thanks anon. i really don't have a lot of people to turn to for validation. the guy friends i have are too proud that i am finally having sex to realize how bad it is. she actually scares me yet i don't want to hurt her and keep answering her when she contacts me. that kind of attitude is probably why i was a nearly 30 year old virgin in the first place. i'm also glad that you have some personal experience too with older women. i think i'd rather date a 50 year old woman than one approaching 40.  also she's jewish too kekek. just helps to confirm my suspicions that they are neurotic subhumans with tons of mental problems.
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