now were both half-starved , and slowly freezing to death . he ran his hand down the length of my body as he lowered his lips to kiss the side of my neck . the me that i used to be . `` you 'd never understand , dear , '' she told him . he pointed out the bloody tracks across his chest . i had let down my guard the tiniest bit , and now look where we were . the purple scarf was perhaps the only thing clean in my room . 