i always say that my first gear is broken like how a car uses its first gear to get a heavy-ass vehicle to go from stationary to moving that first gear works as it should for non-adhd people and makes it possible for them to start a task our first gear is rusty and broken and whenever we try to get moving it starts making sounds refuses to go into gear and after a while smoke starts coming out of it    thats why we have such trouble with starting tasks that initial mental-weightlifting of putting your focus on something can be sooo tough that it almost seems impossible and starting things that we do enjoy would be the equivalent of a car that needs to go down a hill no first gear needed you just have to release your brakes       unfortunately we seem to only excel at using our 234th gears because after a while even if we are focussed we cant maintain it because our 5th and 6th gears are also rusty lmao