the old man was nibbling his lip . he looked at the ceiling , and seemed far away . it was good to be back among his old friends again . the final nail in the coffin ? she believed him , and it took all her strength of will to force the next words from her lips . her eyes finally came to me and she whispered , `` i 'm sorry . you dont always have to be such a hero . did anyone come looking for me ? this is how it always starts . 