he was over her , in her , powerful and male . two guards had taken my arms during the argument . belatedly she remembered her tears and quickly turned back to her boxes . ten hours later , she 'd been unable to go on . however , he thought he saw images . her head fell back against the wall with a thud as loud as her gasps of pleasure . eventually , '' he added , because his response sounded far too trite . just be straight with me , okay ? she must have called the ambulance , herself . '' 