but if there is just a very small sparkle of something negative, anything that can feed my brain and give me negative thoughts, then i will not be able to do anything about it.
and that’s how it works with my parents. next week, they’re going to come here, and tell me that i’m not doing things the exact way they want to force me to, and i will stop doing every single thing i like, i will have to hide everything again, completely stop any feeling i have, and just be their robot. once they leave, my current home, my new apartment, will feel as bad as my parents' home. 