said carl , twisting to face the voice . you must be exhausted with everything going on . `` now we can play the field together . `` is it allowed for you to be here ? '' i swept my eyes left and right as we went on , searching . or suppose it had just happened ... and he had used it ? the first time i saw him , he took my breath away . you 're not going to fight her . before he could say more , my bus pulled up . 