as honest as possible and i know that i can put on a front a lot of times. i can do that at parties, at any time i leave my house. i feel that it is a performance in a way and i really have to present myself in a certain way to the world. for the longest time i believed that because people knew my last name i was like, “they’re gonna hate me immediately so i have to make them like me. i have to be so nice. i have to prove to everyone that i’m not spoiled. i’m not this way. i’m not this kind of person.” 