this was a tough man , a hard man , and she knew without being told that he did not waste time with emotional stuff . it was the most intimate moment she 'd ever had , and she felt things building inside her that she could n't even describe . he spoke briefly to the pilot . she was n't going to get anything worked out until she took her time thinking about the matter . `` he had other things to attend to . '' im eighteen years old , lily said . 