if it didnt make her feel pain he knew he would fill her completely and lose himself in the moment . i came to look at the man and saw his body swelled up badly . the song was called the lament of the gods . it suddenly occurred to me that this might very well explain how my sister felt about discussing the troubles in her own life . she was so damned sick of feeling guilty . `` walt usually likes to leave at sun-up . with a saucy grin , she turned the truck toward the center of the empty lot . 