i had very early exposure to porn, and looked at it regularly. my neighbor was a pervert and had a massive collection. he even had a shed, filled with magazines. once i got broadband internet, i was looking at porn all the time. this was also when puberty started and i was beating my dick into oblivion.  my porn taste became more and more perverted.  the more porn you watch the more you need. in hs, i was a good looking guy and had sex with a lot of girls. the sex was good, but i always wanted it. i started to branch out from the hot girls to the average and chubby ones (this was the 2000s so being a chubby chaser wasnt cool). i eventually got my dick sucked by a cross dresser, and i started fucking them. cds were easier to fuck, and then it just went to gay. i started down an even darker path and started cross dressing. the humiliation was what got me off. getting fucked was a whole new experience. i was depressed and lonely. my life was going to work and getting fucked by guys on cl and later grindr. i eventually quit porn and normal attraction to women came back. i felt so disgusted by what i was doing.
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