there was a moment of excruciating pain when she thought it was n't going to come away and then she hit the floor , free of it . i moved to the window to the left of the bed and looked out . five ... four ... three no , another soldier said . but luke 's hands dropped to his sides and he rested his face against my neck , out of breath . it was soon replaced with growing satisfaction and joy . she hoped that she would be like them one day . 