he returned to the u.s. and spent some time in an army hospital , where he cried himself to sleep at night . i did n't know what to do after what happened , and then i found out i was pregnant . cant we have him for an other half-hour . paulie smiles and holds up a joint . one in the morning and one at night to avoid infection . the nurse returned with a tray of food and placed it on the table beside the bed . you want to know why i 'm this way ? 