im with you as an adult i need to know what to do with this as an adult not as a kid i am sleepy add and back in the 60s and 70s nobody was looking for quiet non-hell-raising kids to be add or to have nvld i just drifted and got lost in the years and wasnt diagnosed until 37 so much time lost drifting and over-compensating with huge surges of frustration and then feeling like i was missing some memo or something about life and then just daydreaming away the years again  when you get old you cant keep doing that you cant keep faking it you suddenly come up against your limitations so hard at 50 at 60  it takes your breath away adults need attention for this so we can stop blowing up our lives and jobs and marriages etc i have a helluva time just finding and affording my add meds and it never gets easier i have to run to all different pharmacies to find stuff in stock and without goodrx i couldnt afford it at all i would just go back to drifting like a non-life  even with generic ritalin sr twice daily i spend far too much time and energy just managing my brain wiring in the most minimal way cant afford better sustained release meds and my boyfriend still says youre always making excusesdear god if i didnt have ways if explaining my constant small failures of attention to things i have done a million times i would just go completely mad this stuff doesnt go away you dont outgrow it