thinking about it like this could cause me to hesitate at the wrong time and get myself killed . we just wondered if we might be able to say 'hi ' . a furious neigh cut through the shouts . violet stuck her nose in the air and glared at blake . why was i such a disgusting worm of a person that i killed my child instead of caring for them like all these other parents ? `` i 'm leaving a little early today , '' i tell him . i wish she could have been here for this . 