text:  pretend I took my meds but hide them and things like that because I was so sick of being told what to do. And I think that was the age I realized how little agency I get over my own body because I'm just being poked and prodded while I'm sleeping. Like it's not up to me. So I would try to make those little moves that were very rebellious. I never wanted to do the things I had to do to stay healthy.