text:  Well, first of all, that's just not an accurate characterization. 19 plus one are public. The majority are with me. And so therefore, how does it feel? It feels frustrating. There's so much at stake here. How can you afford to just do what's in the political? Well, I don't want to offend this person back home or that person back home. Or what if the president is reelected miraculously? I don't want him to hate me.