he did n't know how to thank him , though he was going to try . and she 'd just tapped into a killer 's mind . maybe it was n't so bad , getting his heart beating . i dont wake up screaming , i dont walk around in terror . brad started to work his way around the tables , but starting as far away from amys table as possible . he did not pause in his task . i close my eyes and try , try to relax . but i wanted to keep the peace with him . 