`` because someone is dead and it was by my own hand , '' she replied , looking gloomy . he had tried to tell them . the fact i understood his attitude didnt mean i liked it . i watch her for a few seconds , but i 'm far too interested in who 's at the other end of me to pay her attention for long . of course walt was with the guys now . i sat up , biting my lower lip as a rush of dizziness threatened to push me back into the soft comforter . 