`` it was a boy , '' she said , still not looking at him . she looked down at his hand , gripping her , then up at his face . remember , it wont be the same next time . he 's making it difficult on purpose . i could be the one she slept with ( or did n't ) . is that what you would call cooperation ? you dont understand , brother , she said . he would have ended up another dead baby . it wasnt that she didnt want to see him . 