not the way you might have been brought up to believe . and then she wished she had n't . he caught my gaze and dropped it . she was someone i was n't going to forget easily . i did n't know why he found it so hard to look at me , but i missed the way he used to look at me . wander around that neighborhood after dark and theyll get out by the skin of their teeth . he started breathing again and almost laughed at her angry tone until she got quiet again . 