`` i know but still `` `` besides , i did n't do that much . she allowed the relief to ring in her voice . `` i have no idea , '' he said softly , his eyes not even looking at the flower but more on the expression of joy on her lovely face . the clouds were little , white , and puffy , drifting across the sky . when she finally did , she had something that looked like a bomber joint clumsily rolled in jaunty purple paper . he blinked away the memory and smiled . 