`` i believe the lady said she was n't interested . '' `` that babe has no connection to you . suddenly , questioning the cousin moved up on my to-do list . he rubbed up against my legs and turned his purring machine on high . i had never killed a man before , and at first the feeling overwhelmed me . i stepped out , back into the light . he wasnt aware of his little sisters plans ; the whole thing was as much a surprise for him , as for the rest of the audience . 