title: Turning the Heart to God
author: Theophan the Recluse
description: Text: English (translation)<br /> Original Language: Russian
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  The Whole Enchilada
  
  
  
  
  
  Diane Mott Davidson
  
  
  
  
  
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  [Dedication](../Text/The_Whole_Enchilada_split_049.html#filepos842473)
  
  
  
  
  
  To the readers of the Goldy series,
  
  
  
  
  
  with much affection and many thanks
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  [Epigraph](../Text/The_Whole_Enchilada_split_049.html#filepos842589)
  
  
  
  
  
  For had it been an adversary who taunted me,
  
  
  
  
  
  then I could have borne it;
  
  
  
  
  
  or had it been an enemy who vaunted himself against me,
  
  
  
  
  
  then I could have hidden from him.
  
  
  
  
  
  But it was you, a man after my own heart, my companion,
  
  
  
  
  
  my own familiar friend.
  
  
  
  
  
  —PSALM 55:12–13
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  [Prologue](../Text/The_Whole_Enchilada_split_049.html#filepos842703)
  
  
  
  
  
  My friend Holly Ingleby died after a party I’d organized. She collapsed while
  walking with her son, Drew, to her car—less than a block from the house
  belonging to another close friend, Marla Korman. I knew I shouldn’t have
  blamed myself. But I 