i took another breath and i realized i wasnt controlling it . `` do you not like it when people try to help you by making you think of something else ? '' it seemed so long before the wipers cleared them away . the good and the bad it would all come in waves . the first morning he went out without her , he 'd gone into the sex shop and bought them . jake opened the door and turned back toward him . it was enough to quiet them . he raised his hand in an imitation of a cat swipe . 