `` okay , so this is the main house . '' 