he used a single tooth to tear open the pad of her finger . but how could they survive when their own officers did n't care if they lived or died ? have mercy , on both of us , phoebe and forgive me . i believe it was the first time she had left her mothers house since we had arrived there . he ripped himself out of the memory . `` that was the idea , '' he said . it was this bizarre in-between state that they were n't handling very well . 