i wasn’t diagnosed until a year ago i’ve spent my entire life being told by society that i was lazy unmotivated and deficient in every way that mattered i believe it and i still do i’ve internalized it and every time i think about how the adhd and autism may be to blame i just assume that it’s all pr talk in society and that i’m really just lazy and unmotivated and deficient i just don’t believe what i know i should  will this ever get better maybe a little in time but it’s already been too much time and now i’ve just settled into this grey landscape of apathy not sure i can dig myself out of it really