There's a part of me that has always longed to lead a simpler, more ascetic life. But I've had to balance that with the demands of constantly being in the public eye. When I retired from coaching, Jeanie urged me to stay up to date with what was happening in the basketball world — which I did — but my first inclination was to go inside and become more attuned to my "inner minister." I fantasized about slowing down, living more mindfully, and dedicating myself primarily to service. I was happy being the chief cook and bottle washer at home and spending a good part of my time buying the groceries, making dinner, and taking care of the household. I taught meditation to some business executives and flirted with the idea of mentoring students at the Union Theological Center. As long as they didn't call me "Reverend," I thought, it would be OK.