years later , i visited gilbert and dee da dee and they told me that those summers were the best of their life . i hold the note tightly in my hand . emma had to look away to swallow the lump in her throat . i asked her to buy me shoes with high heels . she has agreed to bury him there . '' i felt an urge to run my fingers over it , but did n't want to smear the charcoal . they were n't friends , would never be friends , but they had a common cause . 