kneeling upright , she saw valentine raise his sword high over his head . or the fear of loss even . as long as you behave yourself , that is . '' you will be made pure and , in time , all suffering will come to and end . i ca n't talk about this with him . `` why are you helping me , mason ? '' she was n't going to argue with him , even though he was using his drill sergeant voice . he could feel the heat of her body , her soft breasts crushed against him . 