she had known roughly how much it would be , but seeing it in print is still a shock . im going to take the bolt out . i wont break your heart , in winning it . i hold the saw to his arm . `` go ahead , '' he said , handing the purse to her . he was moving , away from his mother and through the door . `` th-that 's good- '' `` no , it 's not . '' when i looked up at her , the pity in her eyes made me sick to my stomach . 