i tend to do the opposite and i know it cant be healthy  i find things to remind myself of all the ways a person hurt me because i can forget so easily so i keep little reminders and tell myself its so i can remember who im actually dealing with when the dopamine starts flowing again  its kind of like a crazy backdoor so i can escape back to depression if i start to believe my so actually likes me  i always need a lot of time to process every situation to see if im accurately understanding reality and my biggest issue with this is that we speak different love languages and my love language of touch and closeness causes her irritation and annoyance so i have very few memories over the last 20 years where i can actually recall feeling loved so all my pictures etc just ends up bringing me more pain cause when im having an episode i just see them all as reminders of how stupid i was for believing someone really loved or even liked me