i stood at a loss of words to say . its not like we can sneak into the guys dorms and plant cameras or watch them in the locker room . i needed the light but could not afford to have it . a friend is giving me a ride home . dad still hits an aa meeting when he needs to . but the abuses had not ended with words . he put it on the bed then joined her in the shower , making love to her yet again under the hot spray . 