it was covered in icing , and she was purposely taking her finger to draw up some and lick it off , all the while watching me react . the dirt road we were on would take us right past it . my head was already shaking back and forth . he wo n't be able to participate in his own defense . i slide my hands up her warm back and pull her to me , crushing her against my bare chest . `` your son , '' he finally said , `` jared ... he had a massive heart attack . '' 