she wouldnt have been able to get inside and he didnt see her by the landing gear . i had enough money for a bus ticket . i wish there were a million kids born at that time ; it would have made things easier . for , i mean , i could all of this really be happening ? i rubbed my face hard , and took a deep breath . i was a goner the first time he said my name . '' i do n't have the vocabulary to tell you how great i think she is . '' 