he needed to get as far from the wall as he could before they realized he was gone . would have been unable to stop himself . go to bed when the man has gone . `` i wish i could take you with me , '' his voice had dropped to a whisper . apparently , he was too busy with his new wife and kids to give a damn . johns emotions fought against his sense of duty . i know she has turned on the prince . your reports have been most interesting . 