words that meant something to only me, words we had shared. my heart sank, although i could not really know by the note what i was about to face, and yet, i had an idea. i quickly got in the car and raced over to his house. i let myself in only to find the same note there on the table by the door, along with a note to emergency staff should they have found him before i did. i knew now. i tiptoed through the house until i found him. he had killed himself in a manner that did not leave blood and gore for me to find, but 