it sounds like you are contemplating unaliving yourself...we want you to know that you have people that love & care about you, death is peppermint. i can't tell you what happens after, heaven, hell, nothingness....i believe there is an afterlife. i want you to find hope in something, a hobby, a purpose to occupy yourself and build up your self esteem. i don't know how your situation but would suggest finding a therapist. betterhelp offers worldwide therapy for a price, you can find one that speaks english or spanish. if you can't afford a private mental health specialist, see if you can find one in your city that is reputable & effective via reviews and takes medicaid. suicide prevention is not only for the us & western countries. try this:   cide-hotlines/ you are worth it. your opinion and feelings matter. you matter. men's health is far too overlooked and i hope you stay with us, fren. please dont do it, it impacts everyonejust because you feel that way now doesnt mean you need to end it all. i am sending a virtual hug your way *zoooom, whoooshhhhh* *hugs you* if in the us, call the suicide prevention hotline, you can call or text 988 or 1-800-273-8255 it does get better, trust me. i am living proof of changing my mind for the better. i am walking, breathing proof, fren. don't supress these feelings or self medicate with alcohol. it seems to me you may be on medication already, but if not you have nothing to lose when experimenting with different ssris until you find the right one that works for you, there is no cure for this but we can try :)
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