i can relate to this post and appreciate your rant i always wake up shitty and sleep like shit i need meds just to get my brain going otherwise i sit there lost as well i saw someones comment on a post the other day i believe in this community but i could not find the post again and someone with adhd said that they recommended the book the warrior by steve chandler because it is written in short bursts so it keeps you stimulated and it is supposedly helpful to people with adhd because it helps your organize things in your own sort of way i actually just got the book in the mail today and only started reading it but right off the get go i like what i see i usually dont read a lot of books but someones post or comment inspired me to give it a go so i wanted to put that out there in case it was of interest to you or anyone here it has 101 chapters i know sounds daunting but wait they are like 1-3 pages each just reading a few chapters i felt a bit more focused and like i was getting something done instead of being lost in 30 page chapters with my mind wandering and im eager to read more today as you mentioned adhd demands stimulation in order for you to function and depression takes away the feeling of stimulation leading to perpetual nothingness and i could not agree more with you im hoping this book will help me stay focused and maybe it could be of hope to others here as well