hey op im sorry you feel that way i once did too it can feel like this world isnt made for us and people can say just quit the job you hate and do what you want but we still have to eat and we need a roof over our heads  i dont know what to say to make it less horrible but i do know that it is possible to feel that you do deserve to carry on living you might not feel that way right now but you do deserve a space on this earth and despite what we are socialised to think you can do whatever you want to with your space you can be your imperfect self and in the grand scheme of existence it doesnt matter all that much you could spend your whole life forcing yourself to be a certain way and it wont matter in a hundred years let alone a thousand   i dont want that to sound more depressing lol what i mean is that you are 100 allowed to just exist the way you are and you dont have to play into societal expectations all the time maybe in scenarios like work where it guarantees your survival but theres a lot to be said for looking yourself straight-on and seeing yourself with no filters of judgement - and taking that hard but worthwhile step of accepting that person in a way everyone could benefit from doing that even those without adhd many of us are living in denial of ourselves and the truth is the modern world isnt a healthy space for any human beings weve lost touch of the things that make us human and have bastardized the human experience but the good news is that you can still reconnect with that you are just a human being with complex thoughts emotions and motivations not a failure not worthless not inferior to others just because you are different   you are enough please allow yourself to believe it