he was average height , but heavy and solid with muscle , and he wore a few too many extra beers around his middle . alan slammed the door behind them and breathed . he actually looked really relaxed and confident sitting in the pilot 's chair . he watched as she placed her cup in the sink and left the room . more seconds passed and i eventually realized that he was waiting for me to make a move . and saying that she said something that warmed my heart : we will look back upon it , she said . 