he led her to the rear of the house , where he spoke in a whisper . he shook his head , his mouth wide with a smile . what did it mean that he had come to find me this evening ? she thinks we need a restraining order . it could be what she wanted it to be . `` you wo n't even look at me , '' i said , my voice rising . more to the point , none of it seemed to bother her much either , and that really was n't normal . 