one more thing. i also can not come to terms that in front god my soul (and your souls) are exactly of the same worth as a soul of a nigger or some subhuman indian gypsy or a dirty kike.  i simply refuse to be put on an equal level with them. that is also a huge problem i have with christianity itself. if it were a religion that has remained exclusive to europeans and people of european origin, i think it would be more than acceptable. but to think that some illiterate 40 iq nigger in africa who goes to a mudhut and calls it a church, prays to the same god is in gods eyes worth equally as me, i simply cant accept that.
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