`` it 's strong , '' she said , sipping at it again . because it was the last one when i really believed . but was this a solid basis for the kind of relationship he seemed to want ? carol had so many projects going now , it was hard to keep track of them all . `` but it 's good to know that you were worried enough to stick around and make sure i was okay . '' there was so much i wanted to say because i knew that i was dying . 