i used to enjoy this now i have this issue of what i call groundhogs day-ing where i foresee all the things that will happen need to happen and how they will play out once ive done this i realize that now i have to live out what i did already mentally which is exhausting because i feel like im doing it twice over  at that point i just want a fast forward button in life so i can auto pilot through the monotonous of events  i often have this issue with repetitive scheduled events if i do something every wednesday than i play out how all of wednesday will happen making actually living wednesday out redundant feeling