god its wild isnt it growing up and well into adulthood it is literally impossible to do certain things because of executive dysfunction i never knew what it was and i would beat myself up so badly for not being able to do something without someone holding my hand through it and even then it was a terrible struggle   i remember in school i just could get my work done at home or in class no matter how hard i tried i couldnt even comprehend how other people simply did things and got them done with what seemed like no effort i cant even begin to describe the hope and relief i felt when i found out that theres name for this phenomenon  people would always tell me things like take some initiative work hard just do it and get it done and it was so painfully difficult trying to explain to them how i simply couldnt do it i understand your pain friend   be kind to yourself none of this is your fault