this was so big , she did n't even know where in her head to put it . i had no idea what that was and didnt want to reveal my ignorance by asking . stay , i mumbled before slipping back into darkness . fred was talking fast holding his recorder close to pattersons lips . every time we make love , all you can think about is making a baby . i do n't want her in this house , thinking about how it used to be her house , about how we used to be hers , too ... . 