i can appreciate the post and perhaps most of us would and i read it all haha its also so cringy however the same person you to want to sit down and thoughtfully explain your whole life experiences symptoms etc to is probably the same person who thoughtlessly judged you before they had one shred of knowledge or understanding or care about who you are and what youve dealt with your entire life  whats to get people are all different so treat everyone like individuals and with dignity and respect if you dont understand somebody its often due your own lack of initiative  whos lazy its probably the one whos judging you   im not even sure that anybody is actually lazy they probably simply lack the reward or encouragement they as an individual specifically require or have been so aggressively hammered by unjust disdain that dusting yourself off and trying again and again gets to be more difficult each time been in both places and it sucks but no amount of money or reward is going to keep me from the occasional unintentional dropping the proverbial ball by symptom which is not at all related i feel to my character work ethic etc etc and no explanation is going to in my experience make people who lack empathy understanding kindness real leadership quality et al treat you right