there was no point even trying to entertain it . he was there and he knew that she was dying . almost as if the punishment was a badge of honor , my mother simply smiled and took my hand to lead me out to our car . behind him stood his grandfather , father and several other men of the village . if you want to out , you have to find your way . then she again nodded and said softly , `` yes , dusty . growing up with a wolf-guide , hed grown used to being without clothing . 