he forced himself to pull back , because one , it was inappropriate to smell a woman 's hair while she was crying in his arms , and two , because he really , really did n't need this headache right now . we must pray that he gets saved . more than that i was surprised he answered a personal question . it fed on me and would have turned me into a husk , she silently said . excuse me for being a complete idiot who did n't plan on a sinking ship like you apparently did ! '' 