i dont have anything encouraging to add or say other than i feel the same 38f recently diagnosed adhd but have had depression since a teen maybe i was adhd at that age who knows been told with a shrug that they either go hand-in-hand or that one was the cause of the other on anti-depressantsanxiety meds which kinda helps other than feeling numb and empty inside but i still feel like the weakest link not cut out for the world we live in dog-eat-dog survival of the fittest etc im also incredibly sensitive to everything around me no one in my current world understands or can relate and they look attreat me like i am making a bunch of excuses for my shortcomings or that i am being selfish because there are people who are in worse places than me i wish there was a way that i could donate my life to someone who deserves it who actually wants it who would actually fight for it if there was such a thing as devil or death gods i would not hesitate to sign over my life for someone else to have it feels like i am a mistake to the world i got a low end job constantly making mistakeslike the ones my boss brought up today on things i was suposed to have been thorough about but wasnt he asked me what are we going to do about me haha like hell if i knew if i did then maybe i wouldnt suck like this   i wonder how all of us here who feel the same would interact with each other irl   youre not wasting anyones time by posting how youre feeling and def not a bad person unless you actually cheat ppl lol but it doesnt sound like it it helped me in knowing im not alone or irrational in the thoughts we have i dont know if you would feel comfortable and try reaching out to a therapist to talk through what youre going through i dont have a therapist but i know sometimes it helps to hear what i am saying outloud if no to the therapist youve got all of us here to listen and talk with about anything i hope you have a close friend to confide in even if they may not understand hope you get some peace friend hugs