weight that felt like it was suffocating me because he was easily 6’4 and i was only 5’1 and maybe a hundred pounds. i remember trying to say “no,” but nothing coming out. i remember trying to fight back tears out of fear. i remember waiting for him to fall asleep so i could sneak out. i remember trying to lift a heavy arm off of my neck so i could find my clothes and get out as fast as possible. i remember walking away confused and upset. i remember not wanting what happened to me.
when i got back to my room, my sister immediately sat up in bed and 