`` i 'm sorry , it 's just an old habit . i think it burned for three days . a guard gripped the handle of his gun . if i was n't , would i have tracked your ass all the way here ? frustrated and still hungry , i made my way back toward the park entrance . `` you 're lucky i let you leave the apartment at all . '' there was no arguing with his logic . she felt like such a loser for almost reaching her eighteenth birthday before a boy had been interested enough to kiss her . 