they were an income for him , all of them . turning to his sister , he put a hand behind her back . but he 'd take her as she came , just as long as she came , leaving her mother well and happy , arriving on this earth the same way . this book we still havent found ? but i really just want to be alone . '' i pushed him behind me and shook my head at t.j. `` no . `` they know me , does n't mean i know them . 