i really felt known when i was reading your post in the past year due to how my body carries stress ive lost a lot of weight and along with worsening mental health sometimes it feels like i am wasting away and losing the will to continue thriving and existing you absolutely didnt waste my time by reading this if anything i am glad i got to read something so profoundly similar to my own internal monologue the past few months i appreciate you at the end of the day for me what has kept me alive is ongoing therapy giving me a sense of growth  support from my incredible partner  the comforting thought that i can be in a better less stressful place someday relatively soon hope this helps