yet he did n't know what else to do . after our final consultation with deb 's medical team , the three of us are silent on the way to her tiny apartment . `` the pipe burst all over me . in my panic , i dropped the cigarette lighter . henry closed his eyes and pressed his hand against the second bar . only a moment ago an angel had spoken to me , but now i was alone . everywhere i looked just more and more bodies . she jumped but did n't push him away . 