Confusing embedded question: こんなこと、俺に許されるのか分からないけど


Context: a girl and her parents are attacked, and her parents are killed
before she is saved by someone. He apologizes (for being too late to save her
parents) and then says this:

> ……せめて。せめてこれから君が苦しまなくて済むよう、君にお守りをつけておくよ。

I think he means something like: "At least I will wear a charm for you so that
you don't need to suffer after this." (Or does he mean that she will wear it?
I'm a little confused because of "君に" in the second half.)

After that he says:

> _こんなこと、俺に許されるのか分からないけど_ 、それでも君が心配だから。

I don't really understand what he is trying to say in the middle part
(embedded question?) because the verb is passive and he is the doer. So is he
saying something like: "I don't know/understand if this situation (こんなこと? the
fact that he didn't save her parents?) will be forgiven by myself, but..."? Or
am I totally wrong about what he means? And does から at the end refer to the
previous sentence about the charm? That he (or she?) will wear a charm because
he is worried about her?




> ……せめて。せめてこれから君{きみ}が苦{くる}しまなくて済{す}むよう、君にお守{まも}りをつけておくよ。
>
> I think he means something like: "At least I will wear a charm for you so
> that you don't need to suffer after this." (Or does he mean that she will
> wear it? I'm a little confused because of "君に" in the second half.)

It is the listener, and _**not**_ the speaker, who will be wearing a charm.

「君 **に** ～～ **を** つける」 means " _ **(I will) attach ~~ to you**_ ".

> こんなこと、俺{おれ}に許{ゆる}されるのか分{わ}からないけど、それでも君が心配{しんぱい}だから。
>
> I don't really understand what he is trying to say in the middle part
> (embedded question?) because the verb is passive and **he is the doer**.

He is _**not**_ the doer. He is saying that he might not be permitted. The
person who might or might not permit is the listener and not the speaker.

> So is he saying something like: "I don't know/understand if this situation
> (こんなこと? the fact that he didn't save her parents?) will be forgiven by
> myself, but..."?

Sorry to keep replying negatively, but the answer is 'no' again. (You may be
reading something that is way above your current Japanese proficiency.)

Judging from the context that you have given, the speaker is talking about
whether he would be permitted to attach that charm to her without her consent.
He is worried he might not be permitted to do so by her. Thus, 「こんなこと」 refers
to the speaker attaching the charm to her.

(If, however, the larger and unprovided context suggests that 「こんなこと」 would
refer to the fact that he didn't save her parents, you would need to show it
to us. Normally, that would be much too serious a matter to describe as
「俺に許されるのか分からない」. What happened already happened. Why would he wonder if he
would be allowed to let it happen _**after**_ it happened?)

> And does から at the end refer to the previous sentence about the charm? That
> he (or she?) will wear a charm because he is worried about her?

Yes, it does. It is like saying 「それでも心配だから, I did it. (= attached the charm to
you)」.

It is very common to end a sentence with 「から」、「だから」、「ので」, etc. unlike in
English.




> ……せめて。せめてこれから君{きみ}が苦{くる}しまなくて済{す}むよう、君にお守{まも}りをつけておくよ。
>
> I think he means something like: "At least I will wear a charm for you so
> that you don't need to suffer after this." (Or does he mean that she will
> wear it? I'm a little confused because of "君に" in the second half.)

It is the listener, and _**not**_ the speaker, who will be wearing a charm.

「君 **に** ～～ **を** つける」 means " _ **(I will) attach ~~ to you**_ ".

> こんなこと、俺{おれ}に許{ゆる}されるのか分{わ}からないけど、それでも君が心配{しんぱい}だから。
>
> I don't really understand what he is trying to say in the middle part
> (embedded question?) because the verb is passive and **he is the doer**.

He is _**not**_ the doer. He is saying that he might not be permitted. The
person who might or might not permit is the listener and not the speaker.

> So is he saying something like: "I don't know/understand if this situation
> (こんなこと? the fact that he didn't save her parents?) will be forgiven by
> myself, but..."?

Sorry to keep replying negatively, but the answer is 'no' again. (You may be
reading something that is way above your current Japanese proficiency.)

Judging from the context that you have given, the speaker is talking about
whether he would be permitted to attach that charm to her without her consent.
He is worried he might not be permitted to do so by her. Thus, 「こんなこと」 refers
to the speaker attaching the charm to her.

(If, however, the larger and unprovided context suggests that 「こんなこと」 would
refer to the fact that he didn't save her parents, you would need to show it
to us. Normally, that would be much too serious a matter to describe as
「俺に許されるのか分からない」. What happened already happened. Why would he wonder if he
would be allowed to let it happen _**after**_ it happened?)

> And does から at the end refer to the previous sentence about the charm? That
> he (or she?) will wear a charm because he is worried about her?

Yes, it does. It is like saying 「それでも心配だから, I did it. (= attached the charm to
you)」.

It is very common to end a sentence with 「から」、「だから」、「ので」, etc. unlike in
English.

