surrounded by the delicate baby 's breath that already filled her basket , she thought they would be the perfect complement for the black vase that stood in the hall . `` it was likely in my car the other night . how soon til you get back ? i wanted to matter that much again . she was truly strong and i didnt need to feel her presence or energy to tell that . `` but you could , '' he said , and for an instant , i saw fear flicker under his anger . 