i can bring three , but i want to bargain up to four . '' which it was , he could not be certain , but of one thing he was entirely certain- the image in his mind of this dying man would not go away , not within his lifetime . and the doctor called me a while ago wanting to confirm you are on your cycle . `` i promise to be on my very best behavior . with that , he accepted a handful of nuts , then settled back to wait. 