a sudden commotion on the river made chris look back . now , it was time to show her the rest of his cards . it seemed even the air stirring around me gave me pleasure . there is nothing to be learned from the madman . weve never been good at comforting each other . why do i let her scare me so much now , when her power over me is ending ? it 's just the two of us , and she stops what she 's doing as we lean against the counter and talk . 