an lds missiornary girl gave me a blowjob once. she was pretty but i couldn't bring myself to fucking larp and pretend their beliefs made sense and wasn't just some lame fanfic for an american expansion of christianity. it's very bizarre hanging out with them outside of church too. they have a real fucking obsession for icecream, i guess because they can't even have small pleasures like tea or coffee. but it is a problem. i didn't notice it at first, like getting icecream after a hike to see a giant cross seemed normal and i liked it. but then getting to know her and knowing she getting up in the night to go for icecream kind of problem. my maybe it's my autism, but i know i could've gotten a greencard through marriage and taken her v-card, get a nice tech job in utah. but i just couldn't do it. to live a lie like that. even when she blew me it wasn't even like i was scheming for that to happen, it was more like a relief for the tension that built up with two fucking autists that clearly want to go further but decide they shouldn't. i've heard mixed things on the families too, like outwordly it's the brady bunch shit but if you talk to people who left they talk about a lot of kiddie stuff going on. i can't confirm that but it being so culty it wouldn't surprise me. the girl in question did end up marrying some scottish guy and having a family with him. i think that the mormons are kind of in the 90s. they're getting more tolerant of niggers and the women don't see blowjobs as a big deal, just like how it was in the 90s/00s thanks to kike media that downplayed it. > could this be a new and healthy thing for me to get into? no, get yourself a maly hobby. what's "manly"? think archery. axe throwing. basically anything with metal objects that can kill or seriously injure you is manly enough. woodworking and metal working is actually good for autist people. they can get so into it. channel your behaviour, your known faults into something constructive.
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