but it was n't illegal and to my knowledge it did n't happen very often . jessies voice had dropped to a whisper . okay , so maybe she did n't wake , but instead i woke her up by slamming all the pots and pans i took out . we dont ever go anywhere without this . we finished the short walk to the large front doors of the building . the day staff found him there in the morning , deeply asleep and covered in dust . she 's in good 'ands with me . '' 