or ... as probably would be the case today ... not . he shifted his cigarette between his middle and ring fingers . `` you scared me half to death , '' i scolded , my fingers still fisted over my runaway heart . he 'd told her what he wanted , yes , but she needed every detail . he inquired me what i had studied and boost up my energy . and i glared at her , curling my toes into the hardwood floors . `` we leave in the morning , when the suns rise , '' she told them . 