i was just seeing the down side of being involved in a criminal investigation . if i thought it would help , i 'd call the paper and raise hell . shed sneak out and go to church , maybe steal some holy water to help in their fight against the dark . i knew it probably was n't healthy , but it was my reality . i took pleasure in the act of running , took pleasure in the freedom of the moment . `` without even giving us a chance to meet him . '' 