im very visual and its difficult for me to describe something i see in my head to others it also doesnt help that my brain pings hard when im discussing something that needs in depth thought and then brings back the immediate information all at once along with some panic because i doubt everything and so i cant organize my thoughts to articulate them and it all comes out in a jumble and then the anxiety gets stronger because shouldnt this be information that i could easily share i must be wrong if i dont know absolutely everything about this topic   and then my brain goes back for more digging into little nooks and crannies and brings back more information and more doubt   and then people are like whats your degree in again   fml