`` but you ca n't just do that . i have men all around the grounds . '' `` i ca n't , '' mike 's voice sounded so thick with sadness . `` i do n't think it 's wise to put this off . it 's going to be a long two f**king weeks . i knew this was their home and training ground . a shudder went through her and she wondered if she could go through with it . `` grandfather , you must think of this as an adventure , '' i say , my hands on his shoulders . 