first of i do 100 percent feel u  2nd i do feel its the worst to disappoint myself  3nd i am german in german he word disappointment is translatet to enttäuschen which means as much as unmask  there is a song arguing the good thing about the unmasking is that you dont mask anymore  like besides the struggles in life those of us with adhd has to face anyway why should we also worry about people who did the math well he succeeded in school so he will succeed in life maybe those people arent the best mathematics since there is always a unknown part in the formula and especially when you got diagnosed early its obviously that there is a high chance of struggle in life its possible to do it for sure but there is still struggle  im sick of justify myself for other peoples expectations anyhow  still i do wanna succeed of course but i try to accept that i will struggle alot and that i will fail more often then others  that doesnt make me a bad person it rather shows strength in getting up again and of course it sucks but i strongly disagree with feeling ashamed for that  and im still learning this too its taff  best wishes  when you try your awesome regardless of the result