its hard it really is for me the one of the worst things is explaining yourself cause others tend to see it all as excuses also constantly hearing comebacks such as yeah so everybody has adhd or i also have adhd in an attempt to devalue you and your struggles and for fucks sake dont ever tell someone youre on medication ah imagine relying on stimulants youre only making things worse for yourself cause once youre in it you cant function without it one time i even heard someone say omg youre so hyper and all over the place with your adhd medicine it was the same for me when i was misdiagnosed the medicine gives you the adhd symptoms you didnt have   little do they know that without them i cant get out of bed - i become socially introvert grumpy pissed irritable unmotivated and isolated all i want to do is sleep the stimulants gives me a chance and a kick in the ass being all over the place and easily distracted is something i will always be but during those few hours a day im interested in things im starting projects i talk with people i give things time and patience and then when the meds wear out i become a mess again   like i always keep on thinking why didnt i do this or that when my medicine kicked in cause when they lose effect i just cant i see no point in doing anything i become self defeating and feel like shit is meaningless useless i feel like no one cares anyways why should i even do my makeup for example who gives a shit about that anyways and even though i love doing my makeup im like so what who cares about what i like i waste my time on nothing  whatever ill stop rambling i have a few other mental disorders as well so all of it might not be because of adhd but a lot of it is it really sucks and ive started to realise i will never be like everyone else regardless of what i do and it kind of kills me cause all i ever wanted was to fit in