maybe it was because i thought being retired sucked . number 27 took a pill container out of his pocket . too many people wanted to `` celebrate '' with her , which of course meant she 'd pick up the tab . there is a period of darkness , but not total darkness . she wrinkled her nose , like she always did when she was thinking carefully , before saying , im happy because i think well be safe when they take us away from here . emma asks , almost laughing at him . 