i make my way to the refreshment table , trying to figure out my game plan as i go . his eyes still have n't moved from me . just a second , i have to think about that one ... its been so long ... good morning . perhaps the new setting could help to heal the inner wounds that benjamin would let no one touch , the doctor hoped . there was an unreal quality to them . perhaps the sight of us scooping up the food with our fingers was just too much for our hosts to take . 