the old man looked so frail it was hard to imagine him farming all by himself these last years , out in all kinds of weather . they could n't know they were making it worse . the phone seemed to draw her . i dressed in a club shirt and jeans and was in position behind the front desk just in time . only if leaving is what you really want to do . if we can sell her back to them , tag , it could be what finally digs us out . '' 