another twist of pain now , worse than before . imagining him with me just seemed ridiculous . keep the few flowers you got , witch . nature seemed to be their enemy today . im sorry , but im really not convinced by all this . i 'm scared that when you die that 's it . i ripped into their throats and murdered them while they fought to get away . how can you be over that ? '' so you can see my problem . '' the truck had been stolen , it said . 