if you worry about my illness , im immune . sometimes he says the right words in the right way and they warm my whole body . i 'm not so sure about that as i used to be . i did n't even think of the fact that i was putting him in danger . '' a part of me could n't help but feel bitter . well whatever , let 's just get this over with . its important i speak to her immediately , i announced . and i had an awful taste in my mouth . 