oh at least when i don’t go out to visit my girlfriend i feel a lot like this also there is so much stuff i need to do finding out what leaks in the kitchen cleaning up the apartment but i don’t have the energy  on a normal working day the best case scenario is standing up 20 minute before work starts starting the computer drinking a coffee working 85 hours in my cluttered room on my cluttered desk going to the store eating while staring at another different screen not even that as while videos are running i have my phone in my hands googling stuff checking social media classified ads smoke masturbate all that until it’s late at night and i need to sleep  at least this week i managed to fall asleep prior to 130 and wake up 740 with only one alarm it’s only wednesday but i hope it stays this way i hope it will get better now as the days are getting longer  oh also i don’t take meds at all i took adhd meds as a teen stopped taking them at one point started giving them a try once again a few years later becoming very confused and depressed and never took them since  i will start to get therapy and  or meds again maybe i will be able to take care of this tomorrow