 and talking about books and ideas and and all of it just spending time with these kids every day just makes my day well you're going to be i don't know who's going to replace you i don't know how they'll ever replace you and for the kids who came through here while you were here i'm sure they will always appreciate you as this whole community well i'm glad you're not leaving and going to new york or somewhere no i couldn't do that when we were there there was like