i could n't let the wine mess with me . id rather die a million times than marry you once . to the contrary , she knew exactly what he was thinking . stars so big she could almost reach out and touch them . maybe , deep down , i did n't really want to protest . but ultimately , that will be up to you . '' i was not ready to die that night , most certainly not at the hands of this creature . she fell back into her pillow and closed her eyes . 