 yeah that's it okay it was 25 years ago um you were a little kid and so it's writing letters to your kids and they he sold he sold like a wooden box and you could each kid had a box and write letters to your spouse and so these would be treasured items later in your life was the idea it's a legacy piece makes you cry when you read the whole book okay and it made me made me go do it for a while i did it for two or three years there's a wooden box somewhere in rachel's life i have no idea where it is but