( CNN ) -- A month after Major League Baseball suspended him for violating its drug policy , Ryan Braun says he 's coming clean . The 29-year-old Milwaukee Brewers outfielder apologized in a statement released Thursday , saying he used a `` cream and a lozenge '' banned by the league . Braun did not specify which drug he used , but his suspension came after baseball 's investigation into Biogenesis , the now-defunct Florida clinic accused of providing performance-enhancing drugs to baseball players . `` I have no one to blame but myself , '' Braun wrote . `` I know that over the last year and a half I made some serious mistakes , both in the information I failed to share during my arbitration hearing and the comments I made to the press afterwards . I have disappointed the people closest to me -- the ones who fought for me because they truly believed me all along . I kept the truth from everyone . For a long time , I was in denial and convinced myself that I had not done anything wrong . '' This is n't the first time the 2011 National League MVP and five-time All-Star has said he 's sorry and admitted wrongdoing . But his statement Thursday gave new details about what he did -- and why he did it . It all started when he was dealing with a `` nagging injury '' during the 2011 season , Braun said . `` I turned to products for a short period of time that I should n't have used . The products were a cream and a lozenge which I was told could help expedite my rehabilitation , '' he said . `` It was a huge mistake for which I am deeply ashamed and I compounded the situation by not admitting my mistakes immediately . '' An ESPN report in June named Braun as one of more than a dozen players facing suspension due to a scandal involving performance-enhancing drugs . Last month , MLB Commission Bud Selig announced that Braun had been suspended without pay for the rest of the 2013 season . League and union officials praised him for taking responsibility for his actions . At the time , Braun apologized in a statement , saying `` I am not perfect . '' Braun was the 2007 National League Rookie of the Year and by the 2011 season , he was considered the cornerstone of the Brewers franchise . He signed a five-year , $ 105 million contract extension and went on to help lead the Brewers to the playoffs for the only the fourth time in team history . His performance earned him that year 's National League MVP award . Shortly after his amazing season , however , a urine sample taken during the playoffs tested positive for an elevated level of testosterone . Faced with a 50-game suspension , Braun appealed the decision , and an arbitrator overturned the suspension on what some , including the chief executive of the U.S. Anti-Doping Agency , said was a technicality . Braun said Thursday that feelings of anger and self-righteousness fueled his public comments after the arbitrator 's decision in February 2012 . At the time , he criticized the process , described himself as a victim , claimed that he was innocent and stressed that truth was on his side . `` I felt wronged and attacked , but looking back now , I was the one who was wrong , '' Braun said Thursday . `` I am beyond embarrassed that I said what I thought I needed to say to defend my clouded vision of reality . I am just starting the process of trying to understand why I responded the way I did , which I continue to regret . There is no excuse for any of this . '' CNN 's David Close contributed to this report .
Ryan Braun gives details about what he did -- and why . The outfielder says it started as he dealt with a `` nagging injury '' Braun : `` I kept the truth from everyone . For a long time , I was in denial '' Braun was suspended last month for violating MLB 's drug policy .