`` freak luck , that 's all , '' josh said in the background . the shock he 'd felt upon discovering the whole mess roared back to life inside him . i ... '' she licked her lips and moved her shoulders . i hobbled over to his side and looked out at the remaining players . and he had failed to do so . `` now you , son , '' `` be damned if i will ! '' i thought i would be glad just to be near them-that i would be happy for them . 