i did n't respond , and i did n't let any of my emotions show on my face , especially not the anger and hurt that pinched my heart at her words . tired of , just tired of it all . the doctor said that you- oh , please mother ! i knew you were going to say that . `` they 're panties the back is crisscross strings . '' why would i need to kill him ? '' `` i love what he did for us . im fine , she repeated , i need to keep up . 