all because you could n't stand to not be the center of attention for a few minutes . '' their friends and families had abandoned them to save themselves . as a matter of fact we only found out before boarding the ship . a feeling of sadness came over me for all of the people here who had gone before . `` it does n't matter ... not when he 's already given up on himself . '' you think i would be interested in just any random woman who puts her room key in my hand ? 