the words sounded more cruel out loud than they had in my head . how the hell could she have made such a mistake ? `` if it 's the summer , then i really could come with you . '' what made you ever come back ? jake was sitting on the floor , reading the newspaper . he glanced up when she appeared . `` no , i really do n't want to be a bother . still , he kept low and he kept the lights out . 