at first i have a hard time making myself go deeper . she smiled and he walked down the hall to his bedroom . i learned it at the abbey , she said in a stubborn voice . he told me that you promised him you 'd come to his next performance . '' her voice caught as her heart fluttered . `` nothing yet , but we 're working on it . `` these things are bound to happen . '' it was true , it had been a while , but the gods be damned , this felt so good . 