my fingernails had cut into my skin and stung at the open air . weve really only known each other a few months . my stomach growled every three minutes . tell me what happened-where is everyone- ? '' the same way grandpa does , i realized . the truth was i thought he deserved a better woman , even if it wasnt me . i had had more sex than i probably should be comfortable admitting to , but i had never had sex like this . `` it 's the only place my phone works . 