i dont know if its adhd or not but i find that i have a certain amount of anxiety related to not understanding why i do o dont do something for example when i worked in it i would get really anxious about working on some new piece of equipment or having to set something up using step by step instructions what i found is that only when i understood the why behind those instructions i became comfortable with the new gear   so it took a few years for me to realize that my dislike of new things i didnt understand came from this anxiety i had to make peace with the idea that i could eventually become proficient with something provided i made it through the initial surface level understanding before taking a deep dive into something new   i dont know if that made sense outside of my head but i think my point is that one has to learn to go through the motions of an activity before they can really get into the deep mechanics of it i have to remind myself of this often when i get frustrated  hope that helps