when i was eight i got a bad grade in math it was a 7 out of 10 but unusual to me as the perfect pupil i wanted to be i have decided not to tell my parents this little secret of mine has haunted me for months it was an idea that followed me everywhere i felt like a horrible human being and a bad child i could not truly enjoy my childhood and felt the burden of this misbehaviour at any waking moment of mine i dont know if it was ocd already but pretty close actually now i am officially diagnosed with ocd and my obsessions are far worse than that