i did n't realize this truck was in such poor condition , '' he muttered when she finally managed to get the engine started . you know that we could n't have gone to counseling because that would have leaked to the press . my necktie felt overly tight , and i loosened it . i 'd known for a while , but we 'd been growing apart instead of together . he wanted to squeeze gel soap into his hands and slide them all over her , from head to toe . 