she laughed again , and i took a step back from her . i even fetch one of the pillows from the couch to put under her head - tonight i want her calm and relaxed , something i normally do n't go for when i tie her up . she never handled it well when her husband left her bout five , six years ago . when he spotted them , he made his way over . i 'd been a flipping idiot to think i could kite board . its why we originally wanted to destroy the dark . 