neither one of us is in a typical sort of job , really . '' someone rested a hand on my shoulder and i whirled round . `` then you 're gon na suck me . '' forgive me , dear , if i dont call you a friend , but i typically dont make a habit of wanting to kill my friends . i knew i had to let her go , but it f**king killed me to stand there and watch it happen . no sense having it lay around and pick up moisture before i need it . '' 