sage suddenly seemed heavier than i knew he was , and my arm was more tired than it should have been . i understand youve got a busy day ahead of you , and we have some catching up to do ourselves . 'it 's a chance for me to show that you do n't have to kill every time you feed . ' if i am in trouble , i finally said , tearing my eyes from the man id thought to be my ally , i do not understand why i am not being punished . 