she had volunteered to stay with their sick dad while he 'd taken boots sledding in central park , and he had wanted to get her a present . his hand felt cold and empty . of course the doctor will say she 's at death 's door . even when she knew that her love would n't be able to save anyone or anything . `` i know it seems that way , but i broke free for you , too . that is of course , as long as were talking about the same country . 