lucy leaned back in her seat and twirled her thick red curls up into a knot before grabbing her drink and taking a long sip . `` maybe if i knew how to start , '' jake said , `` but i do n't . '' you do some pretty good unwinding by phone . `` it 's a good day , '' he said , smiling his incredible smile . i also know he would never , ever leave you or send you away . '' what if i get scared again and ca n't do it ? '' 