i wanted to hit something or let something hit me . that raised a number of questions , but buster let them pass . `` and i bend the rules all the time when it suits me . suddenly , the pilot hit the gas and we quickly stepped back out of the way . we learn how to cope with it . i ca n't imagine giving this part of myself to anyone else . if he 's anything like wes , it would kill her to lose him . `` so you do n't think you have a problem ? 