this thread makes me feel well not better but less worse i’ve noticed this happening a lot i often ruminate on embarrassing or socially awkward things i did in the past even stuff i did years ago as a kid i’ve noticed when these thoughts pop up i’ll say my own name out loud or the word “beautiful” no idea why i was sitting in traffic today going down a rabbit hole in my brain feeling so guilty over a stupid social blunder i made once and i had to shake myself out of it by realizing that this thing happened when i was eleven i’m an adult now and it’s okay that i made that mistake then i was a kid i wouldn’t make the same mistake now i can grow and change i have and i will  i’ve had ocd for as long as i can remember before i even realized what it was as a teenager it was really bad and mellowed as i got older but i’ve noticed it “flaring up” recently in different ways than before this sub has helped me to recognize these patterns i think one of my resolutions for 2022 will be to seek out a more formal diagnosis