her breath was shaking once again . i opened the door and the fluttering in my heart turned to a pounding-a scary thumping in my ears and throat , my body 's instant fight or flight reaction to the sight of chris standing there . `` turn around , '' he whispers , his voice suddenly hoarse . `` do you want to go and see your mother ? '' there are only two platforms left before it reaches the miniature figure standing in the hall . you are only the tenth person in our history to touch the throne and live . 