i did it i read the whole thing maybe the vyvanse is working  seriously though thank you for writing this out i kept copying lines to include in my comment but there were too many i related to    the first few paragraphs i re-read and re-phrased in my own words like 5 times i imagined explaining it to specific people and it felt - so fucking empowering  thank you  i was a pure average student before i started self medicating with other people’s adderall i didn’t fail before college because my mom micromanaged me and forced me to stay on top of my shit but i can’t do that to myself and now i’m really failing at life because of it  all my motivation is wrapped up in what other people think of me or what impact my action has on their life because that’s what i got out of my mother’s methods so if it’s just impacting me then it doesn’t matter    tangent over   thanks again for putting this together  edit- just wanted to add that my script for vyvanse is legit and college was a long time ago i do not advocate for taking other people’s meds i do advocate for talking to your doctor if you are interested in medication