 I could quit my startup, tell my partner and
employees to go fuck themselves. The good days, are good, I guess I can
appreciate them more after this, they got some extra flavour. I can be a nice
person to work, or live with.

It's hard to talk. Even when I am able to tell someone "this day sucks" or "I
am heavily depressed", I can't tell why, I don't know. Some people are really
uncomfortable when you almost cry for no reason in front them. I don't really
blame them, or their poor comments, they try, some are afraid that's ok.

"That's ok", that's valid thing from them and for me. It's a good mantra. We
usually slam more shit over the shit, and we bang our heads against the wall
"Why am I like that?"... Leave it be! you are already feeling like shit, let
yourself some air.

And I guess you wrote this post in a "down". The few words that helped for me
were "that's ok" because all the rest seemed impossible.

I have been very bad for months, there were one or two days in the week where
it was bearable / I was feeling good. Just hiding it from coworkers was a
challenge, working from home helped to hide it, but not to get better.

There are a few things I can recommend because that worked for me, but it's
easier to work on them on the good days.

1\. Stop blaming yourself. Really, you are ok, but I will extend on that
later. When you feel not able to do anything, just don't do anything. You will
survive. You feel time craving, do a list, pick one and only one thing to do.
Related cool music that inspired me
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOS00ttAblQ](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOS00ttAblQ)
2\. Meditation. It feels like the magic hippie trick, I tried a few times
without effect. I paid a subscription in an app to motivate myself. I was like
"this helps some people I need to try more, because everything else failed". I
took me two weeks of practice, everyday, to feel unden
I could quit my startup, tell my partner and 
 employee to die fuck themselves. The good day, are estimable, I guess I can 
 appreciate them more after this, they get some extra flavour. I can be a decent 
 person to work, or live with. 

 It's intemperate to talk. Even when I am able to tell someone " this sidereal day sucks " or " I 
 am heavily depressed ", I can't tell why, I don't know. Some people are really 
 uncomfortable when you about cry for no reason in front them. I don't actually 
 blame them, or their poor comments, they try on, some are afraid that's ok. 

 " That's all right ", that's valid thing from them and for me. It's a adept mantra. We 
 usually slam more shit over the bullshit, and we bang our heads against the wall 
 " Why am I like that? "... Leave it be! you are already feeling like asshole, permit 
 yourself some air. 

 And I guess you wrote this post in a " down ". The few words that helped for me 
 were " that's all right " because all the rest seem impossible. 

 I have been very bad for months, there were one or two day in the week where 
 it was bearable / I was feeling good. barely hiding it from coworkers was a 
 challenge, working from home helped to shroud it, but not to get better. 

 There are a few things I can recommend because that worked for me, but it's 
 easy to work on them on the good days. 

 1\. Stop blaming yourself. Really, you are all right, but I will prolong on that 
 later. When you feel not able to do anything, barely don't do anything. You will 
 survive. You feel meter craving, do a list, pick one and only one matter to do. 
 Related cool music that inspired me 
 [ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOS00ttAblQ](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOS00ttAblQ) 
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"thIs helpS SOme peoplE I need to try more, because eVErythinG elSe faiLed". I
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pers onto work, orliv e with .
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am he a vily depressed ", I c an ' tt e llwhy , I don'tkn ow. S o me peop l ea r e  re a lly
uncomfort able when y o u a lmostcr y f o r no r eason  i n  fr ont them. I  don 't really 
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us ually  s lam more shit o verthe shit,  an dweba ng ou r  heads  ag ain st thewall
"W h y a mI l ik e that?"... Leaveit b e!  you are  alrea d yfe e ling lik eshi t, l e t 
your self so me air.
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ea si er towork on th e m  onth egood  da ys .

1\ . St o p b lamingyourself.  Re a lly,  y ou  are ok , but I willex tend on th at 
la ter. W h e n you fe el not able to do anyth i ng, jus t d on'tdo a nything.You  willsur v ive. Y ou fee l tim ecra v i ng, d o alis t,  pick onea n d o nly o ne  thi ng to d o.
Related cool mu s icthat inspired  me 
[ht t p s: //w w w. y out ub e .co m / watch?v=oOS00tt AblQ](http s: / /w ww.youtube . com /w atch?v= oOS00tt AblQ) 2\. Med itation.It feelsli ke t h e  ma gic hippie  trick,I tried a few t i me s
wit hou t effe ct . I  paid  a sub s cri ption  in an  a pp tomotiv at e myself . I was like
"this help s some  peop leI need to  tr y  mo re, becau se e verythingels e f ailed ".I 
took  met wo  we e ks of  pra c tice, eve r yd ay, t ofeel unden
 I_could quit_my startup, tell my_partner and
employees_to_go fuck_themselves._The good days,_are good, I_guess I can
appreciate them_more after this,_they_got some extra flavour. I can be a nice
person to work, or live with.

It's_hard_to talk._Even_when_I am able to tell_someone "this day sucks" or_"I
am heavily_depressed", I can't tell why, I don't know._Some_people are really
uncomfortable_when you almost cry for no reason in front_them. I don't really
blame them, or_their poor comments,_they_try,_some are afraid that's_ok.

"That's ok", that's valid thing from_them and for me. It's a_good mantra. We
usually slam more shit over_the shit, and we bang our_heads against the wall
"Why am_I like_that?"... Leave it be! you_are already feeling_like shit,_let
yourself some air.

And_I guess you wrote this post_in a "down"._The few words that helped for_me
were_"that's ok" because_all_the_rest seemed_impossible.

I have been_very_bad for_months,_there were one or two days_in_the week where
it was bearable / I_was feeling good. Just_hiding_it from coworkers was_a
challenge, working from home helped_to hide it, but not to_get better.

There_are a_few things I can recommend because that worked for me, but_it's
easier to work on them on_the good days.

1\. Stop_blaming yourself._Really,_you are ok,_but_I will_extend on that
later. When you feel not_able to_do anything, just don't do anything._You will
survive. You feel_time_craving, do a list, pick one_and only one thing to do.
Related_cool music that inspired me
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOS00ttAblQ](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOS00ttAblQ)
2\._Meditation._It_feels like the magic hippie_trick, I tried a few times
without_effect. I paid_a subscription in an app to motivate_myself._I was like
"this helps some people_I_need to try more, because everything_else_failed"._I
took me two weeks of_practice, everyday, to feel unden