im sorry to hear that bro. merry christmas to you. if it means anything know that there are some good people in the world right now that have to spend christmas without a loved one because of a recent passing. there are some people who never even got to celebrate a holiday with their families in their entire lives and have no idea the absolute joy that they're missing out on. this isnt to say that your suffering is less or meaningless but remember that christmas is a time for joy among gods people and that your worst moments will come to pass and that you should find a way to at least find peace in the holiest of days. christ has been born, our sins have been paid let us eat and give thanks to the father and seek out his people for a church service. god bless anon, hope things get better.
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