she was struggling to climb , but the boy waited , bent over and holding his knees , encouraging her . and not for the act that you might think i love them for . i glanced around the office and i suddenly knew what i needed to do , to get the control back . because he was n't about to let her go in alone . the inside of the house looked as messy as the outside . because once he looked , he found it difficult to look away . she felt flustered for the first time in her life . 