it can be used somehow , i 'm sure of it . toby took a deep breath and sat back . her tiny voice carried more weight than it should . hell , if i ever see that no-account phony cowboy again , ill break his arms off and use em to cave his head in . at least she was sure he did n't want her as his mistress as he had n't made a single advance toward her since they 'd arrived . `` yeah , i was young , foolish and a f**king idiot . '' 