i had n't meant to be funny-i was so frightened that i said by it reflex , the first thing that came into my mind-and he did n't laugh . that was the catch ; i was selling my soul . `` i 'm sorry , i should n't have ... '' she looked away , not sure how to put it . the questions were coming too quick . `` you do know a lot more about this than most , '' kelly agreed . she was wearing a very small bikini spotted with wonder- bread-wrapper-colored polka dots . 