it was no longer as dark with the rain gone and so he had to be careful . `` he might as well wear a sign that says `please kill me . he finds us two cots at the end of a hallway somewhere . when your skin is broken , what 's underneath is like ... it 's like ... '' i watched him struggle for the words . i squeeze my tired eyes closed , then open them again , throwing the covers back as i get out of bed . 