without meds i am fucked i recently told my dad i had ocd he proceeded to say my gf says i am very ocd lol ocd is a crippling disorder i cannot imagine how hard it must be for people who do not respond well to meds just because you are nitty gritty about how neat and perfect your room should be does not mean you have any remote clue what actual diagnosed ocd is like   have you heard of exposure response prevention therapy you expose yourself in small tolerable doses to your anxiety trigger over time until it fades away usually you do it with a therapist i have yet to try this but i am on some very effective meds but it is very hard apparently and erp is not the only treatment available have you tried antidepressants at high doses they are usually prescribed at max dose for people with ocd