you're waxing poetically and it's pretty and all, but it assumes a lot. mainly just replying at this point to let you know i did read your posts. so you didn't completely waste your time. not entirely sure what point it is you're trying to make here though. considering survivor's guilt is a real and documented thing, i think the number of survivor's who get a rush out of surviving near-death experiences and wish to experience more of them, would be incredibly few indeed.
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