as always , a full breakfast was waiting for him , along with a stack of the morning papers . i cleared my throat as i backed away . but this was n't reaction ; this was desire , warm and curious , seeking . i do n't know yet , but i am certain that in her there is the key to return back to my life of before and me i want to bring you with me ! he set down his empty glass , and put the bottle on the table . `` i want to go to bed , blake . 