im totally adhd did and cptsd all medicated all diagnosed in adulthood i used to be like this    i had guilt and other regrets i thought i had no control over this ruminating  but i read an eckhardt tolle  book called the power of now its about living in the present moment and and getting rid of that self talk or pain bodies tolle calls them once i was able to experience that peace  wow i was not going back  it takes a little practice and reminders its retraining the brain i dont automatically start to have these thoughts fill my head anymore   but it changed more than that i began meditation practice shortly afterwards and have been faithfully practicing and progressing for 9 years now it helped get me through breast cancer and radiation and taking care of my dad who had dementia and was dying  on hospice  its an amazing tool and when i read through all your posts i cant help thinking how you could all be helped just by downloading a mindfulness app and trying it out give it 2 weeks  i guarantee if you give it a real  2 weeks you will like it  its also been scientifically proven to have health benefits so why shouldnt we   edit for some guided adhd meditation links