i didnt know you could see the audience during your show . i start picking up the boxes around her , moving one at a time away from her small ball-like body . i forced my hands to stay at my side . she moved around the table until her back was toward him . other than in the haven , i felt the most at ease while in this kitchen with this group of people . we fell asleep naked in my bed , and when buffy came in to wake us up , hope never even moved . 