i’m constantly torn between the two i’ll put everything to the side and procrastinate but as soon as someone does the work for me i get super anxious because i almost feel like i’m being put on the spot to do work that i don’t want to do for someone else and when i don’t do it i just feel 10x worse finding my own motivation is what i want the most so i feel accomplished but finding it is also the hardest thing i’ll ever do