You are having a hard time believing how much of an idiot you are. Of all the things that could happen, why that? Why THIS???? It took you 6 months, SIX MONTHS, to be this ok with being alive again and being with everyone and you fucked it up and they probably think you're gross now and - ugh. You groan and curl up into a ball as you remember the reason you're currently in your room, feeling stupid and embarassed and disgusting.


Mom and Ree were out shopping, and Dad - you're honestly glad they, sort of got back together, even if Mom still is a little colder to him than she used to be - was at work. You forget what Frisk was doing. Honestly, you don't even remember exactly what you were doing, either, when you ended up falling asleep on the couch. It was probably a side effect from staying up all night drawing on the laptop they got you a few weeks ago. You really got into digital art, even more than gardening. But whatever the reason, you ended up sleeping on the couch. Long enough to dream.

You don't remember what the dream was about, really. It might've been something to do with one of those terrible soaps that Ree made you watch with them, because while you don't remember much else, you know one detail was involved.

A kiss.

"...ara.... Charaaaa..... hey, wake up sleepyhead, I wanna sit down-"

You weren't really exactly sure of what Frisk said, and you were still about 75% asleep at the time. Their face was right over yours, since they were leaning over a bit. You didn't even think about it, you just followed what your subconscious was still telling you to do in the dream.


So you kissed them.


Right on the lips, even. Huh, that's weird, you thought sleepily, Why do I feel like I recognize this sensation...

And then it registered. Your eyes shot wide open and you pulled back so hard that you hit your head on the couch's armrest, hard enough to make a thunking sound. You cursed a bit, but when Frisk didn't say anything you looked at their face, and nearly fell straight onto the floor.

Their usually droopy eyelids were wide open in shock, revealing their eyes - how come they were such a beautiful shade of brownish green, that's not fair - and their face was tinged red. Their mouth was hanging open, and oh gods, why did they look this cute, they're like your sibling, this is weird, you're being weird - and you panicked.

"F-F-Fr ISK IM SORRY I DIdNT MEANTO I T WAS AN ACCIDENT IM, I UH, iM-" you stammered, trying to back up so hard that this time you actually did fall off the couch.

Frisk tried to say something but nothing seemed to come out, so instead they made a move like they were going to try and help you up. And of course, you being the idiot you are, you just freaked out even more and started scooching away on the floor as fast as possible.

"UH UH UH UHH IMIM I'M- S-SORRY!!" you yelled as you got up and ran for your room, your face looking about the same as it probably would if you were covered in ketchup.


And so, here you are. You're sure you made Frisk angry and that they think you're gross, probably. After all, they've been keeping their distance from you compared to the others, and you're sure that's probably because they were still as uncomfortable around humans as you are. I mean, otherwise they would probably at least try to hug you like they do with Ree and Mom and Dad, right? Or even kiss you on the cheek or something. But on the lips?? Isn't that supposed to be for like, actual romance stuff? Isn't that really gross? And besides, you're like family. Actual siblings, almost. Not by blood or anything but who cares about blood, blood doesn't matter except for the part where if you lose too much of it you die.

You groan again and bury your head in your lap, as you pull your legs closer to your chest. You are such a fuckup.


You hear a gentle knock on the door. "Chara," you hear Frisk say gently, "Can I come in?"

You try to say no, but you can't even get words out right now, honestly. You just kind of make a noise that if you had to describe it, sounded more like a squeak than a grunt. They take that as a yes, and walk inside, sitting down on the bed next to you.

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