really , perry , life gets hard sometimes . my head bounced off the broken door , and for a moment i saw only black in front of my eyes . his knees felt weak , and fear was a cold knot in his stomach , but he kept moving , going toward his little girl , who stood so silently beside the easel , her big brown eyes fixed on his . `` because i did n't want to worry you over something like that until the police had a chance to figure out what happened . '' 