nor could he recall ever feeling this insane need to keep a woman with him at any cost . but i wo n't let her be like me , wo n't let it all build up around her until she 's trapped beneath it . it was also about saving my family . if he did n't do as he was ordered , then he 'd be forced to obey . the small parking lot was completely full so i parked on the side street about three houses down . she set it down and started over . 