you know , the more you try to finish my thoughts , the more im finding out what you really think of me . if he spoke , it would not be to defend himself . ill get on the phone tomorrow . the only way i could describe my decision making process was that one shoulder had an angel living on it , the other a devil . you needed to understand your role in this , as well as mine . '' her voice reached him , faint and fading . please , can you just understand and leave it alone ? '' 