now in pain , i slowly trudged across the room . `` i was thinking about telling him it was n't going to work . the bird is gone , and in what meadow does it now sing ? `` i think they 're mostly gray , with some other colors thrown in . another truth is , is that i want to work closer with you . i was happy for him-it was something he always wanted . `` was it because you did n't trust me enough to want to tell me ? '' 