because it 's spring , the growth has a raggedy aspect to it , a mix of early yellow flowers , clover , and dead straw still hanging out from last year . `` i do n't even know where to begin . but i have to go to the bathroom . remember , it needs to be an independent , not a chain store . i 'm sure everyone in the entire room hears our conversation . `` but i was n't feeling well even before the stroke , and she did n't want to tell me , '' joe continued . 