i think i have been focusing too much on the reward it self rather than the meaning or how it makes me feel this is why sometimes i hit walls that i wont climb no matter the reward the one thing that has been working is a technique i learned from david goggings when he needs to motivate him self he sees himself if he were to pull it off what if i did the thing how would that make me feel how would i see my self if i was someone that could do the thing and pull it off