compared to the basic necessities of life , many would consider this project a luxury , me included . you no longer get to make those decisions . '' his answer stole the air from her lungs . `` you already know what happened to me . `` i was unable to rescue the child . '' you stand in the house which was created by me and my service . `` ma'am , i am terribly sorry that you were overlooked . madeline had separated this journal from the others several months ago because she 'd been planning to read it . 