 I used to be. I am not currently, but I am in the Word. I read my Bible every night. I read my devotional every day and pray. I wasn't trying to judge you. I was just trying to figure out who's around you that can love you well. That's all I was trying to figure out. Yeah, I understand. You've got kids, you've got family, and you could plug back into a church or if not that church to have people around you to walk with you through this because you feel very alone. I can hear it. It's unsure how to...