i rested my head against the back of the seat and closed my eyes . well , perhaps i could- '' he 'd turned around to speak to her directly , but she was no longer behind him . they watched with horror the blood that stained the floor . i had n't slept at all last night , having gone out to enjoy my last night alone . but i do n't want to rush into this . and , raising herself to her knees , she beat her hands wildly together . 