adhd is comorbid with aspd thats not much of a surprise when life and people fucks you for decades maybe even not diagnosed all that time you learn to not trust empathy works both ways you receive none you give none  and yes we are inherently bad in the point of view of a working society its a genetic anomaly that doesnt fit and you have two choices 1 becoming some sort of anarchist like i did in the past blaming society the world for everything 2 accepting that you dont fit you didnt choose it you have no say about it better forget it     try hard to fit if you will but it will drain you just do the bare necessary to keep yourself afloat use the rest of the time to enjoy the time you have on earth with dopamine issues you enjoy it all less than other people you need more people will see you as a waste of air some sort of lazy bastard dont waste your time arguing with them just nod and leave you have better things to do  than explain yourself each and every time     dont hate yourself accept it its not like you can just delete a save and play again you have one life its gonna be shit half of the time could be shittier tho focus on the could be shittier realize that thats what keeps me going i could had it way worse and its still a possibility but not yet i have stuff to do and abandon things to enjoy and then not its not much but its something     when i was diagnosed i was relieved it could be over it was not in my head i lost little more than 20 years of my life trying to fit struggling i was full of rage for my country france who disregard adhd as a thing and makes you go through a lot for the diagnosis   people saw you getting the meds and have two reactions either saying you are cheatingdrugged and hating you for it or expecting you to get in line get and keep a job a car a wife a house like you never had to carry the weight of decades of failure and fear     fuck them both     with gravel     no lube only tears     im gonna enjoy life on my own terms      im gonna start by watching and reading the things im passionate about finish those damn crpg i never finished walking in a parc listening to music on my headphones savoring life as much as i can for the sake of the years lost down the drain   because good boy points are worth nothing on your death bed enjoy life now i beg you     now im poor af struggling for many things meds arent cheap too but hey its the first time in my life that i actually enjoy my free time its a currency that not many people have free time stocks stronk invest today