she felt a presence with her in the room and turned to see who was there . he was n't sure what he meant . the other part of me knew that there was still a possibility that it had happened , and if it had , i did n't want the confirmation . but ... enough to try to save him , at the cost of his own honor , his own life , even though there could be nothing left between them ? perfect idea on paper , but it could never work in the real world . 