i nod , afraid of what he might say next . maybe he never would be able to , but there 'd be time to try later ; right now , he had to deal with this crisis and make sure no one got hurt . he moves over and makes a space for me , and i practically collapse into him , into that little question mark formed by his body . it was an illusion , but that did n't bother him . why not throw it all out there at once and see what happens . 