he glanced back at us for a moment . it gave him something to hold onto while he was away . so they had decided to drop the whole thing . i have something that needs taking care of ? '' `` jake , '' she mumbled his name sleepily . if this was mias idea of not saying anything about what we were doing , i might just as well jump in front of a speeding bullet right now . we ca n't afford to wait on you . 