`` i was just so excited that i finally figured out how to do the spell correctly . '' i reached for the edge and found ivy . i didnt feel any exhaustion from it all . then why did he feel empty ? he looked perhaps ten years younger than his actual age , which was thirty-eight . `` but i live here ... '' `` what 's your cross street ? '' i mused over the question as i forced myself to finish my dinner , even though a hundred fluttering butterflies seemed to have taken shelter inside my stomach . 