`` they said the writer 's name was charles , '' she said in a faraway voice . he spoke now to seth as the person he really was , not the person he was supposed to be . we should n't start , because then this will turn into something and i ca n't let it . i knew it was a mistake coming here . he said and lowered his head . `` i can well imagine the sort of list you would provide me . of all the questions he could have asked her that was not one she expected . 