this is so real lmao sometimes i get paranoid that i made up my ocd to justifyexplain to others how uncomfortable i am with bacteria and human physical touch and then im likewhatno lets look at the original fear here its so irrational that im even struggling to verbalize it right now i feel like i made it up to hide my real neurosiswhich weirdly matches the description of ocd but too well to the point where im like did i make this happen