definitely not alone i decided to pursue medical school years ago back when i was still in high school and didn’t know i had adhd i didn’t know that i had skated by school without much struggle where being frequently distracted combined with last-minute massive cramming wasn’t too bad of an issue until i went for that premed life and am now in med school  while i am on adderall it’s a combination of years of terrible work ethic and typical adhd symptoms that have made the time in med school absolutely miserable but i’m too deep in depth to turn around and i honestly do love helping patients so my only choice is to keep trekking this uphill battle with the hopes that it will all work out in the end  i’m terrified that my horrible habits and traits put me at a learning disadvantage and i don’t want to put patients at risk just because i can’t stay fully committed and focused on a task for an extended period of time instead i’ve got to try to work with my adhd to learn and know my shit if it means i have to pace around or switch between topics or use a timer or use a reward system all just to get myself engaged in studying then so be it  you are definitely not alone recently i have felt so burnt out that i wished so dearly i had learned about my adhd much sooner and had chosen a career that involved much more hands-on training and that did not have such a large life-or-death responsibility but i can’t turn back time and i don’t want this to be the end either so i have to accept that my adhd may make becoming a physician so much harder than it already is but i want to be strong because patients deserve someone who’s good at their shit and that’s enough reason for me to keep pushing  this disorder sucks it sucks to lose control of yourself and your attention and have time and money go down the drain but we’re not alone people who don’t have adhd have their own struggles too i think everyone’s life has some sort of challenge  having adhd isn’t easy at all and i feel like i have to push myself to try so much that it’s exhausting and feels incredibly unnatural but i don’t want to give up and i don’t want to let myself or others down so i have to remind myself to really remember why i’m doing this and let that motivation seep in deep i have to try to maximize the time when i’m not distracted and to be a little more forgiving when i do get distracted   really thankful you shared this post sorry for rambling i too feel better that i’m not the only one makes me feel less like a failure because knowing that other ppl feel this way kind of normalizes a disorder that i didn’t choose to have but that is very much a part of me