he jerked it free and kicked her , perhaps aiming for her stomach , catching her in the thigh with one of his heavy boots instead . i 'd have spent the whole day holding him , you know ? his way of asking if she was okay . she 'd never really seemed to feel anything . he did pick her up , and he carried her in front of me to the elevator . being here with you , i feel safe , but mostly i do n't feel like you are judging me . 