i feel very lucky with my upbringing considering how much worse others have it but my parents were still boot-strap-y catholic guilt machines  trying to unlearn the guilt is hard  therapy is useful for that       the public really needs to understand something that not even all of us do that its not attention deficiency its intention deficiency  the secretaries at the front desk of our brains are non-existent  i totally have those same thoughts that i could be doing my best am i just lazy but how can we do our best when our brains wont let us start