i don’t think i’m on my throwaway yet i’m not afraid to add to this  i have recently come into a relationship completely not knowing what to expect and my boyfriend has completely turned any whole world around i diligently explained everything about how ocd takes up my energy and time most of the day and that i’m still a loving  loveable person and he’s done nothing but let me make my own choices on handling my ocd and balances being there for me very well with not coddling me i’ve never told him but just understanding me and taking the time to do so instead of being scared off by the morning panic attack or the compulsions has actually eased a lot of my most irrational fears such a supportive partner is warding off my fears and eases my intrusive thoughts i feel a lot more at ease because he goes out of his way to make sure i know he will always be there and it specifically helps the fact my ocd stems from neglectful parents and i’ve been working on a healthier attachment style - i don’t say bye twice anymore that’s progress for me  he also knows ocd isn’t curable and there’s no way to change some of my obsessions but i can absolutely change my compulsions i’ve had partners who are indifferent to ocd and a partner who was very mean about it and this relationship takes the hopefully wedding cake  the biggest thing to it all is remembering he isn’t there to fix it make it better or actually purposefully help me with any problems he’s just there and he’s not going anywhere except a night jog while i sit on reddit before my own workout i don’t know how i got this lucky like at all but once i realized the world doesn’t happen for me or work with me it just works around me i realized i had the power to take ocd along with me i hope anyone reading this realizes their emotional stability and security can come from themselves and it’s nice to have a partner who also provides those things but you can’t rely on that i couldn’t have dated my boyfriend right now if i tried at any time in my life before the point where i realized i was done watching ocd make a fool of me 100 putting that on my grandparents’ graves