▁Sk etch es ▁of ▁War ▁History , ▁ 1 8 6 1 – 1 8 6 5 , ▁vol ▁ 4 , ▁entitled ▁My ▁First ▁Day ▁Under ▁Fire ▁at ▁Sh il oh , ▁which ▁he ▁presented ▁to ▁the ▁C inc inn ati ▁Chapter ▁of ▁the ▁Military ▁Order ▁of ▁the ▁Lo yal ▁Leg ion . ▁ ▁During ▁the ▁battle ▁Daw es ▁witness ed ▁App ler ▁lose ▁his ▁n erve ▁when ▁the ▁fighting ▁became ▁inten se ▁when ▁App ler ▁cried ▁out , ▁" ret re at , ▁and ▁save ▁your selves !" ▁even ▁though ▁his ▁men ▁were ▁winning ▁the ▁eng agement , ▁where ▁several ▁companies ▁turned ▁in ▁earnest ▁retre at . ▁App alled ▁and ▁sh aken ▁and ▁finding ▁App ler ▁at ▁the ▁front ▁of ▁a ▁great ▁battle , ▁Daw es , ▁risk ing ▁re per cuss ions , ▁curs ed ▁him ▁and ▁flat ly ▁exclaimed ▁to ▁App ler , ▁" Col onel , ▁I ▁will ▁not ▁do ▁it ! ", ▁where ▁App er ▁sp ang ▁to ▁his ▁feet ▁and ▁ran ▁away . ▁ ▁Many ▁of ▁the ▁troops ▁subsequently ▁retre ated , ▁but ▁upon ▁the ▁arrival ▁of ▁General ▁John ▁Mc Cl ern and , ▁he ▁ordered ▁them ▁back ▁and ▁had ▁them ▁form ▁a ▁line ▁with ▁his ▁division ▁near ▁the ▁Sh il oh ▁Chap el . ▁Daw es ▁in ▁his ▁account ▁said ▁the ▁fighting ▁at ▁that ▁point ▁became ▁" hot ▁and ▁heavy " ▁receiving ▁fire ▁from ▁a ▁nearby ▁Confeder ate ▁battery , ▁which ▁was ▁inf lic ting ▁heavy ▁losses ▁on ▁the ▁ 5 7 th ▁Ohio ▁inf