wow this is insightful i don’t have ocd but when i was a teenager i went through this awful couple of months where i thought i was “crazy” that i was a creep that i liked babies too much we had a cute baby next door at the time and that i was weird and should just not see children anymore idk it was awful it only lasted a little time but it makes me sort of understand where my brain went reading this now i was 15 then and it was a tough year i self obsessed and worked really over the top to get my mums approval to no avail then these thoughts crept in so glad they went away hugs to all of you having to deal with these things on a daily basis