probably better that way.     damn, sorry that happened to you bud,most have fucked you up for a while.   damn. you either have insane luck or terminator immune system   i get what you say but i can do that too. its just easier and more pleasurable to use porn as a tool. at the end of day, what matters is owning your sexuality and not letting it be used by women or anyone else to control you. because one of the only ways women control men is via sex and sexual stuff.
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