i bent my head to catch her eye . he had no idea what he was dealing with-that in madeline 's mind , they were probably already engaged by now . considering what a roller coaster his day had been so far , he could use an uneventful night at the table . `` you know we have to stay on guard . i was n't thinking about much of anything , just sort of letting my mind wander . `` at the time she wanted to protect him . 