i’m so sorry  it’s so difficult   i’m reading freedom from ocd by jonathan grayson i had to order a paper copy of the book cos it doesn’t seem to be available as an ebook it is not the same as really good ocd-specific therapy but so far it has been much better than the well-meaning but uninformed psychologists and counsellors i’ve seen over the years who were not trained to work with ocd   i highly recommend the book if you are able to afford it i found it cheap on book depository about 15 usd and free shipping it is the only thing that has brought me any relief or peace of mind since my ocd got really bad about 2 years ago   jonathan grayson has also been interviewed on my anxiety toolbox a podcast a couple of times this year