this woman who happily made you travel into the distant suburbs , getting up at the crack of dawn , so that she could have the satisfaction of telling you to your face that you were , once again , a loser . `` but this changes everything , you know . '' his voice was rock steady , but she would have had to be blind to miss the way his hand shook . it was way more potent than i 'd expected from that little cup . that didnt mean he wore camouflage clothing and lived in a tent in the forest . 