i tried to push aside everything gen had said to me , everything i 'd been thinking and feeling , and all the worries i 'd had for the past few days . `` even then , it would be a bit of a risk . '' you know who i am ; you know i want to be different for you . '' `` did you hear me say we had to go right now ? '' it is not necessarily unreasonable because it affects private rights and privileges ( 11 am . need a place for your horse , mistress ? 