in addition , she was n't as free as any other person was in her age . i could be in the lead and taking this win as easily as i snatched it last year . it was as if this connection was bringing me back to life . he took my face in his hands , forcing me to lift my face . there was no reason to think anyone would try and poison her , but she was n't taking any chances . `` get the f**k out of the bathroom and wait your turn . '' 