humans were evolved for an environment completely different from the modern world were not meant to be indoors under artificial lighting sitting for 8 hours stuck in traffic and then spending our time at home too tired to do anything so instead of doing things like trying to maintain a social life getting the bare minimum of exercise we need and trying to eat healthier meals we just resort to sitting in front of the tv and consuming junk epidemics of drug addiction and obesity arent a coincidence people turn to those things whether they realize it or not as an escape from such an unnatural and unhealthy way of living from loneliness etc   im certainly not compatible with this world the only reason im still around and doing okay is because i was fortunate enough to be born to a decent middle class family that could afford to keep me afloat this long on top of choosing to work only part time a job i only landed through nepotism and restructuring my schedule so i can do my hobbieschoresfun stuff in the five or six hours i have before my overnight shifts because working first drains me too much to do anything after work and i have my dependence on prescribed amphetamines on top of that which ill admit has become a borderline addiction at this point as an increased tolerance after a decade necessitated dosing even higher but im afraid to ask a doctor to increase my dose in case i get cut off and id simply build a tolerance to an increased dose anyway   im open to making the decision to check out early later down the line if i can no longer keep up with this world even if i could maintain a normal full time job ie even if i were qualified and could be hired to one which i wouldnt be i absolutely wouldnt want to im kind of happy for now working paycheck to paycheck living with my best friend getting a little help from my family as needed doing my hobbies on the side but ifwhen this gravy train stops yeah ill give myself permission to call it quits if i want to until then i choose to live on my terms to the best of my ability as a big fuck you to this sick society i keep going as an act of defiance im not to blame here im not going to let myself feel bad for failing to be well-adjusted to a sick greedy society and neither should you   cheers and good luck to you and everybody else in here thats struggling