he made the mistake of looking down . i wanted to lean into her touch and made myself not react . `` i 'm calling to inquire if you 're interested in keeping your account with us . '' she 'd convinced herself that she was safe , comfortable . and worse , that release was n't enough . she agreed he had a right to defend himself , but still they were people , and sometimes you might be wrong about whether they were trying to kill you . i smooth her hair down and gaze out of the window . 