`` so i could 'make something ' of myself . '' i feel like a man in his twenties , most days anyway , he shrugged . i watched it sail then i watched it land . `` i know who killed chrysalis , '' jay said . and you promise to come for christmas ? but the car , she wouldnt start and then i see the lady . people she knew and had grown up with . its all very odd , he continued . he was not about to claim he was all right . 