'sorry , ' i spluttered , as i realized what i had said . alan felt a sinking in the pit of his stomach and closed his eyes . this was n't like being back at college in my room . so what did i have to lose ? i let you work here when you should be with my sister planning our wedding . `` because if you can give me a target , i can destroy it . '' you would be wise to forget that name . 8 so how about last night ? before he worried about talking to j.t. 