i stared at his legs sticking out from under the counter . my life is about to change , and apparently there 's nothing i can do about it . i was n't going to tell her that deck was better than james . `` i thought you were supposed to be in bed , '' he said . i wonder if that is what it 's like for him when i 'm with will . `` do n't push me away like this ! `` have you lost all sense of reason , '' he ground out . 