if something happened to me along the way ... well , that 's the price one pays when a soldier . '' he reaches out for my hand . if he didnt launch today , it might be another month before he put the rocket into the air . pleasure and pain sweep through me as one . is it possible you have a bit too much empty time on your hands ? shovel , hoe , rake , short-handled claw . with no one remembering me , i feel like a ghost anyway . 