he does n't answer until we 're far away from the exit and driving down a series of streets . `` if the map is in your flat , why are we going by your office ? '' he asks with a grin which tells me he has already thought of a few . even the deer knew that i was the scum of the earth . the last couple of days had taken their toll , and she fell asleep quickly . phoenix my hands shook as i stared at the stack of papers in front of me . 