she wasnt sure where to start but decided to call beth at work before she did anything else . i want to go back there and p-paint . '' but what can i say to god if i slay this one , who has loved and whom i love ? '' that is not the loving soul you knew . you can help me , but we 're making what i want , and if i tell you to get out of my way and let me do something , you do it . 