in the safety of his arms , she admitted her fear . `` what do you mean 'ca n't find them ' ? i suppose if i were to meet them now it would be different . spider perched on the edge of the table wreck and looked at him . i had a big family and lots of resources . she went rigid in his arms , and as soon as the nurses got close , she all but crawled behind him . i had no answer to his delicate touch . 