this is my experience of life hardwired from childhood  as an adult i am still trying to unlearn the idea that complete panic is how you are expected to perform simple everyday tasks  it’s fucked up my system of expressing my emotions completely because i was shown early on that my emotions were meaningless and had to be forced deep down so that i could do what was expected of me  i also have a difficulty accepting other people’s reservations about doing things because i’ve had to be forced so i am disgusted with other people for having limitationshowever reasonable because i see them the way others saw me as a childi see them as needing to go through the extreme discomfort i did and i can’t have any respect for them deliberately giving up  this is all because i wasn’t allowed to have my own limits so i have trouble respecting other people’s limitations  in this way it’s harder to grow up with more ability than othersbecause you have even less acceptance of them for seemingly imposing limitations on themselves  i’m always having to find a way to accept other people setting boundaries for themselves that seem pathetically low  i still honestly don’t know how to accept it in myself or others