it 's a horrible thing your father did to make you feel like that . '' she 'd pulled herself together after that first twenty-four hours , climbed out of bed , and returned to work . `` you know , you can always be our far-far guard and stay behind with that thing , '' i told him . i sighed , suddenly feeling a little less confident . she told me we werent done . `` i 'm sorry ... , '' i tell her again , wishing i was man enough to tell her why . 