`` i thought you 'd want to call him back when you 're done . '' he gave a little wave toward the dark eye of glass . `` i do n't want to think about that . '' she could n't even allow herself to dream what it would be like to carry his child instead . `` do n't you dare , '' i warned him , my finger coming up to point in his face . the first thing joe would want was some coffee making . the deeper my sister plunged , the darker and dirtier it got . 