come here- '' he reached for me but i jerked away and looked up-looked him right in the eye , holding back all the tears , the self-pity , the quivering lip . the first customer came in behind me . to trust that he knew what he was doing . nick sliced the first one to reach him in half . she gasped , tried to pull free . with a growl of my own , i pushed against its chest and ripped its heart out . that is as much as i can say , and it is already too much . 