there is nothing in this world i want more than to make love to you . `` i , um , i want to go to work . '' you know i have higher standards than that . '' i felt her hand on my shoulder , her grip firm and warm . her soft smile and sudden request for the tab tells me she has it under control . `` he did , '' i say , gripping the edges of the kitchen counter . she raises her eyebrows and waits for me to spill it . something small can become big later . 