but what i wanted was some indication that maybe a day or an hour or a second of what we had meant something to you . i do n't suppose ... '' `` no , talked to my brother last night . hell , i could barely admit in the quiet safety of my head the truth of it . i know that the talk they had was n't easy , but i also know that dee is n't the same person she was a few months ago . worried im lost , worried ill get hurt , worried theyre too worried . 