this somewhat sounds like we are delusional not by an means you cant have both but i dont believe the cia is after me i just dont wanna be seen as oh i wash my hand from some extreme reason im offened i am i wash my hands from getting hiv off me and getting sick and never feeling clean i showered cuz expired cooked meat got on me  not to mention something off a book based off bizarre thoughts dont get me wrong psychotic thoughts and bazar thoughts already get enough hate and stigma