i really needed to hear this today i find myself often stumbling when thinking of the next steps to take regarding anything career relationship and sometimes forget the passage of time- like what happened the whole of 20182019 will never forget what happened in 2020 lol this resonated with me   sometimes im just tired of how hard stuff is for me- and how goddamn easy it is for others logically i know thats not true everybody struggles- but it often feels like if i were only able to sit and focus i can fix my life but hey i cant do that its a vicious cycle of optimism and self loathing ive been told all my life that im so smart and my only problem is laziness ive grown to hate the concept of smartness  anyway thank you op im bookmarking this because its beautiful and im sure im going to need to read it soon