▁ab use ▁and ▁Ste ele ' s ▁sense ▁of ▁having ▁killed ▁part ▁of ▁himself ▁after ▁suffering ▁a ▁re lapse . ▁" Tri pping ▁a ▁Bl ind ▁Man " ▁is ▁a ▁di atri be ▁on ▁how ▁Ste ele ▁felt ▁after ▁his ▁invol unt ary ▁commit ment ▁was ▁brought ▁about ▁by ▁his ▁family . ▁" H all owe en ▁in ▁Heaven " ▁is ▁a ▁song ▁about ▁dead ▁rock st ars ▁that ▁Ste ele ▁was ▁inspired ▁to ▁write ▁by ▁the ▁death ▁of ▁his ▁close ▁friend ▁D ime bag ▁Dar rell . ▁Ste ele ' s ▁final ▁live ▁performance ▁was ▁on ▁Hall owe en ▁night ▁at ▁Har pos ▁Con cert ▁Theatre ▁in ▁Detroit , ▁Michigan , ▁the ▁last ▁show ▁of ▁Type ▁O ▁Neg ative ' s ▁ 2 0 0 9 ▁tour . ▁ ▁Further ▁appearances ▁ ▁Play g irl ▁Following ▁the ▁success ▁of ▁Blo ody ▁K isses , ▁Ste ele ▁began ▁to ▁receive ▁attention ▁outside ▁of ▁music . ▁He ▁appeared ▁as ▁a ▁n ude ▁center fold ▁of ▁Play g irl ▁in ▁ 1 9 9 5 . ▁Ste ele ▁later ▁found ▁out ▁via ▁band mate ▁Ken ny ▁H ic key ' s ▁contacts ▁that ▁only ▁ 2 3 % ▁of ▁the ▁magazine ▁subscri bers ▁were ▁female , ▁and ▁after ▁being ▁asked ▁by ▁men ▁to ▁sign ▁copies ▁of ▁the ▁magazine , ▁Ste ele ▁somewhat ▁reg rett ed ▁the ▁decision : ▁" After ▁I ▁did ▁it , ▁I ▁thought , ▁' Oh ▁my ▁God , ▁what ▁did ▁I ▁do ?' ▁It ▁was ▁more ▁than ▁ups et ting ▁that