do i spring for three plane tickets ahead of time ? `` that 's because there were too many things wrong to focus on just one , '' cash said with a smile . and besides , i had a ways to go before i was home free on this . they made love fast then slow then fast again , never turning off the small lamp . two tears ran down her cheeks , and the will to fight left her body . as i lay staring at the stars i felt as if the earth moved . 