text:  Now, I hate having to make decisions on most things, but I've learned this experience that if you wait long enough, if you haven't got to make up your mind on anything, don't do it before you need, because you may then find yourself having taken up an attitude, you've got to stick to it, although it's wrong. And I felt an enormous relief that I was going to get a lot of sympathy. Everybody was going to say, well, what wouldn't he have done if he'd got on? I enjoyed beating people, probably too much.