if only that loved one could have been her . `` damn me if i know , '' sharp said . she would be starting as a small town doctor as that was what the town needed . i say , taking a sip of my drink . and this made her all the more precious , and , he feared in that moment , perhaps the only thing in his life that had ever been out of his reach . i do n't believe that there are bad things about you . very well , he said and sat back down . 