she opened the bottom left hand drawer of the desk . placing them in the vase one at a time , i arrange and rearrange until they fan out evenly , sunny and happy . and i have to admit , neither am i . '' i climbed faster and jumped off the last two rungs . he was ready to bust wide open . he wanted me to bend back over , so i did , holding on to the ledge so that he could have his wicked way with me . 