true i wish more people knew how this disorder isnt just an inconvenience but that it crawls through your head grabbing everything you like till youre left with nothing though sometimes i like to try to reclaim stuff  like i start a game and just force myself to play it till the anxiety fades it doesnt allways work and sometimes it totally backfires and suddenly i have to deal with twice the amount of allready way to much thoughts xd buuuut eh ya gotta pass the time till therapy somehow _