▁and ▁had ▁previously ▁believed ▁in ▁his ▁innoc ence , ▁was ▁task ed ▁with ▁attempting ▁to ▁secure ▁Phil by ' s ▁full ▁conf ession . ▁ ▁It ▁is ▁unclear ▁whether ▁Phil by ▁had ▁been ▁alert ed , ▁but ▁Ele an or ▁noted ▁that ▁as ▁ 1 9 6 2 ▁wore ▁on , ▁expressions ▁of ▁t ension ▁in ▁his ▁life ▁" bec ame ▁worse ▁and ▁were ▁reflected ▁in ▁b outs ▁of ▁deep ▁de pression ▁and ▁drink ing ". ▁She ▁re called ▁returning ▁home ▁to ▁Be ir ut ▁from ▁a ▁sight - see ing ▁trip ▁in ▁Jordan ▁to ▁find ▁Phil by ▁" h op eless ly ▁dr unk ▁and ▁in co her ent ▁with ▁gr ief ▁on ▁the ▁terra ce ▁of ▁the ▁flat ," ▁m our ning ▁the ▁death ▁of ▁a ▁little ▁pet ▁fo x ▁which ▁had ▁fallen ▁from ▁the ▁bal con y . ▁When ▁Nicholas ▁Elli ott ▁met ▁Phil by ▁in ▁late ▁ 1 9 6 2 , ▁the ▁first ▁time ▁since ▁Gol its yn ' s ▁defe ction , ▁he ▁found ▁Phil by ▁too ▁dr unk ▁to ▁stand ▁and ▁with ▁a ▁band aged ▁head ; ▁he ▁had ▁fallen ▁repeatedly ▁and ▁crack ed ▁his ▁sk ull ▁on ▁a ▁bath room ▁radi ator , ▁requiring ▁st itch es . ▁ ▁Phil by ▁told ▁Elli ott ▁that ▁he ▁was ▁" half ▁expecting " ▁to ▁see ▁him . ▁Elli ott ▁confront ed ▁him , ▁saying , ▁" I ▁once ▁looked ▁up ▁to ▁you , ▁Kim . ▁My ▁God , ▁how ▁I ▁desp ise ▁you ▁now . ▁I ▁hope