the glowing wall gave enough light to make out their pathway but little else . `` well , it 's hardly an exact science . `` i left it on the seat of the truck . despite the chill , we managed to stay fairly warm thanks to the heating lamps they had . people seemed to think that once a year went by on the calendar that meant i was through with my mourning . `` perhaps once or twice it has crossed my mind that i should manage my cock , instead of allowing it to lead me . 