you spend the first portion of your life learning , growing stronger , more capable . you 're better off without the idiot . then she nudged sam toward the tunnel . `` i hope drinks with friends is working for you . '' he let go of my collar and brushed at the wrinkles he 'd left behind in my shirt . i clapped longer and louder than anyone when it was finished . im going to call my mother . it 's a sign of him trying to keep control . 