Meaning of 意識してる in this sentence


Does 意識してる have a different meaning than "being aware" in the following
sentence?

> この漫画の原作を書く時は自分の中にある１番悪い部分をどれだけ出せるか…ってことを意識してます。

Considering that the sentence that comes before is a question, it comes
natural to me to translate 意識してる as "I wonder", but I couldn't find this
meaning in dictionaries. Is my interpretation correct? Or I got it completely
wrong? Thank you for your help!

EDIT: my translation attempt.

> I wonder(?) to what extent I am able to convey the worst part that's inside
> me when I write the story of this manga.




I think 意識してる in your sentence means "pay attention" "keep in mind" (close to
気にしている, 注意を払っている or 心にとめている).

So I think it can translate to something like:

"I (always) pay attention to how much I am able to convey the most evil part
that's inside me when I write the story of this manga."

by which the author practically means:

"I always try as much as I can to convey the most evil part that's inside me
when I write the story of this manga."




I think 意識してる in your sentence means "pay attention" "keep in mind" (close to
気にしている, 注意を払っている or 心にとめている).

So I think it can translate to something like:

"I (always) pay attention to how much I am able to convey the most evil part
that's inside me when I write the story of this manga."

by which the author practically means:

"I always try as much as I can to convey the most evil part that's inside me
when I write the story of this manga."

