i am not very good at being productive either i found that working with people with more severe disabilities than me helped in a non-profit in fact it was the only real long term job ive ever had and helped me with the self-pity storm because it helped me see what i have to be grateful for like i can use all my limbs i can scratch myself when im itchy not every one was born so fortunate there was less focus on me being productive and my output and more focus on being patient and i succeeded in that enviroment also i could really empathize with some of the struggles my guys went through having substantial mental impairments and the learned helplessness thing they cant drive and i would take them too appointments etc just something to consider i stopped during covid because i take public transit but since i stopped my adhd self pity has become sooooo much more intense i need to get back to it