i set off through the crowd , pushing through the band and out into open space-seeing potential threats everywhere i turned . it 's one of those things you do n't piece together until you 're older . '' without thinking about it , i unfurled one of my fists and placed the wad of paper in my flat palm . he was too far gone with need to take this first time slow . he clears his throat , straightens up and lifts the containers , `` let 's get these babies inside . '' 