the boat.
do it again on the other side, and again on the first side, then again on the other side.
if you are moving with good speed, the water pressure on the paddle is intense. make it easier by starting with the blade at an angle; top edge leaning forward toward the bow, so the blade is nearly flat to the water.
as you push forward, rotate the paddle so the blade is straight up and down against the water.
keep doing this, and you will stop, then start to go backward.
although i sometimes enjoy paddling alone, it’s not the safest way to go. paddling with like-minded folks can be lots of fun. 