to that place. you will not gain back all of that weight. if you wanted to you could easily eat all the food you want and hide in your apartment and eat your feelings. if you wanted to.
you want the polar opposite of this. you want a life. a full one. and the fact that you label things as heavy and light and full is not lost on you. it's hard for you to let things fall off you.
remember mary oliver's words and close your eyes. move your fingers across the keyboard. feel the muscles in your fingers wake up. they're ready. you're ready. tell the stories you need to 