throughout the long conversation that followed , his wife and daughter spoke not a word . he bent over where i was sitting on the ledge , wrapped his hand around the back of my neck and kissed my forehead . `` i have n't eaten that much in a long time . the sexual beat of the music had changed to something easy and smooth . there was a flash of light to tell her he 'd obeyed . he 's very private about his business . feeling like an idiot , he turned to face her . 