he did n't have time for this conversation but , even if he did , he still would n't have time for this conversation . i have no experience and nothing to my name . but he felt his ears getting red and his heart had begun to race . for three years or until he died , whichever came first . '' you do n't know how much it will mean to me . '' he was so out of tune . it was a harsh place and there were easier ways of making money . 