im not going to stand here and try to convince you that i was always rachels first choice for a husband , i said . or if they moved to another city ? as with many things in life , you will understand when the time is right . i reached my hand between her legs while we continued kissing . his eyes were heavy-lidded either from sleep ... or other things . 'all they have to do is wait us out . enjoy your lunch and get strong . tears threatened again , and she sipped the tea , swallowing hard . 