this was beautiful and in that beauty lies the reason for adhd i relate to much of what you said and wish i could say i feel you but alas ive self-medicated myself the past day to the point i dont really feel much not to mention being sleep deprived after a skipped night but though i cant pull out the feelings that resonate with what you said the most - because im well trained in the art of making them disappear from my awareness - i hope i can get myself to write you perhaps via dm or here a letter of sorts of whatever comes to mind feel free to remind my ass when i inevitably wake up tomorrow as if i got a brain reset and all my seedlings of intentions from today and before dissolve yet again ejected from sparse malnourished soil lost in a room only barely lit by smoldering embers of a neglected hearth  in any case be well and thanks for reaching that place despite me having locked it away it helps with finding it back