`` she knows better than i do , and she knows her father 's business . and how is it you know what we want ? he brought the troupe to a halt . she joked , trying to lighten the mood , trying to resist as he steered her through the darkness . he did it to me first ( hey , i was in high school . `` that 's not what i was going to say . '' `` i ca n't lose you , '' he says , wrapping his arms tightly around my waist . 