she continued to stare at the holes in her dress . for the record , i did not ask holly to release you . his thoughts and my thoughts were one and the same . the two people are virtually two halves of the same whole . '' a shiver runs down my spine and i have to blink back tears . i wanted to take chance somewhere dark and private and spend hours- no , that was n't me . ill never forgive myself , and ill never stop missing her . `` do you know if you 're close ? '' 