she 'd seen her father exhibit those signs often enough , growing up . little girl 's dreams are going to be shattered , and i am going to enjoy it . as i washed the dishes and sealed the plastic bags containing the leftover cookies , i found myself wishing that i 'd stayed in the kitchen during the whole meeting . `` well , i just want to make sure- '' `` back at the lab , '' i said . she wondered which wish , if any , had a chance in hell of coming true . 