ive always felt this way as well and i think--for me at least--it stems from a history of emotional turmoil with family members teachers and peers that gave me the impression that i was different for the worse one incident that particularly sticks out is how much my father would be upset at me for wetting the bed i just never learned how to wake up to use the bathroom until i was about 9 i also remember having to wear what were essentially diapers because of how often it would happen which would make me embarrassed to be around friends at sleep overs   i didnt talk about my dad much but i believe that his constant criticism is why i hold such negative beliefs about myself i remember my dad telling me that i was born wrong when he was pissed and i was six years old stuff like that sticks with with you for a lifetime