i dont think he will keep his word . `` as you know , she has been for some time , but a few nights ago , she decided to take matters into her own hands without a word of warning to anyone . '' he helped me strap it onto my back , and i could tell he wanted to speak ... but could n't find the words . cassie realized , for the first time , how angry he was ; shed been too caught up in her own situation to realize it , but he really had wanted to kill them . 