sure , he 'd made an effort at first , but before that first year was out , he 'd given up . i flipped my eyes up upon hearing my name . if not , the flower will be destroyed . it made claires stomach twist and squirm . he was n't pretending everything was okay . he did n't want to give him too much time . i want him-his touch , his kisses . the words were barely out of her mouth when she wished she could take them back . 