and if this is going to work , it has to be healthy . '' it was closed tight and locked from the inside . and with his hair in his eyes that way , he looked young . disgusted with myself , i sank into a chair , elbow on the table , my hair making a curtain between me and the rest of the world . one conversation with her and i 'm hooked . `` no , i was just getting here and saw you duck inside . '' the ceiling suddenly seemed right on top of her and she gasped . 