she was playing schoolyard mind games and i did n't want anything to do with it . i would have stayed home , as i have always stayed home , and i would have been safe , and i would have done the one thing i have always wanted to do , which is to grow up . that can last so much longer . '' the two of them usually eat lunch over at the counter , right next to that old cash register of yours . '' but the real battle is n't won yet . 