you aren’t alone  when i was younger i had several vivid dreams consisting of a parent dying in some freak event and the toll it took on mehow it changed my life  sometimes i overthink about “what will i do when this person is gone” and i begin to sort of “spiral” into a series of thoughts and compulsory actions  i had a huge fear of death as a child and i worried a lot about what would happen when i “grew up” because people were constantly talking about my future when i didn’t even understand what “growing up” meant all i knew was what i had seen and heard you grow up then you die your parents will be older when you grow up and things will be different without them   eventually my childhood fear turned to “i need to be with my parents when they go somewhere or something will happen” etc and i became increasingly worried for their safeties