`` do you realize that your reaction to my lunch with christopher is very calm ? for the first time in days she felt warm on the inside . 'he seemed to be interested when we met with him . ' that hit far too close to home . he seemed to be smelling my hair , which sent a shiver through me . persuading someone else to take the rap had worked well , but jeff had left him in no doubt about what would happen if he ever found out that his little brother was back to his old ways again . 