bravo , he said , such heroic words . it was like walking into an uncomfortable alien world that was dark and dingy . he hated the tears that came to her eyes as she said , `` thank you . it doesnt help me knowing that the only person on earth that had the keys to my kill switch is dead . she 'd lost interest in the conversation while her husband had finally become engaged in it . they lay there , panting for a moment . `` you just wanted to go and screw someone . 