i want to check outside and see if there are any signs of an intruder . '' that , and a large meal , generally with a goose , made up the celebration . finally she threw a hard punch aimed at my chest . everything between them continued to change by the second as he slipped deeper and deeper into the woman he 'd never stopped loving . so she knew where she was , but she was beginning to get totally confused about when . he died several years before i met fred . 