lucas crossed his left arm under his head and closed his eyes too , lowering his guard temporarily . its hard not to feel sad when i think about it that way . but that damn child looked even better . `` maybe his time with you is over and he 's ready to move on , '' mark offered . `` because aunt b wants to know , '' deb said . her note says they wont be back until after dinner . i tried to smile , but failed completely . 