when i was about 12 my parents let me buy my first paintball gun we had money for a specific model but i couldn’t choose between the green one or the blue one i bought the green one and as soon as we got home i felt bad for the blue one that i had arbitrarily chosen the green one over it i felt so bad for the blue paintball gun sitting by itself at the store and i took away his green friend that was 14 years ago and i still think about that blue paintball gun