until that moment , he 'd never been kissed . because i didnt want him to know that i was still alive in this world until the time was right ... and if im not mistaken , now seems to be the proper time . im going to see him out . `` tonight we will know just each other . eight years later , here they are , with a baby , no less . i wanted to run , to use , to just get the hell out of there . she 'd kept the secret for other reasons , too . 