why , after forty years , didnt he know when to steady her and when to move away ? `` god knows i tried to stay away from you . '' just knowing she 's with me gives me a sense of peace i ca n't remember ever having in my life . '' got ta get back to the grind . neither version knew how to love . they said that if my grandfathers condition got worse , they would reconsider and send me home . drake had hold of one of them , and he squeezed it . 