i glanced over my shoulder , finding our faces inches apart . her attention was fully on the swirls of green , red , yellow , blue , purple , and pink . he 'd put a gun in her hand and told her to use it , and she 'd refused . and she 'd figured then-just as she did now-that it was always good for one to know everything one could about one 's enemies . do you know everyone thinks i 'm crazy ? 