`` was i so obvious as all that ? '' but those down there were the stories that were never to be told , the little secret stories , enacted in little rooms ... you feel as though you are drowning in your own tears , and you can not stop . after that , it was my grandfather 's , then my father 's ... and eventually mine . '' you know you ca n't eat that rubbish , sandwich . '' the tower was enormous ; even its huge size on the maps did n't do it justice . 