i concur i hate myself im introverted have social anxiety and add its an awful storm of isolation my appendix ruptured when i was 5ish and i made it into surgery before the toxins spread too much i genuinely feel that that was the universe trying to get rid of me and i probably should have just died that day i havent experienced much that changes my perception that it wouldnt have mattered either way in the end yes im on antidepressants