thinking of his death filled her with fear . his face is just like his mothers and it is often clear when he makes faces just like her . i hopped out of the car and struck out immediately for the trees . we had to go back to our tent for some crew rest before going on alert again . instead , i take a sip of the nectar of the gods and stare at him over the cup . it is to my advantage to figure out which is the case. 