i press against him , and it 's not until he groans that i remember his injuries . if he left , i knew , somehow , our lives would change and not for the better . but he was loving every minute of it . i want to see you like that every day . he let himself in , and there were others with him . unless this is all a bad dream , and im soon to wake up in my bed at home . `` ten-a-fly paused to let that sink in . 