 to eliminate so much from my diet. I’m vegetarian, and I can’t have soy products or protein shakes or nuts. I guess I’m going to start eating meat again.

Aside for the food restrictions, there’s, again, really reeeally bad side effects, which apparently according to my research mysteriously go away after a few months and you’re left in bliss. With my history of medication, though, I’m not feeling very hopeful.

I just want something to work. I just want to feel better. I’m not expecting a miracle or a quick fix, just a little relief.

Yesterday my boss asked me to go downtown today to pick up some tax documents at the state’s local field office. I didn’t think they could provide the documents, but I didn’t have the nerve or desire to argue with him so I reluctantly agreed.

I’ve had to go to this field office a few times before. Each time, I’ve had to endure a rather difficult social situation because the receptionist is very attractive and socially adept. In other words, she’s beautiful and perfect, and I’m not. These thoughts happen in a split second and ensure that I will fail. Now, CBT has taught me to catch these thoughts before they happen, to counter them with positive, rational thoughts. But this never seems to happen quick enough. I sum up that she’s perfect and place her on a pedestal before my rational mind has a chance to kick in–and I’m left playing catch up.

Anyhow, earlier I started having anticipatory anxiety about the situation: Not only would I have to face this perfect being but I also don’t feel comfortable asking for the documents since I don’t think they could provide them. And so, I started coming up with ways to get out of going–

I could lie to my boss by telling him that I went and that they either didn’t have the documents or couldn’t give them to me.

I could call in sick.

I could call the tax office to see if they could even provide the documents.

The third choice seemed the most logical, but I’m terrified of making phone calls, especially when I have time to think about what I’m going to say beforehand, so I wanted to do the first choice. Eventually though, I talked myself into calling, which was horrible
to eliminate so much from my diet. I ’m vegetarian, and I ca n’t have soy product or protein trill or nuts. I guess I ’m going to begin eating meat again. 

 away for the food limitation, there ’s, again, really reeeally bad side effects, which obviously according to my research mysteriously go aside after a few months and you ’re left in bliss. With my history of medication, though, I ’m not feeling very hopeful. 

 I merely want something to work. I just desire to feel better. I ’m not expect a miracle or a quick repair, just a little relief. 

 Yesterday my boss asked me to plump downtown today to pick up some tax documents at the state ’s local field position. I did n’t think they could provide the documents, but I did n’t have the nerve or desire to argue with him so I reluctantly agreed. 

 I ’ve had to go to this battlefield office a few times ahead. Each meter, I ’ve had to endure a rather unmanageable social situation because the receptionist is very attractive and socially adept. In early words, she ’s beautiful and perfect, and I ’m not. These thoughts find in a split second and ensure that I will fail. Now, CBT has taught me to catch these thinking before they happen, to counter them with positive, rational thought. But this never seems to find immediate enough. I sum up that she ’s perfect and place her on a pedestal before my intellectual mind has a chance to kick in – and I ’m left playing catch up. 

 Anyhow, earlier I started have anticipatory anxiety about the position: Not only would I have to confront this perfect organism but I also do n’t feel comfortable asking for the documents since I do n’t intend they could provide them. And so, I started coming up with ways to grow out of going – 

 I could lie down to my boss by telling him that I went and that they either did n’t have the documents or could n’t yield them to me. 

 I could call in sick. 

 I could name the tax office to see if they could even provide the documents. 

 The third choice seemed the about logical, but I ’m terrified of making phone calls, especially when I have time to remember about what I ’m plump to say beforehand, so I wanted to do the first option. Eventually though, I talked myself into calling, which was horrible
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Anyhow, earliec I started hsvhng anticipctory snxiety about the situation: Not onjy wojld I have to facx this perfest being but H also don’t fxel comfowtaboe awking fuf the documentx since I don’t thinj they could provive tfsm. And so, I staxued coming up with wahs eo gxt oue of going–

I cmuld lid to mh boss by tcllkng nim that I went and dhat they either didn’t hwve the eocumentf or couldn’t bive them to me.

I cluld rall ii sick.

O cjuld call the tax office to ses if they comld even provyde bhe qocuments.

Tke third choice seemed the most logical, uut I’m terrified of makung phone calls, espgcislly when I have time to dhink about what I’m toing to say befovehand, so I wanted to so the firsh choice. Eventually though, I talked myself into calling, which was horriblw
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 to eliminate so much from my diEt. I’m vegetaRian, aNd I Can’T hAve sOy prOducts or proteiN ShakEs or nuts. I guess I’m going tO starT eATing MEaT agaiN.

Aside fOR tHE FooD rEsTriCtIOnS, therE’s, aGain, reaLly reeeallY baD sIde effects, whICh Apparently AccOrding to my reSeaRch mysTeRioUSly go AwaY afteR a few mONths anD you’re lefT iN Bliss. WITh my hisTORy Of meDication, though, I’m nOT fEEling very hopefUl.

I jusT wANt SOMetHinG to work. I juSt Want tO Feel betTEr. i’M NOt eXPecting a miracLe or a quick fIX, juSt a litTlE reLIef.

YesTerdaY mY BosS asked me to gO dowNtown todaY to picK Up some tAX documeNts at tHe sTatE’s loCAl FiEld OfFIce. i DiDn’t THinK they couLd PrOvide The dOCUMEnts, But i didN’t havE the nerve or deSirE to aRGue With hIm so I ReluCtAntly Agreed.

i’ve haD tO go to this field oFficE a few timeS beFoRe. EAcH time, i’Ve had tO enDurE a ratheR difficULt sOcIAL SiTuation because the rEcEPTiOnist is vEry attRAcTiVE and sociAlLy aDept. iN Other WordS, ShE’s beautiFul and PErFeCt, and I’m NoT. These ThOugHts HappeN In a sPlit seCond and eNsure THat I will fail. NoW, cBT has taught mE To CATcH ThesE thOughts beforE theY HappEn, to COuNteR Them wIth poSiTIvE, Rational thoughts. But ThIs neveR seemS to happen quicK enough. I suM UP That she’s PerfECt ANd place her on a pEdestAl before my RAtional mInd haS a chance To kick in–aND i’m left plAyiNg cAtcH up.

aNYhOw, earlier I staRTEd haViNg anticIpaTory anxIetY abOut The SiTuation: NoT only wouLd i hAvE tO faCe thiS Perfect bEiNg bUt i alSo don’T Feel coMfortAble AsKiNG foR the docUMeNTS sinCe i dOn’t tHinK tHey coUld pROviDe them. ANd so, I starTed COminG uP wIth ways To get out of goiNg–

i could lie tO mY boSs by teLLIng him thAt I went and that they eitheR Didn’t haVe tHe docUmenTs or couldN’t gIve theM to ME.

I coulD call iN sick.

i cOulD CAll thE TAx OffIcE to see if thEY CouLd eveN pRoviDe the doCuments.

The third choICe sEemed the most lOgiCal, bUT i’m TerRIfIEd oF mAKinG PHone calls, especiAlly when I hAvE TiMe to think aBOut WhAt I’m goiNg to say BeforEHand, so I Wanted to dO the first ChOice. eVEntUally thougH, I talked Myself intO CalliNG, wHich wAs hOrriblE
 to eliminate so much from  my diet.I’m v ege tar ia n, a nd I  can’t have so y  pro ducts or protein shake s ornu t s. I gu ess I ’m goin g  t o sta rt  e ati ng me at ag ain .

Asid e for thefoo drestrictions ,  t here’s, ag ain , really ree eal ly bad  s ide effec ts,  whic h appa r entlyaccording  t o  my re s earch m y s te riou sly go away after af ew months andyou’re  l e ft i n b lis s. With my  h istor y  of med i ca t i o n,t hough, I’m no t feeling v e ryhopefu l. 

I just w ant s om e thi ng to work.  I j ust wantto fee l  better .  I’m no t expe cti nga mi r ac le  or  a qui c kfix ,  ju st a lit tl erelie f.
Y e s t erda y m y bo ss as ked me to godow ntow n  to day t o pic k up  s ome t ax doc ument sat the state’sloca l field o ffi ce . I  d idn’t thinkthe y c ould pr ovide t h e d oc u m e nt s, but I didn’t ha ve t he  nerve o r desi r eto argue wi th  hi m so I  relu ctan t ly  agreed. 

I’ve ha dto go t othis f ie ldoff ice a fewtimesbefore.Eacht ime, I’ve hadt o endure a ra t he r di f ficu ltsocial situ atio n  bec ause th e r e cepti onist  i s  v e ry attractive and s oc iallyadept . In other wo rds, she’s b e autifulandp er f ect, and I’m n ot. T hese thoug h ts happe n ina splitsecond an d ensure t hat  Iwil l f a i l.  Now, CBT has t augh tme to c atc h these  th oug hts  be fo re they h appen, t oco un te r t hem w i th posit iv e,ra tio nal t h oughts . But  thi sne v erseems t o  h a p penqu ic k en oug h.  I su m up tha t she’s  perfectand plac ehe r on apedestal befo re  my ration al  mi nd has a  chanceto kick in–and I’m left playing  ca tch u p.
Anyhow, e arl ier Ista r ted ha ving a ntici pa tor y anxie t y  a bou tthe situat i o n:Not o nl y wo uld I h ave to face this p e rfe ct being butI a lsod o n’ t f e el com fo r tab l e  asking for the  documents  s i nc e I don’tt hin kthey co uld pro videt hem. An d so, I s tarted co mi ng u p wit h ways toget outof going– 
I co u ld  lietomy bos sbytelli ng him tha t I w ent an dthat t hey e it her didn ’t have the documents o r coul dn’tgiv e them to  me . 

I  could ca ll i n sick.

I  co uld  call  th e  taxoffi c etos ee if  the y  could ev e npro v i de  the docume n t s .
The t hir d  choic e se emed the most log i cal, but I’m t erri f i edofm akin gphone calls, e spe ci a l ly whenIhave time t o thinkab o ut wh at I’m  going  to say b ef o rehand , so  Iwanted to  do  t h e first  c ho i ce. Ev entu al ly tho ugh, I talk e d  myself into cal ling, w hichw ashorri bl e
 to_eliminate so_much from my diet._I’m vegetarian,_and_I can’t_have_soy products or_protein shakes or_nuts. I guess I’m_going to start_eating_meat again.

Aside for the food restrictions, there’s, again, really reeeally bad side effects, which_apparently_according to_my_research_mysteriously go away after a_few months and you’re left_in bliss._With my history of medication, though, I’m not_feeling_very hopeful.

I just_want something to work. I just want to feel_better. I’m not expecting a miracle_or a quick_fix,_just_a little relief.

Yesterday my_boss asked me to go downtown_today to pick up some tax_documents at the state’s local field office._I didn’t think they could provide_the documents, but I didn’t_have the_nerve or desire to argue_with him so_I reluctantly_agreed.

I’ve had to_go to this field office a_few times before._Each time, I’ve had to endure_a_rather difficult social_situation_because_the receptionist_is very attractive_and_socially adept._In_other words, she’s beautiful and perfect,_and_I’m not. These thoughts happen in a_split second and ensure_that_I will fail. Now,_CBT has taught me to_catch these thoughts before they happen,_to counter_them with_positive, rational thoughts. But this never seems to happen quick enough._I sum up that she’s perfect_and place her on_a pedestal_before_my rational mind_has_a chance_to kick in–and I’m left playing catch_up.

Anyhow, earlier_I started having anticipatory anxiety about_the situation: Not only_would_I have to face this perfect_being but I also don’t feel_comfortable asking for the documents_since_I_don’t think they could provide_them. And so, I started coming_up with ways_to get out of going–

I could lie_to_my boss by telling him that_I_went and that they either didn’t_have_the_documents or couldn’t give them_to me.

I could call in sick.

I_could call the tax office to see if they_could even provide_the documents.

The third choice seemed_the_most_logical, but I’m terrified of making phone calls, especially when_I have_time to think_about what I’m going to say beforehand, so I wanted_to do the first choice. Eventually though,_I talked myself into calling, which was horrible