i wiggled under her again , and we staggered into motion . hell , some of them will have improved lives . i calculated her body weight , added another shot for good measure , and knew she 'd be okay . i do not think she will leave this place and be calm without me doing so . '' i came home broken and bleeding , with bones poking through my skin , and no one had ever noticed . i swam and i swam until my ninety minutes were up . `` you 're not my brother , kyle . 