so i needed to take that scary little rabbit hole i was about to dive down , fold it neatly in the palm of my hand , and shove it into my pocket , my ca n't deal with this now pocket . the exit to the outside is just through that opening , on the far side of here . and i feared i 'd never get her back . i return his smile and he laughs . her mischievous wink made it clear what she meant . 