 visit would proceed similarly. We never fought and she rarely showed any anger, hating confrontation. She would show annoyance and impatience but denied ever feeling jealousy.

She seemed to be very loving and affectionate during the right moments i.e. watching a movie/in bed/after sex (particularly during the latter stages) but could also be disinterested and condescending. She could also be quite selfish - "forgetting her wallet", buying expensive items despite owing me money that I was in need of etc.

She said that before she met me she found it very difficult to open up to people emotionally, even to her previous boyfriend of 2 years, and had never discussed her previous issues surrounding eating disorders, her parents’ divorce and her issues with self-image (she was very conscious of her weight and looks and had previously suffered from an eating disorder).

She often said that she thought of herself as an individual, not needing to be part of a group and not wanting to depend on people and made a fierce show of being independent.

She frequently said that she wished we had met after university/that she wanted a future with me, due to her propensity to engage in "self-sabotaging behaviours" – cheating, promiscuity in younger days, drug taking and going out drinking - and was scared of ruining our relationship. She also frequently said that she was afraid that I was going to meet someone at university.

But at the same time, she said that, since being at university, she rarely thought of me. She immediately started “seeing” the guy she shared a bed with after we parted.

How is it that she could have moved on (new partner & seeming so happy)/given up on a relationship of such apparent intensity so quickly?When I received midnight phone calls saying how she "so wanted it to work" and how she was "so afraid" I was going to meet someone, was this an indication that she was grieving for the relationship, subconsciously knowing it wouldn't work, hence her apparent quick recovery?Or is she just finding it very easy to ignore the situation (hence the emotion shown when I was actually present) - she said she rarely thinks of home and doesn't miss it, wouldn't rather be anywhere else than her dream current university etc. – drama, leading to a career in acting.

I’m not sure whether she feels love to a limited extent, hence the quick recovery/loss of interest,
visit would proceed similarly. We never fought and she rarely showed any wrath, hat confrontation. She would show annoyance and restlessness but denied always feeling jealousy. 

 She seemed to be very loving and affectionate during the correct consequence i.e. watching a movie / in seam / after sex (particularly during the latter stage) but could also be disinterested and condescending. She could besides be quite selfish - " forgetting her wallet ", buying expensive items despite owing me money that I was in need of etc. 

 She said that before she met me she rule it very difficult to open up to multitude emotionally, even to her previous boyfriend of 2 years, and had never discussed her previous issue surrounding eating disorders, her parents ’ divorce and her issues with self - picture (she was very conscious of her weight and looks and had previously suffered from an eating disorder). 

 She frequently said that she thought of herself as an individual, not needing to be part of a group and not wanting to depend on people and made a fierce display of being independent. 

 She frequently said that she wish we had meet after university / that she wanted a future with me, due to her propensity to absorb in " self - sabotage behaviours " – cheating, promiscuity in younger day, drug taking and going out drinking - and was scared of ruining our relationship. She also frequently said that she was afraid that I was going to meet someone at university. 

 But at the same meter, she said that, since being at university, she rarely think of me. She immediately started “ seeing ” the guy she shared a bed with after we parted. 

 How is it that she could have move on (new partner & seeming therefore happy)/given up on a relationship of such apparent intensity so quickly?When I received midnight phone call saying how she " then wanted it to work " and how she was " thus afraid " I was going to converge someone, was this an indication that she was grieve for the relationship, subconsciously sleep together it wouldn't work, hence her apparent quick recovery?Or is she just finding it very comfortable to ignore the situation (hence the emotion show when I was actually present) - she said she rarely thinks of home and doesn't miss it, wouldn't rather be anywhere else than her ambition current university etc. – drama, leading to a career in act. 

 I ’m not sure whether she feels love to a limited extent, hence the quick convalescence / loss of interest,
 vidit would proceed similavly. We never fouyyt and she rzrely shuwed any anger, hating confroitatuon. Sye would show annoyancd and impwtience vut venied ever feelmhg jealousy.

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She freeuently said that she wisned we had met after univerwity/that she qanted a future wich me, due to her proprnsity to engage in "sely-sabotzging behavlours" – chsxting, promiscuith ik ymunger days, drug taking anq going ont drnnking - xnd eas scwred of rulning our relationship. Sje aldo frequentlj said that she was afraid that I was going tp keen someone at ukiversity.

But at the same time, she sand thag, since bepng at unmversity, she rarely thougvj of me. She ikmediatejy srartwd “seeive” the guy she xhared a ytd with afrer we parted.

How ix ij fhat she could kcvt noved on (new psrtver & dexming vo happy)/givet up on s relxtionship on sjch spparent intensity sm qujckly?When I receivrd midnighj phone cwlls saying hpw she "so wanted iu to wmrk" and now she was "so afraid" I was going to meet domcone, was this an lndisation thac she was grieving for the relationship, wubconsciously knoqing it wouldn't worl, hence her epparegt quick secovery?Or is she juwt finding it vern easy to ignore the sjtuatimn (hejce the emotion shown when I was actually present) - she said she rarely thunks oh rome and dossn't miss ic, wpuldn't ratiec be anywhere elsv than her dream current universmty etc. – dsaia, leading to a career in acyivg.

I’m not sure whether she feels love fo a limoted extent, hence the quick recpvery/loss of interest,
visit would proceed similarly. We never fought rarely any anger, confrontation. She would denied feeling jealousy. She to be very and affectionate during the right moments watching a movie/in bed/after sex (particularly during the latter stages) but could also disinterested and condescending. She could also be quite selfish - "forgetting her wallet", expensive despite me that I was in need of etc. She said that before she met me she found very difficult to open up to people emotionally, to her previous boyfriend 2 years, and had never her issues surrounding disorders, parents’ and her issues self-image (she was very conscious of her weight and looks and had previously suffered from an eating She often she thought herself an not needing to of a group and not wanting people and made a fierce show of being She frequently that she wished we had met university/that she wanted a future with me, due her propensity to engage in "self-sabotaging behaviours" – cheating, promiscuity in younger days, drug taking out drinking - and scared of ruining relationship. also said she was that I was going to meet someone at university. But at same time, she said that, since being at university, she of She immediately started the guy she shared bed after we parted. How that could (new & so happy)/given up on relationship of such apparent intensity quickly?When I received midnight "so wanted it to work" and how she "so afraid" I was going to meet was this an indication that she was grieving for the relationship, subconsciously it wouldn't her apparent quick recovery?Or is she just finding very easy to ignore situation (hence the emotion shown when I was actually - said she thinks of home doesn't miss it, rather be anywhere her dream university – a career in acting. I’m not whether feels love to a limited hence recovery/loss of interest,
 visit would proceed similarlY. We never foUght aNd sHe rArEly sHoweD any anger, hatinG ConfRontation. She would show aNnoyaNcE And iMPaTiencE but denIEd EVEr fEeLiNg jEaLOuSy.

She SeeMed to be Very loving And AfFectionate duRInG the right mOmeNts i.e. watchinG a mOvie/in BeD/afTEr sex (ParTiculArly duRIng the Latter staGeS) But couLD also be DISiNterEsted and condescenDInG. she could also be Quite sElFIsH - "FOrgEttIng her wallEt", BuyinG ExpensiVE iTEMS deSPite owing me moNey that I was IN neEd of etC.

SHe sAId that BeforE sHE meT me she found It veRy difficuLt to opEN up to peOPle emotIonallY, evEn tO her PReViOus BoYFriENd Of 2 yEArs, And had neVeR dIscusSed hER PREvioUs iSsueS surrOunding eating DisOrdeRS, heR pareNts’ diVorcE aNd her Issues With sElF-image (she was verY conScious of hEr wEiGht AnD lookS And had PreVioUsly sufFered frOM an EaTING dIsorder).

She often saiD tHAT sHe thoughT of herSElF aS An indiviDuAl, nOt neEDIng to Be paRT oF a group aNd not wANtInG to depeNd On peopLe And MadE a fieRCe shOw of beIng indepEndenT.

she frequently sAId that she wishED wE HAd MEt afTer University/tHat sHE wanTed a FUtUre WIth me, Due to HeR PrOPensity to engage in "seLf-SabotaGing bEhaviours" – cheaTing, promisCUITy in younGer dAYs, DRug taking and goIng ouT drinking - aND was scarEd of rUining ouR relationSHIp. She alsO frEquEntLy sAID tHat she was afraID That i wAs going To mEet someOne At uNivErsItY.

But at the Same time, ShE sAiD tHat, Since BEing at unIvErsItY, shE rareLY thougHt of mE. She ImMeDIatEly starTEd “SEEing” ThE gUy shE shArEd a beD witH AftEr we parTed.

How is iT thAT she CoUlD have moVed on (new partnEr & Seeming so hApPy)/gIven up ON A relatioNship of such apparent inteNSity so qUicKly?WhEn I rEceived miDniGht phoNe cALls sayIng how She "so WaNteD IT to woRK" AnD hoW sHe was "so afrAID" I wAs goiNg To meEt someoNe, was this an indicatIOn tHat she was grieVinG for THE rElaTIoNShiP, sUBcoNSCiously knowing iT wouldn't woRk, HEnCe her apparENt qUiCk recovEry?Or is She juST findinG it very eaSy to ignorE tHe siTUAtiOn (hence the Emotion sHown when I WAs actUAlLy preSenT) - she saId She RarelY thinkS Of hOme anD doesn'T mIss it, wOuldn'T rAther be aNywhere else than her dream CurrenT univErsIty etc. – draMa, lEAdiNg to a careEr in Acting.

I’m noT suRe wHetheR shE Feels Love TO a LimITed exTent, HEnce the quICk RecOVErY/loss of inteREST,
 visit would proceed simil arly. We n everfou ght  a nd s he r arely showed a n y an ger, hating confrontat ion.Sh e  wou l dshowannoyan c ea n d i mp at ien ce bu t den ied  ever f eeling jea lou sy .

She seeme d  t o be verylov ing and affe cti onatedu rin g  therig ht mo mentsi .e. wa tching amo v ie/inb ed/afte r se x (p articularly durin g  t h e latter stage s) but  c o ul d als o b e disinter es ted a n d conde s ce n d i ng. She could als o be quites elf ish -"f org e ttingher w al l et" , buying ex pens ive items  despi t e owing me mone y that  Iwas  inn ee dofet c .
S he  sa i d t hat befo re  s he me t me s h e  fou ndit v ery d ifficult to o pen  upt o p eople  emot iona ll y, ev en toher p re vious boyfriend  of2 years,and  h adne ver d i scusse d h erpreviou s issue s  su rr o u n di ng eating disorder s, h er  parents ’ divo r ce  a n d her is su eswith s elf-i mage (s he was v ery co n sc io us of h er  weigh tand  lo oks a n d ha d prev iously s uffer e d from an eati n g disorder).Sh e of t en s aid  that she t houg h t of  her s el f a s  an i ndivi du a l, not needing to be p ar t of a  grou p and not wan ting to de p e n d on peo plea nd made a fierceshowof being i n dependen t.

S he frequ ently sai d that she  wi she d w e h a d  m et after univ e r sity /t hat she  wa nted afut ure  wi thme , due toher prop en si ty  t o e ngage in "self -s abo ta gin g beh a viours " – c heat in g, pro miscuit y  i n youn ge rdays , d ru g tak inga ndgoing o ut drinki ng-  and  w as  scared  of ruining o ur  relations hi p.She al s o  frequen tly said that she was a f raid th atI was  goi ng to mee t s omeone  at univer sity.
Butat  th e samet i me , s he  said that , sin ce be in g at  univer sity, she rarely t h oug ht of me. She  im medi a t el y s t ar t ed“s e ein g ”  the guy she sh ared a bed  w i th  after wep art ed .

Howis it t hat s h e could  have mov ed on (ne wpart n e r &  seeming s o happy) /given up on ar el ation shi p of s uc h a ppare nt int e nsi ty so  quick ly ?WhenI rec ei ved midn ight phone calls saying  how s he "s o w anted ittow ork " and how  she  was "so a fra id"  I wa s g o ing t o me e tsom e one,wast his an in d ic ati o n  t hat she was g r iev ing f ort he rel atio nship, subconscio u sly knowing it  wou l d n't  wo r k, h en ce her apparen t q ui c k  recover y? Or is she j ust find in g  it v ery ea sy toignoret h es ituati on ( hen ce the em oti on shown w he nI  was a ctua ll y pres ent) - shes a id she rarely th inkso f  home and  does n' t missi t, w ouldn't ra ther be any whereelse  than  her dr ea m curr ent  u niversitye tc. – dra ma, l eadingto  a c are er inacti n g .

I’ m no tsur e whether s he fe el s  lo ve t o a l im ited  extent,h ence the  qu i ck reco ve ry/ l o ss ofi nt e r est,
 visit_would proceed_similarly. We never fought_and she_rarely_showed any_anger,_hating confrontation. She_would show annoyance_and impatience but denied_ever feeling jealousy.

She_seemed_to be very loving and affectionate during the right moments i.e. watching a movie/in_bed/after_sex (particularly_during_the_latter stages) but could also_be disinterested and condescending. She_could also_be quite selfish - "forgetting her wallet", buying_expensive_items despite owing_me money that I was in need of etc.

She_said that before she met me_she found it_very_difficult_to open up to_people emotionally, even to her previous_boyfriend of 2 years, and had_never discussed her previous issues surrounding eating_disorders, her parents’ divorce and her_issues with self-image (she was_very conscious_of her weight and looks_and had previously_suffered from_an eating disorder).

She_often said that she thought of_herself as an_individual, not needing to be part_of_a group and_not_wanting_to depend_on people and_made_a fierce_show_of being independent.

She frequently said that_she_wished we had met after university/that she_wanted a future with_me,_due to her propensity_to engage in "self-sabotaging behaviours"_– cheating, promiscuity in younger days,_drug taking_and going_out drinking - and was scared of ruining our relationship. She_also frequently said that she was_afraid that I was_going to_meet_someone at university.

But_at_the same_time, she said that, since being at_university, she_rarely thought of me. She immediately_started “seeing” the guy_she_shared a bed with after we_parted.

How is it that she could_have moved on (new partner_&_seeming_so happy)/given up on a_relationship of such apparent intensity so_quickly?When I received_midnight phone calls saying how she "so_wanted_it to work" and how she_was_"so afraid" I was going to_meet_someone,_was this an indication that_she was grieving for the relationship,_subconsciously knowing it wouldn't work, hence her apparent quick_recovery?Or is she_just finding it very easy_to_ignore_the situation (hence the emotion shown when I was actually_present) -_she said she_rarely thinks of home and doesn't miss it, wouldn't rather_be anywhere else than her dream current_university etc. – drama, leading to a career in acting.

I’m not_sure whether she feels love to a limited_extent, hence the quick recovery/loss of interest,