but she knew he 'd be cursing it again if she was n't around . i wrote the numbers down and tore off the paper . there are options - `` you ca n't have a boy , some voice inside me said . `` these are sixes , '' i said , wondering if my boots or barefoot would be the better option . youre just sticking your head in the sand . corral at 9:27 in the evening in a conflict that meant nothing . he had become so dehydrated that he could barely hear his own voice . 