hahaha yeah hahahah fuck is wrong with me i can do all those things for work but at home im literally a rag doll   i can run 13 kilometres but i cant clean my room   fuck is wrong with me   good god my next psych appointment is the 19th next fri hopefully i get adhd meds as my hypomania has receded i want to cry and laugh but i cant or well thatll make me seem more insane and well currently i like the routine mindless work that ive implemented   i dont feel overly emotional anymore to the point it hurts my chest which is amazing im afraid ill feel it again at one point but so far so good haha