I decided that I was going to take my $8 lilo and swim the entire length of the Waikato river 425km from Taupo to Port Waikato (applause) and then I realised that since I was able to ask a lot of people for help in regards to an adventure that it would be OK if I asked for help in regards to my depression and when I did, I found this amazing psycologist and he gave me all the tools that I needed to take off that lead vest, just like that. 