i laughed and hugged him from the side . then , finally , she lost her temper and swung back at me with an open palm , but i grabbed it and we struggled . what is that stupid word they have for themselves ? '' she sucked in her lower lip and did her best not to stare at him . she could have been leading me straight to my death , but i desperately wanted to believe that the ava i knew and loved was in there somewhere , willing to give her all and risk her life for the greater good . 