Can I say "考え迷う"?


Sometimes you can combine verbs as such:  
飲{の}み込{こ}む  
食{た}べ始{はじ}める  
乗{の}り換{か}える  
など

Using that as a pattern, I said the following in a discussion with a person I
just met from Hiroshima. The context was that I was relating how I had worked
at the Atomic Bomb Casualty Commission research institute (which is located on
top of a hill in Hijiyama Park):

> 比治山公園を登ったり降りたり、よく考え迷いました。

intended meaning:

> Frequently when I went up to the research institute in Hijiyama Park, I had
> conflicted feelings.

Based on the verb combination pattern (mentioned above), I just said "
**考え迷う** ". Would a native speaker ever say that? Would a native speaker have
any idea of my intended meaning (given the context that I mentioned above)?




We do say 「考{かんが}え迷{まよ}う」, so the phrase certainly is nothing new or strange
in itself.

The real question, however, is whether or not it fits your particular context.
「考え迷う」 would often represent indecision, passivity and randomness. If that
were the kind of thinking that you were involved in, it would be a reasonable
word choice.

If you had more "concrete" thoughts, it could possibly be expressed better
with another verb phrase that is stronger than 「考え迷う」 such as
「葛藤{かっとう}に苦{くる}しむ」、「葛藤が生{しょう}じる」, etc.




We do say 「考{かんが}え迷{まよ}う」, so the phrase certainly is nothing new or strange
in itself.

The real question, however, is whether or not it fits your particular context.
「考え迷う」 would often represent indecision, passivity and randomness. If that
were the kind of thinking that you were involved in, it would be a reasonable
word choice.

If you had more "concrete" thoughts, it could possibly be expressed better
with another verb phrase that is stronger than 「考え迷う」 such as
「葛藤{かっとう}に苦{くる}しむ」、「葛藤が生{しょう}じる」, etc.

