the woman she thought you were would have gone ahead with the ceremony and either told herself that my mother would n't truly hurt me , or assume i could protect myself . i leaned back , tony 's legs on either side of me as we both stared out at the setting sun . she thought she was hiding it , but i saw it . at the end of the hall was a little spare bedroom , containing several boxes of books and toy cars . if i loved this woman , i would not share her with anyone . '' 