yeah can confirm its purely destructive   my parents would yell at me and call me ironic names as a kid for being so forgetful and half-there and its basically given me the heaviest impostor syndrome anything i do cannot be good in my mind anything that comes out of me is stupid and idiotic and i have no idea how anyone can think otherwise   i just power through it and have still accomplished a happy life for myself but i am exhausted each day from pretending to believe what i say and do