i gave her a big hug , then raced downstairs . he rubbed his eyes and turned away , crawling slowly up the bed and sliding under the covers as he laid his head carefully on the pillow . i 'd hoped to bury the past , but perhaps it 's best to let you talk about it as you seem determined to do . my whole body gets really hot , like a hot flash , only i feel like i need to burn off energy . what am i supposed to do first ? 