absolutely i remember once when i was like 12 we were at a doctors i have broken my finger two and he has given me a splint to hold its shape so it can heal two weeks later we went for a check up to see of it healed it was really benign and if i can stop wearing the thing  he was writing the report and was saying it out loud like doctors do so you can intervene if they get something wrong he wrote 1 week and i corrected him he said it doesnt matter but corrected himself  my dad who was with me snickered and made a little joke i off course felt like shit and did the automatic thing of shutting the fuck up as i thought myself to so i could avoid embarrassment   the doctor said hey its ok they didnt know if that was important and he was right that was the first time i realized that i dont have to take shit like this  i of course take shit like this on a weekly basis i am better at realizing it tho it only takes me about a week  tw sexual assault  although i only recently realized that i was sexually assaulted a year and a half ago only now i realized that i could have said no it didnt even cross my mind that i can refuse  it was only an attempt but the realization still scarred me really badly how can i even have sex if i dont know if i like it how can i tell if i like this can i say no will he hate me will my scattering bring me to the point of being a victim of something worse i really dont know and i am really scared