it could get started on its own , he told himself . i knew what he was thinking ; he and i did n't keep secrets from each other . either way , the effect on me was the same . the football players are having some fun with me too . putting on an apron , i went to the sink to start hacking out the burned muffins so i could start baking . `` and i want you to wear this while you do it . '' im thinking of naming my first born after her . 