the rotten boards buckled as he pushed his way through . not a single noise that let him know i was so close . but of course , the songs were not free . i pressed the gun against the wood of the door and fired . i want to hide my breakdown , but i ca n't . these humans often sought out their spirit animal . halfway there , she wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me . `` there 's a meadow beyond willow lodge overlooking roaring fork that i want you to see . 