she was his wife , mother , best friend , sister , lover , and priest . not only was her most recent way of life demolished , but now she honestly had no idea how or where to start over . his fingers caught clumsily at her pants , pulling , reaching around to release her fly . `` i will give her all i can ; you will have to replace my blood as you have done so many times . it dripped with drying grey mud and there was the same volcanic filth on the floor all round it . 