once she had that concept firmly planted in her brain , it was a short leap to imagining a kiss with no glasses and no clothes , either . what does your dad think of cross ? '' `` i know how the game is played , son . '' the thought of taking both on at once felt overwhelming . he turned from me and straightened himself up . i instantly feel ashamed and very uncomfortable . i myself have seen him do this . i ca n't imagine going through what you have , all the years , all the distance . 