she took a few deep , calming breaths as she watched the buildings fly past the window . sometimes i wanted to turn the damned thing off . even now i do n't fully understand what came over me . `` this is n't funny , dear , '' he said quite firmly . he knew exactly where the bus was headed . he is holding a gun aimed at my face . i know that you cant tell him his mother is gone or where the money is coming from , but please do what you can . 