Yeah, I said yeah I am, I said I'm gonna drive up and see, so we got in, went up to Wendy's, you couldn't see through the door Pen, Penny and Kev said well we'll drive round as well, I said well she's had us up and down, cos one minute she was quite strong then the next she couldn't cope, I said Wendy all I want you to ever know is that I'm there, if ever you want me phone me, I don't care whether it's middle of the night, middle of the morning or whatever, so she says alright, anyway Penny went up, she said she couldn't see anything she thinks she's gone a bed and then me and Rudy went up, it must have been quarter to one cos I took him for a little walk and I got out the car and walked round the back and then, I could see her curtains were open and I could see a light on, so I went round the front and I shouted through the letter box, Wen it's only me I've come to wish you a happy new year, let's hope next year will be better than this one and she come to the door and she was broken hearted