i dont want anything to happen to me , either . he opened up my door and stepped back , waiting for me to join him . i will be back down here as fast as you need me . i could n't move , could n't speak , could n't even breathe . i illustrated the tiny piece with my thumb and forefinger , as if that might help . not exactly the victory party i was hoping for . i understand mick believed in his dreams . `` you need to just go find another woman . '' 