in late 2018 my intrusive thoughts was at their worst it felt like my brain was on fire it got so bad that i tried to kill myself in my suicide letter i wrote down that even if i got help with my intrusive thoughts i wouldn’t be able to live with myself knowing that i thought those things   it’s a lot better now i don’t have any self esteem left and i still feel like a horrible person but i’m trying my best to cope i try my best to not beat myself up when these intrusive thoughts are coming i believe the pain will end it may take time but you’ll come to understand that your intrusive thoughts are not the real you