what if i ca n't shift all the way ? it would be difficult to try and have it all . '' `` guys like me eat them for food when we 're away from home . '' `` now , '' she gasped against his mouth . i close my eyes and pretend that my hand is hers . he was barefoot , and his shirt was torn . when she goes under , his voice is still above her , swimming around her , welcoming her to this new life . 