warmth rose to my skin as he dragged his eyes back up . fear trembled inside me , knowing that everything id worked for in the end , will never came true . i am the product of my birth , and there is nothing i can change about that , or believe you me , i might have opted for a smaller nose . it did n't matter what it took . `` if i kept a diary , which i do n't i assure you , this would go down as one of the hottest moments ever . '' 