this was n't about their life together , but about needs . but it was n't like i was looking for an excuse for the `` whatever '' not to happen . he had taken an impossible case and won it . `` just like a friend would , '' i joked as i piled on more sand , carefully working around his hard-on . she said the she was a voice in her head , but it also came from the drains and the toilet . i shake my head and cross my arms over my chest . 