up until the last year this was how i felt about myself 7 years back i moved out of my home state to pursue my art career  did my absolute best even against my undiagnosed adhd but if i look back on it i was fighting an uphill battle the entire time so when things finally did cause me to have a breakdown due to the pressure i spent 3 of the last 4 years since my diagnoses feeling like utter shit      this past year i heavily looked at my worth as a person  its been a slow crawl but i dont feel like im a bad person anymore i fuck up routinely im horrible at managing time  being on time but i own that and plan around it the self loathing was the hardest thing to deal with  its still there inside but i tell that voice to shut the fuck up whenever it reels its head at me