he exclaimed as he stepped out of the tub and started coming towards me . nick seemed different as they walked down the main corridor . the little room grew dim and close . and my dad likes his steaks really rare . maybe she did want to go a little crazy . i turned , slid on sunglasses , and gave him my best , brightest smile . `` since ye 're no dying , '' he said , `` maybe that will do for the moment ? '' it was on a loop in my head : more , more , more . 