it 's no less than what i deserve . '' brad nodded , a tear rolling down his face . im way behind on logging our jumps . the father was short , stooped , but with big hands and arms . after he shut his door , he said , `` i should have warned you . said the older man , opening the leather case and removing large night-vision binoculars . what are you talking about , mac ? '' then , finally , my fingers touched something more substantial . 