i had leave college because i kept having thoughts of stabbing people  which freaked me out and sent me in an extreme downhill spiral of depression and anxiety and obviously ocd i felt so alone and like everyone was judging me my mom is one of those “just stop thinking about it” people   i used to sit on my hands so that i wouldn’t do anything - which is so irrational thinking back because i didn’t want to do anything bad it was like a midlife crisis at 19   it was horribly painful and something i never want to go through again