its only nine oclock and the beach is already packed with people , so i decide not to worry too much about it , heading over to the pier . `` now i have tea here , and plenty of toast with jam and butter , and a bit of sausage . this was perhaps the only problem about settling into a small town as a single woman . we laughed the entire way to the ceremony location . and i ca n't help but feel angry at her , like i want to hurt her , like i should . 