maybe they even knew each other . that little redhead that just left here ordered the same thing . i mean , really , dying was bad enough , wasnt it ? i did n't know how , but i did know i healed faster because of their friendship and found sanctuary for my heart . if you want to write me a check , i wo n't cash it . so you would n't have to feel ? '' `` you never told me where the others are . '' at least , that 's what she had to keep telling herself . 