it was n't the first time i felt a sharp flash of shame at the way i rushed to cole every chance i got . somehow i can vaguely pick them up . '' but if you hit one of his trip wires , boom ! ill kill every innocent person in this town until i flush you out ! how i did n't trip and fall on my face , i do n't know . instead , the leaky faucet goes on measuring the silence . she tried pushing me off so she could close her the door . 