i ca n't see her face at all . `` you are sad to be alive . '' pete freeman caught up with her . `` oh , honey , '' she starts ; moving to take jules ' hand once she reaches the last few steps . `` she told you she 's having a new will drawn up ? '' i should have known what was going on . instead , there she was , swimming the butterfly stroke in lane one , while i made a fool out of myself by turning around to watch her . 