my sympathies i feel this exact same way hell i could have written it expect for the online classes my god i’d be so bad at that i find myself engaging “autopilot” more and more it sucks   i know there will be better days i remember them i know there will be good days again the hardest part for me is not knowing when if it was like in six months shit will be awesome cool i could dig in and get to it   but the current endless limbo not quite lockdown not quite normal it’s like serving a prison sentence and not knowing if it’s for life or for a week maybe bad comparison but i think it works  also i’m in texas bad pandemic bad politics bad weather event it’s all blargh    okay here’s a thought experiment what would you all  love to do right now if there were no downsides at all like pandemic or budget or weather etc  i want to have a pool party with everyone i love and care about nice warm summer day beer and barbecue kids running around everywhere and being loud and i’ll just float on a raft and get burnt to a crisp and not even care haha when the introvert indoors-y person wants a pool party i think that’s a sign of how rough it is