and regardless of how much she loved books and the library and her classes , she knew there had to be more to living life than just studying and reading . if the trucker had been looking out his side window , he would have had a clear view . as his words took form on the white page , she got to watch him ... and realized she never wanted him to go . maybe we will visit you someday . `` but i 'm not sure that you 're alive , either . 