a sick smile crept over his lips , like he had his own personal joke about what i 'd said . i 'm not even sure what the word means . '' i help her into a kitchen chair and stand beside her , hand on her shoulder . brad said and felt the pressure of a big hand on his . and when there was still no reply , he opened the door and stepped into the room . miles 's gaze went to their mother . i focused on my hands in my lap . 