yes  i get emotional and have those thoughts too  its usually things like what if this is the last time i see them or what if this our last thanksgiving together  but i do it with everyone and there is no rhyme or reason to who i grieve  sometimes its my 90 year old grandparents other times its my 7 year old    x200b  i obsess a lot about death  every time i open my garage door i always hold my breath because i am half expecting to see someone hanging from the rafters  my entire life i have had horrible intrusive thoughts in random situations  for example standing in the kitchen and have family over for dinner  my brain will auto start thinking something like what if i took this knife and stabbed x right now  how would everyone react  how would x react  would they fall over  die right away  would there be a lot of blood  what if i stabbed them in this spot instead  how would everyone react to that  how would they react  and on and on with me changing minor details etc  i fucking hate intrusive thoughts- seriously the worst part of any mental illness i have- even worse than wanting to stay in bed all day from depression  they are the one thing i wish i could just get rid of and never have to experience again