she had a light sweater in her lap and a knit top that left her arms bare . i do n't want to hold him , because there 's nothing to hold on to . `` but generous as i am , i will allow it . '' his dark hair is slightly messy , like he just ran his hands through it , but in a sexy way . the nightmare hung over me still , but i came back to bed to write by lantern light . he felt so weak he could hardly keep his hands on the steering wheel . 