yea its ocd and i deal with it by joking and not taking myself so darn seriously  ocd can be really fucking funny if you take a step back like ill be wiping my ass sometimes and think if i dont use exactly 13 pieces of paper my dead cat is going to think im wiping my ass with her and get hurt  like that is an absolutely batshit insane thought yes we all know how much those thoughts can fuck you up but if you take a step back its so ridiculous that its pretty funny