was it as hard to figure out as all that he was n't coming back , was he of course he was n't . the food flowed out of me in a constant stream . he grabbed my arm and pulled me back . or maybe he thought it important that i be aware . its not such an unusual story , perhaps , but its the way you put everything in words . jake nodding , better we find out . she must have kept herself alive to get her child to safety . '' 