if she did arrange for a meeting , im glad that this time it worked out for her . `` why , it 's just like the heart on the butternut tree . '' i didnt think god would make someone suffer like she suffered . just so he could take over the company ? as soon as i did it , i realized that i 'd stopped crying and had almost forgotten what had gotten me here . i dont pretend to live my life by anybodys standards but my own . 