`` honestly , i did it because i liked it-liked how it made me feel on the inside . '' probably thought she was easy , coming out here and hooking up with a stranger her first night in town . why did n't she dream of me ? her fantasy had been just that . but there 's no reason for it , is there ? those are the biggest ones , but there are more . how can she remain by my side without me destroying her ? '' a kernel of peace settled over her soul . 