`` he 's going to kill himself the day after you die . '' alec reached back into his jeans and pulled out his wallet . it choked me up and made my heart ache . that was perfectly okay with her , so long as she did n't have to say his name . are you truly ready for what you are about to hear ? '' the upper exterior of the ship looked intact . that fact seemed to please sam . but perhaps the teacher was n't very good , '' she suggested , raising her eyebrows in challenge . 