i was diagnosed late in life in my mid 30s i cried too     i hope it works well for you keep in mind that even though its smoothing your mind out its still an amphetamine make sure youre keeping your body fed and healthy its going to affect your appetite to the point where youll forget to eat so make sure breakfast goes with your morning dose and that lunch and dinner occur on a schedule not when you get hungry if youre not on xr sounds like youre not be mindful of the comedown it will take some getting used to      talk to your doc about a rest schedule i didnt take mine on weekends to give my body a break and talk to your partner about that schedule too because on days when youre not medicated its easier to start arguments that will also take some getting used to