i stop in the other doorway , looking out at the cars under the big fluorescent lights . trying really hard not to sound petrified . like if a guy wants to meet up with you the same night that he calls , you 're supposed to say `` no , '' because that means he does n't respect you . smiling , i play with a piece of paper on the counter and find myself admitting , `` i had a really great time with him . if so , you might as well leave . 