this is exactly why i worry people see me as dumb or annoying   i’ll figure something out but then i can’t also adequately backtrack and explain how i thought my way into my understanding so even if i attempt to share my solution i struggle to share complete comprehension i’ve tried and what will happen is i’ll explain and just see a bunch of confused faces staring at me and know i’m clearly missing context that i forgot to cover then i’ll start to feel insecure apologize and sit back end up waiting for someone else to get there and be acknowledged as figuring it out all of the while being annoyed at myself knowing that if i could explain how my mind got there it would be so much better but i can’t it’s like jibberish sprinting around my brain i just know i understand it i can’t explain it or share the understanding