i try to do my best to look at the silver lining of things it helps to keep me relatively sane   i remember several years ago thinking and wishing that i didn’t overthink everything so much i wished that i couldn’t remember the terrible thoughts i prayed that the rumination would end and just go away   but then i realized something else as much as all the positive things about me are part of me so is the negative   do i have a tendency to overthink yes am i also very well prepared yes   do i tend to hyper-analyze my faults yes has that made me a great friend and a sympathetic supporter yes   does my mind race at a million miles an hour leaving me exhausted yes has that also made me great at connecting seeming disparate concepts and creating helpful analogies yes   has ocd made my life a living hell yes has that made me better guide for others that venture into the hellscape absolutely   i don’t have to like ocd to find humor and growth in my trials and suffering   ocd is a curse that doesn’t mean i can’t find some positives to make it bearable  i’ve been given a hellish existence to deal with but dammit if i don’t become stronger because of it