he tried looking over his shoulder , but the wing blocked any rear view . and at least then i could say i tried . i asked , daring myself to not get distracted by how close we stood . i 'm not sure i have any spirit at all . '' `` how many times do i have to tell you , eve ? they do not torment them by dreams or thoughts ; it is more physical than that . trying to help her cope with living inside the emotions , feeling them and not shutting down . 