first came a disturbance out in the middle of the lake , then something moving just beneath the surface , headed in the direction of the shore . `` is n't that what ma did with rusty ? that was the day after the bomb fell on his house . abigail headed in that direction and they followed . i 'm not going to stop loving you , and i 'm certainly not going to stop asking . what difference does it make anyway ? i 'm beginning to think like the idiot . '' 