this hasnt happened in a while i have learned to not repeat the past in my head mitigates depression reliving mistakes in my head had brought me down to dark places so now if someone points something out i should be pissed about it is a bit of a different story but even then i generally stay in kicked back gear i have been training myself to not allow this reliving of bad memories  i regularly get accused for not sticking up for myself that fact is though when i do try i get immediately flustered and fly off the handle in my head i cant think straight and tend to say things i regret this is why i dont like to argue