 right and I'm sure you're thinking about what to do after that up but can you talk about the campaign broadly and general did you grow in any of your beliefs I want to say I hate that word of all because it's such a clintonian verb I evolved you know but did you grow in your beliefs did you see things on the trail that might have further radicalized you in certain opinions or changed your views because running for president if you're honest person not just like a weird robot like Pete Buttigieg should actually clarify your thing yeah