holy shit i feel like i am incredibly stupid sometimes and ive always explained to my partner that i find it extremely difficult to communicate with words and would much prefer via text for difficult conversations  this hits home in a different way everyday i look and i see issues that related to me roughly 80 and i say oh yeah bud this sucks i know them feels   this is completely different this is my life this is my life when my meds have worn off in the evening and i want to start doing deep thinking jesus christ