`` if i had n't gone , would you be standing here , like this , now ? '' it 's only been forty-eight hours , but i can tell just by looking at her that she 's about to experience it all over again . i want to hear you cry out for me . '' he dropped his voice almost to a whisper . it seems like we always have to ask . my phone rang on the coffee table . he did n't know how to give them peace when he had none for himself . 