yep the way i’ve started to view it is i’m internalizing other people’s negative perceptions of me i’m so worried about always being a “good person” in the eyes of others that i can’t handle ambiguity in a healthy way guilt and shame are two of society’s control mechanisms to keep me in line and i way overdo it i’m getting better at accepting my faults and growing from that or owning my actions and words and not letting other people’s reactions bother me if i was acting or speaking in good faith but the struggle never really ends meditation helps a ton specifically focusing on my breath makes it much easier to watch these types of thoughts like a movie instead of becoming swept up in the current and having my head bashed against the bottom