neither did lack of sleep , and if that chick in the mirror did n't stop crying all night every night , she was going to find a baseball bat and send it right through the glass . a powerful beast that roared continually for release from within . his hand tightened in my hair and then let go . that shot was meant to kill and in a way it did . it was very thoughtful of jack to want to include me , but it just wo n't work . '' `` why does everybody keep saying that ? '' 