`` actual y , '' i say , `` it eats a metal rod , made out of , like , lead . i followed her every move until she sat down next to dawn . `` then how do you know he 's dead ? '' she had to tear her gaze from him . we sat down facing each other . `` they have no family in denver and bill is my only family here so i 'm their only family here . she was close enough that he could smell her shampoo . 