then don't. why did you post in this thread them? it seems you have some doubt about your fedora on your head? you don't need to worship jesus, you just need to accept his teaching and sse how and why he died for us. he took the karmic debt of humanity onto his shoulders, by truly feeling his sorrow and being empathetically connected with his suffering you lose your karmic debt and can become one with the god(universe, whatever you wanna call it) normally your mind, ego, memories, etc would be wiped out after death, this is hell. you will suffer so much in there as your ego, as (you) that you just dissolve, like when acid is poured onto limescale. all that is left is your essence, and it gets 's thrown back onto earth into a random new baby. this happens especially if you're really really deeply connected to yourself, to your ego memories and sense of self. and people that are especially narcissistic get a nice long and painful stay in hell until their toxic ego is burned off.
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