▁her . ▁Elizabeth ▁looked ▁for ▁emot ional ▁sol ace ▁elsewhere . ▁She ▁first ▁found ▁refuge ▁for ▁her ▁l onel iness ▁in ▁a ▁close ▁int imate ▁friendship ▁with ▁the ▁beautiful ▁Count ess ▁Gol ov ina . ▁Later , ▁she ▁started ▁a ▁rom antic ▁l ia ison ▁with ▁Alexander ' s ▁best ▁friend , ▁the ▁dash ing ▁and ▁clever ▁Polish ▁prince , ▁Adam ▁Cz art ory ski . ▁Their ▁relationship ▁last ed ▁for ▁three ▁years . ▁ ▁After ▁more ▁than ▁five ▁years ▁of ▁a ▁child less ▁marriage , ▁on ▁ 2 9 ▁May ▁ 1 7 9 9 , ▁Elizabeth ▁gave ▁birth ▁to ▁a ▁daughter , ▁Grand ▁Duch ess ▁Maria ▁Alexand rov na . ▁At ▁court , ▁some ▁attributed ▁the ▁pat ern ity ▁to ▁the ▁Polish ▁prince . ▁The ▁child ▁had ▁black ▁hair ▁and ▁dark ▁eyes ▁and ▁at ▁the ▁bapt ism , ▁Ts ar ▁Paul ▁I ▁did ▁not ▁fail ▁to ▁express ▁his ▁amaz ement ▁that ▁two ▁bl onde , ▁blue - ey ed ▁parents ▁had ▁had ▁a ▁dark - ha ired ▁child . ▁Elizabeth ▁Alex e iev na ▁soon ▁lost ▁both ▁her ▁lo ver ▁and ▁her ▁daughter . ▁Adam ▁Cz art ory ski ▁was ▁sent ▁on ▁a ▁diplom atic ▁mission , ▁and ▁Elizabeth ' s ▁baby ▁daughter ▁did ▁not ▁live ▁long . ▁" As ▁of ▁this ▁morning , ▁I ▁no ▁longer ▁have ▁a ▁child , ▁she ▁is ▁dead " ▁she ▁wrote ▁to ▁her ▁mother ▁on ▁▁ 2 7 ▁July ▁ 1 8 0 0 . ▁" Not ▁an ▁hour ▁of ▁the ▁day ▁passes ▁without ▁my