What does こんな mean in the following sentence?


Please allow to establish the context.

There is 1990 roleplaying video game titled “Illumina!” (Japanese title:
イルミナ!), which is one of Cocktail Soft's products.

In the game, there is an evil necromancer named Rasuneti (Japanese name:
ラスネティ). As the game goes on, she becomes a threat to the protagonist. Their
confrontation finally ends with the protagonist running his sword through her
heart. At that point, she says the following:

> ば…ばかな…私が…こんな…

I think the translation goes something like this:

> Ab...absurd...I am...like this...

I know that こんな usually means “such” or “like this”, but when I see the word
being used like this in Japanese media, I keep getting the feeling that it is
being used to mean something else.

Am I on the right track? What does it mean in that context?

Thanks in advance.




I think when used like that there is usually something not said, like in this
case it could be `こんなことあり得ない`, "It's not possible something like this [to be
defeated by the hero]", or `私がこんなふうに殺された`, "Ab... absurd... me being killed
like this...".

