`` i guess i 'm supposed to feel better about f**king you now , knowing i 'm not the first ? he walks over and we exchange a fierce hug . whatever they did to you , im truly sorry . he doubted he had covered thirty miles since beginning his crawl . i brought her hand to my mouth and kissed her knuckles . `` i 'd love to go someplace that 's actually new to you . '' he could handle anything except that . i sat down on old rustling leaves , waiting for my eyes to adjust . 