josh usually woke up with a certain goal in mind and by days end it was seen through . i know you did n't expect to see me , and i do n't even know how you 're feeling about the whole thing , but i hope it 's the same way i feel . `` you saw my work with the foil . after a moment , the message came through : i dont need to be . and then realized that i was no better than him . i have some unhappy news , she declared . 