so happy for you  make sure to check in with yourself daily for a while  the first time can feel liberating for sure but once i took them for a few weeks straight it did not feel sustainable  20mg is a lot for first dose i usually split mine into 2 10s buy empty capsules and fill them  this also helps me keep a good amount as an emergency supply  i try not to build a tolerance and not to take them everyday everyone is different and this is what works for me