i 'm actually pretty bossy all the time , you just do n't listen to me . '' that is why we came here . they were far enough from the coast , but the air still smelled salty , and the other customers were all laughing over their lunches . 'i thought a few beers would cheer me up , but i ca n't drink it . when i could no longer smell jasmine or feel rain against my skin like some invisible presence , i asked jake , `` how do i keep her from popping in to see me ? '' 