it can mean being organized like unable to stop   make a list of things to do remake it  remake it  memorize it  rewrite it in my head so i can put the pen and paper down  then rewrite it in my head again like 45 more times  be afraid i’ll forget what is on the list  so afraid i can’t sleep or do anything but keep the list at the front of my brain  then on little to no decent sleep rewrite the list the next day and rewrite it again each time i get to cross something off  add to the list  rewrite it  rememorize it  repeat  now do that with anything else that’s organized like a calendar or schedule or newsletter layout or grocery list  so like i’m super organized but it has no logic or healthy stopping point other people tell me all the time that they wish they had the ability to be that hyper organized that they envy my ability not to forget to do things or to schedule my whole life so far out they truly have no idea how challenging it is