we have to ask for it . i balk at the midnight offering , but really i should n't . go stay with mark for the day . i am in something close to agony but lets not talk about that right now . i thought that i was going to pee my pants before the dean stopped asking questions and talking . he hugs me across the shoulders . when she moved her mouth like that - angry , upset , resigned - it looked like she would never be happy again . 