she hoped his father had seen it . i caught his hand with mine and slowly sucked his thumb into my mouth . `` she could n't see why not , '' i said , lifting a shoulder as i gathered up their dirty plates . either way it was becoming too much , despite my desperation to stay , that old cold shiver in my spine told me it was time to go . we have an ambush ahead of us , and a trap at the back the soldier nodded towards the road . 