even though she didnt know if she felt love for her husband and daughter , these thoughts bothered her ; they brought a few tears to her eyes once . 'not in my lifetime , and sadly , not even in yours . stand back to back and see what you can do . the idea that something i could bring her would make her feel better had to be too good to be true . he had his head in his hand , elbow bent as he watched me finish packing my bags . 