it strikes me immediately that fifty or so of our closest friends are watching . i ca n't handle not knowing the truth , especially when it has to do with you . just follow my lead he whispers . `` and the drugs in his car were an added bonus . '' he finds his eyes drifting far too often to the firm upright swells of jennys chest . i doubt very many of you will last the year here , but youre here and i expect you to do your best . his gaze met mine and immediately i turned away . 