gus , lately i feel that you are keeping a lot from me . are you seriously angry with your own brain ? `` it 's hard because of the smoke . all it had taken was that blade across his throat . `` if i 'd known your mother was going to upset you so much , i would n't have let her in . '' `` probably better not mix alcohol with my medication . '' there wasnt much for him in the present or in the future which he said didnt exist . 