pacing the waiting room , i had to fight the urge at least a hundred times to shove past the security guard who 'd clearly been instructed to keep an eye on me . he wanted what that girl with the dead eyes had become . hell , i wanted him too , even if i could n't have him . your time is already up , the german spat at him . `` i 'm sitting in a bar across the street from the motel where i 'm staying . '' `` i wo n't be able to help you tomorrow . 