`` she thought you were inside and so she killed herself in grief . '' i tighten my arms on my chest and sigh . i wanted so f**king much to be normal so i could hug her and kiss her , and thank the universe for giving me an angel . i do n't race to the cash drop location . she finally felt herself relax a little at his words , despite her best intentions . but ill be able to pay it before the end of the month , she insisted . is this you being brave again ? 