he would spend the next two weeks training and learning everything there was to learn , then sing his first concert . only those that were fully seen could manifest . i swallow past the sudden lump in my throat . i was just about to send him off with a flea in his ear . `` i do n't want you to leave , but i would n't blame you if you did . '' the last thing i see him do before the lady pushes me into the room is rummage through the desk drawers . 