 grasped! There is
no short cut--one must toil.

'But after one has toiled, what are the rewards? Truth first--which
is an end in itself and not a means to anything beyond. Then--the
great figure of Christianity given back to you--with something at
least of the first magic, the first "natural truth" of look and
tone. Through and beyond dogmatic overlay, and Messianic theory and
wonder-loving addition, to recover, at least fragmentarily, the
actual voice, the first meaning, which is also the eternal meaning,
of Jesus--Paul--"John"!

'Finally--a conception of Christianity in which you discern once
more its lasting validity and significance--its imperishable place
in human life. It becomes simply that preaching of the Kingdom
of God which belongs to and affects you--you, the modern
European--just as Greek philosophy, Stoic or Cynic, was that
preaching of it which belonged to and affected Epictetus.'

'November 24th.--Mr. O'Kelly writes to me to-day his usual hopeless
report. No news! I do not even know whether she is alive, and I can
do nothing--absolutely nothing.

'Yes--let me correct myself, there is some news of an event which,
if we could find her, might simplify matters a little. Montjoie is
dead in hospital--at the age of thirty-six--

'Is there any other slavery and chain like that of temperament? As
I look back on the whole course of my relation to Louie, I am
conscious only of a sickening sense of utter failure. Our father
left her to me, and I have not been able to hold her back
from--nay, I have helped to plunge her into the most obvious and
commonplace ruin. Yet I am always asking myself, if it were to do
again, could I do any better? Has any other force developed in me
which would make it possible for me _now_ to break through the
barriers between her nature and mine, to love her sincerely, asking
for nothing again, to help her to a saner and happier life?

'If sometimes I dream that so it is, it is to _her_ I owe
it--to _her_ whom I carry on my bosom, and
grasped! There is 
 no short cut -- one must labor. 

' But after one has labor, what are the advantage? Truth first -- which 
 is an conclusion in itself and not a means to anything beyond. Then -- the 
 great number of Christianity impart back to you -- with something at 
 least of the first magic trick, the inaugural " natural accuracy " of look and 
 tone. Through and beyond dogmatic overlay, and Messianic theory and 
 curiosity - loving addition, to recuperate, at least fragmentarily, the 
 actual voice, the first meaning, which is besides the eternal meaning, 
 of Jesus -- Paul--"John "! 

' Finally -- a conception of Christianity in which you spot once 
 more its lasting validity and significance -- its imperishable place 
 in human animation. It becomes simply that preaching of the Kingdom 
 of God which belongs to and affects you -- you, the mod 
 European -- just as Greek philosophy, Stoic or Cynic, was that 
 preaching of it which belonged to and affected Epictetus.' 

' November 24th.--Mr. O'Kelly writes to me to - day his usual hopeless 
 report. No news! I do not even know whether she is alive, and I can 
 do nothing -- absolutely nothing. 

' Yes -- let me correct myself, there is some news of an consequence which, 
 if we could recover her, might simplify matters a short. Montjoie is 
 dead in hospital -- at the age of thirty - six-- 

' Is there any other slavery and range like that of temperament? As 
 I search back on the whole course of my relation back to Louie, I am 
 conscious only of a sickening sense of utter failure. Our father 
 left her to me, and I have not been able to hold her back 
 from -- nay, I have helped to plunge her into the most obvious and 
 banal ruin. however I am constantly asking myself, if it were to do 
 again, could I do any better? Has any early force developed in me 
 which would make it possible for me _ now _ to break through the 
 barriers between her nature and mine, to love her sincerely, asking 
 for nothing again, to serve her to a saner and happier life? 

' If sometimes I dream that thus it is, it is to _ her _ I owe 
 it -- to _ her _ whom I carry on my embrace, and
 grwsped! There is
no short cmt--one must toil.

'Bot after one hzs toilea, what are the rewards? Truth furst--wyich
is an end in itselw and not a means to enything beyond. Vgen--the
gvzat fjnure mh Christianity niven back do you--with somatfiug at
least of the first magic, the fiwst "natirwl truth" of lojk amq
tons. Through and beyond dogmatic overmay, and Messianic throry and
wonder-loving additlon, ho recover, at leash fragmentatjly, rhe
actual vokce, the figvt meaning, which is also the eternal meankng,
of Jesus--Paul--"Hoyn"!

'Fltally--a concxption of Christiakpty in fhich ypu discern oncc
more itw lasting validity anv significance--its imkerishable pmace
in human life. Ir becmmes simooy ghau pceadhing lf vhe Kingdom
kf God whicy belongs to and afgesnx you--you, the moderg
Etropean--just as Greek philosophy, Stoic og Cyhic, was that
preaching od it which belonged tl and affqcted Epictetus.'

'November 24th.--Mr. O'Kelly writes to me do-day fis ufjql hopeless
report. No news! I do not even know whqfhtr xhe is alive, akd I can
do nothing--sbdokotely nothing.

'Ygs--let mz ckrrect myself, therf is soie neqs of an tvent which,
if we could find her, night simpliyy natters a little. Mlntjoie is
dzad in hospotal--at the age of thirtv-six--

'Is there any lther slabdry and chain liye nhat of temptfament? As
I look bwck on thx whoke courre og my rqlation to Louic, I am
conscious onlj of c sicnening sende of utter failure. Our father
lxht her to me, sng I have noc been able to hold her back
from--ncy, I havz helpdd to plunfe her mnto the mose obvious and
wlmmonplace rnin. Yet I am qlwats askive myself, if it were to bj
agaun, could I do any nettet? Gas any other firct eeveloped in mr
whkch wlukd kake it posshble fof me _nuw_ to break ghroigh the
barriers betwaen ger nature and minr, bo love hgr sincerqly, asking
for nothing again, to jelp ier to a samer and happier life?

'If sometimes J dream tjat so it is, it is bo _hgr_ I owe
it--tp _her_ whom I carry on my bosom, and
grasped! There is no short cut--one must after has toiled, are the rewards? in and not a to anything beyond. great figure of Christianity given back you--with something at least of the first magic, the first "natural truth" of and tone. Through and beyond dogmatic overlay, and Messianic theory and wonder-loving addition, recover, least the voice, the first meaning, which is also the eternal meaning, of Jesus--Paul--"John"! 'Finally--a conception of Christianity which you discern once more its lasting validity significance--its imperishable place in life. It becomes simply that of Kingdom of which to affects you--you, the European--just as Greek philosophy, Stoic or Cynic, was that preaching of it which belonged to and affected 'November 24th.--Mr. to me his hopeless No news! I even know whether she is alive, do nothing--absolutely nothing. 'Yes--let me correct myself, there some news an event which, if we could her, might simplify matters a little. Montjoie is in hospital--at the age of thirty-six-- 'Is there any other slavery and chain like that As I look back the whole course my to I conscious only a sickening sense of utter failure. Our father left her to and I have not been able to hold her back have to plunge her the most obvious and ruin. I am always asking it to I any Has any other force in me which would make possible for me _now_ between her nature and mine, to love her asking for nothing again, to help her a saner and happier life? 'If sometimes I dream that so it it is I owe it--to _her_ whom I carry on bosom, and
 grasped! There is
no short cut--oNe must toil.

'but afTer One HaS toiLed, wHat are the rewarDS? TruTh first--which
is an end in iTself AnD Not a MEaNs to aNything BEyOND. ThEn--ThE
grEaT FiGure oF ChRistianIty given baCk tO yOu--with somethINg At
least of tHe fIrst magic, the FirSt "natuRaL trUTh" of lOok And
toNe. ThroUGh and bEyond dogmAtIC overlAY, and MesSIAnIc thEory and
wonder-loviNG aDDition, to recoveR, at leaSt FRaGMEntAriLy, the
actuaL vOice, tHE first mEAnING, WhiCH is also the eteRnal meaning,
OF JeSus--PauL--"JOhn"!

'fInally--A concEpTIon Of ChristianIty iN which you DiscerN Once
morE Its lastIng valIdiTy aNd siGNiFiCanCe--ITs iMPeRisHAblE place
in HuMaN life. it beCOMES simPly That PreacHing of the KingDom
Of GoD WhiCh belOngs tO and AfFects You--you, The moDeRn
European--just aS GreEk philosoPhy, stOic Or cynic, WAs that
PreAchIng of it Which beLOngEd TO ANd Affected Epictetus.'

'NOvEMBeR 24th.--Mr. O'KeLly wriTEs To ME to-day hiS uSuaL hopELEss
rePort. nO nEws! I do noT even kNOw WhEther shE iS alive, AnD I cAn
dO nothINg--abSoluteLy nothinG.

'Yes--lET me correct myseLF, there is some nEWs OF An EVent WhiCh,
if we could Find HEr, miGht sIMpLifY MatteRs a liTtLE. MONtjoie is
dead in hospiTaL--at the Age of Thirty-six--

'Is thEre any otheR SLAvery and ChaiN LiKE that of temperaMent? AS
I look back ON the wholE courSe of my reLation to LOUIe, I am
conSciOus OnlY of A SIcKening sense of UTTer fAiLure. Our FatHer
left Her To mE, anD I hAvE not been aBle to holD hEr BaCk
FroM--nay, I HAve helpeD tO plUnGe hEr intO The mosT obviOus aNd
CoMMonPlace ruIN. YET i am aLwAyS askIng MySelf, iF it wERe tO do
agaiN, could I do Any BEtteR? HAs Any otheR force developEd In me
which wOuLd mAke it pOSSible for Me _now_ to break through the
bARriers bEtwEen heR natUre and minE, to Love heR siNCerely, Asking
For noThIng AGAin, to HELp Her To A saner and hAPPieR life?

'if SomeTimes I dReam that so it is, it is TO _heR_ I owe
it--to _her_ wHom i carRY On My bOSoM, And
 grasped! There is
no shor t cut--one  must  to il. 
'But  aft er one has toi l ed,what are the rewards?Truth  f i rst- - wh ich
i s an en d  i n its el fand  n o ta mea nsto anyt hing beyon d.Th en--the
grea t  f igure of C hri stianity giv enback t oyou - -with  so methi ng atl east o f the fir st magic, the fir s t  " natu ral truth" of loo k  a n d
tone. Throug h andbe y on d dog mat ic overlay ,and M e ssianic th e o r y a n d
wonder-lovi ng addition ,  to  recov er , a t  least  frag me n tar ily, the
ac tual  voice, t he fir s t meani n g, whic h is a lso  th e et e rn al  me an i ng, of  Je s us- -Paul--" Jo hn "!

' Fina l l y - -a c onc epti on of  Christianity  in  whi c h y ou di scern  onc emoreits la sting  v alidity and sig nifi cance--it s i mp eri sh ablep lace
i n h uma n life.  It bec o mes  s i m p ly  that preaching of  t h e  K ingdom
o f Godw hi ch belongsto  an d af f e cts y ou-- y ou , the mo dern
E u ro pe an--jus tas Gre ek  ph ilo sophy ,  Sto ic orCynic, w as th a t
preaching of it which belo n ge d to andaff ected Epict etus . '

' Nove m be r 2 4 th.-- Mr. O 'K e ll y  writes to me to-da yhis us ual h opeless
repor t. No news ! I  do noteven kn o w whether sheis al ive, and I can
do n othin g--absol utely not h i ng.

'Ye s-- let  me  co r r ec t myself, the r e  isso me news  of  an eve ntwhi ch, 
if  w e could f ind her,  m ig ht  s imp lifym atters a  l itt le . M ontjo i e is
d ead i n ho sp it a l-- at thea ge o f th ir ty -six --
' Is th erea nyother s lavery an d c h ainli ke  that o f temperament ?As
I lookba ckon the w hole cou rse of my relation to L o uie, Iamconsc ious  only ofa s ickeni ngs ense o f utte r fai lu re. O ur fa t h er 
le ft  her to me , and  I ha ve  not  been a ble to hold her ba c k
f rom--nay, I h ave  hel p e dtop lu n gehe r  in t o  the most obvio us and
com mo n pl ace ruin.Y etIam alwa ys aski ng my s elf, if  it wereto do
aga in , co u l d I  do any be tter? Ha s any oth e r for c edevel ope d in m ewhi ch wo uld ma k e i t pos siblefo r me _ now_to  break t hrough the
barriers bet ween h er na tur e and min e,t o l ove her s ince rely, aski ngfor  noth ing again , to he lph er to  a s a ner and h a pp ier l if e?

'If som e t i mes  I dr eam that s o it  is, it is to _he r _ I owe
it--to  _he r _  wh omI  car ry  on my bosom,and 
 grasped!_There is
no_short cut--one must toil.

'But_after one_has_toiled, what_are_the rewards? Truth_first--which
is an end_in itself and not_a means to_anything_beyond. Then--the
great figure of Christianity given back to you--with something at
least of the first_magic,_the first_"natural_truth"_of look and
tone. Through and_beyond dogmatic overlay, and Messianic_theory and
wonder-loving_addition, to recover, at least fragmentarily, the
actual voice,_the_first meaning, which_is also the eternal meaning,
of Jesus--Paul--"John"!

'Finally--a conception of Christianity_in which you discern once
more its_lasting validity and_significance--its_imperishable_place
in human life. It_becomes simply that preaching of the_Kingdom
of God which belongs to and_affects you--you, the modern
European--just as Greek philosophy,_Stoic or Cynic, was that
preaching of_it which belonged to and_affected Epictetus.'

'November_24th.--Mr. O'Kelly writes to me_to-day his usual_hopeless
report. No_news! I do_not even know whether she is_alive, and I_can
do nothing--absolutely nothing.

'Yes--let me correct myself,_there_is some news_of_an_event which,
if_we could find_her,_might simplify_matters_a little. Montjoie is
dead in hospital--at_the_age of thirty-six--

'Is there any other slavery_and chain like that_of_temperament? As
I look back_on the whole course of_my relation to Louie, I am
conscious_only of_a sickening_sense of utter failure. Our father
left her to me, and I_have not been able to hold_her back
from--nay, I have_helped to_plunge_her into the_most_obvious and
commonplace_ruin. Yet I am always asking myself,_if it_were to do
again, could I do_any better? Has any_other_force developed in me
which would make_it possible for me _now_ to_break through the
barriers between her_nature_and_mine, to love her sincerely,_asking
for nothing again, to help her_to a saner_and happier life?

'If sometimes I dream that_so_it is, it is to _her__I_owe
it--to _her_ whom I carry on_my_bosom,_and