i constantly live in the past in a state of anger as i reprocess child abuse and neglect i know exactly how this it i just wanna let it go but no we gotta remember what someone did to us 10 years ago and be angry about it and lose our shit and have a meltdown all in the span of 30 seconds and how did we get here oh we just simply watched a movie and a scene reminded you of this time and now were thinking about this and bam now youre c-ptsd is triggered youre in fight mode and you wanna scream story of my medicated life