i do n't know if it 's because my veins were bulging out of my forehead or that i felt like a thousand suns were burning through my body and out of my eyes , but gus finally nodded and said `` alright . '' it would be a long and difficult journey , he knew , a bumpy and uncomfortable ride , but he did not mind now . `` that 's the word i was going for . '' that someone would actually want to come see me , actually care enough about me to take the time to do so . 