unfortunately though , it leaves me with no alternative other than to kill you . the thought of my fathers reaction to all of this made me anxious as well . we needed a hospital close to the air base , you see . '' i could n't imagine standing there while a chick heated up food for me . how much more incredible would it be to live with him , to hold him , to lie next to him every night of her life ! he stopped and thought about that , his blood . 