i smile , glad it means something to him as much as it does for me . just did n't want to open that up at the moment . she gives me a knowing smile that makes me wonder if she can see right through all of this . `` this is a real adrenaline rush , is n't it ? '' thomas rubbed his face with both hands . the punishing schedule had meant little time for such things but the country air had awakened a ferocious appetite . it was the high point of the day . 