tears leaked out of the corners of her eyes , and she took a choked breath . how could i manage all of them without help ? `` a billion suns in the galaxy , and we 're wiping maple syrup off our fingers . that would have made me snort if i still had lungs and breath to do it . seeing it made me want to find the vanity demon and kick her ass . i do n't love her , and i never will . '' i took advantage of the fact that i was the j.v . 