maybe i 'm losing my mind or something , but i had a terrible dream last night that was so real . it affects all of us too much . i know that theyre not hers to begin with . she could n't afford to care too deeply . i think we should go to the ship now . the stitches looked like a plan of the ties at a railroad yard . i waved my hands to indicate my robe . he could laugh , that deep , rusty laugh that caught at her heart . 