he said he would buy me a new car if i stayed home and focused on becoming a mother . `` the bank records , the keys , the things you took from his office . i saw the shift in his features . and he could n't hold it back any longer . or how they were going to get back . i remember so many things that now seem like clues : the way his face looked when he told me that he 'd wanted to quit tennis and his father would n't let him . 