he came here just before the war . ' i rub my sore wrists , unsure of everything for a moment . finally he sighed and moved off of me . `` mainly i want some physical-security stuff . i dreamt that we were on the beach and he was holding me in his arms , telling me that he loved me . `` we could go to the cinema . the volume was set low but i could hear the faint reassuring sounds of the pounding surf . 