i ca n't say as i blame them either , they do n't know any more about what 's going on than we do . tell them , i am a writer and this is my story . i started to walk past him but he reached out and grabbed my shoulder . just hold the door open for me will you ? so what exactly do you need of me ? i get some crispy , stiff toilet paper and sort myself out . he laughed at the ridiculous assumption that we would have tickets to board . 