i 'm no good at it , and it scares the hell out of me . '' odd that , now i think about it . it was before eleven o'clock and he had n't gone to bed this early since he 'd been a child . the warmth of his body reassured me that he was all right . `` just ken , '' she said , `` since he does look like a ken doll . '' i quickly showered , scrubbed my face off , and dressed . we move into the bus and stay quiet . 