jesus christ why the hell do you guys resonate with me so much its like you guys are in my head dammit i interview great but i cant be consistent my self because im always messing up all i can say is im sorry and try not to do it again only to get dicked over by another thing i dont remember doing but it probably was me anyway so i suck it up and take the disappointment and i cant defend my self because i cant even rely on myself to do be consistent constantly watching the people i trained surpass me its fucking embarrassing op not gonna lie this hurt me to read only because it honestly felt you were taking thoughts out of my mind but i completely understand how you feel rant