agree 100  rn im just tryna convince myself that maybe its not irrational- that way i dont feel bad but yaknow the truth prevails  and with the ruder responses when tryna explain my ocd they think im just crazy  sometimes when explaining i legit get a panic attack thinking about oh what if they think im stupid and that im mentally dumb and it f r e a k s me out because i have trauma dealing with that sorta assumption thanks to being physically disabled and my mom being delusional   and then when i think about if i have an illness i then think about oh what if im a hypochondriac and its just hygtyuigvt it never ends man