they 'd lost one brother because of her . i was going to miss him ; our routine had become something stable in my life , our dinners and sessions something i looked forward to . he paused and touched the name carved below the first name . you waited after the blizzard to contact him because you did n't want to seem ... needy . then he checked the tickets and the smile dropped . if i sink far enough into my chair , he might not notice i 'm out here . 