for me it means passive-aggressively asking for reassurance that im not annoying or unlovable having an endless ridiculous intricate set of compulsions to save myself the ordeal of ever having to make a decision obsessing over something i said that might have offended or hurt somebody and watching videos im not even interested in watching because it was in my recommendations and feeling guilty if i watch something that i want to watch because oh no i didnt obey a compulsion