which is why i am here ; we need to talk . i 'm going down to the water to rinse off . '' i have no intention of doing that . uncle will kill you for this . '' i walk up the stairs and my calves ache and burn with every stiff step i take . `` we all fall but that 's not what matters . you must show me a painting of yours . fished around in her pocket for the keys . i was just thinking about what might have been , that 's all . '' 