when we got to their house he grabbed my hand the second he was out of his car seat and did n't let go until we were in his room . i do n't think we have time now . sorry , boston , i did n't even know she was strong enough to knock that over . `` total is seventy-three ninety six . '' a shudder passed through me as i saw the spot where i had played so many times as a little girl . its like he has some sort of spell over me every time we make eye contact . 