but i can explain , '' he said , his voice rough and yet still soft , gently soothing . i kicked a kitchen chair , and losing my balance , i put my hands out and grabbed the back of another chair and shoved it across the floor several inches . he would n't call , but he appreciated the offer . and best of all , one 's here , right by my side . 'no running here , ' he whispers in a raspy voice i know only means one thing - he wants me . 