`` whenever you 're craving something sweet- '' `` i know . '' she could n't stop her tears , and his help only made it worse . neither of us said a word ; we could n't speak . not for food , but to kill . i kept my eyes on the item shining in the overgrown grass and recovered them before he could see what i was doing . he just did n't write it by hand . but in all fairness , it had n't always been perfect . 