this is me but take that and multiply it by 5 i was untreated for the first 30 years of my life  i somehow managed to graduate from the air force academy through a combination of stress and fear every assignment was like this almost 5 years after i graduated i was seeing a psychiatrist for focus issues and he said that i fucked up by giving myself long term anxiety and depression as a coping mechanism for adhd  i’ve only recently sought medication for my adhd and it is helping immensely  even if i never had to worry about work or have to be responsible for earning money i still stress about living in a messy living space something that probably had a hand in the end of my first marriage