`` you are kind to be so tolerant , '' she said . he can guarantee we stay brave . '' they may be siblings , but it would not be an equal fight . i had a difficult enough time with the doc . '' for a moment i just stare at her , wondering if she has gone off the deep end after all . they loved him and on stage they applauded him . but i always think of other things when i kneel alongside him , like being in china , for instance . 