i would die or be tortured first . '' i also memorized as much of the city as i could . `` watching you crawl in the dirt will certainly make us all feel better . '' i was so in the dark , and yes , i admit it , very scared . the soldier kept a station at the doorstep . `` but the eyes ... you saw them . '' `` if anyone 's to blame , it 's me . there is an edge to him that was n't there before . you are the reason this family is drowning . 