yes , i greatly appreciate that she didnt die and she almost did because of me . oh , she was a beautiful sight for his sore eyes . but that spark of fear was still there , and it helped his brain keep spinning rather than stall out under the power of those eyes of hers . `` ... i do n't know if i would be right here if he did n't find a way to enter my life and lily 's . they blinked and straightened , staring up at me in surprise . 