i 'd been avoiding looking at him , but i did , finally , where he lay on the bed , curled like a half-done butterfly . love was really a happy thing but he made that a sad one . hell , make love to her if you have to . i raised my eyebrows , looked at my brother . `` that explains why dad 's acting this way . '' `` these events have made your life richer , that 's for sure , '' his father said . and spud choice if things are the other way around . 