`` most of it fell , into place by itself once i realized you were behind it . `` you may be wondering where it was hidden , since it was n't in my pack last night . '' he said it with absolute confidence and she wished she could be that sure of her ability to resist him . at some point your government will not want to pay for taking care of us and we will have to take care of ourselves . i can do more good out there in the dark . 