in all the time she had been here , drake had n't received any visitors . she turned as he too sat forward , his thigh brushing the side of her face . a coffee-machine and two toasters , he said . she shook her head back and forth over and over again , looking at anything but me . her gaze shifted around the wall . her big eyes just staring straight at him . i mean , a minute ago i was thinking what it was i did last night and wondering if that time still existed somewhere or was gone forever . 