she just wished that this one time , doing what she wanted to do and what was right had both happened to be the same thing . she wanted to see it shine in the sun . i roll over onto my stomach and prop a pillow under my chin , and then begin to tell her my story . `` that 's just it , merry , they were my equal . he would n't get a chance to reload it anyway and went for the fighting knife on his leg . `` why do you think something is wrong ? 