was only up until a point. and that is why i flip-flopped with my drinking all throughout my 20s. so i would start and i would stop and i would do this over and over again. i would wake up one day after a night of drinking and i would feel hung over and i would swear up and down i would never do this again.
i never wanted to feel this way. i never wanted to piece together my night. i never wanted to regret what i said or i did. i never wanted to be, yet again, that girl who had one too many to drink. and so i 