the battle was over , and our side had won -- but at a great cost . his plans to lighten her load needed to step up a notch before she collapsed . the empress had no armor to shield her body , no guard to protect her life ; she needed no such things . she just wanted her old friend back . the governor let out a hearty laugh . there was no pain like the first time one lost a comrade . 'you 're a disappointing son sometimes , but i do n't want to lose you . ' 