i just want to comment here for whoever reads this if you’re feeling like the wold is all gloom and light will never shine again let me assure you that it will  it may not be today maybe not tomorrow or this week maybe not even next month or the one after that or after that one it may not even be this year or the one after it it may not be suddenly and it may not be immediately but i can promise you that just like there’s rain in the dryest places and like there is sunshine in antarctica there will come a day when you smile a “real” smile when you feel true happiness and joy and when things are just fine and you’re perfectly happy and at peace  i can promise you that if you stick around long enough that day will come and you will find yourself happy it may not be easy but it will probably be worth it i can also promise you that if you quit now you will be denying yourself of better days you deserve better days give yourself the chance and stick around to live and enjoy them  i’m sorry for your loss op