i needed him to know how much i loved him and how i would always love him . but then he had another heart attack , '' my brother 's voice wobbled and i knew what was coming . so she walked away and i did n't deal with that well . '' he was a strong man with broad shoulders , dark curly hair and a square rugged face . somewhere a branch snapped in the breeze , and it sounded dangerously like the breaking of his own brittle heart . the kind she saw him pictured with time and time again . 