`` we were told there would be only ash left behind , '' one of them said , sounding pleased . and it says something about their character . i lift him one-armed from his crib and change his soaking wet diaper . `` put some grit up your ass . '' eve screamed into her pillow and punched it . i pounced out of the bathroom and said to james , ill race you . the purpose would be to give the impression that everything was fine , nothing out of the ordinary . it took an incredible effort to answer . 