he 'd seen it even in his own lifetime , watched it happen and recognized it when he was a child . `` i think i should take you home , '' he said , his voice deep , with a hint of humor in it . `` you did n't have to stay , you know ? i wanted , desperately , to lean forward , to respond to his touch , but i was afraid that if i moved , he would pull back and the moment would shatter . she 'd like to have me in his place . 