i was diagnosed recently as an adult and the peace it has brought me is remarkable but id thought about it  a few times  the only advice i can give is that when you hit the bottom thats when you have to find the resolve to rebound higher than before and do the fucking work  you might be lucky and have people round you might be unlucky and not have support if you dont have support just remember that even the people with support have to do the work themselves  theres no one whos down there who has an easy ride out of there so dont be going and thinking that because you have no one and you imagine other people have all this support that they dont have to do every single bit of work you do  i can promise you that if you do the work if you get up everyday and make the right decisions for yourself if you find love and compassion for yourself if you dwell on your successes small though they are if you say hello and smile at someone in the street if you look at the sky and see the beauty in it if you pay attention to the wind on your skin  if you do the fucking work whatever that means to you that day it does get better  i fucking swear it does