`` this is going to be my last winter here . '' i loved it and i was moved by it , but i never really believed it . she swallowed hard and decided to face the consequences . `` you ca n't run forever , nicky , '' he whispered . the veins in his neck and forehead rose to the surface . when the locker opened , the cop plunged her hand inside and pulled out a kitchen knife . even today , a big part of her still could n't believe it had happened . 