i fell asleep with the notebook next to me , both of us staring at the ceiling . then i grow silent as i stare at the new apartment . the thing is that a girl like that does n't have any choice . by the time i noticed , they were right outside the door . afraid and crying and screaming my name , he finally turned and faced what was calling to him . like the fact that he 'd purposefully , with great relish , got her pregnant which nearly caused her to die . 