this is part of why i haven’t partook in my edibles in a bit thankfully it’s mostly because i got a job offer with usps and want to be clean for any drug testing they might do so it doesn’t feel like one more thing ocd took away from me way easier to stay away from if it’s for a job than if it’s just solely ocd-induced avoidance  like edibles make me incredibly horny and right now with the return of my pocd bc my life didn’t suck enough rn i’m mortally terrified of associating the pleasure of that activity with those horrible nasty thoughts because they just keep bugging me and popping up   ugh this is the worst   hopefully the 50mg of luvox i’m on helps to ease the thoughts away at least the benadryl i take alongside helps with to smooth out the anxiety spikes