i played with sam at the swimming hole for over an hour and the whole time all i could think about was my time there with savanna . or to whatever keeps sneaking into my head . `` you can go home or to my house and take a nap instead . '' `` so what books have you read lately ? '' what the hell was happening to my boy ? you have to accept that fact . '' he looked like he did n't believe me , but when i turned him to face the door , he did n't argue . 