i did n't know how in the hell , if it came to touching heather , i could go through with it , not when my beautiful wife was sitting at home worrying herself sick . on her third pacing rotation she saw the girl . some of them were trying to make wine out of berries but it wasnt going well . had he already realized what had really happened the night of the autumn ball and that i had been the one to hurt him ? oh , and phyllis slipped a note under our door just after six this morning . 