mental disabilities are watching everything youve built about yourself personally being forcefully ripped away from you without your consent by an illogical demon   ive watched my life crumble apart in front of me for over 3 years now ocd is a beast that lies and says it will give mercy if you concede to feeding it to only then demand more till you have nothing left  i have never felt so weak ashamed and afraid as i have when in the depths with this disorder the strength required to conquer mental illness is having the ability to not just overcome yourself but to accept your inevitable failures on the way to recovery   i dont blame people for not understanding i didnt at one time being afraid of something you know is not true is just not something people can comprehend till you are the one watching yourself being dragged down into the depths of anxiety