but when he saw her dig a pen out of her handbag he added , `` memorize it , i do n't want you writing it down . '' what on earth did you father say when you told him all that ? i stared at my knees , where blown drops of water from the vines behind me were making wet spots on the silk . tears streaked down my cheeks , and i could n't bear to look at him . to show him that she wasnt going to back out , she stood her ground and said , im playing . 