laura cried out in surprise , completely absorbed in the words she was writing on the page . the journal opened with a slight crunching sound . each step sent a white-hot poker through his belly . well , since i had taken some of his belongings , i found a board and did what i thought was right . just knowing that made me feel blessed . an arm , say , in a freak chain saw accident . you told me im too negative . you even disliked him , but you did n't bother to find out why . 