knowing how few such evenings remained made it even more special . ivy reached to touch it , and i jerked away . eventually , my dad found a job up here and i was so happy that i had a chance to start over , to be that pure girl that i wished could be again . we ca n't expect to have this place entirely to ourselves . ' `` that 's not a good idea , '' rick replied and the topic was dropped . `` does your whole family agree with you ? 