alison felt completely and utterly trapped between a desire to move forward and an urgent need to restrain herself as she always had , to make certain she did n't hurt the man beside her . he 's not as bad as you thought ? somehow a man had gotten through , just one time . even now , mack remained somewhat unsure of mary jo 's feelings toward him . the rest of the crew were scattered here and there . i plopped down in my favorite chair and crossed my arms . 