`` it 's something i have to do the first weekend of every month , '' he said , his jaw tight . she felt as if her legs were going to give way and send her crashing to the cement floor . `` well , it makes sense , '' ted said . it stings a little , but i let it go , because he 's only being honest . `` you know you could have sold the prize for cash , but i really appreciate you bringing me . '' 