my beautiful wife is still alive . the citizens of this place were the first sons and daughters of the dreamer who had moved beyond the pale . this one is just frustrated and then he is hopeful and then he stands on his head because he thinks he can do everything . 'where do i seat my guests before dinner if i put the table here and where do i put my table if i seat the guests here ? ' damn it , why did i not get on that plane with the rest of them ? 