`` it was probably only for you to see , '' alexander suggested . once , she 'd seen the world as something fresh and exciting . next , i ate brunch and then i would lump around the house . i ca n't risk losing you to a silly spat . i was just getting ready to head back to work , '' i commented . how had she missed seeing him before ? the real question is why would i not approve ? 'was it not a deliberate thing that nurse did ? ' 