Saturday, February 12, 2011

I am really terrible at this "blogging" thing.

Really, I'm pretty terrible at this "life" thing. I don't motivate myself to do a hell of a lot. Including blogging. I have all these huge ideas, and they are so huge and have so much potential that they terrify me, and I don't even know where to begin to tackle them.

Part of it is because I'm busy, but mostly that's just an excuse. Plenty of people can work a full time job and manage to be successful on the side.

I get all wound up in these random schemes to try and make more money. If only I had more, to pay off my credit card faster. If only I had more to save up faster. If only I had enough to quit my day job entirely.

I'm overwhelmed by the need for just the basic necessities, how can I ever be expected to *save* anything? To pay off the debt I've been allowing to fester?

And lets face it, I've been living in my new apartment for three weeks... maybe a month now, and I still haven't finished getting my furniture or putting things away properly. Everything is living in a heap in a corner, and the only place to sit is on my bed. I have to talk myself into loading the dishwasher...

I keep thinking "one of these days, I'll have the time to catch up on everything." well... I have the time, I'm just not using it. I'm checking Facebook. over and over and over again.