well , it would have been a cooling balm if she could actually feel more than a tickle of its presence . `` it 's a middle name , '' he says like i do n't know . i didnt think he had any reasons to lie about his personal life , but i got the sense something was off . my soul is not built like a wall , that would be gradually hit by a childrens soccer . as long as he had her , he did n't care . he tried to blend in but he did n't quite fit . '' 