i could just make them out through the driving rain , and it was a good bet that they could see me too . `` i 'm just trying to think it all through . '' `` how can i change with you here ? '' i know the hell my mother went through , loving rex , or thinking she did . '' she wrapped her arms tighter around her . if the rest of his family had been there , they did n't follow him now . i was n't saying anything they had n't already thought of themselves . 