my advice: pause a while, stop thinking about it, and see what comes from such a 'non-doing'.
another fact here is that there are 'issues' you both have with each other that you both do not seem to be able to get past.
there is something here that can teach you about yourself, if you will let it.
something that, if you see it and understand it and humble yourself to it, could well help you create the type of relationship you deep down want, with this man or with another.
sorry if this is not what you wanted to read, but it's all i got. 