'why has he not written to me , then ? ' all these years ... he 'd been going about it all wrong ! i buried my head in my hands , but someone took my hand in his . i read over a dozen books on every subject i thought would help me here . '' he looks around to see if i 'm asking someone else the question before he answers . `` hit me again , '' she said with a silly grin . it had been much too long of a day and too much had happened . 