you have to promise not to go through on your own . '' you made me think the worst , i declare in between my sobbing . then ... '' man , this was difficult to admit . his habits seemed very peculiar , but then , you did n't question people above you in social station , especially since anyone could see he was a generous man who treated people well . some days we barely speak at all , so i 'm not certain why it makes a difference to me . i think were here , she said , pointing . 