hed dreamed about tracing that pattern so often . bill untied the rope , stuck it in his shirt , and hauled silver up to the sidewalk by main force , panting and sweating , losing his balance a couple of times and landing on his tail . `` did ya want to say something to me ? '' now she knew what it meant , how it felt . as usual when he got drunk it was not the shimmering loss-of-control felt by most other people . they had support and resources in place to guide them through . 