she was n't going to stop looking . there 's nobody around here to be romantic with . why i am on ship , to change what i am . he sighed then , chest rising under my ear . to her , there will never be an 'us ' , and if i 'm not happy sharing her bed , then i can take a hike . every night , in his dreams , she came to him , drifting up the stairs , through his door , into his bed . 