its very easy for people with hyperfocus to land on the negative and get stuck there its very easy for people with memory issues to remember if it was ever not like this its very easy to self-sabotage and its easy to self-destruct  its hard to realize youre actually in a cycle or in the trough of a wave when youre still spiraling out you think it goes down forever because we are too hyperfocused on the downfall to see the big picture much like planets in retrograde we dont realize were on a track and it only looks like theyre moving backwards but we actually are just turning a corner around the sun   ive never been disappointed by staying long enough to see the planets move forward again to watch myself grow