i must have been smiling because i squeaked with delight when he turned me and smiled back . what happened to the shy boy in the photographs ? she sat up and looked at him for the first time since he had begun speaking . the shirt button also ran next to the white splitting line , it also carried red stripes on its shoulders . i had made my decision by then . she never knew it could be so easy , or so painful . `` what'ya gon na do for money , man ? '' 