he had taken pains to understand her , to know her , and that meant something . this was his last chance to save himself . i did n't know why or how he was doing it , but he was watching over me . i continue to stare at the ceiling until daylight fully breaks . i looked up , and in effect down , at myself . `` her family would like to bury her . definitely wishing she was back to not talking to him . `` do n't involve him in the planning . 