was he in bed , or was he standing there looking out at the peaceful night ? we never get to relax , do we ? i really liked this state of peace . i mean , we could be dreaming right now and not even know it . '' she was worth much more than fats wall , she knew that . look , i know i 'm good at what i do for a living . i could barely see where i was going . her heart broke for the little boy he had been . 