ive had severe ocd with various themes for over 10 years crippling anxiety and panic attacks started in early childhood and depression of varying severity sometimes extreme for at least 10 years ive tried literally dozens of medications of different kinds from ssris to antipsychotics though ive never really   had psychosis except maybe once for a little while when i started college and thought the janitor might be trying to kill me for no reason at all also i had about 13 ect treatments where youre under anesthesia and they zap your brain to induce a seizure all that really got me was short term memory loss where big chunks of time are missing especially around the month of treatments i think it also caused me to have some hallucinations and really bizarre thoughts like that my cats were actually robots and the people on tv werent real its all kinda blurry now i take adderall just to have even a small amount of energy for a few hours to go to the grocery store or something but yeah i really cant remember or imagine what its like to not have ocd or anxiety or understand how anyone is content or even enjoys life especially when they spend most of their waking lives at jobs they hate just to keep living to keep working most of the time idk how they do it ive never been able to keep a job more than a year i just start to go absolutely insane and completely stop giving a shit about it even if i liked it at first i have no idea how anyone has the energy or motivation to do that shit day after day year after year thats why ill probably never have kids way too much work plus i kinda think its wrong to create another sentient life that has to deal with existence especially since a lot of this psychological shit is genetic