i was disturbed that i felt attracted to him , despite the fact that my very being seemed to repel him . it had a balcony , a narrow driveway , and roses blooming along the lawn . ken joined them at the jeep . `` they 're going to be okay , right ? for instance ; the sweat from her neck was now on my lips . perhaps his mother was strong enough , but she was utterly out of reach and unable to help . 