really sorry to hear that anon...   it wasn't that interesting, some slutty girl i met in collage had a crush on me and we had a short term relationship, she cheated on me in the end because i wasn't that interested in her kek. also just like you, i always had crippling anxiety around women and possibly body dysmorphic disorder because sometimes i can't look at my face in the mirror even though i've been told i'm not ugly by other people.
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