my friend i struggle with this too i think what makes it torture for me is that in my head i can do it and it will be great  then comes the lack of discipline and consistency  it truly is a struggle more so when you’re in a project with end in sight only to come crashing down or in my case i trick myself that it’s too good to be true and abandon the whole thing assuming i would just fail saving myself from disappointment  then i come to be only more disappointed for not having the conference in myself sorry for that whole rant but it sort of ties together good luck fellow adhd-er