i am not surprised to open one of his notebooks and find tight , precise handwriting , always in the same color ink . what is this package you keep going on about ? the jokes on us for believing these people care at all . even drugged , the bond must have still been working . in the beginning , he had been unable to draw them out at all . i didnt feel like eating or even thinking . she wished she knew how to go into the void while awake something told her it was possible , she wanted to try . 