I said, but, myself i also used to think like this and then one evening i went home i said i want to get back into this state where i believe like i see belief in the eyes of people who i know are dreaming and really try to, very much to kind of remember, bring in some memories and associations and some events that occurred in the memory that stirred up feelings of resentment or something and try to get into this state and you know what i found out? i found out i was never like this not just me personally my being could not testify that you were like this says, no, but you've always been like this you've always been like THlS you understand? but you were dreaming you were like that then i say, yes we are dreaming our life story, it's a ghost story you're dreaming of a story your identity, who you think you are, your, your your anger, your frustration, of course, the love is there, perhaps is the most real but someplace we're constantly dreaming and reinforcing this dream because we're not, we're taking ourselves to be something that is only a conditioning, that we picked up that's not original to yourself. 