i totally understand you  for me its also way harder to understand and learn something eg a new topic in math when i dont know all the exact details and things on why i have to do this one specific thing   its way easier to understand when i have all the details that my brain wants   its of course problematic in certain life situations since it can start bothering people rather quickly  ill take school again as an example but lets just say that  youre in math class and the teacher introduces a new topic he maybe starts off like this is our new topic where we learn this and how to do it you start by taking these numbers and doing exactly this with them and boom there you have it  my problem would be that i 100 would need to know why i have to do all those certain things otherwise my brain 1 couldnt understand and 2 would forget everything again rather quickly  and since one does not want to ask the teacher in that case a 1000 times about every little detail i atleast for myself stay quiet then resulting in me ultimately not understanding that topic its of course not a smart decision but a gentle one to not annoy someone with useless questions  hope that somehow maybe helped you or atleast let you know that youre not alone  have a good one