sending a brain buster meant getting one back , and she did n't have any willow bark . how could you think she was n't ? ! '' it was ordinary , but i appreciated the life i had and found that it was easier to sleep through the nights . this was not my problem , but i stuck my nose in anyway . but he is a person you and i both know . `` i was afraid to let myself love him all the way just in case something went wrong and tore us apart . 