 was a push I didn't know how to resist. Maybe I just I wanted to believe what she said and what I felt in that moment, but I knew I should have stopped regardless of what she said or any other weird influences. I just...didn't know how in that moment. It was almost like I couldn't, but that doesn't make any sense.

Pacing, I can't focus on anything but what an ass I am. Kyran was right. When he came home yesterday looking like he was ready to take a swing at me, I didn't even try to talk him down. I wanted him to do it. After all, I would have deserved it. I deserve worse.

Whatever happens between Echo and me after this, I'll just have to take it and deal. How am I going to argue with her if she ends things?

I'm still pacing and berating myself when Kyran actually comes out of his room. The same scowl is still there to greet me, but he surprises me by actually speaking. "Echo wants you to meet her. Twenty minutes. Starbucks on the corner."

That's it, and he seems pissed to have had to deliver even that short message. The fact that she called him and not me makes my stomach drop. We're over. She just wants to tell me in person. It almost would have been better if she'd just sent a text. I don't know if I can face her. Kyran has already disappeared back into his room, and there's no way I'm going to tell him to tell her I'm not coming. He'll murder me in my sleep.

I suspected Kyran had a thing for Echo since before she got here. Well, I think he's had a thing for her from a distance for a long time. Now, though, I realize just how deep his affection for her goes. He's never been this pissed at me before. No way I'm doing anything he might interpret as me hurting her even worse. Swallowing hard, I decide I better just get this over with and head for the door.

I don't drive. Starbucks is only two blocks away, so it's a short trip either way, but I'm not in any hurry to be dumped even though I know I deserve it. In reality, I need the extra time to try to somehow prepare myself for this. Shaking the feeling that I've screwed up so much more than just my
was a push I didn't know how to resist. Maybe I barely I want to believe what she said and what I felt in that consequence, but I knew I should have stopped regardless of what she order or any other weird influence. I just... didn't know how in that consequence. It was almost like I couldn't, but that doesn't make any common sense. 

 Pacing, I can't focus on anything but what an ass I am. Kyran was right. When he came home yesterday looking like he was ready to take a lilt at me, I didn't even try to talk him down. I wanted him to practice it. After all, I would have deserved it. I deserve worse. 

 Whatever happen between Echo and me after this, I'll just have to take it and deal. How am I going to argue with her if she end things? 

 I'm still pacing and berating myself when Kyran actually comes out of his room. The same scowl is still there to greet me, but he surprises me by actually speaking. " Echo wants you to meet her. Twenty minutes. Starbucks on the corner. " 

 That's it, and he seems pissed to have had to hand over even that short message. The fact that she called him and not me make my abdomen drop curtain. We're over. She just want to assure me in person. It almost would have been better if she'd barely sent a text. I don't know if I can face her. Kyran has already disappeared back into his room, and there's no way I'm move to tell him to tell her I'm not coming. He'll murder me in my rest. 

 I suspected Kyran induce a thing for Echo since before she got here. Well, I think he's had a thing for her from a distance for a retentive time. Now, though, I realize barely how deep his affection for her goes. He's never been this pissed at me before. No room I'm doing anything he might represent as me hurting her even worse. swallow hard, I decide I well just catch this over with and head for the doorway. 

 I don't drive. Starbucks is only two blocks aside, so it's a brusque trip either way, but I'm not in any hurry to be dumped even though I know I deserve it. In reality, I need the extra time to test to somehow prepare myself for this. Shaking the impression that I've screwed up so much more than just my
 wad a push I didn't know hod to resist. Mayyw I juvt I wznted to believe what she said and wiat U felu in that moment, bug I knew P should yave wtopped rejzrdless of whzb she waid or any otmer weird itfluences. I juvt...aibn't know how in that moment. It was ajmost lokf I couldn't, buj thau djesn'f make any sense.

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I'm still pacing and btraepmg myself whsn Kyrwn actually comes out of his room. The samt scosl is still there to grwet me, but he surprisgs me by astually speaking. "Echo wants you to meet her. Twentf minntds. Wtwfvufks on the corner."

That's it, and he seems pissed fo hsve had to dellver even that shott mrfsage. The facj that she called him and noh me mahes mt stomach drol. We're over. She just wants ro tell me iu pwrson. It almost wobld have beeu bettgr if xhe'd just sent a text. I don'f know if I can face fer. Kyran has alfeacy disappeared back into his room, and thexe's no wxy I'k goind to tell jim to tell her I'm not clming. Ha'll murder me in my sleep.

I suspected Kyrai had a thing fmr Vcho sincz befove she got here. Well, I think ke's had c thine for her rrom a vistance for a long time. Tlw, though, I cealize jtst yow eeep hir affection for her goes. He's never been this pissed et mg gefore. No way I'n diing anything hr mkghe pntxrpree as me hurtitg hdr dfen wurse. Swallocivg hsrd, I decide I bettes juat get this over wotm and heae for thq door.

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was a push I didn't know how Maybe just I to believe what felt that moment, but knew I should stopped regardless of what she said any other weird influences. I just...didn't know how in that moment. It was like I couldn't, but that doesn't make any sense. Pacing, I can't focus anything what ass am. Kyran was right. When he came home yesterday looking like he was ready to take swing at me, I didn't even try to him down. I wanted to do it. After all, would deserved it. deserve Whatever between Echo and after this, I'll just have to take it and deal. How am I going to argue with if she I'm still and myself Kyran actually comes his room. The same scowl is greet me, but he surprises me by actually "Echo wants to meet her. Twenty minutes. Starbucks the corner." That's it, and he seems pissed have had to deliver even that short message. The fact that she called him and makes my stomach drop. over. She just to me person. almost would been better if she'd just sent a text. I don't know I can face her. Kyran has already disappeared back into and no way I'm to tell him to her not coming. He'll murder my I a for since before she got Well, I think he's had thing for her from time. Now, though, I realize just how deep affection for her goes. He's never been pissed at me before. No way I'm doing anything he might interpret me hurting worse. Swallowing hard, I decide I better just this over with and for the door. I don't drive. Starbucks is only blocks so it's short trip either but I'm not any hurry to even though know deserve I need the extra time to to prepare myself for this. Shaking feeling screwed up so much more than just my
 was a push I didn't know how to reSist. Maybe I Just I WanTed To BeliEve wHat she said and wHAt I fElt in that moment, but I kneW I shoUlD Have SToPped rEgardleSS oF WHat ShE sAid Or ANy Other WeiRd influEnces. I just...DidN't Know how in thaT MoMent. It was aLmoSt like I couldN't, bUt that DoEsn'T Make aNy sEnse.

PAcing, I CAn't focUs on anythInG But whaT An ass I aM. kYrAn waS right. When he came hOMe YEsterday lookinG like hE wAS rEADy tO taKe a swing at Me, i didn'T Even try TO tALK Him DOwn. I wanted him To do it. After ALl, I Would hAvE deSErved iT. I desErVE woRse.

Whatever HappEns betweeN Echo aND me afteR This, I'll Just haVe tO taKe it ANd DeAl. HOw AM I gOInG to ARguE with her If ShE ends ThinGS?

i'M StilL paCing And beRating myself wHen kyraN ActUally Comes Out oF hIs rooM. The saMe scoWl Is still there to gReet Me, but he suRprIsEs mE bY actuALly speAkiNg. "ECho wantS you to mEEt hEr. tWENtY minutes. Starbucks oN tHE CoRner."

That'S it, and HE sEeMS pissed tO hAve Had tO DEliveR eveN ThAt short mEssage. tHe FaCt that sHe Called HiM anD noT me maKEs my StomacH drop. We'rE over. sHe just wants to tELl me in person. IT AlMOSt WOuld HavE been better If shE'D jusT senT A tExt. i Don't kNow if i cAN fACe her. Kyran has alreadY dIsappeAred bAck into his rooM, and there's NO WAy I'm goinG to tELl HIm to tell her I'm nOt comIng. He'll murDEr me in my Sleep.

i suspectEd Kyran haD A Thing for echO siNce BefORE sHe got here. Well, i THink He'S had a thIng For her fRom A diStaNce FoR a long timE. Now, thouGh, i rEaLiZe jUst hoW Deep his aFfEctIoN foR her gOEs. He's nEver bEen tHiS pISseD at me beFOrE. nO way i'm DoIng aNytHiNg he mIght INteRpret as Me hurting Her EVen wOrSe. swallowIng hard, I decidE I Better just GeT thIs over WITh and heaD for the door.

I don't drive. StARbucks iS onLy two BlocKs away, so iT's a Short tRip EIther wAy, but I'M not iN aNy hURRy to bE DUmPed EvEn though I kNOW I dEservE iT. In rEality, I Need the extra time to TRy tO somehow prepaRe mYselF FOr ThiS. shAKinG tHE feELIng that I've screwEd up so much MoRE tHan just my
 was a push I didn't knowhow to res ist.May beIjust  I w anted to belie v e wh at she said and what I  felt  i n  tha t  m oment , but I kn e w  Ish ou ldha v estopp edregardl ess of wha t s he  said or any ot her weirdinf luences. I j ust ...did n' t k n ow ho w i n tha t mome n t. Itwas almos tl ike Ic ouldn't , bu t th at doesn't make a n ys ense.

Pacing,  I can 't fo c u s o n a nything bu twhata n ass I am . K yra n  was right. W hen he came hom e yest er day lookin g lik eh e w as ready to  tak e a swing  at me ,  I didn ' t eventry to  ta lkhimd ow n.  Iwa n ted hi m t o  do  it. Aft er  a ll, I  wou l d h avedes erve d it.  I deserve wo rse .

W h ate ver h appen s be tw een E cho an d meaf ter this, I'lljust  have totak eitan d dea l . HowamI g oing to  arguew ith  h e r if  she ends things?
I ' m  s till pac ing an d  b er a ting mys el f w henK y ran a ctua l ly  comes o ut ofh is  r oom. Th esame s co wlisstill ther e to g reet me,  buth e surprises me by actually s p ea k i ng .  "Ec howants you t o me e t he r. T w en tym inute s. St ar b uc k s on the corner."
Th at's i t, an d he seems pi ssed to ha v e had to d eliv e re ven that short  mess age. The f a ct thatshe c alled hi m and not m e makesmysto mac h d r o p.  We're over.S h e ju st  wantstotell me  in  pe rso n.It  almost w ould hav ebe en  b ett er if she'd ju st  se nt  atext. I don' t kno w if  I  c a n f ace her .  K y r an h as  a lrea dydi sappe ared bac k intohis room,  an d  the re 's  no way  I'm going to  t ell him to  t ell  her I ' m  not com ing. He'll murder me in my slee p.
I su spec ted Kyran  ha d a th ing for Ec ho sin ce be fo res h e got h er e.We ll, I thin k he' s had  a  thi ng forher from a distanc e  fo r a long time . N ow,t h ou gh, Ir eal iz e  ju s t  how deep his a ffection f or he r goes. He ' s n ev er been  this p issed at me b efore. No  way I'mdo inga n yth ing he mig ht inter pret as m e  hurt i ng  hereve n wors e.  Sw allow ing ha r d,I dec ide Ibe tter j ust g et  this ov er with and head for th e door .

Idon 't drive.  St a rbu cks is on ly t wo blocksawa y,so it 'sa  shor t tr i peit h er wa y, b u t I'm not in  an y hu rry to be d u m p edeventho u gh I k nowI deserve it. Inr eality, I need  the e xtr a t i me t otry to somehow  pr ep a r e myself  f or this. Sh aking th ef eelin g that  I'vescrewed u ps o much  mor e t han justmy
 was_a push_I didn't know how_to resist._Maybe_I just_I_wanted to believe_what she said_and what I felt_in that moment,_but_I knew I should have stopped regardless of what she said or any other_weird_influences. I_just...didn't_know_how in that moment. It_was almost like I couldn't,_but that_doesn't make any sense.

Pacing, I can't focus on_anything_but what an_ass I am. Kyran was right. When he came_home yesterday looking like he was_ready to take_a_swing_at me, I didn't_even try to talk him down._I wanted him to do it._After all, I would have deserved it._I deserve worse.

Whatever happens between Echo_and me after this, I'll_just have_to take it and deal._How am I_going to_argue with her_if she ends things?

I'm still pacing_and berating myself_when Kyran actually comes out of_his_room. The same_scowl_is_still there_to greet me,_but_he surprises_me_by actually speaking. "Echo wants you_to_meet her. Twenty minutes. Starbucks on the_corner."

That's it, and he_seems_pissed to have had_to deliver even that short_message. The fact that she called_him and_not me_makes my stomach drop. We're over. She just wants to tell_me in person. It almost would_have been better if_she'd just_sent_a text. I_don't_know if_I can face her. Kyran has already_disappeared back_into his room, and there's no_way I'm going to_tell_him to tell her I'm not_coming. He'll murder me in my_sleep.

I suspected Kyran had a_thing_for_Echo since before she got_here. Well, I think he's had_a thing for_her from a distance for a long_time._Now, though, I realize just how_deep_his affection for her goes. He's_never_been_this pissed at me before._No way I'm doing anything he_might interpret as me hurting her even worse. Swallowing_hard, I decide_I better just get this_over_with_and head for the door.

I don't drive. Starbucks is only_two blocks_away, so it's_a short trip either way, but I'm not in any_hurry to be dumped even though I_know I deserve it. In reality, I need the extra time_to try to somehow prepare myself for this._Shaking the feeling that I've screwed up_so much more than_just_my