he hung for a moment , in the grey with no way to tell if he was head up or head down , drifting or still . `` how long have you been eyeing my ass ? '' she was trying not to worry about him , but he did n't make it easy ; lately , he was usually doing something dangerous . i felt embarrassed and ashamed for both of us . i should n't have bothered-they 're not a threat . he 'd stand down on this fight for the good of the pack . 