his heart was in his throat and he noticed that he was gripping the arms of his chair as though he was riding a roller coaster . were not going to learn anything in orleans . 'i worry about you ... you have n't really left the house since ... well , since you went to the station a couple of weeks ago , nor have you talked about it ... and i 'm worried . ' `` when you went down on me last night , you never kissed me . listen carefully , my man in black said . 