drugs could do that , but this was something else . it was large and perfect , like a museum . a sudden insane urge to stop came to him . is that all you want from him ? i had to slap a hand over my mouth to keep from giggling . they should have known better , if they gave it any thought at all . he came over , wrapped me in his arms and rocked me slightly back and forth , just as he had done all those times before when i needed him . 