so far this conversation has taken us nowhere . she turned and hurried up the stairs . `` now , i 'm not going to give you my wish or anything . understanding is something you must choose for yourself , i can not do it for you . whatever it takes to be a good navy wife , i do n't have it . just be the greatest black swan that man could dream of having . `` i do apologize for questioning you like that , but you must understand that his imperial majesty 's safety is of the utmost importance . 