she turned her head and looked at the ceiling . `` that 's sort of what it 's felt like with you right from the beginning . its chick half my age , not chicken laugh on stage ! 'they 're as near as i want them now . ' i 'd screamed and slammed back into my apartment . `` and i know which one you want to meet . '' he crossed his arms under his head and stared at the ceiling . he 'd bled out on the stage , left pieces of his soul in the audience 's ears . 