she tried to twist her face to see him , but he tightened his hold on her . she set the tray on the table and , turning , walked toward the door . he wanted to swear at her , but emphasized her name as if it were a swear word instead . nevertheless , she smiled , then kissed her grandmother on the cheek . i grabbed the cup i saw him drinking from . headlights below and far back now , half a mile away . he was on edge even though he had a hard time sleeping last night . 