the memory of my mother was a faint one now and it hurt to flash back to that time . we walk in together , with ketchup greeting friends of his late grandfather , and me following along behind , not sure whether or not this is going to work . i got up and left , closing the door quietly behind me . if he told her , he wouldnt have a chance with her , not even as a friend . they 'd all ended with her wanting to kick herself for being so stupid . what the hell did it say ? 