now she was sobbing quietly into her hands . she 'd seen it again in the bath cavern where he 'd waited for ... for what she had called , to nightingale , `` his appointment , '' not wanting to use the real word for what it was . `` mistaken about our visit to a wedding chapel in las vegas over two years ago ? in a hurry to forget it , i shoved the dream aside . you ca n't pretend that this was okay . '' `` there 's no one out there to help . 