you only wish you were that beautiful , and that 's why you ca n't stand it . i wondered as the car had pulled away if she was going to tell jack i was gone . he wanted this to last forever . there is a fortune to be made with such knowledge . '' i plop down on the couch and wrap my arms around my waist . what did you get the candles for ? he felt that the nerves and worry after the kill would be less the second time around and he knew the rush would still be there . 