with this thought , he leaned back and turning from the glowing lights went to sleep . her head was becoming clear again . i thought for a moment , images of goose stepping soldiers suddenly popped into my mind . and just like that time before , i 'm at a loss for words . i closed my eyes and thought about my family ; not just brooks or b. i thought about all of them and the possibility of earlier being the last time i ever saw any of them . 