im sorry to hear about your friend i mean that sincerely i hope youre doing okay-- ive lost two of my friends this way and i swear to god i think about it every single day its okay to take the time to do whatever you feel you need to grieve process and settle with the situation if youre not already i advise you start following with a therapistcounselor please dont hesitate to dm if you need someone else to just understand this sense of loss with you youre not alone-- youre among friends here in our adhd community stay well