i can completely relate to this one    its like why even read if its not going to stick    i do wanna point out though if it brings you enjoyment and it nourishes your brain or your desire to learn more information that still makes it valuable to you its alright to have hobbiesinterests that arent necessarily productive in that regard not to belittle your feelings at all i just know i personally struggle with feeling like my hobbies have to be valuable to justify doing them so reminders that enjoyment itself is valuable always help