i did n't have to spend my time at work picking them up . `` i guess i rubbed him the wrong way , '' i replied . that fat man was coming over and you told me to stay against the wall , cover my face with my hand . i might have continued being miserable afterward , if i had n't become numb to everything . '' `` he 's not ... expendable , '' she said , her voice flat and cold . really , you dont have to come in here every week . 