she clutched her chest tightly , both amazed at what shed just seen , and terrified at the thought of them wanting her to do the same . she lied to everyone , to all of us . i tried to sound more confident than i felt . get in here , he said , pulling her by one arm and closing the door . so , i guess all of this really is on me . `` i told her you were here and she smiled . they knew those who were on the team now were trying their best . 