i sit on my bed and keep my eyes on the door . tomorrow we start to make our way up to the base camp . no one would ever harm the female in his arms , not even himself . `` you were standing there , with the blood on your walls , and your chin was up and you were holding onto your control as tight as you could with both your hands . '' he did n't play around at this . you start there and walk by me , brushing my shoulder . 