my fiancee recently helped me with a breakthrough on this thought yes you were supposed to being an adult has a lot of down time youre not sure what to do with some people have hobbies some visit friends some play games all day as long as you have a reliable living situation its up to you to decide whats considered wasting time or not the idea that we arent doing well enough in life can often be tied to feeling like we arent meeting other peoples expectations forgetting that all of our downtime belongs to us just do what you like to do and try to live guilt free its hard im still working on it but the best advice was that sometimes thats the entire point is to waste time when were bored with things we love like games and painting and music much love