and you do n't understand birds and there are no curses . he was carrying a company phone , he explained . how am i supposed to see your hands from way over here ? '' he tried to do what she suggested and not tense or fight the flow of power inside him . i just wish i knew the answer , father . i traced my finger over the frosted glass . what the hell did she think she was doing to me ? in case i never have another chance . 