it 's hard knowing it might be the last . '' `` and if i do n't want it to ? '' the nickname was apt as he was only fifteen . i look up at my partner and narrow my eyes . are you saying hes got me under a spell or something ? to see who they really were . but he could n't move at al . speak of the devil , he said , regarding me with a studied frown . rather than shocked or alarmed , most people seemed delighted or irritated depending on their age . 