I keep on saying this thing - stay put, stay put... your identity is under attack, our culture, our conditioning is under attack... know the difference between culture, conditioning, education and Self... stay as the Self... because if every time your conditioning is attacked, you feel attacked, then you are the one who is gonna feel - I am gonna to die... defeat these tendencies, while you have the chance, keep looking... some feelings feel ferocious, they are tearing away... at your heart but there is a place in you, that can laugh... maybe not yet... maybe not yet maybe you can only manage a smirk, but gradually something is there and you can just drop your arms...more and more... in the old days, the old ships they were made with some kind of effigy a figure on the front, like mermaid or some figure... there was always at the cutting edge there... and this figure was there, at the cutting edge of the wind, and the water and the fearsness is there, but it never grimaces, so is there... your being become like that... 