`` what do you want me to say anyway ? '' i did n't feel the switch , but i knew my mind had lost the fight and my body had taken over . `` but now playing with my flash is a habit . her heart was beating frantically and she was n't sure she could make it another twenty four hours before seeing him again . there were shops at the bottom of some of the buildings . `` my lord , '' she said , her eyes shining . `` i want you to say whatever you feel like saying . '' 