i was diagnosed as a baby but my mom didnt put me on medication till i was 10 worked for a while but still didnt develop all the skills i probably should have and am now struggling to catch up now im off the medication and trying to find coping mechanisms for the bipolar i now have but with study time literally procrastinating right now i still struggle massively i just want to succeed but dont know how and i feel like such a loser for asking for help  i should be able to do this on my own why cant i function like everyone else why am i like this why do i struggle  literally the worst but sometimes im numb to it ive been like this for so long its just normal for me to feel like i cant