i check her face to see it 's not pain she 's feeling . that first kiss was , oh my god , it was good . the tears were so close to the surface . that i 'm no match for her open invitation to a sure thing . if you believe i should put on mourning and bury myself at home , say so clearly and have done . but she was n't telling me everything either . quit trying to avoid the subject by making this about me . '' 