im 47 years old and i was only finally diagnosed with adhd a few years ago i have been suffering for a long time   ive never had the ability to control my temper and i have little to no impulse control   its a constant struggle to keep myself from saying or doing something that would be socially inappropriate  from a young age my mom made me feel so ashamed   she told me that i was immature and undisciplined i think the word she used was defective  she never truly loved me because she felt my behavioral issues were due to a character flaw i was mentally weak  ive lived my whole life feeling like a disappointment  god it was painful it still is    i still feel like a failure even though i know its not my fault