most of the times i try to convince myself that i dont have ocd so i cant imagine how someone feel good with this and i wonder if all these people who think that ocd has positives they are diagnosed officially with ocd or they just read the traits online  but i disagree this is not part of me its not an illness its an unhealthy coping mechanism due to my low self esteem and my childhood traumas i wasnt always like this so ocd is not part of me if i believe that its something that defines me how exactly i will cure myself