she deserves someone who 's capable of loving her . in her darkest moments , ruth imagined robin dying young from a heart attack , without ever having really lived . i looked around for a second and ran my hand through my hair . milo always had a good sense about these types of things . but its product that will make the sale . and she could n't see why they had to be measured in 'hands ' when there were perfectly sensible inches around to do the job . `` i did n't know what to do , '' beth said . 