im tired ive been fighting all my life physically mentally emotionally im physically incapable of feeling gratification or happiness in general because of anhedonia im just so tired of fighting and im bitter at the fact that struggle is a natural and universal part of life and that having mental disabilities on top of lifes standard hurdles just makes everything even worse im bitter at this entire universe for being the way it is  i dont want to fight anymore why is it always made to be wrong to want to leave if a film is horrible why is it wrong to want to leave the theatre if a game sucks why is it wrong to want to quit life as a concept sucks so why is it wrong to want to die