his eyes glowed like the soft rays of the candles and i did n't want him to let me go . both of them died in the fire . i have no ... '' `` no one is blaming you , but you need to be more careful . my thoughts were too heavy for casual conversation . they mean to have us , no matter what happens to them . '' it was n't always that way , of course , but the past is the past . he shakes his head as if i 'd asked the question aloud . 