he should have just fucked both their brains out until she could n't think of anything else . as i said , it was a long time ago . it was n't as far down as i 'd feared . he had been unable to kill for a long period of time , too long . he had n't shouted the words that they carried more force than if he had . as i straightened my jacket , i tried to imagine jane 's state of mind . `` you told me it was over . 