but who were they to question the captain ? he grinned and went back to his plate . `` so it 's not the one you want , is it ? '' there was nothing else in the world that i had experienced that could compare to the feeling of surfing . i dont know if she is lamenting or hopeful . finally , i decide to get out of bed and go down to my toy room in the basement . i got up and left him there on the balcony . 