he lifted his tools from his belt , positioned the chisel tip where the pointer had been . i head out into the hallway again , but this time i do n't go in the direction of the others . `` why are you looking at the ceiling , bear ? '' when they did , fang would flash out before they entered . the way his presence left her knees weak . and although she had not required any further demonstration of how to lose joy , nevertheless she had not returned to the home world to stay without you , waiting . 