my index finger hurts , making it tricky to move from string to string , but it 's fine . he turned and faced me at the sound of the door shutting behind me . but deep down , he knew that his biggest worry was n't any of these things . no , not yet , you will , peter smiled and nodded , youre a smart boy , you will . the bank we climbed out onto was this color . '' she could no longer see the wall she 'd sat against . 