i leaned my head on the steering wheel and closed my eyes . silence hung in the air and then , as one , the pack surged forward , their voices rising as they wished her well . this was like heaven to me . i can help you , but you must do most of it on your own . we can not allow this to continue . you might be able to find a used copy there . '' when he was n't looking , i dumped half the cup out . wont be back till much later . 