but if he allowed her some distance maybe he could figure out what to say to her . `` because i still ended up confused over why he did it ... he never did give a real explanation , and honestly , i 'm not even sure one exists . by the time they arrive , i have calmed myself down . i started shaking when she came into the kitchen . we continued wading until we came to the first piece of land . `` surely , you do n't take it seriously ? '' 