it was an expensive place with four-bedroom flats on every floor . you make me want to change everything . tears burned the back of my eyes , and when i spoke , my voice was hoarse . the thought of managing by myself made me shiver . and i have n't really talked about this with anyone and i was hoping you might want to listen to me so that i could - `` `` why did the man throw your brother to the ground ? '' she took a deep breath and turned to walk toward the subway station . 