she could n't help thinking that if you were alive and hurt in enemy territory with your bird on fire , it would be the longest wait of your life . this was what he 'd been fantasizing about all day , what he 'd wanted from the moment he 'd climbed out of bed that morning . he looked a bit surprised as i ran toward him , but i rushed past ( as i did not want to worry him ) , and as i squeezed by nurse watkins i got going on steps 2 and 3 big-time . 