and when i realized you were n't dead , all i wanted to do was pick you up and hold you . '' though to be fair , i had this brilliant plan on your actual birthday , so i believe credit and praise is still due . '' `` more than monkeys , though i have to admit she 's growing on me . '' he was still buried deep inside me . at the last minute christopher wondered if he should be more concerned about what inspector douglas had to say . 