i always thought that was a load of crap until she walked into my office one day . if you think you can trust him if that 's what your gut is telling you then i can live with it . '' it had been about protecting the society . doing it did n't hurt as much as she 'd been afraid it might . the morning on the bus was the worst . there was so much she felt she had to say before that . i scurry past his wicked window down the long open corridor to the playground . 