`` i 'm so sorry , '' she said and rushed away from him , ignoring his calls as she raced down the street . `` what would your thirty-year-old self say ? he asks , his face telling me he 's terrified . if i could , i would begin our meeting this very instant . i got to do this last time and i 'm going to do it this time . swap meets and second hand shops when you break up . '' `` but i do know what will happen if you stay . '' 