i kept it to remind myself of how endless my sentence was , how eternal one small choice can be . `` sit and tell me what brings you by . '' that 's when i spotted my wallet open on the coffee table next to the phone . on the knife came , flipping over and over , straight at him . he said , 'oh , no , she did n't plan to take part in the killing , she did n't even know it was going to happen . ' `` so you guys are cool with it ? '' 