it was a relief to go home , to allow myself ten minutes in my favorite chair reading a news magazine . we are just trying to protect you . you know i hate this thing , but if it makes you feel better , ill- not the cane . especially after it turns out he was way worse than any of us could have imagined . `` you 're so sweet , '' she murmured , leaning into my shoulder as we sat side by side on her towel . she claimed , still not understanding what he was accusing her of . 