`` i do n't even know what i 'm doing here . now i truly wish to know how one can reach to this stage of super consciousness . he slid the pack off and told maria to empty it and set the items in the pack in groups of like items . i 'd never been in a situation like this before , and i was unsure how to proceed . and we know a little about his history . in fact , it appeared as if she were being delivered unto a prison . 