to his surprise , she suddenly grinned . and we would keep on fucking up our future until nothing but horror remained . he had been observing her as well . i want a man to share jonas 's life with me . but you ... '' he shakes his head at me , then spits on the floor . yes , sparky said , catching his breath . he was too shy to come up and give it to you himself , to thank you for saving his life . '' 