 There came, not by his own will, but perforce, a kind of a denuding of what he really was. First of all, he discovered that he was a violent man. He would have choked that other man if he felt that he was strong enough to do it. He didn't know all that violence was inside of him. Then, his mistress leaves him. He didn't know he was a man of despair. He thought that he could overcome any experience.