 it
might be well if they did anything further of the sort, to divide the
money, so that Cotsdean too might feel that he had got something for the
risk he ran; but then, to be sure, if he had not the money he had no
trouble, except by his own foolish anxiety, for the payment, and always
a five-pound note or two for his pains. But Mr. May said to himself that
he would do no more in this way after the present bill was disposed of;
no, he would make a stand, he would insist upon living within his
income. He would not allow himself to be subject to these perpetual
agitations any more. It would require an effort, but after the effort
was made all would be easy. So he said to himself; and it was the 18th,
not the 15th, three days more to make his arrangements in. It had come
to be the 12th now, and up to this moment he had done nothing, having
that vague faith in the Indian mail which had been realized, and yet had
not been realized. But still he had nearly a week before him, which was
enough certainly. Anything that he could do in six months, he said to
himself, he could easily do in six days--the mere time was nothing; and
he smiled as he dressed himself leisurely, thinking it all over. Somehow
everything looked perfectly easy to him this time; last time he had been
plunged into tragic despair; now, and he did not know why, he took it
quite easily; he seemed to fear nothing. There were various ways of
getting the money as natural as the daylight, and in the mean time why
should he make himself unhappy? As soon as he was ready he went to his
room and had another look at the book-case which, with his best books in
it, all in order and ranged in unbroken lines, looked everything a
book-case ought to look. It made him feel more of a man somehow, more
like the gentleman and scholar he had meant to be when he started in
life; he had not intended then to be a poor district incumbent all his
life, with a family of eight children. His book-case somehow transported
him back to the days when he had thought of better things for himself,
and when life had held an ideal for him. Perhaps at the best
it 
 might be well if they did anything further of the sort, to separate the 
 money, so that Cotsdean excessively might feel that he had got something for the 
 risk he scat; but then, to be sure, if he had not the money he have no 
 trouble, except by his own foolish anxiety, for the payment, and always 
 a five - pound eminence or two for his pains. But Mr. May said to himself that 
 he would act no more in this direction after the present bill was disposed of; 
 no, he would make a stand, he would insist upon populate within his 
 income. He would not allow himself to be subject to these perpetual 
 agitation any more. It would require an effort, but after the effort 
 was made all would be comfortable. So he read to himself; and it was the 18th, 
 not the 15th, three days more to cook his arrangements in. It had come 
 to be the 12th now, and up to this moment he had done nothing, hold 
 that vague faith in the Indian mail which had been realized, and yet had 
 not been realized. But still he had about a week before him, which was 
 enough surely. Anything that he could cause in six month, he said to 
 himself, he could easily serve in six days -- the mere time was nothing; and 
 he smiled as he dress himself leisurely, thinking it all over. Somehow 
 everything looked perfectly comfortable to him this time; last time he had been 
 plunged into tragic despair; now, and he did not know why, he took it 
 quite well; he seem to fear nothing. There were various ways of 
 make the money as natural as the day, and in the mean fourth dimension why 
 should he make himself unhappy? equally soon as he was ready he went to his 
 room and had another look at the book - event which, with his best bible in 
 it, all in holy order and ranged in unplowed lines, looked everything a 
 book - character ought to look. It make him feel more of a man somehow, more 
 like the gentleman and scholar he had meant to be when he started in 
 life; he had not intended then to be a poor district incumbent all his 
 animation, with a family of eight children. His record - case somehow transported 
 him back to the days when he had thought of better things for himself, 
 and when life sentence had held an ideal for him. Perhaps at the best
 it
light be well if they dia anything furtkwr of vhe sorf, to divkde the
money, so that Cotsdeai toi migyt feel that he had gog somethijg for tye
riwj he ran; bnf then, bj be dure, mf he had not tme money he had no
trouble, ebczpt by his own foolish anxiety, for tre paymrnh, and always
a sive-kougd nkne or two for his pains. But Mr. Jay saiv to himself thst
he would do no more in tjis aay after the presfnt bill waw difposed of;
no, hd would make a stand, hg would insist upon living withiv his
nncome. He wiuod jmt allow hinself to be subjegn to thase perletual
agitatioks anb moee. It would require ai effort, but after tre effort
faa made all would ve easy. So ve sxud go giksslf; anf iv was the 18tg,
not the 15th, three days more to mwje his arrangsments ig. It had come
to be the 12th now, and up to thjs moment he had done nithing, having
that vagoe faith ig the Indian mail which had been realized, and yet had
nkg btek fwapized. But still he had nearly a week before hyj, ehpch was
enough cerbainly. Anything thst hr could do in rix moufha, he said to
himselv, he coold eawily do ig sic days--the mere time was notying; and
he siuled as he dressed himself lensureli, thinling it all over. Somehoc
everyfhing lookef perfectmh easy to him thks nime; last time he had been
plunded into vragie despaif; noe, and re did not know why, he took it
quitf easnly; ha seemed tl fear nothing. There were varionx ways of
getjinc tve money as nstural as the daylight, and nn the mzan tioe why
shoumd he meke himself tnhappy? As somj as he was ceady he rent to yis
room xnd had anothet look at the book-cqse which, with his berf books in
it, alo ib order and ranbed in ujbcoken nines, looked evefytfong a
cook-cast omghg to look. It made him feal mkre of a man somehpw, more
likg the geneleman and scnolar he had meant to bx when he syarjed in
life; he had not intended fhen to bf a poor distrist ikcumfent all hns
life, with a family of eight children. Hms book-case somehow trabsported
him back to uhe days when he hwd thoughd of better things fir himself,
and whek life had held an idezl for him. Oerhaps at the best
it might be well if they did of sort, to the money, so that had got something the risk he but then, to be sure, if had not the money he had no trouble, except by his own foolish for the payment, and always a five-pound note or two for his pains. Mr. said himself he would do no more in this way after the present bill was disposed of; no, would make a stand, he would insist upon within his income. He not allow himself to be to perpetual agitations more. would an effort, but the effort was made all would be easy. So he said to himself; and it was the not the days more make arrangements It had come the 12th now, and up to had done nothing, having that vague faith in Indian mail had been realized, and yet had been realized. But still he had nearly a before him, which was enough certainly. Anything that he could do in six months, he himself, he could easily in six days--the time nothing; he as he himself leisurely, thinking it all over. Somehow everything looked perfectly easy him this time; last time he had been plunged into now, he did not why, he took it easily; seemed to fear nothing. various of as as daylight, and in the time why should he make unhappy? As soon as to his room and had another look at book-case which, with his best books in all in order and ranged in unbroken lines, looked everything a book-case to look. him feel more of a man somehow, more the gentleman and scholar had meant to be when he started in life; had intended then be a poor incumbent all his with a family children. His somehow him days when he had thought of things himself, and when life had an him. Perhaps at the best
 it
might be well if they did anyThing furthEr of tHe sOrt, To DiviDe thE
money, so that CoTSdeaN too might feel that he had Got soMeTHing FOr The
riSk he ran; BUt THEn, tO bE sUre, If HE hAd not The Money he Had no
troubLe, eXcEpt by his own fOOlIsh anxiety, For The payment, anD alWays
a fIvE-poUNd notE or Two foR his paINs. But MR. May said tO hIMself tHAt
he wouLD Do No moRe in this way after tHE pREsent bill was diSposed Of;
NO, hE WOulD maKe a stand, he WoUld inSIst upon LIvING WitHIn his
income. He Would not allOW hiMself tO bE suBJect to These PeRPetUal
agitatioNs anY more. It woUld reqUIre an efFOrt, but aFter thE efForT
was MAdE aLl wOuLD be EAsY. So HE saId to himsElF; aNd it wAs thE 18TH,
NOt thE 15th, ThreE days More to make his ArrAngeMEntS in. It Had coMe
to Be The 12th Now, and Up to tHiS moment he had donE notHing, havinG
thAt VagUe Faith IN the InDiaN maIl which Had been REalIzED, ANd Yet had
not been realiZeD. bUt Still he hAd nearLY a WeEK before hIm, WhiCh waS
ENough CertAInLy. AnythiNg that HE cOuLd do in sIx Months, He SaiD to
HimseLF, he cOuld eaSily do in Six daYS--the mere time waS Nothing; and
he sMIlED As HE dreSseD himself leiSureLY, thiNkinG It All OVer. SoMehow
EvERyTHing looked perfectly EaSy to hiM this Time; last time hE had been
plUNGEd into trAgic DEsPAir; now, and he did Not knOw why, he tooK It
quite eAsily; He seemed To fear notHINg. There wEre VarIouS waYS Of
Getting the monEY As naTuRal as thE daYlight, aNd iN thE meAn tImE why
shoulD he make hImSeLf UnHapPy? As sOOn as he waS rEadY hE weNt to hIS
room aNd had AnotHeR lOOk aT the booK-CaSE WhicH, wItH his BesT bOoks iN
it, aLL in Order anD ranged in UnbROken LiNeS, looked Everything a
boOk-Case ought tO lOok. it made HIM feel morE of a man somehow, more
like tHE gentleMan And scHolaR he had meaNt tO be wheN he STarted In
life; He had NoT inTENded tHEN tO be A pOor districT INcuMbent AlL his
Life, witH a family of eight chiLDreN. His book-case sOmeHow tRANsPorTEd
HIm bAcK To tHE Days when he had thOught of betTeR ThIngs for himSElf,
AnD when liFe had heLd an iDEal for hIm. Perhaps At the best
 it
might be well if theydid anythi ng fu rth erof  the  sor t, to divide t h e
mo ney, so that Cotsdeantoo m ig h t fe e lthathe hadg ot s ome th in g f or th e
ris k h e ran;but then,tobe  sure, if he ha d not themon ey he had no 
tr ouble,  e xce p t byhis  ownfoolis h  anxie ty, for t he paymen t , and a l w ay s
afive-pound note o r  t w o for his pain s. But  M r .M a y s aid  to himsel fthath e would do n o  mo r e in this way  after thep res ent bi ll  wa s  dispo sed o f; no,  he would m akea stand,he wou l d insis t  upon l ivingwit hin  his in co me.  H e  wo u ld  no t  al low hims el fto be  sub j e c t  tothe se p erpet ual
agitation s a ny m o re.  It w ouldrequ ir e aneffort , but  a fter the effort 
was  made all  wo ul d b eeasy. So hesai d t o himse lf; and itwa s t he  18th,
not the 15t h, t hr ee daysmore t o  m ak e  his arr an gem ents i n. It  had co me
to be  the 1 2 th  n ow, and  u p to t hi s m ome nt he haddone n othing,havin g 
that vague fa i th in the Ind i an m ai l  whi chhad been re aliz e d, a nd y e thad not b een r ea l iz e d. But still he had  n earlya wee k before him,  which was e n ough cer tain l y. Anything thathe co uld do ins ix month s, he  said to 
himself, h e couldeas ily  do  in s ix  days--the me r e  tim ewas not hin g; andhesmi led  as  h e dressed  himself  l ei su re ly,  thin k ing it a ll  ov er . S omeho w 
every thing  loo ke dp erf ectly e a sy t o hi mth is t ime ;lasttime hehad bee n
plunged  in t o tr ag ic  despai r; now, and h edid not kn ow  wh y, het o ok it
qu ite easily; he seemed t o  fear n oth ing.Ther e were va rio us way s o f 
getti ng the  mone yasn a tural a sthe  d aylight, a n d  in  theme an t ime why 
should he make hi m sel f unhappy? As  so on a s he  wa s  r e ady  h e  we n t  to his
room an d had anot he r  l ook at the boo k- case wh ich, wi th hi s  best b ooks in
i t, all in  o rder a ndranged inunbroken  lines, l o okede ve rythi nga
book -c ase  ough t to l o ok.  It m ade hi mfeel m ore o fa man so mehow, more
like the ge ntlema n and  sc holar hehad mea nt to bewhen  he starte d i n
l ife;heh ad no t in t en ded thento b e  a poor d i st ric t in cumbent all h i s
l ife,wit h  a fam ilyof eight children .  His book-case  som e h owtra n spor te d
him back tothe  d a y s when h ehad thought  of bett er thing s forhimsel f,
andw h en life h ad h eld  an ideal  fo rh im. Per ha ps at the  bes t
 it
might_be well_if they did anything_further of_the_sort, to_divide_the
money, so that_Cotsdean too might_feel that he had_got something for_the
risk_he ran; but then, to be sure, if he had not the money he_had_no
trouble, except_by_his_own foolish anxiety, for the_payment, and always
a five-pound note_or two_for his pains. But Mr. May said to_himself_that
he would do_no more in this way after the present bill_was disposed of;
no, he would make_a stand, he_would_insist_upon living within his
income._He would not allow himself to_be subject to these perpetual
agitations any_more. It would require an effort, but_after the effort
was made all would_be easy. So he said_to himself;_and it was the 18th,
not_the 15th, three_days more_to make his_arrangements in. It had come
to be_the 12th now,_and up to this moment he_had_done nothing, having
that_vague_faith_in the_Indian mail which_had_been realized,_and_yet had
not been realized. But still_he_had nearly a week before him, which_was
enough certainly. Anything that_he_could do in six_months, he said to
himself, he_could easily do in six days--the_mere time_was nothing;_and
he smiled as he dressed himself leisurely, thinking it all over._Somehow
everything looked perfectly easy to him_this time; last time_he had_been
plunged_into tragic despair;_now,_and he_did not know why, he took it
quite_easily; he_seemed to fear nothing. There were_various ways of
getting the_money_as natural as the daylight, and_in the mean time why
should he_make himself unhappy? As soon_as_he_was ready he went to_his
room and had another look at_the book-case which,_with his best books in
it, all in_order_and ranged in unbroken lines, looked_everything_a
book-case ought to look. It made_him_feel_more of a man somehow,_more
like the gentleman and scholar he_had meant to be when he started in
life; he_had not intended_then to be a poor_district_incumbent_all his
life, with a family of eight children. His book-case_somehow transported
him_back to the_days when he had thought of better things for himself,
and_when life had held an ideal for_him. Perhaps at the best