text:  I wanted to see who this human being was. And when he saw me, what was it about me that made him want to kill me? What did I say? What did I do that made him want to slit my throat or to put a bullet between my eyes? And so I listened to him and I hope he listened to me. I had my children in court with me. My daughter was there. My son was there. And they're always fearful that I'm going to be killed.