i have struggled so fucking hard in life to just be good enough i have spent so many days on the verge of giving up because i just cant be good enough   im not having the greatest saturday to begin with and man i just sat in my car crying for 10 minutes after reading this post reading phrases i have heard so many times before feeling just completely broken because i feel like i have been trying so fucking hard to make things better in life and to be good enough for others but i am just so pathetic that to them it doesnt even seem like i tried at all  this shit has fucked up my life so bad at times off and on ive turned to drugs to try and be awake enough to go to bed late enough to be social enough or engaging enough i have struggled with taking my vyvanse at my regular dose because maybe today if i take 2 or 3 or 4 more pills i will be able to focus enough i will be able to do enough chores maybe for one day at the very least i could just be good enough at one fucking thing  id like to say i feel a bit better knowing that i am not alone in feeling this way but fuck i dont wish being in this position on anyone else  it just fucking sucks you could love and care for someone so fucking much and try your hardest to make them happy and even after you have started to form better habits even when you think youve made improvements and things are really looking better out of the blue you will hear about how you just dont care and then you realize sure maybe youve made some small change or another but the feeling that things are going well and maybe you can be good enough was just bullshit to make yourself feel better