no one cares about your shortcomings or at least no one should its a question of what you can provide this world not what you fail to provide you dont yell at an engineer for being terrible at graphic design and you dont yell at a graphic designer for being bad at engineering  in much the same way i dont yell at you -- or myself -- for being an aspiring psychologist who cant pay attention i cant yell at you for being a clearly loving person who struggles with attention you provide so much and thats what matters so stop yelling at yourself you deserve better than that