i 'm going to have to make some important decisions that will affect both of us . `` sir , '' he added belatedly , and licked a smear of chocolate ice cream off his upper lip . it did n't seem like he was watching her very closely , but she was still very careful to not give herself away . she sobbed quietly and i turned away from her , unable to bear what she had become . `` you love saying that , do n't you ? '' 