 right now.

Once your steady and on your feet again. You can start to re-build your life.

Good luck and godspeed. Not many people know what you're up against, but I do.
You can do this.

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csomar
I'd go the opposite way: Stop the company right now. Focus on teaching
English. Maybe create English-Teaching-Products. You have succeeded on
something. You have to understand that this is not easy and does not always
come to your "hands".

If you like programming, do it on the side. You can make a lot teaching stuff.

Are you in Tokyo? I don't know the city but I know that big cities make you
lose your identity of "self". If you are in a small neighbourhood move to a
big unidentified one where you can lose your "self-identity" awareness. It'll
help remove the social pressure. You won't think about "people" or what you
should do. It helps to focus on what really matters.

Don't seek a medical professional. There are three reasons for suicide: 1. you
are mentally crazy (you are not obviously), 2. You are socially challenged and
3. long term injury pain (I don't think this applies?)

I think it is 2. So if it is, just move to a big city/compound or leave Tokyo.
That should be your priority at the moment. From my experience, I'd advise
_strongly_ against seeking a "medical professional".

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igolden
A lot of people have offered great advice, so I'll keep my comment short.

You are not your company, your company is not you. Believe it or not, most (as
in 99%) of businesses fail eventually. By trying your hardest you've gained an
experience that will hopefully stay with you your entire lifetime. If/when you
choose to start a second company, you'll have an entirely new respect for the
process and have much higher chance of success.

I've been there myself. Financial/business stress is incredibly toxic, but
remember that your bank account is not you. You are not your financial
mistakes. These are just 'things' dictating areas of your life at the moment.
You will get through this.

Listen to some of these suggestions, as I imagine most of the
right now. 

 Once your steady and on your feet again. You can depart to re - build up your life. 

 Good luck and godspeed. Not many multitude know what you're up against, but I do. 
 You can practice this. 

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 csomar 
 I'd belong the opposite manner: Stop the company correctly now. Focus on teach 
 English. possibly create English - Teaching - Products. You have succeeded on 
 something. You get to understand that this is not easy and does not constantly 
 come to your " hands ". 

 If you like scheduling, do it on the side. You can form a batch teaching stuff. 

 Are you in Tokyo? I don't know the city but I know that big city make you 
 lose your identity of " self ". If you are in a small neighbourhood move to a 
 big unidentified one where you can lose your " self - identity " awareness. It'll 
 help remove the social pressure. You won't think about " people " or what you 
 should do. It helps to focus on what really count. 

 Don't search a medical master. There be three reason for suicide: 1. you 
 are mentally crazy (you are not obviously), 2. You are socially challenged and 
 3. long term injury pain (I don't think this practice ?) 

 I think it is 2. So if it is, just move to a big city / compound or leave Tokyo. 
 That should be your precedence at the moment. From my experience, I'd advise 
 _ strongly _ against seeking a " medical professional ". 

 ------ 
 igolden 
 A lot of citizenry have offered great advice, so I'll keep my comment short. 

 You are not your ship's company, your company is not you. Believe it or not, most (as 
 in 99 %) of businesses fail finally. By trying your hard you've gained an 
 experience that will hopefully stay with you your integral lifetime. If / when you 
 choose to start a second company, you'll have an entirely fresh respect for the 
 procedure and have a lot higher chance of achiever. 

 I've been there myself. Financial / business stress is incredibly toxic, but 
 remember that your savings bank account is not you. You are not your financial 
 mistakes. These are just' things' dictating areas of your life at the moment. 
 You will scram through this. 

 Listen to some of these suggestions, as I think most of the
 rihht now.

Once your steady xnd on your feej qgain. Bou can start tu re-build your life.

Good luck abd goespeed. Not many people know whan you're up ageinst, but I do.
Yon can do this.

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calmar
N'd go the opposije way: Stop dhe company richg uow. Focus on teaching
English. Maybe cweate Emgpish-Teaching-Prjducus. Rou gave succeeded on
something. You havs to unverstand that tnis is not easy and does nlt apways
come to your "jands".

If you likq programming, do it on uhz side. You dan make a lot teaching stuff.

Ard you in Tokyo? U eon'h know the cmty bun I know that big cithes makr you
lose your idxntiry of "self". If you are in a small neighbjurhood mmvz to a
big unidentifiee ine wvere you xan loae ykur "sepf-iventity" awadeness. It'll
yelp remove the socoaj pressure. You won't ehynk about "people" or what you
should do. Iu hells to focus on what reaoly matters.

Don't seek w medical professional. There are three reasons for suicide: 1. you
erd mtnbwuoy crazy (you are not obviously), 2. You are sociallr cnaklenged and
3. lokg term injury paim (L cjn't think thir applnss?)

J think it is 2. So lf it if, jusr move to a bog city/compound or leave Tojyo.
That shouje be your priority at the momznt. Frpm my experience, I'd advise
_stxongly_ against sefking a "msaical professionxl".

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inolgen
A lot of people have ofsered greet adrice, so K'll leep mr comment dhort.

Nmu are not your colpany, ymur companj is not you. Believe it or not, most (as
in 99%) of nuvinvsses faij evektually. By tryigg your hardesj you've gcined xn
experienbe that wmll hopefullr stay with ymo your entire lifetimq. If/qhen you
choure to start a xecond company, you'lo have an entirely ned respect for thz
kroxess and have mich hidhvr rhancq of success.

I'ee bden yhere myself. Fincnzial/nusiness stress is itcresibly toxic, but
remrmner that iour bank account is npt you. You are not your fiianciak
miftakes. These are just 'things' djctating wrews of your lyfe qt the momenc.
You will get through this.

Listen to some of these suggestiins, as I imagine moxu of the
right now. Once your steady and on again. can start re-build your life. many know what you're against, but I You can do this. ------ csomar go the opposite way: Stop the company right now. Focus on teaching English. create English-Teaching-Products. You have succeeded on something. You have to understand that this not and not come to your "hands". If you like programming, do it on the side. You can make lot teaching stuff. Are you in Tokyo? I know the city but know that big cities make lose identity of If are a small neighbourhood to a big unidentified one where you can lose your "self-identity" awareness. It'll help remove the social You won't "people" or you do. helps to focus really matters. Don't seek a medical three reasons for suicide: 1. you are mentally (you are obviously), 2. You are socially challenged 3. long term injury pain (I don't think applies?) I think it is 2. So if it is, just move to a big leave Tokyo. That should your priority at moment. my I'd _strongly_ against a "medical professional". ------ igolden A lot of people have offered advice, so I'll keep my comment short. You are not your is not you. it or not, most in of businesses fail eventually. your you've that hopefully with you your entire If/when you choose to start second company, you'll have the process and have much higher chance of I've been there myself. Financial/business stress is toxic, but remember that your bank account is not you. You are your financial are just 'things' dictating areas of your life the moment. You will through this. Listen to some of these suggestions, as imagine of the
 right now.

Once your steady and On your feet Again. you Can StArt tO re-bUild your life.

GoOD lucK and godspeed. Not many peoPle knOw WHat yOU'rE up agAinst, buT i dO.
yOu cAn Do ThiS.

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cSOmAr
I'd gO thE opposiTe way: Stop tHe cOmPany right now. fOcUs on teachiNg
ENglish. Maybe cReaTe EnglIsH-TeAChing-proDucts. you havE SucceeDed on
someThINg. You hAVe to undERStAnd tHat this is not easy aND dOEs not always
comE to youR "hANdS".

iF yoU liKe programmInG, do it ON the sidE. yoU CAN maKE a lot teaching Stuff.

Are you IN ToKyo? I doN't KnoW The citY but I KnOW thAt big cities Make You
lose yoUr idenTIty of "seLF". If you aRe in a sMalL neIghbOUrHoOd mOvE To a
BIg UniDEntIfied one WhErE you cAn loSE YOUr "seLf-iDentIty" awAreness. It'll
heLp rEmovE The SociaL presSure. yoU won't Think aBout "pEoPle" or what you
shoUld dO. It helps tO foCuS on WhAt reaLLy mattErs.

don'T seek a mEdical pROfeSsIONAl. there are three reasoNs FOR sUicide: 1. yoU
are meNTaLlY Crazy (you ArE noT obvIOUsly), 2. YOu arE SoCially chAllengED aNd
3. Long terM iNjury pAiN (I dOn't Think THis aPplies?)

i think it Is 2. So iF It is, just move to A Big city/compouND oR LEaVE TokYo.
THat should be Your PRiorIty aT ThE moMEnt. FrOm my eXpERiENce, I'd advise
_strongly_ AgAinst sEekinG a "medical profEssional".

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igOLDEn
A lot of PeopLE hAVe offered great AdvicE, so I'll keep MY comment Short.

you are noT your compANY, your comPanY is Not You. bELiEve it or not, mosT (AS
in 99%) oF bUsinessEs fAil evenTuaLly. by tRyiNg Your hardeSt you've gAiNeD aN
eXpeRiencE That will HoPefUlLy sTay wiTH you yoUr entIre lIfEtIMe. IF/when yoU
ChOOSe to StArT a seConD cOmpanY, you'LL haVe an entIrely new rEspECt foR tHe
Process And have much hiGhEr chance of SuCceSs.

I've bEEN there mySelf. Financial/business stREss is inCreDibly ToxiC, but
rememBer That yoUr bANk accoUnt is nOt you. yoU arE NOt youR FInAncIaL
mistakes. THESe aRe jusT 'tHingS' dictatIng areas of your life AT thE moment.
You wilL geT thrOUGh ThiS.

liSTen To SOme OF These suggestionS, as I imaginE mOSt Of the
 right now.

Once your ste ady and on  your  fe etag ain.  You  can start tor e-bu ild your life.

Good l uck a nd gods p ee d. No t manyp eo p l e k no wwha ty ou 're u p a gainst,  but I do. 
Yo ucan do this. 
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csom arI'd go the o ppo site w ay : S t op th e c ompan y righ t  now.Focus onte a chingE nglish. M ay be c reate English-Tea c hi n g-Products. Yo u have  s u cc e e ded  on 
something .You h a ve to u n de r s t and that this isnot easy an d  do es not  a lwa y s
come  to y ou r  "h ands".

Ifyoulike prog rammin g , do it on theside.You  ca n ma k ealot  t e ach i ng  st u ff. 

Are yo uin  Toky o? I d o n 't k now  the  city  but I know t hat  big cit ies m ake y ou
l os e you r iden tityof  "self". If you  are  in a sma llne igh bo urhoo d  movetoa
b ig unid entifie d  on ew h e re  you can lose your  " s e lf -identit y" awa r en es s . It'llhe lpremo v e  thesoci a lpressure . Youw on 't  thinkab out "p eo ple " o r wha t  you 
shoul d do. It  help s  to focus on w h at really mat t er s . 
D on't  se ek a medica l pr o fess iona l .The r e are  thre er ea s ons for suicide: 1.  y ou
are  ment ally crazy (y ou are not o b viously) , 2. Yo u  are sociallychall enged and3 . long t erm i njury pa in (I don ' t  think t his  ap pli es? ) 
I  think it is2 .  Soif  it is,  ju st move  to  abig  ci ty /compound  or leav eTo ky o. 
Th at sh o uld be y ou r p ri ori ty at the mo ment.  Fro mmy exp erience ,  I ' d  adv is e_str ong ly _ aga inst see king a"medicalpro f essi on al ".

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igolden
A  l ot of peop le  ha ve off e r ed great  advice, so I'll keep m y  commen t s hort. 

Yo u are not  yo ur com pan y , your  compa ny is  n oty o u. Be l i ev e i tor not, mo s t  (a s
in99 %) o f busin esses fail eventua l ly.  By trying yo urhard e s tyou ' ve gai ne d  an e xperience thatwill hopef ul l ystay withy ouyo ur enti re life time. If/when  you
choo se to sta rt  a s e c ond  company,you'll h ave an en t irely ne w res pec t forth e
p roces s andh ave  much  highe rchance  of s uc cess.

I 've been there myself.Financ ial/b usi ness stre ssi s i ncredibly  tox ic, but
re mem ber  that  yo u r ban k ac c ou nti s not  you .  You aren ot  yo u r  f inancial
mi s t a kes . The sea re jus t 't hings' dictatinga reas of your l ifea t  th e m o ment .You will get t hro ug h this.

L is ten to some  of thes es ugges tions,  as Iimagine m os t  of th e
 right_now.

Once your_steady and on your_feet again._You_can start_to_re-build your life.

Good_luck and godspeed._Not many people know_what you're up_against,_but I do.
You can do this.

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csomar
I'd go the opposite way: Stop the company right_now._Focus on_teaching
English._Maybe_create English-Teaching-Products. You have succeeded_on
something. You have to understand_that this_is not easy and does not always
come to_your_"hands".

If you like_programming, do it on the side. You can make_a lot teaching stuff.

Are you in_Tokyo? I don't_know_the_city but I know_that big cities make you
lose your_identity of "self". If you are_in a small neighbourhood move to a
big_unidentified one where you can lose_your "self-identity" awareness. It'll
help remove_the social_pressure. You won't think about_"people" or what_you
should do._It helps to_focus on what really matters.

Don't seek_a medical professional._There are three reasons for suicide:_1._you
are mentally crazy_(you_are_not obviously),_2. You are_socially_challenged and
3._long_term injury pain (I don't think_this_applies?)

I think it is 2. So if_it is, just move_to_a big city/compound or_leave Tokyo.
That should be your_priority at the moment. From my_experience, I'd_advise
_strongly_ against_seeking a "medical professional".

------
igolden
A lot of people have offered great advice,_so I'll keep my comment short.

You_are not your company,_your company_is_not you. Believe_it_or not,_most (as
in 99%) of businesses fail eventually._By trying_your hardest you've gained an
experience that_will hopefully stay with_you_your entire lifetime. If/when you
choose to_start a second company, you'll have_an entirely new respect for_the
process_and_have much higher chance of_success.

I've been there myself. Financial/business stress_is incredibly toxic,_but
remember that your bank account is not_you._You are not your financial
mistakes. These_are_just 'things' dictating areas of your_life_at_the moment.
You will get through_this.

Listen to some of these suggestions,_as I imagine most of the