i know for a fact that im generally lazy as a person and i value my leisure time which i like to get the most of it whenever i have the opportunity to without neglecting any responsibilities im content just sitting there on the couch and playing video games for hours on end or watching netflix if i have time to do so  i understand the self-loathing i have a lot of it myself and am working on it in therapy currently i sincerely hope anybody here struggling with it will overcome theirs as well a good bit of mine comes before my adhd was diagnosed and began getting treated for it last year  it gave me the answers i needed as to why i couldnt focus on anything and always forgetting stuff i thought it was my fault for being lazy the clarity and the relief of knowing its adhd and it can be treated with the right medicine a work progress for me doesnt take away the loathing i feel for my perceived carelessness in the past