she 'd spent enough time at the man 's side to catch some illness , likely because she had n't been taking care of herself . my rifle was secure in its waterproof bag and the rest of my equipment was stored in another waterproof bag . do you want me to throw them out ? if she could have , she would have thrown herself into his arms . i said aloud , pushing the bloody mary toward her . he whispered in my ear , but since you are a woman , i want you . 