get your butt to an art supply store and buy a cheap set of real hair brushes a cheap pack of acrylic paints and a cheap pack of canvases painting is such a great therapy even if you aren’t “good at it” the best paintings are abstract often and acrylic paint is dope because you can paint over and over it sometimes i have 15 paintings under a finished product because i didn’t like it enough to quit yet the paint washes out of the brushes with water i keep a cup of water next to me so i can just dunk them until i’m ready to clean them off for the day sometimes they sit in there a week but seriously it’s not all that expensive of a hobby and you can sit and paint as long as you want i like to get caffeinated and just bomb some canvas with whatever colors i fancy in the moment and i did eventually get pretty good at realism and paint animals now getting friends to paint with you is fun too