i was almost certain that no matter what , she would have accepted me for who i was , and would have been totally satisfied just knowing all of those possibilities were somewhere in there . you sent him away and he 's gone . `` i was just there and did n't see him . '' suddenly , i felt a buzz from her hands going into me . you dont know anything about our society or why we do the things we do . she was knitting and watching television . now her head was full of him . 