she moaned and sank to the ground , her hand sliding down the smooth wall of the house . my view inside the chamber slips into quiet darkness . that i want to be there for you . panicking , i hit the brakes and looked behind me . if only he would leave me alone . the decision was this : i was going to play with the new york philharmonic . his hair was still short and brown , and he was wearing the same suit he 'd left the house in earlier that morning . 