`` mat , i could kiss you , '' she declared . he made a little sound of distress . my heart was pounding as i waited for the answer . `` through the years , i made some really bad , really stupid choices . then she opens her purse and makes mary look inside . i 'm sorry for all the secrets and lies , but you have to see that they were necessary . they ca n't do it on their own . '' i sat in a pew and waited while everyone roamed around the building . 