i didnt want to lie to my mother . `` of all the fucking times- '' `` do you see him ? '' his eyes were closed , but he smiled . the front door banged shut and she gasped . i feel her cheek move against my chest and know she 's smiling . nash is such a strong force , it 's easy to forget that he was stabbed not so long ago . she said , we just need to keep this very safe and make sure the right people get it . 