i have known many russians in my time living in thailand. they do not have thoughts, just impulses they follow. they are similar to niggers. they do not have internal monolog or critical thinking. they simply exist and do, and in times of crisis and personal risk, they can be cunning in certain ways. so to answer your question, it's probably just internal screaming and "why me?". russians are incapable of self reflection (99% of them).
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