i pulled back and just looked at him tears running down my face . we have such high hopes for them when they are born . on the fourth round , he might not be so generous . he felt the other support cables . i decided the best course of action was to remove myself from the situation . i dont need much , its peaceful and the price is right . how else could i explain what had happened ? he yanked the reins with his right hand , leaning into the turn with all his weight . 