it 's a she and she killed a calf . he was gripping my hair to the point of pain now . the aching rush of blood in her muscles . the woman had never seemed to mind their frequent trips past her little cabin . but he always found us and brought us back . she knelt and looked her daughter straight in the eye . but i do n't care if she smells . '' i had never been so disappointed in my entire life . being tailed by an institute spy . 