 So I was in a kind of a conundrum. But with time, sitting in the back of this mass, it was an early mass at like seven in the morning. Every time I left, I had this deep sense of peace and joy. So I started going back every day. And for two years, I went back. I didn't go to communion because I knew Paul said, some of you are sick and some of you have died because you've communed unworthily. Now, I thought I was worthy, but I didn't want to risk it. So I just stayed in the back.