`` i 'm not the guy i used to be . '' i jumped up and straightened my clothes and ran my fingers though my hair . `` lily , '' he greeted back , vaguely annoyed . he said he did n't have any friends because the other kids were scared of what he had . with a frown , randy white headed over . she eyed me oddly and almost smiled . the man moved to stand in front of them . could have been anything , or anyone . instead , she was exactly where i 'd left her . 