when i was younger my dad would always tell me that its not that i dont have time to do things its that i dont make time that always made me feel like i was just lazy and making a conscious choice not to do things except that it was literally the opposite   one example that i look back to is that i would be sitting on my bed ready to go to sleep needing to turn the lights off i would tell myself in my head over and over just get up and turn the lights off sometimes for an hour i would never be able to just get up and do what i was telling myself to do after my diagnosis that i didnt get until i was already working on my phd i started understanding not only why i was like that but that neurotypicals can just get up and do those things whenever they want to instead for me i would eventually give up and fall asleep with the lights on