it often seemed to happen that way , as if the caller had known she was busy and kindly waited until she finished before they disturbed her . suddenly the need to hurt jake is more than i can bear , choking my air supply , burning through my skin like acid . normally , he would say next christmas , but he wanted to come back sooner than that . and i know its unfair of me to tell you that now , while you cant remember , but i cant help it . 