not until she knew what she was going to do with him . and that meant more to her than anything else . it always squeezed her heart the way he would do something considerate , then go out of his way to make it appear as just a casual gesture that had happened to present itself , that he had n't gone to any trouble to do something for her . she screamed and punched and kicked him . after he left me crying in front of the health center , i waited at his apartment to talk to him for hours . 