i shake my head wishing that he wouldnt hedge with me . you think mrs. burke might actually consider using it ? she wo n't listen to me and i do n't know what to do . '' for so long i 'd refused to even try it , but even on our first night together i found myself craving her in ways that i 'd never experienced . `` let me get the right angle with the sun here . '' for a woman like her , whose only skill was to be decorative , what other option was there ? 