the man smiled , which changed his face into something much younger . `` sometimes i think this is all a dream . i knew , without anybody telling me , that it was n't safe to be facing that particular stare . what happened happened - some people died , and you were spared . and call me buck , '' he said , the corner of his mouth lifting slightly . whatever you say , that will never happen . i never would provide my life energy to the task of showing this beauty to others . 