 the weight that that puts on not only them but then again when ems shows up and they're trying to save this individual and you know then the the nurses and the doctors in the hospital are trying to deal with this no one seems to care about their feelings and the fact that they're human beings and they have a weight that's associated with this all they want to talk about is well john was a nice guy he was such a nice guy well if he was such a nice guy what was he doing with a knife coming at the police