can only speak for myself but for me it really goes back to childhood ostracism from peers and scolding and even bullying from unsympathetic authorities really miserable adults so much so where you go from a happy little child who believes that being yourself and being kind is good enough to a seven year old who is suicidal all because you think and act a little different i didn’t get help in any capacity until i was 14 doing much better now but honestly i can never shake that feeling of being bad or a burden or unlovable