before she left , she hugged her son tightly and whispered into his ear . she waved one hand at him in a `` shooing '' motion . i squint and scoot up , trying to right my world . it was all there on her face , and i wondered how i had ever missed that . the crystal will give me a buffer so that the energy does n't kill me . } it would have scared them , yes , but they 'd still be alive . 