he tried to remember the last time he walked somewhere without purpose , and he could n't remember when that was . she feared him , but she knew he was the one . i have been really stupid sometimes and havent made her feel secure in our relationship , but i really do love her . `` and why do you even want that book ? '' so basically , youre one of us for the time being . staying strong tonight might be harder than i thought . now , i have no pain , no sadness and no conscience . 