i fall into her arms , allowing her to hold me close . i know we cant die like that , but i bet it still hurts like hell . startled by the sudden noise , i jumped back and pressed myself against the bookshelf . when i saw what he was really doing , i wanted to scream . an order she would ignore anyway , so why give it ? `` no , i have to get my ass to the counselor 's office , actually . '' 