i blamed him when really i should have blamed myself . especially to someone like you who left home right out of high school . '' he stands between me and the door that leads inside . fear of any small movement would make her fire the dang thing , but she could n't force her arms to lower the weapon . `` you 're an interesting man , '' she said slyly , pressing herself to me . why she thought of clay as the underdog she had no idea . 