i'm also mixed blood and feel the same way. dad's side is north yuropean (grey eyes, blonde/light gold hair), but he knocked up a swarthy as fuck med. his mother, father, sister, and brother apparently cried (my mom confirmed this) when she gave birth to me, because i have dark eyes and a swarthy complexion, too. but even though i look like a polluted piece of shit med, i identify as white. the med side of my family are a bunch of violent criminals and alcoholics and just shitty people. fun people, but shitty. i can feel some of these genetic tendencies within myself, but have kept them almost entirely suppressed for my entire life. too bad if people take one look at me they think that i'm just an other med ape from sicily.
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