`` that was smooth , '' i say , gripping the edge of the counter , fighting to stay calm . `` i do n't like jewels , and i have more money than i need . all he had was a pocketknife and that was as good as useless if he wasnt cutting fishing line away from a tangle . i kicked you away because i could n't face what i needed to while i was distracted with you . '' the four of us walked through the dead garden until we reached one of the solid wooden doors . 