ive been battling with my mental health for some years when things got pretty bad this year i saw a psychiatrist who immediately diagnosed me with ocd - i had never even thought about it before as i had never spoken my ruminations or compulsions out loud im now full of mixed emotions because im finally understanding that what is going on are compulsions which fills me with relief but i also cant stop myself even though they are self-soothing actions which fills me with frustration and dread how do you go about explaining that feeling to a safe person you have done it so coherently here but i still worry about it for myself