of course he was waiting for my reaction . so hearing violet 's breathing pick up made the hairs on my arms stand on end . the point is now i have access to parts to make electronic spies . shepherd had to kill one of them . `` what do you mean , it do n't matter ? '' he turned his head and grinned at me . `` i 'm trying to explain that it will be hard on you . what was this place before it was a camp ? did you tell him to leave and never come back ? '' 