she knew there was nothing i could do about any of it unless i abandoned everyone i loved , ran off and spent the rest of my life in hiding . i 'd put up with it because i felt like i 'd done him wrong times a hundred , even if i could n't quite put my finger on why . leaving him was so easy when she did n't have to look into those green eyes . then he went back to the work in front of him . for myself there was just enough to stay strong , nothing more . 