honestly for me this is self fulfilling prophecy  people say i’m interesting and fun and different and then i self sabotage by thinking i’m not keeping them entertained and slowly pull back and lose touch because i don’t think i’m living up to the hype i created by simply being myself in the first place  but like why do i have to keep them entertained why do i place that obligation on myself  it’s highly possible i’ve run out of things to say because i’m the only one talking  maybe i’m actually bored by them because it turns out they don’t have a lot going on in their life and i’m what makes it exciting    relationships whether family friends or romantic partners are a two way street  even with how distracted i get i know who i want to share things with at the end of the day and it’s usually the people who haven’t given up on me after periods of silence  know your worth friends  it’s not you it’s them