but she could see him from the window . deep down i fear his goal is to rebuild , to try and force the world forward to where it was before . maybe you need to start acting a little more paranoid , my friend . no doubt they had all imagined the worst , she thought with a bitter smile . drawing on my experience as a stage manager , i 'd started phoning hospitals . `` did you notice that none of them ate the hotcakes the other morning ? '' 