he left without another word , and as i sat there with my hand still covering my mouth , all i knew was that i 'd never felt so awful in my life . she nodded to the man over roar 's shoulder . `` those were n't there before , were they ? '' i see myself swimming deep for the black sands of the ocean , and upon that floor a reflection of ? we sat at one of the biggest tables , dead center in the big room . 