jesus , jules , why did n't you say anything ? '' then well decide what to do . by god , i would hap'ly kill and die for her , if it meant still just holding her ! and the reason they ca n't be done in a regular hospital is because these tests are n't for humans . '' `` i wanted you so bad , so fucking bad-i was scared i was going to hurt you . you were never cut out for this job in the first place . 