I am interested you say this because if you say - it comes up about an issue or the feeling about security or insecurity or whatever... and I asked you: then put pictures to your fear and bring it on, see if you can do this willingly imagine the worst case scenario... some people are really good at that...they can really bring it into being... others they just... you know that it's a bit of novelty "I am gonna try it..." But they are not really in it... 