got something on your mind brother ? i move my arms out in front of me . both of them now coated with perspiration , they seemed to melt and sizzle into each other from the heat of their flesh . i sat back up in my chair and took a deep breath . when he killed himself , he took away any chance we had to fix things . well , you tell your old man to fix it first , '' i say . we waited until one of them could breathe enough to speak . 