 sick community was a bad idea.

He blinked, "What, why don't you date anymore? That's crazy. Is this still about Andy? Come on Megan, that was months ago. You should move on."

"It's not Andy. I just... well it's kind of a long story, but thank you anyway." That last part was harder to add this time. I needed to get out of there, but this was my apartment not theirs.

Feeling awkward and upset, I sat frozen. Thankfully, Mark, who had heard the whole exchange in the kitchen, returned and led Nathan back to their apartment before Nathan could argue anymore.

I went back to my room and climbed into my bed. At least, I could still have fun with my friends, just no more dates. My mind continued the thought, no more holding hands, no more kisses, and no more feeling extra special to just one person. I sniffed and wondered if this would ever get any easier.

I pulled out my scriptures for the first time in a long time. Maybe I could find solace there. I was just starting to read when I heard loud cheering and squealing sounds from the living room. Jackie burst in the door, "Megan, guess what? Kristen and Tony are engaged." I managed a weak smile, she hardly noticed before she bounced back down the hall. Tomorrow was soon enough to congratulate Kristen. I didn't think I could do it tonight. I picked my scriptures back up and tried to read. My prayer that night was a simple plea, "Heavenly Father, I can't do it anymore, please help me."

* * *

The next day, I woke up feeling a little better. Getting out of bed seemed easier. During my Church History class, we were talking about answers to prayer. I started to look for those answers in my life. There were times when I had found something that was lost. There was the time that I prayed for a friend who was sick and they had gotten better. I used to trust prayer so much. How long it had been since I had gotten an answer to my prayers?

Was Heavenly Father still listening? I thought of Christy and her constant watch over me when I was really lost. Then, I remembered the prayers that I had offered to learn to appreciate visiting teaching. Yes, she was an answer to that prayer. She had said the things that
sick community was a bad idea. 

 He flash, " What, why don't you date anymore? That's brainsick. Is this still about Andy? Come on Megan, that was calendar month ago. You should go on. " 

 " It's not Andy. I just... well it's kind of a long report, but thank you anyhow. " That last region was harder to add this prison term. I needed to get out of there, but this was my apartment not theirs. 

 feel awkward and upset, I sat frozen. Thankfully, Mark, who had heard the whole exchange in the kitchen, come back and led Nathan back to their apartment before Nathan could argue anymore. 

 I went back to my room and climbed into my layer. At least, I could still have fun with my friends, merely no more dates. My mind continued the thought, no more holding hand, no more kisses, and no more feeling extra special to just one person. I sniffed and wondered if this would ever get any easier. 

 I pulled out my scriptures for the first time in a long time. Maybe I could recover solace there. I was just start to understand when I heard loud cheering and squealing fathom from the living room. Jackie burst in the door, " Megan, guess what? Kristen and Tony are engage. " I managed a weak smile, she hardly noticed before she bounced back down the hall. Tomorrow was soon adequate to congratulate Kristen. I didn't think I could do it tonight. I picked my scriptures back up and tried to read. My entreaty that nox was a childlike plea, " Heavenly Father, I can't do it anymore, please help me. " 

 * * * 

 The future day, I woke up feeling a short better. Getting out of bed seemed easy. During my Church History class, we were lecture about answers to prayer. I start to look for those answer in my life. There cost times when I had find something that was lost. There was the time that I prayed for a friend who was ill and they had gotten good. I used to trust prayer indeed a lot. How long it had been since I had gotten an answer to my prayer? 

 Was Heavenly Father still listening? I thought of Christy and her constant watch over me when I was really lost. Then, I commemorate the prayers that I had offered to learn to appreciate visiting teaching. Yes, she was an solution to that prayer. She had said the thing that
 sifk community was a bad iaea.

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* * *

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sick community was a bad idea. He why you date That's crazy. Is on that was months You should move "It's not Andy. I just... well kind of a long story, but thank you anyway." That last part was to add this time. I needed to get out of there, but this my not Feeling and upset, I sat frozen. Thankfully, Mark, who had heard the whole exchange in the kitchen, and led Nathan back to their apartment before could argue anymore. I back to my room and into bed. At I still fun with my just no more dates. My mind continued the thought, no more holding hands, no more kisses, and more feeling to just person. sniffed wondered if this get any easier. I pulled out the first time in a long time. Maybe could find there. I was just starting to when I heard loud cheering and squealing sounds the living room. Jackie burst in the door, "Megan, guess what? Kristen and Tony are managed a weak smile, hardly noticed before bounced down hall. was soon to congratulate Kristen. I didn't think I could do it tonight. picked my scriptures back up and tried to read. My night a simple plea, Father, I can't do anymore, help me." * * next I a better. out of bed seemed During my Church History class, were talking about answers look for those answers in my life. There times when I had found something that lost. There was the time that I prayed for a friend who sick and gotten better. I used to trust prayer so How long it had since I had gotten an answer to my prayers? Heavenly still listening? thought of Christy her constant watch me when I lost. Then, remembered prayers offered to learn to appreciate visiting Yes, was an answer to that She the things that
 sick community was a bad idea.

HE blinked, "WhAt, why Don'T yoU dAte aNymoRe? That's crazy. Is THis sTill about Andy? Come on MegAn, thaT wAS monTHs Ago. YoU should MOvE ON."

"It'S nOt andY. I JUsT... well It's Kind of a Long story, bUt tHaNk you anyway." THAt Last part waS haRder to add thiS tiMe. I neeDeD to GEt out Of tHere, bUt this WAs my apArtment noT tHEirs.

FeELing awkWARd And uPset, I sat frozen. ThaNKfULly, Mark, who had hEard thE wHOlE EXchAngE in the kitcHeN, retuRNed and lED NATHAn bACk to their aparTment before nAthAn coulD aRguE AnymorE.

I wenT bACk tO my room and cLimbEd into my bEd. At leASt, I coulD Still haVe fun wIth My fRienDS, jUsT no MoRE daTEs. my mINd cOntinued ThE tHoughT, no mORE HOldiNg hAnds, No morE kisses, and no mOre FeelINg eXtra sPeciaL to jUsT one pErson. I SniffEd And wondered if thIs woUld ever geT anY eAsiEr.

i pullED out my ScrIptUres for The firsT TimE iN A LOnG time. Maybe I could fiNd SOLaCe there. I Was jusT StArTIng to reaD wHen i heaRD Loud cHeerINg And squeaLing soUNdS fRom the lIvIng rooM. JAckIe bUrst iN The dOor, "MegAn, guess wHat? KrISten and Tony are ENgaged." I manageD A wEAK sMIle, sHe hArdly noticeD befORe shE bouNCeD baCK down The haLl. tOmORrow was soon enough to CoNgratuLate KRisten. I didn't tHink I could DO IT tonight. i picKEd MY scriptures bacK up anD tried to reAD. My prayeR that Night was A simple plEA, "heavenly fatHer, i caN't dO IT aNymore, please hELP me."

* * *

THe Next day, i woKe up feeLinG a lIttLe bEtTer. GettinG out of beD sEeMeD eAsiEr. DurINg my ChurCh hisToRy cLass, wE Were taLking AbouT aNsWErs To prayeR. i sTARted To LoOk foR thOsE answErs iN My lIfe. TherE were timeS whEN I haD fOuNd sometHing that was loSt. there was thE tIme That I pRAYed for a fRiend who was sick and they hAD gotten BetTer. I uSed tO trust praYer So much. how LOng it hAd been Since i hAd gOTTen an ANSwEr tO mY prayers?

WaS hEavEnly FAtHer sTill lisTening? I thought of ChRIstY and her constaNt wAtch OVEr Me wHEn i Was ReALly LOSt. Then, I rememberEd the prayeRs THaT I had offerED to LeArn to apPreciatE visiTIng teacHing. Yes, shE was an ansWeR to tHAT prAyer. She had Said the tHings that
 sick community was a badidea.

Heblink ed,  "W ha t, w hy d on't you datea nymo re? That's crazy. Is t his s ti l l ab o ut  Andy ? Comeo nM e gan ,th atwa s  m onths  ag o. Youshould mov e o n. "

"It's not An dy. I just ...  well it's k ind  of alo ngs tory,  bu t tha nk you anyway ." That l as t  partw as hard e r  t o ad d this time. I ne e de d  to get out of  there ,b ut t his  wa s my apart me nt no t  theirs . 
F e e lin g  awkward andupset, I sa t  fr ozen.Th ank f ully,Mark,  w h o h ad heard th e wh ole excha nge in the kit c hen, re turned  an d l ed N a th an  ba ck tot he ira par tment be fo re  Nath an c o u l d  arg ueanym ore.
I went backtomy r o omand c limbe d in to  my b ed. At  leas t,  I could stillhave  fun with  my  f rie nd s, ju s t no m ore  da tes. My  mind c o nti nu e d th e thought, no more  h o l di ng hands , no m o re  k i sses, an dnomore f eelin g ex t ra  special  to ju s ton e perso n.  I sni ff edand  wond e redif thi s wouldeverg et any easier. 
I pulled out my s cr i ptur esfor the fir st t i me i n al on g t i me. M aybeIc ou l d find solace there .I wasjuststarting to r ead when I h e ard loud  che e ri n g and squealin g sou nds from t h e living  room . Jackie  burst in t he door,  "M ega n,gue s s  w hat? Kristena n d To ny  are en gag ed." Iman age d a  we ak  smile, s he hardl yno ti ce d b efore she boun ce d b ac k d own t h e hall . Tom orro wwa s  so on enou g ht o  con gr at ulat e K ri sten.  I d i dn' t think  I coulddoi t to ni gh t. I pi cked my scrip tu res back u pand  tried t o read.My prayer that night wa s  a simp leplea,  "He avenly Fa the r, I c an' t  do it  anymo re, p le ase h elp m e . "
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The nex t day , I w ok e up  feelin g a little better. Get ting out of b edseem e d  e asi e r. Dur in g  my C hurch History c lass, we w er e  t alking abo u t a ns wers to  prayer . I s t arted t o look fo r those a ns wers i n m y life. Th ere were  times wh e n I h a dfound  so methin gtha t was  lost. The re wa s theti me tha t I p ra yed fora friend who was sick a nd the y had  go tten bett er. I u sed to tr ustprayer somuc h.How l ong it ha d be e nsin c e I h ad g o tten an a n sw ert o  m y prayers?W a s H eaven lyF atherstil l listening? I th o ught of Christ y an d her  co n stan twatch over mewhe nI was real ly  lost. Then , I reme mb e red t he pra yers t hat I h a d  o f feredto l ear n to appr eci at e  visiti ng  t e aching . Ye s,  she w as ana nswe r to that prayer.She h a d  said the  thin gs  that
 sick_community was_a bad idea.

He blinked,_"What, why_don't_you date_anymore?_That's crazy. Is_this still about_Andy? Come on Megan,_that was months_ago._You should move on."

"It's not Andy. I just... well it's kind of a long_story,_but thank_you_anyway."_That last part was harder_to add this time. I_needed to_get out of there, but this was my_apartment_not theirs.

Feeling awkward_and upset, I sat frozen. Thankfully, Mark, who had_heard the whole exchange in the_kitchen, returned and_led_Nathan_back to their apartment_before Nathan could argue anymore.

I went_back to my room and climbed_into my bed. At least, I could_still have fun with my friends,_just no more dates. My_mind continued_the thought, no more holding_hands, no more_kisses, and_no more feeling_extra special to just one person._I sniffed and_wondered if this would ever get_any_easier.

I pulled out_my_scriptures_for the_first time in_a_long time._Maybe_I could find solace there. I_was_just starting to read when I heard_loud cheering and squealing_sounds_from the living room._Jackie burst in the door,_"Megan, guess what? Kristen and Tony_are engaged."_I managed_a weak smile, she hardly noticed before she bounced back down_the hall. Tomorrow was soon enough_to congratulate Kristen. I_didn't think_I_could do it_tonight._I picked_my scriptures back up and tried to_read. My_prayer that night was a simple_plea, "Heavenly Father, I_can't_do it anymore, please help me."

*_* *

The next day, I woke_up feeling a little better._Getting_out_of bed seemed easier. During_my Church History class, we were_talking about answers_to prayer. I started to look for_those_answers in my life. There were_times_when I had found something that_was_lost._There was the time that_I prayed for a friend who_was sick and they had gotten better. I used_to trust prayer_so much. How long it_had_been_since I had gotten an answer to my prayers?

Was Heavenly_Father still_listening? I thought_of Christy and her constant watch over me when I_was really lost. Then, I remembered the_prayers that I had offered to learn to appreciate visiting teaching._Yes, she was an answer to that prayer._She had said the things that