it suddenly occurred to him that mary would be frightened , horrified , if she knew he was on a trip . there is a thought , distant in his head , that he has gone crazy . that will not give me comfort . seeing that , reading parts of it ... was heartbreaking . when the host called my name , i climbed on stage with my guitar . `` do n't tense your thighs like that . '' she had an early flight out of vegas . 