he had come so far from the man who used to shut everyone out . she kissed him long and hard . how the devil did he sneak up on her so fast ? her radar is fouled by her sickness , the fever spoils her concentration and she is unable to lock onto prey . he asked again , as if she had n't spoken . after i 'd said my goodbyes , i just walked around and ended up where the drugs are . he forced a smile and she could see what it was costing him . 