heres where he dreams and reads and makes love . thats why it bothers me so much . did n't that automatically earn me invites to family events ? carlos blinked quickly , as though trying to force out a thought beginning to take root . i just did n't want jack to think i was going to let it go further . he was literally almost a male copy of herself . most of the time in my life , i had enough food so i would n't starve . he was acting so like himself , like this was a normal day . 