`` got a crew who 's willing to chance it ? '' we made the necessary arrangements , and i hung up feeling better about everything . when he finally peered at me , he shook his head . i am losing the reason why i changed a lot . `` of course not , '' mrs. hill said without shame . his eyes burned even more , you saved my life . kept shutting his eyes and opening them again , telling himself every time that it was only a nightmare . he gestures to my left hand . 