i try to get up anyway , and i make it almost to my knees before the pain is just too much , and i think i black out for a few seconds . to his amazement , he felt his body starting to harden again . its how you appear in this world . josh wished he could feel that breeze again . `` do you want to stay here ? '' i ran my thumb across the star on his temple and gave him a softer kiss . `` of course i want you to , '' i say . 