ðˌoʊ dˈɛvᵻstˌeɪɾᵻd baɪ bˈɪliz dˈɛθ, hˈɑːɹlən ɹᵻflˈɛkts ðæt hiː spˈɛnt hɪz ɛntˈaɪɚ lˈaɪf wˈɪʃɪŋ ðæt hiː kʊd wˈʌn dˈeɪ lˈɛt hɪmsˈɛlf lˈʌv sˈʌmwʌn ˈoʊpənli, ænd wʌz ˈeɪbəl tə fˈaɪnd hˈæpɪnəs, haʊˈɛvɚ bɹˈiːfli, wɪð bˈɪli.
Though devastated by Billy's death, Harlan reflects that he spent his entire life wishing that he could one day let himself love someone openly, and was able to find happiness, however briefly, with Billy.