`` remember , we are hell 's angels and we 're supposed to be dark and deadly . '' he had taken a great deal of pleasure in watching mercer squirm . i felt like a man straining to push a car up a hill . i want to gag but manage to suppress the reflex . she did n't know how , or when , it had happened , but there was no denying the truth of the matter . she almost laughed at the fat little motel manager . with better shelter and a little warmth i was more comfortable . 