`` it sucks at first , but it gets better . '' he asked , walking in behind me and closing the door . i walked by him and to the car , my eyes on stella to see her head turned to the keatons but her eyes slid to the side more than once . i almost didnt hear what he said . he was so peaceful , so comfortable that i found myself just staring at him . she curled her fist , which was out of view in her lap . hes ruining his life , not you . 