i would forgive him and one day it would n't hurt so much , i just wanted the time to heal in my own way . fine , if he wanted to sit in silence , i could do that too . there was a bite to his tone he 'd never used with her before . why didnt we study , why didnt we try to better ourselves when we had the chance ? `` after everything he 's done and what he accused me of , he should be grateful i only took away his ability to speak . '' 