i’ve convinced myself i’ve had aids cancer early onset alzheimer’s early onset blindness that i was gay that i may sexually assault someone that people aren’t safe around me that i’m a sociopath in the making that god will not forgive me and damn me to hell and that i’m not as nice as i think and do things to manipulate people to my benefit sometime i have a laugh about it and realize that even people with the worst luck in the world couldn’t be all of those things