i can think of worse ways to go . sam is on my team , so maybe i will be able to notice if anything is out of place that you guys might overlook . he was , however , always rushing off to see some woman , and she had a feeling it was a different one each time . the threat of being found kept her quiet . hell , admitting he still had feelings for her had been a giant leap . i didnt see until now how wrong i was . perhaps i am pressing on too quickly . '' 