currently struggling with this right now and i have to say its the worst this past year working at my first job out of college especially working from home during quarantine i realized how ill-equipped i was for working life and a 9-5 and it has completely changed my world view and has made me realize how debilitating adhd really could be   there was a time i didnt even think i had adhd because i did so well in school and got by really really well in high school and college with cram sessions and last minute assignments and still made it out great with a high gpa in a pharmacy program no less but now i realize that i had great coping mechanisms and our education system is structured in a way that is conducive to quick memorization and pumping and dumping information also in college the convenience of a flexible schedule not having to go to class on some days and honestly not having to focus on the same subject while sitting in place for 8hrs a day was probably a mental life saver and conducive to my focus and learning style  now an adult in the real world working in pharma i just cant get myself to focus on the monotonous and irritatingly low executive function tasks that come with my job dont know how to orient my mind around the idea that when you finish work more work will be given and end up just thinking whats the point if this is going to continue for the next 40 years my soft skills like organization time management and communication are poor and while i have the aptitude for the job those soft skills are severely lacking and it shows because i never had to form those habits my entire life and then im hit with an incredible wave of imposter syndrome feeling like the people i work with must hate me and that im bad at this job always being behind on tasks and not knowing how to communicate properly about it it really sucks and im already jaded