he went back to the ship . i got up and helped him fold up the blanket . `` these ones do not feel burns as men do , yet such oil blinds and kills . some men like being the first . there was no f**king way i could resist her then . i was just about to taste freedom when something latched on to my arm and brought me to a halt . it 's mounted securely , i checked it earlier because it 's so large , and i was curious how they 'd attached it . 