we might get in the mood for a snack . if he 'd had long nails , his palms would be bleeding like geysers . he instantly groaned , which only encouraged me to take the next step . `` it 's just , are you sure there 's not enough money to fix it ? '' he liked smoking in his car . he was staring at the pelican , a knife in his hand . it only made me wonder more what he could possibly see in me . `` sex or not , '' he says , `` it 's wrong . 