being gaslit my entire life including the present i’m actually very considerate of others i have worked on being mindful due to my childhood but while i was being mindful and introspective  everyone else was just doing whatever the fuck they want  they - friends and family expect perfection and they have the expectation that their imperfections are to be glorified i’m dropping people left and right like flies  i’m giving what i am getting all day everyone can get it i use to give less and less of myself only to the worst offenders i’m getting rid of the mediocre friends as well  i even keep my mother at arms length