i know the comments are full of people saying this hits close to home but it really hit there for me because there have been many times where i too have just felt like quitting it can all be so tiresome im physically tired everyday and its a real worry of mine that some of my best friends might one day be in a spot where you are im doing my best to keep the momentum up though thats what this feels like sometimes keeping momentum if i stop and get overwhelmed i sink deep so in order to stay afloat i have to constantly be moving but the fatigue is very real thanks for sharing and sorry for your loss