but then , maybe it was my job to create my own perfection , take my place in society , and fill in the slot that had been made for me and do it in a proper and pleasing way . besides the names not registering , they just didnt seem smart enough to be my guy . there was nothing she could do or say that would get him to change his mind . but again , tony had made a mistake . i 'm not even sure yet if i 'm going or not . '' 