oh gosh i do the same thing  i’ve recently been doing this i turned 45 not too long ago and it has hit me hard dealing with how fast life goes by gives me thoughts like this more so at night i like to listen to soft relaxing music when i go to bed but there’s one i simply can’t listen to because it makes me feel like i’ve lost my loved ones already and i think about all the memories we have it’s nice to know i’m not the only one who does this i thought i was being overly sensitive