the shouting and being sent out alone . he said i could learn and help him out at the same time . my mother just wants to be left alone . '' this was the casual , open amber she gave to her friends , to his sister . i smiled at her , and she seemed to relax , but only a bit . you didnt like it the last time . i stare at the ceiling , tilting my head back so my tears wont spill over . you 're supposed to be the smart one ! '' 