`` you released his soul from torment and gave him peaceful rest . he opens his big hands and looks around . i dip my head in a single nod for him to continue . she could n't believe that was only yesterday . `` i know you better than you think . until every cell she possessed wept with knowledge of him , unable to deny him in any way . but he was with me now , by his choice , and the feelings that he shared were real and as obvious as black and white , with no shades of gray . 