i concentrated on my breath , allowing my mind to go blank , and called on my blood , commanding my heart to slow its beat . `` your parents are not the only ones in this state . grace frowned as worry slid down her spine . eventually , my legs tire and give out , and i 'm forced back home-a place i dread going to . she did n't even want to think what that meant . he could lie this way for hours , simply watching and enjoying the sight of her in bed with him . 