i put on my smile , made witty repartee when necessary , and delivered drinks as if i had twinkles in my toes , but i felt the rock in my chest go from still and heavy to vibrating . it was an especially good day because there werent any accidents . it was really going to happen , if i did n't chicken out first . `` okay ... '' `` if the edge colors do n't blend smoothly , you will notice it immediately . `` so it 's possible that charles is acting on his own ? '' 