i know i should put the clothes in the washing machine right now but im not doing it could have done it first thing and itd be done by now got the house to clean today and last weeks laundry to put away will it get done partly i imagine never fully  instead of getting started im here on my phone just having a coke first waiting for the postman who might not even be coming then ill be waiting for the food shopping delivery ill probably get a shower around 2pm if i force myself get dry and dressed and think well no time to do anything else today will definitely do it all tomorrow its always tomorrow  ive written my list and ive literally got nothing else to do and i know the cleaning would only take a few hours at most if i went non stop  even if i thought forget it im not doing it i wont do anything else instead because i should do the housework first  awful mental at least i know why im like this now but not sure if that makes me feel better or worse