honestly, my suggestion is go to a trade school and become a boilermaker, hvac technician, electrician, plumber or something. remember the people who are supportive of you when you're down and who kicks you for schadenfreude, bud. yes, that means random people you have never met and will never meet irl who give you real, heartfelt advice/assistance might care more about you than some of your family and people you considered friends. i'm sorry.
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