That's the point, when I bring it to the worst case, there is no worst case.. there is no worst case... but each time it comes and the conditioning comes that I am acting as a person... and if I am just leaving it, it's... it keeps on coming through, I regard it, I look at it... but it's like deep rooted and coming up... something is there, because if it keeps coming back the same old thing, which is usually the same old thing coming back, back, back ... each time it comes it has its own physiological symptoms and signs it has the feeling, the energy, the presence of trouble...whatever...some turbulence... then each time in this moment you must find as much as you can that stillness, almost unplug... but let the effects happen... you must try it, because great strength comes out of that... don't just wish it would stop 