though she looked uncomfortable to begin with , she didnt gasp or swallow . if i landed in water , would i drown ? the smell of chlorine filled her nostrils . i leaned in closer , eager to feel him pressed against me . i really needed to just get away . too much noise in my head . she 's not a girl who would squeal and throw herself at me , screaming her love for me . the more time she spent away from him , the more phoebe saw how blind she 'd been . 