he turned away , strange-feeling and troubled , longing all at once for the homeland he had left so many months before to accompany the priest on his private mission . `` think , lewis , if you have any ideas , you let one of us know . she cried , and the feeling stopped . i was standing and furious in the space of a heartbeat . every day , every night when i close my eyes thats what i see . your great-grandfather i think he said . 