i found out at 21 my neurologist test medication on me and when he thought that some might not work took it off and substitute with another i was heavily drugged well just so you know he didnt took the meds he thought that didnt work out them by reducing the doses no no he took th abruptly and i suffered a lot with it the worst case of deprivation was with rivotril  he told me casually you have an obsessive disorder its clear and endogenous depression and didnt guide me  i needed support not just meds and i found it in hypnosis sometimes i felt like i didnt belong here i couldnt sleep full of anxiety had a lot of rituals and cried a lot  now im 27 go to my hypnotherapist sporadically and im barely medicated i just take a mood controller and one to control ocd  and i cant forget my 9 years bf he was the best supporter ever never gave up even when i pushed him away because i thinked that i wasnt worthy of him