no more messed-up fate or duty . so it 's not what you think . '' he looked up at her and his heart lifted . `` but when it wants to feed ... what do i do then ? '' the moment i drifted off , those blood-red eyes would be watching me . she felt confused , hazy , as if she were in a dream . `` i need to lie down for a while , '' i say , then gently push her away . 