and the littles have released several squirrels in the house again , she added silently . `` he 's lost a lot of blood , but he seems strong enough . '' it is the only way i know how to deal with life . only when she said my name like this-like she was shy and maybe even anxious-did i remember she said she had something to tell me other than i love you . she realized looks didnt matter and gave up . in the middle of the woods . `` i am not going into that bedroom . '' 