we had n't seen a car in the last five miles . `` why do you risk your life so much ? '' i remember looking at you and hoping that you 'd catch me . holding up the bloody knife , i added , `` no guns . '' `` i thought i knew exactly how much i love you , but i found out tonight that it 's way , way more . '' you just have to want it . `` well , but he 's ... that is ... i could n't ! '' 