i could see her struggling to hold it in , but more tears fell . `` are you really going to start with me about her ? oh , heavens , why didnt you say so ? in her experience , on any ill-fated mission , the worst was always saved for the end . he tugged me back a few steps . i shook my head and stepped up to the line . you could surf across the atlantic ocean on webs like those . now you have to scare us all . '' 