this way he could save up for a better apartment while he lived there . just ... well , i guess i was thinking about the family i do n't have . he looked at her and his tone was biting when he asked , `` aye ? dont let this out of your sight . by the time she hailed a taxi back home , she was torn , her heart feeling as if it 'd been sent straight through a grinder . `` you 're good at what you do , are n't you ? '' 