ive definitely been in that place many times before and unfortunately i know i will again sorry you have to deal with that man its quite literally a deadly combination not to be depressing but i just know the day will come where i say fuck this im out know what i mean   do you feel the same with medication op for me i dont really i dont get to the point where i just stare at the wall because nothing is fun or interesting when im on meds im still severely depressed but im not that depressed curious as to what others experience is i can still barely function but its better than it was before i got on meds again