the worst is that i cant ever make money in my business for the same reason consequently  my wife works herself to a nub while i try not to waste money on impulse buying and projects as i try to get the bookkeeping straight keep up with keeping house laundry dishes and meals decent all week i could draw a picture of how thats going but you can probably guess i try not to dwell on what a loser i am but i just feel sorry for her and my kids i know i have this great stuff and she loves me but her health keeps getting worse and i know shes wondering how much more she can take