now sit , he ordered , repeating the gesture . just enough drugs to put them both down . '' several times he had initiated sex with me and i ended up just lying there the whole time . they brought me to a hatch that led to the deck above . he is safe as long as she lives . '' i ca n't go through this all over again in a few months . '' the guard was injured , and presumably restrained . he knew exactly what he 'd do . 