jesus christ i’m pretty sure i have rocd and socd hocd and this is meeee i have full blown crushes on women where i fantasize about spending time together and kissing and making them happy — yet the anxiety i feel around actually being with women as a woman is overwhelming i can’t breathe and this makes me think i don’t like women romantically but it’s different than disinterest i believe maybe it’s so confusing and i’m constantly doing research and asking for validation to alleviate the pain it eats up all of my time i’m so glad i started therapy this week