same here i have a long-time friend group full of young bankers and lawyers one of which had gone on to an ivy league law school a very successful bunch of degenerates to say the least for years my friends have consistently said that i’m the smartest of them all and i’ve always blown them off i sucked at college barely made it through and am easily the least successful of them all i sound smart and am fairly analytical about things i’ll give myself that but when it comes to practically implementing that intelligence my brain works about as well as someone who just got back from the dentist and is still high from the anesthesia i try to focus write down as much as i can end up fixating on one thing someone says spacing out for a minute and then come back only to realize i have no idea what is being talked about then when i actually try to juggle multiple things at once i don’t even know where to begin   you know that path in your mind where the road is completely clear and you can see exactly how to get from point a to point b yeahi don’t for me it’s like driving in a blizzard where you’ve got about three feet of visibility shit is infuriating