yes  this is my experience to a t this statement is strong in its brevity and apt to describe how i feel every day  im late to reddit ive only joined about a year and a half or so ago and like i dont remember to come on very often but i am  glad that this community exists because for 30some years that i can consciously recall  i felt like nobody i knew or my family or friends could even remotely a little bit relate to me and it caused great consternation to me i have an adhd diagnosis since childhood but this was the 1980s and nobody knew what that really meant my mother god bless her she meant well and its true - nobody will ever love you like your mother does  and i miss her every day but but she was very italian immigrant mentality and she was very of the mind nobody was going to tell her that her child was different or not as good if not better than anyone else and not that she wasnt right either but her method was she encouraged me in a way i think every parent can at least understand the impulse if not the practice of just kind of steamrolling it bulldoze right over it  to have such a force of will and determination i simply didnt let it interfere with my life but for all my efforts i never could get it i created a close to convincing facsimile of put together that was able to navigate school successfully and whatnot but i still always felt like i had these what i call golden ages a month here or a week there or a day there or maybe a semester here etc where it all truly clicked  and id be focused and driven and oriented and actually felt that every day wasnt building my entire psyche back from scratch each morning and i had continuity and could direct myself toward goals  cohesively and in one direction like a vector and i was free of that daily thorn in my side of  allow me to stream of consciousness this  im not doing enough  im not doing it well enough i wasted so much of my life unfocused imagine what i could have accomplished  whats that over there now im reading about this  now im trying to learn that  im not doing enough  im not doing it well enough which was the  vast supermajority of the time when i felt slightly lost in a sea of chaos untethered driven solely by impulse and my brain feeling like it was awash in the static fuzz youd see on  older tvs  unable to root in the swirling currents of literally everything in the world all the time  but its hard because i think what i call a golden age is everybody elses normal