its still the adhd and its still a part of you    we can tell ourselves that our mistakes arent our fault and thats its the adhd fault and its true to a degree but what we just have to remember telling ourselves and others that despite your failings despite your disorderly life you still can move on and live      so what you got dealt a bad hand so what your mind doesnt agree with your actions    you keep going you keep trying you keep going   the next step is always what can i do now what can i do to both help me and others now its not helpful reminiscing about the past its not helpful telling yourself repeatedly how its your fault stop doing that do something else dont let that feeling that thought keep poisoning your every action   i hate that feeling of its just you not the adhd and i hate how often i think it but you arent just your adhd unfortunately if you do think like this i might say that you have low self-esteem and experience anxiety more than a regular person      but thats not your fault you were made this way but the environment made you think this way    i often think what separates people who have adhd and just seem to live better lives than others meaning relationships a good job and friends compared to a worse version of that    well the first instinct is to tell you that your thoughts your ideas of what you are keeping you from actively growing those things keeping you from actively opening yourself to those things    when you have the tools like adhd medication what your often left with is the years and years of trauma you had experienced having it untreated    years of comments ideas and thoughts you had about yourself your hypercritical of yourself you are hyper aware and sensitive to others criticism      thats not adhd thats years and years and years of being judged mistreated and misunderstood   fuck your thoughts go fuck your ideas about what you think you are you can be better you are fucking better and can do better   give yourself a rest manwomanchild   youre trying your best and thats fucking awesome  give yourself a rest with the constant criticism the doubt the hypersensitivity too rejection   just let it go let it flow from you and focus on what you can do now  and get back into a routine get back into a healthy routine that helps with the thoughts and doubts and the fear