i swallowed hard and lifted my hand from his shoulder . the next morning life was glum . as he thought of that , he tried to remember who he was . we agreed i should go in , pretend i 'd been sick and that my father moved me to my uncle 's house for the good of my health . i shout then , and my voice is so loud that it surprises me . pretty boy was n't sure how that 'd happened . i left my bag behind and did n't care . 