close to for so long.
my emotions are a rollercoaster and i can feel happy but then just think about her or her be mentioned in group conversation and i just get very down. and i struggle to be happy again. we share a lot of friends so i can't just move on because she's always there. i don't know what to do or how to make myself be happy with her still being in my life without us talking at all, because right now its just making me so depressed.
i can also tell she's been trying to get our other friends on her side, and i'm just trying to be 