before i can think of anything else to say in order to throw him off , he tilts his head at his troops and uses his gun to gesture at the hall . their safety is now as important as ours . everything in her life it seemed was based on how safe it was . the wooden latch to the tall gate lifted , and my heart thumped as i took my sunglasses off . `` it does n't matter what they think , does it ? i imagined it then-working with another woman . like someone had turned him inside out . 