she felt like she was in a dream . a big grizzly hooked him in the eye sockets , punched out both his eyes with his claws , and ripped his whole face off . `` he sees what he wants to see . '' her mind raced as her fingers traced the lid . `` i do n't know , pumpkin , '' he would say . i turn around to face her fully . dirt brushed the sides of her balled up fist , cool and moist . 