i am so so sorry and i’m also truly grateful that you shared this with this sub i’ve consistently neglected my health and this has been a much-needed wake up call to try my best to prioritize taking care of myself i’m the same age as you so this really hit me especially since i have a young daughter 11-months-old and i desperately want to be here for her as long as possible   op i really hope that you have a strong support system and have the resources available to aid you in whatever ways are possible if not i know i personally would contribute to something like a gofundme etc if one is created   i know it’s a corny sentiment but i’m sending so many supportive thoughts your way