waves of black heat broke over agnes , and then there was a pit , and a fall into hot , suffocating darkness . i kick a loose stone as i make my way to my train . he could no longer feel his torn shoulder , so he did n't realize that she was touching him until he felt a tight pain . fighting the tears meant choking on them . i ca n't get them back by myself . and i think you know how to make sure that happens . 