wow i thought i had it bad. hang in there man. just try to put 4 months sober together, that made a difference for me. then i did a year, but fell off the wagon and drank for six weeks. then i did another year and drank for two weeks. since then i've been sober, 11 years. i went to aa the first year, and even though they were assholes and there were some people there who were gigantic pieces of shit, there were a few who were okay and going to a meeting every day helped me. and it made me face some shit in myself i don't think i would have otherwise. but it's not for some people though, and aa has serious problems (my sponsor turned out to be *dealing weight* lol) but just being forced to put up with something gave me something to focus on. i haven't been to aa in 12 years. this will sound retarded, but i also played computer games, that helped me the first year. i played world of warcraft and then this driving game called euro truck simulator 2. the truck game helped more, because it was tedious and yet required concentration, so it gave my brain something to do besides try to talk me into picking up. as stupid as it may sound, i don't know if i could have stayed sober without aa or that truck game. i'm cheering for you bro, hang tough, make us proud, you can do it.
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