but it could have been coincidence ; you yourself said ka does n't rule everything . '' `` you did n't sense anything from her ? '' it was dim-only the light from an old light post glowed outside the single open door . i leaned to take it and settled back in . 'oh no , my mother always knows how to put it , usually in four different ways all saying the same thing - which is that i am wasting my life . ' they were camouflaged against the dark streets . 