i was ready for it , i wanted it and i stared at him in a fog , my body burning , nearly begging for it . then he lifted her easily from her saddle . `` i thought we were going to talk ? she had hoped that having something to trade would give her an excuse to go to town again . for one more day , i 'd kept my heart hidden and protected . havent you wondered what we are ? `` no , '' he agreed , his eyes on mine . 