i saw you just now on the front lawn . '' `` i tell you to sit with her and i come back to find you in her bed ? '' neither good ava nor bad ava said , instead this came direct from my brain . you believe it for a bit , then after he 's gone , you start thinking , and it 's like porridge gone cold . how is everything going in there ? here , now , though , he had a moment 's respite . 