they were quieter than the silence in this room and faster than anything humans knew . he studied me a moment but i could n't really read his facial expression in the darkness . he realized that he actually should be dead by now and wondered what the demon was waiting for . if i was going to lose him , i wanted him to remember me . i was envious of their easy friendship and a selfish part of me wanted it to end . defiant or hopeful , the two kept trying . 