all i could see was all that hair spread out on my pillows . `` if you 're touching me , i wo n't want anyone else . '' i made sure not to press too close to her , though , and give her the wrong idea . why did i think this would happen ? we are coming out with you immediately . now she wanted more and she was his willing pupil . or do you want me to do it alone ? and reading his letter was , above all else , tiring . 