all she could see was the next layer of branches blocking out any further view . its the best thing for lewis , and i want whats best for him , not whats best for me . deep inside she knew that he had n't meant to hurt her . men simply did n't affect her in this way . her heart beat at double time and it had nothing to do with the sugar rush from sampling too many wedding cakes this morning . he 'd be a fool to lose it . still in her black dressing gown . 