yes i recently made the decision to get help because of the debilitating fear that i one day could be cancelled whether on a micro or macro scale leading to my ocd diagnosis its known as real event ocd and seems to be talked about very little i have the same exact compulsion of googling things to get slight relief feeling the constant need to confess to people but it never truly helps i am very sorry that you are experiencing this i know how truly awful it is before learning i had ocd i felt like my life was over and i was the only one in the world who felt this way im very early along in my erp sessions but i think that it is helping slowly but surely i wish you all the best we cant let ocd win