the girl wears her heart on her sleeve . i dont even know what they do here ! `` but i 'd be happy to copy them out myself if- '' it suddenly occurred to her that her grandmother might have all these family recipes in her head , that she might never have written them down before . i closed my eyes and breathed in through my nose as deep as i could , knowing a panic attack would not do us any good here . yes , why dont you do that , i said . 