so much this   i tend to over-explain that i know the intrusive thought isnt real so the other person doesnt think im delusional but that just prompts the if you know it isnt real why does it bother you so much response and its like   i dont know how to describe to a person who doesnt already understand the hell of being stuck in the cycle of intrusive thought and shame and the never-ending guilt of feeling like youve done something horrible