i really felt like i could relate and this is very deep to me  my room is the same cleaned evey once in a while andbrhen forgot to keep it clean and tidy i think i just dont want to do things  about checking your up-votes those potential voters are complete strangers and you have 0 info about them so it doesnt make sense to care about how they see things i hope thats a little helpful at least  the keeping in touch thing i can reflect a bit too i care about my friends enough to do many things for because i like making them happy but my other side just has no drive at all so im losing potential life long friends by distancing myself for too long but reading what you wrote really makes me wanna try harder again thank you  and about not wanting to do anything i never met anyone who knows that feeling xd wanting to do things like playing a cool game i installed and havent started yet i think i sometimes tend to not finishing things so maybe to prevent that i just dont start i just had that thought for the first time p  lastly i think you critique yourself to much