they were surprised by the sound of the door opened , followed by a gasp , and then the door quickly closed again . my mother sits on the side of the bed and prim crawls right up next to me and they hold me , making quiet soothing sounds , until i am mostly cried out . i do n't want to live like that . '' we 're going to be in the same city . '' my body mask will be ruined . they cut peoples wrists to let out bad blood , larry continued , ignoring him . 