but i do n't see what that has to do with ... '' `` twelve 's old enough to know that sometimes people get what they want to happen mixed up with what actually does happen . `` i should not have pushed you so hard today , '' she murmured . so many of those she watched were sick in their minds . after the blow , my hands press against their chests , piercing skin . he stopped at the cash register and leaned on his wooden cane . 