have yall ever made a daily schedule go over it and realize maybe something might take longer and then freak out that you wont follow the schedule to the t for no reason really and then you switch it up 10 minute extra here 5 minutes less there and then you realize you can only get 7 hours of sleep in this new schedule even though on daily you only get 5 so you cross that out because that wont do and then you make another and promise yourself you will follow it and then agonize over if making a schedule and following is authentic way of living when you actually never really cared for that sort of thing then you agonize over this thought because now you want to make a schedule but making it makes you inauthentic as you go through this mologue for hours you realize all these thoughts are full of shit but they are extremely important they eat at you all day while doing anything and everything finally you get tired in the evening of overheating head and you find some peace cause youre exhausted well yeah so telling anyone is almost comical when youre out of it some days later so you just