i decided that i needed to lower my voice and told dirk the same . just sit around and read if you like . let 's take the money and run , deck says . `` it will give you some time to talk without me there , you know , to get to know each other . '' some nights i did n't sleep at all . for her sake , and her sake alone , he was committed to life . look at the one on the far left . you had to steal my kids name ? '' 