i dont relate to much of what is posted in this subreddit but i relate to this and most of the comments here very much   even tho ive been diagnosed with adhd 3 times i still struggle with feeling very guilty for not doing the things that matter   what the fuck is wrong with my brain why am i always self sabotaging by not studying for uni and instead write entire python libraries is my brain really physiologically different or am i a psychologically fucked up person that doesnt think he deserves whats best for him i went to a therapist once for one session and he told me he thinks i have an aversion to studying because of my strict upbringing i cant tell wether that or anything else is the reason for any of my self sabotaging behaviour  i read some comments here about how to manage to get by with that sort of brain but it just feels unfair and like i need to work harder than others just because the rest of my brain doesnt listen to my frontal lobe it makes me want to create a space for me where i can be who i am without having to struggle or adapt to any other persons idea of normalcy is that possible