her lids fluttered in her sleep and he hoped to the gods she was n't having nightmares . im having a hard time keeping my eyes open . do whatever you have to , she said in a single breath . if you agree , bill , we must deal with as few people as possible , tell them as little as possible , and put nothing in writing yet . i muttered to the heavens , pulling my knees to my stomach . there was a deck of cards in front of me . the atmosphere would be healing for anyone . 