i am so desperate for them to understand the evil nature of this man that i do the unthinkable : i open my mouth and spill the secrets that i have kept for years . it was just that she didnt know how to give out signals without being obvious about it . the car door slammed , the engine roared . we never let go of the kids as we rushed them into the house . did she simply ... stand up on tiptoe and start kissing him ? okay , okay , you do n't have to hit me . 