i was trying to articulate my feelings to myself right as i read this and that is exactly it ive been really feeling this way for the past while i do actually get things done but i feel like ill never meet my own standards like when i cook a meal i do the dishes after within an hour and i keep my space moderately tidy but i still feel like no matter what i do i havent done enough i just want to relax and actually enjoy my leisure but even when i am relaxing i feel like i need to be doing all the tasks i can think of instead i have a list of all these tasks on my notes and i keep tacking more things on there and feeling like a failure for not completing them all or being able to enjoy downtime