`` what a chore this evening has been . '' `` he 's alive , and he 's after us . '' i ran to her and check up on her . `` you 're alive , '' i repeated on a whisper , my nose stinging , my eyes blinking against the wet because i did n't want him hazy , i wanted him clear , i wanted to see him clear . that sound made my knees go weak . i dont know but its not you , its me . `` so , you got no problems at all ? '' 