despite these hospitals all over the country-despite the fact that hundreds of thousands of people came to them to die-everyone liked to pretend that this did n't exist . so basically , everything sucked and he wanted to crawl into a coffin and sleep for a century . i felt the confidence that i have been talking about . i press my palms to her forehead , ignoring the heat of her flesh and the burning drops of liquid which strike my skin . he collapsed on the couch to rest up for tonights unknown business . 