i understand you completely but find a nice bedtime routine and practice it often its made a huge difference for me i usually take a shower let my hair dry while i game for like 30 mins and then go to bed listening to subtle asmr videos i lock my phone turn down the volume and roll to the opposite side also try maybe melatonin or otc sleep aids if you want they help take the ease off i know its hard but hopefully youll find something like similar that works