and  a cup of coffee and a cigarette, and I always do that but this day I was so tired after the doing the garden, both gardens like  and fucking weeding them all and doing everything else and  brushing out the back and doing   I said to him for fuck's sake do them dishes for me for a change William would you I said, so I got er got myself in the bath  said I'm away to bingo, so William's gone out what happened?eight, I had eight  he had one  you may get yourself  I said ah fuck no wonder I have no fucking luck, so  on the settee and said I'm not going anywhere, I sat for ten minutes then I said  ah fuck you why should I sit here  so I lifted the car keys and walked out again then, fucking zooming out of and there was John  coming up like that