belatedly , i want to shut my eyes , but his gaze is already on me . i clutch the sheets of my bed , falling to my knees . the important affection in a relationship is given in private anyway . '' it took him long enough to realize he was never going to find anyone who 'd do anything close to what you did for him . '' because if he is , then with a little more experience under his belt , he can only get better . what will i do with it after ? 