vera hugs her daughter , and then her son , and then she straightens slowly , feeling as if her bones are breaking as she does it . `` i did n't know he ever thought straight . '' really , dad , james said , that know this program ? i opened the door to the study slowly and walked in . and she could n't recall why she wanted to die . she looked furious and really , really hurt . remarkable ... but it holds very little weight with me . 