his hand pushed his hair back and i saw it . i dont know if happy is the correct word . `` one of the nurses will help you , but do n't look so worried . you can talk while you 're tying me up . he was silver and smoke , with eyes of yellow gold that saw all there was to see . you damn him for keeping a secret that you have kept all your life ? '' `` in the steam room , '' he added quickly . 