my guilt is so bad i feel like i’ve murder someone and i’m just waiting to get caught i hate it i almost want to walk into a cop shop and confess to them about this fake murder it never leaves me alone i feel like i’m always doing something bad i don’t understand i don’t lie i don’t cheat i’m a firm believer in karma and think it i’m good then good will continue to happen to me the last two days have been horrible i’m guessing it’s because i relapsed w my drug of choice recently and i hate that i did it and i know it’s over i don’t have to do it again but i feel like shit for just doing it and idk i dont understand i’m constantly worried i’m not doing good enough at work even though i’ve been promoted 4 times within the past two years and i know deep down i’m amazing at my job but idk mental health sucks i’m already on medications for things but i feel like i haven’t found the yet medication to handle my guilt and anxiety