she knew he was right ; she would have scared her husband to death with her crying after coming so close to being beaten to death by a public official . hector caught them and exchanged the old for the new . i have tried everything to heal him . i nodded and went to my room to finish getting ready . besides , the city didnt look like it had before . so that 's what she wanted me to do . it was not separate from its symptoms , yet lived inside me as surely as any other physical being . 