the wind whipped at my too-big raincoat , alternating between turning it into a second skin and trying to tear it from my body . i tried to explain all that had gone down with seth , but it was n't easy . i push the thought away , knowing that if i was given the chance for a do-over , i 'd repeat the entire night just as it was . that would just make things worse . `` when i get into a fight , i know i can cause damage . `` you never told me your real name . '' 