i reach out , touch the vomit with a finger and charge it with magic , which flows through me from some unknown source . the nurse gave her a grateful look , as if josie were an instant ally in whatever argument she was having with the men . what are you up to these days ? '' more real than this , hed said . but it did seem rather silly to start discussing this at that particular moment . do n't groan , do n't groan , i tell myself . `` you 're moving too fast for me . 