those who discovered them would be puzzled what they were doing off course , but nobody would be surprised that they were dead . `` you did n't tell us you applied . '' she swiped a tear away and kept talking . smiling at kelly , he said , `` are you ready for your first riding lesson ? '' instead , he 'd just wanted to ... be close to her . for the briefest of moments , i was genuinely confused . a second groan and a squeak followed hard on the heels of the first . 