`` this is when my dad would call me a wuss . `` we need to gather the others first . '' i can see how he sees you . like it or not , i knew i had to say the word out loud . `` so , '' i asked , `` where are we going ? '' all morning and into the afternoon they set about clearing a four-foot path . can you imagine the history in these volumes ? i stopped then , in that moment and lifted my eyes to meet his again . 