a night just to look at her. feeling for that familiar rise and fall of each breath. i’m not sure when i will stop worrying about her. when i will stop running what-if scenarios through my mind each night. i’m not sure that fear ever really goes away, even for parents who have never experienced a loss.
right now, we are soaking in every moment we have with her. all too aware that every second we are lucky enough to have her is precious and amazing. we are learning how to sleep less and love more, how to worry less and dream more. looking too far into the future may always 