the beard was gone , but the eyes were still dark , and now his mouth was pinched with worry . `` i have a meeting i need to get to , '' he said , his eyes moving to his son . he stumbled over another body , face down in the snow , tripped but carried on . i just had too much chaos in my mind to know . not too long ago , that was me . i needed to see her and tell her exactly what i thought of her , and then i could walk away . 