life, although i still denied i ever smoked.
step by step i cleaned up my act; not through discipline, as i was rubbish at that, but through developing self-love and self-care, which in simple terms meant taking more care of myself and following what i felt deep inside was true for me. this was by no means easy, but the truth of it was simple, as long as i was willing to listen to and follow the messages from my body.
and this is where the reality hit me – for my entire life i had denied the fact that i smoked, yet i would smoke every weekend for a period of 