so this poking at him was an attempt-and a clumsy one-to get him to say more . `` i told them i was bringing you to dinner . '' if i had n't , i bet i would have been as scared . she asked eager to know his next words . `` you do n't have anyone else to watch him ? '' i launched myself at the door and threw it open . its there is no way i can verbalize what i feel , but i try clumsily . 