but he took it with ease , striking back , throwing a balled-up fist twice across charlies face , hard - and it hurt ! and now i was supposed to leave and use their energy again . we have great sex , but i do n't pay you for it . alexander squeezed me so tightly , it was as if we were one person . how am i going to play this ? he never needed a woman because he felt complete with his first and only love . i tapped softly on the door , aware that grace was probably asleep . 