now there was nothing to rebel against . now it 's my lip that 's twitching , but not from amusement . there in her hand was the syringe , ready to put me to sleep . this is why i also dont see any point in making up stuff right now . how he managed with the remote sitting on the desk , i didnt understand , but i was also too tired to think about it . when people got off the train , the men would usually head down the street to one of the bars . 