i completely agree i hate it im not even diagnosed i just dont want the label to myself of having it when i dont have the diagnose i can sometimes doubt it and think that its just something that will pass   sometimes when im working on something or even just watching netflix i suddenly see something that bothers me so much and i cant get my mind out of it until i go to move it whenever i think of something bad that might happen to someone close to me i have to start manifestingpraying good health and happiness for them even though im an atheist i just feel like maybe they will get hurt or something will happen because of my sudden thoughts i think so often what if and see all kinds of scenarios in my head then i have to prevent those things from happening by replacing items changing plans telling them to avoid something and so on  this is not even all of it but there hasnt been a moment in my life that i have enjoyed any of these its a curse not a blessing