he had been given a chance to start believing in himself again . almost like he was suddenly shy . i think he 's figured that out , too . he did not know how to handle my crying because he had never seen a girl cry in front of him . jake didnt like being a party to the continuing cover-up . back then , i thought speed was more important than a safety net . i immediately notice the boxes of girl things are gone . i wonder how warm the water is today , buddy mused . 