thanks, fren. this is what ocd really feels like (that's my official diagnosis). healthy people imagine you're obsessed with cleaning and arranging furniture, but in reality it's just an endless feeling od cringing at yourself and never being to get over literally anything. the checking of every household appliance before you go somewhere is true, but what normies don't see is the hyperawareness i feel. i'm constantly checking if my lights are on. i will never be able to desinfect my own soul.
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