i did n't know how to take her words . say it , said cole , or show me . be advised : we 're scrambling air support now . willow , stop trying to negotiate with me . 62 i hold my breath when the door opens the next morning . i stood up and put my arm around his shoulders . so much , i thought i might die without you these last two weeks . '' the next was try to figure out how hed died . it was n't worth shedding tears over something she had known for so long . 