i'm not even getting pussy from her because lack of sleep has led to me having erectile dysfunction. i have to use viagra to fuck her for more than 2 minutes and i've never cum with her.  i'm amazed she isn't having sex with niggers on the side and the guilt of not being able to satisfy her is awful.    agreed. told my friends this but they are still in the "dude just grind harder" mindset. but of course all they have to say is "you won't do shit" which is what i also say, and then i am btfo.    my balls have retracted. they don't even hang anymore.  my voice cracks when it didn't used to.  used to obsessively pop my lips but then stopped. i think i moved past that stage of brain damage.  my libido is dead. before wagecucking i did nfp november and when i was done i came twice in ten miutes. did it s year later and after not jerking off for a month it took me 20 minutes to cum.  was in the forest in mid2020 when i realized i didn't feel like i was really there.  used to be lightning fast at mental math. still can do it but i'm slower.  used to be able to do hard mode leetcoding and at least get close to the answers.  now i can't.  i used to have ideas pouring out of me at work and had to fill a notebook with them for my various creative pursuits.  now it's all just one steady hum.
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