the side that looks more like a gear represents whats inside , the changes . i smiled back in spite of myself . my heart feels like it 's bursting inside my chest cavity , and my face burns with heat . do you want a left or right one ? he wiped away the rest of his tears and stood up . but i had been played the fool once before . and i felt the weight behind me leave . she knew from watching them that they would n't be back around to this side again for another ten minutes or more . 