it was as if we were under a large , smooth bowl . you did n't even know what i looked like ! `` this is n't at all what i used to imagine . '' my brain sorted through jumbled emotions . you can be the doorway if you choose . ' they watched as another person wrestled a vehicle from the row and got onto it . my poor niece is having a hard time with everything right now . we had an inside man , but we lost him last summer . and then sam took him into her mouth . 