in fact , without knowing it , i place my hands on that smooth , cold bone table , and lean forward , my face inching ever-closer to that fresh blood and those burning words . the splashes and splatters led down the street and pulled me up through the steps of a hospital , carried there no longer by my own will . they cant smell us in the water ! she did n't want it to end . okay , maybe this was n't going so well . if she closed her eyes , she could see colin everywhere . 