honestly , it was one of the best he 'd ever had and the fact that she did n't pull away from him only made it sweeter . his hand trembled as he read the words . the blast hit beth in the chest , and she stumbled back , screaming . staying in the shadows , he watched the car for a bit . all i know is it smells awful , j said distinctly as he led her to the shelter of a nearby grove . cant i just let myself enjoy this ? 