and she would cling to what was left of her tattered pride until her last breath . i rubbed at my eyebrow with a thumb . do you know why i want access to any part of you ? `` not for a while ; a few more days probably . '' i re-introduce her to my family , then to parker . could n't get her to care about what might be the truth . the sound of the shower provided the right amount of white noise and she felt her eyelids getting heavy . 