 arrangement of ideas i found that it's impossible for me to do that because there's so many variables i mean you know it's not like choose a or b it's like choose a b c or d and then the first functional rule that i came up with as i was writing this stuff down was you can have anything you want in life but you can't have everything so how can you be totally happy it's impossible to be totally happy because you can't have everything why can't you have everything