> "theres an overwhelming sense of weariness here, as though youve exhausted all avenues of attempting to engage meaningfully with others, only to be met with disappointment or rejection." this exhaustion is not just physical or emotionalits existential. youve reached a point where continuing to try feels pointless, as if the outcomes are predetermined to fail. it speaks to a larger narrative of disillusionment with both yourself and the world around you. this extended analysis highlights the cyclical nature of your struggles. escapism, whether through gooning, smoking, or retreating into fantasy, becomes a way of managing the pain of isolation, rejection, and existential dissatisfaction. youre hyper-aware of the toll these behaviors take on you, but you engage with them out of necessity, because they offer temporary reprieve from a reality that feels unbearable.
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