he was not , for instance , permitted over at her parents house , not that he had every expressed one iota of interest in doing so . you have to understand that i didnt tell you any of this because i wanted you to have a childhood . the experience instantly reminded miles of playing with hot wheels as a boy , except now he was a passenger in one of the cars . but it was the dream that bothered me ; the dream of blood and death and of soaring through towers of vertical glass . 