i answer in place of hello , trying to keep the panic out of my voice , but there 's something going on , and i know it . he tapped his finger harder on the table , counting out a rhythm in his mind to keep from losing himself in her voice . i prop my chin up on his chest as fireworks boom . but friends are only apart in distance , not in heart . i follow the sound of his voice . just ... do n't react to any of this right now . 