there was a lump in my throat , and i did n't think it was really going to be any sort of good for me , but i could n't stay there . butch had told her everything about what he 'd done and why . had n't i been handed enough crap in life ? i smile shyly at him , biting my lip . he grabbed glass by the shoulder and led him into the cabin . then i opened the box , telling myself firmly that nothing dreadful could be in a box so small . 