that would drive me nuts the combination of adhd and autism can be absolute hell i left my car with creaked windows open in a coastal town for almost six months the combination of executive function struggles sensory issues and emotional disregulation that culminated in me needing so spend 800 to get it cleaned and they didnt even get the mold in the padding under the carpeting so itll be another 600 to fix that thats not fucking fun its not a super power even accepting that the shame i feel for it may be over-exaggerated and i need to practice simply feeling neutral towards it and the fact that it happened and i can fix it now is a constant emotional struggle that will likely follow me around for years if not decades as other gross and awful consequences to mismanagement of executive functioning and emotional regulation and inability to contain violent reactions to sensory hell have continued to contribute to the shame i carry with me over the years note not violent to other people just like gagging or crying or other reactions like that  fighting back against the stigma is important learning to have compassion for yourself and forgive yourself for your failings especially if you werent diagnosed until later in life is important there are some times when i feel proud of a trait i have that is an autistic or adhd trait - sure i cherish those moments they help but the things that suck fucking suck and we should be allowed to acknowledge that and feel and express the associated negative emotions without being shamed for it were shamed for enough already jesus christ  rant  but yeah thanks for sharing it is very validating to come across this kind of content