she pulls her knees to her chest , looking intently at me . it was on the banks of this river that the speakers servants set up their rugs , pillows and food . i ask as i float over to the doors . i could n't have anyone see me break down like this . it made us seem closer even though we were miles apart . `` and you expect me to forgive and forget ? '' she says shes figured out a back road she can take to keep from driving through town . 