her hand trembled against the bedspread as she fought to ignore that black-magic voice . he waggles his brows at her . i hold my breath , waiting for when the person is at the bottom of the stairs , and then i wait patiently for them to notice me . he has two teams that he keeps with him at all times . i think that was the whole idea . but would that desire grow darker , as he feared ? come inside the white suit and see , i used to say . is this actually happening to me right now ? 