i vote for the devils legion because i am literally such a mess of inconsistency that i drive myself crazy i fucking hate it today i did poorly on two midterms and im really done with it all like i dont have many excuses why i cant perform i did perfectly fine the first round of midterms i dont even know what happened though im no longer suicidal i still have the same mindsets towards myself as i did before the brain chemical balance has just been managed oh hell do i need a therapist lmao  its a loop of confidence and then disappointment because if im not scared about something i cant push myself to work for it i cant study i dont have friends in my classes so in order to do well and perform i have to be always fearful and stressed oh and im already on non stimulant meds for adhdasd but it has literally done nothing for my ability to get work done i really do understand its good to live even if us adhd will never be like other people