and my gods , that is saying something . '' we were just passing the time . '' what was most worrying to them right now was knowing that they had an ocean to cross . i sat her on the bathroom floor while i grabbed a change of clothes . he closed his eyes , trying to get a grip . i need the element of surprise- and that 's where you come in . i always pretended like i was asleep , but i loved listening , watching the shadows under the covers , seeing them twist and move . '' 