`` you think i 'd run off and leave you ? '' then he got out of her way and let her crawl up next to him . he looked around for some way to get in . he smiled when he spotted her . far below , she spotted a silvery rush , reflecting the light . `` it has been a difficult year , '' he said , `` and i rode myself too hard getting here . i so needed to pull it together . i know she wants me to lose my temper . 