`` it was cruel of me to keep this from you , no matter the past . it seemed like hours later , but it was only seconds . there was nothing i could do at that point , so i hiked up that imposter of a road that had gotten me where i was and stood on the shoulder of the highway at the crack of dawn , waiting for a car to stop at my thumb . i was good , but i wasnt that good . abigail sank down onto the roots , her hands shaking . 