i knew i should sit at the table and eat with him-maybe even have a coffee to help ease the chill in my skin from my early morning run , but he was better than anyone at seeing through my mask ; i was n't okay . there 's so much darkness in him to navigate . in fact , he waited patiently , like a parent might do for a toddler having a tantrum . i think youve covered that subject way more than you needed to already . 