seth asks , quietly , almost to himself . that is , unless i found something that was of value . of course , he did think then that you were going to be a nun . ' i had no clue what the hell to do , but i had to do something . i do n't care about college or football or anything . `` does it feel like i let you go ? '' it was all the same to her and , vaguely , i wondered what she was even doing there . 