`` of course , '' he says , as if it 's the most normal thing in the world , when it never occurred to me he would . i swallowed , dropped my tumbler hand to rest on his chest , glanced at him , lifted up and looked . i was n't ready to believe it , but i was n't going to ask him to stay with me , either . so she should n't be pulled by my-what did you call it-my energy ? '' 