she 'd even blushed when he said he 'd found her charming . there was no way to dial her : whatever phone she 'd used had a scrambled account . `` you came back to see her again ? '' `` let me go , '' i say , struggling against him . `` can you get it for me ? i was afraid we were in a bit of a mess . '' here were the cracks that exposed the past trauma . i do n't want this man to see me in my underwear . 