i see. you are really angry and thats whats turning you depressive. you cant hit them so you hit yourself - something like that. it is a common problem i also have to fight. we are getting more and more. never forget, never forgive and never give up. maybe this one will amuse you   krock-larry-fink-esg-investing-secu rity-ron-desantis-vivek-ramaswamy/ > i don't want a leader or leaders to tell me how my life should be as if i was a carbon copy of the next joe they tell you to be "normal" so you fit in a box (hint: no one does but people are busy trying to fit in and die inside by doing so). it simply make you more manageable thats why they go for it. be individualistic as it makes you less governable, less predictive and more free. and allow yourself to be angry.
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