`` like we had much choice , '' she muttered . `` i 'm sorry , parker , it looks like i ruined everything . '' `` i 'm afraid of how much i do n't know about this world , and how i have to rely on everything you tell me . '' so , over the past six months they had spent hours talking , often sitting up all night and reveling in each others company , falling more deeply in love with each passing day . `` so what are you calling me for ? 