i regret that she may have been telling the truth . ' she didnt care how badly shed scraped her palms as she coughed the burning poisons from her lungs . it was the smile i never figured out , and would never forget . the ride to the police station went quickly . he asked , because there was n't anything else to do . then i realized : i was one of them now . save yourself whatever agony is headed your way and give it to me . 