title: Dream Baby Dream: Suicide - A New York Story
author:  Kris Needs 
description: Kris Needs is a former NME journalist and Zigzag editor. He has written several rock biographies about Blondie and George Clinton (both published by Omnibus Press), Joe Strummer and the Legend of the Clash, The Scream: The Music Myths and Misbehaviour of Primal Scream and Trash! The Complete New York Dolls. H. He is a regular contributor to Record Collector and Mojo.
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  Dev placed his hands over Sarah’s belly.
  
  
  “I can feel the baby kick you. I heard his heartbeat. But he still doesn’t
  feel...real.”
  
  
  No, none of any of this felt real, most especially Dev touching her like this.
  But it would. At least the baby would. “He will. When you hold him. It’ll feel
  more real than we can imagine.”
  
  
  Dev looked at Sarah. His gaze was searching. Open. There was something in
  those hazel eyes that had her breath catching in her throat.
  
  
  But then he dropped his hands and stepped back. “We should get going. Don’t
  want to be separated any more than we have to be.”
  
  
  Sarah could only nod, because her throat was too tight, and everything she’d
  dreamed of was too close. But instead of reaching for it, demanding it, she
  kept her mouth shut and followed Dev back out to the waiting room.
  
  
  Because there was still a stalker torturing them, and no dreams were going to
  be realized in the midst of that...
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  