opening your pineal gland for the first time is a bit crazier than simple ego death pure white world with just an observer. there is existence beyond the white/black nothingness observer of the ego, it is like looking into a fractal mirror of god (the ultimate consciousness that is in and beyond all at the same time) and then realizing you're looking into a mirror of yourself (the fractal of god within you and everyone else). and there is an infinite number of infinite fractals of distinct type. chris langan's explanation of reality was the closest thing to what i experienced. until you can mentally stabilize your nature in its higher forms, the lower self (ego and little life in the sandbox) is a mercy and a comfort.
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