then , when she finally got situated and sat on the towel on the seat of the picnic table , she struggled to figure out what to do with her arms . more men , some in cars , some just standing there , all over the parking lot . they had no relationship at all , no reason for her to feel like this . he had never noticed her beauty before . `` but , i ca n't ... '' he cleared his throat hard , turning to face me , and waited for my eyes to meet his . 