yes. i think jumping right into the abyss and seeing what's on the other side of it is well worth the cost, but i understand and respect why that idea is terrible to you. being truly free when a system becomes too oppressive lies on the other side of the abyss, trying to get your car back together and up that hill to the road that led you there seems like reliving sisyphus' punishment instead of growth. the death just paves the way for life. you know some plants thrive on being fed blood? so many things in this world get their power from the blood of martyrs, victims, and sacrifices. you want a new world... how else would you get it?
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