So I held his hand all the way and mum was there and I said you'll be alright dad I said don't worry about it I said er, we'll be here when you come out, he said yeah alright, I'm alright, so as the surgeon came out he said look Mrs   he said I've seen your daughter, yeah, I have to say this to you he said it's a fifty, fifty percent chance that John will come back from the operation, operation OK and he said it's a one hundred percent chance he won't without surgery of course he don't know anything, got his little cap on