`` you want what 's best for her ? ! '' because of how pale her skin was and how badly she was shaking , i worried briefly that he was the only reason she was still standing . but , as you may realize , what i have is n't the life i imagined for myself . `` it looks like the suit is going forward , '' evans said . she shakes me and my eyes flutter open . i tried to slow him down , to avoid becoming confused . `` i like men just fine , '' she said . 