standing there , neither of us really sure how to part , i simply stuck my hand out to shake his . i remind myself how good it feels when we 're together . i was sure that 's why he 'd been so grumpy at the beginning of our last date . i know it 's smart to keep one of our guns . `` i do n't want to talk about bad things now either . '' `` um , reporting on the soccer game . `` no , '' dad would answer shortly , grabbing for the salt . 