i took another deep breath and plunged ahead . her words and my thoughts were all trying to push through at the same time . i asked when he 'd quit saying f**k. `` yes , '' he answered immediately . `` that might be , but i do n't want him to have to deal with my problems . providence , still holding the items shed taken from her cupboard , pushed at the papers on the kitchen table to clear a space , so she could set them down . 