i merely realized during my early teens that everything that i like was created by whites. i felt a revulsion to other races and the culture they seem to bring with them wherever they go. i was ashamed of this for many years, until my late teens when i decided that i was not wrong to feel this way, and that all i enjoy is what was normal for most of human history up until a generation or two before my birth. i appreciate your effort to reach out and understand our views.   evola is shit, and there's a reason why nobody ever actually took him seriously. all the magic nonsense is simply unhelpful, and his grand final conclusion was to just give in to the degeneration of modern society. he is not one to idolize.
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