this part of it is one of the many reasons i find myself in a depressive slump  i will never be able to vocalize properly beyond what ive trained myself into for my customer service job because the path connecting my brain to my mouth is just broken i can make it work on meds but it still makes me come off as either robotic or overly bluntdirect   put me in front of a computer or a texting app though and im fine if i tell you i communicate better over text its not because im some edgy keyboard warrior whos afraid of being face to face its because i will literally not be able to properly form sentences if i try to speak to you verbally  i am also a quiet person not because i dont want to talk but because the effort of forming words into proper normal-person sentences is too much for me a lot of the time by the time ive figured out how to respond to what you said the conversations already blown past