`` in a ditch , horse country , miles from anywhere . did you want it first-hand ? what was left of his hair was grey , trimmed neatly , though hardly a fringe remained . knowing that she realized what he had done made him feel a little more cheerful as he finished the last of the dishes and headed for his office . so as we have sex , i numb myself to him . `` ca n't complain , old man , ca n't complain . '' she needs you now more than ever . 