That really turned my stomach, even if, I mean I remember when I was carrying, when I was carrying the twins,and he used to go out  huge things you know,and so much so that if he came home in the night, right, and I was already in bed asleep, I would be able to er, he would wake me in the bedroom cos I could smell smoke on him, but he didn't smoke, but where he'd been the pub or a night club, I smelt