we have plans for college , too . clumps of cold wet grains were being forced into my pants as he pulled . `` some time later , she left us , never to return . he had n't even realized he had finally fallen asleep . wind let go of his hold on the body and it fell in a heap . it was like ... ... ... ... like playing god . both brothers , regardless of how they had been previously feeling , instantly knew something was wrong when they stepped inside . 