> weak father whose main concern was keeping her happy at my expense, especially at my expense and avoided home as much as possible. this is utterly heartbreaking - your mother seems to be a narcissist if not even a psychopath, and your father is also not a mentally healthy person, letting his innocent child be near a damaging monster. youre extremely unlucky having those two non-parental material creatures as parents, so you deserve much more love than people who already were cared for from the beginning of their lives - you must talk to others and thus let them get to know you, then youll realise healthy people automatically love a lovable person like you.
Denmark