 I figured out the secret of value. Then there's seemingly impossible mountain to climb, and I'm back and overwhelmed in my own pity party. Not this time. I made a decision to join as soon as I can, and I get things straight. I pulled, mulled it over. I'm not ready yet. Like Del said, some people are just not ready. I couldn't do the step one in lifestyles until I did 20 other steps outside first.