all i can say is that ive been there im sure you know about every hand creamgentle soap under the sun and if you dont theres tons of comments here recommending certain brands so im not going to talk about that ocd sucks anyone who has it or knows someone who does knows that but there are ways to get through it im only a 16 year old teenage girl so i dont have tons of life experience but i can say that you can get better i dont know your situation but i can say that ive started to get a hold on my ocd through counselling its not therapy and i doubted it at first but my counselor is really nice and has helped me look at some of the underlying causes and given me strategies to cope and its only been a few months if its within your means to get professional help whether its online counselling or an in-person therapist with a phd just having someone knowledgeable to talk to can be a great help the current pandemic definitely doesnt help people with germcontamination ocd like us but it helps to talk to friends and family that care about you and to get the help you deserve hang in there