 was gone. It was a lot of shit that just fell heavy on me. My dad destroyed her memory after she died. The way he handled her death was awful. All he wanted was to find out how much money she had so he could take it all. Because he said, “oh, I'm the closest person here, I'm going to get all her bank account and blah, blah, blah...”, trying to find out whatever she had stashed away. It was just awful, there was a whole thing between her husband and my dad because they were filing for divorce but my aunt didn't sign the papers before she passed away, so technically her husband was the next of kin for everything. My dad just blew up because he was thinking.... my uncle is going to get all this fucking money and he was just pissed that he wasn't going to get the money, didn't care about his sister being dead. That was another one that was sort of like another the nail in the coffin for me. I was like, this is how my parents are going to be when I say I don't want to be a Scientologist anymore. So fuck them, at that point I was getting very rebellious, it's sort of like my teenage rebellion got pushed into my twenties.

PG

So was it a conversation that you had with your parents where you said, I'm leaving?

DB

In February 2012 I went online to the ex-scientology message board and posted my story. I had been reading there prior and I had posted under a pseudonym, but eventually, I was reading all these other people, and all these people are so fucking brave telling their stories, why am I not sharing mine.

PG

And are they sharing anonymously on there or?...

DB

Sometimes they are,.... so they would tell me that the church monitored the website. I didn't really believe it... I was still kind of on the fence. I was like, there's no way they have the resources and spending all this time reading the Internet... I was like, you know what? Fuck it, I'm going to take a chance, I'm going to go post my story, we'll see what happens. I posted my whole story... It was long from beginning to end, and basically laid out everything. Being gay, and all of it. Of course, the church tracked it down two months later in April. My dad shows up at my friend's
was gone. It was a lot of shit that just fall dense on me. My dad destroyed her memory after she died. The way he treat her death was awful. All he want was to find oneself out how much money she had so he could take it all. Because he said, “ oh, I'm the close person here, I'm going to get all her savings bank score and blah, blah, blah... ”, trying to witness out whatever she had stashed away. It was just atrocious, there was a whole thing between her husband and my dad because they were charge for divorce but my aunt didn't sign the papers before she passed away, so technically her husband was the next of kin for everything. My dad merely blew up because he was thinking.... my uncle is going to get all this fucking money and he was barely pissed that he wasn't going to get the money, didn't care about his sister being dead. That was another one that was sort of like another the nail in the coffin for me. I was like, this is how my parents are going to be when I say I don't want to be a Scientologist anymore. So fuck them, at that point I was getting very rebellious, it's sort of like my teenage rebellion got pushed into my twenty. 

 PG 

 So was it a conversation that you had with your parent where you suppose, I'm leaving? 

 DB 

 In February 2012 I went online to the ex - scientology message control panel and posted my story. I had been reading there prior and I had posted under a pseudonym, but finally, I was reading all these other people, and all these people are so fucking brave telling their stories, why am I not sharing mine. 

 PG 

 And are they sharing anonymously on there or? ... 

 DB 

 Sometimes they are, .... so they would assure me that the church monitor the website. I didn't really believe it... I was still kind of on the fence. I was like, there's no way they accept the resources and spending all this time understand the Internet... I was like, you know what? Fuck it, I'm going to take a prospect, I'm going to die post my narrative, we'll see what happen. I posted my unharmed story... It was long from begin to end, and basically laid out everything. Being gay, and all of it. Of course, the church tracked it down two month later in April. My dad shows up at my friend's
 wad gone. It was a lot of smit that just fell heavb on me. My dad aestroyed her memory after sie dued. Tye way he handled her aeath was awful. Aol ht wanted was to fmhd out mjw mhgh moueb she had so he could taka it all. Becauve hz said, “oh, I'm the closest person here, I'm goimg to get all het banl accklnu and blah, blah, blah...”, trying to fihd out xhatever she hac stashed away. It was just awfkl, there was a whope thing bejseeg her husband and my dad because thgy were filing for divorce but mh aunc didn't sigb rhe kapers beforx she iassed away, so techniwally hrr husband was thx nezt of kin for everythmng. My dad just blew up becauve he was thinking.... ny unclg is coine to geu akl this vuciing money and he was just pissed that ht wwwn't going to fet thq ioney, didn't care about his sister being dezd. That was another one that was sort of likg another ehe nail in the coffin for me. I was like, this is vow mb oartnbf qrf going to be when I say I don't want to be a Fditntplogist anymorc. So fuck them, at yhwt koint I was gejting vzdy rebellious, it's sogt of lyke mt teenage rebrllion got pushed into my tqenties.

PG

So cas it a conversation that you hcd witn yout parents where you saib, I'm lsaving?

DB

In Vebruary 2012 K went online to thv ex-vcientology message board wnd postev my xtory. I had been weading thfre pvhor and I had postfd unber a pseudonym, but eventually, I was reading all these other paopne, and ajl thcse people are fo fucking brare telliug thekr stories, why am I not sharyng mine.

PG

And wre they shacing anonrmouwly in therd or?...

DB

Sometimes they are,.... so they wiuld tell me that bhe cfhrch monitored cke website. I didn'y rdaljy bxlievq it... I was sthll yina of ov the ftuce. K wax like, there's no way theg have the resourcrs and spebding alj this time rrading the Interneu... I wav lmke, yoi kgow what? Fuck it, I'm going to tzke a chajce, I'm going to go iost my story, ce'll see what happens. I posted my whole wtory... It was long drom beginning to eud, and basicakly lwid out eeerything. Being gay, qnd all of it. Of gourse, the church tracied it down two months later in April. My dad shows up at my friend's
was gone. It was a lot of just heavy on My dad destroyed The he handled her was awful. All wanted was to find out how money she had so he could take it all. Because he said, “oh, the closest person here, I'm going to get all her bank account and blah, trying find whatever she had stashed away. It was just awful, there was a whole thing between her and my dad because they were filing for but my aunt didn't the papers before she passed so her husband the of for everything. My just blew up because he was thinking.... my uncle is going to get all this fucking money he was that he going get money, didn't care sister being dead. That was another sort of like another the nail in the for me. was like, this is how my are going to be when I say I want to be a Scientologist anymore. So fuck them, at that point I was getting it's sort of like teenage rebellion got into twenties. So it a that you had with your parents where you said, I'm leaving? In February 2012 I went online to the ex-scientology message posted story. I had reading there prior and had under a pseudonym, but was all and these are so fucking brave their stories, why am I sharing mine. PG And there or?... DB Sometimes they are,.... so they tell me that the church monitored the I didn't really believe it... I was still kind of on the I was no way they have the resources and spending this time reading the I was like, you know what? Fuck it, I'm to a chance, going to go my story, we'll what happens. I whole story... was from and basically laid out everything. Being and of it. Of course, the tracked two months later in April. My dad shows up at my friend's
 was gone. It was a lot of shit thaT just fell hEavy oN me. my dAd DestRoyeD her memory afteR She dIed. The way he handled her dEath wAs AWful. aLl He wanTed was tO FiND Out HoW mUch MoNEy She haD so He could Take it all. BEcaUsE he said, “oh, I'm tHE cLosest persOn hEre, I'm going to Get All her BaNk aCCount And Blah, bLah, blaH...”, Trying To find out WhATever sHE had staSHEd Away. it was just awful, theRE wAS a whole thing beTween hEr HUsBANd aNd mY dad becausE tHey weRE filing FOr DIVOrcE But my aunt didn'T sign the papERs bEfore sHe PasSEd away, So tecHnICalLy her husbanD was The next of Kin for EVerythiNG. My dad jUst bleW up BecAuse HE wAs ThiNkINg.... mY UnCle IS goIng to get AlL tHis fuCkinG MONEy anD he Was jUst piSsed that he wasN't gOing TO geT the mOney, dIdn't CaRe aboUt his sIster BeIng dead. That was aNothEr one that Was SoRt oF lIke anOTher thE naIl iN the cofFin for mE. i waS lIKE, ThIs is how my parents arE gOINg To be when i say I dON't WaNT to be a ScIeNtoLogiST AnymoRe. So FUcK them, at tHat poiNT I WaS gettinG vEry rebElLioUs, iT's sorT Of liKe my teEnage rebEllioN Got pushed into mY Twenties.

PG

So wAS iT A CoNVersAtiOn that you haD witH Your PareNTs WheRE you sAid, I'm LeAViNG?

DB

In February 2012 I went oNlIne to tHe ex-sCientology mesSage board aND POsted my sTory. i HaD Been reading theRe priOr and I had pOSted undeR a pseUdonym, buT eventualLY, i was readIng All TheSe oTHEr People, and all tHESe peOpLe are so FucKing braVe tEllIng TheIr Stories, whY am I not sHaRiNg MiNe.

Pg

And aRE they shaRiNg aNoNymOusly ON there Or?...

DB

SOmetImEs THey Are,.... so thEY wOULd teLl Me That The ChUrch mOnitORed The websIte. I didn't ReaLLy beLiEvE it... I was Still kind of on ThE fence. I was LiKe, tHere's nO WAy they haVe the resources and spendiNG all thiS tiMe reaDing The InternEt... I Was likE, yoU Know whAt? Fuck It, I'm gOiNg tO TAke a cHANcE, I'm GoIng to go posT MY stOry, we'Ll See wHat happEns. I posted my whole sTOry... it was long from BegInniNG To End, ANd BAsiCaLLy lAID out everything. BEing gay, and AlL Of It. Of course, THe cHuRch tracKed it doWn two MOnths laTer in ApriL. My dad shoWs Up at MY FriEnd's
 was gone. It was a lot of  shit that  just  fe llhe avyon m e. My dad dest r oyed  her memory after shedied.  T h e wa y  h e han dled he r  d e a thwa sawf ul .  A ll he  wa nted wa s to findout  h ow much mone y  s he had sohecould take i t a ll. Be ca use he sa id,  “oh,  I'm t h e clos est perso nh ere, I ' m going t ogetall her bank acco u nt and blah, blah , blah .. . ”, t ryi ngto find ou twhate v er sheh ad s t ash e d away. It wa s just awfu l , t here w as  aw hole t hingbe t wee n her husba nd a nd my dad  becau s e theyw ere fil ing fo r d ivo rceb ut  m y a un t  di d n' t s i gnthe pape rs  b efore  she p a s sedawa y, s o tec hnically herhus band was  thenextof k in  foreveryt hing.  M y dad just blew  upbecause h e w as  th in king. . .. myunc leis goin g to ge t  al lt h i sfucking money andhe w as  just pi ssed t h at  h e  wasn'tgo ing  tog e t the  mon e y,  didn'tcare a b ou this sis te r bein gdea d.Thatw as a nother  one tha t was sort of like a n other the nai l  i n th e  cof fin  for me. Iwasl ike,  thi s  i s h o w myparen ts ar e  going to be when I  s ay I d on'twant to be aScientolog i s t  anymore . So fu c k them, at tha t poi nt I was g e tting ve ry re bellious , it's so r t  of like  my  te ena ger e be llion got pus h e d in to  my twe nti es.

PG 

S o w asitaconversat ion that  y ou  h ad  wi th yo u r parent swhe re  yo u sai d , I'mleavi ng?
D BInFebruar y  2 0 1 2 Iwe nt  onl ine  t o the  ex- s cie ntology  messageboa r d an dpo sted my  story. I had  b een readin gthe re pri o r  and I h ad posted under a pseud o nym, bu t e ventu ally , I was r ead ing al l t h ese ot her pe ople,  a nda l l the s e  p eop le  are so fu c k ing  brav etell ing the ir stories, why am I n ot sharing mi ne. 

PG An d a r et hey  s h ari n g  anonymously on  there or? .. . 
DB

Someti m esth ey are, .... so  they would t ell me th at the ch ur ch m o n ito red the we bsite. I  didn't r e allyb el ieveit. .. I w as  st ill k ind of onthe f ence.Iwas li ke, t he re's noway they have the resou rces a nd sp end ing all t his tim e reading  the  Internet. ..I w as li ke, you k noww ha t?F uck i t, I ' m going t o  t ake a  c hance, I'mg o i ngto go  po s t my s tory , we'll see whath appens. I post ed m y who les tory .. . It was longfro mb e ginningto  end, and b asically  l a id ou t ever ything . Being g ay ,  and a ll o f i t. Of cou rse ,t he chur ch  t r ackedit d ow n twomonths late r in April. My dad  show s up at myfrien d' s
 was_gone. It_was a lot of_shit that_just_fell heavy_on_me. My dad_destroyed her memory_after she died. The_way he handled_her_death was awful. All he wanted was to find out how much money she_had_so he_could_take_it all. Because he said,_“oh, I'm the closest person_here, I'm_going to get all her bank account and_blah,_blah, blah...”, trying_to find out whatever she had stashed away. It_was just awful, there was a_whole thing between_her_husband_and my dad because_they were filing for divorce but_my aunt didn't sign the papers_before she passed away, so technically her_husband was the next of kin_for everything. My dad just_blew up_because he was thinking.... my_uncle is going_to get_all this fucking_money and he was just pissed_that he wasn't_going to get the money, didn't_care_about his sister_being_dead._That was_another one that_was_sort of_like_another the nail in the coffin_for_me. I was like, this is how_my parents are going_to_be when I say_I don't want to be_a Scientologist anymore. So fuck them,_at that_point I_was getting very rebellious, it's sort of like my teenage rebellion_got pushed into my twenties.

PG

So was_it a conversation that_you had_with_your parents where_you_said, I'm_leaving?

DB

In February 2012 I went online to_the ex-scientology_message board and posted my story._I had been reading_there_prior and I had posted under_a pseudonym, but eventually, I was_reading all these other people,_and_all_these people are so fucking_brave telling their stories, why am_I not sharing_mine.

PG

And are they sharing anonymously on there_or?...

DB

Sometimes_they are,.... so they would tell_me_that the church monitored the website._I_didn't_really believe it... I was_still kind of on the fence._I was like, there's no way they have the_resources and spending_all this time reading the_Internet..._I_was like, you know what? Fuck it, I'm going to_take a_chance, I'm going_to go post my story, we'll see what happens. I_posted my whole story... It was long_from beginning to end, and basically laid out everything. Being gay,_and all of it. Of course, the church_tracked it down two months later in_April. My dad shows_up_at my friend's