i told her not to show her face until you got home . and when her vision cleared up , she discovered that for the first time since they 'd started sleeping together , d was actually looking her in the eye . one of them was missing a leg . she planted her hands on her hips , the greasy spatula sticking out of one closed fist like a steel flower . but i am here now ... i want to be here . so he wo n't be f**king me then . i retrieved your jacket so you 'd be warm . '' 