did you perform the kills by yourself ? '' a moment later , it changed form altogether , turning into a flowing velvet gown . she also was n't allowing herself to be alone with him again . `` then you know why i need to be with him . i know exactly what he wants from me . his thumb found the tears that were sliding down the sides of her eyes into her hair . jesus , why do you have to be so lazy ? it was tearing me up inside . 