i suffer from ocd and only recently was diagnosed im 32 ive lived with this my whole life and it is debilitating most of my compulsions are internal and so people around me cant recognize it to everyone else i look normal i chew my nails and fingers til bloody every time i spend money i have to recalculate my budget 6 7 8 times a day if i send a text i have to read it after it is sent at least 10 times could it be misinterpreted could the reader be offended did i spell everything right i chatter my teeth to the rhythm of whatever song is stuck in my head and  trust me i always have a song stuck in my head so by the end of the day my jaw and head hurt from non stop chattering if i see my phone i have to check it did my daughters school call me did i miss a text from someone whats the time  when i read a book i have to read and reread and rereread every single sentence 4 5 6 times make sure i didnt miss a word etc living in my head is torture i told my dad about my compulsions and rituals and he says thats not ocd he says i am choosing a depressed anxious lifestyle  people around me dont understand but if you saw my fingers youd know sometimes they hurt so bad i cant sleep