it was nice to know his best friend had such a high opinion of him . caring about people who need you , and not disappointing them . i was hugging myself as hard as i could . you have to feel the lock . `` good morning , ladies , '' said the captain . why do n't we get a good night 's sleep and we can talk tomorrow . '' we make it to the mill and run right in the dark open backdoor . she was here in my arms , grinding against me . 