what about when this has been happening for so long that adult me does this to myself and the lesson i have taught myself is that the task is quite reasonable and im just not trying hard enough   i no longer trust my judgement and i cant tell the difference between things i cant do things i dont want to do whats an actual useful coping mechanism and whats just my brain trying to trick me into an elaborate procrastination scheme anymore its just a big old mess   sorry its been a long week and im feeling really down about myself and my ability to deal