eyes wide , surprised by his action , i squint , staring at him for a few seconds . it had been a day of disappointment . as i flipped through the pages , i smiled . wed gone so fast i had barely seen what happened ( it probably didnt help that i squeezed my eyes shut ) , but i remembered the distinct outline of a door , lined with blue lightning . `` that 's never going to go away , and i 'm telling you that from experience . 