i feel like the universe’s chew toy whenever i look at how hilariously tragic and impossible to win my life has been and for years i only lived because of some imagined debt to the universe for basic things like shelter food and education because other people have even less and i had done nothing to deserve any of those i’m better now it’s okay i’ve learned that everyone deserves those things and the fact that billions of people don’t is criminal of our social systems and institutions not that i was taking away from people who should be in my place by being a waste of space   but i have to say whenever i think that how there are others like me i can’t help but be filled with horror and fury i’m lucky to be alive after what i went through if things didn’t save me when they did then i would have been dead before 15 and there are so many people out there who didn’t get those lucky breaks when they could have been saved society could have done more for people society was made to do more for people and the fact that it doesn’t care if people are left dangling and defenseless is a disgrace   i may have learned to live for good things to come but i am so angry at the world for not supporting people like us like it should and i plan on making sure that less people have to go through what i did and secure their futures