i closed my eyes and just listened to his sweet voice sing to me as he moved against my body so closely . through it all , her dad moved with a singular purpose , the spear leading the way . the wall was his , the night was dark , and he had a king to face . the drive had been less than four miles and taken maybe eight minutes , tops . `` not as long as you might think . i have too much to lose , and too much keeping me fighting . 