 wow, I thought I was gonna be really good at this and I can't fix him. And the exhaustion that Guy and I, my husband Guy and I felt was like bone weariness because we went months and months and months. Oliver didn't sleep through the night until he was like two or three years old, like for the first time solidly. And there were other kids in the picture by then too. So we just sort of operated all the time in a place of weariness. And I remember just pleading with the Lord, like, Lord,