currently? the only reason i'm a wagie at all is because i have a girlfriend.  i had a huge crush on some tomboy online. so to cope i finally tried to get laid. because she didn't want me.  finally found a gf.  it took a while for me to grow to love her.  now she wants to get married.  the tomboy girl i would have married without hesitation.  my actual flesh and blood gf of 2 years, i hesitate to marry.  i'm disgusted with myself. but i don't want to leave her.  i wake up before 5 a.m. for my wagecuck job.  i sleep 5 to 6 hours a night.  i stopped feeling like a real person back in 2020 after 6 months of wagecucking.  i'm trying to buy a tiny home but it's all so ridiculous. everything comes with a fucking 458 dollar a month hoa fee.  i'm so mentally broken but my girlfriend is already so frustrated with my hesitation to move out and "lock in" being a wagie forever.  if she leaves me i know i will never date again. i know i will give up entirely. i've had my heart broken too many times to keep going. all those memories will go in the garbage and i won't even be able to go to her town anymore without thinking of her.  but i'm so tired of wagecucking bros. i miss being a neet. i didn't appreciate it before. i miss having imagination and creative drive and a soul. i spent 9000 hours in a bleak fluorescent gehenna and it drained my spirit.
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