he might be here until after christmas for all we know , i say , and then , sadly , we drift back onto the topic of my nightmares . `` he just stopped by and looked at it , that 's all . '' i 'd already known that for days now . give him two minutes and he 'd get this party started . but most of all , i hated that he wasnt going to see me off to the dance . then he opened it to a blank page at its front . 