the first sip of coffee makes my nerves bounce . a week seemed long , but at least it was something . he just gave me the best kiss of my life , my first kiss , and he 's sorry . he had no doubt as to who the intruder might be . many in my state at that time wished to avoid any connection with the north . i tilted my head back and saw the moon breaking through the clouds . he did n't have a death wish , nor did he hope for her to use it . 