text:  The miracle that happened for me, and I've shared it with you, I was drinking five liters of wine a day, a box of wine a day. I found out a bunch of things in my life that were tragic and very difficult to get through, and I was basically praying for God to take my life so I'd die in my sleep so my family would get my life insurance. That was where I was. This was literally like three and a half years ago.