you may not believe me but i think you are just a perfectionist in disguise you are way too fucking hard on yourself you’ve set such high expectations for yourself that they’ve become unrealistic for anyone and these expectations are overwhelming so you’ve found comfort in researching things while you think about how you will start working on those goals tomorrow   i think you should give yourself some credit celebrate your daily accomplishments even the small ones write down your long term goals then make goals for yourself each day even if the goal is just to research stuff less