i fear that its coming which mentally drains me you know its coming you anticipate the impact but it always feels worse than you imagined it theres actually studies that say hurtful words hurt some people as as if they were actually physically struck so when you tell me to man up in actuality you might as well be the dog owner kicking his dog in the ribs when the window for punishment already passed the dog cant connect the dots he doesnt know what he did to deserve it and he ends up living in fear in anticipation of the next physical abuse