i think some of weirdness i get from autism and adhd is pretty neat but like i don’t need to be happy about the fact that no matter how much i want my friends to hug me i freeze up and they can sense how tense i get when i’m touched so they’re really hesitant about touching me i understand it but also i wish i could just sink into a bear hug instead being a split second away from accidentally jerking away from them on reflex because that’s just how uncomfortable actually hugging is like