thank you friend. i am also negative sentiment to this group. i have been in and out for a few years. i dont really have drinking buddies, my enemy is myself, which is possibly worse. i really dislike feeling like this and i am confident i can stop again. throwing up for hours at a time also somewhat motivates me dont get me wrong, i can drink ireland under the table, no problems there. but i also really feel that i dont drink normally.  i get actual hangovers now, i never tried that before. turns out hangovers kind of suck lol
Denmark