i adore painting , and i know i can do it , but ... somehow i can see the end before i get there , and that makes it hard to finish things sometimes . `` come over here and say i suck , '' teacup shouts . i am going to have a couple and catch up . i thought we decided that on days with weather such as this , you would stay home and i would come to you . fingers were starting to get bad , but the pain was reassuring . 