where she is... i don't believe it. and i don't like it.
the lack of dreams since she died.... still nothing. i have still not had a dream of her since that one right after she died. the "feelings" of her are hard for me to make sense of. is it real or is it my mind doing everything possible to survive another moment so i make up this "feeling". why is that feeling not there when i need it most? what am i missing?
i am thankful for family. friends. and even the friends i have never met that always offer a word of peace. advice. and send love. your comments 