part one : dark creations for the power of man to make himself what he pleases , as we have seen , the power of some men to make other men what they please . i felt sick to my stomach , and the sun coming through the blinds was burning my eyes . i watched her as she just stared at me while i stroked myself . more like afraid of how she 'd respond . i do n't remember anything that happened last night . '' do n't you just have to sit back and wait till it rolls in ? '' 