i felt my hands curl into fists at my sides and had to concentrate to keep from putting a fist all the way through the door . the nurses got a kick out of that . but in whom could he have faith ? most of the better ones produce quite natural-sounding voices , male or female . the head investigator shook his head . i felt his gaze on me for what seemed a long time . forgive me , but i am just honestly at a loss . or the guy who drives the boat gets sick . '' 