im sorry thats super rough i have experienced the same thing it sounds like unintentional reverse psychology to me i was diagnosed with oppositional defiant disorder as a child resulting in most disagreements turning into fights as an adult i have it managed mostly through mindfulness by using my negative feelings as an emotional trigger to take a step back and apply stoicism so i can remove the negative and look at it objectively that along with focusing on diet sleep and exercise and meditation made a huge difference for me theres no silver bullet for me but each creates about a 10 improvement it doesnt always work but with continued effort it gets better i know this might not be perfect or the right fit for you but i hope things turn out for you and hope this helps im rooting for ya