fucking seriously  i hate being at home all the time  i keep forgetting my meds because my morning routine is shot now that im furloughed  yesterday i spent the whole day in a depressive fog trying to figure out why i couldnt focus why nothing seemed entertaining why i didnt want to do anything but sit and stare out the window because i have too much stuff to do like video games and books to catch up on but couldnt decide to do anything at all  i just  fucking hate that feeling now  it frustrates me so much  and then i realized  oh  i havent taken my vyvanse or my synthroid for like a week  that would be why i feel like total shit and my whole body hurts and i hate life  grrrrr