twisting the towel in her hands , she says , `` i 'm thinking that even if we were to be together , that it would n't be as good as it could be . all in all id say a remarkable boy ugh , said the boy , returning his attention to the basket , clacking his teeth . the insides of my eyelids were a mix of colors that shot back and forth , exploding as i lost all control . the words start to flow out of me . 