anon, i've had quite a few friends kill themselves, qnd by quite a few i mean more than i even wish to sit here and try to count. it is a heavy burden, do not blame yourself. during the hardest one, i reached out to some of his relatives, offered what i could, tried to find answers, and then one day i finally decided i was going to get piss drunk, cry about it, then the next day i would put it behind me for good. now, when i think about that man i always think about the funny and outrageous shit he did. the pain gave way to nostalgia. you have to ma up and twll yoyrself that you deserve to mourn but you cant be a whiny bitch about it. get plastered, cry, laugh, then put it behind you for good. you still have a life to live.
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