today i went on a hike i have pure o about contracting schizophrenia i have been in remission for many months i suddenly while on hike had the realization that people always go crazy in the woods i freaked out tried to turn back disrupted the group and made a big ordealbut couldnt tell them why i was freaking out because then it would happen for real so i ended up just looking like a dork that was too scared to traverse over some rocks cuz i might roll my ankle i legit hate my brain sometimes ocd makin me look bad in front of my friends