then , slowly , i walked back out through the door . `` you 're so f**king cute like this . i had to get out of here-and i knew exactly where i had to go . 'your boat 's still in the lock-up , ' i said quietly , because i wanted to see her smile . how could he give her up ? nope , the world was pretty much fucked . this had to work , she told herself . fear no terror would better describe it . 