however , she did n't turn around and leave . he said quietly , i shall not repeat this , so if you wish to listen , do so . i had tried to see her , of course . `` how much pain are you in ? '' there were , of course , ups and downs . if he could have been with me , he would have been , which meant he could n't . kelly planted the dog in mark 's arms . and now they had to help . i yelled over my shoulder , and kept moving . 