it would not make that mistake again . of all the things to write . ' the desperation in his voice ate at my insides . `` go home and call me once you 're there so i know everything 's okay . but the question is there , and that 's reason enough for me . '' what was more tempting than this brown-haired , blue-eyed boy who went to hell for me ? we started going to sam 's club to buy our band-aids in bulk . '' that 's the kind of name james is . '' 