you haven't worked out anything in the several decades the nu-pagan movement has been larping. you know in your heart that these gods have never answered you, and they never will. even hitler spoke of knowing that reverting to paganism would be equally as disastrous as state atheism. himmler was the only one pushing paganism and he was universally hated by everyone else in the nsdap. he spent his time larping in a castle as millions of germans fought to the death for their country, and showed his true cowardly colors in the end. himmler was only kept around by hitler by virtue of the sheer amount of power he himself had acquired over everyone by blackmailing them. he was a traitor to the nsdap and died a traitor's death.  as i said in an earlier post, everything worth preserving from the old faiths already was by the church. all the rest failed to survive into the present for a reason.
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