 no no i'm not because it's kind of fun yeah it's like i just let this this like secret out a little bit for i mean people who know me know me know that i've been a singer and have written music my entire life but people who don't it's like a discovery and it's kind of fun you know this age can you see it on people's faces at your shows yes what happens at the shows well i i mean i can see people just sort of like looking at each other sometimes going like oh my god you know