i was well aware of why , just as i was well aware that the pinch she gave me was a 'do n't say anything ' warning . the thought of leaving white halls scared him to death . he slowly stood up and moved to the object . with two shoves of his shoulder , he forced the door open . but knowing did n't make them go away . but he knew exactly who to talk to . i wo n't have to feel responsible if something happens because i did n't try hard enough to stop it . 