now he was even more curious . he listened for another short while . she should be out of my system by now . as we reached the road from his driveway , i had to do something even though my nerves were on high alert as well . i 'm following him out and expecting him to take the next bulb he has in his hand and go left into the family room . i ca n't believe the world is going on just the same as it was this morning , like nothing happened . 