yard work was the last thing i wanted to do on my day off , but now i 'd gone and boxed myself in . but then he takes my hand and squeezes . he thinks i 'm at community house and that i 'm getting a ride home from there . '' as my nerves start to take over , i swallow . imagining , what if this or what if that ? he remained silent considering the question rhetorical and in the knowledge that this old man surely knew everything about both him and his family . 