he prepared himself , already knowing what he would hear . i blinked because her voice was going in and out and i was having a hard time keeping her face in focus . but she is a great example for you that stays with you all your life . weve found that bad things tend to happen when we ignore my journey sense . i kept running my thumb over my tattoo , like a worry stone . why in the name of earth would i have shot him if i were who you say i am ? '' 