`` shy , seriously , '' i said softly , pressing my fingers into his chest for emphasis , `` i do n't have a good feeling about this . '' she liked watching television with him and shed opened up about her past . try to keep your mind on something else . i did n't bring it up , in fact i 'd forgotten about it . '' that would give him - `` `` nothing , '' she spat . i was part of this moment , not just a bystander . 