his body trembled , broke out in a sweat with the effort to contain it . she sucked another grape from his fingers . i tip my forehead past the wings and crook my finger for her to follow me . it was packed and i could see why . i guess she always did know when i was lying . you could have learned from them . he was so graceful for someone so large that i was absorbed in just watching him move . `` i do n't have a drinking problem ; i have a fucking problem . '' 