he picked the knife up and wiped it off on his pants . well done little lady , he thought . my mood has nothing at all to do with you except as you make me feel calmer . '' he bends and grabs the covers , dragging them off me . before i can respond , the door opens . `` but then , lucy and rex happened , and everyone needed to talk , and - '' `` i get it . '' more than once , i have dreamed of giving up the crown . 