ive long complained that my adhd causes a gap between my motivation and my doing the thing i even joked here once that i felt like that r2 unit in star wars uncle owen this r2 unit has a bad motivator look it turns out that being able to bridge that gap is called activation  i developed a coping mechanism for my poor activation by immediately doing the thing the moment i had enough energy what that meant of course is that i often left the house for work errands or other stuff without any prepping at all shower no i must do the thing now because if i paused to prepare all the stuff i need to do the thing properly then i would wander off and never do the thing which in turn caused the thing to divide and replicate and become a herd of unruly things that overwhelmed me