dad stood at the front window , staring out , his shoulders tense . if speedy made it through that gate , we 'd never find him . was that so hard to get out ? i am not foolish enough to step into that trap . '' `` how did you ever survive , my lord ? '' what she could never understand was why her mother had stayed in the marriage as long as she had . to that end , i 'd like to schedule another meeting next week . 