beth didnt know whether to be surprised or angry . i draw a bit ; i could make a stab at a picture . '' if she went missing , there 'd be no one to pay the investigator , so he 'd have to go home , right ? i had to hand it to him , his fingers did n't shake at all as he fixed the drink . `` i had no trouble helping an old friend . '' i had to start thinking more seriously about this or i could lose my job and become an insurance salesman . 