he was still restraining her hands , but his hard grip only drove her wild . my neck is turning violent red , and i want to stick my head in a hole . that i 'm no longer sure of my place in this world . '' she promised me that no matter where she was , she would come to our wedding . `` it 's good to have dreams , '' chuck said . i said before i headed toward my bike . `` i was , for all practical purposes , a slave . '' 