`` i 'm trying to decide if being clean is worth it . '' she smiled up at him , teasing as she said the words . there are big bags under his eyes . cab was one handsome man , and today he looked better than ever . im about to say something , i have no idea what , but fortunately , or maybe unfortunately , im stopped . `` we need to go , '' he says and grabs my arm . so my husband and i needed to have a discussion . 