yes , we 'd made it to the next ring ; but every time i reached the surface without jack , it felt like another failure . even as she thought the words she felt the heat rising in her chest . looks like the training went well , the captain said . got this speech in a minute he scratched his chin . `` no , '' she admitted , trying to hold back even more tears . `` i would have , '' said mary , `` but i got to the bed . 