`` then take me to find her , damn it ! '' i pushed my shoulder into the door and it opened . went out with a bang , do n't you think ? '' nope , she was through with the hearts-and-flowers thing . surely , surely , there had to be some kind of eternal reward waiting for me for going to school on a gorgeous day like this with sam in my car . liked the sensation of his hands on hers . it was like throwing feathers into the wind and hoping they 'd make it to china . 