i cover myself over as my stomach begins to ache . `` you are and will always be my best friend , alec . i just curled back around my pillow and watched him round the bed until he disappeared . i mean , with the wedding and stuff if you decide to do it ... when i grabbed it , she looked up at me and smiled . to be honest , i had n't thought about it too much . hating the way his guess was , as always , right . 