in the days that were to come , shadow often found himself remembering that game . just once id like to put a judge on hold . i found myself looking at him , staring at him , unable to take my eyes off him . then i headed back down stairs to help set the table . she deserved that , and what stung most was the fact that it was true . i take in his tall frame filling my doorway , the long line of his throat leading up to his remarkable , emotional face . 