then he picked up one of the notes . for a moment , we gazed at each other , our faces an arm 's length apart . then his hands were running through his hair . `` what 's your price for all this ? for most of my life , i was just as alive as you . '' `` true , but 't is a habit , and one that will not be easy to break . i can come out until four , he said . `` i 'm a head-wife and your just a servant-girl ! '' 