i dont think im a bad person i know im a good person as far as people go were all a bit horrible and prone to bad decisions at times - but i have always felt that im not quite right  ive never been totally sure what about me isnt right even after diagnosis im still sure there is something wrong with me maybe my meds arent working properly idk but there is something that isnt the way it should be people are flawed and they have underlying illnesses weaknesses but this is more than that because its a persistent knowledge perhaps even obsession with something being wrong with me  this isnt like a hyperchondriac thing either though i do have many ailments because i dont think its a medical problem i dont know what it is  so your post has been both reassuring and worrying reassuring in that maybe im not alone in it and worrying that its unlikely to be resolved