as best as she can, hoping for the best and planning for the worst. is it brave when you are learning to live with the fear of the future, like a constant dull pain?
and yes, i am terribly homesick for a place that i know i can’t ever go back to. so homesick that i cry from frustration thinking about the alternative path i should have been walking, in a perfect world with a healthy child and such a simple future to plan.
but it’s the help of friends and family, the other people that helped me that gets me through. we can’t ever go back, but we can go forward, 