i want the phone bill up ; the water bill down and sleeve after sleeve of foam cups sitting peacefully in the storage closet . with no little difficulty , he lifted the machine just enough to get the hand truck wedged underneath . even though she had been so upset with me for trying to change to be better for her , i think i had affected some major changes on my own despite myself and that was n't bad . you do n't make the decision that it 's over . `` and my mother , she would n't like it . 