he did n't return for several minutes , and when he did the sight of him made me prop myself up on my elbows to study him more thoroughly . hes finally strong enough to come back and wants to cash in on what we waited too late to say . my darling girl , you have no idea what it was like to hear that you were safe . '' she smiled but shook her head . `` um ... now i come to tell someone , it does n't sound very helpful , i suppose . '' 