`` i - i - please if you 'd just listen to me , let me explain - '' `` no ! '' ray seemed to be absorbed in the show so i spoke to carlos as the band moved smoothly into a loud rhumba . `` i 'm okay , '' i announced to the room and surprisingly i was . i used to think the freaky alien speed thing was to annoy me , but it was just his natural state . sweet or tart , he had to know . why had n't i just locked the f**king door behind me ? 