it might have only been my imagination , but i swear i thought i saw him smile again before i rounded the side of the dorm and he disappeared from sight . even though they were n't laughing at me , my brain still insisted that it was a possibility . we can call him something different if you 'd like . '' `` your whole issue tonight is over me ? what i ca n't forgive , '' i said , my voice rising slightly in spite of myself , `` is that you enjoyed it ! '' 