where was this when i was struggling with these obsessions literally one of my biggest ones i called so many doctors almost paid out of pocket for an ultrasound because i was convinced it wasn’t showing up on the many pregnancy tests i had taken my god almost stabbed myself in the stomach once because i just knew i was pregnant and couldn’t deal with it at 18 to this day i still can’t fully believe i’m not but i can rationalize with myself and consciously understand that there is no baby even if monkey brain says there is