i suppose its because i believe were born with the ability to choose . `` he insisted again that he never wrote it . `` i have spent a good deal of time and energy during the course of our association trying not to like you , '' he admitted finally . she turned toward him , her eyes questioning . `` as soon as you know what it feels like to be used . he was n't about to finish talking until she agreed to come with him . the old man handed charles a drink and sat down . 