now we know why some of them are so bloody and torn apart . he thought it was important that i make my own mistakes now and then . `` not far from here , but i do n't have to tell you where , since that was n't part of the deal . '' he left his coffee-colored hair hanging free and went to raven . had no idea you were such a lightweight . she asks , almost making me laugh . im sorry , he said , and turned back toward the table . 