 I went to the hospital and I was told by my command to tell them that everything's fine because if you tell them the truth or if you tell them something's wrong, then they're going to take you out and you want to be away from us now. But for John, the psychological damage was even worse. It changed me completely. It's still something I think about. It's still something I dream about. I've seen children's bodies cut up, burnt, mutilated.