Wigan Warriors forward Ben Flower admitted that he regrets his attack on Lance Hohaia in the Super League Grand Final every day . The 27-year-old is coming to the end of a six-month ban and is preparing to return to rugby league , but he is mentally scarred by the events at Old Trafford in October . In front of over 75,000 spectators in Manchester , Flower shocked the world when he landed punches on Hohaia during the final between Wigan and St Helens . Ben Flower said that he regrets every day his attack on Lance Hohaia in the Super League Grand Final . Flower landed a sickening blow on Hohaia in front of 75,000 people at Old Trafford and with the world watching . The sickening moment was seen worldwide and went viral on the internet , leading to Flower receiving abuse and death threats . But Flower promised that he was a changed man and wants to come back and make a positive impact on the pitch when he returns , which could be this week against Warrington . He told the Guardian : ' I regret it every day . I was very shocked . It was horrible . ' I hated myself for what I did . It 's brutal and it 's something you do n't do naturally . I 'm not that person . I 've not really watched it since then . Flower was handed a six-month ban for his brutal attack and was the first man to be sent off in the Grand Final . Flower feared he may go to prison , but promised that he is now a changed man after the incident . 'People were talking about the police getting involved which was really worrying me because you can go to prison for what I 'd done . St Helens then put out a statement saying they supported me . It was real nice to know they had my back . 'It 's definitely changed me . It changes the way you look at life . 'What I do next will hopefully define me as a player . I need to come back with a positive role on and off the pitch . '
Ben Flower regrets his attack on Lance Hohaia every day . The Wigan Warriors forward was sent off in 2014 Super League final . Flower landed punches on Hohaia while he was laying on the floor . The 27-year-old is ready for a comeback after a six-month ban .