ugh i can completely empathise adhd and the modern way of living don’t work together at all  maybe you need a break away from it all do something for you workawayinfo has good options or charity work where you could meet interesting people do something a bit different for a bit  i’ve been finding when i get in a rut i need a drastic change for a bit to change my outlook on things  i mean i’m only 24 tried to take my own life because i felt in a similar way and what i needed was a time out to get some different more fun experiences   doesn’t help we’re in a bloody pandemic and life is super difficult at the moment in general