although he continued to be disappointed that the wedding was off , he told her over and over again that he would rather have her than a wedding . `` you lied to me , regardless of whether or not you apologize for it afterwards . '' i see the corners of her mouth twitch . he squeezed the middle of the barrel with his thumb and index finger and pinched it shut . i do n't know what 's going to happen , but i know it hurts like hell . 