`` pansy ... '' `` coffee , boss , yeah , i 'm all over it , '' she said , and waved a hand at the machine . he coughed again , arching his back this time . something inside him had driven him upstairs , to his mother 's bedroom . they seemed to be avoiding each other , like teenagers left alone on a first date , but above all they looked weary . i did n't know if that was good or bad , but i tried to stay focused . 