it was like part of sophia awakened and she did n't intend on losing it . in his arms , she would not hurt as much . brilliant flowers glowed in the golden light . there was so much division among them . chuckling , i pushed him off me , pressing his back to the ground . he looked as if he wanted to say something , but after a long minute he stared back out to the lake . `` it 's not a curse -- i love being a werewolf. 