he was totally lost by this point . coming into full contact with him was like suddenly being submerged in a fire . now there were also tired lines around his eyes . even though she looked every bit as manly as any of the other crew members , jeff was a bit hesitant to get naked in front of her . he returned to his phone call . when i do , say when i 'm punishing you , i never lose control because what i 'm doing is a release . sometimes i too get confused by my thoughts . 