he studied ash closely , looking for the usual anger in his eyes he wore around the holidays . the other angels looked at goodness as if she was the one with the answers . he had dark hair and features . i 'd come back here afterwards , of course . '' and that was the way of it . `` i 'm going to go do some exploring , see what i can find . '' it was no big deal ; it did n't go all at once , with a bang . 