she wiggled her red painted toes . because he does n't want to hurt me . then why did he feel so reluctant to press her ? she had n't done that since she was fourteen . at the end of the season , in november usually , when you go to put it all away , theres a sadness for the things you didnt use and the things you did use . the more he thought about it , the harder it was to see anything but red . he has another appointment in less than two weeks . '' 