`` i want to stay , '' myrtle said quietly . her bag looked way too big as it hung on her shoulder . had wanted to tell him to suck every last drop of her blood . you will also learn to live off of your hate for me . no wonder her skin was grayish and her face bruised . it would have been kinder than the death he will have now . '' it was the only time in his life he 'd allowed himself to be weak and it was an experience he would never again repeat . 