then he looked up and spied her standing in the doorway . `` did you hear about- '' blah , blah , blah . chapter 18 secrets revealed i lay in my bed , watching the hands go by on my clock , hoping gram will have everyone filled in on last nights painful drama before i make it downstairs . `` a few believed that of you , yes . `` knitting 's not really helping , '' she said , staring down at her needles . `` i want to rip his damn arms off his body , ash . 