if i accepted his offer , how long before they realized i was n't human , especially with ruth hovering like a suspicious vulture , waiting to expose me ? he glanced at his watch again , nine thirty and time to open the doors to the public . his gaze tight on al , he approached . i hear the beeping of machines trying to breathe life into me-life i do n't want . do n't act like i have n't been talking your ear off about him , spence . '' shortly he returned to bates with surprising news . 