this makes me open my eyes . i stepped back in case i needed to run again . but do n't forget , you have a safe word if the scene becomes too much . `` do you really think i 'd judge you for choices you made ? '' just as he had kissed her after those time loops-so she would kiss him . i stood up , causing alarm to my cousin 's eyes . how could they be so desperate that they 'd follow me around to see who i talked to ? 