or at least it did n't appear to want to move forward . just didnt think you would be here . it was just the way she was and had always been : stubborn and steadfast to the bone . i lead him over the jagged rocks at my pace . his fingers brush mine when he hands me the bottle . i felt the heat from his body behind me and his breath on my neck . for the sake of our friendship , some days i even let her think it 's working . 