i have a dangerous ocd where killing myself is better than living i fear contracting hiv i am currently on pep because i touched a box where i saw a positive hiv test in it and now i have gone insane i cant deal with his nmre i constantly have tests done and nothing can convince me that i want infected i have had a blood draw and thought i was infected that wayi thought someone threw hiv positive blood in my coffee i thought the hiv test i bought came with a hiv positive lancet i thought a nurse injected me with hiv its all about hivi wouldnt eat the meat at a restaurant because i saw blood in the meatif anyone can help me please docoz at this moment i cant nmre i dunno if this was a blessing to come across this post but i was planning on killing myself but maybe someone here can help me