`` well , in case you 're wondering , i do n't have any expectations . but the doctor on duty was so calm , so capable , and she got everything under control so fast , brought order to the chaos . her physical indications were minor , but they were there . i walked to a building and stared at it for a few minutes , stomach twisting . it 's a little different from the letter you copied in your column , but the feelings are the same . '' 