yes yes and yes—a million times over again and then some more i find myself über resonating with this post on a spiritual level and im afraid to admit that nope i aint claiming that thats true for dramatic effect or whatever one of the major distinctions for me however is that upvoting would probably fall into the second panel on the right as opposed to the first one i suffer tremendously from black-and-whiteall-or-nothing thinking à la ocd so i feel compelled to either not click the like button for anything on certain social-media outlets or like legitimately everything on the other hand i feel as though my debilitating fear of being judged renders my ability to both comment and post relatively nonexistent ie the last panel of the blurriest heart  in fact my ocd has convinced me that i ought to personally abstain from posting commenting and upvoting anything on reddit for who knows how long—except for me unfortunately im way too knowledgeable about how many consecutive months its been during which ive had the sincere intention of doing any of that and how many years its been ever since ive done so on my old long-dormant reddit account   and i think that helps to explain why i decided to make a fresh new account on this site not too long ago and befittingly called it begonepostinganxiety a username that i pray will act as something of an inspirational little mantra for me and my online presence  as a matter of fact i originally had the intention of properly introducing myself to those of you guys on this particular sub in the form of a post on the very first day that i created this account but i inevitably chickened out—yep i recognize the inherent irony in that statement considering the content of my username lol and to make matters worse this was after typing up and saving a rough draft of a quasi-completed version of it onto my laptop im hoping that ill be able to garner the illogically massive amount of courage required for me to post that prior to the end of the current week if thats at all humanly possible that would be utterly dope fingers arms legs and all other flexible appendages crossed xp  last of all—i swear that my first reddit comment in what honestly might as well be eons otherwise known as my wannabe dissertationthesis paper is finally winding down to some semblance of a conclusion im well aware that this is gonna come across as laughably cheesy although i just wanted to take one more moment of your time umb19877 to thank you very much for having the strength to share this with all of us here at rocd in the first place if i werent a broke-ass college student i would definitely provide this post with one of em mystical reddit awards which i cant stop seeing around everywhere—including one of the other comments in this same thread as of now well at least i ultimately faced my fears by giving it an upvote on each of my two reddit accounts and especially by writing this veritable novella of a comment hahahahaha xp   plus just for the sake of full disclosure and i truly wish that the following confession was some gross over-exaggeration or maybe an unfunny joke i literally invested upwards of four-ish—albeit embarrassing af—hours into typing out and obsessingcompulsing  over this rambling shitshow of a comment to the point of my erasing any suboptimal wordsphrases and substituting the best possible synonyms for them in their place beating myself up about how overly verbose everything turned out to be and how far from perfect it sounds contemplating whether or not any of this will even be relevant to whomever may be reading it etc i understand how my obsessive-compulsive mind works for the most part meaning that if i dont press comment within the next couple seconds and then skedaddle for a little while then im just going to delete this whole entire thing i mean theres still a moderate chance that ill wake up tomorrow morning wondering why in the world i believed that it was a reasonable idea to divulge potentially too much intimate information within a single comment tonight and promptly revise the hell out of this baby or turn a large segment of it into another parent post of its own yet who knows what the near future is destined to hold anyway if nothing else i do promise that by no means will i let my ocd force me to take all of this down outright perhaps thatll function as some type of self-directed erp therapy for me or something