on fear or whatever else they needed . she did n't simmer and she did n't squeal ; she was self-possessed in a way that struck him instantly as different . i think you must be very sorry . it was just an innocent crush between them . even as a little child with nightmares , whenever she ran to her parents room , she found her mother sitting at the dresser making lists and her father reading a book in bed . she turned away , but he didnt miss the clouds streaming across her blue eyes . 