there was silence for a long time . but why would i feel only in his presence ? then he does die and someone shuts his eyes and makes him tidy and piles these books up neatly and ... does what ? `` what if jagger finds out i 'm at school ? '' if you promise to behave yourself , you can just stay here . too soon , i sat up , putting distance between us . he was n't over losing his wife . `` come to the bathroom with me . 