this is why i suck at math through algebra i was fine because that at least had some real world application but once i got into pre-calc and then calculus i kept getting tripped up because i had no understanding of why these formulas worked or why we were doing this and the proofs for why the formulas are true is well above a high schoolers level of understanding so i quickly came to hate calculus it was like i couldn’t fully understand the process without knowing the basis for the process