her face is tear-streaked and tired , but it 's not her i 'm focused on . it would n't be bottomless , of course , but it would do . `` aching in all the good ways . '' yes that is what somebody would think having never lost their body . for them , payment was the thing . ) papa told me we had to hide when i was an infant . seconds ticked by , too damn many , until her body relaxed . `` will you look at that , '' blair said . 