do you mean to say he did n't provide you with a single meal ? '' she shook her head and poured a glass of champagne for me . right now , i felt safe being here with him , so warm . he might be dying or going insane or both and that was uncomfortable for him and he didnt think anyone else would be comfortable with it . `` sorry about that , '' a woman said kindly . that wasnt survival , you bloody vulture ; that was murder . 