俺は自分だけが勝手に高ぶってしまわないよう >>What does this mean ?( In order to prevent myself from getting too excited ?)


> 俺は自分だけが勝手に高ぶってしまわないよう

What does this mean? My guess is "In order to prevent myself from getting too
excited"?

If you can please break down the grammar for me to understand




I'd say you are pretty close, but I would translate it as:

> It seems I am the only one who did not get completely excited

Let's talk about the grammar and why I think this. Full sentence again for
reference:

> 俺は自分だけが勝手に高ぶってしまわないよう

The grammar break down:

> 俺 = I/Me
>
> は = Particle declaring that the previous thing (I/Me) is the overall topic
>
> 自分 = Oneself
>
> だけ = Only
>
> が = Particle setting the previous thing (only oneself) the subject of the
> sentence
>
> 勝手に = One's own way / Willfully
>
> 高ぶって = 高ぶる in the て form. Means to be / get excited and additionally XYZ.
> The additionally XYZ part comes from it being in the て form
>
> しまわない = しまう in the negative form. しまう Means to do completely / accidently.  
>  Taking it means "completely" here. So we are saying has not/did not do
> completely
>
> よう = Seems  
>  I say "seems" here because I'm assuming this is a complete sentence. Any
> left off parts can easily change the meaning

Now let's put it all together and convert it into "English":

> I, only myself, in my own way did not excited and to completeness it seems.

"Cleaning" it up to sound natural:

> It seems I am the only one who didn't get completely excited.




I'd say you are pretty close, but I would translate it as:

> It seems I am the only one who did not get completely excited

Let's talk about the grammar and why I think this. Full sentence again for
reference:

> 俺は自分だけが勝手に高ぶってしまわないよう

The grammar break down:

> 俺 = I/Me
>
> は = Particle declaring that the previous thing (I/Me) is the overall topic
>
> 自分 = Oneself
>
> だけ = Only
>
> が = Particle setting the previous thing (only oneself) the subject of the
> sentence
>
> 勝手に = One's own way / Willfully
>
> 高ぶって = 高ぶる in the て form. Means to be / get excited and additionally XYZ.
> The additionally XYZ part comes from it being in the て form
>
> しまわない = しまう in the negative form. しまう Means to do completely / accidently.  
>  Taking it means "completely" here. So we are saying has not/did not do
> completely
>
> よう = Seems  
>  I say "seems" here because I'm assuming this is a complete sentence. Any
> left off parts can easily change the meaning

Now let's put it all together and convert it into "English":

> I, only myself, in my own way did not excited and to completeness it seems.

"Cleaning" it up to sound natural:

> It seems I am the only one who didn't get completely excited.

