it was only when i threatened to handcuff her , when she agreed to go to the hospital . `` grizzly attacked me on the upper grand . '' finally i just said to myself , you have to do this , and you have to do it now . can we go on as we did before ? '' she flopped back onto her pillow . you have someone lock me up tight . '' never saw the three of em apart in those early years . he was on his fifth or sixth cup of coffee he could not remember . 