▁of ▁songs ▁he ▁wrote . ▁He ▁also ▁received ▁occas ional ▁psych iat ric ▁treatment ▁for ▁de press ive ▁episodes . ▁During ▁a ▁ 2 0 0 7 ▁interview ▁Ste ele ▁explained :" I ' ve ▁always ▁been ▁a ▁very ▁de pressed ▁person , ▁but ▁that ' s ▁only ▁one ▁side ▁of ▁me , ▁you ▁know . ▁It ▁makes ▁me ▁feel ▁better ▁when ▁I ▁can ▁express ▁my ▁de pression , ▁my ▁anger , ▁my ▁fr ustration ▁through ▁music ▁... ▁son ic ▁ther apy ." ▁ ▁In ▁April ▁ 2 0 0 7 , ▁Ste ele ▁revealed ▁that ▁he ▁began ▁ident ifying ▁himself ▁as ▁Roman ▁Catholic ▁in ▁recent ▁years , ▁after ▁dec ades ▁of ▁self - prof essed ▁at he ism . ▁In ▁an ▁interview ▁with ▁De ci bel ▁magazine , ▁Ste ele ▁explained : ▁" There ▁are ▁no ▁at he ists ▁in ▁fo x hol es , ▁they ▁say , ▁and ▁I ▁was ▁a ▁fo x hole ▁at he ist ▁for ▁a ▁long ▁time . ▁But ▁after ▁going ▁through ▁a ▁mid life ▁crisis ▁and ▁having ▁many ▁things ▁change ▁very ▁quickly , ▁it ▁made ▁me ▁realize ▁my ▁mort ality . ▁And ▁when ▁you ▁start ▁to ▁think ▁about ▁death , ▁you ▁start ▁to ▁think ▁about ▁what ' s ▁after ▁it . ▁And ▁then ▁you ▁start ▁hoping ▁there ▁is ▁a ▁God . ▁For ▁me , ▁it ' s ▁a ▁fright ening ▁thought ▁to ▁go ▁now here . ▁I ▁also ▁can ' t ▁believe ▁that ▁people ▁like ▁St alin ▁and ▁Hitler ▁are ▁g onna ▁go ▁to ▁the ▁same