if i caught sight of the perfect black flowers , i 'd lose my nerve . no , that 's what you think i am . but this ... this was simply too confusing for her to handle alone . what she saw made her heart sink within her . at least we ca n't argue that way . '' `` and before all this started-back when you were first together ? '' they were not monsters , and the girl would be protected . then another soldier aimed a pistol in the mans ribs and fired . 