it was easier to take one step in a direction they did n't expect than one thousand in a direction they did . part of that loss had been her love of riding , and the sense of freedom that it had given her . but i did n't look long because it was f**king cold and i needed to get dressed . when i found out what you really were , i should have told her . they sat in the smoky tent , waiting for their god to speak . it is awful dark out there . '' 