oh , thats what the j stood for ? he gave her a big smile and said gladly , rightly so , my lady . good , now lets go find us a god . i have n't seen the light of day in ... how long has it been ? he was stiff with his arms to the side . `` and ... you thought i should have been ? '' it turned out to be my sister . i knew i would n't take him up on his offer , but the fact that he had bothered made me feel better . 