once i left the river , eating was going to be a problem for me again . `` i will not tell you that it will bring you luck-it is the knife i used to sacrifice the one i loved-but who knows ? she clearly was adding two and two in her head . toby 's soft sophisticated voice asked through the door . i had to check most of the pages of each edition before i could move on to the next . no wonder she was having trouble finding her footing . 