man that is too real this subreedit have helped me too much i can see how there are a lot of people like me  my father is a very productive man smart high intelligent and high dedicated he have multiple escleroses and after the diagnostic in a wheelchair he was still working make his master degree and get another collage deagree just because now he retire but now he make lectures he made 60 lectures in 2019   and i cant do nothing if i had 13 of his dedication and focus i would probably be millionaire by now because my father choose to live in a small town and work in a field that not pay too much he is an agronomist write the first book exclusive about strawberrys here in brazil he has an award from fao but as a public server that didnt make him rich and im a lawyer i could in theory make unlimited money and i consider myself good in what i do the problem is when i do