 And I said, why? And she started to peel off this cute little girlfriend and, you know, you did well in school and got the scholarship. And I had this emotion of the most empty feeling at 18 I've ever experienced in my life. And I realized someone just shattered my little box. It was, wait a second, happiness is by success. Success is you do this, this, this, this. I followed the plan and I just felt this like...