but even the sensible lay up left plenty of work to do as any wayward approach , whether faded or pulled could find itself in one of the twin sandy hazards . the same way he was going to have to learn how to cope with his drinking . and i wanted to have some time to lick my wounds and then figure out how to get the f**k out of there , out of this world and home , home , home . and there was no coordination , no team feeling among them . 