it 's not something we need to worry about right now anyway , '' he said carefully . were looking for ways to avoid each other , which is easier said than done in a three-hundred-square-foot studio apartment . i can put you in my mouth ? now dads walking off to the closet . i pray every night and nothing changes . '' he took up the slack in the sail line and looped it under the backs of his legs in a makeshift harness . 