yeah im newly diagnosed with adhdasd   and imposter syndrome is way too strong sometimes i feel like i faked it for attention sometimes or just as an excuse for shifty behaviour some days i dont even feel i am autistic or adhd and other days it hits me full force and knocks me over that i am i often feel bad that im 23 and havent managed to successfully cut ties with my parents permanently move out and get a good job and keep working some days i despair of getting a good job and moving out ever i dont want to be a parasite and lazy moocher i feel very bad for that even though my parents assure me that its ok that theyre still supporting me and letting me live rent free at home i do house work and take care of the garden and other chores when i am home though but thats not the same dignity of being self-supporting these are things i would just do as part of the family for free but they got a bonus and paid me part of it for doing housegarden work for them i want to find my balance of where i am useful and an upstanding member of society but at a healthy level for me i think i am quite capable of independent living like everyone else but its hard to know when to push a bit harder or when that pushing is harmful for me and im being ablist to myself