yeah it was a relief because before i was convinced i was an absolute weirdo or even a bad person because of it the thoughts made it seem that way it still gives me a lot of discomfort but at least i dont feel too guilty about things that i never even did or said   i remember something from a ted talk i watched a while ago on youtube where the speaker who i think has some sort of high functioning social anxiety said theres nothing wrong with me theres just something wrong with me  i thought this was an interesting thought - im not badstupidweirdproblematic this is something thats not my fault that im not in control of so i shouldnt let the guilt consume me  of course we cant always control the way we that feel but this thought may help some of us out at some point