i checked to see if she fell asleep , but her eyes were open . penny had nowhere to go but up , and i had nowhere but down . if only he 'd come back for her , for them , how different things could have been . it was just their thing after so long . i mean ... not for the whole night . '' it was like being tied up . he waited for me , opening the door to the hall for me . i did n't say anything in the car on the way to my house . 