i'm a textbook case of adhd and have a similar problem. if i'm actually at work or in a place where i can focus on what i'm doing, i'm a powerhouse. however, when i'm on my own with no direction, i'm aimless and my productiveness is sporadic. was on meds for a few years after i became an adult and was actually diagnosed (they knew since i was 6, but mom never took me back to a shrink when they tried to put me on ritalin), and it was great for a while, but it didn't fix two decades worth of mental inertia. now i manage to be more put together than the average adult with just caffeine and weed, but still have a tough time motivating myself in my off hours. what's even more fucked is that i'm even less motivated when i don't smoke and will end up just wasting days in a mental fog until i smoke a bowl at night and have the sudden inspiration to start getting all my shit back in order. they told me that i can do anything i set my mind to. problem is i never learned how to set my mind.
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