exactly contains and where i see that what i accepted and allowed, as ‘not so bad’ and so, i do not really see the need to let go.
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that i can continue like this, that i will be okay and fine.
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not really care about myself and my future, not as in a really waking up with only myself as a cross-reference and that i need a relationship to show me what i have accepted and allowed and still then i do not really/completely see it and 