`` and i know that i hate seeing you in pain , more than anything else in the world . '' he tore his gaze from the bounty before him and leaned over her to kiss her . `` did i thank you for holding down the fort while i was gone ? '' i felt like melting under his firm touch , the muscles in my neck and back losing some of their stress almost instantly . it 's just going to get worse for you . '' the lead-up summoned a far different feeling from any of my other firsts . 