op just letting you know that i feel you i’m in a similar situation myself right now and could relate to so much of this post it’s hard to explain to non adhd family members that it’s not me being flaky or irresponsible my brain is just a massive asshole sometimes and won’t work with me no matter how hard i try   i’m sorry i don’t have useful advice to contribute but i wanted to let you know you’re not alone and i can totally relate