and in truth , i would not be able to have such a business outside a big city if that were not so . after a while , it was no longer possible to tell you without it being clear i 'd kept it from you . maybe he does n't like to share things about himself . her mother 's number appeared on the call display . i still remember what you were wearing , how you smelled , what your hair looked liked , and how your eyes danced with a light i had n't seen in so long . 