there was some kind of manly communication going on between them , and neither one was paying attention to me , or anything else , at the moment . was the universe trying to tell him something ? it was not a holiday when she was with us , but it has been an adjustment living without her . '' on the whole , then , it is better to experience what you experience now than not to . '' a flash caught the corner of my eye . i just do n't care about this conversation . '' 