damn for me this is most keen with manipulation or slighted when i realize ive been after the fact and it just builds and festers and i get consumed by it  now that i think about it i almost never experience appropriate emotions at the time im constantly playing catch-up over the days after so its really hard for me to make any kind of emotional decisions in the moment i know that this can be improved and ive improved about it but even when i think ive done a good job of handling a scenario and saying the things that i want to say i still ruminate over it and realize that i missed so much i feel like i need to be presented with all emotional content in writing so i can respond in kind after i have time to process it   i recently felt like my boss didnt follow through on a promise not in writing of course he made related to a company merger that happened by surprise and over the course of the next week i got progressively more and more mad about it i bitched to everyone about it and concocted ways of fucking him over by quitting at the most inopportune time and then kind of as quick as it came it was gone the sucky thing is i am right to be mad just not that mad and i need to be able to use that anger but it just bangs around in my head until it loses energy  is this rsd or related to it