`` hell , justice , you would n't back down even if you did change your mind , would you ? i see one of alec 's soapy hands slip into my view . some nights he swam through the marsh canals . we will find another way in . '' then i stomped to the closet , threw open the door and turned on the light inside . would you mind if we just stayed here and relaxed for a while ? '' with the myrtle and the rest , he means , my heart is fragile ; do not forsake me . 