work can be meaningful , yes , but i do n't want to be one of those people who looks up when she 's fifty or sixty and realizes that she 's spent her entire life at her job . `` hey , carrots , '' he says when he spots me . but damn it , she was being followed twenty-four seven . no , its not hurting me , i muttered . deliberately he added small bursts of a breeze to change the pattern of sound against the windows and walls . 