sage for being a 6'3 '' powerhouse of pure talent , the driving force behind the band , and the one code the press could n't crack . people coming and going but nowhere to be found . i mentioned it to you before , but i never told you what it actually means . he lifts his chin off my knee and turns to stare at the vase on the mantel . `` you were jealous , were n't you , dad ? '' 