never before had i tried to calm anyone down . he pulled out his money bag and counted out five dollars . `` it 's nothing , '' i said , waving it off . she stared straight ahead , not meeting his gaze , her spine straight . `` because it was easier for you to understand when you were younger . '' the driver came to my aid and pulled me up . `` and i ca n't help what i feel , but it 's there . 