* * * they 'd looped behind the buildings and came at them from the front , multiplying from four to ten . it was a physical ache so intense that he could n't focus on anything else . toby had turned her into a stranger that night ten months ago . `` will you teach me to control this ? '' i push my fish around the plate . in an instant , those eight words turned my entire world , and my heart , upside down . she was more of a boxed wine kind of girl anyhow . 