he spat the seeds out onto the snow and watched them sink beneath the icy floor . you dont have to go along with it . so he just got on with it on his own . as a matter of fact , i was sometimes the opposite of the loving , caring , role model abigail that the media made me out to be . no , i was joking but it wasnt funny , carlos said . pushing past him , she reached out to turn the doorknob . he was sucking her in again and it had to stop . 