`` you do n't believe me do you ? these past few days have been the best . i 'm taking care of you because i 'm concerned , no other reason . '' she shook her head and looked up at me . even going so far as losing you ? walking to the nearest liquor cabinet , he poured himself a generous amount and moved over to the couch . i bent over and grabbed my knees , wanting to wake up from this nightmare . makes it easier to remember things . 