when did he get the beer ? please tell me that had n't all been in my mind . but most of the company would n't even understand why anyone should ask the question . ' it now appeared to be more than a mile from where he stood . then he got himself under some halfway kind of control , shrugged , and turned away as if to look at the chunks of wood i had cut up . she laughed again , `` i have no idea . what if he doesnt cut me loose ? 