no , she decided with more courage than her stomach thought she had . even in my dreams he knew exactly where and how to touch me . depends on what you talk about , she said . that would be hard to freeze out , even if i knew it was for the best . and i want one of those green funerals where they bury you in the ground under a tree . `` i injured my knee in my last mission , so standing is n't a favorite activity at the moment . '' 