something that has n't happened to me in a really long time ; not for real anyway . what was there , so tiny as to be little bigger than a dot on the printed sea , was a tiny rowboat . `` i also felt that in the position that i occupied i should n't have been there . '' it is an ugly head , i grant you , but he only has the one . '' `` if you do n't want to talk about it- '' `` no , '' i said firmly . 