he had started doing it when i could n't travel with him on his road trips , which had become more and more frequent with my work . the next second , i decided he was n't , at least not on purpose . i think we should have a two-in-one marriage . nothing had changed on the outside ; they just were not together any more . i hold on and thread my fingers through hers when she tries to push my head away . 'that sort of explains all these new varieties of enemies , does n't it ? ' 