at risk of tmi ive not been to the lady parts dr in about 15 yrs    ive not been because that means first id have to remember then id have to talk on the phone gasp shudder then id have to remember to actually goi mean who likes doing any of that its nerve-wracking  uncomfortable  awkwardbut of course now since i havent in 15 yrs im entirely too scared to so i dont stupid vicious circle adhd bullshit  i very sincerely hope your diagnosis is a treatable form  that the treatments are not too terrible  also successful im very grateful for you sharing this even tho its terrifying im really just playing with fire with my own health and this is about as stark a reminder as is possible plz take good care of yourself 3