just realized id been out of school for years not having graduated i did nothing academically challenging throughout that time except once when my friend asked me for help in the programming part of this assignment he had to do in the weeks before he started his cambridge masters in physics cause he has his shit together much more than i do i managed to focus well enough that i gave him some insight into the physics part too  i know its an anecdote that should belong in  riamverysmart but i was really proud because id been out of it for so long that i just assumed i was stupid