`` however , i 'm starting to get nervous you 're about to pass out any second . '' you cant go back to the past . i want to go back to being fourteen and not make stupid choices , not have sex with an older guy who ties me to the bed after i say i do n't think i want to , that i do n't think i can , and then he screws me so hard the ropes cut into my skin and i bleed all over the bed . i do n't want to ruin your wedding day . 