he knew he could not hide the mixture of anger and sadness from his face . i did n't even know such a thing existed ! but i could always read and write good so when we found the press i was glad to get out of that work . the giant 's head whipped around to me . he could n't stay over every night , obviously , but more importantly , i needed to know that i would be okay on my own . `` are you playing hard to get ? 