then i feel his hands on my shoulders as he bodily throws me across the room . `` are n't you going to ask what i 'm drinking ? '' but it 's better than history , i guess . '' it means knowing things no one else does , '' he said , still growling . jay decided not to ask and get to sleep again for a good hour and a half . he is so certain he can not . '' yet , my next few dreams were true ones , and i was forced to keep reliving the past . 