dean came over with an empty ice bucket and a roll of paper towels . finally , i managed , `` why was that necessary ? he smiled , for there was not a mistake within it . then schedule yourself a therapist appointment and a follow-up with me . '' 'no , i have to do this , there 's no one else . he pinned me to the ground and bit into my side , my shoulder . my world went black , and i remembered nothing else but that sweet , sweet blood of the baby . 