she lets a nervous laugh bubble out , but stops when i look at her and shake my head . `` he may , but i ca n't live with someone who calls me a whore . she needed blue butterflies and the sounds of sheep and the big empty skies . i mean , i came over to invite you to dinner . '' it was f**king weird , like a total nightmare . why did he even bother to save my life if he hates me so much ? 