i skimmed most of this but this was very informative and i appreciate you sharing your thoughts  not sure if i have adhd but i relate heavily with this one thing for me was that i always felt supremely dumb or lazy even though in school i was taking advanced classes it wasn’t that i didn’t understand material i just didn’t know what to do i never knew how to start i would need to go step by step like i have to go step by step that was the only way to have some sort of structure in my head if i miss a step then i’m completely and utterly lost then i would get frustrated so frustrated that i lose track of time and then i end up rushing once i start rushing i skip more steps and the cycle continues  working is awful because i’m so bored that it’s actually bothering me unless i’m working with my hands or something that requires some thinking power this post definitely is making me consider talking to my pcp