`` i woke up feeling like i was going to throw up . should n't he be off doing a news interview ? five hours later , i was on a plane over the pacific . he told himself that he had no choice . `` someone planted a tracking device in dancer 's back . my lips crack and bleed again when i smile . did she really want to give him the impression that he could call her at any hour of the day and she 'd be like , sure ! must have been that night porter . 