text:  That section of the book really stopped me in my tracks because, I mean, you were already at that point seeing so much death, right? Because the fatality rate from AIDS was so high at the time. But there was something about that moment where Ron lost his sight. I mean, in the book, you're right, you had to work really hard to constrain your emotions. And then after you left the room, you burst into tears. What was particularly painful about that?