i wondered how much time had elapsed since we got here . she let him wash her , her gaze drifting to the beautiful pattern of color on his bare chest and arms . i 'd appreciate it if you also keep leaving me your little notes at the end of each day . i stare at the book as i slowly die inside . to be quite honest with you , i 'm really rather glad you came when you did . `` i 'm not good at playing these kinds of games , '' she said . 