his earlier feelings of dismay and fury had turned into a frenzy of nervous excitement . i pulled my hand away from her and took a few steps back . he was a grown man and he was going to make this last all f**king night . like now , he would n't speak to anyone , and he had violent nightmares from it for years . she felt goose bumps on her arms ; she shivered thinking about her reading . ah , good , just the men i need . 