we were n't exactly friends , but a while later , after a night out , i found her in a parking lot all upset . `` this is n't another one of your tricks , is it ? '' i push back against him , the weight of his wings heavy around me , and struggle to see anything but black . i asked , finally taking the situation seriously . he kept them to the deeper shadows of the overgrown lane , avoiding the pools of light cast by the occasional brick houses . 