if they did n't live so far apart , she would do it more often . since when have n't i considered your needs ? '' `` you can ... um , release that grip on me now , '' cooper told her . eventually , he moved to the breakfast bar that divided her family room from the kitchen , placing her on it and moving between her legs . where he might now end it all . and the back of her neck felt as though a pack of ice sat there . 