abso-fucking-lutely i feel like ive just been struggling more and more since i was at school as it has just been impossible to translate my high performance during the heavily structured and minimal effort required for me to attain so highly in gcses into the personal effort commitment and focus that you need to do more and more of in a-levels university and then the workplace  i know im still the bright smart kid who was one of the top of his class across the board in school but ive not been apply to apply myself for over a decade now and it takes its toll