▁She ▁is ▁aware ▁of ▁her ▁reason ▁to ▁return , ▁which ▁she ▁writes , ▁▁ ▁She ▁revis its ▁the ▁landscape ▁of ▁the ▁island ▁and ▁adm its ▁the ▁need ▁to ▁revis it ▁its ▁beauty , ▁but ▁ultimately ▁has ▁returned ▁for ▁her ▁brother . ▁She ▁speak s ▁of ▁the ▁p ains ▁that ▁accompanied ▁her ▁anx iet ies ▁of ▁leaving ▁her ▁brother ▁and ▁the ▁years ▁they ▁have ▁was ted ▁being ▁apart ▁from ▁each ▁other ▁when ▁she ▁writes : ▁ ▁Her ▁poetry ▁life ▁reve als ▁the ▁per ils ▁of ▁her ▁child hood . ▁She ▁doesn ' t ▁st roll ▁down ▁memory ▁l ane ▁as ▁a ▁means ▁to ▁gl or ify ▁her ▁child hood ▁mem ories , ▁but ▁expl ores ▁the ▁complexity ▁of ▁her ▁past ▁and ▁how ▁it ▁was ▁marked ▁by ▁the ▁need ▁to ▁surv ive . ▁References ▁to ▁the ▁drug ▁culture ▁in ▁the ▁Car ib bean ▁arise , ▁as ▁her ▁memory ▁is ▁sh aped ▁by ▁her ▁father ▁and ▁his ▁add iction . ▁" The ▁R ott we iler " ▁is ▁a ▁poem ▁where ▁she ▁and ▁her ▁mother , ▁" search ed ▁par king ▁lots ▁where ▁one ▁" Could ▁trade ▁tur nt ables ▁for ▁a ▁fix ," ▁for ▁her ▁drug ▁add ict ▁father , ▁she ▁later ▁describes ▁as ▁" a ▁th ief ▁who ▁had ▁his ▁own ▁set ▁of ▁keys " ▁(" The ▁R ott we iler "). ▁ ▁Her ▁relationship ▁with ▁her ▁father , ▁and ▁her ▁feeling ▁of ▁connect / dis connect ▁with ▁him ▁is ▁shown ▁in ▁her ▁poem ▁" History ▁Sh el ves ". ▁Her ▁ske ptic ism