cut paused the footage then , and leaned back in the chair . as much as he wanted to have her again , he was n't going to interrupt her first long bath since her son had been born . `` i 'd rather be working in my garden . '' he pointed to something that looked like a porcelain half-barrel with a seat . i had nothing , bar the filthy clothes i stood up in , no money , no documents . she lifted a shaky hand to pull her hair away from her face and took a deep breath . 