if a battle did start then at least we would know before arriving to it . she walks toward me with a massive smile and her arms outstretched . tears pricked her eyes as she bent to slip on her high-heeled sandals . colors were a part of their body language . she lays back at the request of the nurse who enters when he 's done . but this was one area of his life he could never rationalize , and it would always be that way . then she seemed to think better of the question as she let go of me . 