everything shapes who you are , who your daughter will become . i can hold out however long it might take . we went the easy route and made sandwiches , which we took into the living room and ate cross-legged on the couch facing each other . `` not as quickly as she might like . '' good god almighty , i never thought i 'd be shaking hands with him . i aimed toward the end of the line , where a guard stood by himself , and mowed him down with more bullets than needed . 