i wanted to be his ... in every way . `` folks who want a lot of alone time . '' technically , she was in no hurry . her eyes moved to the body then to the match . i paused and tried to stay calm . i kept my head to the bed but i tilted my chin down to watch him . he kept coming , getting up on his hands and knees to cover the rest of the distance . but that day , the one where fear and sadness gripped everyone in the country , she wasnt there . 