i instantly thought he was going to force himself on me , but he did n't take off my clothes . i did know that if we started this-shared our personal life-we could n't take it back later . my brain might not have known what to do with his sudden switch in demeanor toward me but my body had no trouble responding . i do n't want them looking into my business . '' i was relieved that cowboy had left our farm , and for this i thanked god in a short but sincere prayer . 