i 'm unlike you in almost every way , '' i go on , `` but the one way we are alike is that i know this is the only life for me . she pulled back the safety to the pistol in her hand . in spite of everything , he had n't left her to face her first day as a vampire alone . i need to get to work on keeping it that way . we can go with the rats attacking ? '' i 'm thinking a million thoughts as i stare from my window at night . 