i am not sure what happened ; it is all quite a muddle in my mind . `` look at all this we 're doing for them . i will tell lucas that his mother comes to him at night and whispers in his ear and watches over his sleep , that she is happy and wants the same for him ... i know of a good family that will take him . i doubt they really know what they did . you know that saying about what you should do when life deals you a lemon ? 