tw mentions of self harm  even though i repeat them everytime i definitely feel this with my reactions to the stress compulsions cause i know that when someone is angry with me and my head begins to spiral into im a fuck up and they hate me mode that i shut down on the outside completely or feel the need to self harm because thats all i can focus on is the repetition in my head knowing that people dont react well to this doesnt make it any easier to stop when im in that state of heightened emotion and the endless loop begins i couldnt even begin to imagine how im supposed to break out if it enough to stop myself its like all of my senses black out my eyes unfocus completely all i can hear is a constant whooshing sound in my ears and i dont recall ever smelling anything in this state the only thing able to break through for me is touch if my partner wraps me in a tight hug or even just rubs my back it slowly subsides since i cant just tote him around with me wherever i go any tips on how to combat this