i immediately understood this and broke free of the pain and longing . `` but he was going to be with a lot of people he knows really well , and i have n't been with him very long . '' leaving the galoshes outside in the snow , i gratefully slid inside the warm cab and shut the door softly so it would n't wake the neighborhood . i lowered the pitcher-the water was flat and tasted of earth-and sighed . i would have to remain his captive . he was always extremely careful not to hurt me . 