i live , he whispered to her mind , the thought simple and clear . its not as scary as finding out you were doing something so so strange just yesterday . 'you are so receptive to me . ' with his teeth firmly set , lucas nodded . her pale throat came into view , the hollow damp with perspiration . i did n't mean anything by it , but he would n't even give me the benefit of the doubt . `` i am at last at peace , anna . just to find out what it was . 