text:  So again, my wife, who had been helping me through all of this, said, you need to call her. And I'm like, oh my goodness, I can't do this. It was just so nervous. I was like a teenager trying to call someone that I was in love with. And I just would pick up the phone that I'd hang it up. And then I'd dial the number and then I'd close my phone. And finally, I left a message.