sitting with two guys staring at each other while sipping coffee was making me want to walk away , so i tried to start up some kind of conversation . but then why was he staring at her like that ? all she knew was that her friend wasnt the friend she used to know . `` nothing , '' she smiled , wishing she could admit that she wanted to toss her shoes into the garbage and soak in a hot tub . at the time it seemed the most secure one i could get to , the old one having been over-run . 