not when she 'd just begun to let herself think about other possibilities in life besides running . when i kill , it was bliss , it was heaven . oh , when will you give in , my dear thing ? she tugged on his hand , pulling him toward the door . its mind was not dark or evil ! if you were fine , you wouldnt be trying to leave the hospital in your condition . usually she could n't look past his arrogant , selfish exterior , but she had to admit , he 'd been pretty sweet today . 