i don't think i would have had the courage to share that story - so i deeply admire you for that.
where do you go from here? in whatever direction it takes to make you happy. if it's wearing a wig or letting your bare head shine like a full moon - you do you and let that inner strength shine for all the world to see.
i have missed your 'voice' very much and you have been on my mind ... sweetie ... get a curly one, a straight one, a long one and a short one, then switch it up and be natural!!!! if you have to walk this road 