he turned now , and i was sorry he did when he gave me a look that i could n't read . `` i am not afraid to die , '' he said . `` yeah , well , it will take us awhile to get there . '' now those plans seemed rather dim . how about we watch a movie and then try to get him out ? i start kissing and feeling my way across his broad chest . but now i know that i have pushed him off to the side . 