or maybe i 'm wrong about the whole thing . as soon as she sees him , she reaches out and screams . somehow , i managed to resist the urge to spend thirty minutes looking for parking and pay twice the going rate for anything . `` according to them , i did n't understand them , '' he said instead . i knew if they chained me to a desk , i 'd go off the cliff . '' under the hot water , the reality of how close i 'd come to dying hit me . 