`` and we are in this together , you and i . yeah , happy new year to you both . the butterflies returned to my belly , not as many as before , but they were there , cheering me on as i prepared to go down on a guy for the first time . you name it , he 's running it . they entered the house through the kitchen . now , when i open this door , youre gon na want to hurry . the phone calls , the threats , the burning cross . 