 No. And I would say for the first year, I felt like all I gave him was garbage. I can remember because I would take a lot of the things I was still processing the hurt and it was I was receiving healing from him is what was happening. But I just kept giving it to him and giving it to him. And I remember one day finally crying and saying, OK, one of these days I'm going to give you something good. I promise, you know.