cleaning away the last of the blood , i pressed the bandage to his leg and started wrapping the gauze around it . should be enough to keep the crowd safe he thought as he placed the toolbox carefully on the stage and then pulled himself up . `` you must have laughed at me , at how much i told you about myself , the feelings i shared ... '' `` no , if i laughed at anything , it was the fact that i never talk much . 