then i hear it , the awful noise coming from my chest , and finally something in this world matches how i feel . butterflies went crazy in my belly as i looked into his gorgeous dark eyes . the pistol felt strange in toms hands . `` what is the right word , then ? '' `` um , i get motion sickness on everything . do you not remember the 14 stitches i had in my calf ? is she going to put you through school ? 