 Um, just cause I lay there and then I start to think, I think of one thing and that leads to the next and the next and the next. And pretty soon I just feel like I'm going to come apart. And so instead of going down that rabbit hole and making that worse, I grab my Kindle and read cause it takes my mind off all that other stuff. And then hopefully I get sleepy. But my, my tired is just cause I'm not a very good sleeper, but I would hate to say that I had stopped enjoying life cause I'm tired.