just remember this odc is not something you fight against its something you let go of your brain is like a muscle and when it tenses and locks up like this the more you focus on it and agitate it the worse it will get you dont need to be thinking about any of this at all and you probably know this it doesnt help you or anyone and yet youre so stuck on this stuff and you are the only one thinking about it or causing this problem to happen the only reason the intrusive thought bothers you is because you take it seriously and consider it and give it so much power when the truth is theres a reason everyone has their ocd and honestly when you stop fighting it youll start to learn what that is and then youll start to realize that you dont need to do any of this and you can start to let go but you dont have ocd because any of these thoughts youre having actually matter they dont its just all in your head and also dont worry about what anyone else thinks of you it will hold u back and slow you down too much its much better to like yourself first and be okay with who you are then u dont have to worry about what anyone else thinks ur only having those thoughts cuz u obsess over having them they dont even have any relation to who you are or what you are about or if you are a good person