i used to think that, was suicidal for a couple decades cause i had the same depressing belief as you, believing transhumanism and other retardations would give me an answer to the meaning of life, then god revealed himself to me while i wasn't even searching. i won't try to change your mind, it's your free will, but you are special, we all are, i hope you'll realize it before it's too late, god bless you.
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