this part is really hard for me i’m 26 and i just got a diagnosis this year it’s also obvious to me that there’s a big “nuerodivergency” movement right now too where people are getting diagnosed as an adult i start to think “omg did i just convince myself i have it because of what i’m consuming online” but the reality is i’ve struggled my entire life in the same ways that a lot of people with adhd have described i’ve forged my closest relationships with a lot of people with adhd in hindsight it’s probably because i felt comfortable and safe with them because we understood eachother   also i’m a drug addict who has been clean for two and a half years from xanax and i used to buy half my friends adderall in high school and college simply to get by i wouldn’t have graduated if it hadn’t been for amphetamines but now i have a very skewed moral perspective of being prescribed adderall and i feel like everyone secretly thinks i’m scoring drugs even i ask myself sometimes “you probably are just doing this for the drugs” even though i know i’m not how do i get these voices to stfu please lol