thinking i might be going crazy , i rocked back and unlocked the door . `` what would we have to do ? '' jack used to be a policeman ; he used to be married ; and he used to smoke and drink too much , too often . i wondered if a security guard would automatically call the cops if he saw me edging up the walk , a lurking shadow definitely out of place . `` if i go up with you ... '' i started . it 's the last room down the hall . '' 