the guard nodded and unlocked a door in what looked like a toll booth . he was always in perfect health . he grabbed for the intercom switch . she buried her face against him , a shudder going through her body . the corner of my mouth pulled up and i shook my head , `` what i think does n't matter . what did she think happened before she came upon them outside ? because once you loved , then you could lose , and she did n't know if she could deal with that pain . 