i looked at it , biting my lip . he knew this place like the back of his hand . why did i wake up at the crack of dawn and drive myself over here , only to torture myself further ? and looked up at him in disbelief , as if he had been slapped . `` well , that 's one of his tricks i missed . how does he know about my mothers handkerchief ? yes , i know , but he feels disconnected now . `` is dad going to be late again ? '' 