my thoughts refused to steer away from the key , however , and kept turning its image over and over in my mind . but even though i told her she was meant to play ava , that does n't change that you 're the one i wanted more for the part . lark placed both hands on the side of my face and kissed me so sweet and gentle . i was looking around the kitchen , looking at him , thinking that it was a nice life , really . 