haha im so bipolar _and_ ocd that most mornings i wake up wondering what flavor of hellish torment ill be dragged through by my brain today am i going to be flying high and terrified of stopping working or sleeping how about wound extremely tight and incapable of coping with other human beings oooh or i could be utterly dead inside and use it as an excuse to avoid anything and everything in my life its such a fun game just spin the roulette and combine toxic emotional state with baseless fear for a good time right