he never blinked , his hands still on the edge of the table , his upper teeth pressed into the soft skin of his bottom lip , as though in a trance . he stayed where he stood , but she could feel him looking at her again , seeing her . saying those words was a thousand times more painful than thinking them . i started the car and hit the lights , rolled forward . `` you do n't have to show me anything . there had to be warmth for water to drip . 