i kiss her bare shoulder , watching our reflections as she melts against me . she was trying hard to stay calm , but the panic wanted to rise . `` what happened to the fourth guy ? '' i need to find a place to live , make sure my job is secure , find day care . the car slowed and bumped into a parking lot . so you can watch the football ? toby stopped running at the edge of the lawn , swallowed hard , and walked slowly to the swing , puffing a little . 