i would have set things up in advance but i needed to get my outfit back first . he cleared his throat and tapped his pen against the desk . `` to deprive him of the ability to speak , to make a permanent child out of a grown man ? there 's a rush of warmth as he carries me into the house , and i 'm more grateful than i want to admit to be out of the rain . he pulled his fingers over the words and closed his eyes . 