hard and fast would have been amazing , but as she realized he would n't be rushed-and that all she could do was relax into the stroke of his hands , the kisses from his lips , the gentle scratch of his teeth against her skin-mary finally stopped trying to fight , to lead ... or to worry . `` you already admitted you 're attracted to me . i 'm hurt by what he 's done , and although i love him , i ca n't make myself say the words in return . 