i know this hard to get your head around , sir , but its exactly as smith said . `` besides , you would n't want to eat my death curse , would you ? '' he was n't much of a hero ; he 'd always known that about himself . what if there was a guy who was part of a society where everyone had visions of a glorious future , and he had to hide the fact he saw only visions of death and destruction . so much for the raging river . 