as i had in the bathroom that night ? `` you 're thinking of leaving here ? '' i shrugged and let him follow in silence . he did n't seem to care that he 'd just given away his lie . he turned to the dock behind him and flicked a hand at the air . being near cole when he was in this kind of a dark mood was n't what i 'd describe as pleasant , but it was better than being away from him . there was no way to leave unless she allowed it . 