i understand brother. i was blessed to meet my wife in highschool, and we have been completely devoted to each other since first sight. i am 5'5, she is 4'11. she is my winning lottery ticket. all the time i see/hear/read about anons like you and i think, 'i would be exactly like him.' i am an introvert, socially awkward. would stay in my room/house whatever every second i wasn't at work or running errands. i would have nothing if god hadn't dropped her out of the blue for me. i can't tell you anything substantial, except that you are alive, and therefore you can still make it. keep your chin up, really feel that breeze, watch those barren trees wave in the winter air, feel the season change come spring, and be glad that at least for a while you can be, even if it was painful.
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