i’ve got a traditionally christian family so hearing that i need to take medication set them off bad i’ve had a diagnosis for 3 years and it even with multiple psychs saying i have what i have they aren’t sure if i’m autistic or adhd i’m pretty sure it’s adhd meds seem to be farther down on the list of things i need it’s always the same call for prayers i ran out of the belief of needing that when they decided to say “oh you don’t need meds life is a choice”   i felt wrong   i felt like an abomination of god’s creation  i felt like maybe i could’ve made the choice to not be this   maybe i could have been better   the only one who would even think to care is my girlfriend   tbh i still don’t know what to do with myself  edit when i say i don’t know what to do with myself i mean i dropped out of college from a major i loved because of how heavy things were getting and the pressure everyone was putting one me i’m scared of even leaving my room but i’m even more scared of sitting in one place