laughing , i pick the milk up and add some to my coffee , and then help myself to the cream filled muffin i 'd already started on . the little idiot never wanted to leave the office and was afraid to wear his gun belt . then he goes to open the truck door and i stop him . wiping his eyes , he picked his head up and faced the group . it will only drive you insane . '' i could only assume that it had been too soiled to save . 