but surely we will be taking horses ? he was afraid of the crowds with the bigger fights , so more often than not , i sat on the bed freaking out until he called to tell me he 'd won . he seemed to be floating above ground at one point . i was glad to see signs that she was eating . `` i 'm a little scared , but i feel safe with you . no one ever came up here . i never felt more beautiful as i did that day . 