i need to experience that again , even if it means riding to my doom . its just so ... so awful , daddy . how will i ever find my way off and even if i do , who would help me ? she met his seeking tongue , lightly swirling the tip of hers against his . `` but i do n't understand why you think symbols are so important , whatever their meaning . '' i said as i turned back and forth to make sure nothing was sticking out . 