I saw her and I, I be honest with you I hid, I be totally honest and I'll tell her the same if I see her because I've just found out then that they couldn't do any more for me dad and I really didn't want to speak or see anybody and I sat in the canteen on my own, I just said to me mum, mum on the phone I said mum I need to do this on my own I said I'm just gonna have a coffee in the cafeteria and I don't know if you've been in there but the cafeteria is all glass and she pulled up in a white van delivering something to the office, I thought oh no it's Jenny she's the last bleeding person I want there, I don't mean that