this was going to be a case of load and unload as soon as possible . a few other awful things had gone down , too . across her temple , the purplish stain had spread . but the media did n't know that . how many buckles were used to secure my load ? ' either give them something juicy or youre out on your ass . `` next time you decide to wig out on me , wrap your hands . '' we had warm beds , hot showers , and a safe life . 