and i repeated myself , even though i was barely able to breathe . i smack it onto the top of her hand . `` i did it for cliff as much as you . we 'd have the place to ourselves . it seemed odd their two attacks had failed . didnt seem youd be too sorry from your book . he 's never seen my boat , so he wo n't spot me . '' shutting out the reality of her presence was the only way he could stomach staying here . 