happening. remember to pray god at any time, and rely on god!” yes, i have believed in god almost two months, how could i have forgotten to rely on him! so i silently cried to god in my heart. i told god i am suffering; i told him i do not want to die, i want god to help me; i told him i now know that i can only depend on him, not my family; i realized that without god’s breath to me, i have nothing, and nothing will happen without god’s permission. after praying, a miracle happened. slowly i felt comfortable in my heart. my chest was no 