it was n't as big as a park , but it was big enough to have a playground , a good open area to play sports , maybe even throw a party . the table and chairs are a plain grey metal . then she 'd given way to tears . you live every day as though it is the best life in the world . these are the thoughts that i had when facing my death . he put the yellow stick in his teeth , but his aching wrist wasnt strong enough to help . he thought i worked on spying equipment . 