had it been too late for me already at some point that i wasnt aware of ? before my husband passed on to join our daughter in paradise , he wanted to make sure no one ever forgot her . i 'm not gon na spend the next few months waiting to start our life together . '' if it was later in the day , he 'd be splattered by now . people who know me would ask me what the hell i was doing . blake 's voice was harsh in my ears . 