text:  I went downstairs because I didn't want them to come carry me out. I didn't want like three paramedics to get underneath me. And I didn't want people to see that. So I walked down and I went and stood on the sidewalk and I put 911 into my phone and I didn't even hit send because I knew if I hit send and at this moment, I'm like, I'm having a heart attack. But if I hit send, that means it's over.