she was beautiful , and naked , and wanting me to make love to her for the first time . it 's just too soon to tell . he gave up on the put-down and continued the lecture . she reached down to grab the hem of sams too big shirt . he thought about the rifles and the missiles and the trucks . what was it to be alive ? she stomped back to the living room and down the hall , where she opened a cupboard and pulled out sheets and a couple of spare blankets . 