`` your older sister is n't like that , is she ? is the cloud real , or just in my mind ? actually , i grew up in denver and spent most of my life there . '' `` would you like a ride down the river ? '' `` she can meet you in a few minutes . '' the seats were a variety of colors , including blues and purples and greens . lowering my head , my voice cracks perfectly when i say , `` because i 'm lonely . '' a flicker of fear curled around my heart . 