i trail off , unable to give voice to the thought . 'i fought them harder that time , but they won , of course . if it was to her hurt or advantage somehow , you could get her to do something and otherwise she did not care if someone was murdered in front of her . she did , but did n't know where she 'd landed in vegas . `` also , you should realize that you can not now go back to your old way of life . '' 