a secret people would kill to protect ? maybe i did need something to make me feel better . `` you have to do some lying to get ahead in this game . i stand above her , looking down , unable to swallow the lump that has formed in my throat . but do n't push yourself too hard , we need to keep a shield up to protect the students . '' all i could do was be there for them . it 's the glow that a man remembers when his wife first fell in love with him . 