ill sleep on the floor he said , and i wanted to tell him that i wasnt tired so that we could have more time until i realized how tired i was . `` i ca n't explain why i ran that night . to bend the law , if not to break it . i know this situation bends the rules all to hell , but i 'm just going to pretend that i do n't know anything about this . he knew how this would eventually all play out . 