aa i see good that its helping you in someway it helps being creative its so hard to quit patterns though but its really fun too my friend helps me out a lot and on the bathroom i use up alot of time «wasted» its hard to quit but its also the best feeling in the world if you dare you just have to go through a terrible anxiety that will get smaller and smaller and end a thing that has worked for me sometimes is to set your mind to i want to this this is how i want it to be