it was cold outside and he wanted some of whatever those men at the table were eating . as if hearing her plans the gods turned to her . i had put on waterproof mascara , insurance against the weather and against any tears i knew i 'd be shedding for whatever reason . `` as you know , i ca n't keep this place going without money , and as far as i know , you do n't have a job . '' no reason why we ca n't cover you . '' 