he 's right , you know , she told herself . they were just squashed underneath like bugs . shed gotten hurt because of him . eric is was my best friend . she did n't know how to close it . her attention went to the front of the church . jet , at first , had been shocked . he was the one who 'd kept her up . `` it 's like you 're giving me permission to do drugs or have sex . '' `` come on , sweetheart , let me hear you . '' 