i 'd been denying myself pleasure for too long , but since i 'd taken care of that problem earlier , i knew i was going to be able to keep going . that sounded good , but nick only had one problem with this theory . i would take tess-the last piece of her , but i would do it in a way i 'd never done before . `` as i think back , i see more and more clues . '' chapter thirty-five toby i could n't wait a second more . 