`` it 's the largest institution of higher learning in the world . '' i was finally persuaded it was for the best that you were was introduced as browns own child for fear your mother found out , he whispered in the darkness . and , my god , over the years how hed been proved wrong . she leaned against the wall and shut her eyes . he 's about to see me in head-to-toe white . he realized that he really was spoiling for a fight , some way of hitting back . 