LA Lakers star Kobe Bryant has revealed he believes the stress of his rape case led his wife to miscarry their child - and he ca n't still ca n't forgive himself . Kobe has said he blames himself for wife Vanessa 's miscarriage , which happened in early 2005 - the year after he faced trial for rape in Colorado . The basketball player , who has been married to Vanessa since 2001 , says he believes the anxiety caused by the allegations over the 18 months before led to his wife losing what would have been their second child . Scroll down for video . Anguish : LA Lakers star Kobe Bryant says he blames himself for wife Vanessa 's miscarriage in Muse , a documentary about his life . Pictured : Vanessa and Kobe at the premiere of the documentary earlier this year . Kobe had been charged with assaulting 19-year-old Katelyn Faber in 2003 , but it was dropped at trial when the alleged victim refused to give evidence at trial the next year . The now 36-year-old denied the charges - but admitted an adulterous sexual encounter with his accuser after he checked into the hotel where she was working to await knee surgery . But the allegation led to him losing lucrative contracts with Nutella and McDonalds at the time , as well as causing stress for his family . However , Vanessa stood by her husband throughout the case . In a halting and emotional monologue for his new documentary Muse , Bryant says he let his wife and family down during 'that time ' . But in the two minute clip - marked '2004 ' - he never refers directly to the rape case which turned his world upside down . 'It is a man 's job to look out for your family , ' Bryant tells the camera . 'In that aspect , I failed miserably . ' Halting : The star gives an emotional monologue to the camera , in which he says he let his family down . Star : The sportsman was awaiting knee surgery when he was alleged to have raped a hotel worker in 2003 . He added : 'We were expecting our second child during that time , and there was just so much stress , she actually miscarried . 'It is something I have a real hard time dealing with that , I feel like it was my fault . We should have been building our family , but because of my mistake , we lost a baby . 'We try to justify the fact its not , realise how common miscarriages are , these things happen , but the reality is it happened because of me . 'That 's the reality of it , and that is something I 've got to carry forever . ' Kobe also seems surprised his wife did not leave him at the time , taking their young daughter with her , as well as 'half the money ' . 'Things would have been really easy for her to leave , ' he said in the documentary . Dropped : The charges were dropped at trial , but Kobe - who protested his innocence- did admit he had a 'consensual ' encounter with his 19-year-old accuser , a worker at the Colorado hotel where he was staying . After the case was dropped in September 2004 , Kobe agreed to apologise to Faber for the incident , including his public mea culpa . 'Although I truly believe this encounter between us was consensual , I recognize now that she did not and does not view this incident the same way I did , ' he said at the time . 'After months of reviewing discovery , listening to her attorney , and even her testimony in person , I now understand how she feels that she did not consent to this encounter . ' Faber filed a separate civil lawsuit against Bryant , which the two sides ultimately settled with the specific terms of the settlement being undisclosed to the public . It was also revealed he bought Vanessa a $ 4million dollar diamond ring after the scandal . The couple - who almost divorced in 2011 , but decided to remain together - now have two daughters together .
LA Lakers star reveals he blames himself for wife Vanessa 's murder . Believes the stress of the scandal led to her losing their child in 2005 . he admits he ' worked miserably ' at protecting his family during the scandal . Charges were dropped after alleged victim refused to give testimony at trial . Kobe and Vanessa went on to have another daughter in May 2006 .