then i feel guilty and call him back , even though he 's probably in school by now , because it 's later than i thought . everything about this was wrong ... so wrong . she walked to the door and threw it open . several people were sitting silently on mats . `` you 're not ready for that , sweetie . '' `` and it 's not like i just pulled you off the street . '' something in my skull made a cracking sound . her hand shook , and the rifle pointed briefly to the floor . 