if we can help no-no . my dad was missing as well . except for these last few days with gray , jewel could n't recall a time when she 'd been happy with her life . `` my god , '' she whispered as if angels might hear . but he knew they were there , lurking . each of her men were so different , and all so good . he 'd whore himself , and that was fine . it would be just a week away from my wedding . 