i knew he had to be hurting and that was why i had started sending the letters . it took almost an hour to get all the thoughts and feelings on to the page and when he was done hed made a decision . i even liked them , but i could n't imagine how he was going to take care of him for three weeks . `` looks to me like there 's all kinds of things you want that you are n't going to get , '' i told her . there was nowhere they could go . 