`` right , '' i say , forcing myself to smile , `` i 'm just gon na take a shower . she never understood how nick got so many girls to go in there with him . and he would eventually get her . she found three that would work well and called victor , excited about the possibilities . his hands slipped from my cheek and gripped my hand to help me up . a nice fat church soldier will feed a family of trolls for a week or so . 