`` with everything that 's going on , i guess i was feeling kind of homesick today . everything was happening far too fast . let her go completely , and even stepped back away from her . i did n't try to spy on you , but it happened , and now i ca n't help thinking about it . it was why he was so damned grateful dark-hunters did n't cast reflections unless they wanted to . if the guards did n't move on soon he was going to have to do something . what will it do to me ? 