same myself if faced with similar circumstances.
the thing is, and i know it so well now, there was something else at work far bigger than my pain, or any pain. while it appeared to the outside world that i wanted to end it all, what i actually did was go to a very deep place within myself, a place you have to go to if you want to heal. there’s no hiding from the truth when you go there. to truly heal, you must feel. and feel i did, every morsel of pain that i’d bottled up for years, i felt it all. every wrong decision, every time i saw 