thats how i felt too  i said to my friend i was waiting for the high to hit me but it didnt but then reflecting on the day i got so much done and was generally just happy   i cried because i wondered if the last 37 years i could have been happier this entire time but never knew i could fix it thats just how it was  im forgiving myself for doing the best i could have then and just moving forward but i cried as well