i pride myself on always trying my best but so often my “best” is dictated by how good my brain will let me function some days my desk job seems awesome and i blast through all the paperwork other days it feels like i am reading a different language and the extra effort of trying to translate to something i can understand makes my mind shutdown and i get so freaking sleepy it frustrates me so much when i really want to be productive but then when it gets to it i can’t figure out what i am doing sometimes i feel like i don’t even know where i am and i like to refer to that as my brain throwing a tantrum and i can’t figure out how to get it to do what i want but then i’ll do something my brain likes for a second and i’ll feel so refreshed feeling like i have a chance to be productive again but then boom tired and confused again when i try to get back to work wtf brain