i opened the bottle of holy water and chugged it , spilling the last drops into my hands and patting my neck . he tried to let his hands go loose in hers again , but with the words-and visual of-quick and dirty playing over and over in his head , he could n't manage it . now he can find his sister too . two kids poked their heads through the door before entering . it was suddenly alien to me . `` i ca n't believe you just said that . '' 