I think it would be that, I think he knew that I loved him but I would tell him again, and it would be a little bit different now cause I have kids of my own and I really do... (sigh) I didn't start learning a lot of the lessons he was trying to teach me until I had kids and it's real hard sometimes ah man...It's real hard sometimes! and as I'm raising my kids and some of the things I used to do it would really make it tough for him and he just kinda of took it. 