the past is finally gone , sandy . we had n't practiced the song together in years , but neither one hesitated when it was our part to sing . had he been in jail or something ? im not going to tiptoe around anyones feelings . a smile that finally reached his eyes showed me he wanted to tell everyone now , `` up to you . '' my arms were too high to block effectively , just as dad was always telling me . if there 's a particular rat i 'm talking to , i 'm in their face . 