i guess a hunt would be a better term for it , then . minutes pass , and i finally say , `` does the figure of 11,400 sound correct , give or take a few ? '' trying not to think about the conversation i just had with her , i find my cousin in the kitchen . and beyond that , we have laws now that mean i can tell you just about . only now , things had changed in a huge way . how could i expect him to know the things that i 'd learned through growing up ? 