here have a panic attack  youre in a social situation with a lot of people you dont know you have to make small talk for an hour with strangers  then its time for dinner you sit down in an uncomfortable chair at a table of strangers your spouse gets deeply involved in work talk with someone else you try and fail to make small talk with others but its loud in the room and shouting at strangers about what you do for a living is not engaging for either party  the room gets uncomfortably warm its too small a room for the number of people in it and youre soon washed in an incessant sea of loud but unintelligible conversation people ask you questions so you smile and fake laugh but you didnt hear a fucking word  the only respite is the bathroom but if you spend more than 30 seconds in there you worry someone will think somethings wrong your spouse asks if somethings wrong when you come back from the bathroom and you say no because you dont want to ruin their good time  alcohol helps so you drink but that makes you hotter and everyone else is drinking too so its getting louder all conversation is impossible - your brain cant pick out one person shouting from another youre alone in a clenching mass of unbelievably loud people unable to understand or speak to any of them as you continue to get hotter and more uncomfortable   just me