`` is she going to turn all transparent now ? '' my forehead gently falls against hers , and i close my eyes , shaking my head . we 're headed there now , probably only five minutes out . '' `` you knew what it would mean for you ? `` i ... i was thinking of renting an apartment after the first of the year . '' the siren said from the center of the pool . actually , even though it was hard to talk about things sometimes , we always got on better afterwards , at home . 