she whispered , raising her voice which , in turn , raised a knot in his throat . 'then if he 's not going to pay any attention to the rules , why should we ? i continued `` making up for lost time '' and even went so far as to start reading sex how-to books . i think ill pop off to my cell for a nap . better that than the awful truth . but she wasnt willing to wait that long . he put his hands on her shoulders. ' 