i would n't try it again knowing he 'd kill himself . '' i did n't see him and i fought panic . luke frowned , almost as if he could read her thoughts . or what my mother expected of me . it is all one and the same now . they shift to pulling the strings . `` they bring out the human and lock him-or her-to the chair . i was hung up on before i could say what was wrong . i 'd be happy to beg now , if you 'd like that . '' 