i planned on telling them when i saw them that fall , but in september your mother just broke things off . `` so what 's blake up to this summer ? '' it was an offer she could n't refuse . i was so thankful that we did not have a mission and that i could sleep when i got home . the side effects of that drug are enough to kill ya ! what did people say , when they were this scared of losing someone ? im freaking killing you when we get home . 