she looked up and around , before she had to twist and tilt her head back to the wall before her . `` i keep thinking to myself , 'this is n't fair . for the first time since i 'd left the jeep , i felt cold . she pushed back from him so she could look up into his face . the patient needs to learn to differentiate , hed said , between the real and the seems real . `` look , we do n't have time for that now . 