if dirt doesnt get my message ... he trailed off , looking at me again . at that moment , i thought i would have followed him anywhere if only he kept holding me . he said her name as if they were close . at the rear of the car , he used the porter 's keys to unlock the metal door . `` we talked about it for a while , and then elaine went up to the kitchen and brought down her promise box . `` sorry , '' i said , walking into the kitchen . 