ca n't even remember how it all got started . his companion spoke for the first time , revealing a row of missing teeth in his upper jaw . many have tried to do what you did . she was in a long cotton gown they 'd given her , something very thick for the new york winters , and the bedroom was very white and quiet . i suspect i would have felt smothered by anyone else , but he makes me feel loved . the voices are coming , of course . 