i was on my phone for 25h  in the bathtub  instead of studying and writing an essay  and preparing a meeting ill have tomorrow   the rest of the day i watched dog videos  like the responsible adult i am   ‐-----------------‐-----------------‐-----------------‐-----------------   update on me and my meds   nothing seems to work and its making me depressed again after i kind of beat my depression and because the first two times i took it it worked i had hopes now after two weeks of taking it and increasing my dose twice it lnly works a tiny bit in the morning and then as soon as i eat the effect goes away slowly then the second dose i dont even feel   no incresed blood pressure like everybody is saying no concentration on what i need to do nothing just me being the lazy whatever i am i was on my phone for hours now instead of cleaning and studying   i managed to sort some of my papers and wash some clothes - that i then tossed on a pile in my living room  like i wouldve done anyway even without meds in the morning i was purely excited to do something when i woke up then took it and an hour later felt better about myself and actually doing it thats when i sorted the papers   now i sat in the bathtub again for two hours straight and yes  the water gets cold lol  i feel lost i talked like a waterfall again the padt few days just like before i didnt pay attention to what others were saying judt like before and the worst was realising how useless i am without a functioning medication i cant anymore its just exhausting for me and for the people around me i became the emotional mess i was before   has this ever happened to anybody else