she was as good as blind , and the chains that kept her captive made her panic . it did n't bother him so much as it puzzled him . at my first stirring they came jumping to my side . think of how a relationship might be . the violins sounded as if they were crying ; mourning the loss of someone they loved . you saw this , father , and rejected it , he thought . you didnt ask me if i shot them back or how many men have i shot ? 