`` i know you do n't want to hear it , but whatever he told you ... however he convinced you to get engaged to him ... he 's using you . to bother an old man on his day off ? hell , he might even think they were killed . '' i can load henry and take care of myself . '' i wanted to run back to him and tell him i was lying , but i could n't . yes , they had their own standing army . i wanted to feel a child growing in my womb . 