try to talk to your teacher if you can one time a doctor a really loved made a joke about my race that really bothered me everyone else laughed but i didnt later on i pulled him to the side alone and we were able to talk about it ending very amicably im so glad i went ahead and stepped out of my comfort zone and confronted the issue but its really only because i knew theres no way he meant to hurt me and that i would definitely sit and stew over it forever and it really didnt have to end end way sorry for the essay im sorry people say that mine isnt neatness either sometimes it is weirdly enough its mostly repitions and counting and rituals