dropping the train into the river would be one way to stop the gold . he may not have felt pain , but that killed him . no way i allow that kind of thing . glanced down , her chocolate eyes full of need . perhaps she was living in some never-never land . i got home , see you next party `` `` you know i must know the truth . '' his eyes were slow to open as he blinked heavily and repeatedly . `` you blame yourself for not stopping it . 