i could even man the phones or something to pay my way . why i was so certain , i did n't know . drugs raced through their systems , not adrenaline . there was no escape from father for me . i was n't expecting to see my brother . sorry i 'm not available to take your call . he almost preferred the anger in her eyes to the sympathy that filled them now . `` you must stay here until your fate is decided , '' he declared . they can give you my laws id number . 