as hell. now i don't know how you handle your anger and your hurt but i hope you will at least put aside your pain to see the big picture. see intentions, and don't tell yourself made up stories to support your pain. you are valid. your feelings are valid no matter what anyone says. just look at what is actually going on and not what you want to tell yourself. try to see how setting aside your anger can help you to accomplish a goal.
and i know i sound crazy, but trust me. going through this process is extremely difficult. it's so trying on the very fiber of my 