and i could see on her face that mel was serious . who on earth could want to kill her ? any day , maybe tomorrow , a man is going to say to me i turn a blind eye to a brothers murder . for all my running , all my volunteer work to make things better in this world , i still had to face that there was a bitter force driving me . the flashing word abort stops and replaces with the single word of green letters ready . 'so the boy and i can go fishing . ' 