im never excessively tidy if something is dirty i can live with it if it isnt dangerous or too obviously messy  on the other hand  the other day i had trouble falling asleep because i touched a bottle of castor oil and was afraid that it contained traces of ricin an insanely dangerous poison made from castor beans although i know people fuckin drink castor oil as a laxative and it never contains ricin and i just touched it most of the time you need to inhale ricin for it to kill ingesting may also work but requires higher doses several days earlier i ate pickles factory made and was afraid they had botulinum toxin  so well you see the problem here