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I apologize for coming to you for assistance again but I am confused and frustated and once again being given the run around. I posted a user RfC regarding Ryan; I then posted a request for comment on the RfC at WP:ANI, which was something Ryan himself suggested on the IP talk page. Administrators at the ANI board dismissed my request for comment as ""forum shopping"", which is a term I'm not even familiar with, and said it was part of a series; the best I can get out of that is they think I am going everywhere asking for attention, which is completely false; I have posted the RfC nowhere else. Admins have also complained about my asking questions on policy discussion pages as ""fishing"", but I was attempting to follow dispute resolution steps which include asking questions on policy discussion pages. I did not provide links to the RfC at these discussion pages. 
I am extremely frustrated and upset; I feel as if other administrators are again trying to sweep my complaints away and take advantage of my lack of complete understanding of the complex layers of policy. I have been again accused of Wikilawyering, a term which seems to me to be in direct contradiction with the statement on Jimbo Wales' user page about using strict scrutiny. 
I am not asking for your opinion on the RfC as I feel that would be inappropriate considering my discussion with you. I am extremely upset because the entire system seems to prevent users from successfully file complaints about administrator conduct. Am I just wrong about everything?   "