i know this is going to sound really strange , but i have a favor to ask . '' why are you holding our ship ? i wanted to cry for what i was slowly losing-myself . but there was something different tonight . `` you had declared yourself out of the fight . the color black had led me there . usually that meant she had him right where she wanted him , but he wasnt the same old joe from high school . the guy was getting on my last nerve ! 