I'm sort of, kinda of drawn down two different paths, although that's not really the right word to use with, Vedanta being one and Buddhism being the other. i see and i think that for now that's fine, i'm exploring i'm sort of at the beginning of all of this but eventually i have a sense that i need to choose and follow one set of wisdom or else i may end up quite confused but i can see that the two houses, you know there's dog runs and hallways that connect so, yeah, i just, i guess my, the fundamental question, I mean I can 