he did n't want her to be frightened . `` you said my recovery would be at my pace , and within reason , i had control of it . '' `` we have n't checked the other motel . bad part is , sometimes its crowded and the water seems dirtier , and if the air is really hot , even the bath is too hot . i think he was clinging to anything that would bring him closer to you . she turned her attention to her father . `` you mean i might have to settle . '' 