i thank you for the beauty and goodness that you have enabled me to see . these journals will be very important to you , especially later in your life . thats so nice of you , mary said . if i went anywhere near the police station your boss would have a stroke . `` shut off the camera , '' she says . he needed to get higher and higher , to the highest tower of the fortress . `` i did , but that does n't take away the sting . for them , he would n't be selfish . 