he quickly scanned her from head to toe . my numb fingers quickly cooperated to unbutton his jeans . you go home and have some pleasant dreams . or perhaps frank did know , after all . she gave me an understanding smile . i wish that you had just let me die ! '' the only alternative was to head for the river . again , as i said , there was a brain at work . '' `` i lost everything because you 're an idiot . 