this sounds like my experience i wonder if such a difference means different medication options should be looked at im off of stimulants and on strattera now and i think im better medicated than ive ever been in my life its hard to describe but ive started to want to do stuff and then i still have adhd symptoms with trying to stay focused on the thing that i want to do but at least im really trying its kinda like i was absent from my own life for decades but now in some small but growing ways im actually showing up  i know plenty of adhd folks who swear by their amphetamines but for me this is better on amphetamines i could fixate on low interest tasks to perform better at workbut that was kinda it when i went home id fixate on whatever was around that wasnt so deathly goddamn boring but i didnt fixate on the things that i actually thought i should be doing i was still dysfunctional i actually ended up developing a problem abusing my stimulants which i did a lot of hard therapy work to recover from and am much better now