his back to the door he was thrown out of , he looked left and right . we can calm down , then you could finish it . my heart was racing in my chest , as the back of my neck prickled . squeezing my pen to keep myself from turning it into a weapon of mass destruction , i kept my voice low . she told me about her son . i shook my head , looked back to the amazing view and whispered , `` probably not . '' 