things are weird and a little uncomfortable for us , i 'm not really sure how to act around her because i do n't want to push too much and make her shut down . the baby was probably due any time . we would very much like to set down the details . i should have realized the trouble i was getting myself into . i am gripping the edges of the sink so tightly my knuckles are white . `` and you 're not so little , either . '' for several moments he lay still , struggling to catch his breath . 