i feel you mani used to believe that adhd only affects how i study and my restlessness and nothing else so everytime something happens in my life that i dont have an explanation for i used to blame myself and its quite hard too you dont know how or why you messed up and everyone gives you the stink eye everytime youd try to fix that it made me feel so bad about myself that i hated myself for being me only recently did i know how much adhd affects your life and suddenly everything i did has an explanation even then you cant supress the loathing you feel about yourself everytime you mess up i still unconsciously think i hate myself atleast thrice a day it would take a while to just convince yourself that its not you and its not your fault but most of the time its just difficult to accept that