this happens to me with people activities aren’t necessarily ruined but my ocd flairs a lot when i am somewhere i’ve experienced an intense situation before for example every single time i pull out of the apartment parking the same exact thought pops up immediately when i pull onto the road “hope the door’s locked”    another example is when i go on a walk at my college’s arboretum i just can’t get my mind off of the problems i’ve faced months ago regarding my harm ocd and trying to find a place to escape it i have escaped it but when i go back i think of my struggles of the past and it isn’t the same i feel this when i go home as that’s where my ocd and harm ocd specifically got worse over time all because of something that completely changed our family forever it could’ve been a lot worse but i started to question myself and it turned into obsessions about whether or not i’m capable of having bad intentions i’ve been battling harm ocd for years now and i’ve been battling anxiety since i was a young kid    i have hope though i am not a severe case but i feel at times i think about self harm and death more often because my mind wants me to think “if it’s over no more worrying because you won’t exist” but i know those thoughts are intrusive thoughts because i don’t think that way on a normal basis same with every other intrusive thought associated with negativity i love life i have goals life is just difficult to master and with ocd it’s just a higher difficulty on the video game we call life