what i said was true , but i feared it would be a giant waste of time , effort , and resources . she was up to no good . who knew , his intentions could be good , or bad in any case . `` i 'm not taking this with me , '' patrice said , holding the ice - coated compact out from her with two fingers , like it smelled bad . the date makes sense now , it was the day he lost most of his family . she was being unfair to him . 