it was the same photograph she had clutched for weeks after the death of her uncle , and still carried with her for comfort . after that , i carefully print all i know about the plant . the sight of her admiring made me so hard my balls hurt and my c**k burned . and even though she knew it was a bad idea ... she could n't possibly stay away . when i 'd shared my deepest secret with him , it never once occurred to me that he 'd throw it back in my face . 