i know i should n't be trying to catch his attention like that , but i ca n't help myself . he was not an unreasonable man , you know . and it was also strangely welcome . my eyes closed and my lips separated . i try to lift my head , but become dizzy from the sharp pain that slices through my head . `` why did it change so much ? '' `` we 're going to die if we keep this up , '' she warned , when she could talk again . 