he normally was n't a jumpy person but his heart jumped , as he turned to see the bright end of a flashlight . she had come to work early and checked the schedule and talked to the night nurse and then the doctor on call . she wanted to hold the truth from him but he would find out anyway . just as i 'm about to turn around and head back , i see him lying on the concrete next to the pool with his hands locked behind his head , looking up at the stars . 