i have been scared of virtually everything my whole life , and now , when i should be running for cover , i 'm not scared at all . xavier perched on a stool next to her , not quite touching her , but clearly aching to do so . `` not used to the attention buttercup ? '' why was he talking about food ? `` and i only speak frankly-too frankly most often . '' `` i need to reach for my phone . '' happy as pigs in mud if you mention you need a fire built . 