he dropped the dust cloth and stood frozen at the piano he had been cleaning . my heart beat my way out , and i was outside of this . what happens then is not up to me . ' if he kept touching me , i was going to find some other way to hurt myself just so he would keep doing it . he watched me as i ripped opened the bag and sipped at it . i dont know what he made with this money , but he doubled amount of it . 