i was by her side at the hospital for a month . her family has lots of money . '' `` at least he 's holding and not grabbing . '' from what he did , and from what he 's said since , we believe that he was going to try to combine two men into one . that is quite shocking , if i am going to be modest . it was also time for her to make changes , too . i felt like i was living in a dream . `` i am your sword and your shield , lady . 