he could look through the piles himself . he whispered , and my heart started racing as i looked up at him . my pants get tight as my mind flips through the evening 's possibilities . theyre all about ten years too old . she doesnt understand what i mean , but i am thrown off course by her answer . i bit down the response i wanted to make . she asked , her voice sounding hoarse . at the start , most of the team had to crawl through the thick mud under a rope net . 