i always felt like i was going to end up alone . she got the scarlet real bad since you left . it was more about keeping everyone 's feelings as neutral as possible . `` your nods keep getting deeper and deeper . '' it 's a pretty big shadow to be living under . '' my entire body felt like it was melting inside of her . alexander made up his mind right then . shed been wanting to know who killed west and who framed her for what seemed like years , even if it was only a couple days . 