i dont know the command structure there , but will assume you will clear the way . but little hands stopped vanessas downward spiral . the truck growled and pounced forward . `` think of it more as an investment , '' fin suggested . `` why torture yourself with this if it has no effect on him ? '' while i speak , he helps unbuckle the straps of my heels . `` please jesus , i do n't want to die ! '' `` let 's not make any plans yet , '' he said . 