i’m the “not enough”  not enough ambition  not enough motivation not enough “sticktoitiveness”  i have a high degree of perfectionism but only a portion of the time so i’ll get so stuck on making the “cover art of my book report” or whatever look like the million dollar concept i want it to be that by the time it comes to like reading the book or taking notes or writing the report or whatever it may be i simply don’t have enough fuel in the tank motivation to try confidence that i even can to follow through with the rest or i can just simply run out of give-a-shit   i was never the hyperactive type no extra energy   just distracted disorganized unmotivated and good at giving up and accepting the consequences of being sub-par   technically the last grade i completed was 7th i attended 8th grade failed 8th again for three months then failed so badly they bumped me up to 9th anyway and a little of 10th before i dropped out my scores and grades were mostly 0’s and incompletes spent too much time drawing pictures and trying to socialize   anyway i’m a work in progress i suppose