straight living this struggle since age 22  now 34 dxed at 32 ive got buckets of silver linings that i am endlessly grateful for that however doesnt change the reality that ive professionally achieved only in the lowest tier among my peers many of us arent wired for the corporate life my ancestral peace was in the forest senses appropriately occupied by the breadth of stimuli and the survival task at hand sure we might get eaten by a mountain lion or die from a small scratch on the ankle but at least no one would be asking how my 401k is doing