title: Shut Up, Diary: Drawings, Jokes, and Feelings
author: Barbara Holm
description: Barbara Holm is a stand up comedian and writer living in Portland, Oregon. For more of her work check out Barbaraholm.com.
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  To Barbara Bova,
  
  whose toughness, wisdom, and empathy
  
  make her a great agent
  
  and an even better friend
  
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  _**CONTENTS**_
  
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  Acknowledgments
  
    
  
  1. “I’m Not Myself”
  
   _2._ “You Don’t Believe in God”
  
   _3._ “There Are Too Many of Us”
  
   _4._ “I Am a Man of Perfect Simplicity”
  
   _5._ “Nobody Is Rational”
  
   _6._ “Life Is a Suicide Mission”
  
   _7._ “I Offer Her This Poor Old Vessel”
  
   _8._ “What Matters Is Which Fiction You Believe”
  
   _9._ “It Smells Like Life to Me”
  
   _10._ “This Has Always Been Your Body”
  
   _11._ “You Called Me Back from Darkness”
  
   _12._ “Am I Betraying Ender?”
  
   _13._ “Till Death Ends All Surprises”
  
   _14._ “How They Communicate with Animals”
  
   _15._ “We’re Giving You a Second Chance”
  
   _16._ “How Do You Know They Aren’t Quivering in Terror”
  
   _17._ “The Road Goes On without Him Now”
  
    
  
  Afterword
  
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  _**ACKNOWLEDGMENTS**_
  
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  My heartfelt thanks to:
  
    
  
  Glenn Makitka, for the title, which seems so obvi