his heart thundered beneath her ear , and she could hear the air moving into his lungs as he gasped for breath himself . im sorry ; i told you it was one of those days already . i read that hes released on these conditions . `` did n't i say it would all be for nothing ? '' `` you 're sorry for what exactly ? '' maybe he was going about this all wrong . `` help me , '' the man said again . she sincerely felt for the family . `` this may be hard for you to understand . 