i did this but not for hours for my life   i kept telling myself that i had to get my medical license or else all the hard work for med school would be on vain i graduated 5 years ago and since studying for that exam was such a challenge with adhd i still havent tackled it and i didnt do anything else either and just lived feeling incapable and ashamed   but after starting therapy and really trying to accept my diagnosis instead of fix it im trying to live life im open to starting a family and im looking into piano and belly dance classes im trying to eat well and work out and im giving myself permission to enjoy cooking as a thing not just as a way to fill a hungry belly life is a bit better   i havent given up on the exam im just trying to live balanced and not punish myself for having adhd