i didn't fully understand your question. > what am i doing here? - living my way from paycheck to paycheck. not that bad comparing a mess around. its feeling like in eye of the hurricane. > what i could do with that (crap)?  nothing. any way to change something is closed to me. im russian not kazakh, and yes this is matters here if u want to govt. which is only way to change something. talented kazakhs mostly fleeing the country, there a educational program here for talented - "bolashak" (future). so guys from that program must work inside country for 3? years, so fucked up it is for youngsters here. they didnt realised yes dat american dream is over, btw. the rest is standart - some workplaces, some businesses, some projects, life is giong on but as i said in general future a pretty grim because our government afraid to take responsibility for future, afraid and cannot. they are partly a "family" guys and partly a "new generation" grown from soros money. new generation is trying to wreck country via ukranian style.
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