needing something to do with her hands , she reached for a full glass on the table , not caring what was in it , just needing to do anything to break the awkward moment . `` we will now do a quick demonstration . '' he fell on his back and i landed on my knees . she just stood there , holding my gaze , surrounding me with the gentle community of her sympathy . hug me again so i can really feel it this time . '' i ca n't think straight when i 'm with him . 