i made a point of learning every word in the english language between 2014 and 2018 and now it’s a fucking curse because i know there is a precise word that i should be using and i can never find it like in every single sentence   but yeah i struggle majorly to communicate verbally and i guess that reflects how my thoughts are in disarray compared to most others - i’ll usually start saying something with no idea how i’ll finish it even if i know the topic well   i am actually very fast and witty but i will also say ridiculous and offensive stuff quite often because i can’t apply a filter whilst trying to communicate my convoluted thoughts at the same time and that can lead to anxiety and social aversion   so yeah it’s very very very very frustrating