wow this makes me realize why i got diagnosed later and life and somewhat validates my diagnosis   growing up if you didnt the expectations for grades or didnt follow my parents instructions you had your earl pulled and then verbally berated my dad would yell at me and my brother for getting bad grades and either hit us or a table with a belt to emphasize his point   i lived in fear of being out of line or not performing what i needed to do because i knew i would either be yelled at or hit thats why i performed so well in school and was always considered a goodquiet student and person   when i moved out and my dad finally got some help for his anger issues and alcohol problem he stopped doing that to us then my whole world fell apart   i had no idea how to function without that fear looming over my head and now every aspect of my life just caused me to be immobilized because i have no idea how to keep organized or work without that sort of fear lingering over me