it was an awkward thing : too big , and funny-shaped , and he was sure it was going to be loud as well . he asked her , brushing a kiss alongside her temple . i was only the vessel for the clue someone else had given me . she sounds more irritated than worried , which is typical . i know it 's not fair , but i just do n't care . i felt like a clown fish swimming with sharks , in way over my head . he sipped from his diet coke . 