this is what frustrates me the most honestly to a point of rage and sadness like nothing else its the most unfair and painful part of adhd before my recent diagnosis as an adult my bad memory just as you and commenters here describe has been the joke of my family and friends and in truth it can be quite comical from the outside but not when it hangs over you 247  it has always made me feel like i have the guns to get the job done school college projects work etc but im lacking the ammo i feel shackled and completely cut short of my potential the worst part is the awareness of it and that has only increased after the diagnosis when i stopped to look back at all the instances where this has affected me i know that i know the answer to this question i just cant remember it i know you explained to me in detail this process but i cant remember more than the general outline i know i understood this previus lecture i was even explaining it to others but this week they all remember and it looks cryptic to me i know that i read that book and loved it i just cant remember anything about it i feel very smart educated and knowledgeable in many things except that im reduced to a brainless fool who cant remember a thing about any of it   and the saddest part is all the trips all the family gatherings all the hangouts with friends that in my memory feel like theyre under this thick fog its not until other people begin to reminisce that some images are triggered but i just feel like i will get to a point where nobody will be there to remind me and everything i ever lived will slowly dissolve into oblivion