good for you  exposure therapy is hard and i hope it gets easier for you  im in a partial hospitalization program for ocd right now and ive cried and yelled at therapists because of exposures so i understand how stressful it is  i have severe contamination ocd and before the program i couldnt even shower out of fear of germs in the bathroom  im now starting to shower every three days  i couldnt even speak and i had to make humming noises that sounded like words out of fear of nonexistent germs getting in my mouth  now i talk everwhere while covering my mouth  ive only been in the program for less than a month  this proves that you can do this  you can beat this  it probably wont go away completely because ocd is chronic but if you keep this up itll get so much easier  i know its getting easier for me  i promise youll get even better than you have already  dont give up