i want you to find your own place , he tells his son . he picked me up and shook me like a doll . her voice sounded timid and far away . i get up from my bed and throw on a tank top and some sweat pants . they were much clearer from here . she turned and indicated the place in the wall where she had entered . one i didnt have an answer for . i eventually sat easily on my own , still panting , but not about to lose consciousness any time soon . 