like you're not getting anywhere insist discouraging and i see a lot of us do that and still kind of one of the downs i guess is is you when you doubt yourself you doubt between you dot if this works it's real self-doubt yeah and everytime that happen no i wouldn't alan looked back you know i get done myself and i look back six months ago or live at the back three months ago and i'd ask myself was i the same person and yes i was always resigning though it was always uh... i was in such a a different place but i've grown so much as three six months and that's what we might need to protect me going that status israel and making progress and improving things and there may be a long ways to go but it's worth it on the upside then i remember you're in the first time you know i a m perhaps up with a girl you know and uh... ivory like freakin 