none of her scouts had been able to discover its location . `` i really do n't want to open my eyes . '' its the disease , poor dear creature , said the grandmother , tenderly . he wanted to get the truth out in the open . i stand up straight , pulling my shoulders back , preparing for one of two scenarios to play out . there are things about us that are different , but do n't try to make me out to be something other than what i am when i 'm with you . 