it was fun for a lot of people but inside i was scared . i need to know everything literally everything especially where , when and with whom you were . how she made me want to try when she knew she had james in the background . they know the colony will never be self-sufficient . a lifetime or more just sitting in her room at the end of the hall staring at that damned window that she jumped out of to end her life . show me how to make them grow . 