do you know how it feels to not understand why you exist ? ~~~ `` do you mind if we swing by my house ? i 'd wear my frilly little dresses and my hair would always be tied back out of my face with a matching ribbon . he thinks anyone over the age of 25 is mature , josh said . his breathing was so shallow that she half expected him to die . `` yeah , but if you know me , then you know- '' `` nick ! '' she looked up and he smiled back down at her . 