i can understand this line of thinking when i turned 18 i realized i hadn’t planned to live that long so i prepared for my own death which i thought was going to happen soon then i actually got really sick with paxil withdrawal later that year and realized i was still scared to die and none of the letters i had written to the people i cared for would make up for a lifetime of living with them so i’m planning my life in little steps since i never planned to have to be an adult i will be happy if i can at least survive until i get my bachelors i think   anyways yeah i know what you mean i just can’t think of a real example at the moment sometimes i think my pets are dying too it’s mostly just me though