when i came back from the bathroom , the living room was full of rockers . you know what they do when they catch slaves trying to escape . i was surrounded once more by that sleek texture , cold and delicate . `` i have to let her run it out ! '' it does n't mean i 'm losing him in a month or even a year . i needed to pull myself together and get a grip on reality . `` why are n't you going to the game ? 