yes it’s so funny i had this conversation with  my therapist today he said “sometimes we don’t think we deserve good things bc our motivation is tainted” obviously having ocd u get the intrusive thoughts compulsions etc anyways he suggested i think of 3-5 positive motivators that i can look back at to motivate me to do the things that make me happy we as humans deserve the right to be happy but our subconscious taints our motivations so we lose interest in things that we enjoy bc we feel we don’t deserve it   i hope this helped hang in there