and  up the steps out of the underground there was this lass there and I, I can't help it I mean I'm always aware of the fact of having this twenty five year old child, so  offspring  and there was a girl roughly about his age or slightly younger and she was grey you know that translucent look your skin gets when you're not eating properly you know that grey sort of pallor and I had an overnight bag in one hand and a briefcase and a handbag in the other and I remember I walked past her and she was begging  and I had gone to the sleeper and I'm sitting there and I'm thinking  you bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep, you could of put briefcase down, overnight bag down, handbag down and got some money out.