Posts Tagged ‘PTSD’
A Brief Visit from an Old Nemesis
Posted in blog, Blogger, Children, Family, Health, Humor, Kids, Marriage, Motherhood, Parenting, Pregnancy, Uncategorized, tagged blog, blogger, blogging, high risk pregnancy, humor, hyperemesis, Linda Blair, morning sickness, nemesis, Petri Dishes, pregnancy test, PTSD, sickness, stomach flu, unwelcomed visotrs on February 21, 2011| 6 Comments »
Last night I snuggled in and turned on the TV for my Sunday drool fest of watching Bill Paxton in Big Love. About half-way through I found my stomach not feeling so hot. I tried to ignore it and follow the plot, but it got stronger and stronger. Dagnamit! I think I am getting what my two petri dishes had the latter part of the week!
I finished the show and headed upstairs and went to bed. I laid there negotiating with my new visitor, but old nemesis, Linda Blair who was sitting on my bed, that since I had hyperemesis (extreme morning sickness) during both of my pregnancies for a combined 50 plus weeks that I paid my dues of having stomach ailments and that she needs to move along to another house, preferably to the a-hole that cut me off in the rain driving like a jackalope.
She stayed and proceeded to move closer and closer to me. I practiced meditating (that by the way is a total crock and don’t waste your time), breathed through the nausea and prayed that I was not going to be reliving the wonderful Sunday dinner I made that night.
Now she is sitting on top of me, just like she did when I was pregnant! I am sweating, the room is spinning and my stomach is on fire, but I am determined I am not going to toss my cookies. That only pissed her off and now she has somehow managed to reach in and twist my insides and jump up and down on my stomach at the same time. ” Uncle! Uncle!”, I screamed as I sprinted to the bathroom and . . . I don’t need to get that graphic, you all get what just happened.
That whole scenario went on four more times until the around 4 am. Finally Linda Blair lost interests in me and headed off to bother some other petri dish infected house or newly pregnant woman.
I laid there exhausted and a little traumatized that I did this day in and day out 24-hours a day for weeks months on end and one of the pregnancies I was caring for an infant/toddler without help outside of the hubs that had to work everyday and leave me with that wretched Linda Blair, my IV bag and my infant who turned into a toddler while I was still going through it. I found out this morning, the hubs laid there traumatized reliving our hell in his head too.
This morning when I woke up I had that same stomach flu nausea feeling that set the pace for each and every waking minute of my day while incubating my two kids. With two miscarriages with no symptoms of being pregnant, I knew both times with my two viable pregnancies that they were sticking by how sick I was. I had a moment of confusion and can I say dispair, was I pregnant again? That can’t be, I shut the plant down during the birth of PD2!
Borrowed from blog buddy,Your Personal Super Hero!
I looked at the bottom of my bed and she was not there, Linda Blair that is. Oh, thank God! I am at the tail end of the stomach flu! I got up, got dressed and forced myself down stairs and started my day and even mopped my floors.
I feel pretty crappy and my stomach is pretty unhappy, but hey, I not only survived Linda Blair last night, but I survived her for over a year and half of my life with both pregnancies combined. Nothing could ever be that bad, so Linda Blair may of won last night, but she is not going to win today!
Free 2 Work!
Posted in blog, Blogger, Children, Clothing, Current Events, Fashion, Food, Health, Kids, News, Parenting, Politics, Soapbox, Social Issues, Uncategorized, tagged accountability, blog, blogger, child labor, Free 2 Work, good business pracitice, human trafficking, humanitarian efforts, manufacturing outside of the US, orphanages, overseas manufacturing, prostitution, PTSD, responsibility, slave labor on January 7, 2011| 11 Comments »
I have a good friend that has humanitarian as part of her DNA. She is a child psychologist that focuses on PTSD in children and young adults. She has led teams to Shir Lanka 6 weeks post the devastating tsunami and then did follow-up six months later. She has traveled the world working with oppressed and traumatized people. Recently she headed off to South East Asia to work with orphanages and safe havens for those that are fighting to stay off the radar of human trafficking and sold into sex and other forms of slavery. This developed a passion that she is taking on and doing something about.
Currently she is trying to raise around 40k to build a safe haven for those that have their mark on them to be sold into the sex industry of South East Asia. This is a place where these kids will live, grow up and be educated and protected from those, mostly family members, from being auctioned off for pennies on the dollar to be prostituted out at young as the age of five.
Unfortunately, it does not just stop in the remote parts of the world. It is here in the US in a very serious way. There is a big question of the millions of illegals that are in the this nation, how many are here against their will with death threats to themselves and their families if they do not comply with those that they fell into the hand of for trafficking and slavery. There have been several sting operations that have been successful in my county alone within “massage” parlors and drug houses that is clear evidence that this is happening here on our soil.
It just does not stop there with the US and the world having some responsibility in this issue. Companies that take their business overseas or across the border for a higher profit are not holding up their end of the deal on ensuring a realistic work environment that ensures safety and humane working conditions. They are not holding up their end of the deal to ensure that children are not being born into indentured families and having to work in insane work environments as early as the age of five or seven years of age.
Free 2 Work is an organization that is slowly setting up a resource for consumers to be able to make informed decisions on the products they are chosing to buy and be able to boycott the ones that are not holding up their end of the deal of ensuring safety and humane treatment of the people who make or are a part of the manufacturing of that product. It is graded from A-F on the US standards of manufacturing. Obviously we can’t hold other countries to our standards, we can’t even do that without killing the profits of a company (that why is we send a vast majority overseas or across the border to be manufactured). However, this website seems to be realistic in the fact that an A to a C- rating are companies that we can still do business with. Those lower than that, need to get their act together and stop looking away from crimes on humanity.
They have developed an application for your smart phone where you can scan an item and get a rating, that can help with making informed choices and not being part of enabling companies being able to profit and get away with bad horrifing business practices.
This is something we all should think about; it is our fiduciary responsibility as consumers to think about it. If you knew for a fact that the shirt or sneakers you are wearing were made by a child that was 5 years old or anyone of any age for that matter, working 16-18 hours a day, never seeing the light of day, beaten, on machinery that exposes to radiation and/or no safety guards in place where there are daily amputees and serious injuries would you really want to support a company’s profits and wear that?
Learning about this has changed our household and how we look at products before we buy them. I wanted to get a Leap Frog toy for my child, and I will not now that I know they have a D- rating. I love Carter’s children’s clothing, especially their jammies, but they get an F because they will not respond or communicate their business practices (which means they don’t feel they have a responsibility to be transparent to the consumer providing them their profits).
Free 2 Work is a good starting point on trying to make a difference in how consumers of the world hold companies accountable to just being humane.
http://free2work.org/home
Posted in Blogger, Children, Current Events, Family, Friends, Health, Kids, Marriage, News, Politics, Relationships, Social Issues, Uncategorized, tagged American, DC, Honor, Memorials, Military, patriotic, Post Traumatic Stress, PTSD, soilder, The Wall, Veitnam Vets, Veteran's Day, Vietnam Veteran, Vietnam Veteran Wall Memorial, Vietnam War, Wars on November 10, 2010| 17 Comments »
﻿Today is Veteran’s Day and since I am a daughter of a Vietnam Vet, I sit and really think about this day and what we are truly observing. I will never fully understand what the Veterans of this nation from any war has gone through and are currently going through, but I have a compassion and honor towards each and every one of them. The below post is a piece of something I have been working on for over ten years. It is the birth of a book.
I remember walking in the cold and rain past the Korean War Memorial and its frozen majestic metal soldiers. The dogwoods were in bloom and blossoms were falling with the steady sprinkle of the rain. I caught one in mid-air before it could reach its final resting place; it was delicate and perfect. I placed it behind my ear under my hood and continued on my journey. My purpose was to pay respects to a man who had fought for this country beside my father.
As I made my way up the sidewalk I saw a black structure ahead. It seemed to grow in size as I drew closer, and suddenly I was enveloped in an ocean of black stone walls with numberless engravings. I was unprepared for this; I had heard that The Wall was big, but that was a gross understatement. I had no idea where to start among the many flags, flowers, family pictures, unopened letters, and poems left at the base of The Wall. Then I noticed a kiosk a few feet away where there were directories. I flipped through one as if I were trying to look up the local pizza parlor. Eventually, I found the name and location code. I was on a mission, still very detached from what I was doing; it was exactly like solving a puzzle.
As I walked down the sloping sidewalk, the wall seemed to grow even larger and the engravings became recognizable as individual names. My heart beat faster; I felt hot and sweaty beneath my raincoat and my throat tightened. I was beginning to understand that this was not just one of the many tourist attractions of the Nation’s Capitol, but was instead a horrifying reminder amidst this beautiful setting of manicured dogwood parks, majestic granite, and immaculate walkways; a perfectly evanescent of Viet-Nam.
I could not grasp the sheer number of names on that Wall. It seemed to go on forever, with each name representing a family, a wife, a lover, a friend, a son, an enemy never reconciled with… but most of all a life never truly lived unto its fullest. How did this happen? How did it get so far out of hand? Those were the questions that ran through my mind as I finally found the name for which I was searching. It was too high for me to reach; I found a step stool provided by the groundskeepers, pulled out a pencil and a scrap of paper and began taking an impression (never suspecting that when this mere scrap of paper, when presented to my father, would cause him to fall on his knees and weep as no one had ever seen before).
As I rubbed, I began thinking about his family and those who survived him. How they must have felt so robbed and betrayed by death, the Government, and the senseless war he fought. He was very young — in his prime — and it never should have happened. It never should have happened to any of them.
I left the dogwood blossom that I had caught earlier on the ground just beneath his name, and an undeniable truth suddenly occurred to me: The Wall is not big enough… it is missing numberless names, and for countless reasons! Most particularly, the names of the survivors with whom these men and women took their last breaths. My father is one such survivor. The guilt that he bears on that account is just another death sentence awaiting execution at any time. He is only the least bit better off than those veterans who have lost their minds, their self-respect, and who sit outside the local grocery store hoping for a handout. Likewise the veterans who didn’t make it even a decade past the war, whether death was by their own hand, or drugs, or alcohol, or violence. And you must include the veterans who cannot cope without substance abuse or some toxic relationship to dull their pain. Their widows, their ex-wives, their estranged family members, their forgotten high school classmates, their neglected children who forfeited childhood because their fathers lost all enthusiasm, compassion, understanding, and their once responsible outlook on life… they must be included in the list of casualties.
At that moment, standing in the rain and looking at my reflection in The Wall, the child of a Vietnam veteran, I knew that this Wall did not only memorialize the tragedies of those engraved upon it. I realized that this Wall was only prologue to another war that will be fought for generations yet to come.