the guy 's gun was shaking , but he said , `` a killer 's not just walking away . '' reaching through for the third time i found that my prize was a bit out of reach . she longed for him to tell her the truth , but now that the words were said , she felt sick . i did more in that week , or however long it really was , than i could have ever dreamed of doing in a lifetime without the discovery apartments . 'something to give me bad dreams . 