i love planning so much that i have lost countless hundreds buying planners or paying for planner subscription services on my ipad just to end up in a rut a few days to sometimes even weeks after i have successfully used my planner and even successfully completed tasks i set out to do one example i bought a beautiful planner and sketched on it and made it personal added washi tape and beautiful stickers laid out a plan to tackle everything on my to do list gel pens and color pencils were put to full use i was doing well and my house was spotless then i fell off the wagon a few weeks later my house fell apart within days of not sticking to my planner and i’ve done this before i have told myself that i was just too lazy or there weren’t enough short breaks or rewards included so “this time will be different” but it’s completely untrue it’d never different i put in rewards i put in breaks i make it shiny so i want to look at it perhaps i’m a stereotype i even have done photos of before and after these are all supposed to keep me on task but nope i suck i just got my dx so i’m sort of half heartedly hoping therapy and meds can help me improve because deep down i want normalcy and to be better but i don’t wish to waste another dollar on planners until after i know i can be consistent and learn the skills to stopdoing this cycles suck