seriously - i feel the same damn way my wifes 30th is coming up and we talked about her birthday like two years at the time of course i said - yes lets have the best party ever ff to a few weeks before the big day i havent done shit and shes had to do 99 of it herself she asked me to contact a couple bands a week ago totally forgot about it i was reminded of my mistake last night and beyond feeling bad for letting her down again i just really felt sadder because i knew it was important and externally it just seems like i dont give a flying fuck i want to care i just cantfigure it out