the people responsible for your mother 's death have kidnapped my son . i knew i should feel fear , that i should be terrified of this version of him . i asked him , setting it down and picking up my bright-pink cup filled with coffee . it had come on shortly after hed stepped from the balcony rails on his way down , and for a moment hed worried that his movement had made a small sound to alert the people inside . `` i am deeply aware of that fact , '' said the secretary-general . 