he was n't going to watch others lips lock together , not when there was only one woman he wanted to kiss this new year 's eve . if i find it , what am i looking for ? '' this thing was staring to rot like the leaves , and sandy had the feeling that once the process really got going , it would go fast . `` we do n't have to go that fast , '' i said but pressed against him . her knees rose lower and lower with every step . 