N well I, I, I had, why I was so positive about it, I had an uncle who had it very badly and as a child I was very aware of his hands, they were quite  inhuman looking, they were that shape, and you know everything he did he, he had to that and that's remained in my mind that when I got it I though I won't have the hands like that so I r I w I go, I went to sleep, I still do it, every night, spread my hands, the last thing I think about, spread the hands.