how long had it been , i wondered , since we 'd laughed and joked in the kitchen like this ? `` god , even when we were kids , you never listened to me . had he arranged for one of his men to meet him ? but when i was at that guy 's house , standing on the porch trying to get in , you know what i saw ? '' `` my point is that of course they 're going to want to talk to you when things get weird . dangerous definitely , but it can be done . 