 in ruins.

Maybe I should go home, but what would that solve? Then I would be even more of a loser. I couldn't become more of a burden to my family.

Dad's calls were harder to ignore than my roommates. When I didn't answer, he texted me. Seriously, Dad never texted, so I knew I couldn't keep putting him off.

"Hi Dad,"

"How are things going, Megan?"

"About the same. How are you guys? Did Kelly have another recital yet?"

"We can talk about Kelly some other time. I want to hear about you."

"Really Dad, I don't know what to tell you. School's going okay and work is work. In fact, I need to head off to class now. Love you, bye."

I didn't want to hurt him, but I didn't want to talk to anyone. Nothing that anyone said could make it better so I just wanted to not talk about it and forget.

My Dad and roommates weren't the only one's checking up on me. Christy, one of my visiting teachers, called or came by at least once a week to see how things were going. I tried to be polite and cheerful when she did, but it was hard to put the brave face on for too long. It was nice that she was trying, but the last thing I needed was a visiting teacher digging for my secrets and then spreading them around the ward.

My uncharitable thoughts about her disappeared one day when she stopped me, as I was walking into my apartment. I invited her in, hoping that the place would be full of roommates she could talk to instead of me. To my dismay, we were all alone.

"Megan, I can't stop thinking about you."

"I'm okay, you don't need to worry."

"It's okay if you don't want to talk about it. I understand. I just want to tell you that I know Heavenly Father loves you."

"That's a nice thought. Thanks," I said, forcing a smile.

"Megan, I'm not telling you this because we have learned it in church since we were sunbeams." She paused trying to find the words that she wanted to say, "I know He loves you because he keeps reminding me that He loves you."

I looked
in ruins. 

 Maybe I should go home, but what would that solve? Then I would be even more of a failure. I couldn't become more of a load to my family. 

 Dad's calls were hard to neglect than my roommates. When I didn't answer, he texted me. badly, Dad never texted, so I knew I couldn't keep putting him off. 

 " Hi Dad, " 

 " How are thing going, Megan? " 

 " About the like. How are you guys? Did Kelly have another recital yet? " 

 " We can spill the beans about Kelly some other time. I want to hear about you. " 

 " Really Dad, I don't know what to state you. School's going okay and work is work. In fact, I want to head off to class now. Love you, bye. " 

 I didn't desire to hurt him, but I didn't desire to talk to anyone. Nothing that anyone said could make it better then I just wanted to not talk about it and forget. 

 My Dad and roommates weren't the only one's check up on me. Christy, one of my visiting teachers, called or came by at least once a week to see how things were going. I tried to be polite and cheerful when she act, but it was hard to put the audacious grimace on for besides long. It was nice that she was trying, but the final thing I needed was a visiting teacher digging for my mystery and then spreading them around the ward. 

 My uncharitable thoughts about her disappeared one day when she stopped me, as I was walk into my apartment. I invited her in, hoping that the place would be full of roommates she could talk to alternatively of me. To my dismay, we were all alone. 

 " Megan, I can't stop thinking about you. " 

 " I'm okay, you don't necessitate to worry. " 

 " It's okay if you don't want to spill the beans about it. I understand. I just want to tell you that I sleep together Heavenly Father loves you. " 

 " That's a dainty thought. Thanks, " I said, storm a smile. 

 " Megan, I'm not telling you this because we have learn it in church since we were sunbeam. " She paused trying to recover the words that she wanted to say, " I know He sleep together you because he keeps reminding me that He loves you. " 

 I looked
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 in ruins.

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DAd's caLls were HArDER to IgNoRe tHaN My RoommAteS. When I dIdn't answer, He tExTed me. SeriousLY, DAd never texTed, So I knew I coulDn't Keep puTtIng HIm off.

"hi DAd,"

"How Are thiNGs goinG, Megan?"

"AboUt THe same. hOw are yoU GUyS? Did kelly have another rECiTAl yet?"

"We can talk About KElLY sOME otHer Time. I want tO hEar abOUt you."

"ReALlY dAD, I dON't know what to tEll you. SchooL'S goIng okaY aNd wORk is woRk. In fAcT, i neEd to head off To clAss now. LovE you, byE."

i didn't wANt to hurT him, buT I dIdn'T wanT To TaLk tO aNYonE. noThiNG thAt anyone SaId Could Make IT BETter So I Just WanteD to not talk aboUt iT and FOrgEt.

My DAd and RoomMaTes weRen't thE only OnE's checking up on mE. ChrIsty, one of My vIsItiNg TeachERs, callEd oR caMe by at lEast oncE A weEk TO SEe How things were going. i tRIEd To be poliTe and cHEeRfUL when she DiD, buT it wAS Hard tO put THe Brave facE on for TOo LoNg. It was NiCe that ShE waS trYing, bUT the Last thIng I needEd was A Visiting teacheR Digging for my sECrETS aND theN spReading them ArouND the Ward.

mY uNchARitabLe thoUgHTs ABout her disappeared oNe Day wheN she sTopped me, as I waS walking inTO MY apartmeNt. I iNViTEd her in, hoping tHat thE place woulD Be full of RoommAtes she cOuld talk tO INstead of Me. TO my DisMay, WE WeRe all alone.

"MegAN, i can'T sTop thinKinG about yOu."

"I'M okAy, yOu dOn'T need to woRry."

"It's okAy If YoU dOn't Want tO Talk abouT iT. I uNdErsTand. I JUst wanT to teLl yoU tHaT i knOw HeaveNLy fATher LoVeS you."

"thaT's A nice ThouGHt. THanks," I sAid, forcinG a sMIle.

"MEgAn, i'm not teLling you this bEcAuse we have LeArnEd it in CHUrch sincE we were sunbeams." She pauseD Trying tO fiNd the WordS that she wAntEd to saY, "I kNOw He loVes you BecauSe He kEEPs remINDiNg mE tHat He loves YOU."

I lOoked
 in ruins.

Maybe I should  go home,but w hat  wo ul d th at s olve? Then I w o uldbe even more of a lose r. Ico u ldn' t  b ecome  more o f  a b urd en  t o m yf am ily.
Da d's cal ls were ha rde rto ignore th a nmy roommat es.  When I didn 'tanswer ,het exted  me . Ser iously ,  Dad n ever text ed ,  so Ik new I c o u ld n'tkeep putting himo ff . 

"Hi Dad,"

" How ar et hi n g s g oin g, Megan?" 
"Abou t  the sa m e. H o w a r e you guys? D id Kelly ha v e a nother  r eci t al yet ?"

" We can  talk about  Kel ly some o ther t i me. I w a nt to h ear ab out  yo u.""R ea lly  D a d,I  d on' t  kn ow whatto  t ell y ou.S c h o ol's  go ingokayand work is w ork . In fac t, Ineedto h ea d off  to cl ass n ow . Love you, bye ."
I didn'twan ttohu rt hi m , butI d idn 't want  to tal k  to  a n y o ne . Nothing that any on e sa id could  makei tbe t ter so I  j ust  wan t e d tonott al k aboutit and fo rg et.

My  D ad and  r oom mat es we r en't  the o nly one' s che c king up on me. Christy, oneo fm y  v i siti ngteachers, c alle d  orcame by  at least  once  a we e k to see how things  w ere go ing.I tried to be  polite an d c heerfulwhen sh e  did, but it w as ha rd to putt he brave  face  on fortoo long. I t was ni cetha t s hew a strying, but t h e  las tthing I  ne eded wa s a  vi sit ing  t eacher di gging fo rmy  s ec ret s and then spr ea din gthe m aro u nd the  ward .

M yun c har itablet ho u g htsab ou t he r d is appea redo neday whe n she sto ppe d  me,  a sI was w alking into m yapartment.  I  in vitedh e r in, ho ping that the place wou l d be fu llof ro omma tes she c oul d talk  to instea d of m e. To  m y d i s may,w e  w ere  a ll alone." Meg an, I  c an't  stop t hinking about you. " 

" I'm okay, you  do n'tn e ed  to wo r ry. ""It ' s  okay if you do n't want t ot al k about it .  Iun derstan d. I ju st wa n t to te ll you th at I know  H eave n l y F ather love s you."
"That'sa  nice th ought . T hanks, "I s aid,forcin g  asmile .

"Me ga n, I'm  notte lling yo u this because we havelearne d itinchurch si nce wewere sunb eams ." She pau sed  tr yingtof ind t he w o rd s t h at sh e wa n ted to sa y ,"Ik n ow  He loves y o u bec ausehek eeps r emin ding me that He l o ves you."

I l ooke d 
 in_ruins.

Maybe I_should go home, but_what would_that_solve? Then_I_would be even_more of a_loser. I couldn't become_more of a_burden_to my family.

Dad's calls were harder to ignore than my roommates. When I didn't_answer,_he texted_me._Seriously,_Dad never texted, so I_knew I couldn't keep putting_him off.

"Hi_Dad,"

"How are things going, Megan?"

"About the same. How_are_you guys? Did_Kelly have another recital yet?"

"We can talk about Kelly_some other time. I want to_hear about you."

"Really_Dad,_I_don't know what to_tell you. School's going okay and_work is work. In fact, I_need to head off to class now._Love you, bye."

I didn't want to_hurt him, but I didn't_want to_talk to anyone. Nothing that_anyone said could_make it_better so I_just wanted to not talk about_it and forget.

My_Dad and roommates weren't the only_one's_checking up on_me._Christy,_one of_my visiting teachers,_called_or came_by_at least once a week to_see_how things were going. I tried to_be polite and cheerful_when_she did, but it_was hard to put the_brave face on for too long._It was_nice that_she was trying, but the last thing I needed was a_visiting teacher digging for my secrets_and then spreading them_around the_ward.

My_uncharitable thoughts about_her_disappeared one_day when she stopped me, as I_was walking_into my apartment. I invited her_in, hoping that the_place_would be full of roommates she_could talk to instead of me._To my dismay, we were_all_alone.

"Megan,_I can't stop thinking about_you."

"I'm okay, you don't need to_worry."

"It's okay if_you don't want to talk about it._I_understand. I just want to tell_you_that I know Heavenly Father loves_you."

"That's_a_nice thought. Thanks," I said,_forcing a smile.

"Megan, I'm not telling_you this because we have learned it in church_since we were_sunbeams." She paused trying to_find_the_words that she wanted to say, "I know He loves_you because_he keeps reminding_me that He loves you."

I looked