no idea which one of them put it there , or if all of them did , but it was a nice thought . id done so much for her , and it wasnt enough . he knew then that he was going to lose it . why would they hurt him like that , mommy ? fact was , the man did things to me-to my body . dont you think he should reach out to me first ? i wave my knives as if i am about to lose my patience , which in truth i am . 