it sounded simple enough , but the concept was a complete sea change . `` look , i went outside and spoke to the crowd because somebody had to do it . i saw one group climb up behind the village and head south , while another group went across the river going north . there was only the darkness and herself , going down and down and down . i think of how colin touched me earlier and nothing happened . and you want me in the same way . here , he said , handing the envelope to me . 