she feels sometimes like there is no future that she does not belong in the world which is stretching out before her she feels old before her time misplaced in her days and all the world marches on how can they live this way ? the sunlight streaming through the window showed dust on the surface of a dark walnut bookcase . he didnt like it when crude men ordered other peoples servants around . he listened without saying a word , then placed the receiver down and stared into space . 