now , that could change many things . '' he gives me a don't-be-ridiculous look . so as to be ready for him tomorrow night ... his convenient mistress . his speech had been so beautiful , so wonderful . i came to lying on damp leaves , my head in my new husband 's lap . the bombs were falling in fewer numbers as i stumbled through the door to my building . he groaned around her swollen nipple . `` would you like to know the secret of my success ? '' i know it means we 're over . 