idk if you were going for visual art or performing art but i have ventured into visual art and investing in an ipad ended up being a game changer for me i don’t have to buy fancy supplies only to have my hands fail me when i try to use them i don’t have to keep track of where all the sketches and attempts are you can undo and at first that felt like cheating to me but not anymore i make and sell prints that i produced digitally and being able to undo things just means i don’t have to waste a ton of paper to get something right i have the very same problem i wish i could rewind and stick with ballet really hone my skills fast forward to a time when my art is better but seriously i think investing in an ipad saved me from a good chunk of feeling horriblepanicky at all that i want but couldn’t do i hope this helps