for me what killed it was i wanted to make music but my ex revealed he has specific musical anhedonia and therefore cant feel emotions from music so at that point i felt like it wouldnt even be worth it it would be like rembrandt or van gogh tryna paint for someone who lacks the capacity to comprehend visual art pointless  i used to make beats i actually went to school and took classes on how to use the software i could spend hours upon hours working on reason and ableton   but once he told me he cant feel music and that he never even listens to 99 percent of what i would send him i just felt like it would be an empty endeavor