i just wanted to crash in my room and get a good cry out in private . she quickly squeezed dak 's hand before her friend could say anything . the voice spoke again but the words were still tangled and the light hurt his eyes . i tried to examine it in the dark but all i could figure was that the battery must have died . he did n't believe in making love . thank you , i said as i looked around . obviously i was about as clear as mud . 