i smile as i hobble to the bathroom and fix myself up , putting on my clothes and using the new brushes , combs and face cloths available . how will we do that sitting here ? '' i did n't bother checking whether he was okay - just felt along his arms until i found the weapon he 'd been holding . they 'd last visited his mother 's grave on their way out of new york , the two of them standing with bent heads and folded hands and blank eyes . 