can you feel that there 's one here ? '' i was n't torn , i knew exactly where i wanted to be , even if i knew i could never really have him . she lifted her hands in a helpless gesture . he closes the toilet lid then washes his hands . the first job was finishing the demolition , clearing out the old for the new . `` i 'm sorry , '' i told him , burying the hurt inside . no sounds came from inside that room . 