it wasnt until she realized the food was almost gone that she started to feel self-conscious about eating so much . the doctor asked , gingerly inspecting me . even when you are dying to know ? fight until we either win or die . so when one lunged , i stepped back . what home is there to go back to ? he 'd told me a dozen different stories about how he lost his eye . i know thats possible , said amelia , unsure whether or not she should say more . so you got to find her killer , dee . 