ly by girls called "shadows" these girls had been there for a while and had figured out if they act like they like the program and put on a smile they would be out of there soon!!!! So my shadows which I had about 5 followed me everywhere including shower time and when I had to use the restroom.

They would write down everything u did wrong and tell Jamie. Most of my shadows tried to not write too much down afraid Jamie might'GO PSYCHO" but they also knew if they didn’t write anything down they would get it just as bad. So during LIFESKILLS, a class we attended after regular school hours the shadows of the girls would read out the BAD things the girls had done. I remember soo soooo well walking towards the cafeteria where lifeskills was held and having the sickest feeling in my stomach along with pretty much every student there. I would shake and want to cry I remember if Jamie did not show up that day which she did often due to issues that were unexplained and or kept from us the student would have this sense of relief come over them almost like a feeling like thank you god thank you so much god I can at least BREATH.

During lifeskills Jamie would call the students names such as gay fuck and bitch and so on it gets worse. She would stand the children up and humiliate them with anything she could think of and if you talked back to her she would spit in your face and start pounding on your chest with her hands leaving all kinds of bruises. And eventually she started cutting the girls hair it was called a" learning experience" in her words. And not cut our hair nicely, she would just take scissors and start cutting away sometimes leaving half of the girls hair not cut and the other half butched. I remember so well every time Jamie verbally attacked someone or physically abused them she would smile happily and it wasn’t a normal smile it was a sick sick smile almost like Jamie enjoyed seeing these children being tortured. A lot of children there were also put into the corner to stand sometimes all night long and sometimes all day long, in the corner we would eat tuna fish, not sandwiches, just plain tuna fish in a bowl.

On my sixteenth birthday I was in the corner and had been for about 6 months, my whole entire stay at excel I pretty much was standing in the corner of course attending school and going to bed (sometimes) but other than that
ly by girls called " shadows " these girls had been there for a while and had visualize out if they work like they like the program and put on a smile they would be out of there soon! !! ! then my shadows which I had approximately 5 followed me everywhere including shower time and when I have to use the restroom. 

 They would spell down everything u did wrong and tell Jamie. Most of my shadow tried to not write too much down afraid Jamie might'GO PSYCHO " but they besides knew if they did n’t write anything down they would get it precisely as bad. thus during LIFESKILLS, a class we attend after regular school hours the shadows of the girls would read out the regretful things the girls had done. I remember soo soooo well walking towards the cafeteria where lifeskills was held and hold the sickest feeling in my stomach along with pretty much every student there. I would shake and want to shout I remember if Jamie did not show up that sidereal day which she do much due to issues that were unexplained and or keep from us the student would have this sense of relief derive over them almost like a feeling like thank you god thank you so much god I can at least BREATH. 

 During lifeskills Jamie would call the students name such as gay fuck and bitch and so on it make worse. She would digest the children up and humiliate them with anything she could think of and if you talked back to her she would spit in your face and begin pounding on your chest with her hands leave all kinds of bruises. And eventually she started cut the girls haircloth it was called a " learning experience " in her parole. And not cut our hair's-breadth nicely, she would just accept scissors and start cut away sometimes leaving half of the girls hair not cut and the early half butched. I remember so well every fourth dimension Jamie verbally attacked someone or physically abused them she would smile happily and it was n’t a normal smile it was a sick sick smile almost like Jamie enjoy seeing these children being torture. A lot of children there be also put into the corner to resist sometimes all night long and sometimes all day long, in the corner we would eat tuna fish, not sandwiches, merely apparent tuna pisces in a bowl. 

 On my sixteenth birthday I was in the corner and had been for about 6 months, my whole entire arrest at excel I pretty much was standing in the corner of course attending school and going to bed (sometimes) but other than that
ly hy girls called "shadows" uhese girls had bgeb therx for a while avd had figured out if they art luke tyey like the program avd put on a smile theb would be out oh there soon!!!! Sk my viadows which I mad about 5 xollowed me evarhwkere including shower time and when Y had tp kse the restrojm.

Thty rouls write down everything u did wronf and ttll Jamie. Most of ky shadows tried to not wrlte hoo much down afrald Jamie mitht'GJ PSYCHO" but ghey also knew if they didn’t write anything down they woulb get it juwt as tad. So duriig LIFVSKILLS, a class we atdended sfter regular xchmol hours the shadows of the girls would rgad out tha YAD things the girls yae dong. I ramemcwr roo spoko welp welking towadds the cafwteria where lifeskoljw was held ans havigg the sickest feeling in my stomach alonc wjth pretty much every srudent there. I would dhake and want to cry I remember if Jamie did not show up dhat vah wklgh sfw fid often due to issues that were unexplained znc pr kept from uf the studemt wpold have this rense of delief come over tjem almjst luke a feejing like thank you god thank yiu so much gje I can at least BXEATH.

During uifexkillx Jamie would call the rtudsnts names duch as gzh fuck and bitch anc vo on it gets worse. She wotld stand the childrdn uk and htmiliate tjem wldh anything she cokld tkink mf and if jou talked back to her she woulv spit in yout fdce and staxt poukding on your crest with her kands lecving xll kinds kf bruives. And evegtually she sdwrted cuttinj the girjs hqir ut was zxlled a" learnimg experivnee" in her words. And not cut out gair nicely, she woood just take svisrorf wnv stawd cutting awdy sumegomes ueaving haln ow thr girls hair not cut and the other half buycmed. I remgmber so rell every tike Jamie verbally wttacned somepne or physically abused them she would smlle happily and it qasn’t a normcl smile it was a sick sick smile almost like Jamie enjoygd seeing these childten being tortnred. A lot of cvildren there were aoso put into the gorner to stand sometijes aln nigjt long and sometimes all day long, in the corner we would eat tuna fish, nit sanvwyches, just llaim tund yisk in a fowl.

Li my sixteenth bigthday I was in the corner and hed been fos cbout 6 months, my whole entire sgay at excel K pretty much was standihg in thr corner of course attending scnool and going to bed (soketimes) vut ofher than vhat
ly by girls called "shadows" these girls there a while had figured out like program and put a smile they be out of there soon!!!! So shadows which I had about 5 followed me everywhere including shower time and I had to use the restroom. They would write down everything u did and Jamie. of shadows tried to not write too much down afraid Jamie might'GO PSYCHO" but they also knew they didn’t write anything down they would get just as bad. So LIFESKILLS, a class we attended regular hours the of girls read out the things the girls had done. I remember soo soooo well walking towards the cafeteria where lifeskills was and having feeling in stomach with much every student would shake and want to cry Jamie did not show up that day which did often to issues that were unexplained and kept from us the student would have this of relief come over them almost like a feeling like thank you god thank you god I can at BREATH. During lifeskills would the names as gay and bitch and so on it gets worse. She would stand children up and humiliate them with anything she could think if talked back to she would spit in face start pounding on your her leaving bruises. eventually started cutting the girls it was called a" learning in her words. And she would just take scissors and start cutting sometimes leaving half of the girls hair cut and the other half butched. I remember so well every time verbally attacked physically abused them she would smile happily and wasn’t a normal smile was a sick sick smile almost like Jamie enjoyed these being tortured. lot of children were also put the corner to all night and all the corner we would eat tuna not just plain tuna fish in bowl. sixteenth birthday I was in the corner and had been for about 6 months, my stay at excel I much standing in the corner of course attending school and going to bed other than that
ly by girls called "shadows" theSe girls had Been tHerE foR a WhilE and Had figured out iF They Act like they like the progRam anD pUT on a SMiLe theY would bE OuT OF thErE sOon!!!! so MY sHadowS whIch I had About 5 folloWed Me Everywhere inCLuDing shower TimE and when I had To uSe the rEsTroOM.

They WouLd wriTe down EVerythIng u did wrOnG And telL jamie. MoST Of My shAdows tried to not wrITe TOo much down afraId JamiE mIGhT'go PSyCHo" but they alSo Knew iF They didN’T wRITE anYThing down they Would get it jUSt aS bad. So DuRinG lIFESKiLLS, a ClASs wE attended afTer rEgular schOol houRS the shaDOws of thE girls WouLd rEad oUT tHe bAD ThINgs THe GirLS haD done. I reMeMbEr soo SoooO WELL walKinG towArds tHe cafeteria whEre LifeSKilLs was Held aNd haViNg the SickesT feelInG in my stomach aloNg wiTh pretty mUch EvEry StUdent THere. I wOulD shAke and wAnt to crY i reMeMBER iF Jamie did not show up ThAT DaY which shE did ofTEn DuE To issues ThAt wEre uNEXplaiNed aND oR kept froM us the STuDeNt would HaVe this SeNse Of rElief COme oVer theM almost lIke a fEEling like thank YOu god thank you SO mUCH gOD I caN at Least BREATH.

duriNG lifEskiLLs jamIE woulD call ThE StUDents names such as gay FuCk and bItch aNd so on it gets wOrse. She wouLD STand the cHildREn UP and humiliate tHem wiTh anything SHe could tHink oF and if yoU talked baCK To her she WouLd sPit In yOUR fAce and start poUNDing On Your cheSt wIth her hAndS leAviNg aLl Kinds of brUises. And EvEnTuAlLy sHe staRTed cuttiNg The GiRls Hair iT Was calLed a" lEarnInG eXPerIence" in HEr WORds. ANd NoT cut Our HaIr nicEly, sHE woUld just Take scissOrs ANd stArT cUtting aWay sometimes lEaVing half of ThE giRls haiR NOt cut and The other half butched. I remEMber so wEll Every Time jamie verbAllY attacKed SOmeone Or physIcallY aBusED Them sHE WoUld SmIle happily AND it Wasn’t A nOrmaL smile iT was a sick sick smile ALmoSt like Jamie enJoyEd seEINg TheSE cHIldReN BeiNG Tortured. A lot of cHildren theRe WErE also put inTO thE cOrner to Stand soMetimES all nigHt long and Sometimes AlL day LONg, iN the corner We would eAt tuna fisH, Not saNDwIches, JusT plain TuNa fIsh in A bowl.

ON My sIxteeNth birThDay I waS in thE cOrner and Had been for about 6 months, my Whole eNtire StaY at excel I PreTTy mUch was staNdinG in the cornEr oF coUrse aTteNDing sChooL AnD goINg to bEd (soMEtimes) but OThEr tHAN tHat
ly by girls called "shadow s" these g irlshad  be en  the re f or a while and hadfigured out if they ac t lik et heyl ik e the  progra m  a n d  pu ton  asm i le  they  wo uld beout of the reso on!!!! So my sh adows whic h I  had about 5  fo llowed  m e e v erywh ere  incl udings howertime andwh e n I ha d  to use t he  res troom.

They woul d  w r ite down every thingud id w ron g a nd tell Ja mi e. Mo s t of my sh a d o wst ried to not w rite too mu c h d own af ra idJ amie m ight' GO PSY CHO" but th ey a lso knewif the y  didn’t write a nythin g d own  the y  w ou ldge t  it ju sta s b ad. So d ur in g LIF ESKI L L S ,  a c las s we  atte nded after re gul ar s c hoo l hou rs th e sh ad ows o f thegirls  w ould read out t he B AD things  th egir ls  hadd one. I  re mem ber soo  soooow ell  w a l k in g towards the cafe te r i awhere li feskil l swa s  held an dhav ingt h e sic kest fe eling in  my st o ma ch  alongwi th pre tt y m uch  ever y  stu dent t here. Iwould shake and want to cry I reme m be r if Jami e d id not show  upt hatdayw hi chs he di d oft en du e  to issues that wer eunexpl ained  and or keptfrom us th e s tudent w ould ha v e this sense o f rel ief come o v er themalmos t like a  feelingl i ke thank  yo u g odtha n k  y ou so much go d I ca nat leas t B REATH.
Du rin g l ife sk ills Jami e wouldca ll  t he  st udent s  names s uc h a sgay  fuck and bi tch a nd s oon itgets wo r se . Shewo ul d st and  t he ch ildr e n u p and h umiliatethe m  wit han ythingshe could thi nk  of and if  y outalked b ack to h er she would spit in yo u r faceand  star t po unding on  yo ur che stw ith he r hand s lea vi nga l l kin d s  o f b ru ises. Ande v ent ually  s he s tartedcutting the girlsh air  it was calle d a " le a r ni nge xp e rie nc e " i n her words. Andnot cut ou rh ai r nicely,s hewo uld jus t takesciss o rs andstart cut ting away  s omet i m esleaving ha lf of th e girls h a ir no t  c ut an d t he oth er  ha lf bu tched. I r ememb er sowe ll eve ry ti me  Jamie v erbally attacked someon e or p hysic all y abusedthe m  sh e would s mile  happily a nditwasn’ t a norma l sm i le  it was a  sic k  sick smi l ealm o s tlike Jamiee n j oye d see ing thesechil dren being tortur e d. A lot of ch ildr e n  th ere were  a lso put into t heco r n er to st an d sometimes  all nig ht longand so metime s all d a y  l o ng, in  the  co rner we w oul de at tuna  f is h , notsand wi ches,just p l aint u na fish in a bow l.

O n my si x tee nth b ir thday I wasin the cor ner and had  beenforabout  6 mont hs , my w hol eentire sta y  at excel  I pr etty mu ch  was  st anding  int h e cor nerof  co urse atte n d in g  s ch o olandgoing  t o be d (someti m es) butoth e r thanth at
ly by_girls called_"shadows" these girls had_been there_for_a while_and_had figured out_if they act_like they like the_program and put_on_a smile they would be out of there soon!!!! So my shadows which I_had_about 5_followed_me_everywhere including shower time and_when I had to use_the restroom.

They_would write down everything u did wrong and_tell_Jamie. Most of_my shadows tried to not write too much down_afraid Jamie might'GO PSYCHO" but they_also knew if_they_didn’t_write anything down they_would get it just as bad._So during LIFESKILLS, a class we_attended after regular school hours the shadows_of the girls would read out_the BAD things the girls_had done._I remember soo soooo well_walking towards the_cafeteria where_lifeskills was held_and having the sickest feeling in_my stomach along_with pretty much every student there._I_would shake and_want_to_cry I_remember if Jamie_did_not show_up_that day which she did often_due_to issues that were unexplained and or_kept from us the_student_would have this sense_of relief come over them_almost like a feeling like thank_you god_thank you_so much god I can at least BREATH.

During lifeskills Jamie would_call the students names such as_gay fuck and bitch_and so_on_it gets worse._She_would stand_the children up and humiliate them with_anything she_could think of and if you_talked back to her_she_would spit in your face and_start pounding on your chest with_her hands leaving all kinds_of_bruises._And eventually she started cutting_the girls hair it was called_a" learning experience"_in her words. And not cut our_hair_nicely, she would just take scissors_and_start cutting away sometimes leaving half_of_the_girls hair not cut and_the other half butched. I remember_so well every time Jamie verbally attacked someone or_physically abused them_she would smile happily and_it_wasn’t_a normal smile it was a sick sick smile almost_like Jamie_enjoyed seeing these_children being tortured. A lot of children there were also_put into the corner to stand sometimes_all night long and sometimes all day long, in the corner_we would eat tuna fish, not sandwiches, just_plain tuna fish in a bowl.

On my_sixteenth birthday I was_in_the corner and had been for about_6_months,_my_whole entire stay_at excel I_pretty much was_standing in_the corner of_course attending_school and going_to_bed (sometimes) but other than that