she did n't creep up to see it , did n't think she could bear it and instead she escaped to her own room and refused to allow herself to think about it or , indeed , anything at all . kids were great , but i was really glad not to have any right now . i know who i love - and who i belong with . '' `` the computers can easily trace our flight path . i was almost positive that was where she would go and so that meant that was where i was going , too . 