this post and the whole thread have been really helpful relationships are such a weird thing to manage and im learning that so many things about my behavior patterns are adhd related  ive already taken up reading past conversations with my partner since were currently long distance the good part about having this adhd fluidity of permanence is that ive always gotten over break ups and other losses fast the bad part is that i cant really make plans because if it isnt here it doesnt exist low contact friendships are left for the other person to keep up i get false signals of neglect and rejection and my head starts to let go and get over relationships that are not supposed to be over  im also terrified of accidentally cheating on my partner if i get excited and my brain temporarily disables access to the memory of being in a monogamous relationship it only got out of hand once in my early twenties but i know that dark potential is there and it makes me wary of having fun because the impulsiveness only comes out when im happy especially if im drunk