and when are we going to start ? it was like having the sun in the office now . he turned all the way around and looked at his lap . `` i saw you diving from inside , '' he said . certainly that had n't been her intention . still , he shared a bigger one with me , so we 're even . but this is no bad thing ; it will give you confidence and strength . we 'd moved a couple times after my dad left , so no one place has ever felt like home . 