> i'm not sure if they *wanted* me to participate in their glownigger operations or what (kind of like how cops have to be tazed before they can wield a tazer) but they really threw my life away and destroyed all my relationships. that's always a possibility. you shouldn't want anything to do with it, of course. i imagine it's like being made a prison warden in hell. yes you make the rules, but it's still hell.  the events you describe do range into the slightly fantastical, but it's nothing i can't believe. i've had lots of run-ins with people, police, etc., that gave me unnerving impressions, as if there were an eye on me at all times.  who's to say that, even if you worked with them, they wouldn't fry you out and leave your body broken somewhere miserable anyway?  it's a shame that the military did not serve you as it should have. and even worse if those people hate and monitor you.
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