i do n't feel so well and i 'd rather we talk about it when i ... when i ... am settled down , '' i say with a closed throat . they had all forgotten how beat up it had gotten . mat had lost throws before-it happened , even to him . you should have listened to me , little brother . based on what you said , i think the banker will keep your secret . but why not see where it led ? it felt different from any magic cassie had ever done before . 