i grabbed an empty cardboard box large enough to fit the few things i needed from the office . i had no idea how i 'd gotten so lucky . `` but we have to do something , even if it 's a risk or even if project eagle flies straight into a mountainside and nothing comes from it . you always play the part of the fool so well , do n't you ? '' she was mine to lose , but she was mine . bill looked through the security hole and opened the door . 