he moved slightly so i could see his face as the sun lit up the horizon behind him , like a brilliant spotlight on all his evil deeds . if i am a puppet then it is my people that pull my strings not you and right now my people need me , they need their king . she 'd never known anyone who could control his emotions the way rush did . `` i promised i 'd teach you , '' i said , flickers of dread lighting me up , `` and i will . everything hurt too badly right then . 