his heart was beating slow and hard , steady as a bass drum . `` well , until we know , we 're still in honeymoon mode , so i think i know exactly how i want us to spend the rest of this night . '' his entire body had gone cold . `` you handled things the way your grandmother wanted them handled . do n't let ... '' did i need to spell out everything ? mary wandered over to the fire and stood with her back to it . 