i'm 31 and have no idea how to orient my life. seems everything in life gives me mixed signals. i don't know what if anything is worth pursuing anymore. or if giving up entirely is an entirely rational thing. to give up and stop caring about anything or hoping anything will get better.  feels like there's more truth in giving up. where as relentlessly pursuing stuff like gymcelling etc is just a pointless blind alley.
Gadsden