she felt herself drowning and fought against it with everything she had . thunder seems to be zoning him out . in his eyes was his remembered anger at how they had made him helpless . this is an earlier design from years ago . he needed to be able to drive later . what they do with their lives is no good but you never know when life will turn . and you all know what i mean . i 'd revealed myself to him ; i 'd cut myself open . 