i think people tend to paint me as some mysterious outrageous and cool social butterfly due to my unorthodox ways of socializing and crazy unembellished stories i tell about my life but after they find out im mostly a boring dude who very periodically does outrageous stuff and my day-to-day life is quite mundane they start to drift away it doesnt help that im bipolar and people tend to be drawn to my hypomanic side while disliking my depressive side