without that , nicky , we 're just meat sacks waiting to be free of the misery of our lives . the dog has his nose up my butt , and then i feel this gigantic pinch on the inside of my thigh . ill be back in a minute , said ward . should that name be familiar to me ? '' he set it on the kitchen counter . i paused , looking at her grinning beautiful face as my heart squeezed tighter . you are going to be in a dark cave for a while . 