for all i know , you probably do but its not the kind of thing you tell your press secretary about . he did n't want to see his ex-wife ; he wanted to deal with what he 'd found out . `` it 's our job to look out for you . '' it was a moment hundreds of years old , framed in silence . after a moment 's hesitation at the brass by appointment only sign , i reached for the door only to have someone from inside pull it open . information id been waiting years to know . 