was that why i had the security dude ? before she could question the logic behind giving a knife to a blind man , she had set it into his palm . day after day , year after year , she 'd lived in a twenty-by-twenty underground space as a child . he wanted to be another napoleon , so he committed murder to see if he could step over the obstacle of murder be above morality . she was n't on the balcony , either , so i made my way downstairs . 