he has to learn to live , sometimes , in the gray area of life and strike a balance . but some of them were randomly gouged into the middle of the wall . i was hurting her , or rather the sickness she thought i had was hurting her . entered the strip mall , the parking lot was practically empty . i did not call people , but i pressed the button to call tiffany at the hospital . `` i should n't have even come to talk to you , but i 'm desperate . 