youve got to understand , i have reason to be frightened of my brother . `` it 's better than you being on wall street , '' i mused . `` we want it in a bucket , or a deep pot or pan . i do n't even know what one is . '' so , i thought , why not , ill check and make sure , and sure enough , its positive . i am going to stay with my parents for a little bit , just while you guys get adjusted . thats why they wanted to kill him . 