his anatomy book was spread out in front of us , and i was going over his last exam with him-he 'd gotten a 76 . i played the events over in my mind like a film . he does it so hard that the fork 's handle bends . i went to the living room window and looked out . his face went crimson and he dropped the forkful in his lap , rocking back so far i just knew he was going end up on the floor . 