it leaps right into my hand , ready to go . feel him out before you get to feel him out if you know what i mean . '' bled like heck for a while though . '' she nodded , glancing up at him from under her long dark lashes . `` do n't do that , '' fin scolded while walking back to his seat next to me . tears were streaming down my face , and i could n't even look at parker , who at some point had let go of my hand . 