without the light , all of us , including you , will suffer horribly . '' he sipped the juice , and it was just as he had expected : wholesome , though not very sweet . she kept smiling , all the time hoping maria wouldnt crush her in an excited hug . i gave her a stare that was harder than the diamond on my hand . he picked up his pen and notebook again and stared down at the cold , white page . `` you have total recall , do n't you ? '' 