i closed my eyes and imagined that night . the only place she had any privacy was in her apartment . what would you want me to write ? maybe he did hit his head . `` we are n't going dumpster diving , are we ? '' he swallowed another piece of orange , reaching out to pick up an apple and offer it to me . but thats not what you said . i was always searching for a backdoor , the way out . who would n't fall madly in love with her ? 