like many othersi can 100 relate to this i’m almost relieved it’s not just me i always call is “nostalgia anxiety” but i generally worry about my mother dying multiple times a week  and i have no idea how to stop as she’s aged it’s only gotten worse i have feel of the future too but i think these go hand in hand i worry about how i’ll be able to cope with the death of certain people etc it’s draining to be honest