i really keep feeling like nothing is going to get better and things will be like this forever it’s making my other ocd things so much worse too i almost had a panic attack at work tuesday because i hadn’t lost the weight from the weekend yet and seriously considered clocking out and driving home to get a laxative the contamination stuff isn’t what’s bothering me but the massive changes in day to day life me being an “essential” grocery store employee and seeing everyone in the masks and everything plus doing school online plus having my boyfriend home all day long etc are really freaking me out and it’s almost worse if i get used to them because i’ll have to get used to regular life again when if it ends