this resonates with me so much i have felt this all my life i was only very recently diagnosed adhd and very likely also autism spectrum disorder also diagnosed bipolar 6 years ago it wasn’t until the adhdasd diagnoses that a lot of things started to make sense i’ve struggled for so many years i am turning 33 in april and i just keep wondering how life might’ve been and how much more successful i’d be had i had the medical attention i needed for these diagnoses when i was a child  i was raised by a single mum so i had to grow up real quick i struggled a lot but it meant that i had no time to struggle cos my mum struggled too it’s almost also like ignorance is bliss i just kept trudging along with great difficulty and pain and confusion i felt stupid mostly and other times i felt like i was a really bad person and didn’t deserve good people   anyway despite all the difficulty i managed to become successful in my career i am a high school and university dropout and i work as a business analyst on a six figure salary it isn’t about the money - i am not boasting so please forgive me the point i’m making here is everything was fucking hard but because everything was so hard i tried so much more than most others around me this made me a successful person there is strength and resilience in us adhdasd folk like no other we are blessed  the down side is because of adhdasd i have really intense imposter syndrome and constantly feel like i’ll be “found out” i just don’t feel like i’m on the same level as my colleagues or that i deserve being there i have constant fear that everything i’ve built will just come tumbling down and that i’d have nothing and be nobody  reading all the comments here gives me hope as i try to find a community to learn from given i am newly diagnosed i feel a bit lost and i feel like i’m in a state of just digging to discover as much as i can about adhd  thanks everyone for sharing your comments it is helping