i guess im not getting out of this that easily . a man should lean on his staff , not the other way around ... it 's steering him , leading him ... she did not want to have this conversation with him . we have asked something of you . my darling james [ the letter opened ] , i love you with all my heart and while you read these words i hope you still love me because , now , with these words , this is the last moment that your love will last . 