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"In my last blog I talked about going through a traumatic experience. However, dropping my phone in the toilet was nothing compared to what I was about to experience a few days later.  A little while after I got back from the student center with a friend, I got a phone call to let me know that my grandmother had just passed away. I&amp;#039;d never felt a pain like I did when I hung up that phone. I didn&amp;#039;t know what to do. Somewhere between the waterfall of tears coming from my eyes and the moans of pain, the next emotion I began to feel was guilt. Why had I chosen to go out of state for school?  Why didn&amp;#039;t I stay closer to home, so that I could have spent more time with her in her last days?  When I decided to go out of state for college, I was always aware of the pros and cons. A major con was that if something happened at home, it wouldn&amp;#039;t be easy for me to get there immediately. When I found out that my grandmother died, the first thing I wanted to do was hug my mom and at that time it was impossible.  I love my grandmother very much and it took me a little time to realize that I had to stop being so hard on myself. I know that she was happy because I was happy at Hampton University and though we didn&amp;#039;t see each other every day, our love for each other remained strong. I have never lost someone so close to me, and the grieving process hasn&amp;#039;t gotten any easier as the days go by. I always love going home, but my trip back there this past weekend for the funeral was not on a very light note. However, being surrounded by family and friends (people who also really loved my grandmother) made me feel a little bit better. Losing a loved one while in college is not an easy thing. The hurt you feel from losing that person now has to be added on to the stress you already have from school work. The only way I&amp;#039;ve gotten through this so far is because of the great support system I have here at school. When people heard the news, I instantly received SO much support and sympathy. My closest friends here were always there, ready to listen or to offer a shoulder to cry on. I knew right away that I was not alone; there are a lot of people on campus that have gone through the same thing that I am going through right now. The most important thing to remember is that your loved one wouldn&amp;#039;t want you to be sad forever, fall behind on your work or be so upset that you stop caring about everything, including school. They would want you to keep on going and continue making them proud while you&amp;#039;re still on Earth. I&amp;#039;m going to keep pushing myself and work hard to achieve every single one of my goals because I know that I can achieve anything, especially since I now have a new angel to watch over me from Heaven. Whenever I would come home for breaks, I would run straight to my grandmother&amp;#039;s room to let her know that I was home. The way her face would light up when she saw me made me feel so special. When my break was over and it was time to leave, I would once again go to her room to say, &amp;quot;I love you,&amp;quot; and, instead of saying, &amp;quot;Goodbye,&amp;quot; we would always say, &amp;quot;See you soon!&amp;quot; Though my grandmother is no longer physically here, I know she always meant that and I honestly believe in my heart that one day we will meet again. I love you, Grandmother. See you soon! Paige "^^<http://www.w3.org/2001/XMLSchema#string>
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