she put her plate on the table , poured herself a small glass of grapefruit juice and a cup of coffee , and then sat down . but can i really leave it all ? i had a strange dream and youre just so- he stopped . hazel was strong enough , brave enough , stupid enough to put up with me . he could n't make sense of anything other than the fact his brother was being taken . she hoped one billion would be most of them . feeling sleepy again , i mumble , `` heavy flow . '' 