glad to hear youre doing well figured well wishes would be in order whether it was a problem or not  yeah and sometimes the obsessions can become so overwhelming and the nature of the condition at least from my experience can make the fears feel so real that it can make it a truly disorienting experience so what you described can actually be often found with other stories that im sure you can be found on this forum with people almost believing their thoughts   congratulations though on getting well and hope ya stay healthy for the long hall