he would give her all she could want , and more . m'lady ... he put out a hand with a boyish smile . `` what i need to know is if you are willing to live for me ? it is telling me something , i am sure of it . him saying stuff like that made it difficult to keep my emotions hardened against him . he bought me a drink and we started talking . i ca n't feel my face-and for a moment , i fear it might have fallen the f**k off . 