i take my hands off of his and allow him to push the wrap backward onto the bed . does she have big i should get going , morris says . haven sat down in the doorway and leaned against the wall in the shadows , watching him play in a trance . `` a big diamond would be an indication of how much you loved me , '' she joked . then , straight to ruth , `` the precocious one . '' there really were bells , and my circle had rung them . the hands gripped him like steel . 