she knew that now more than ever before . when summer pulled back , she noticed gram 's eyes went to the door , then back to her . i was born nine years after my youngest sister and not having a very small child to pamper was a bit too much for her . `` but he came into my life at a tough time . everything was most definitely sideways and right now i had no clue which way was up . eventually he draws me up to his chest , into the nook of his shoulder , and we sleep again . 