yep this  ive got 3 or 4 passion projects going at any point in time the it hurts to not do it passion projects all of them give me that gut wrenching longing to work on them but i rarely last more than 20 minutes before i have to get up to do something else which leads me to feel like ill never make it off the sidewalk   like ill only ever be a name in the credits of someone elses passion project but never have my own   and then having friends or family with adhd who are successfully doing their creative stuff is frustrating dont get me wrong it makes me happy to see that theyve done it but so often they just say the same shit as everyone else   my sister a successful musician with adhd often tells me that i should get an art table at a comic convention to make some money and get my name out there yet she completely disregards me telling her that im not at that skill level yet as me being insecure and its stuff like that that just turns into resentment or self loathing   fuck this disorder