you want to help him only because you cant stand to watch him suffer . she cried out and pressed into the mattress , her breath coming in tiny bursts . then the bathroom light flipped on . she made a column with the four names . we filled our baskets full and went back for more . she sat down and stretched her long , graceful legs out in front of her . it was a way for the smoke to escape . '' that 's why we 're here with you asking where she is . '' 