am noticing as i write that i have a lot of emotions, way more than i thought, and it’s making me i want to shut down and cry and make art.
i realize that if the idea of showing my work is making me this upset, i must have a lot of fear underneath.
maybe it’s fear that i’m not good enough.
maybe it’s fear that i won’t make money.
maybe it’s fear that i will be seen as someone that needs to be acknowledged for her art.
maybe it’s fear that someone will actually like my work.
i’m not sure, but because of all these extreme reactions, i’m going to investigate. ah! i love discovering 