he places his hand on my hip like he 's done it a thousand times before . i am ordering you out of this room and out of this hospital . she wished she had the strength to remove her sunglasses and meet his gaze directly . then i said in a quiet , clear voice , `` grasshopper . '' but its what she would have expected . oh , how she wished he was ! `` lily , he 's trying to take you in just like he took me ! '' 