`` i wanted to be the one to give him a baby . his full lips were slightly separated and i could see his chest breathing in and out in the gentlest way . some were crying , some were calling out for help . maybe its deans reflection , carlos suggested . i guess ill say good night , then . youre hardly going to need the money once castles wife coughs up the bounty she promised . being able to remember there were days when things were simpler made me long for them just a little . 