i hugged my arms tight around its neck , concentrating on keeping its neck secure and its teeth away from me . `` go to the kitchen , go through all the drawers . he glanced away , briefly , and shook his head at some unknown memory . so , what did you do with your afternoon ? seemed like a better choice versus whipping him back . '' he threw the controller to the ground and stood to repeatedly kick the cushions under ryans back . he had emotions and he was n't in the least bit of control of them . 