So, they preached at you? That's not nice...

I would say it's toxic or rather destructive because from my perspective these people were not really cooperating with the Holy Spirit that is drawing you to try out faith again. They are becoming more of an obstacle with them overwhelming you with "you have to...you must...you can't...you should..." blabla.

Don't give up. The church is like a patchwork blanket these days...unfortunately a blanket that is torn here and there. There are many different kinds of Christians, some of them I avoid as well because I know I would have conflict with them because we are so different in opinion.

There are many who would not call you out like that for your intellectual / logical approach to faith. I am the same. I need to think things through.

Read the Bible, visit different churches - these are things you can do. 

If you want to discuss some interpretations of Scripture, I am also happy to do that.