to ralph it looked like the world 's smallest flying saucer , and he was n't surprised to see that it was blue . `` where do you see yourself in five years time ? '' you know , the really charming one . my heart is hammering in my chest as i walk away . `` of course she is , '' much said . the ache in my chest balloons so much i think it could make me burst . he 'd done things that were almost impossible ; i did not want to find out what his touch could do . 