more-or-less , i saw it as my parent 's way of getting me out of the house , with of course their spin of : 'a head start on life . ' gails finger moved off the diary and the vision faded . `` our friends are all put up . i want her to beg me to do it again , but she shakes her head no . it was clear that he did n't know what to say . she glanced at her wrist watch . but he wanted to take away her pain . 