the doctor stands , too , but instead of trying to stop me , he reaches for the cabinet behind him . every now and then she would feel maggies eyes on her , but she did not look up , did not want concern or pity . he 's old enough to be her father . '' the idea took off from there . '' in addition , the danger of innocent casualties due to a decision he made would backfire on him . `` this is the note he wrote to me on the day that he left . '' 