but even with death , even with death this strange ! that was going to have to be enough . it was sad but the thought brought a little bubble of excitement in my chest . she shrugged and handed him the stylus . not that she had a clue what she could do . he was also cursing under his breath , even though the words were barely coming out of his mouth whole . the older woman 's eyes gradually drifted open . the girl who does n't finish school and who gets let go from her job . 