for so long she had been his only future , his only joy , and now he had this other joy , and he wanted to share it with her . grunting , rick stumbled backward a good five steps ... backward ? then again , my father always referred to me as the 'soft one . ' you were n't going to do anything ! ' it shows me we still mean something to you . he would n't mind playing the grandpa role , come to think of it . then well wait without sending the boat . 