but you see , were different , you are extremely special and i am only human , she smiled at me and something stirred deep inside my soul , something that told me i should listen closer . but my question to paris five started this . that was another question i wanted answered . i had an instant recollection of the look in his eyes when he saw me with pam . i get the old man 's diaper changed , carry him upstairs , and then put him to bed . 