i 'd seen him around the table on holidays , a younger , more handsome man then making my mother smile with his jokes and always eager to take my father away immediately after he 'd finished eating for private meetings in his study . i wondered if carol had ever kissed him , touched him . what was the issue with the rest of the world getting to know all the wonderful things that were going on inside the country ? her very best until she was afraid of losing her sister altogether . 