thanks brother. we're in southwest virginia. i don't even think i can find a job to work like that. i think doubling down hard on my own it work is my best chance. i can make $100 fixing people's computers at their house. takes an hour at most. i just need to get better at marketing and shit. i'd rather do that anyway. working for myself is my dream. if i could get enough work and expand the homestead, we can do it. we need to expand our chicken operation and get bees. i also am trying to get back into youtube. i had success back in 2016-2017. i'm so depressed i've lost creativity. plus everyone is so hateful, it was bad back then but worse now. i just want to achieve one of my dreams. everyone deserves to have one work out. granted, i have a wonderful, hot, trad woman. i have things going for me but i do sometimes fantasize about selling everything, giving her some cash, and sending her to her parents while i go to a place full of drugs and get high until i die. the shit that is happening to us is psychological warfare. i know i would have checked out if not for her. i've worked my entire life for this career. been on a computer since i was a toddler. dad taught me simple dos commands to show off to his friends. i've always had internet. always had a computer. he bought me a laptop when i was in 6th grade that was over a grand. he opened a gaming cafe business when i was 15 just so i would have it on my resume. i took every computer class in school. i got a degree. i have over 10 years of experience. it has to be some combo of dei and the economy being shit. i just hope things change when trump wins. fuck, honestly covid made me so much money. working from home making mad cash. fuck it. let them release another virus. i don't need to leave. i'm innawoods and can survive fine. > sorry for the venting blog post > i know there are many of you who relate to what i'm going through > i love you anons and am glad to have you
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