he felt like a fool , a dirty fool . turning my head , i found his mouth and kissed him , overwhelmed by what he 'd admitted . figuring all that out for yourself . '' i just- i ca n't , not if she 's going to be like that . it would be reasonable to kill him . 'i 'd love to see both churches if i could . ' `` stay down and out of his way , '' he ordered . he repeated the process another dozen times before stopping to light a cigarette . 