to make the meal last , she tried to pace herself , but after a few pancakes and some orange juice , she could stomach no more . he kept an ear on in it as he moved to another door in the hallway . `` i do not want to do this '' he said to her . `` thanks for the coffee , but i 'm going to head off now . but she kept her eyes open . he said instead , `` how does this history begin ? '' i kept my hands on his throat and squeezed . 