i'm often angry at myself. i've been thinking about it and i think most of the time this is really a fear of what other people might think about me and do to me as a consequence of my mistakes. but i've been having a thought for a long time that maybe polytheism and idolatry are not what most people think. when you have fear of what other people think or do, however this manifests, you're ascribing other people power, you're making them gods, putting gods beside the one god. because maybe other people don't even exist. you're alone with god all the time, and the world that he is creating for you in real time, including "people", they're all god's puppet theater. so maybe when you have fear of what other people think or do that's what polytheism or idolatry is. this would include ascribing government power, or jews. anyone who has fear or anger toward the government or jews is not a monotheist, but a polytheist and idolater.
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