text:  I'm going to make fun of myself first, and I'm going to do it better, and I'm going to be in on it. So at least if we're destroying me, I will be participating in my own self-destruction so I can at least find a role for myself. Being a kid is terrifying. And if you can be the funny fat kid, at least that's a role. To me, that was better than being the fat kid who wasn't funny, who was being sad over in the corner, even if that was how I was actually feeling a lot of the time.