sally thought for a moment , wrote some names and numbers on a slip of paper and handed it to him . in that case the nice little normal life he had been trying to build would come crashing down around him . `` you did not ... '' do n't lose it . 'i will , ' billy said , smiling , and got out of the car . i do not wish to do that , as it can sometimes be very painful . breathe , '' the leader hissed at us , and then his footsteps trailed away , too . 