text:  At the end, even though I'd prepared for it, I couldn't walk out the door. And so I decided that I was going to commit suicide instead. But children aren't going to get a good match if their mother committed suicide. So I was like, okay, how can I commit suicide without anyone realizing I'm committing suicide so that my children can still get good matches? So I decided I'm going to starve myself to death. Julia, how do you get out of it? How did that change?