when i was a kid prior to my diagnosis they thought i was mentally challenged so they checked my iq this was in the 90s thinking it was going to be  to be polite below average when it came up with a 143 they started looking at the other options testing for adhd so having established some coping mechanisms to at least outwardly show as normal  i flip flop between i cant be adhd im able to blah blah blah and saying i cant be smart im halb halb halb  so yeah bud i feel you and it sucks but on the occasion i can embrace either on or both on a rare occasion it can be fun to try to direct the smart brain on am adhd ramble