she never understood his need to see his boys because she could not understand a love that was not sexual . a thick leather-bound book lay open before him . i could barely hear him over the roar of the train . that had hit him out of nowhere . `` rule number one , do n't shake anyone 's hands . he sat back , pants sliding low on his h*ps as he pulled me into his lap . he told us to head over while he drops off the others . he stops to press all the buttons on the alarm remote . 