maybe ken should n't have shared her thoughts , but it was too late , the information had been exchanged and he 'd let it happen . another soldier is holding the door open with his boot . i wonder , my love , if i ever really knew what was important . 'you kiss im and hug im and hold im . ' she sits sideways in my lap as if seeking comfort . if they dont have such armor now , they never will , dirk said . `` so i have to make this short . '' 