a well-treated captive , perhaps , and even one for a good reason , but still . a man can not love another until he loves himself . did you read the police reports ? his mouth opens as he holds me there . my plan seemed simple enough at times , and at others , it was completely over my head . `` god , '' he said , `` they 're creeping me out . '' but its our last full day in new york . that will sell for a lot , even damaged like it is . 