the first part about a month maybe longer of the quarantine i actually felt a bit better than normal because my natural state is believing that everything is collapsing around me and for the first time i felt like everyone else was on the same level as me so i actually felt like the real world was just catching up to the demise thats been going on in my brain for years so i thought it wouldnt affect me as much as it affects neuro normative folks  im not sure its more or less than others but i was wrong to think it wouldnt get me down